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Steamy Stories Podcast
Summer of '65: Part 2A more enjoyable way to study sex ed.By...

Steamy Stories Podcast

Play Episode Listen Later Aug 6, 2022


Summer of '65: Part 2A more enjoyable way to study sex ed.By Slowandeasy47 - Listen to the Podcast at Steamy Stories.The summer seemed to be racing by with lots of glorious days just messing about in boats, shooting at tin cans in the sea, and occasionally visiting Jess' house, to swim in their pool which, mercifully, was a lot warmer than the lough.On one such occasion we were the only two there, as her family had gone out for the day. It was one of those beautiful days that only seem to happen when you are young. The sun blazed through the heavens and the sheltered area round the pool was baking.We occasionally jumped in the pool to cool off before returning to our sun loungers to work on our tans where Jess usually undid her top when lying on her stomach.“There is a fridge full of cokes in the pool house if you fancy one?” She suggested. I knew where it was, so I got up and wandered over, opened the door, and made my way to the giant American style fridge. I picked up two cokes, poured them into plastic pool glasses, before making my way back to the loungers.Jenna was naked!She was face down admittedly, tanning her back, but stark naked, just like she had been on our picnic trip.“I figured you wouldn't mind as it's nothing you haven't seen before, and a bum's just a bum,” she said with her mischievous smile and turned towards me to take the offered coke. As she did so, one pert breast, complete with little pink button nipple, escaped from its hiding place.“Ooops!” She said, tucking the offending mammary back under her. “You didn't see that did you.” It was more of a statement than a question.I knew better than to lie to the ever confident Jess, so I admitted that I had, which was quite obvious anyway from the rapid expansion taking place in my speedos, rendering me incapable of further speech.“Never mind it was only my breast.”Only! Only a breast! There was no only abut it. I had fantasised about Jess' breasts ever since our picnic. The image was to last a long while and, to hide the obvious swelling, I threw myself face down onto the sun lounger. It didn't take much to provoke an erection back then.“Get some sun on that bum. Take your trunks off!”“I'm OK thanks.”“Prude. Too prude to be nude! You should let Harry out for some fresh air occasionally!” And burst out laughing.I, of course, was now shamed into it and, very carefully, slid my trunks off. I cannot deny that it was a delicious feeling being naked outdoors again, the only problem being my erection.“Too hot for me! Swim time,” said the voice to my left. “And what's more, I'm not putting that lot on again just to get it wet.” She rolled so that she was facing away from me, stood up, and I watched that glorious rear view of the naked female form make its way to the water. I even got a flash of that mysterious place between her legs as she dove into the pool.Surfacing at the far end she called.“You just have to try this."It's the most invigorating experience ever!"If you're cowardy custard, I'll turn my back while you dive in."There's nothing to see once you're in anyway. The water is too rough."Come on in then Mr prude in the nude!”“Turn around then,” said my voice before I had time to stop it, as I rose to the bait of her dare. She turned and within seconds I, complete with fully erect Harry, were in the air, mid dive.I surfaced somewhat closer to her than I meant to, as my intention had been to stay at the other end, but I wasn't thinking straight. Hardly surprising seeing as it was only my second encounter with a naked woman and my first ever skinny dip. I hadn't even considered how we were going to get out.“Race you!”We raced. She won. Why? Maybe she was a better swimmer. Maybe the view up her thighs as she stroked out in front was irresistible. Maybe both! Either way we got to the shallow end out of breath and stood up in the waist deep water.“Ooops,” she said lowering her pert little breasts back into the water. “Forgot!”I'm not certain that she did and I certainly didn't, nor will I ever! Both beautifully formed breasts, displayed themselves to me, with their little pink nipples sticking out proudly due to the refreshingly cool water. I knew if I even touched my cock it would be game over.It is hard, from this perspective, to remember the eroticism of such seemingly simple things. Going braless happened only in the south of France, going topless, only in St Tropez. This was the start of the 60s, no porn, no internet, just Harrison Marks and imagination.Jenna tried her best to diffuse the situation by pretending not to notice and set off up the steps. I watched her bare back reemerge slowly from the water as she grasped the handles. I couldn't take my eyes off the two deliciously firm orbs of her buttocks as she climbed the steps. That vision will stay with me for ever. She reached the top step, stepped onto the tiles, looked over her shoulder, with her hands on her hips, as she stood their dripping.“Come on then!”“I think I'll stay in for a while.”“Don't be daft! Your teeth are chattering already. Come on. Don't be such a prude!”“I can't. Jenna, you're my friend, you're a wonderful girl, but you're naked and I'm naked and nature has taken over.”“You're not going to ravish me, are you?”“Of course not.”“Well that's a relief.” There was a hint of un-conveyed meaning in the way she said it. “I'll not look while you get to your towel.”She turned her back and I scrambled out, dashed for my towel and tried, in vain, to conceal Harry's obvious state of excitement. Meanwhile Jenna had managed to cover up with a towel as well.We decided that that was enough for one day and headed for the pool house and our clothes, swathed, modestly for the first time that afternoon, in large towels. As the door to the pool house closed behind me, Jenna turned and said.“If you're not going to ravish me, at least you might kiss me.”I couldn't believe it. Not because I didn't want to, but because I thought that any such move might ruin, what was for me, a nearly perfect relationship. I'd just been skinny dipping, for the first time and with a beautiful, confident and very sexy girl. My dreams had just become reality and my cock was still in awe.I moved in towards her and gave a, probably very amateur, attempt at a snog. She responded by opening her mouth, so I followed suit. Her tongue darted in and out of my mouth, so I followed again. The snog got more and more passionate as it got more and more competent. Our hands started to explore each other as her towel fell away.I felt one hand make its way down past my belly, as my towel also fell to the floor. I was in no doubt as to where it was going. For my part, I let my hand slide off her shoulder onto the front of her chest and from there down onto her breast. My other hand slid down the back of her petite frame and onto one of the delicious twin orbs of her toned buttocks.I've got one hand on my first ever female breast, the other on a naked buttock. The stimulation in my brain is going overboard. The kiss continued as her hand made its way inexorably southwards. Eventually it will reach my cock. Oh my god, the sensations, the anticipation and, then sadly, the disappointment.This was all too much for a first encounter. All those tales of young lads bonking for hours on their first shag are simply lies. She had only barely touched my cock when the inevitable happened. I ejaculated. I ejaculated in some style, but I still ejaculated and Harry started to soften.While trying to make some excuse for my rapid response, her hand grasped my wrist and lead it down between us, over the soft outward curve of her belly, towards the little forest of hair between her legs.“Rub me gently.” She broke from the kiss for just long enough to say and then our mouths joined again.My hand glided over her pubes and a finger slipped into the slick moistness of her excitement. I don't know what I expected, but nothing so delightfully slippery and exciting.“Slowly and softly.” Said the voice in my ear as she broke from the kiss again. I followed her lead and did as I was told. I sensed her excitement growing by the change in her breathing. Then I felt her nails dig into my shoulders as she breathed.“Even slower."Even gentler."Yes."Just like that.”Followed by a sigh and slight buckling of the knees.Seconds later a female voice shouted, “Hello in there.”“Oh shit. Shit. Shit. It's Paula. She often pops round for a swim on hot days. Quick.”We scrambled into our clothes as quickly as possible, the mood having been completely destroyed by our imminent discovery. As soon as we could we made our way outside, somewhat sheepishly.To my horror the discarded swim suits had been neatly folded and placed on a sun-lounger. Paula pointed at them accusingly!“Jenna, these were completely dry! Your hair is wet! You don't have to be Einstein to work out what's been going on. You just be bloody careful if you're going to play with big girls toys. I'm not ready to be aunty Paula yet.” She turned and marched off.Paula's words hit home hard.“I don't want to be aunty Paula.”I am quite sure she didn't, but I'm even more certain that Jenna didn't want to be a mother and I certainly didn't want to be a father. In that era it would have been a ‘had to get married' situation and my education was far from complete. Frankly it would have been a complete disaster for both of us, such were the attitudes of the day.What if Jenna had let me go a bit further and had been willing to actually have sex? There is no doubt that my young cock had definitely got the message. Could I have resisted if it had been on offer? We had both been pretty wound up, and I suspect that mother nature would have had her way. Erections don't think!Say we had just actually done it. Just imagine! The wait for the next period. What if it didn't come. Was she always regular, or could she sometimes just be late? These are not subjects we talked about in those days, unless of course, you had to.What about the future? Was it possible we were going to get into that situation again? Two sexually mature people playing with fire, or even Russian roulette. Nature pretty well guaranteed that we were going to hit the jackpot sooner or later. Not that I'm assuming Jenna would even allow it, but what if?I resolved to get hold of some condoms, or johnnies as they were known then, but how. We lived very remotely. The nearest village was within range but the pharmacist was a family friend, probably of her family as well. Even if I made sure he wasn't serving, could I face putting 'a packet of three' on the counter in front of his female assistant. I'd die of embarrassment.I could just imagine the conversation later in the chemist shop.