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Waking up looked a little different this morning as we get our first snow. Lotta football loses over the weekend & a new betting scandal. Josh think Egg Rolls are the perfect human food, but what is happening on Thursday? Plus so much more on a big Mondeeeee show.
In this reflective episode, Colleen shares how a single morning meditation changed the trajectory of her entire day — and became a living practice for emotional sobriety. Waking early with her mind already spinning, she found herself caught in the familiar loop of pressure, striving, and self-imposed urgency. Instead of chasing a better plan, she chose presence. The phrase "I'm available to be here now" became a reset — a nervous-system gear shift that moved her from fight-and-fix into calm and clarity. From treadmill runs to team decisions, Colleen explores how availability opens the door to peace, creativity, and intuition. When we stop trying to escape discomfort and allow ourselves to be with it, we reclaim our power to respond differently — to build a business, a body, and a life that feels aligned instead of forced.
Hello future humans with self-agency inspiring human potential!Become a paid subscriber to access practical exercises that use mindset, mindfulness & mindsight to grow confidence, handle change with good stress, raise your frequency & inner stillness & ground yourself in VVS: podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/maria-florio/subscribeInspiring Human Potential spotlights higher-self mindset lifestyle POVs, stories, ideas & practices.Maria Florio inspires human potential by sharing the keys to inner growth & following your heart. She brings together human, spiritual, & spirituality elements to explore human evolution, consciousness, & being yourself. She looks at how sciences & spirituality together reveal the way to access infinite higher human consciousness potential when pursuing self-help, personal development, spiritual growth, & mental & emotional mastery. She also talks about how mindset & lifestyle, mindfulness, secure attachment, integration of the brain, & restorative embodiment lead to higher intelligence & fulfillment. She uses perspectives & stories from her self-empowered, enlightening, mystic, spiritual, & mindful life. From the age of eight, Maria decided she was going to help people when she grew up. A vague statement that meant to her, & still means, to help people live a good life as themselves.5D mystic POV stories on mindfulness, educational podcasts & being yourselfA securely attached self-led mystic, spiritual & mindful person knows inconsistencies for what they are: fear, fear of intimacy, emotional vulnerability & being yourself in connection.Be you, mindful & flawed with integrity.Love is supporting each other to fly. Love lifts you up when you're down & it soars the skies with you when you're up. Love is always there."The kingdom of God is within you." - JesusLove, Maria5D Mystic Spiritual Self-Help Mindful Mentor Podcast Spiritual & Science Human VoiceBringing Together Human, Spiritual & Spirituality Elements to Explore Human Evolution & ConsciousnessEmail floriomaria80@gmail.com for 1-to-1 Mentorship or Masterclass & Spiritual Workshops & Retreats info."It is the ability to bring out the best in others that makes you a leader." - Sadhguru"Mindfulness can help integrate the mind, body, & relationships, which can lead to well-being." - Dan Siegel, MD"A non traumatized person with a secure attachment has the capacity to regulate independently of relationships." - Pat Ogden, PhDSecurely attached self-led people are strong, brave & bring change for the better because we embody intelligence, expand consciousness & self.Be Yourself In Connection In Life & Love - 5D Mystic Functional Adult POVs & StoriesSubscribe on Spotify, YouTube: @inspiringhumanpotential, another favorite podcast platform you use, or Fanbase.5D Mystic Enlightenment Functional Adult Relationships New Stories To Heal Trauma Together & Bring Forth Your Humanity"If you are a piece of creation, the Creator is definitely embedded within you. You just have to turn inward to know." - SadhguruYou'll know the piece of creation you are once you're living life as a securely attached restorative embodied self-aware, accountable & regulating person.Love, Maria5D Mystic Woo-Woo Pseudoscience Self-Help Mindful Mentor & Podcast HostMaria brings together sciences & spirituality to support human evolution & consciousness, to shed light on love & you being able to be you, the authentic you - an inner child adult who has secure attachment, integration of the brain, & restorative embodied self-aware life potential with your personal motivation to do self-help & personal development that get your self-awareness to put into practice accountability & regulation skills with the mental, emotional, & physical mastery at play as you apply & use the inner growth mindset & lifestyle approach.Inspiring Human Potential Inner Growth 5D Self-Empowered Enlightened Expanding Consciousness Voices, Stories & Perspectives
On this weeks episode of One For The Road I am joined by Alexi Kruiz, a UK emotional being born to two different cultures, family split between love being expressed in chaos or avoidance. Using alcohol as a coping mechanism to feel more confident, feeling like the odd one out with sensory sensitivity.As time went on, gravitation towards chaos kept reappearing as it felt so familiar, though there were stints of sobriety throughout teens and twenties. Events such as having her mother become terminally ill, losing her first love, and being attacked abroad kept the dysregulation in motion, and without the right tools, alcohol and escape felt like the easiest way to cope. The grief became part of the addiction cycle, and it took lockdown, living alone, and a big awakening to moving into a guardianship of 40 people to bring up all the unprocessed feelings and emotions through all sorts of triggers. Once opening their own low-sensory hair business, which led to being headhunted to be a lead stylist, Alexi moved into their own home. The sudden loss of her stepmother to a long relationship with alcohol caused the family home to be lost, and Alexi's flat was filled with everything from the past. Overwhelmed, drinking came back as a coping mechanism — it all got too much. Waking up on the floor of the bathroom, two black eyes and a blackout, she knew that could have been her last day earth-side. Enough was enough. The victim of all things leading to that point had to be fully accepted with love. A late diagnosis of ADHD, self-work, and support from work, family, and friends — community really is key.Love is and can be peaceful. The search for chaos or comfort doesn't need to be the constant switch anymore. Chaos is now just an amazing tool and can be something powerfully productive. Being the love she needed will always be a reminder that we are our own remedy.If you want to connect with me via Instagram, you can find me on the instahandle @Soberdave https://www.instagram.com/soberdave/or via my website https://davidwilsoncoaching.com/Provided below are links for services offering additional help and advice.www.drinkaware.co.uk/advice/alcohol-support-serviceshttps://nacoa.org.uk/Show producer- Daniella Attanasio-MartinezInstagram - @TheDaniellaMartinezhttps://www.instagram.com/thedaniellamartinez/www.instagram.com/grownuphustle Hosted on Acast. See acast.com/privacy for more information.
