Dealing with Nihilism

Interviewing my artist friend Lucy! This interview was done in Jenglish, a mixture of English and Japanese Website: https://lucyhwest.com/ Instagram: @amateluzart

Always "researching". How easily I am discouraged and how easily I find a new shiny, only to give that up for another new idea. It's tough to be an ENTP... Am I an ENTP? Location: hana's Date: January 17th 2020 Let me know your thoughts! dealingwithnihilism@gmail.com Check out: www.dealingwithnihilism.com/

Making soup, roasting brussle sprout, and drinking wine. Being grateful to have a puppy in my life and reminiscing my napa valley adventure back in 2015. Location: hana's Date: January 14th 2020 Let me know your thoughts! dealingwithnihilism@gmail.com Check out: www.dealingwithnihilism.com/

Getting stuck in the same cycle of giving up on things because of commitment level. Also looking for questions I can ask myself daily or something to give the podcast a bit more structure. Location: hana's Date: January 13th 2020 Let me know your thoughts! dealingwithnihilism@gmail.com Check out: www.dealingwithnihilism.com/

Visiting MOMA with my artist friend from Philly. It's cool to do things you normally wouldn't do, and it's cool to do things while you're high. Location: hana's Date: January 11th 2020 Let me know your thoughts! dealingwithnihilism@gmail.com Check out: www.dealingwithnihilism.com/ Show more

Losing the daily grove already. Not feeling like podcasting right now. Location: hana's Date: January 9th 2020 Let me know your thoughts! dealingwithnihilism@gmail.com Check out: www.dealingwithnihilism.com/

Why can't the dog figure out where to poo. Location: hana's Date: January 7th 2020 Let me know your thoughts! dealingwithnihilism@gmail.com Check out: www.dealingwithnihilism.com/

Drinking wine and trying to read the books that I dislike at a 24hour bistro as I wait for the dog to be done with his fur cut. Politics in fantasy is complicated. I get bored. Location: hana's Date: January 6th 2020 Let me know your thoughts! dealingwithnihilism@gmail.com Check out: www.dealingwithnihilism.com/

The doggo gonna get his first fur cut. Hana's leaving town and I am now responsible for the pup. Expressing strong feeling about office space. Why all the overhead lights? and the importance of windows that open. Location: hana's Date: January 5th 2020 Let me know your thoughts! dealingwithnihilism@gmail.com Check out: www.dealingwithnihilism.com/

Happy New Year! Feeling ready to tackle the new year by investing in myself. Continuing the theme of the weirdness of time and the pleasing nature of 2020. 2019 was just an awkward odd numbered year and this beautiful simple 2020 is a good sign that things are gonna go well this year. Location: hana's Date: January 4th 2020 Let me know your thoughts! dealingwithnihilism@gmail.com Check out: www.dealingwithnihilism.com/

The start of my internship and feeling like an idiot around all these smart people. Is this finally the start of my adult life? Commitment is good? Have I learned my life lesson that there's more than just the corporate world. Maybe. Yet here I am applying for corporate jobs.

Finally in NYC getting to meet my puppy nephew. As alway, I feel so alive when I am in the city. There is something so magical and surreal that it makes me a tiny bit emotional. Appreciating Hana's apartment. Waking up early tomorrow for the internship and feeling anxious. My opinion on clothes on dogs. Location: hana's Date: December 10th 2019 Let me know your thoughts! dealingwithnihilism@gmail.com Check out: www.dealingwithnihilism.com/

Darth vader socks and project for awesome. How I got into Youtube back in 2009. I am not so into fantasy/geeky stuff anymore. Am I becoming Susan Pevensie? Learning how to whistle and other skills to acquire as an adult. Location: grandma's Date: December 9th 2019 Let me know your thoughts! dealingwithnihilism@gmail.com Check out: http://www.dealingwithnihilism.com/

Packing for NY and nervous for internship. Using make up and day dreaming a lot. A few tattoo ideas and thoughts on ancient warfare. Want to know more about brain chemistry and looking into supernatural events. Location: grandma's Date: December 8th 2019 Let me know your thoughts! dealingwithnihilism@gmail.com Check out: http://www.dealingwithnihilism.com/

