I don't just want it, I need it.

Idk you gotta listen to find out!

Sup, poopoo heads. Hope you're doing well! 

Sometimes I just like talking to you guys without any particular direction. In this episode I update you guys on Therapy, relationships and my thoughts at the moment!Stay safe and take care of yourself 

In this episode I explain my personal struggle with addiction, I tell you how it effected me and my life from the negative and depressing times to the "road to recovery." I have struggled my whole life with depression and I have always sought ways to escape my mind and the never ended sadness. I am now working on healthy ways to go about coping with my depression but that doesn't mean its easy. I really hope I didn't discourage anyone about going back to understand the present but I feel as I always have to be honest! With love - Anthony 

E·qual·i·tynoun the state of being equal, especially in status, rights, and opportunities. Until we ALL understand and act upon the definition of equality I will stand for what I believe in, now and on my death bed. I have a platform and here is my voice, I stand with you!

Foun·da·tion/founˈdāSH(ə)n/   noun the lowest load-bearing part of a building, typically below ground level.

As I continue to learn and grow I hope you do as well! I have let my guard down and allowed myself to express who I truly wish to put out there in the public, if you like it or not I will always stay true to myself. I hope you guys understand everything and anything I do comes from a good place! If you guys liked the "The Real Me" Please send it to a friend and follow me on my socials - Twitter: Fin_98 & IG: _anthonydefreitas. Love and Peace!   

I decided to record an episode one day I was having a panic attack, I've struggled with different forms of anxiety basically everyday of my life but the panic attack I had a couple days ago was very scary! I'm still just trying to be there for someone if they need me but if anything... The sun will rise again tomorrow so just keep pushing.. hour by hour and minute by minute! PSA: This episode lacks in microphone quality due to the fact I can't figure out the settings on my new laptop.. Hopefully that will be fixed soon! (100% UNEDITED) From me to you w/ love. 

** TWITTER: Fin_98 ** The title"For You Only" was because this podcast and even though i'm most proud of this episode to date, wont be posted on any social media platforms. As I take time to really think about how to produce MY content, restyle my socials and focus on quality i'll still be posting episode every so often as I will never give up on my goals but I need to take a step back, come back with a clean game plan and move forward! Hopefully this clarifies what was said in this episode! Love y'all as always, Peace! -Anthony de Freitas

In this episode I talk about how I've been over-thinking the episodes too much and doing them in a way that doesn't allow me to get my thought across in the way I intent them to get across. I'm still learning the best way to execute these podcasts, i'm having a hard time converting my thoughts into words... as perusal! When I use the word "persona" I don't mean that I wasn't being myself, I was just a more filtered and was creating context in a  conformed way and i'm someone who doesn't conform very well, making it miserable to make episodes. With that all being said I thank the ones who bare with me as I figure all of this out, I really appreciate you guys!

In today's episode I talk about my trip to Jamaica! We’re so quick to forget how big this world is and always seem to get confined into such a small way of thinking.. There are literally billions of people around the world and each individual has a different story. That's why traveling can give you such an amazing perspective you've never seen before! I also talk about the crazy nights I had and just let you guys into my life more, FYI Will and I never ended up playing Fortnite! 

If you're a Mother, Father, Son or Daughter, I think anyone can listen to this and hopefully change there outlook on the "Parental Role" sometimes its more important to be there for someone as a friend than it is to be a parent! This episode talks about how important it is for me and I think everyone to have a "rock" or someone that is unconditionally there during the mildest and wildest times during our lives! As always I hope you guys enjoy, and I love each and everyone who continues to support my journey.. This is dedicated to my mom, who is always there for me no matter what!  

The episode of quotes! I also pay tribute to Kobe, Gigi and the families involved, and again get a harsh realization that life is so fridge.. I also go over some of the changes in my life in regards to relationships and negative people, "Its crazy how someone can shake your hand and then turn around and talk down upon you."  People will always come and go, but real ones and legends will always be remembered! 

It scares me to put this out there because people can/will take this the wrong way! But I think it's important to be yourself and not be scared to show that. I will keep going with my journey in hopes to help people that feel the same way I do/did! I will never stop trying to make this world more comfortable for those who can relate to this!! In times of darkness we tend to get down on ourselves and forget our worth, I know what i'm doing is amazing and I love all of you guys that take the time and listen ❤ 

In this episode I tell you guys a short story of a party I went to with my friend Will! I also discuss how I was able to push myself out of my comfort zone and have an amazing time. -Because let me remind you.. Anxiety WILL crush you, make you feel sick, depressed and can completely captivate you. I understand that. And I know you can try and tell yourself ANYTHING to try and calm down… but as you know.. That doesn't work or only helps momentarily!AND, as much as I’d love to say, this and that! And your anxiety is magically gone It doesn't work like that!.SO here's what I did! 

This is where I actually start to open up and reveal everything that I am in hopes to help someone out there, maybe that is through connection or maybe it just gives them a newfound perspective. I need to leave this world knowing I did something beyond me. I want change, and I know I can provide that for some people! This is just an introduction to what/how my podcasts are going to be! Love you guy! 

I today's episode I will be disguising what I do to make sure I will become everything I envision! It's funny because I use to laugh at the same things i'm doing today! I titled it "Oh, that actually works!" because these are things that have been proven to work for me, and as time goes on I hope to prove to the world these strats' work wonders. 

In this episode I will be comparing the people I find successful vs. the people who are unsuccessful! New year, new me? Ha! And a couple thing I use to help me stay on track! I hope all of you had a wonderful holiday season and a happy new years, join me this year as all of use elevate and find success! 

Dear self, Why?, Oh I guess I really do care, I am... BODY SLAM Well maybe one day ill will have a consistent though process, until then enjoy! 

Episode 001 is a topic that means a lot to me and I feel one of the things that has molded me into the person I am today. The start of where I think I lacked insecurity, confidence and self esteem! The one place that almost took myself away from me! alone, hopeless and depressed. This is just 001 of my story in a fun, uncut, and easy going podcast!hope you enjoy!

My soul, my being, my EVERYTHING. Everything that I am has been put into this PODCAST and that scares the shit out of me. I am about to be putting 100% of myself out there for people to judge and ridicule, BUT that also means I'm done caring what others have to think and it is time to start doing what I know I should be doing!