“You know so and so's lad?”“Yea, him.”“Well he came in today and bought some, ahem, Durex.”“No! I wonder where he plans to use them.”“Well there's not much option down his way.”“You mean 'her'?”“Well, who else?”“She wouldn't though, would she? She's such a well brought up girl and I doubt she'd do it before she was at least engaged.”The cerebral cinema ran on and got more and more embarrassing with every imagined exchange. No I would have to make my purchase elsewhere.As luck would have it, my mother wanted to go shopping in a big town, well away from where we were known. She did show some surprise when I expressed an interest and wanted to go with her. Normally shopping and teenage boys do not go hand in hand.We arrived, parked the car, and arranged to meet again in a couple of hours. I eventually singled out a chemist shop as my target and walked in. I had only been round the shelves once to try to locate the 'johnnies' when a very attractive young lady came up and said.“Can I help you?”Oh fuck! I can hardly say I want a packet of johnnies. She'll know I'm planning to: well yes, to fuck. She was young, she was pretty. I didn't have time to register her ring fingers but probably not married and therefore almost certainly a virgin, and I wanted to buy contraceptives. The embarrassment. So I bought a tube of toothpaste and left. While I was paying I noticed the johnnies were all on the shelf behind the till, Durex, Featherlight and several others.OK, so maybe I'm going to have to actually ask! I don't recall how many other chemists I checked out that day, but the answer was always the same. They were all kept behind the till, so I would definitely have to ask.I eventually located a chemist with a middle aged lady serving. I thought, she doesn't know me and she'll never see me again, so what's the problem? I approached the till.“Yes, can I help?”Arggggg the agony of it!“A packet of featherlight please!”She turned round to 'that' shelf and said.“Three or twelve?”Twelve? TWELVE? I'm a virgin. I've never used one before. Twelve, you must be joking.“Mmm three please.”She reached for the packet and, mercifully, popped it into a little brown paper bag just as the next customer reached the counter. Did she see? Oh this is so embarrassing! Everyone in the world seems to know that I am planning to have a fuck. Can they tell that it's also going to be my first?Ironically I am not really 'planning' to fuck. I am pretty sure that Jenna won't allow it but, just in case, I'm prepared. Besides, how do I explain to her that I've got johnnies. The implication is surely that I am assuming she is 'that type of girl' and would probably never speak to me again. Why is life so complicated?The summer rolled on and, in spite of being nearly caught by Paula, we enjoyed each other's company at the pool and in the fields round about. Usually we stayed fully clothed or very nearly so, until one summer's afternoon when we took a picnic to some nearby ruins.We spread a picnic blanket on the lush, un-mowed grass and ate our sandwiches. As the heat of the sun and the effect of the food took its toll we lolled in the grass talking about this and that and nothing very much.“When do you head off for uni?” Was the reality check she came up with.“September.” I replied as I glanced across at her. Our eyes locked. She smiled showing her dimples to maximum effect. I leaned towards her, she leaned towards me, our eyes were still locked together as our lips met.It was one of those glorious kisses that went on for ages, tongues darting in and out of each other's mouths, hands starting to wander, exploring the secrets of each other's bodies. Palms running over the smooth curve of firm buttocks. Hoping to explore under a T shirt. Success! A soft warm breast. The pressure on the front of my trousers as her hand stroked my obvious erection.My hand made its way up her skirt. Hers found my zip. I ran my hand up her thigh all the way to the elasticised leg of her knickers. She unzipped me. My finger slid inside, to be greeted by the warm slipperiness of a sexually excited woman. My cock sprang free from its cotton prison. Then suddenly it all stopped as she broke the silence.“Paula's right you know."We must be careful."I really want to do it with you. I want you to be my first."But we can't unless…”“Unless I get 'something'?” I filled in the blank space.“Yes, until then.”I was way too embarrassed to admit I had 'something' already, although my throbbing cock and millions of years of evolution were aching to satisfy the urge to reproduce.“I will.” I whispered, relieved that the problem of why I had johnnies had gone away, but with a raging erection that had only one cure.We petted. We snogged. We explored each other. I rubbed her how she had showed me at the pool house that day. She played with my cock, pulling the foreskin back and forth really gently. It just got sexier and sexier. Then the inevitable happened. I ejaculated.“Next time.” She said. “I want to feel that inside. To know what it feels like.”“Next time.” I repeated.We tidied up, trying our best to remove the semen from her skirt. We eventually hit on the idea of coke. It would leave a worse mark and so be a reason for the skirt being in the wash after only one wear.I went home and put the pack of Featherlight back in its hiding place, keeping one tucked under my pillow for a test run later. I read and re read the instructions.Tear open the foil packet.Check the condom has the ridge on the outside.Pinch the tip closed to make room for the semen.Roll it on to the penis.After sex, withdraw immediately holding the condom on the penis.Discard the used condom.When I went to bed I removed the packet from under my pillow. A few thoughts of Jenna's soft breast and wet panties had me hard in no time. I pinched the end and rolled it on.So far so good! A few gentle strokes later while reminiscing about Jenna's gloriously slippery sex and bingo. A condom full of semen. I now saw why you pinched the end, it was distended with the evidence of my pleasure.I removed it and made my way to the loo, chucked it in and flushed. Luckily I waited to check all was well because it floated! It was still there! Several more attempts produced the same result.I cannot leave it there! In the end I fished it out, wrapped it in a few sheets of loo roll and tried again: success! This learning curve was getting very steep.Jenna and I decided to set a date, and a scene. There was to be no fumbling about in the back seat of a car, we were planning to do it properly, in a bed, but where, how, when? I carried my remaining two johnnies with me whenever we were together, just in case.We had several false starts, usually abandoned for fear of discovery, and once because our foreplay was just more stimulation than I could handle. It's hard to recall just how stimulating it is having your cock rubbed by a gorgeous, near naked, girl that you are planning to have sex with, while enjoying the slippery sensation of your hand between her thighs. I didn't know it was called premature ejaculation at that time, I just know it got so bloody exciting that I came before I even got the johnny on.Eventually the great day came. We knew we would be undisturbed for a couple of hours, so we made our way to Jenna's room. We cleared her bed of all the usual trappings of adolescence and fell into a deep embrace.There was fumbling for sure. I couldn't master her bra catch, even once I had managed to remove her T shirt. She came to the rescue and snapped it open allowing my probing hand access to her pert, warm, breasts. Her skirt was easier and the elastic didn't put up much resistance. Now she is lying on top of the bedding clad only in her white cotton panties.I gazed on in awe, and I have to confess to having a fetish about white cotton panties to this day, they feature in many of my fantasies.I managed to strip down to my pants, very inelegantly, as we snogged and caressed each other. She allowed my hand to slip over her navel and into the waist band. Heaven.My hand continued its journey southwards. Hair. More heaven.As I continued my lust fuelled journey, my finger slid into the most divide between her legs. This is more than heaven. She meanwhile had eased my pants over my erection, very carefully, ever mindful of the previous disaster.Gently and deliciously we removed each other's final item of clothing. My memory of sliding off her white cotton panties, as she lifted her bottom willingly off the bed to help, and my hand sensing the taut flesh of her naked buttocks, is one of my most cherished. Eventually we were both totally naked, but this time with the express intention of having sex.“Let's do it.” She whispered in my ear, “I want to feel it inside.” I fumbled with the foil packet. It was much harder to put on lying next to a naked girl than it had been in my room. I managed to remember to squeeze the end to make room for the inevitable, and returned to our embrace.Somehow my totally inexperienced cock knew exactly what to do. I rolled gently on top of her and as my cock found that sacred space between her legs I felt it slide gently in. There is nothing sexier than that moment. The sliding sensation, as every nerve in your cock prepares for the climax..Then I felt it start.Oh no! I managed only a few gentle thrusts, then I came! Shit! Shit! Shit. I continued, as best I could, with a rapidly softening cock, but clearly it was not the success that modern porn films would have you believe, besides I had to get the johnny off before….well just before.We kissed and cuddled some more and, much to my delight and her careful handling, Harry came back to life. Much more confident now, I started to rub her very gently as she massaged Harry. Harry hardened readily as I enjoyed the sensations of stroking her moist, excited, free flowing, sex.I reached for the last foil packet. Tore it open. Checked it for inside out or right side in. Pinched the end and rolled it on. This time there was no disaster. Harry slipped easily into her moist haven.She gasped as I started a rhythmic motion in and out. The sensation was just totally beyond anything I had ever experienced. We locked eyes and stared into each other's souls. It wasn't a stud performance, but it wan't a disaster either. We grew up at that moment, we both became the sexual beings that destiny had mapped out for us. We didn't just fuck, we actually made love.By Slowandeasy47 for Literotica

