This Podcast Will Fail

Time to put the brakes on this venture as I ramp up other projects. I am grateful for what this podcast did for me, and I am sure I will come back to it in the future. For now, this is the end. Thanks for listening. --- This episode is sponsored by · Anchor: The easiest way to make a podcast. https://anchor.fm/app --- Send in a voice message: https://anchor.fm/thispodcastwillfail/message Support this podcast: https://anchor.fm/thispodcastwillfail/support

Oh boy, lol. --- This episode is sponsored by · Anchor: The easiest way to make a podcast. https://anchor.fm/app --- Send in a voice message: https://anchor.fm/thispodcastwillfail/message Support this podcast: https://anchor.fm/thispodcastwillfail/support

I'm finding that I am becoming extremely indecisive when it comes to exactly what content I want to publish. --- This episode is sponsored by · Anchor: The easiest way to make a podcast. https://anchor.fm/app --- Send in a voice message: https://anchor.fm/thispodcastwillfail/message Support this podcast: https://anchor.fm/thispodcastwillfail/support

Come, discuss with me https://twitter.com/podcast_fail or @podcast_fail Ah, the life of a neurotic YouTuber. Good thing I'm just a content creator. --- This episode is sponsored by · Anchor: The easiest way to make a podcast. https://anchor.fm/app --- Send in a voice message: https://anchor.fm/thispodcastwillfail/message Support this podcast: https://anchor.fm/thispodcastwillfail/support

Time to go inside the inner workings of a YouTube Channel. Not one of those big, successful ones though, no. Just some guy who likes to make stuff that people sometimes seem to like. My channel has been dormant for something like 6 months, you can hear all about that in Season 1 of this Podcast, but forget that for a second, because it's time to move forward. --- This episode is sponsored by · Anchor: The easiest way to make a podcast. https://anchor.fm/app --- Send in a voice message: https://anchor.fm/thispodcastwillfail/message Support this podcast: https://anchor.fm/thispodcastwillfail/support

Certainly encourage you to chat with me about this over at https://twitter.com/podcast_fail or @podcast_fail So here we are! It's been 5 months of daily and then almost daily podcasts and it's time for me to change the game. I genuinely appreciate those that have listened every day and going forward I will be posting new episodes weekly, so what does it all mean? --- This episode is sponsored by · Anchor: The easiest way to make a podcast. https://anchor.fm/app --- Send in a voice message: https://anchor.fm/thispodcastwillfail/message Support this podcast: https://anchor.fm/thispodcastwillfail/support

Let's talk some more about this over at https://twitter.com/podcast_fail or @podcast_fail Some of the things YouTuber's do matters for the possible success of their channel. Some details on what I plan to do on my relaunch and why. --- This episode is sponsored by · Anchor: The easiest way to make a podcast. https://anchor.fm/app --- Send in a voice message: https://anchor.fm/thispodcastwillfail/message Support this podcast: https://anchor.fm/thispodcastwillfail/support

Come tweet with me at https://twitter.com/podcast_fail or @podcast_fail I spent some time on a Discord server with my friend Caleb and his brothers yesterday, and it turned out to be a great experience and so much more than I expected. --- This episode is sponsored by · Anchor: The easiest way to make a podcast. https://anchor.fm/app --- Send in a voice message: https://anchor.fm/thispodcastwillfail/message Support this podcast: https://anchor.fm/thispodcastwillfail/support

If anyone has any ideas on how I get around this, I'd love to hear from you here: https://twitter.com/podcast_fail or @podcast_fail So, okay that title was a little clickbaity, sorry. I do have a problem with my plans for the primary YouTube channel. --- This episode is sponsored by · Anchor: The easiest way to make a podcast. https://anchor.fm/app --- Send in a voice message: https://anchor.fm/thispodcastwillfail/message Support this podcast: https://anchor.fm/thispodcastwillfail/support