One of the most powerful tools of personal transformation is also one of the most accessible: it's the story we tell ourselves about who we are and the future we imagine. It's a story we can update and recalibrate every day — no permission beyond ourselves required to create and recreate the person we want to be and the way forward.In this conversation, we continue the Epoch Journey series as Aviv Shahar and longtime Portals friend Jeff Vander Clute explore the process of self-authoring appraisal. How do we identify the blockages, possible pain and trauma, and limiting beliefs that hold us back from the vast field of larger potential that is our natural birthright?As we update and realign our values and mental maps of meaning, we liberate greater versatility and range, and foster new pathways into our deeper universal nature. Appraising who we are today and the influences shaping our lives does not deny or bypass real challenges we may face. It allows us to melt and heal many types of inner scar tissue and discover our natural resilience.Among Aviv and Jeff's other insights and discoveries:What external persuasions do we allow inside ourselves? A modern vulnerability is openness to impressions that foster self-doubt.If we deny the point of pain, or suppress unresolved trauma or unmet essential needs, then already we are in a distorted view, bypassing what the case actually is.We explore in the self-authoring appraisal process a way in which we let life itself lead us within the various domains of our growth, development and engagement.With enhanced resiliency available to humanity, the big question for the species is, are we going to make it? Do we have enough resiliency to shift from Homo sapiens sapiens to becoming Universalis?The self-authoring appraisal is a technology we can apply to almost any aspect of our lives, much like carefully attending to a garden, instead of running on autopilot and habit.We can receive guidance by connecting with our inner resources, or inner conclave. If we ask a question, and then clearly see our situation, we're already beyond it.In a post-guru, epochal transition, we all lead; we need each other. Through shared discovery and co-creating, we provoke ourselves and create a greater ecology for the divine.This conversation is part of the continuing Portals discovery into what is emerging on the frontiers of human experience in this time of profound change. Information about upcoming special events can be found on the Events page. Also visit and subscribe to our YouTube channel. TWEETABLE QUOTES “Life is open, life is an open system — the universe is actually an open system. So how do we live? How do we dance with life in an open system? It seems that you are pioneering certain understandings and modalities for how to dance with life, in openness. And in the openness each of us can show up fully, and very resiliently, and creatively. Openness is liberation, and inquiry grounds us in our own nature, which then allows us to continue to express and flower.” (Jeff)“Just capturing two words from what you said that are so central to this appraisal process, and to being generatively creative in telling the story of your life anew every day. Waking up in the morning and saying, 'No, I was who I was yesterday, and today I'm telling the story again in a new way.' You are your own creator. You wake up in the morning and you have permission to rewrite your story today. That is, in what you said, that stopped me.” (Aviv) RESOURCES MENTIONED Portals of Perception WebsiteAviv's LinkedIn Aviv's TwitterAviv's WebsiteResilience and the Crisis of Belief
Waking up in the morning…in a new apartment! Gia’s ready to be the ‘hostess with the mostest,’ so why does she say she’ll be back home in no time? Plus, bar hopping and furniture shopping, Gia discusses the expensive side of adulting!See omnystudio.com/listener for privacy information.
Waking up in the morning…in a new apartment! Gia’s ready to be the ‘hostess with the mostest,’ so why does she say she’ll be back home in no time? Plus, bar hopping and furniture shopping, Gia discusses the expensive side of adulting!See omnystudio.com/listener for privacy information.