Thrilling Tales of Modern Capitalism
What Next TBD; The Homes We Forgot to Build a Decade Ago

Thrilling Tales of Modern Capitalism

Play Episode Listen Later Aug 5, 2022 28:33 Very Popular


The US has been in a housing shortage for decades. Can it ever be fixed? Guest: Conor Dougherty Host: Emily Peck Learn more about your ad choices. Visit megaphone.fm/adchoices

What Next | Daily News and Analysis
TBD | The Homes We Forgot to Build a Decade Ago

What Next | Daily News and Analysis

Play Episode Listen Later Aug 5, 2022 28:33 Very Popular


The US has been in a housing shortage for decades. Can it ever be fixed? Guest: Conor Dougherty Host: Emily Peck Learn more about your ad choices. Visit megaphone.fm/adchoices

If Then | News on technology, Silicon Valley, politics, and tech policy

The US has been in a housing shortage for decades. Can it ever be fixed? Guest: Conor Dougherty Host: Emily Peck Learn more about your ad choices. Visit megaphone.fm/adchoices

Slate Daily Feed
What Next TBD: The Homes We Forgot to Build a Decade Ago

Slate Daily Feed

Play Episode Listen Later Aug 5, 2022 28:33


The US has been in a housing shortage for decades. Can it ever be fixed? Guest: Conor Dougherty Host: Emily Peck Learn more about your ad choices. Visit megaphone.fm/adchoices

WBUR News
Consider This: Shakespeare on the Common and other things to do this weekend

WBUR News

Play Episode Listen Later Aug 5, 2022 13:44


Forgot to make weekend plans? We got you. WBUR City Space assistant director Candice Springs joins Consider This host Darryl C. Murphy for some entertainment and dining suggestions that will help you make the most of your weekend. 

Trumpcast
What Next TBD: The Homes We Forgot to Build a Decade Ago

Trumpcast

Play Episode Listen Later Aug 5, 2022 28:33


The US has been in a housing shortage for decades. Can it ever be fixed? Guest: Conor Dougherty Host: Emily Peck Learn more about your ad choices. Visit megaphone.fm/adchoices

The Secret History of the Future
What Next TBD: The Homes We Forgot to Build a Decade Ago

The Secret History of the Future

Play Episode Listen Later Aug 5, 2022 28:33


The US has been in a housing shortage for decades. Can it ever be fixed? Guest: Conor Dougherty Host: Emily Peck Learn more about your ad choices. Visit megaphone.fm/adchoices

Beards, Books, and Bourbon Podcast
"What We Forgot About the Sea of Tranquility" - Oopsisode

Beards, Books, and Bourbon Podcast

Play Episode Listen Later Aug 5, 2022 15:57


They always forget something!  Listen as Stephen and Mark talk about what they forgot to talk about in "The Sea of Tranquility" by Emily St. John Mandel.  In this oopsisode, they will revisit Chatinooga Whiskey.

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Flight + Chris Forgot Adnan's Birthday

Cinephile with Adnan Virk

Play Episode Listen Later Aug 4, 2022 46:43 Very Popular


The Last Movie Stars. Using social media to remember birthdays. Aaron Boone's birthday gift for Adnan. Shake Shack vs In-N-Out. Do you feel bad for Joey Gallo? How many Paul Newman movies has Chris seen? Newman's Own salad dressing. Flight. A wild Uma Thurman/Quentin Tarantino story. Adnan is joined by Aamir Khan to discuss his film, Laal Singh Chaddha, the retelling of the Academy Award-winning motion picture, Forest Gump. Learn more about your ad choices. Visit megaphone.fm/adchoices

John & Tammy in the Morning on KSON
Producer Jessica and Her Husband Forgot Their Anniversary

John & Tammy in the Morning on KSON

Play Episode Listen Later Aug 4, 2022 5:03


Four years ago today, Producer Jessica and her husband got married during their son's baby shower as a complete surprise to everyone attending. You would think it would be easy to remember a day as big as that right? Turns out not so much. They BOTH forgot their anniversary was coming up and when they realized it made no plans to celebrate. Is this a bad sign? 

Silver Screen Video
Episode 140: Someone forgot to watch the movie

Silver Screen Video

Play Episode Listen Later Aug 3, 2022 59:59


In this episode we talk about what we've been watching. Let us know what you guys think. Link is below for all our social media. https://linktr.ee/silverscreenvideo Thanks for stopping by. Feel free to email at silverscreenvideopodcast@gmail.com with any comments or thoughts. Also be sure to follow us on Instagram @silverscreenvideopodcast or Twitter @SilverVideo --- Send in a voice message: https://anchor.fm/silverscreenvideo/message Support this podcast: https://anchor.fm/silverscreenvideo/support

IGN Daily Update
Tuesday, August 2nd - Sony Is Killing the PS5 Launch Feature Everyone Forgot About

IGN Daily Update

Play Episode Listen Later Aug 2, 2022 3:41


IGN Daily News brings you the latest and most popular news stories to audio platforms. Be sure to check out IGN.com for more details on the news and our latest coverage on games, movies, tv, science, and tech throughout the day!

iHeartRadio Presents: The Filter
Chelsea Cutler FORGOT her Clothes At Lollapalooza! Defining herself musically, Online Toxicity

iHeartRadio Presents: The Filter

Play Episode Listen Later Aug 2, 2022 7:39


Chelsea Cutler sits down for an interview with iHeartRadio's Shannon Burns (in her pyjamas) after forgetting her clothes at Lollapalooza! Chelsea tells Shannon that she is starting to think about how she wants to be defined musically. Chelsea and Shannon talk about coming out and queer representation, and the toxicity online and in social media!

Abdul Wahab Saleem
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Play Episode Listen Later Aug 1, 2022 52:01


Interior Integration for Catholics
I Am a Rock: How Trauma Hardens us Against Being Loved

