Navigating Muddy Waters

Follow Navigating Muddy Waters
Share on
Copy link to clipboard

My third year of college. FAU in Boca Raton. 1969. Muddy Waters is about my coming out as gay, and the process.

Joe Calderwood


    • Jul 4, 2021 LATEST EPISODE
    • monthly NEW EPISODES
    • 24m AVG DURATION
    • 16 EPISODES


    Search for episodes from Navigating Muddy Waters with a specific topic:

    Latest episodes from Navigating Muddy Waters

    Episode 15. Securing new accounting clients for the firm and navigating personal life questions...

    Play Episode Listen Later Jul 4, 2021 28:34


    My boss encouraged me to meet with Paul at the bank and see about client referrals. I ventured out to the prospective clients and was successful with the first two. I knew it before but was reminded to hide my true life from these people, if I wanted to do business. Felt like pulling off a daunting tight rope act. 

    Episode 14. College Graduation

    Play Episode Listen Later Jun 9, 2021 26:36


    Graduation and meeting with Mike's dad, Paul, about business opportunities. 

    Episode 13. Meeting up with Mike for business...

    Play Episode Listen Later May 31, 2021 25:28


    Two weeks from graduation. Meet up with Mike for a birthday party. My life take a turn. 

    Episode 12. Tim telling Bonnie about my mental disorder.

    Play Episode Listen Later Mar 28, 2021 23:45


    Tim tells Bonnie about my mental disorder. Bonnie confronts me and I play innocent. Tim gets busted. 

    Episode 11. Venturing out to the bar by myself.

    Play Episode Listen Later Mar 25, 2021 22:57


    With the school break I'd have two weeks at home. I would go to the club by myself. I would also begin work on the old house. 

    Episode 10. Meeting President Nixon. Introduction to acid...

    Play Episode Listen Later Feb 23, 2021 22:46


    My trip to DC continues. Travel to the White House with the Chief Justice and have coffee with President Nixon.

    Episode 9. Meeting influential people.

    Play Episode Listen Later Dec 13, 2020 29:12


    The summer and fall of 1969 were eventful: I stayed with the Chief Justice of the US, met the President of the US, expanded my gay world journey. 

    Broken Radio

    Play Episode Listen Later Dec 5, 2020 7:28


    This is a song that was produced for our fortieth anniversary. Also included is another song that Freddie produced for my Podcast, Stained Fortune.

    Episode 8. A big gay world out there...

    Play Episode Listen Later Nov 27, 2020 26:45


    Clearing up the mess Doc had made. Doc giving me loads of gay newspapers. Stonewall Riots in NYC. Invited to Lee's house for dinner.

    Episode 7. Revealing my secret to Elsa, my mom.

    Play Episode Listen Later Nov 21, 2020 26:47


    Clearing up my relationship with John. Telling my "secret" to my mom.

    Episode 6. My first gay bar.

    Play Episode Listen Later Oct 15, 2020 23:23


    I traveled down to Miami again for the weekend and met up with Doc. We went to the gay bar he promised me.

    Episode 5. John and I go further in our relationship.

    Play Episode Listen Later Oct 5, 2020 23:52


    John wants to meet up with me and talk. We talk about what happened the night of the frat party. We travel to the beach and it seemed like all my dreams were about to come true. 

    Episode 4. Meeting with a Priest for my mental disorder

    Play Episode Listen Later Aug 31, 2020 29:25


    Continuing to have a traffic jam in my head regarding being gay. Meet up with my priest, Father Steve. John coming back to talk and more. 

    Episode 3. Dating girls and boys

    Play Episode Listen Later Aug 29, 2020 28:31


    I am in turmoil because of John. He doesn't think the two of us should continue playing around.

    Episode 1. A kiss that changed my life

    Play Episode Listen Later Aug 25, 2020 17:52


    Fall of 1969, my third year of college. Having my first gay experience and dealing with all the non-acceptance. 

    Episode 2. Busted by the cops

    Play Episode Listen Later Aug 25, 2020 23:20


    My first same sex experience was in the backseat of my car. In the heat of it we were busted by the campus cops.

    Claim Navigating Muddy Waters

    In order to claim this podcast we'll send an email to with a verification link. Simply click the link and you will be able to edit tags, request a refresh, and other features to take control of your podcast page!

    Claim Cancel