Walk With Me

Have ever lost something and was so frantic trying to find it.  Once you found it you swore that you would never lose it again.  Well with my pain and hurt I will never lose and share this much pain ever again .  

Dealing with grief, I often ask myself question, when did it happen, why and what I could have done different. In this episode I have this discussion.

It has almost been a year since my son's suicide, and I am still making it.  I would never have made it without my community's support, which includes family, friends, strangers, and prayers. If you feel like it's too much, I understand, but I am also living proof you can do it. 

The final stage of grief is Acceptance.  Acceptance does not mean the loss is ignored, or forgotten, nor does it means the individual or individuals feel good or have gotten better.  It does mean that your current situation (the loss)  will not be changed. My life is continuing but it will never be the same.  I'm different and I have changed.  

This episode I talk about returning home after the last 9 months and after my son completed suicide. I have been absent based on a multitude of things but I put this together whole driving.  Thanks for your continued support. 

In this latest podcast I begin to talk about Pain and Guilt.  Pain and guilt is a stage in the grief process that the pain of the loss and difficult to handle, and it can be emotional pain as well.  In addition, you start to think of what you could have done to prevent the situation no matter if its illogical or not.  I share with you my journal entry just days after his death/suicide.  Come and Walk With Me as I tell you about how I'm doing.  

There are seven stages of grief Shock, Denial, Guilt, Bargining, Depression, Reconstruction, and Acceptance. In this episode let me talk to you about the Reconstruction Phase and how and I dealing with it.  Come Walk With Me

With the upcoming holiday weekend, I know some people will be cooking/ grilling.   With that being said, I have a passion for cooking, but this year, it won't be a celebration of the country but one about family, friends, and good times.  Come on, take this "Walk With Me" as I prepare for my heart for cooking once again. 

June 18, 1990..Thirty years ago I joined the Army. I learned hand to hand combat, how to make a bunk, and expert rifleman and hand grenades.  All that training and I still could not use deadly force on someone unless they meet all the elements of the Rules of Engagement.  Thanks to James and Landon for the inspiration. 

When is all of the madness going to end?  It's one thing after another not a moment to breathe or catch your breath.  These last couple of weeks has been overwhelming and it seems to be no relief in sight for anyone.  Just feed up with so much negativity. 

This episode is a break from the norm.  With all that's going on in the world, I had to take a break and reflect.  These are troublesome times but it will get better. 

In this episode, take a walk with me as I visited the cemetery the day before my son's birthday. I had a conversation with him.  Pay attention to signs people because although your loved ones are gone, they communicate with you differently.  It's something special and truly remarkable experience. 

Some people admire the manicured lawns of others with the hope theirs can turn out the same way.  I caution those who have this belief.  Come Walk With Me and let's talk about it.

I wanted to share with you the loss of my son and how I have felt since that day.  I got responses from friends on how much it, helped them so I figure helped it could help more than a select few.  On November 24, 2019, my son committed suicide.  At that moment, that was the worst thing I have experienced in my life.  So I want you to take a walk with me as I tell my story of how I been dealing with the loss.