Interior Integration for Catholics

Play Episode Listen Later Aug 1, 2022 75:49


  Summary:  Real love (agape) is given freely -- but it is not received freely in our fallen human condition.  Join me in this episode as we discuss the costs of opening our hearts to loveand the price of being loved fully, of being loved completely, in all of our parts.  We review why so many people refuse to be loved -- and we examine the psychological and human formation reasons for turning away from love.  Finally we discuss what we can do to get over our natural-level impediments to receiving love.   Lead-in  I am a rock I am an island I've built wallsA fortress deep and mightyThat none may penetrateI have no need of friendship -- friendship causes painIt's laughter and it's loving I disdainI am a rock I am an island I am a rock -- Paul Simon wrote it in 1965 and Simon and Garfunkel  Released it as a single in 1966, and it rose to #3 on the charts -- why because it resonated with people.  It was popular because it spoke out loud what many people's parts feel.   The desire to become a rock, the impulse to build the walls, to keep everyone out, to repudiate love and laughter, to not need anything or anyone.    Kate McGahan -- untitled poem   I don't need anyone, I said.Then you cameI need I need! I NEED YOU. I needed you.What did you teach me?Not to need you.NOT TO NEED. -  I don't want to be in love, anymore. I just want to be left alone. And no, I am not depressed or something. No suicide is happening here... I am fine. Trust me. Sharmajiassamwale So you want love.  But you also don't want love.  But you want love.  But you don't.  You do.  You don't.  You're conflicted.  How do you understand this conflict within you?  Can you and I understand this push-pull, this attraction - avoidance, this Yes and No within us more clearly.  Yes we can.  And we must.  Or we will wind up always skating along the edge of love, never really entering in.  And there are consequences for that -- and no one put it more succinctly than the English poet and playwright Robert Browning, who said: “Without love, our earth is a tomb”   Intro We do want to be loved, but we don't.  Why?  Because we want the benefits of love, but we don't want the costs   The Benefits To love and be loved is to feel the sun from both sides.  David Viscott  If you don't have that memory of being loved, you are condemned to search the world for something to fill you up. -- Michael Jackson The costs.  Real love is given freely, but it is not received freely in this fallen world.   Almost no one talks about the costs of being loved.  I find that so strange.  People don't think this way.  There are costs to receiving love, to accepting love, to allowing love in to our hearts.   It's painful to be loved in this fallen world.  this is not well understood by many people, especially those who are not in touch with trauma, or who haven't suffered as much as others Bernard Brady's 2003 book "Christian Love: How Christians Through the Ages have Understood Love  Second sentence of the book, in the preface:  "Loving seems entirely natural and being loved seems wonderfully good." Not to many people RCC member -- so glad you can discuss tolerating being loved.     Real love -- Agape -- burns away things that are sinful within us -- it doesn't coexist with the vice within us. Bernard Brady: Christian Love, p. 16:  "…love transforms those who love and those who are loved."   Every true love and friendship is a story of unexpected transformation. If we are the same person before and after we loved, that means we haven't loved enough.”   ― Elif Shafak, The Forty Rules of Love Change is scary “Taking a new step, uttering a new word, is what people fear most.”― Fyodor Dostoevsky, Crime and Punishment    Real love also purifies us from anything that is not morally wrote, but that is disordered or dysfunctional or imperfect Real love is the greatest good.  And because it's the greatest good, it requires us to give up lesser goods.  Perceived good and actual goods.   Coping strategies, crutches that helped us in the past Analogy of the safe -- limited room, silver and gold.  Vulnerability I will lose what I have I will lose to possibility of being loved in the future I don't want to find out I am unlovable.  I can't bear that.    Because for love to be real, for love to be agape means me allowing you to love all of me.  All my parts.  My entire being Not just the acceptable parts of me in the shop window, those that I allow others to see.   The greatness of the adventure of loving can be intimidating Love, in some sense, is nothing other than an invitation to great joy and suffering, so they shy away from it.  Paul Catalanotto Refusal to love is also refusal to live  The Catholic Weekly  Dietrich von Hildrebrand those who "wish to linger with small joys in the state of harmless happiness … in which they feel themselves to be master of the situation … lacking any element of surprise or adventure.   Let's go on this adventure of being loved and loving together.  I want you to come with me into the themes of this podcast.  I want you to really engage with what I'm presenting to you.  Not just listen like the Athenians listened to Paul about the resurrection of the dead.  Acts 17:32: Now when they heard of the resurrection of the dead, some mocked; but others said, “We will hear you again about this.”  But they weren't really that interested.  Only a few of the Athenians joined him.  Stay with me in this Episode 96 of Interior Integration for Catholics, released on August 1, 2022, and titled "I Am a Rock: How Trauma Hardens us Against Being Loved" I am Dr. Peter Malinoski, clinical psychologist, passionate Catholic and I am very pleased that we can share and engage with this information. Why do I think being loved is so important?   First because receiving love is absolutely essential.  It is our starting point in the spiritual life.  And second, because most people will not realxly allow themselves to be loved. Psychiatrist and Harvard Professor George Valliant wrote:  It's very hard, for most of us to tolerate being loved.-- That's been my experience as well.  The vast majority of people have chosen to severely limit how much love they will let in, how much love they will tolerate.   You can't love unless you are willing to be loved.   1 John 4:19:  We love because he first loved us  Look at the order here.  God loved us first.  We can't generate any love on our own.  We can reflect love, we can channel love, but we can't create love out of nothing like God can.  We have to cooperate in love and be open to love in order to love, in order to follow the two great commandments.   That is what this Interior Integration for Catholics podcast is all about -- it's about preparing the way for you to have a much deeper, richer and much more intimate relationship with God in the three Person of the Trinity -- Father, Son and Holy Spirit, and with the Blessed Virgin Mary our Mother.  A deep, personal relationship with God and Mary.  That's what  I want from you.  And if you won't tolerate taking in real love, if you deprive yourself of real love, you are going to wind up in a de facto hell on earth.  The most miserable people on earth are the loveless people -- loveless not because no one will love them -- but loveless because they actively or passively reject love.  And so many people do that.   And there are spiritual consequences to cutting ourselves off from real love.  Our heart become small, they become hard, they become closed, they become fearful, they fester in wounds.  And if we persist in refusing to be loved and to love, there is no other place for us to be in the afterlife than in hell.  That's what I think hell is -- a place for those who have refused love.  That's how serious all of this is.  Eternal consequences of the highest order.    Hallmark Movie Love What so many of our parts really want is what I call Hallmark movie love -- in Latin, this is rendered "Lovus Hallmarkius"  Hallmark love.  Yes, I've given it a ridiculous translation, but that because Hallmark love is not only a ridiculous concept, it's a dangerous one.  I mean it.  Really Dr. Peter -- all those sweet, feel-good Christmas movies?  What are you some kind of grinch, to criticize Hallmark movies?  I mean really, come on.. That's a bit much.  Hear me out, hear me out.   What is Hallmark love -- love is always just around the corner, painless, fun.  They are delightful.  Love is so gratifying and enjoyable, love takes away suffering. Clean and tidy.   It's a myth.  The Hallmark company is selling illusions.  Their movie production arm is peddling falsehoods about love to an audience who wants what they are offering to be true.  But it isn't.   Kristine Brown captured this theme in her online article Living in a Hallmark Movie  December 11, 2015  I want to live in a Hallmark movie.  I want to walk down the cobblestone Main Street into the corner coffee shop where everyone greets you with a smile and a Merry Christmas. I want to move to a new town where you immediately become acquainted with everyone and your child makes instant friends at school and there's always time to bake Christmas cookies and decorate trees and drink hot cocoa with peppermint sticks. I want to live in a Hallmark movie. I want to walk my child to school holding hands and have him tell me how much he loves me and what a great mom I am. I want to live where kids don't make bad choices and parents don't make mistakes. Where the toughest decision is whether to stay in the small town where you grew up or chase after a promising dream in the big city. Where things always just work out. And the movie always ends with a kiss from your true love and snow. Always snow. But life isn't a Hallmark movie, not even close. Example of the life of Christ -- the greatest lover ever, who died in making the greatest act of love ever, and it was nothing like a Hallmark movie.  We assume that we want love -- and we do.  Or parts of us do Made for love and in love -- That's a beautiful line in the Litanies of the Heart, written by Dr. Gerry for Souls and Hearts -- "Lord Jesus, you created me in love, for love."   Colossians 3:14  And above all these put on love, which binds everything together in perfect harmony.   Discussion of Parts Reference Episode 71: A New and Better Way of Understanding Myself and Others   Definition of Parts:  Separate, independently operating personalities within us, each with own unique prominent needs, roles in our lives, emotions, body sensations, guiding beliefs and assumptions, typical thoughts, intentions, desires, attitudes, impulses, interpersonal style, and world view.  Each part also has an image of God and a whole religion developed around its understanding of God, self, and the relationship between God and self.   Parts have different roles within the self system.  Narrow slice of experience, very limited vision.   Some parts don't care about being loved.  They are focused on never being hurt like that again.  