I went looking for you came looking for she’s still looking for me. There were six white horses in my dream and the sky was green she was chasing me. We were run'n through the fields at the end of the road there was a sign on the door that led through the hall that read. Shes only happy when shes sad. Thought I heard a baby cry'n so I turned around and saw a million eyes stare'n at me. There was a child named Ghetto on a street called Elvis look’n for a place to sleep. There were silver roses at my feet still the sky was green she was kissing me. We were sailing up a stream. At the bottom of the well there was a lady in a veil with cards in her hands that sang. Who will rescue she, thought I heard the angels call'n. So I turned around and saw a million eyes stare’n at me. Theres a garden in the pass no one sees but you and me look’n for a place to sleep. Written For & Dedicated To: Kathleen Renee’ Vass ‘Rome’ Lyrics 1994 ©️Petra Maricela Violetarojo de Cordero
Petra Maricela Violetarojo de Cordero
Who knew there were so many rabbit holes, so many Alice's and not so much wonder. Just to be clear grandma was not sent to an insane asylum. She was sent to her worse nightmare. One she was promised she would never have to live. In addition, I offered to take care of grandma for nothing. Her family preferred to send her to her death by putting her in a home. I begged Kathy to let me just go to Texas and check her out of that place on the pretense of taking her to dinner and then just never bring her back. She said no, she was afraid for herself, what her family might do to me. Try to put me in jail and then who would take care of her. Angela said Kathy had kidney disease. Did they bother to contact me! No! I would have gladly given Kathy one of my kidneys if we were a match. Live with that. And you all know it's true. I laid my life down to take care of Kathy while her mom made our lives a living hell. She slapped Kathy across the face at the hospital. Kathy was in a Halo and a pelvic fixator. Just fucking imagine that. Miley Cyrus featuring Ariana Grande “Don't Dream It's Over, if you're interested. What I never went on to say in the audio was that I was out shopping and this song came on and the tears jyst streamed down my face. I was wearing a mask so I don't don't think people were aware of my momentary emotional collapse. I heard feedback about my mom and her feelings for Robyn as opposed to how much she really loved Kathy. I'm going to address that here and let this be the end of it. To be fair, I knew Kathy and Kathy knew my mom and had her own relationship with my mom long before I ever even met Robyn. When Robyn and I first moved to my moms I went out and bought my mom a beautiful Italian leather living room set with end tables. The first thing that Robyn did when she saw it was assume I bought it for her. Once she realized I bought it as a gift for my mom she threw a fit. When I say fit I mean all out screaming, stomping her feet fit. She said some pretty harsh words too… all the while, yup you know it. My mom was standing at the top of the stairs getting more and more disgusted listening to and watching Robyn as she threw her fit. So it was directly because of Robyn her relationship with my mom never had a chance to be better than it ever got. The other thing that happened was that Robyn tried to hit my mom with a pot. Yes, my mom threw her out of her home immediately and it was a year before Robyn was allowed to be on my moms property and several more months before Robyn was allowed inside my moms home. So there you have it. There's more I could say but that paints the picture clear with a strong, vibrant hue of truth.
A flight from San Francisco, Greek Mythology and a conversation with a woman I met on the plane that would change the course of my life, Kathy’s life and everything in between.
So What • Music & Lyrics©️Petra Maricela Violetarojo de CorderoWritten For: Rome • Kathleen Renee’ Vass
After Kathy’s grandpa died Kathy and I grew closer. We had a deeper understanding of who we were individually and together. Even the difficulties between us would not break our bond or our love. Many people came at us again and again to slay the dragon that was the love we shared and failed. Women that were attracted to me that did not want me to be with Kathy and women who were attracted to Kathy that did not want her to be with me. It felt like those women saw us as a challenge more than anything else. Which one of those among us would pull the sword from the rock. As it turned out none of them, our demise that came many, many years later would come from Kathy and her betrayal to our love, my faith and my trust.
Oh Kathy my Kathy, if only we had met at a different time in your life. Perhaps after you were through searching for that which you were never meant to find to begin with. Our favorite color was black, our favorite word was ‘money’ not because of its definition but because of how I said it. If ever Kathy was uncertain if it was me on the phone she would always ask me to say, ‘money’. Our favorite film was Wuthering Heights, I’m sure we watched it a thousand times. I’m sure that I will die alone, not lonely but alone longing for one more night with my Kathy, my Rome. It will not ever be for she has finally made her exit from this earth. Was it grand perhaps not in this world but I pray in Gods she was received with a grand parade of welcoming arms filled with love, light and warmth.
Mission To Mars written for and dedicated to my Kathy, my Rome, Kathleen Renee’ Vass. Soundtrack of which a segment is used as the intro and exit music for the Rome podcast. I hope you enjoy it, it is as erratic and beautiful as was my Kathy.
There is no greater act of love than to lay down your own life and dreams for your friend, the love of your life, your soulmate. You, in that moment must chose to allow the person that you know in your heart you have loved like no other cross that line and allow them to walk into the unGodly woods or pull them back against their own will and hope and pray they will not hate you for it. The balance between sanity and madness finds rest on a line between the choice to stay or leave, act or leave, risk everything, even your own life or leave. What say you?
As is with all things good or bad but especially good, the fruits of the garden are tainted with our sins. Thus go to the wayside the dreams and imaginings of things to come. Suddenly we find ourselves not in Eden but on the edge of the crossing into the unGodly woods uttering those words made so famous by the B52’s. How did I get here.
Mourning the loss of my soulmate and my true love. I have never loved anyone like I loved my Kathy, my Rome. But with great hardship and pain and for my own sanity and well being I made the choice to walk away. It was the hardest thing I ever had to do. She passed away a few days ago and this is how I’ve chosen to deal with it. A raw audio feed of our life on this earth from land to sea and through the universe. A remembrance and tribute along with a lil therapy. I’ve known this day was coming for a few years now. Now that it’s here as painful as it is I have to tell myself not to let the enemy, darkness or evil try to guilt me into devaluing the choice I made in 2009 to walk away. It didn’t mean I stopped loving Kathy, it didn’t change any of the good we shared or all the amazing memories we created with each other. It is simply this, that madness and chaos Kathy drew to her like a magnet would no longer repeat itself or find it’s rest on me or us. Kathy was a beautiful, magnificent, kind, extremely talented and loving woman whom I will never forget and I will always cherish her and all that was good in her. RIP my Kathy, my Rome. God bless
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