SHOP OUR MERCH *LIVE UNTIL MIDNIGHT*:https://kampusklothes.chipply.com/thewhorrorspod/A medical examiner isn't quite the path Austin envisioned for himself, but when a case rolls in interesting enough to postpone date night, he learns it's not investigating the dead he's in for…it's waking it. Investigate the centuries-old identity of the woman on the table in 2016's The Autopsy of Jane Doe.***CONTENT WARNING: discussion of sexual violenceFollow us on Instagram at @thewhorrorspodcastEmail us at thewhorrorspodcast@gmail.comArtwork by Gabrielle Fatula (gabrielle@gabriellefatula.com)Music: Epic Industrial Music Trailer by SeverMusicProdStandard Music License Halloween by Alex-Productions https://soundcloud.com/alexproductionsmusicCreative Commons — Attribution 3.0 Unported — CC BY 3.0Free Download / Stream: https://www.audiolibrary.com.co/alex-productions/halloweenMusic promoted by Audio Library https://youtu.be/z3yEgDi0fEESources: Adams, Jane. “‘The Autopsy of Jane Doe' and Waking the Witch Within.” Rue-morgue.com; 2023. https://rue-morgue.com/the-autopsy-of-jane-doe-and-waking-the-witch-within/ The Autopsy of Jane Doe Wiki: https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/The_Autopsy_of_Jane_Doe The Autopsy of Jane Doe IMDb: https://www.imdb.com/title/tt3289956/ “‘The Autopsy of Jane Doe': A Theory” Reddit, posted by u/Bitter_Truck492, 15 Oct. 2024. https://www.reddit.com/user/Bitter_Truck492/
In this episode of the Wounds of the Faithful Podcast, host Diana Winkler interviews Pastor Mark Sowersby, who shares his powerful testimony of overcoming childhood abuse and finding forgiveness and healing through faith. Mark recounts his early life filled with abuse, meeting Jesus at 16, and wrestling with his identity as a victim. Through the love of his church community and personal determination, he not only found freedom but also pursued education and ministry. He also speaks about reconnecting with his birth father and how the loss of his mother catalyzed the launch of his ministry, 'Forgiving the Nightmare'. The episode serves as an inspiring account of transformation, resilience, and the power of unconditional God's love. 00:00 Introduction and Sponsor Message 00:47 Welcome to the Podcast 01:25 Introducing Pastor Mark Sowersby 01:40 Technical Difficulties and Apologies 02:17 Pastor Mark's Testimony 05:49 Childhood and Abuse 07:10 Finding Faith and Forgiveness 18:06 Weight Loss Journey and Healing 23:08 Dyslexia and Education Struggles 24:42 Writing a Book and Ministry 28:14 Reading the Bible: Audio vs. Written 28:27 A Life-Changing Christmas Story 29:20 Overcoming Illiteracy with Help 30:14 A Love Story Blossoms 30:56 College Journey and Divine Guidance 32:49 Answering the Call to Ministry 33:13 Struggles with Self-Worth 35:15 Finding Confidence in God 35:56 Weight Loss and Self-Love 40:01 Victim to Victor: A Personal Transformation 45:00 Reuniting with Birth Father 48:20 Launching Forgiving the Nightmare Ministry 54:40 Final Thoughts and Prayer website: www.forgivingthenightmare.com email: mark@forgivingthenightmare.com Bio: Reverend Mark Sowersby has been married to his wonderful wife Jennifer for 17 years and is the father of four children. Mark has been an ordained minister with Assembly of God for over 25 years and is currently the Pastor of Christian Assembly of Schuyler in beautiful upstate New York. Pastor Mark holds a BA in theology from Zion Bible College/Northpoint Bible College. In 2019 Pastor Mark went through a time of great healing. He began speaking about the experiences of his past and God's grace and the transformational work of forgiveness in his life. He now speaks about his story through his ministry, Forgiving The Nightmare. When he isn't serving his congregation and his community through ministry, teaching, and support, you can find him on all the trails and lakes in Upstate New York, spending time with his family. 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Welcome to the Wounds of the Faithful Podcast, brought to you by DSW Ministries. Your host is singer songwriter, speaker and domestic violence advocate, [00:01:00] Diana Winkler. She is passionate about helping survivors in the church heal from domestic violence and abuse and trauma. This podcast is not a substitute for professional counseling or qualified medical help. Now here is Diana. Welcome back. You made it well. I have a great guest for you today. I told you about him last week. Pastor Mark Sowersby and he has knocked this interview out of the park, and we had an amazing time. We did not have an amazing time with the Zoom platform. I could not hear him, but he could hear me, and it was a half an hour of back and forth trying to get it to work. So I wound up having to record this episode on our phones with the earbuds. So I don't normally do [00:02:00] that. I usually have my $300 studio microphone. So if it doesn't sound as good, I apologize. But this content is so great that I think you'll forgive me, but I'll try to do some, post-production, to make it sound better. So without further ado. Here is Pastor Mark. Yeah. Nice. Nice to meet you. Yes, nice to meet you also. And I saw your wife there too, so, and I think you saw my husband's beard anyway. Yes. And my wife is the strength and the brains of this operation around us. I'm blessed. I'm a blessed man there. Amen. Thank you. Yes. So we got the, um, the technical, uh, demons outta the way. Well, I appreciate that. We tried two computers and my Apple phone. And I have to tell you, I am a novice at computers at best, so Yeah, me too. So we're kindred spirits for sure. Amen. Amen. And I read your testimony about your [00:03:00] website and your faith and your podcast and everything. What a beautiful testimony you have. Oh, thank you so much. So you, you're in Arizona, is that correct? Yes. Wow. Wow. Well, I have to tell you of one of my bucket lists because I'm a northeast guy. I'm a New England, New York. We have snow. It's freezing. They're saying we could have a possible blizzard tomorrow. Uh, I love that. Go to the Grand Canyon. That's my, on my bucket list. My, my family. Hear me speak about that all the time. I've never seen it. But I long to, let me tell you, it's more breathtaking than you can imagine. The pictures don't do it justice. I've been there many, many times, of course. And yes, you should come as soon as you're allowed to travel. I would be over here. Yeah. There's so much more to see. We long to go. We really want to see it. You know, if somebody said, you really see the significance when you look at that great canyon and you see how [00:04:00] small you are, it humbles you and reminds you of what a great big God we serve. So, you know, we just, uh, amen. Thank you for hearing my story and my testimony, and it's an honor to