They are focused on protection from harm, defending the self system against threats from others, very protective.  IIC 89:  Your Trauma, Your Body: Protection vs. Connection Conflict “I wished I didn't need an ocean of space to feel comfortable. I still wanted to be loved. Yet again I felt like two people: one who desperately needed a hug, and one who would break apart at the slightest touch. How could I get people to keep their distance without leaving completely? How long would it take for them to get tired of the way I flinched and evaded?” ― Ruby Walker, Advice I Ignored: Stories and Wisdom from a Formerly Depressed Teenager   Using a metaphor to describe how trauma hardens us against being loved  Overview Roots = unresolved trauma  Single trunk -- shame  Five Main stems -- acronym CRIES -- as in cries for help.    C R I E S -- Each of these main stems is driven by shame in the trunk, shame that results from the unresolved trauma in the roots.   Cognitions Relationships Identity Emotions Spirituality Each main stem has branches -- branches that cross and interweave in this big bush  And the branches have fruits.   Roots -- Unresolved trauma This includes the original trauma, original sin.   Underground, not seen --  Check out Episodes 88 and 89 -- a lot about the nature of trauma in those episodes  Primary effect of unresolved trauma is shame.   Single Trunk -- Shame Discussed shame at great length in Episodes 37 to 49 of this podcast.  Definitions of shame in episode 37:  Shame is:  a primary emotion, a bodily reaction, a signal,  a judgement, and an action.   I encourage you to go through those episodes again -- really get a grip on shame, because understanding shame is the key to understanding almost all psychological dysfunction, and understanding shame is the key to really comprehending why you have difficulties with your human formation.  Can't stress that enough.   Shame -- the central role of shame. Issue of survival.  Life and death.  Deep assumptions that my shame is so bad that it will kill me.  Our protector parts assume they have a need to defend against our exiled parts that have burdens of shame -- protectors believe they have to keep the shame out of awareness, keep it buried, distant.  They don't know that we can work with shame and the parts that carry the shame in collaborative, cooperative, constructive ways.  Our protector parts don't know that shame can be resolved -- the burden of shame can be lifted and there can be healing.   “When you're a child trapped in a situation of physical or psychological deprivation, you learn shame as an efficient, elegant mechanism of survival: shame simultaneously shields you from the reality that danger is out of your control (since the problem is not that you're unloved and deprived; it's that you're Bad) and prevents you from doing or saying anything challenging that might provoke a threat.” ― Kai Cheng Thom, I Hope We Choose Love: A Trans Girl's Notes from the End of the World Go back and really get the shame piece of this.   Main Stems off the trunk:  Cognitions, Relationships, Identity, Emotions, Spirituality -- Acronym CRIES  Emotions  Stem:  Five aspects Grief, Anger, Fear, Flooding, Shutdown  -- GAFFS -- so many of these emotions are generated by the shame that results from unresolved trauma Love is affective -- Bernard Brady -- discussed this at length in episode 94  Love is a movement from your heart, your soul -- a movement from the innermost depths of your being.  From your core self.  So the emotions are intimately involved with love   Grief  Emotional reaction to deep sense of loss.   Sadness about what you don't have that you need.   Parts want to be seen and heard and known and loved by the one who might love you.  All of you wanting to be loved.  All of you wanting to be healed.  So parts surge up, wanting to come to the surface.   Parts that carry grief have never been loved -- never been connected with in an emotional way, never been included in relationship with your innermost self or with others.  Never been seen. Anticipatory Grief -- if I allow myself to be love, I could lose that love.  The one who loves me could die.     Fear -- this is an emotion that drives so much fleeing from love.  This really is the big one.   Philophobia -- fear of love  All of us have parts that fear love.  Being loved arouses anxiety because it threatens long-standing psychological defenses formed early in life in relation to emotional pain and rejection, therefore leaving a person feeling more vulnerable.  Robert Firestone Fears of being revealed Fears of vulnerability Fears of loneliness Fear of the unknown Fears of being hurt one more time -- like Charlie Brown and Lucy and the football, winding up flat on your back again. Fears of betrayal  Fears of abandonment So much of this fear is driven by shame.   All this fear is a barrier to being loved.   “To fear love is to fear life, and those who fear life are already three parts dead.”  Betrand Russell All the bruised lives, searching hearts ... Everyone wants a love story but few will risk what it takes to live one. - Donna Lynn Hope Flooding:  Emotional overwhelm -- flooding.  Emotions become all dysregulated. Hyperarousal -- moving into fight or flight mode.  Intensity of emotions because very great. Often because old emotions from previous unresolved trauma are welling up -- parts that carry the burden of intense emotions want to be seen, heard, known and understood, they no longer want to be exiled, banished into the unconscious -- they want a voice, they want relationship they want redemptions.  Paul Simon  Don't talk of loveWell I've heard the word beforeIt's sleeping in my memoryI won't disturb the slumber of feelings that have diedIf I never loved I never would have criedI am a rock I am an island  “Our biggest challenge is that we have an overwhelming desire for an extraordinary love story but low capacity to hold space for it in our nervous system.”  ― Lebo Grand Dietrich von Hildebrand:  Fear of losing oneself in intense joys or griefs   Anger So much of this anger is driven by fear driven by shame  Our protector parts can use anger to distract from fear and grief.   Behind every angry soul is a wounded child that just wanted you to love them for who they are. Shannon L. Alder  Shutting down Avoiding inner experiences is one of Nathanson's four defensive scripts for avoiding shame.   Hypoarousal -- moving down out of the window of tolerance to the freeze mode.   Example of an electrical panel, or breaker panel v-- metal box with a door down in the basement or utility closet  with the main and the circuit breakers   Fruit: We have a very difficult time tolerating being loved when we are not in our window of tolerance.  Fight or flight mode or freeze mode -- we move very much into self-protection, to a focus on survival, on just perpetuating our existence.   We're not open to love -- we've moved into survival mode, not seeking connection.   We're not open to God.    Fr. Jacques Philippe, Searching for and Maintaining Peace:  The more our soul is peaceful and tranquil, the more God is reflected in it, the more His grace acts through us.  On the other hand, if our soul is agitated and troubled, the grace of God is able to act only with much greater difficulty… God is a God of peace.  He does not operate except in peace, not in trouble and agitation.  We need that emotional regulation, that sense of being in our window of tolerance to be able to connect with God.  So many times fear is identified as a barrier   Fear as a result of shame drove Adam and Eve into the bushes -- hiding from God John 14:27:  Peace I leave with you; my peace I give to you; not as the world gives do I give to you. Let not your hearts be troubled, neither let them be afraid. Cognition Stem  Perceptions extremely sensitive to stimuli  Very vigilant -- scanning for threats in the environment   Negative self-talk I am unloved  I am unlovable  I don't deserved to be loved -- bred in families where there is conditional love -- unattainable ideals of perfection  I will be seen and I will see myself.   I might contaminate anyone who would love me with my badness.   I won't live up to the love.   Doubts fostered about goodness in the world, about the nature of others Skepticism about who actually makes the effort to love  Demanding perfection from others before trying again.  To have the chance of being loved we have to take a chance on being destroyed inside -- Jo Nesbo Pessimistic evaluation of the future No one will love me  I will be deceived, tricked and then betrayed, rejected, abandoned   Distractions Paul Simon:   I have my booksAnd my poetry to protect meI am shielded in my armor  Fruit we can dwell inwardly, on our own damage -- we can focus on our wounds.  Direct our attention to all the things that are wrong with us and pull inward -- self-absorption, ruminating and obsessing about our defects, curling up inside to protect ourselves, not letting anyone in.  So common.   Or we can reach out and embrace love anyway.  We can trust that parts of us may be seeing things inaccurately, thinking about things in ways that are distorted.   Identity Stem  Drawing from Robert Firestone's  Why Do So Many People Respond Negatively to Being Loved? article on psychalive.org  I am inadequate, unworthy of love “We accept the love we think we deserve.”– Stephen Chbosky   Being valued or seen in a positive light is confusing because it conflicts with the negative self-concept that many people form within their family.  Firestone Being loved can provoke an identity crisis  Firestone Your identity, at least for some of your parts, can be very bound up in being unloved and unloveable   Parts may not know who you are if you were loved -- such a radical change Very disconcerting to lose a sense of who I am, even if the identity is a negative one.   Comfort in the familiarity of the dysfunction I know -- so I accept and even seek out rejection and failure -- they are familiar and harmonize with my life narrative.   Deep sense of having to earn conditional love.  But that is not what love is about “Love is not concerned with a person's accomplishments, it is a response to a person's being: This is why a typical word of love is to say: I love you, because you are as you are.” ― Dietrich von Hildebrand, The Art of Living   Little or no ordered self-love -- we will be discussing ordered self love in the next episode.  One of Nathanson's four strategies to cope with shame is to attack the self.   Internal disconnects to survive the trauma -- horror of abuse  Love relationships pull for integration Love is never fragmented; it's an inseparable whole which does not delight in bits and pieces. John A. Andrews  And that integration will bring up the parts of ourselves that we have rejected as too scary, too unacceptable, too unlovable, too dangerous, too overwhelming, too much in some way to be allowed a seat at the table of our consciousness.   Takes a lot of courage to really be loved.   