I'd love to hear your thoughts on my plan, find me here: https://twitter.com/podcast_fail or @podcast_fail Well, I did it! LOL I recorded a video for my primary YouTube channel for the first time in more than 6 months. This is a little deep dive into my plans going forward. --- This episode is sponsored by · Anchor: The easiest way to make a podcast. https://anchor.fm/app --- Send in a voice message: https://anchor.fm/thispodcastwillfail/message Support this podcast: https://anchor.fm/thispodcastwillfail/support

Today's question, do you love your job? Tweet your answer to me https://twitter.com/podcast_fail or @podcast_fail So yeah going in a completely different direction here today. An understatement to say that my job pushed me to my limit today, and I just need to talk about it. I pray you will humor me. --- This episode is sponsored by · Anchor: The easiest way to make a podcast. https://anchor.fm/app --- Send in a voice message: https://anchor.fm/thispodcastwillfail/message Support this podcast: https://anchor.fm/thispodcastwillfail/support

For what it's worth, we can discuss this on Twitter too! https://twitter.com/podcast_fail or @podcast_fail Focusing o on my plans to relaunch my stagnant YouTube channel but there are still important considerations. --- This episode is sponsored by · Anchor: The easiest way to make a podcast. https://anchor.fm/app --- Send in a voice message: https://anchor.fm/thispodcastwillfail/message Support this podcast: https://anchor.fm/thispodcastwillfail/support

Tell me about it, lol. No seriously tell me about it on Twitter https://twitter.com/podcast_fail or @podcast_fail. Anyway so I got put in my place today and actually, it was probably exactly the right time for me to hear it. --- This episode is sponsored by · Anchor: The easiest way to make a podcast. https://anchor.fm/app --- Send in a voice message: https://anchor.fm/thispodcastwillfail/message Support this podcast: https://anchor.fm/thispodcastwillfail/support

I would love to get your thoughts over on Twitter at https://twitter.com/podcast_fail or @podcast_fail. I think the fog of self-pity is finally clearing a bit. I think I am starting to see the way back to a life as an active content creator. So where do I start? --- This episode is sponsored by · Anchor: The easiest way to make a podcast. https://anchor.fm/app --- Send in a voice message: https://anchor.fm/thispodcastwillfail/message Support this podcast: https://anchor.fm/thispodcastwillfail/support

You can find me on Twitter at https://twitter.com/podcast_fail or @podcast_fail. I managed to get myself to sit down and record this today but as I worked through it I have come to realize that the end may be near for this endeavor. So what do I do next? --- This episode is sponsored by · Anchor: The easiest way to make a podcast. https://anchor.fm/app --- Send in a voice message: https://anchor.fm/thispodcastwillfail/message Support this podcast: https://anchor.fm/thispodcastwillfail/support

You can find me on twitter at https://twitter.com/podcast_fail or @podcast_fail. I mentioned in previous episodes that I am really not a fan of Twitter, which is why using it to try and connect with you on this podcast makes so much sense... Anyway, it was in setting up the Twitter feed that I had a realization on why I am struggling so much to accomplish just about anything with any of the many creative projects I have going on. --- This episode is sponsored by · Anchor: The easiest way to make a podcast. https://anchor.fm/app --- Send in a voice message: https://anchor.fm/thispodcastwillfail/message Support this podcast: https://anchor.fm/thispodcastwillfail/support

Join me to talk more about this at https://twitter.com/podcast_fail or @podcast_fail. Mental health, man. It's a bitch sometimes. This podcast very nearly came to a screeching halt in a matter of minutes. But for the realization that this episode fell on an even number right as began recording, I very nearly quit. --- This episode is sponsored by · Anchor: The easiest way to make a podcast. https://anchor.fm/app --- Send in a voice message: https://anchor.fm/thispodcastwillfail/message Support this podcast: https://anchor.fm/thispodcastwillfail/support

Let's chat on Twitter, shall we? Join me at https://twitter.com/podcast_fail or @podcast_fail It's already mid-week and I am finally recording a podcast. What's holding me back? --- This episode is sponsored by · Anchor: The easiest way to make a podcast. https://anchor.fm/app --- Send in a voice message: https://anchor.fm/thispodcastwillfail/message Support this podcast: https://anchor.fm/thispodcastwillfail/support