be here with you and celebrate the victories that we have in Christ. Amen, brother. We're gonna get to know you a bit here for my listeners. So why don't you tell the, listeners a little bit about yourself. My name is Mark Sowerby. I'm a husband, a father, a friend. I'm a sports fan. I eat too much. I talk too much, but I'm a pastor and a servant of Jesus Christ. I was looking at all your pictures and stuff, and I saw your progression of your weight loss. That is so amazing. Thank you. Thank you. And my weight loss journey is really just a symptom. Or result of the greater healing that's taken place in my life. Uh, I'm very proud of it. It's something [00:05:00] I have to work hard for and be very disciplined in. So yes, there's a work towards it, but really it's the sub to the main plot. The main plot is what Jesus did in my heart to help me forgive and help me heal the abuses and the pains. And as that began to fill my life, this weight loss journey with the discipline and that burning good habits and exercising, and I'm up to running, uh, six miles a day on the treadmill. So, wow. Six miles. Yeah. So well, remember, we're not in Arizona heat, so it's not hot, well, I have a treadmill. That's usually what I exercise on. I have an exercise room, I don't run unless somebody's chasing me or the laxative has started working. Those are good reasons to run. so let's start at the beginning. So what was your childhood like? Well, unfortunately I have a story of brokenness, pain, and sorrow. I was born from an affair. Uh, so my [00:06:00] father never really had a relationship with him. I am assuming that as soon as he, uh, got the news, he, he left. So I was raised by my mom. I have two siblings that my mom had from a prior marriage. So the three of us kind of lived together at my grandmother's house, and that's what I knew. That was what life was. I was seven years old. A young man came into our family, and that young man eventually married my mom 20 years, her younger, and when he came into our home, he brought abuse and pain. He brought death and destruction. He brought lies and poison. And as any abuser, those abusers have touched many people. And as not only did he abuse my mom in a and. With just vulgarness and pain, but he also abused me and with sexual abuse and physical abuse and emotional abuse. And it was just a very difficult time in my life. So from seven to 14, that's kind of the world I knew. Not only did he abuse my body, not only did he steal from [00:07:00] me, my dignity, my value. Not only did he try to control me, but he also sold me for other men to abuse me. Mm-hmm. Other men to take my body. He stabbed me and beat me and burnt me. And at 16, I was invited to church, I ran into a youth group. And, uh, there's a whole story in that. But let me tell you, I ran into youth group and I ran into Jesus. Jesus was Amen loving. Amen. Jesus's loving arms. He wrapped him around me and started me on the journey, journey of forgiveness. And it's been a journey up. I just turned 50. We just lost my mom earlier this year. Wow. They say a flu. Some say COVID, but we lost her earlier this year and it was really kind of a season for me to walk through some even deeper, deeper healing. We have a lot in common. 'cause I just lost my brother this week. I'm so sorry. I'm so sorry for your loss. Yeah. So we both have losses today. Yes. Yes. I'm so [00:08:00] sorry for your loss. You as well. Thank you. Your mother was a believer? She was at the end of her life. As we say, the 11th hour of Thief on the cross remember me. Mm-hmm. My mom did have one of those kind of conversions. Unfortunately, she never, the last few years of her life, she came to understand Jesus, but she never forgave herself or forgave. Her pain. She lived with the regrets and the shames and the guilt of her pains. She knew the love of Christ, and I believe that when she closed her eyes on this earth, she opened her eyes there because of what Christ did for her. But she carried this burden of shame and guilt and hurt. But I forgave her, not because I'm special, not because I'm better. I forgave her because Christ forgave me. And in that journey of learning with to forgive people say to me, how could you forgive such a great thing? I just forgave what was in front of me. That's it. Step by step, precept by precept. That's how I forgave. I [00:09:00] couldn't think about the whole journey all at it was too hard. What's in front of you? Well, we'll definitely get into, your process of forgiveness. Would it be okay to, circle back to your stepfather coming into your life? Now it sounded like it was a very violent to way he treated you. Did he do any grooming of you to start the abuse or was it violent right away? I believe there was grooming, again, being so young and, uh, being so, uh, naive. I probably didn't recognize it, but I'm sure there was grooming you know, there was this natural longing. From a child without a father to find a father figure. Mm-hmm. Um, being so young, not understanding the process of that, and any person that would gimme attention, I would run to them to try to find somebody who would govern me or lead me or [00:10:00] guide me or accept me. So I'm sure there was some manipulation in that, as I became more groomed or broken or became more pliable, if you would, because of my young immaturity. He began to have more of his way on it, just so you know. And I always refer to him as my mother's husband. Never as my stepfather? Yes. Oh, I'm sorry. Yeah. Oh, no, you didn't offend. No, I have forgiven him. I think in forgiveness, it's okay to have, uh, some boundaries. Sure. I think that, to have some healthy boundaries, I've forgiven him. I've put him in the hands of God, and I pray the grace of God will meet him and his pain and his sorrow, and only God can reach him. Uh, but again, there's some healthy boundaries around my life and my families. So what was your relationship with God when you were going through all this abuse? We grew up in a very religious home. I was a New England Protestant, so most of New England are [00:11:00] Irish Catholic, Italian Catholic, Polish Catholic, French Catholic. But I was the rare Protestant. And I remember saying to my grandfather one day, I asked him, I said I, well, let me back up and say, I always knew what I wasn't. I knew I wasn't a Catholic, but I didn't know what I was. So, grandpa used to tell us we weren't Catholic. He announced that pretty clearly. But one day I asked him, I said, then if we're not Catholic, what religion are we? And all he said was, go ask your mother. So, you know, we didn't really grow up in any kind of. Formal faith-based community, uh, you know, sometimes went to Christmas Eve service, you know, those kind of what we call Sea Easter and Christmas. The