Ursula Wirtz, Trauma and Beyond: The Mystery of Transformation “I consider love to be the matrix for this transformation, which calls new being into existence. Love has the power to reawaken and bring to the fire what has been entombed or distorted by traumatic forces or has retreated out of defensiveness and self-protection. Without love and compassion for the fragility of human identity in the face of death and the reality of evil, the madness found in these barren spaces of the soul might not be meaningfully encountered. For the stripping away of the constricting cocoon of traumatic fixations and the untangling of what has become distorted and convoluted during painful traumatization, love is needed.”  ―  Fruit -- will we let our burdened parts define ourselves-- will we let those traumatized parts of us, and the parts that guard us from those traumatize parts be the ones to determine who we are -- with their limited vision and their narrow slice of experience -- or can we work gently with ourselves and allow ourselves to be seen through the eyes of those who do love us.   Relationship Love affirms the other, love responds to the other, love is unitive -- love is steadfast more of Bernard Brady's characteristics of Agape, of real love described in episode 94   Effects of Shame Lack of trust in others   Lack of confidence How bold one gets when one is sure of being loved. Sigmund Freud  Fear of exposure To myself  To the one who loves me   “To be deeply loved, means a willingness to cut yourself wide open, exposing your vulnerabilities... hopes, hurts, fears and flaws. Hiding behind the highlight reel of who you are, is the real you and that person is just as worthy of love. There is nothing more terrifying or fulfilling, than complete love, it's worth the risk... reach for it.”  ― Jaeda DeWalt Fear of rejection The fear of rejection makes sense: If we've had a steady diet of shame, blame, and criticism, we learned that the world is not a safe place. Something within us mobilizes to protect our tender heart from further stings and insults .The Hidden Reasons We Don't Let Love In  -- John Amodeo Ph.D., MFT   The one who loves me will hurt me. It's inevitable   Fruit in the Behaviors -- all focused around protection from the other leading to relationship sabotage Undue criticism of the other --you are not enough for me.  Withdrawal and isolation -- one of Nathanson's strategies for coping with shame. Paul Simon Hiding in my room safe within my wombI touch no one and no one touches meI am a rock I am an islandAnd a rock feels no painAnd an island never cries  Avoidance  Pursuing unavailable people I found myself in a pattern of being attracted to people who were somehow unavailable, and what I realized was that I was protecting myself because I equate the idea of connection and love with trauma and death.” ― Zachary Quinto Pushing others away Basically, love is scary when it contrasts with childhood trauma. In that situation, the beloved feels compelled to act in ways that hurt the lover: behaving in a punitive manner, distancing themselves and pushing love away.  Robert Firestone  “You push people away, Marley. You don't realise it, but you do. You close yourself off to anyone and anything that doesn't fit in your perfect little hamster ball of life. But you can't experience love only on your own terms. It doesn't work that way.”  ― Kate Lattey, Dream On Aggression -- Fueled by anger. Attacking others is one of Nathanson's four strategies of coping with shame.  Why do we attack?  We are afraid, we are struggling with shame.     “Those who love to be feared fear to be loved, and they themselves are more afraid than anyone, for whereas other men fear only them, they fear everyone.     St. Francis de Sales   Emotionally disconnecting from the relationship Out of anger. Harden my Heart -- 1982 Hit Sung by Quarterflash  … I'm gonna harden my heart, I'm gonna swallow my tears, I'm gonna turn and leave you here  Out of fear and shame   “Many freeze types unconsciously believe that people and danger are synonymous, and that safety lies in solitude. Outside of fantasy, many give up entirely on the possibility of love. The freeze response, also known as the camouflage response, often triggers the individual into hiding, isolating and eschewing human contact as much as possible. This type can be so frozen in retreat mode that it seems as if their starter button is stuck in the ‘off' position. It is usually the most profoundly abandoned child - ‘the lost child' - who is forced to ‘choose' and habituate to the freeze response… Unable to successfully employ fight, flight or fawn responses, the freeze type's defenses develop around classical dissociation.” ― Pete Walker Dietrich von Hildebrand -- shrinking away from commitment.   Difficulties receiving partial, incomplete, imperfect love -- as replacements for God's love Glazed carrots.  Side dish, not the main entrée.   Mother Angelica's Little Book of Life Lessons And Everyday Spirituality :  Allow people to love you as they must love you, not as you want them to love you. Even God does not love us as we wish Him to. Learning to love is learning to accept love as it comes   Spiritual Disconnecting from God, who is love.   Human beings must be known to be loved; but Divine beings must be loved to be known.  Blaise Pascal We to love God to know Him  And so we have to find him lovable -- and so often parts of us don't find him lovable.   Need for Faith and Hope -- Infused virtues.   To be loved but not known is comforting but superficial. To be known and not loved is our greatest fear. But to be fully known and truly loved is, well, a lot like being loved by God. It is what we need more than anything. It liberates us from pretense, humbles us out of our self-righteousness, and fortifies us for any difficulty life can throw at us. Timothy Keller everyone wants perfect love... no one wants to be a perfect lover... - Author: Brijesh Singh   Being loved by God is often even more difficult I John 4:8  "…God is love."  Issues around God images (IIC 23-29)  God is not as tangible, immediate  Transferences to God  Projections onto God.   Edward Vacek:  Love, Human and Divine: The Heart of Christian Ethics.  The sequence in loving and being loved.    (1) God affirms us; (2) God receives a; (3) we accept God's love; (4) we affirm God; (5) God forms community with us; (6) we cooperate with God in loving God in the world; and finally (7) we grow in a limited code responsibility with God. p.. 177 Problems with the sequence -- not tolerating enough contact with God  to be affirmed, to understand him in a totally different way.   1 John 4:19:  We love because he first loved us   Active vs. passive refusal to be loved.   Active refusals to be loved are more obvious Passive refusals to be loved are more common.   Five attachment tasks Felt sense of safety and protection -- have to go through the valley of shame, fear, anger, grief  Feeling seen, heard, known and understood -- have to tolerating being in relationship, being present.   Feeling comforted, soothed and reassured  Feeling cherished, treasured, delighted in   “If your parents' faces never lit up when they looked at you, it's hard to know what it feels like to be loved and cherished. If you come from an incomprehensible world filled with secrecy and fear, it's almost impossible to find the words to express what you have endured. If you grew up unwanted and ignored, it is a major challenge to develop a visceral sense of agency and self-worth.” ― Bessel A. van der Kolk, The Body Keeps the Score: Brain, Mind, and Body in the Healing of Trauma Feeling the other has your best interests at heart Love heals The more healthy relationships a child has, the more likely he will be to recover from trauma and thrive. Relationships are the agents of change and the most powerful therapy is human love. — Bruce D. Perry  “Love alone brings a human being to full awareness of personal existence. For it is in love alone that man finds room enough to be what he is.” ― Dietrich von Hildebrand, Man, Woman, and the Meaning of Love   “Trauma ruptures and hollows. Compassion mends and fills; love heals.” ― Na'ama Yehud There you have it from a trauma researcher, a philosopher, and a writer --  Example of Sr. Josephine Bakhita Born about 1869 in the village of Olgossa in the Darfur region of Sudan. She was a member of the Daju people  Uncle was a tribal chief, well-to-do family  At age 8, kidnapped by slave traders, forcerd to walk barefoot 600 miles to a slave market  Over the next 12 years, bought and sold many times, at least 12 times  Trauma of the abduction -- Forgot her given name in captivity -- consider that - - a loss of identity   Owners varied in their treatment of her.  Some were sadists  Family of  Turkish general Josephine wrote that as soon as one wound would heal, they would inflict another.  another woman drew patterns on her skin with flour, then cut into her flesh with a blade. She rubbed the wounds with salt to make the scars permanent. She would suffer a total of 114 scars from this abuse. A total of 114 intricate patterns were cut into her breasts, belly and into her right arm   I am definitively loved and whatever happens to me --  I am awaited by this Love.  Action Plan You gotta pray   Point is to focus on developing the relationship with the Persons of the Trinity and with Mary -- as a little child, a little son or daughter.   Litanies of the Heart - the Litany of the Closed Heart the litany of the fearful heart, the litany of the wounded heart.  Soulsandhearts.com/lit Books Intimacy in Prayer -- Personal Prayer:  A Guide for Receiving the Father's Love -- by Frs. Thomas Acklin and Boniface Hicks.  Fr. Jacques Philippe -- Time for God -- excellent guide for learning pray from a more relational perspective.  I also like Fr. Jacques Philippe's book The way of Trust and Confidence  Fr. Thomas Dubay -- Fire Within -- more of a Carmelite approach.  If you haven't been to confession recently, go.  If you feel like you can't go, I want to hear about it.   Calling all Catholic therapists and -- Interior Therapist Community is starting our fall groups.   80 therapists and graduate students in mental health fields in community -- each of us working on our own human formation, but not in isolation.  New Foundations experiential groups are forming -- and we have advanced groups.   2022 Webinar Series: Of Beams and Specks: Therapist-Focused Consultation - Peter Malinoski  $30 Soulsandhearts.com/itc -- call me at 317.567.9594 or email at crisis@soulsandhearts.com  Weekly reflection -- related to this podcast, delivered to your inbox every Wednesday --  We do get around to archiving them in the blog section of our website -- soulsandhearts.com/blog Conversation hours -- every Tuesday and Thursday from 4:30 PM to 5:30 PM Eastern Time call me at 317.567.9594 or email at crisis@soulsandhearts.com.  If I don't pick up, I'm on another call leave a voicemail.   Patroness and Patron.

