Life In Pending

This is the final episode, tentatively, of Life In Pending. I really pull my pants down with this one, so if you want to hear me being 100% open and honest with my life, this is the one to listen to. I kick off this episode with a very honest conversation with my mother about our past lives. She gives me some dating advice, we share some differing opinions, and she even gives me some light criticism (as a good mother would). Also in the episode: My love life, current dating endeavors, my taste/what I look for in women, friendships old and new, and more. I give some sex advice for people of all walks of life regarding masturbation, porn addiction, etc. (geared more towards men). This podcast has been so fun and I want to thank everyone who has tuned in and enjoyed it. I hope to have more of these genuine conversations like these in person with you; in place of a laptop and mic.

In this episode, I recap the weekend. Then I go hard in the paint on feminism and give some unplanned sex advice. I also give my perspective on what female empowerment looks like to me. Spoiler alert: I briefly talk about vaginas.

In this episode, I am feeling and sounding a little more myself after a couple rough weeks. I talk about my weekend bachelor fishing trip in Galveston, I talk a little bit about my good friend Justin (for whom I am a groomsman this Saturday), I talk about a former pastor who recently abandoned his family as well as his faith in god.

In this episode, I unpack some of the stuff I said in the previous episode when I recorded in the midst of a bout with depression. I also talk a little bit about a recent hilarious joke made by a muslim comedian, my ex girlfriend, my best female friend, finally buying my mom's graduation ring, and I share a song that has helped me through this recent darkness I've been experiencing.

This episode is probably the hardest for me to record--to date. Sometimes I get a little sad and a little lonely. This particular night, I was tossing and turning in bed, dealing with some intense depression-like symptoms so I decided to record myself thinking out loud while I felt some of the heaviest lows I've felt in a long time. I also reminisce about "the girl that got away", a high school sweetheart that I used to bike (and run) 6 miles into town just to read her emails. I once saved up my lunch money, just so I could buy her a gold necklace without my mom catching me. Anyway, sorry to be a downer. But this is part of my process of being honest to myself. If anything, I hope it helps a listener.

In this episode, I showcase Asian Americans in a few different ways. I kick ff by sharing another song by the talented Korean American Vincente Void. I talk about a super creepy love note left on my car windshield, I share some beginner tips on buying suits for men and women, I pontificate about the recent dethroning of Kathy Zhu in this year's Miss Michigan pageant, and I also give my thoughts and experiences on White folks who are super nerdy about Asian/Chinese culture.... You know, Weeaboos. The song showcased in this episode is called No1 Knows by Vincente Void. Listen on Spotify: https://open.spotify.com/track/3T25zS7mXqgZBGnf0kIFZh?si=cfh12EG6T8qF-qQbG20jQQ

In this episode, I bring up a handful of controversial topics while reviewing the past week. I talk about women's soccer, (not) perpetuating our stereotypes as people of color, shitty friendships and how to deal with them, and I talk about how I ended my friendship with the first friend I made in America (he's still an asshole piece of shit).

In this episode I talk briefly about the pains of being a hard extrovert, a very recent encounter with a very abusive person from my past, and I revisit the subject of suicide last week with an alternative spin on the concept of death to self. I also announce a special guest for a future podcast, episode release is still TBD.

In this episode I talk about a phenomenon called Tubular Breast Syndrome, I share some thoughts and questions about saving sex for marriage, I share a really good, but sad song from an amazing local talent, I talk about my history with feeling suicidal, and I rant about social justice warriors whining about Kim Kardashian this past week. The song I featured in this episode is called "비통 " by Vincente Void. Check out his song on Spotify: https://open.spotify.com/track/6XDORymlUj9vTZXRu6OI3G?si=4Aq2MUcQTEaZWyQygLiYHw

In this episode I talk about my weekend trip to Austin, where I got to see one of my childhood guitar heroes. It's also where I saw a whole gang of bikers with their tits and dicks out in the middle of the street. I also pontificate about a conversation I recently had with a girl I briefly dated a couple years ago, which led me to talk about the afflictions of funny people. Today's episode intro was The Way It Breaks by Evan Bartels. Hear this song on Spotify here: https://open.spotify.com/track/3qvaayLnjkwPT4pytwFk6Q?si=3GUrh3GDSva5w28eyOoXgw

Not every dad is a good one, but they can all be examples. In this episode, I share a secretly recorded convo between my dad and I, I share stories about him; including one where I find out that he is/was in the mafia, and I go to a birthday party for his big boss, where I get offered to be taught how to murder people. I also talk about my father-figure and inspiration Mr. Dan Taracks. Buckle your seatbelts, kids. This one gets pretty raw. Don't be sissy and have a listen. It'll give a little glimpse into the fucked-up world I was brought up in. Happy Father's Day

This is the most expensive podcast I have ever recorded... $740 to be exact. In this episode, I talk about my epically shit birthday weekend, do a little unpacking of a recent dating experience, go off on this tangential theory-crafting about a dear friend I had who I felt betrayed by once upon a time. Sorry for the late post. My laptop was broken.