CE. The CE crowd. That's right. But it really wasn't, a church was not a part of my life. We knew God was there, be good and you go to heaven, be nice to people, you go to heaven. But there really wasn't a faith-based situation. I'll be honest with you, uh, the [00:12:00] only religion I got, or the only faith I got was the one album that was played in our home. It's not a Christian album, it was Jesus Christ Superstar. I'm a kid of the seventies. Yes, I'm very familiar with that. Yeah. And but God's name is so powerful now as a Bible college graduate, as a pastor, I could see all the holes of the theology in that and how it was really written, dragged down the gospel. They say Jesus Christ, and as a child, that name is so powerful. So, I mean, I didn't know anything. So here I was, I, I remember seven years old with a big headset on sitting in front of the speakers and listening to Jesus Christ Superstar. And, and now I realize what a mockery it was. But then just the name has power. Yeah, there was no resurrection in that movie. No, no, no. You know, when you have Mary Magdalene sing to, to him and say, you're just a man, [00:13:00] only a man. I mean, it's such a mockery. But again, at eight years old, 10 years old, I thank God that all truth belongs to God. Amen. And his name is so, amen, powerful. Amen. That every knee shall bow and every tongue will confess that Jesus Christ is Lord. And as that name, Jesus was smoking, it pierced my darkness. Now, I didn't know about crying out. I didn't know about prayer, but God was preparing me for such a time. And at 16 the lifeguard at the apartment complex invited me to church. She was a pretty girl, and I didn't wanna say no. Uh, she invited she invited me and picked me up with her boyfriend. Oops. We went, yeah, we went to church that night and there began my journey into meeting Christ, knowing his mercy and grace into my faith walk and it's been a journey ever since. So is that when you, met the Lord for real [00:14:00] and got saved? Exactly, I was 16 years old. It was the early part of the summer and I went to that youth group and everybody told me that. To throw away my rock and roll music and to cut my hair and take my earring out. And everybody wanted to hug me and I didn't wanna be hugged by anybody. It's an evangelical Pentecostal church. And I was like, I don't, yeah. But come to find out, the youth pastor lived in the same apartment complex I did. I had a ride to church anytime it was open. So, later on that summer, mid-August, I remember a man inviting me, a young man from the youth group. It was raining. He was giving me a ride home. We got into his car and he asked me right there, uh, mark, do you wanna ask Jesus Christ to be your Lord and Savior? And we prayed right there the sinner's prayer. And I recognized the grace of God and the mercy of God and the Spirit of God. And at 16 years old, I asked Jesus Christ to be my Lord. And I thank him that he was calling me at such a time. So, and then I [00:15:00] had to grow up. Wow. And then I had to grow. I was still 16 with a messed up background and, still was spilling life all over myself. But that church loved me. They hugged me and kicked me in the can at the same time. Now were you out of your mom's house? Away from your abuser? Well. When the abuse first became, and I don't wanna say public, but when it became outside of the family when I meant the first person I confessed it to or, or shared it with, was my uncle. And I think that people have to remember my abuse happened from 19 7 7 to 1984. And the awareness and the advocacy that's out there today wasn't there then. And things like this happen behind closed doors. And I think culturally, not everybody, but culturally in most families said, we keep that stuff behind closed doors. We don't share it. We handle it as families. I told my uncle at [00:16:00] 14 years old. He was the first person I confessed to, and I ended up living with my uncle for about a year. He became my defender. So from about 14 to about 15 and a half, I lived with my uncle, and about 15 and a half I moved back with my mom. And yes, her husband was still there. But he, uh, he was very sickly at this time. So, he wasn't able to hurt me physically anymore. And I was strong enough to not allow anybody to hurt me anymore. So Now you said the word confess. Well, you didn't do anything wrong. Thank you. I, yeah, I just meant, I told. You shared your story, your abuse, uh, your victimization. So yeah. You don't have to apologize for anything. Amen. Thank you. That's right. It was probably a poor choice of words. I was just reading. I announced to my uncle, or I, I shared out, I took it out. I took it outta that simple family unit that I would tell my mom, [00:17:00] my mom having so much hurt and pain in her life, didn't know how to handle that. And just would say, well, he promises not to do it again. And he promised not to do it. And of course, so in a lot of ways I felt like my mom was a victim. And, and. Even though I've had to learn to forgive my mom because of what she allowed to happen, but in some ways, not that I justify it, but I've begun to understand it. Because she was abused by her first husband who broke her heart because, uh, just pain who had many affairs on her, and she was so broken down, so hurting and she did not understand love. I think she, um, interpreted love in a very, uh, trying to think of the word here you know, an enabling way. My mom was more of an enabler and I think she interpreted her love in enabling. So she enabled people. I mean, it sounds like [00:18:00] codependency. Was that the word you're looking for? Yes. Okay. Yeah. Thanks. So you struggled with your weight for years. Was that a symptom of your. Abuse your childhood? I, I think it was, you know, I'm, I'm not a psychologist or, a social worker. I'm a preacher, but you know, I think what I was trying to find in food was comfort, friendship. It always accepted me, uh, it comforted me when I was having a bad day and it rewarded me when I was having a good one. But like any drug, if you would, it lies to you. And it says, Hey, is everything will be okay. Just have a little bit more, have a little bit more, and, it just is. So for me, food became my drug of choice. Mm-hmm. Uh, it became where I found comfort, found peace, found acceptance. I punished myself with it. Boy, I'm no good. I'm going to eat ice cream. Oh, I'm having a great day. I'm gonna eat [00:19:00] ice cream. So, you know, it was one of those things. Uh, what I tell people is that I wish I could say to you that, that God has taken away all the hurt, all the pain, all the sorrow. It's still there in my life. It's still a familiar. Familiar pain that continues to call to me. But what God did is he became bigger. He