Just Plain Filthy Podcast
#132 - The One where we recorded it on a Wednesday and I forgot to Upload it!

Just Plain Filthy Podcast

Play Episode Listen Later Aug 1, 2022 58:58


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You, Me and Jesus
I Forgot I Was On Assignment From God

You, Me and Jesus

Play Episode Listen Later Jul 31, 2022 26:04


When God has asked me to move to a different city, after a while he usually reveals why I am there.  Once I got settled in San Diego he started to tell me what I was being asked to do while I am here, and honestly I've been so amazed at living here that I forgot the reason... In todays episode you will hear me talk about what its like to be on assignment with God and what it looks like when you obey and disobey.  Cue the music lol

Glen Macnow & Ray Didinger on 94WIP
Eagles, Ray Diddy, What We Forgot

Glen Macnow & Ray Didinger on 94WIP

Play Episode Listen Later Jul 30, 2022 52:47


Glen and Mike talk to about the Eagles with Ray Didinger, check in on the other teams, find out what they forgot to talk about, and take your calls.

Region Unlocked
The Year Without an E3 (AKA, The Year Nintendo Forgot About)

Region Unlocked

Play Episode Listen Later Jul 29, 2022 60:32


We're kind of back! We have had a very busy summer and wanted to talk about the games announced (or lack thereof) and what we've been up to! Cameron went to Scotland to search for the Loch Ness Monster! Normal episodes should resume by the end of August!Big thanks to our new Patrons!Malik DLuke KJason HKatelyn HGet in touch: regionunlockedpodcast@gmail.comTwitter: https://twitter.com/RegionUnlocked Patreon: https://www.patreon.com/regionunlockedMusic:Intro- STARDUST by Alex-ProductionsVarious clips taken from the games Outro- More by KDACyberpunk Gaming Electro | STARDUST by Alex-Productions | https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCx0_...Music promoted by https://www.free-stock-music.comCreative Commons Attribution 3.0 Unported LicenseSupport the show

T.R.U.2
They forgot about Beats

T.R.U.2

Play Episode Listen Later Jul 29, 2022 2:18


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Ken Webster Jr
WJ_ 6AM_ BIDEN FORGOT HIS MEDICINE

Ken Webster Jr

Play Episode Listen Later Jul 28, 2022 38:21


Your Gardening Questions
Can I still plant summer bulbs that I forgot about?

Your Gardening Questions

Play Episode Listen Later Jul 26, 2022 2:50


Fred answers the question: Can I still plant summer bulbs that I forgot about?

Mojo In The Morning
Spike Forgot a Dinner Date He Planned

Mojo In The Morning

Play Episode Listen Later Jul 26, 2022 7:13


BustyBuffalo
BustyBuffalo Podcast Ep. 71 "I Forgot My Suit.."

BustyBuffalo

Play Episode Listen Later Jul 26, 2022 67:49


Enjoy the Pod. Love it. Hate it. Eat it. Consume it.    If ya liked it, support us please we are on food stamps. Lol esketit.  #comedy #smallchannel #podcasting   ALL THE MUSIC USED IN THE PODCAST IS PRODUCED AND MIXED PROFESSIONALLY BY ELWOA. CHECK HIM OUT ON INSTAGRAM AND SOUNDCLOUD.

Opposites Attract Podcast
OAP191: We Both Forgot Our 14 Year Anniversary and How We Have Celebrated in the Past

Opposites Attract Podcast

Play Episode Listen Later Jul 25, 2022 64:12


Miguel and Sonja talk about both of them forgetting their anniversary, what is really important in marriage and different ways they've celebrated in the past. Website http://www.oppositesattractpod.com Buy Us a Coffee https://www.buymeacoffee.com/oppositepod Android https://tinyurl.com/enz5h7ff iPhone https://tinyurl.com/s4r7f3 Social Media Links YT: https://tinyurl.com/cdmjfx6d FB: https://tinyurl.com/5y8pkkat Insta: https://tinyurl.com/3n6p68rv Twit: https://tinyurl.com/y2v8yrmj TikTok: https://vm.tiktok.com/ZM83rmJFo/ Intro: “Find a Way” by Lakey Inspired Outro: “Shoulder Closures” by Gunnar Olsen

HSBG Podcast
HSBG Podcast Episode 60

HSBG Podcast

Play Episode Listen Later Jul 25, 2022 93:53


Forgot to upload this one. Sorry #60

Mendham Hills
Seems Like God Forgot About Me // But God // John Isemann

Mendham Hills

Play Episode Listen Later Jul 25, 2022 46:47


Seems Like God Forgot About Me // But God // John Isemann by Sunday Podcast

The Manga Monday Show
We Forgot We Liked My Hero Academia | The Manga Monday Show #19

The Manga Monday Show

Play Episode Listen Later Jul 25, 2022 106:24


Welcome back to The Manga Monday Show! Ben and Edgar dive into hot topics such as the latest My Hero Academia chapter, the Cowboy Beebop Live Action series might get an Emmy, huge mangas returning from break, and another Dragon Ball Z film review. 00:00 Intro 02:52 What We've Been Up To Pt. 1 09:15 My Hero Academia Ch. 359 Discussion 39:31 What We've Been Up To Pt. 2 47:45 Plans For The Future 58:10 Live Action Yu Yu Hakusho Reveals Cast and More 1:02:35 Vinland Saga Season 2 To Stream On Crunchyroll 1:08:47 Oda's Final Saga Message For One Piece 1:19:12 Dragon Ball Z: Resurrection F Review

Glen Macnow & Ray Didinger on 94WIP
Dave Zangaro, Tortorella, What We Forgot

Glen Macnow & Ray Didinger on 94WIP

Play Episode Listen Later Jul 23, 2022 45:36


The final hour of the show. Dave Zangaro joins. We tell Tortorella to shut up.

WSJ Your Money Briefing
People Are Missing Monthly Payments…Because They Forgot

WSJ Your Money Briefing

Play Episode Listen Later Jul 20, 2022 9:46 Very Popular


Although most people know when their financial commitments, like loan payments, are due each month, many are missing their payments because they simply forgot. WSJ personal-finance reporter Veronica Dagher joins host J.R. Whalen to discuss why behavioral economists say this is happening, and steps people can take to get back on track. Learn more about your ad choices. Visit megaphone.fm/adchoices

Rated R Safety Show
What They Forgot To Tell You

Rated R Safety Show

Play Episode Listen Later Jul 19, 2022 81:54


Today during our main story, we discuss the important stuff you are not told about the safety industy.

Achtung! Millwall Podcast
Neil n' Nick's Summer Millwall History Show: 1950 the ground closure we forgot and ... pre-season trial games

Achtung! Millwall Podcast

Play Episode Listen Later Jul 19, 2022 28:23


Only at Millwall can you miss a ground closure, but that is indeed what we did on our recent edition examining the incidents of 1920, 1934, 1947 and 1978. But ... we missed out a week's closure in 1950 following a controversial FA Cup tie versus Exeter City. Remiss or what? With our historian reputation in tatters, Neil also looks at the lost world of pre-season 'trial' matches ...Arrivederci Millwall Nickachtungmillwall@gmail.com See acast.com/privacy for privacy and opt-out information.

The Signal
The boatloads of asylum seekers Australia forgot

The Signal

Play Episode Listen Later Jul 19, 2022 10:43


One of the first things the Albanese government did when it came to power was to allow a Tamil family to return to the central Queensland town of Biloela.  That decision focused attention on tens of thousands of other asylum seekers here who have been waiting for immigration rulings for around a decade, and in some cases are living in poverty without access to Centrelink, Medicare or the ability to work.  Today, national regional reporter Nathan Morris takes us to meet some of them.  Featured:  Nathan Morris, ABC national regional reporter, Gatton, Queensland

What Did You Watch This Week
We Almost Forgot To Talk About The Big Reveal!

What Did You Watch This Week

Play Episode Listen Later Jul 19, 2022 103:58


This week the guys chat about the finales of Stranger Things S4 (finally) and Ms Marvel S1 (gleefully), as well as their regular smattering of other shows, movies, trailers, and so on.  John makes a hard sell for Only Murders in the Building, and Mike reminds us again about his dislike for a certain independent film creator.You can support this show by visiting our merch store, or by leaving us an Apple Podcasts review.

Nerdy Legion Podcast Network
WHAT DID YOU WATCH THIS WEEK: WE ALMOST FORGOT TO TALK ABOUT THE BIG REVEAL!

Nerdy Legion Podcast Network

Play Episode Listen Later Jul 19, 2022 103:58


This week the guys chat about the finales of Stranger Things S4 (finally) and Ms Marvel S1 (gleefully), as well as their regular smattering of other shows, movies, trailers, and so on.  John makes a hard sell for Only Murders in the Building, and Mike reminds us again about his dislike for a certain independent film creator.You can support this show by visiting our merch store, or by leaving us an Apple Podcasts review.