I did it. I finally did it. https://twitter.com/podcast_fail or @podcast_fail Months of insisting that this podcast would not be on social media...I caved. I did it for a good reason, though, I swear! I invite you to follow and chat with me about...well, anything, on Twitter. What a world. --- This episode is sponsored by · Anchor: The easiest way to make a podcast. https://anchor.fm/app --- Send in a voice message: https://anchor.fm/thispodcastwillfail/message Support this podcast: https://anchor.fm/thispodcastwillfail/support

The horrific events that took place in Washington DC yesterday stopped me in my tracks, literally. That very morning I had been thinking about whether starting up a creative project around discussing politics would be a worthwhile endeavor. Well... --- This episode is sponsored by · Anchor: The easiest way to make a podcast. https://anchor.fm/app --- Send in a voice message: https://anchor.fm/thispodcastwillfail/message Support this podcast: https://anchor.fm/thispodcastwillfail/support

Season 5 - Finding Meaning, Finding Purpose kicks off with a meandering long-thought analysis of where I am and where I'd like to be. And what's next? --- This episode is sponsored by · Anchor: The easiest way to make a podcast. https://anchor.fm/app --- Send in a voice message: https://anchor.fm/thispodcastwillfail/message Support this podcast: https://anchor.fm/thispodcastwillfail/support

Just like that, we're done! It occurs to me that this is a good place to stop, take a break, and collect my thoughts for the remainder of 2020. So what's the plan for 2021? Well... --- This episode is sponsored by · Anchor: The easiest way to make a podcast. https://anchor.fm/app --- Send in a voice message: https://anchor.fm/thispodcastwillfail/message Support this podcast: https://anchor.fm/thispodcastwillfail/support

I'm finally here. As of today, I have been sober for 20 years. I talked at length last week about many of the lowest points of my young life a drunk teenager, but today I want to close out the story by telling the story of the last night of binge drinking before I quit for good. I take a closer look at how I got here, 20 years later. --- This episode is sponsored by · Anchor: The easiest way to make a podcast. https://anchor.fm/app --- Send in a voice message: https://anchor.fm/thispodcastwillfail/message Support this podcast: https://anchor.fm/thispodcastwillfail/support

My special guest in this episode is my friend and colleague Matt. He is the creator of the "Lunchadore Podcast Network" and an all-around great guy. In today's conversation, Matt talks about coming to terms with a lifetime of undiagnosed depression and ADHD. We share some common experiences around content creation and our common experiences in life.   --- This episode is sponsored by · Anchor: The easiest way to make a podcast. https://anchor.fm/app --- Send in a voice message: https://anchor.fm/thispodcastwillfail/message Support this podcast: https://anchor.fm/thispodcastwillfail/support

My escalating career as a "drunk child" came to a head one night and all these years later this is the closest thing I come to a rock bottom moment. That night I went too far and it was very nearly an unforgivable mistake. All of the damage I did, all the relationships that my drinking ruined before someone finally called me out and left me with a choice to make. Spoiler alert: It appears I made the right choice. --- This episode is sponsored by · Anchor: The easiest way to make a podcast. https://anchor.fm/app --- Send in a voice message: https://anchor.fm/thispodcastwillfail/message Support this podcast: https://anchor.fm/thispodcastwillfail/support

Let's just get to it, shall we? I've needed to address out loud to myself, some of the really low moments I experienced as a result of my drinking. They've always been there, in the back of my mind but I haven't really admitted them to myself and reflected on them openly. One, in particular, carries a long overdue apology to my late Mother. --- This episode is sponsored by · Anchor: The easiest way to make a podcast. https://anchor.fm/app --- Send in a voice message: https://anchor.fm/thispodcastwillfail/message Support this podcast: https://anchor.fm/thispodcastwillfail/support