became bigger than the pain. He became bigger than the shame. He became bigger than the hurt. So is it still there? Sure. And the flesh wants to run to it. And the psyche wants to run to it because I know it, it's comfortable. I, I know my role there. I, I understand what my protection and my manipulation that I can find there. But God became bigger. God became bigger. You know, I was telling a friend today, and I climbed a mountain after I lost about 50 pounds. I climbed a mountain. And it was about a half a mile long. And to me it was Everest. It was the biggest mountain in the world. And it took me hours [00:20:00] to go up and I had blisters on my feet and bruises on my toe. I was very proud that I climbed it. But after I lost about a hundred pounds, I climbed the biggest mountain in the state of New York called Mount Marcy. And what was the difference between those two mountains? One was bigger and I think that's the same thing. What happened to me is that even though that sometimes the enemy wants to try to bring me back to those familiar pains, those familiar insecurities, those familiar foes, God became bigger. His word, his spirit his love all became bigger. And I have to hold onto that and I have to claim, not claim it, but I have to run into it. You know, I have to run into that every day. So. Oh, you would love the mountains here. We have so many mountains to climb. So yeah. If you come to Phoenix, then we'll have to go hiking together. Yes. I wanna see that Grand Canyon. I wanna come to Phoenix. I am a New Englander, but it's cold [00:21:00] all the time here. But I hear that you guys leave for the summer and go back in the winter. We leave for the winter to warm places because it's so hot in Phoenix in the summer. Yeah. We're not snowbirds. We are here all year. Now we get to 110 every year. That's, that's normal. It gets to 120 here every summer. But this year it was 55 days of 110 degrees. Wow. Which, um, that killed all my plants and, uh, two of my trees, so Wow. Yeah, it's 70 degrees outside now, but in the summertime it's brutal. Wow. Don't come in the summer. Come in the winter. Okay. I, um, I did get to do a mission chip for Juarez, Mexico, which is obviously south of you guys and a little east, but at the same time, I got a touch of hot weather and I have done a lot of missions trips to Central America and the Caribbean, but they do have a different climate because of the sea and the water. So it's not that dry heat. [00:22:00] It's, definitely that, more moist, heat. Yeah, I think you'll do fine. Like I said, I looked forward to it. We were just in Israel in, November November, 2019, and it was 85 degrees. In Jerusalem and I roasted, I had such a hard time because the elevation was different and the humidity from the from the sea. Yeah. I don't know if you've been to Israel, I have not. Another, another bucket list, yeah yes, definitely recommend that for sure. Thank you. My wife and I, we love to travel. You know, we, we have four children, so right now our kids are in the ages of 15 to seven, so we are right in the midst of it. You know, we're, we're mom and dad, taxi and, and we homeschool. So my wife is going a hundred miles an hour all the time. Pastor wife. Homeschool mom and she's taking care of [00:23:00] me. So, I mean, this is, God bless her. If there's a hero in this story, it's my wife. Your wife's a homeschooler. Um, you had said in your story that you had dyslexia growing up. What was that like? Well, you know, I think that I still have it. Uh, God hasn't, hasn't healed me from it. So what happens is, is I tell people when the way I was raised, I survived my childhood. I wasn't raised, you know, I didn't have parents that, that looked out for me. I didn't have somebody who wanted to govern my experiences or, or was an advocate for me. So I, I really just kind of survived my childhood and one of the casualties of that. Was my education. Uh, it was the early seventies, so I think there was a lot going on with sight reading and some different kind of philosophies of teaching. So here I was in a broken home with a learning disability. I [00:24:00] was being bullied at school because the way I felt about myself and, you know, so yeah, reading has always been a chore for me. It still is a chore today. But again, the lord, he helps and he, he brings me through and he gave me a brilliant wife. Uh, she is a, a teacher by education. And my children love to read. My son will walk into walls. He reads books this thick. I mean, and I remember holding him the moment he was born, praying, Lord, give him just a heart for reading. And he does. I mean, my son 15 says, dad, can we go to the library? Love the library. Oh, he, yeah, we're friends with the librarian. Uh, if they need somebody to help him out, move books and they call him. But yes, reading has always been a chore and I, believe it or not, I'm in the midst of writing a book. Oh, I was just gonna ask that if you had a book out or not. We are just started to speak to a publisher, it's self-publishing company. Uh, so we're definitely in [00:25:00] conversations. We have written, just kind of let it pour out of me. It's been there for 50 years, so just kind of. And, uh, now we've kind of put it in front of people who really know what they're doing. I tell everybody, I wrote it my ways, I handed it to my wife and she interpreted it and made it legible. And, uh, we have some local friends who have done some basic editing, so they're kind of editing for us, and now we're sending it to the publisher who knows how to edit in a professional way. So, so, you know, the Lord told me years ago that this testimony would be written down. I remember I chuckled when he told me that because I said, Lord, I can barely read or write. And I remember saying to the Lord, Lord, if you want this written down, what am I gonna call it? He said, you'll call it Forgiving the Nightmare. So that's why the name of the ministry, the name of the book, the name of the website is called Forgiving the Nightmare. I think everybody uh, regardless of [00:26:00] how one came, you know, yours and I came in by probably hands of other people's, but sometimes nightmares come in by all different ways. Loss, regrets pains, hurts. And we all have to kind of say, Lord, how do we go through that? And I know as Christians, we want it instant, you know, we wanna stand on the word, we wanna claim it, we wanna save. Lord, give it to me. But I think sometimes we have to, uh, go through the process. I think of Jacob and how he wrestled with God, or he wrestled with the angel and they wrestled all night long. And, and God, the angel touched his hip and then he said, what do you want? And Jacob said, I want a new. And he became Israel, the promise. Mm-hmm. So he left