It's been a while. Recap of blueberry farm life and reflecting on life change since one year ago. My international babes left and I have to get over my fear of Americans. Hopefully employed for 2020. Getting ahead of myself and planning my NYC life and my New Years resolution. Black Friday shopping and fashion is important. Shane Dawson make up. Empowered by my short hair. How I’m dealing with nihilism now. Books and shows. Location: Grandma's Date: December 6th Let me know your thoughts! dealingwithnihilism@gmail.com Check out: http://www.dealingwithnihilism.com/

Finding it difficult to maintain a daily podcast on a farm in the middle of nowhere. Famous cowboy grandpa. Falling in love at the springs. Hoping to see manatees. Failing to learn how to dive. Want to do some ASMR. Jenglish situation. Finally buying a pair of ear pods. Magic German itch relief wand. Location: Blueberry Farm Date: November 3rd Contact at: dealingwithnihilism@gmail.com

Day 24 - Whispering by Rachael

Day 23 - Prepare For The Squirrel Hunt by Rachael

@Caceres Farm Angela and I gossiping about the Spanish royal family after another day of dealing with the spawn of lucifer, sand spurs. Nice solar shower, nice company, pretty pleased.

@Caceres Farm Struggling to find a quiet place to record, weeding out the devil plants and being bitten by ants.

@Caceres Farm Arriving at the blueberry farm, playing "catopoly" final night with the ladies, nice rooms, nice vibes, beautiful shower at night with the starts

@Serenity Acres Farm Last day at the goat farm, am I a hypocrite for traveling with a friend to my next wwoof even though i just said traveling alone is better, also i took an onine quiz to see if i'm really a nihilist

@Serenity Acres Farm Angela is coming with me to the blueberry turmeric farm, hana livin her NY life, I wanna be in NY, the best weekend of my entire life was spent in NY

Recorded @ Serenity Acres Farm on October 17th 2019 Making high quality goat cheese, reading Camus, convincing my wwoof friend to come to a blueberry farm with me and the meaning behind moles on your hands.

Spending holidays alone can be a good experience. Also I don't know what's happening in the world right now and I don't know if I want to know but I feel like I should know. The news is a pain

You don't have to go to Fiji to see beautiful water. Didn't expect to find this gem in North Florida. I am sorry for stereotyping you. This is a nice part of the country.

Full moons are magical. Finding appreciation in the morning moon. I think the experience is underrated

Ohhh such a first world problem choice. How to make more money to travel, should I stay in the states or go to Europe? The struggle

Nice to enjoy a day off from poop scooping. Blue springs was a gorgeous place to chill and read a book

I still don't know myself but I definitely didn't know anything about myself when I was 18. I was the flexible accommodating and low maintenance. I didn't know what type of college environment I would like or not like It would be fun if I got a chance to choose all over again

I want future me to promise that she will never forget the time when entropy was the scariest thing. I don't need her to continue to make this her primary fear but if she just dismisses this as a phase then i will be disappointed

I want to get better at explaining stories I kinda got mendokusai about explaining the whole plot but yeah i'll give you an update once i'm done reading power of six

Never really had any hobbies or passions so it's hard to make friends with cool people who have passions. I want to be the type of person who has cool hobbies

Many of the phobias I could avoid in a city are haunting me at the farm. Let's see how I handle it

It's just one of those things that happen sometimes. Random flash backs in moments of panic and you can't figure out what to correlation is. @Serenity Acres Farm

Only had half day on the farm and already psyched and convinced I will enjoy the experience. Tomorrow is a real full day so let's see how we feel after that.

Made the most of my limited time in Charleston. Met a high school friend, went to a historic house, and got to explore the cute neighborhoods of this southern town. I am pleased

Day 3 and I'm getting a better hang of how to record this stuff. I'm starting to get tired of all this driving.

Day 2 where I start to maybe miss Charlottesville? No offense to Asheville but it made me realize Cville is a pretty good ville.

Day 1 of the dealing with nihilism podcast! Don't be a perfectionist, just do it. I am just going to export this before I get too angsty.