It time for me to come to terms with my childhood. There are some experiences I need to unpack and this is just the starting point. I am...was...an alcoholic. I started my career as a "drunk" at the age of 12. I experienced a lot of bad things. I did a lot of bad things. I need to walk through these memories and deal with them once and for all. --- This episode is sponsored by · Anchor: The easiest way to make a podcast. https://anchor.fm/app --- Send in a voice message: https://anchor.fm/thispodcastwillfail/message Support this podcast: https://anchor.fm/thispodcastwillfail/support

I thought about my brother today, and how he and I, despite very similar experiences growing up, turned out to believe very different things about race, ethnicity, and gender. How two brothers who came from the same places with the same experiences can see the world so differently. --- This episode is sponsored by · Anchor: The easiest way to make a podcast. https://anchor.fm/app --- Send in a voice message: https://anchor.fm/thispodcastwillfail/message Support this podcast: https://anchor.fm/thispodcastwillfail/support

I had the singular honor of interviewing my friend and colleague "Caleb" (who also hosts the outstanding podcast "Caleb vs Self") In the conversation around "Coming To Terms" with life experiences, Caleb shares the experience of becoming a leader in the army at a very young age during the Iraq war before transitioning to civilian life and coming to terms with having to completely start over. --- This episode is sponsored by · Anchor: The easiest way to make a podcast. https://anchor.fm/app --- Send in a voice message: https://anchor.fm/thispodcastwillfail/message Support this podcast: https://anchor.fm/thispodcastwillfail/support

It's time for me to start exploring and working through some of the things from my young life that I have never really come to terms with. Today's conversation cut a little deeper than I expected and seems to have opened a possible flood gate of issues I need to address from my youth. The things I did, the choices I made, and how they influenced the person I became for a long time. --- This episode is sponsored by · Anchor: The easiest way to make a podcast. https://anchor.fm/app --- Send in a voice message: https://anchor.fm/thispodcastwillfail/message Support this podcast: https://anchor.fm/thispodcastwillfail/support

This is hard. I have been "sick" but not with any of the traditional Covid "symptoms." None the less I am not only stressed out about not knowing...but I don't even know...if I want to know...Ugh. --- This episode is sponsored by · Anchor: The easiest way to make a podcast. https://anchor.fm/app --- Send in a voice message: https://anchor.fm/thispodcastwillfail/message Support this podcast: https://anchor.fm/thispodcastwillfail/support

It's that time of year where the inevitable conversation about the nature of "The Fat Man" himself comes up in my house. There's a lot to navigate around. --- This episode is sponsored by · Anchor: The easiest way to make a podcast. https://anchor.fm/app --- Send in a voice message: https://anchor.fm/thispodcastwillfail/message Support this podcast: https://anchor.fm/thispodcastwillfail/support

This week starts with just being frustrated at having to "hurry up and wait" for things to turn around. Having to go through the motions and work to keep people safe and healthy, instead of being able to enjoy what life has to offer. I want more. --- This episode is sponsored by · Anchor: The easiest way to make a podcast. https://anchor.fm/app --- Send in a voice message: https://anchor.fm/thispodcastwillfail/message Support this podcast: https://anchor.fm/thispodcastwillfail/support

In season 1 of this podcast, I talked about my time as a talk radio show host. In 2007 my co-host and friend Marc left the show abruptly and I was never able to understand what went wrong. 10 years later we finally had a chance to sit down and come to terms with what happened. --- This episode is sponsored by · Anchor: The easiest way to make a podcast. https://anchor.fm/app --- Send in a voice message: https://anchor.fm/thispodcastwillfail/message Support this podcast: https://anchor.fm/thispodcastwillfail/support

This is a rant. Pure and simple. And I'm sorry but honestly, I'm not. I'm angry. People are dying and too many people don't care. --- This episode is sponsored by · Anchor: The easiest way to make a podcast. https://anchor.fm/app --- Send in a voice message: https://anchor.fm/thispodcastwillfail/message Support this podcast: https://anchor.fm/thispodcastwillfail/support