deceiver, as you know, and he became Israel promise. And I think sometimes in that journey of forgiveness as much as Christians and people, we want it and we want it so true and so earnestly, [00:27:00] but sometimes we have to wrestle. We have to wrestle with the past. We have to wrestle with ourselves, we have to wrestle with the fears, and wrestling doesn't make us bad, doesn't make us sinners, doesn't mean God has left us. I think God's working with us, the process as a pastor, I've seen so many people who are unwilling to go through the process. And they get stuck. They get stuck in the cycle, in the the hurts and the pains of life. Just kind of build up on them. And I know God wants to set 'em free, but again, it, you have to learn to die to self crucify the old man, you know, tame the tongue. And it's hard. It's hard, especially when everything in the, especially when everything in the world tells you you're okay to have that. It's okay for you to hate. It's okay for you to be angry. It's okay for you to, when God says, for us to let him go first, let Him lead us. And God is, if we forgive those who trespass against us, he'll be faithful and just to forgive us. [00:28:00] And that scripture boy haunted me for a long time because I said, Lord, I'm not ready to begin. I'm sorry I'm preaching. No, you're awesome. I'm enjoying this. Um, I'm curious how you read your Bible. Do you use an audio bible or do you, um, do use an actual written Bible? Well, I do read Bible. I like the ESV, I like the NIV, I like those verses. I do read it. I do listen to audio at times. What happened was, is about 20, I was in my early twenties and a woman at church asked me to read the Christmas story out of Luke in front of the youth group. Now, when I say youth group, we had about a hundred youth in our youth group, maybe even 150. It was a large youth group and she was the kind of woman who would not take no for an answer. You know, the church lady? Yeah. I think every church has one of those. Yeah. And you know, I tried to give her every excuse in the [00:29:00] book, I lost my glasses. I was too embarrassed to say that I couldn't read. So I got up in front of the youth group and I read out of Luke chapter two and I. Stumbled over my words and I read slowly and I read broken up. And people were very kind to me that day. The youth pastor and the youth group, they were not cruel. And after service, that woman came back to me and said that she homeschooled her children and she would like to homeschool me if I'd want to. Now I was, I was a grownup. I was 23 and I went back to her house and there I sat with her 6-year-old, five-year old as she was teaching her 5-year-old, 6-year-old how to read. She was also teaching me phonics. I never learned phonics. I tell everybody, when I learned TION and Sean and not ion, it changed my life. Unbeknownst to me that church lady had an older daughter [00:30:00] and that older daughter watched me. Watch me struggle over my words, watch me go to the house and sit with her five-year-old sister and learn ae IOU and learn the rules of bowels and phonics. Well, years later, that older daughter would become my wife. Oh. Oh. So, yep. So, you know, she told me that she fell in love with me and she watched me there. And so that, that's a little bit of our love story. But yeah, she watched me from afar and, and now today we have four kids together and she still helps me read. So I do read. I a much stronger reader than I ever was. Uh mm-hmm. So I, I can read a much better than I could then. Well, I certainly can see looking back that you had so many people in your corner to that God sent to help you, and what a blessing. Now, did you go to college? I did. I [00:31:00] graduated from what's now called North Point Bible College. At the time, it was called Zion Bible College. It was in Barrington, Rhode Island. It was a very focused school for ministry only. Uh, so I did go there. I didn't wanna go there. I'm a New Englander. I knew about the school. It was in my backyard. I wanted to go to Southeastern to Florida. I wanted to go to pennsylvania and go to Valley Forge. Uh, those doors were not open to me. I remember saying, the Lord, I'm done. Lord, I've tried. Everybody's rejecting me because of my education. And he said, go to Zion. I went in and I met with the Dean of students. In that meeting, the dean of students said to me, mark, do you have a call? I said, yes, I believe I do have a call. He got up from his desk and he went to a big picture window, a woman who was walking in front of his picture window, and he tapped onto the window and he called this woman in. As she came [00:32:00] into his office, he introduced me to a woman named Jan Kruger. He let me know that Jan was led by God to go to school, to go to Zion the week earlier than me to start a learning center. And Jan and I became our first student in the learning center and we worked hard. The first year, most of my, classes were uncredited 'cause I had to learn how to be a student. I didn't know what a syllabi was. I didn't know how to take tests. Uh, we sat in that learning center. I cried, I complained. She was a mom. She hugged me sometimes and she told me to. To suck it up sometimes. And, uh, that was the best advice I could get. So yeah, i'm a proud graduate of Zion Bible College, and I'm ordained with the Assembly of God. So when did you get called into the ministry? Well, pretty much after, it was about my 17th year, 16 years old, I got saved and 17 years old, I was [00:33:00] at a Youth convention, and I pretty much felt like the Lord called me then. Now, I ran from that call for a long time because of my insecurities, my fears, my inabilities. See, when I walked into the room, I always felt like I was junk. Like I was dirt. Like I could offer nobody, nothing. And I was, no, you know, I, that's how I felt about myself. So who would let me be that pastor? What do I have to offer? I could barely read. Look what happened to me. So. For many years I wrestled with it and about 24, 25 years old, I had a brand new truck, little S 10 pickup truck. They called it Bernie because it was purple. I was listening to Petra, remember a Petra? I love Petra. And I was, I was listening to Petra from the seventies not the nineties. Petra and I remember I was listening to Petra and the Holy Spirit filled with the cab of that car and that truck I had to [00:34:00] pull over. I was on old post road. I'll never forget tears coming down my face. The Holy Spirit spoke to my heart and said, mark, choose this day whom you'll serve. I've called you and I will equip you. And I said, God, I want you. That's when the journey of. Colleges, and I wish I could tell you it was all roses and cherries after that. It wasn't, you know, there's still a lot of