My Sick Mind

Welcome to the end. The My Sick Mind podcast started as a weekly podcast, but we decided to accelerate the story. Enter the rabbit hole that leads to the end. Lo shares the most impactful stories that eventually end in the death (the suicide) of her sister. This story ends, but Lo's journey continues. A very special thank you to everyone who has shared this journey with her. Much love and peace. For a closed-captioned version, full transcript and/or more information about this episode, please visit www.mysickmindpodcast.com.  

Douche and peas pudding. What a delightful combination. Continue with Lo on her journey and find out why she’s a such basket case. Whatever you do, “don’t say a word to your father!” For information about this episode and more, please visit www.mysickmindpodcast.com.

Having to be the new kid every time Lo moved was tough, especially when she kept hearing the track that repeated in her head about what an embarrassment and disappointment she was in her parents' eyes. Listening to those constant voices in her head significantly impacted her self-confidence and feelings of self-worth.A special note from Lo to her listeners:Hello World,Thank you for being with me on this journey. Episode 12 brings us to the conclusion of Season 1 - The Early Years. I will be taking a two-week break to prepare for Season 2 - The Teen Years which will drop on Friday, April 9. In the meantime please check out my Twitter feed for details on how you can win up to $100. Thank you for all the love and support you've shown me. It means so much!Take good care and I'll talk to you soon!LoFor a closed-captioned version, full transcript and/or more information about this episode, please visit www.mysickmindpodcast.com. 

There were other events in Lo’s life that impacted her and helped steer her toward a dark path. An escaped mental patent brought a new element of fear into Lo’s life. Later, a prank phone call and a horrible fire that soon followed wracked Lo with guilt and shame. Maybe her parents were right in thinking that she was a shameful disappointment. For information about this episode and more, please visit www.mysickmindpodcast.com.

Lo has had to deal with some pretty tough shit for a little kid. The constant threat of manipulation, verbal abuse and physical abuse is ever present, but she is accepting her twisted life as normal. Lo’s acceptance of her life is developing her young mind to accept and normalize the unacceptable, but she has friends now so everything is okay—or is it? For information about this episode and more, please visit www.mysickmindpodcast.com.

A gas station bathroom, a box for two, a garage storage room and the unthinkable. Lo leaves Sh*t Girl behind when her father is transferred again, but life takes her down an even darker path.For information about this episode and more, please visit www.mysickmindpodcast.com.

An unexpected call, a Christmas card and a kindergarten class picture cause painful reflection. It damn well better not be Sh*t Girl!For information on this episode and more, please visit www.mysickmindpodcast.com

A picture is worth a thousand insults, “Hello neighbors, look at what a filthy little girl I have.” For information about this episode and more, please visit www.mysickmindpodcast.com

Still recovering from an assault, Lo suffers more heartbreak and shoulders the blame. And she hasn't even started kindergarten yet.

A barking dog, a half eaten hamburger, an assault and two terrified little girls. "Thank you, Daddy." For information about this episode and more, please visit www.mysickmindpodcast.com.

It’s still difficult for me to truly understand the dynamic between my parents although it was clear that my mother was the ruler of the roost. When my parents were in a rage, which was often, they seem to feed off each other, escalating the situation. My house was full of emotional land mines and by the age of 5, I started to learn that they each had their own triggers that I had to try to navigate. Or else. For information about this episode and more, please visit www.mysickmindpodcast.com.

After all, I was a filthy, dirty, horrible, nasty, shameful little girl that still feels unworthy and certainly, unlovable.For information about this episode and more, please visit www.mysickmindpodcast.com.

Hello World! Meet Lo.TRUTH. No sugar coating. The stories are sometimes hard to hear. But it's time to tell the truth about what happened.For information about this episode and more, please visit www.mysickmindpodcast.com.