The News show
“We Forgot”

The News show

Play Episode Listen Later Jul 18, 2022 3:45


Elon Musk wants Twitter trial to start next year. Google's now rely completely on developers for accurate app data collection information. Apple TV HD with the original Siri Remote added to vintage […]

Brunch with Desb Podcast
SEX WITH MY HUSBANDS BFF + GRAND THEFT AUTO / tell me a secret (Ep. 127)

Brunch with Desb Podcast

Play Episode Listen Later Jul 17, 2022 59:20 Very Popular


HOLY SHIT you guys you are in for ONE HELL OF A STORY in today's episode plus a ton of great others stories! Yes we are bringing back tell me a secret with some absolute bangers and thank you for everyone who submitted theirs! We had quite a few so saving some for a rainy day! I'lll catch you up on Archie and get into a bit of housekeeping too!   Time Stamps:   (0:18) Past Few Weeks… Ive Been Popping Off (3:00) Small Favor (5:50) Archie Update (13:00) Housekeeping (25:53) Better Help (28:13) Forgot to Plug My Patreon (30:50) Sex Story (35:00) Marathon Training (42:00) Full of Questions Now   Join betterhelp today - www.betterhelp.com/desb code “desb” for 10% off your first month! #ad #sponsored   JOIN MY LIVE WORKOUTS: WWW.PATREON.COM/DESB   NEW TULA RELEASING (CODE “DESB” FOR 15% OFF #TULAPARTNER) Apply to work with me 1-1: https://dbft.typeform.com/desbcoaching  NEW MERCH: https://www.desbfittraining.com/collections/shop-merch DM me on IG: www.instagram.com/brunchwithdesb    FOLLOW ME ON TIKTOK: https://www.tiktok.com/@desb___    OPEN FACEBOOK FITNESS COMMUNITY: www.facebook.com/groups/dbftcommunity    Purchase a program (bride guide now with at home and pregnancy modifications!): https://www.desbfittraining.com/ Follow @brunchwithdesb on insta: www.instagram.com/brunchwithdesb  Hit me up: https://shor.by/DESB    Be sure to join my email list for our new challenges, merch, and weekly motivation from me: http://eepurl.com/dy2JLz OR join my app here: https://train.desbfittraining.com/trainers/312078/landing   PARAGON FITWEAR: code “desb” to save 11% PTULA ACTIVE: code “desb” to support me HYDROJUG: code “desb” to save 10% and stay hydrated af TULA SKINCARE: code “desb” to glow off with your skin and save 15% ALANI NUTRITION: code “desb” for free shipping over $50 and support me BUFFBUNNY COLLECTION: code “desb” to support   instagram ➭ https://www.instagram.com/desb___ twitter ➭ https://twitter.com/desbfit youtube ➭ https://www.youtube.com/desireescogginfitness  facebook ➭ https://www.facebook.com/desbfittraining official website  ➭ https://www.desbfittraining.com   ---------------------------------------------------

Glen Macnow & Ray Didinger on 94WIP
Flyers Misery, What We Forgot, Odds and Ends

Glen Macnow & Ray Didinger on 94WIP

Play Episode Listen Later Jul 16, 2022 43:20


Hour 3 of the show today. Glen and Rickie are joined by Anthony San Filippo to talk some Flyers. Kyle fills them in on what they didn't mention.

Locked On Packers - Daily Podcast On The Green Bay Packers
We all forgot about Preston Smith's excellent 2021 season for the Green Bay Packers

Locked On Packers - Daily Podcast On The Green Bay Packers

Play Episode Listen Later Jul 13, 2022 28:40 Very Popular


No one is talking about Green Bay Packers edge rusher Preston Smith, but they should be; he was excellent in 2022. Why this matters for the Packers outlook this season plus how a coverage change could be essential to the Green Bay defense this year. Find and follow Locked on Packers on your favorite podcast platforms: Apple Podcasts: https://podcasts.apple.com/us/podcast/locked-on-packers-daily-podcast-on-the-green-bay-packers/id1144508840 Spotify: https://open.spotify.com/show/74wyymzMc3zvjqvBWKQIDT?si=9edc13f18ac44393 Stitcher: https://www.stitcher.com/show/locked-on-packers Peter Bukowski, co-founder of The Leap, brings you a daily look at the Green Bay Packers year round with Locked On Packers! Go beyond the latest injury news into what you're seeing on the field, how it works, and how it might change with new players or against a division rival. It's the podcast for fans who know what happened, they want to know why and how! And follow Peter Bukowski on Twitter, where he'll be sharing the latest news about the Green Bay Packers and talking with fans. On Twitter: @Peter_Bukowski BetOnline BetOnline.net has you covered this season with more props, odds and lines than ever before. BetOnline – Where The Game Starts! Learn more about your ad choices. Visit podcastchoices.com/adchoices

The Swift Talk
Taylor Swift - I Forgot That You Existed

The Swift Talk

Play Episode Listen Later Jul 13, 2022 35:12


This week Kit and Sam head back into Taylor Swift's Lover era with I Forgot That You Existed. Who do they think she was singing about? Why did a giggle trigger Sam? Join in as the celebrate 10,000 streams! 

The SeedPod for Kids
June 2022 Announcements!!!! - I FORGOT to publish this!!!

The SeedPod for Kids

Play Episode Listen Later Jul 11, 2022 6:35


Hi guys! I'm hanging out in Prescott AZ for Arizona Conference Campmeeting and wanted to let you know some announcements! Spanish Podcast Fundraising! - only $1,100 to go! If you want to give, go to www.startingwithjesus.com/donation and click the check box for Spanish Podcast!We have some Campmeetings/Conventions that our team will be at! Listen to find out where we will be going! If you want to record some Bible verses (confident readers only please), or if you want to send us your Bible Q&A, email me at seedpod@startingwithjesus.com. Love you all! - Ms. Katie

The Alleged Wrestling Podcast
We're Back, And We Forgot To Record The First Hour - The Alleged Wrestling Podcast 254

The Alleged Wrestling Podcast

Play Episode Listen Later Jul 10, 2022 59:13


Catching up on two weeks of wrestling was a tall task, forgetting to record the first hour did not help. We close the show as we always do by picking our Best/Worst Match, Best/Worst Segment, Wrestler of the week and Show of the week. “Perséphone - Retro Funky (SUNDANCE remix)” is used with permission from Left Hand Music. The song can be found here - https://soundcloud.com/sundancemusic/pers-phone-retro-funky

Bar Exam Game Plan™
What If You Forgot The Rule?

Bar Exam Game Plan™

Play Episode Listen Later Jul 10, 2022 6:45


Tune in to listen to an important tip that helps you get points in an essay even if you forgot the rule. --- This episode is sponsored by · Anchor: The easiest way to make a podcast. https://anchor.fm/app

The Tom Barnard Show
Moon Pjugg and Hobbs- We Forgot About Putin

The Tom Barnard Show

Play Episode Listen Later Jul 8, 2022 33:15


Last podcast we didn't do 2 questions with Putin. This week we will! Lots of talk this week about random stuff that really goes nowhere. Just the way we like it. Share or subscribe. Its free. See omnystudio.com/listener for privacy information.

WTF1 Podcast
That Time When: Nico Rosberg forgot to turn right

WTF1 Podcast

Play Episode Listen Later Jul 7, 2022 28:38


We're talking about another controversial collision between the two Mercedes drivers as Nico Rosberg and Lewis Hamilton battled it out for victory at the 2016 Austrian Grand Prix 

Todd N Tyler Radio Empire
7/6 App 2 Forgot to Bury Him

Todd N Tyler Radio Empire

Play Episode Listen Later Jul 6, 2022 16:31


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Todd N Tyler Radio Empire
7/5 4-1 Todd Forgot to Pay

Todd N Tyler Radio Empire

Play Episode Listen Later Jul 5, 2022 22:06


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Deconstructed with Mehdi Hasan
How the Democrats Forgot the New Deal and Paved the Way for Trumpism

Deconstructed with Mehdi Hasan

Play Episode Listen Later Jul 1, 2022 47:06 Very Popular


In Robert Kuttner's new book, “Going Big: FDR's Legacy, Biden's New Deal, and the Struggle to Save Democracy,” he explains how we got to our present political inflection point, how high the stakes are, and what comes next. Kuttner — who co-founded the Economic Policy Institute as well as The American Prospect — joins Jon Schwarz to discuss.https://join.theintercept.com/donate/now See acast.com/privacy for privacy and opt-out information.