Living in Desire with Natalie Kristina

This is an invitation to embrace possibility as reality and step into your soul's divine purpose.

Recorded at the beginning of COVID and store-closures, Ally and I (along with special guest Lauren) dive into the nuances of navigating entrepreneurship during times of uncertainty (and especially economic uncertainty). Though COVID was our focus, Ally shares tips and trips for an ongoing sustainable business practice and how to constantly check-in to make sure your content and message is best serving your community. This was a LIVE and interactive recording, and we give a huge thank you to our guests for asking some powerful, guiding questions.

I asked, and you answered. Recently I was asked to present at a virtual conference by my friend Hannah Stainer and I was honestly stumped on a topic. So, I asked you all and this is the one that popped up to the top! In this episode we are breaking out different types of needs and diving into what entails a "needy" partner and how to fix it. I could probably give a longer description, but I feel this speaks for itself so let's get comfy (or go for that run) and listen in . . .

Join Lorena, Lucia & I as we delve into the healing abilities of the Akashic records. I only discovered the records recently and through my very first reading the theme that resonated most strongly was "healing". I felt a deep sense of presence and acceptance, and really overall security. It was probably the most powerful experience along my spiritual journey so far. So, I was obviously super excited when this proposed topic resonated for these incredible guests and I am thrilled at the varying perspectives we come together to share in this episode speaking to this common thread.

Topics Discussed: A new approach to the podcast/ The absence of information creating meaning/ Implicatures (see also Gricean Implicature)/ Prayer: How I do it and how it has changed/ How I force myself to stay present/ Engaging the senses in prayer and mindfulness

Have you ever made a decision that you knew was the right one but instantly following you were overwhelmed with feelings of anxiety, doubt, remorse, or apprehension? Same. For me it actually happened right after purchasing my wedding dress *gulp*. Sometimes, we do not have capacity to do the grounding and preparation before going into a situation and if you're like me, this can lead to lots of confusing feelings afterward that can be super difficult to settle. If you have - or are - experiencing this (what I am calling the "discernment hangover") this episode for you. I'm going into why it happens, what it means, and practical steps you can take to navigate these murky waters back to feeling confident and aligned in your decision.

Today, I'm getting ultra-vulnerable sharing my journey into sobriety: What it was like; What happened; And what it's like now. March 22, 2020 marks 7 years walking this path and I am so incredibly full of gratitude that today, I get a life. Also a crazy note, when recording this I decided to have a cup of my favourite tea, and the weight on the can was 222g. Then I realized, this episode is 22:22 long recorded on March 22. I decided to look up the numbers . . . 222 - A combination of "2" signifying balance and "22" which is the number of the Master Builder. It is a number that guides you to move forward in harmony and faith as you build toward your soul's desire. And 2222? A message from your angels to keep faith and trust everything will work out. WAY TOO FITTING. Let's dive in.

The title says it all. This episode is a deep dive (ayo!) into my approach to self-exploration (aka masturbation without an end goal). Full presence, sex magic, and an all encompassing state of orgasm.

Sharing my number one tip to set your day up for success (and also sharing some insight into what "success" means for me because, truthfully, this can be very different for each of us and that is an important part of this journey).

Have you noticed the influx of entrepreneurs posting about their morning hour long meditation, followed by 2 hours of intention-setting while watching this beautiful sunrise on the balcony of whatever Air BnB they are working remotely from for this month, in some tropical, humid location? **eye roll** Same. How many of you are actually living that life? Nope? Double same. And to be honest, I don't actually want to. What I do want is to feel like the life I am leading is sustainable, engaging, and supports me to do my best, day to day. This is why today Aly and I are diving into all things self-care. We talk about the self-care band aid (you know, those things that in the moment provide relief but long-term aren't necessarily working toward building an overall state of grounding or peacefulness - like showering at the end of a long day) and how to create an intentional self-care practice that serves you, where you're at, right now. And if you're anything like me, the "right now" is probably something more like trying to marinade chicken for tomorrow's lunch, while folding laundry, and writing this episode description . . . Let's do this.

