N****S (OR THINGS I NEED TO SAY BEFORE I GO AND OTHER VIRTUOUS EXPRESSIONS)

I get into 5 to however many songs that helped sculpt me into the person I am today with special guest, Tamir. 

I am going to stop being so hard on myself as I am working on myself. 

I read the centerpiece essay from my 3rd magazine issue, Notes From Isolation, and a few other quick musings. I love y'all. Thanks for rocking with me this year. 

Emergency Podcast Episode. I have been avoiding my new situation so it doesn't get a bad diagnostic from me but I need to get these feelings out. I don't like complaining. Sorry for my absence, be patient with me. 

I talk about "touching the wall" just as Truman Burbank did in 1998's The Truman Show as well as living outisde the parentheses (boundaries) of who I am. I somehow extend this to Zootopia, "Dr.Whoever" by Amine, The Shawshank Redemption, Kiki's Delivery Service, and "These Walls" by Kendrick Lamar. Does it make sense? mind your business

I muse about trying to find the strength to accept new truths and the process of being happy. East Atlanta, I love you forever.

I read 8 excerpts from some of my favorite authors. I stumble and stutter and I'm not composed at all, don't judge me, let's read together. It's therapy.

Episode 3 jumps into happiness and what it really means in a subjective sense. What does it mean to maintain happiness and how do we know when it's real? Painting a precise picture of my happiness with lemon pepper wings, sneakers, comic books, family, and haircuts (?)

I sit down with Chayne aka Miss Perry of Sublime Havoc fame and discuss what it means to be perfect, subjectively and objectively. The ideal vs reality, what the desire for perfection does when juxtaposed with reality and what we need to do to accept the difference. This manifests itself in a rather scattershot recollection of what really makes us tic.

I talk through my feelings, breathe a bit too hard on the mic, and try to stumble onto some grand understanding of myself over 20 minutes. It's all pretty meta. Don't judge me too harshly.