Good Grief

We've reached the end of the trail, and I'm realizing I'm never going to find what I'm looking for. Subscribe on iTunes, Soundcloud, Stitcher, RadioPublic or wherever else you listen to podcasts. Music: "Deuce" by Indian Wells. "Euphoric" by Podington Bear. Narration recorded at Sweet Spot Studio.

I've exhausted every avenue I can think of to get any sort of straight answer — every avenue except one. How do you write a letter to your estranged, dead father's wife?Subscribe on iTunes, Soundcloud, Stitcher, RadioPublic or wherever else you listen to podcasts.Music: "Deuce" by Indian Wells. "Glass Piano" by Podington Bear. Narration recorded at Sweet Spot Studio.

I've reached a point where I don't know where to turn next. What do you do when you realize that the only person who has the answers you're looking for isn't around to give them to you? Turns out, one of my close friends is going through the same thing. Subscribe on iTunes, Soundcloud, Stitcher, or wherever else you listen to podcasts. Music: "Deuce" by Indian Wells. "Quizitive" by Lee Rosevere. Narration recorded at Sweet Spot Studio.

We've reached the end of the trail, and I'm realizing I'm never going to find what I'm looking for. Subscribe on iTunes, Soundcloud, Stitcher, RadioPublic or wherever else you listen to podcasts. Music: "Deuce" by Indian Wells. "Euphoric" by Podington Bear. Narration recorded at Sweet Spot Studio.

When I left Akwesasne, I knew I needed to confront the one person who I had been avoiding: Mom. Subscribe on iTunes, Soundcloud or wherever else you listen to podcasts. Music: "Deuce" by Indian Wells. "Enjoyable to Know" by C. Scott. Narration recorded at D.C. Public Library Studio Lab.

On my last few days of my stay in Akwesasne, I started to realize that maybe — just maybe — this trip was about way more than just re-connecting with my Native identity. Subscribe on iTunes or wherever else you listen to podcasts. Music: "Deuce" by Indian Wells. "Euphoric" & "Filaments" & "Happytime" & "Light in Branches" & "Proliferate" by Podington Bear. Narration recorded at D.C. Public Library Studio Lab.

When I arrived in Akwesasne, I didn't know what to expect. I struggled with bouts of depression and hella anxiety— Why do I care so much? What do I do now that I'm here? Subscribe on iTunes or wherever else you listen to podcasts. Music: "Deuce" by Indian Wells. "Glass Piano" by Podington Bear. "Puzzle Pieces" by Lee Rosevere. Narration recorded at DC Public Library Studio Lab.

Reading about the origins of my Native heritage in my estranged father's obituary gave me a way to confront my relationship with him—or the lack thereof.Special thanks to my family for letting me record them and my friends for putting up with my anxieties and being my greatest editors, and also thanks to two of my professors from UNC, Stephanie Elizondo Griest and Joy Goodwin, for helping me flesh out this idea.Subscribe on iTunes or wherever else you listen to podcasts.Music: "Deuce" by Indian Wells. "Rain on Glass" by Podington Bear. "Roulette" by The Plastic Jazz Orchestra. Narration recorded at Duke University's Center for Documentary Studies.