Rough night. Far too much of me trying to "be ok" appeared to catch up with me. --- This episode is sponsored by · Anchor: The easiest way to make a podcast. https://anchor.fm/app --- Send in a voice message: https://anchor.fm/thispodcastwillfail/message Support this podcast: https://anchor.fm/thispodcastwillfail/support

This was probably the hardest thing I have ever recorded. That's all I can say. --- This episode is sponsored by · Anchor: The easiest way to make a podcast. https://anchor.fm/app --- Send in a voice message: https://anchor.fm/thispodcastwillfail/message Support this podcast: https://anchor.fm/thispodcastwillfail/support

This month I want to explore my life and as the title of this Season suggests, try to come to terms with some of the things I experienced and dealt with in life. I'll also talk to some close friends about how they have come to terms with difficult times in their lives and see if we can find a common thread. Today I will start by telling you about my Mom. She tragically died far too young and for all the wrong reasons, and how the person she was in some ways shaped the person I am. --- This episode is sponsored by · Anchor: The easiest way to make a podcast. https://anchor.fm/app --- Send in a voice message: https://anchor.fm/thispodcastwillfail/message Support this podcast: https://anchor.fm/thispodcastwillfail/support

Closing out Season 3 with an amazing opportunity to sit down with my son Gideon and explore what it is that motivates and moves him. We explore his outlook on life, learning, and why he is moved to make people feel things that they didn't expect to. --- This episode is sponsored by · Anchor: The easiest way to make a podcast. https://anchor.fm/app --- Send in a voice message: https://anchor.fm/thispodcastwillfail/message Support this podcast: https://anchor.fm/thispodcastwillfail/support

Super short one because it's a holiday and we all have better things to do, lol. My thanks to you for listening none the less :) Don't forget to leave me a voice mail HERE with your thoughts: https://anchor.fm/thispodcastwillfail/message --- This episode is sponsored by · Anchor: The easiest way to make a podcast. https://anchor.fm/app --- Send in a voice message: https://anchor.fm/thispodcastwillfail/message Support this podcast: https://anchor.fm/thispodcastwillfail/support

A little more on the responses to the question "What moves you?" from my personal Facebook friends list. One, in particular, speaks to the fear all parents share and how that fear motivates you. I still want to hear from you! Leave me a voice mail with your answer here: https://anchor.fm/thispodcastwillfail/message --- This episode is sponsored by · Anchor: The easiest way to make a podcast. https://anchor.fm/app --- Send in a voice message: https://anchor.fm/thispodcastwillfail/message Support this podcast: https://anchor.fm/thispodcastwillfail/support

What moves me? Simple. I am motivated by the sense of purpose I get from my family, and here's why. But what about you? I would love to hear what moves you? What motivates you and gets you going. Leave me a voice mail here and let me know! https://anchor.fm/thispodcastwillfail/message --- This episode is sponsored by · Anchor: The easiest way to make a podcast. https://anchor.fm/app --- Send in a voice message: https://anchor.fm/thispodcastwillfail/message Support this podcast: https://anchor.fm/thispodcastwillfail/support

Time to hear more voices than just my own! To kick off this week's question, What Moves You? I am joined by a good friend and fellow Creator "Joe." Joe gave me some interesting answers to the question of "What Moves You?" and I want to hear from YOU as well! Leave me a voice mail here with your thoughts: https://anchor.fm/thispodcastwillfail/message --- This episode is sponsored by · Anchor: The easiest way to make a podcast. https://anchor.fm/app --- Send in a voice message: https://anchor.fm/thispodcastwillfail/message Support this podcast: https://anchor.fm/thispodcastwillfail/support