Anyone else here read the book Attached? Same. Anyone else here test "Anxious Attachment" or even "Anxious Avoidant" depending who you were dating when you took that test (and yes, that's right - my results have changed in different contexts)? Anyone feel personally victimized by Re - Just kidding . . . Today, I am diving into why these anxious defaults come out especially in a long distance relationship (or during a distance-time of a relationship that usually has proximity in its favour) and some top tips for quieting the anxieties and beginning to cure your anxious attachment default. Fully honest, this episode in particular is something I am extremely passionate about because it was one of THE BIGGEST shifts I made in my own life and partnership, and I cannot wait to share this with you!

This episode was a hard one to get out. Reason being, I had initially planned a different topic but with the wedding planning in full-swing, that other topic just was not clicking for me. So I scrapped the plan and instead dove into something that is top of mind for me right now; And something I hope you will find helpful and that will resonate for you in some way. Today we are talking all about boundaries: Who they're for, how to maintain them, and what to do when they aren't respected and (almost inevitably) lead to resentment.

Hello, my name is Natalie and I am a recovering Catholic. Seriously though, when I began my journey into this spiritual/self-help/alignment community I had no f*cking clue who was on the other end of my prayers and meditations. Ask the universe for truth? Okay, but what does that even mean? What or who is listening and how are they going to show me the answers? I felt lost, and I was terrified that this meant I would slip back into my former way of existence and I knew that could not happen. There is a lot to unpack on that journey but for today, I am sharing the one foundational step that made all the difference for me on my journey to connecting with my higher power and building that understanding.

All right, let's get real. This talk about "desire as a guide" is wonderful but how do you actually implement it? Today I am sharing a real life story with you about a time when I let fear fully drive my decision and did not take time to discern whether it was in fact fear, or desire, that was pushing me forward. Plot twist: The thing I did yielded amazing results and I also fully recognize now that the way I entered it, was absolutely not in alignment and was 100% being driven by fear. Since hindsight is 20/20 this retrospective is a platform through which I can share with you what I *should've* done, in a practical and easy to implement way.

Renita and I are diving deep into the importance of semantics in our personal and communal growth. Today's conversation is focusing specifically on "woo" and what this term means, and how it serves (or doesn't) on our respective journeys. This conversation is a prime example of bridging that spiritual/analytic gap, and an introduction to perspective and critical analysis and I loved everything we talked about. Excuse the choppy audio - The original episode was recorded before I was gifted my wonderful new microphone, and I am still learning the tricks of editing. Progress not perfection, right? To check-out Renita's many wonderful projects go to instagram and find: @queerbrewpodcast @5songswith And if you're interested in any of the philosophy references we made today, head to google and checkout the Stanford Encyclopedia of Philosophy. I basically lived there during my undergrad.

This is a question I ask any prospective client. It seems so simple but it can truly illuminate so much of someone's story up to this point - How they believe they can access desire, why it can be accessed in that way, their permission to access it (or not). This question is so powerful in finding out exactly where someone is at right now, and getting a clear vision of where they want to move. At the base of this movement, and at the foundation of everything I do, is a specific definition of "desire" - or really a way of conceptualizing it - that is void of expectation and limiting belief. Today, I dive into exactly what that definition is and how to begin to access it in your life so that you can live in desire, every moment of every day.

This is the premier episode of the Living in Desire podcast. If you are looking to transform your romantic partnerships by taking practical steps that suit your specific, individual experience, then this is for you. On this episode I share with you exactly how that change is possible, and a glimpse at my personal journey and how these shifts happened for me. Sh*t gets real vulnerable, real fast. So, if you're ready for some real talk and are curious to get to know the person behind the podcast, let's do this!

Welcome to this very first trailer episode of Living in Desire! This Podcast is a culmination of a couple other projects, so that I can bring you all the inspired, turned-on, juicy content in one place. I am all about all things self-exploration, god, and romantic partnership and I know in my soul the magic that results from exploring the interplay between all of these wonderful things. My soul purpose is to help you live your most inspired, ignited life and to help you engage in conscious, excitable relationships! Are you ready? Let's do this.