Pensive Feelings

A surge of emptiness crept into me after that movie. My best friend returned to her phone, ears plugged with buds, and the maddening silence returns. How do I continue living like this? I could listen to her pour herself out. But when it's my turn, hey, what do I get?

I just tried putting more of myself into the open. In this very short first episode, I would like you to look deeper into what I have been experiencing in a more raw way. No edits, just a little background music, and just a straight expression of what I've been feeling. Even for the next episodes, I don't plan to use any script nor any schedule. It's about a life record I can also look back on. An audio diary put out in the open. Also, I've written a lot already about my life and relationships in my blog: https://pensivefeels.com/blog. It's up to you to read all the entries so far. If you do, you'll have a fuller background of myself and probably a deeper grasp of your own pensive feelings.