Alright, so I've been (at least in my own mind) building up to this all week. After all of the back and forth between faith, agnosticism, humanism, and atheism, this is what I truly believe about the nature of life, existence, and the reality we live in. All I can say is, buckle up. I would still love to hear from you, leave me a voice mail here with your thoughts: https://anchor.fm/thispodcastwillfail/message --- This episode is sponsored by · Anchor: The easiest way to make a podcast. https://anchor.fm/app --- Send in a voice message: https://anchor.fm/thispodcastwillfail/message Support this podcast: https://anchor.fm/thispodcastwillfail/support

As I continue on exploring what it is that people "believe" I still want to know what YOU believe! Leave me a voice mail here with your thoughts: https://anchor.fm/thispodcastwillfail/message I want to be able to say I believe in "people" but one of the core things I've come to believe in my life is actually Karma. --- This episode is sponsored by · Anchor: The easiest way to make a podcast. https://anchor.fm/app --- Send in a voice message: https://anchor.fm/thispodcastwillfail/message Support this podcast: https://anchor.fm/thispodcastwillfail/support

Moving away from actual religious affiliation I'm trying to articulate the space I inhabit when it comes to how my beliefs play into how I live my life. I would love to hear from you, however, and what YOU believe. So click here to leave me a voice mail with your thoughts: https://anchor.fm/thispodcastwillfail/message Special thanks to Caleb from the podcast "Caleb Versus Self" which is DEFINITELY worth your time. --- This episode is sponsored by · Anchor: The easiest way to make a podcast. https://anchor.fm/app --- Send in a voice message: https://anchor.fm/thispodcastwillfail/message Support this podcast: https://anchor.fm/thispodcastwillfail/support

A new week (all be it a day late, I'll explain) and of course a new question for YOU. Click the (hopefully now functional) link below and leave a voice mail with your answer to this question: What do you believe? Leave me a voice mail here: https://anchor.fm/thispodcastwillfail/message There's no wrong answer, I'm not talking specifically about religion or politics or anything else for that matter I want to know off the top of your head, from the very top of your heart, what do you believe? What do you believe in? What do you believe about... Anything? --- This episode is sponsored by · Anchor: The easiest way to make a podcast. https://anchor.fm/app --- Send in a voice message: https://anchor.fm/thispodcastwillfail/message Support this podcast: https://anchor.fm/thispodcastwillfail/support

Wrapping up this week of asking "What do you want?" with some more answers from my personal Facebook page. I got some really great answers but overall I saw the same themes recurring. Still, I want to hear from you! Leave me a voice mail comment here: https://anchor.fm/thispodcastwillfail/message --- This episode is sponsored by · Anchor: The easiest way to make a podcast. https://anchor.fm/app --- Send in a voice message: https://anchor.fm/thispodcastwillfail/message Support this podcast: https://anchor.fm/thispodcastwillfail/support

FINALLY! Sort of, lol. I got some responses from OTHER folks answering this week's question: What do you want? I STILL want to hear from you! Click below to leave me a voice mail. Leave a message here: https://anchor.fm/thispodcastwillfail/message I'm so glad to get other people's answers because frankly today I have no idea what I want! --- This episode is sponsored by · Anchor: The easiest way to make a podcast. https://anchor.fm/app --- Send in a voice message: https://anchor.fm/thispodcastwillfail/message Support this podcast: https://anchor.fm/thispodcastwillfail/support

I ALSO want you to leave me a voice mail tell me what YOU want! Leave me a message here: https://anchor.fm/thispodcastwillfail/message I had a job interview today. If I get the job, I'll be able to set a plan in motion that will allow me to relocate my family to a better place to live. --- This episode is sponsored by · Anchor: The easiest way to make a podcast. https://anchor.fm/app --- Send in a voice message: https://anchor.fm/thispodcastwillfail/message Support this podcast: https://anchor.fm/thispodcastwillfail/support

Click the link below to leave me a voice mail and answer the following question, What Do You Want? Leave your message here: https://anchor.fm/thispodcastwillfail/message Working through a rough mental health day today. Sorry. --- Send in a voice message: https://anchor.fm/thispodcastwillfail/message Support this podcast: https://anchor.fm/thispodcastwillfail/support