In this episode, I talk about a lot of things. I went on a date with a girl who drives a pickup truck, I am up to my eyeballs with work, I have a misunderstanding while working with a close friend, I follow up on a conversation about how someone felt I violated the bible, and I talk about a very inspiring interview between legendary Korn guitarist Brian "Head" Welch and Mike Huckabee.

In this episode, I talk about how I've been told that I've violated the Holy Scripture, how I was rejected from church membership, I reminisce about an evil man in my childhood who used to twist scripture to abuse me, and I touch on Game of Thrones, John Wick, and accidentally matching with a married couple on Bumble.

In this episode, I pontificate about last week's Constance Wu twitter diatribe, I have a moan about the silly notion that Asian Americans needed to be represented in entertainment media, and I share a story about that one time when I was 22 and I ran an entire show and drove home; while intoxicated from edible marijuana peanut butter cups and alcohol. Oh, and I also review my current favorite pop album by Carly Rae Jepsen.

Happy Mother's Day! In this episode, I start with a Mother's Day call to my mom. It goes longer than I expected because she starts talking about how my late great uncle died while fighting for the Japanese army.... of malaria. I also share some stories of my mom and I, including how I used both military force and political power against her to get a Sega Genesis.

In this episode, I talk about a first date I overheard at a restaurant last week, weird white people who are crazy about asians (Weeaboos) and my experiences with them, and I ponder about what "being ready to date again" means to me. This episode's music is a song called Thanks For Nothing by my very good friends at Of Virtue. Catch their music here: Spotify: https://open.spotify.com/track/6RjatnGCi5nNjQHfHXhkDs?si=YZdVRF2YSOyHGyl2AvJjBw

In this episode, I talk about a recent lecture I attended about marriage that was given by a pastor. I also go over some things I've been struggling with and working through. I talk about inviting pain in discomfort in order to grow in life. Also in the episode, I showcase one of my favorite songs I've been listening to lately: Wish They Would by Evan Bartels. Listen to this song and more by Evan Bartels here: iTunes: https://itunes.apple.com/us/album/wish-they-would/1273459973?i=1273459979 Spotify: https://tinyurl.com/yy44bk8y

In this episode, my special guest Dr. Phyllis and I talk about the Netflix documentary, Transformer. Transformer is about former bodybuilder/powerlifter badass Matthew/Janae Kroczaleski. He was a hero of mine and introduced some really good training techniques to weight training. Since then, he has gone through the process of transitioning into a trans-woman, and later "gender fluid". The movie is about his life as he goes through the process, as well as how he got there. Warning/reminder: if you easily get offended, this is not a podcast for you. Duration: 1hr7m See Transformer here: https://www.netflix.com/title/81031652

In this episode, I talk about overhearing a pseudo-intellectual conversation about socialism during Easter lunch, an awkward seating arrangement with someone whose wedding photo I photoshopped (for laughs), and reminisce about that one time when I was 16-17yrs old and I got drunk and stole my friend's Camaro to do cocaine at another friend's party. This week's episode, I am featuring an AMAZING Houston musical talent Vincente Void. The song is called February. Listen to February here: Spotify: https://open.spotify.com/track/4VcmL2Nz7RrY17HIGHE3Bh?si=plJaqMvHQR2jEjwFElh_6g Apple Music: https://itunes.apple.com/us/album/february-feat-luciel/1458860371?i=1458860376

In this episode, I talk about some shit I've been worrying over, get on my high horse about a conversation I had at a new church that involved a death, and I somehow meander into a story about this girl I fell in love with... who broke my heart worse than anyone ever has, and made me the guitarist that I am today.

In this Episode, I talk about cracking a stupid AIDS joke, meeting a really interesting and impressive Houston-based Jazz musician/barber, and fashion advice from my friend who manages NFL players.

In this episode, I ruminate about a church football league I just finished playing and lament over the death of rock and roll music. I also explain why I like the kind of music I like and why I have the sense humor I have.

In this episode, I dissect why "the good ones are always taken", I weigh in my frustrations with dating in the Asian social circles, and give a little advice to boys and girls who want to date Asian.

In this podcast, I ramble on about wanting to say the word "bitch" more often, I give an update on my healing process, and I pontificate about temporary and fleeting everything is in life. Enjoy.

Here's a pretty anticipated podcast (by like 2 friends) with a special guest, my dear friend Justin Tam. We talk about crazy stuff like that one time I ate hallucinogenic mushrooms during a family Christmas Party, Justin's awkward penis story, our hangups with the churches we used to go to, why girls don't like us, and all kinds of weird shit! Fair warning, this podcast isn't about being politically correct, it's about being open and honest with our shit in life. Life is funny. So is this episode. Duration: 1hr 10m

In this episode, I talk about something I've been struggling through; battling depression. Rest In Peace Brody Stevens

Life In Pending - This is a podcast talking about the in-between times in life that we don't often bring up in conversation. It's about being open and honest with ourselves, it's about talking about the journey and the struggle of where we're heading to next.