growing up and a lot of overcoming, and a lot of dying to self. And, and there still is. But yeah, that's how I got called and I went to that school and they loved me. They were honest to me. You sound like you had a lot , in coming with Moses with his speech impediment. He was, exiled to be a goat and a sheep herder. They're not gonna listen to me, Lord. You know? Did you feel like that? Oh, sure. I sure did. Like I said, I, for most of my life, I felt like what can I offer? So what I did is I put a facade on myself or I, I lived up to the role that I [00:35:00] thought people wanted from me, or a role to, to find acceptance or protection. So, if I had to be the clown, I was the clown. If I had to be the fool, I was the fool. If I had to be the weak, I was the weak because I felt those things about me. Recently in this weight loss journey and this giving, God has given me confidence. And I say that with much humility because I know it's not my confidence, it's confidence in him. But I've never had confidence before. I feel like a carpenter with a new tool. I feel like, you know, a businessman with a new suit that I've never had confidence before. Now again, it's not confidence in what I have. Because I'm still weak, but it's a confidence going, my Abba father makes a way for me. My Abba father heals me and, and goes before me. So it's, it's a kind of a new season for me to be confident and say, you know what? I can live a healthy life. People ask me why I lost the weight. [00:36:00] And I remember I was reading the scripture, and you're probably familiar with it, is when the Pharisee comes to the Lord or it says to him, Lord, how does one enter the kingdom of heaven? And the Lord says, well, what is written? He says, Lord, love the Lord your God with all your heart, with all your mind, with all your strength, and with all your spirit, and love your neighbor as yourself. I've read that a million times. I've preached on it. I've studied it. One day I was reading it, he said, Lord, I know you love me, mark, but you don't love your neighbor, and you don't love yourself, so you can't love your neighbor. And I realized because I didn't love myself, I wasn't taking care of myself. I love my children. I love my wife. I wanna take care of 'em. They don't need me. I wife can, but I want to. I wanna do things for, I wanna take care of 'em. I wanna help 'em be better and stronger and smarter and wiser, and love the Lord. And I realized I didn't love myself. So the weight loss journey, forgiving the nightmare, forgiving my mom, forgiving the abusers, forgiving those [00:37:00] who betrayed me as a child, helped me begin to love myself again. No visions of grander. I'm still a just a normal guy saved by grace. Uh, I still put my big foot in my mouth, my wife can come in and tell you all the stories, but, uh, but you know, I started to love myself and. It sounds like, you found your self worth in the Lord Jesus because Jesus sees you as his child. You are a child of God, and that's where your worth is. So it sounds like your healing journey brought you to that place. Yeah. It's not self-confidence like the world says it is. It's how God sees you. You're precious and you're loved. Amen. And you're valuable. He died for you. Hallelujah. Hallelujah. You're gonna get me going now. Hallelujah. Hallelujah, hallelujah. I want others to [00:38:00] experience this. You know, I, my whole ministry, I've been surrounded by hurting people and hurting churches. I've worked with people that have had major traumas in their life. Not that I ever sought it. I can't. I think the Lord just led me to it. And as I've worked with people, people say that I've been able to bring comfort. I'm easy to talk to. I thought, well, okay, Lord. And I want people to find that freedom that I have. I understand being shackled to pain in the past. I understand allowing those things to form the way you think about and believe about yourself, and never truly being set free. Waking up with that numbing feeling of brokenness all the time. All the time, just constantly. But God truly set me free. He set me free. And because he set me free, I'm nobody special. And being a pastor, I see so many people that have a [00:39:00] form of this and they don't. They haven't gone through it. So they're still living with a confession in Christ, but still the hurts of the past. Blame them. I don't, I'm not putting fingers, I'm not taking the log out on my own eye before I take the twig from their eye. But I'm saying the freedom that God has for his people. Uh, and again, do we still stumble? Yeah. Do we still need refining? Sure. Are we still the clay? And he's still the potter of court, but there's a freedom that we find as a pastor. I've just met so many people who will say, pastor, I'm killed. I'm delivered. And you realize it's, it's only an inch deep. It's, you know, as soon as they get tested, as soon as they get, get bothered, it just spills out. It pulls out of them in, in a defense or in, in a rejection or in a way they, they have a self view of the world or of themselves. Now God's consent is free. God can set [00:40:00] us free. So, what's the difference between being a victim and being victorious? Hallelujah. Well, in my humble opinion, a victim is somebody who always sees themselves broken, sees themselves in a way that, that that allows them to stay in their victimhood. For a long time, my victimhood became my identity. I remember one day when the Lord brought me to the altar and he said those words to me. He said, mark, I want you to give this up. And I literally said, in an audible voice, Lord, if I'm not a victim, then what am I? Because all I knew was the, the role of being a victim. Oh, my victimhood was good. I could manipulate with it. I could win every argument with it. Oh, when I was 16 years old, my mom, who was a single mom with not much money she bought me a car. I had a phone in my room. I had cable on my own [00:41:00] tv. She made me breakfast in bed. Why she owed that to me. Why? Because I was a victim. And I got to see how I could win every argument at school. I could put my head down and I could lift up my head and go, well, who here else was molested? I was, and no one would say anything. And the Lord rebuked me at that and said, said, yeah, that's what victims do. At least that's what I did. He said, I wanna make you victorious. And I remember him saying, me saying to the Lord, if I'm not a victim, what am I? And he said, you're victorious in me. I had to learn what it meant to be victorious. Amen. I had to learn to let that facade go. Let that personality go, let that old man die and let the new man of Christ rise up inside him. That is awesome. I just love that. I've never heard anybody describe it like that. Now, I prefer the, word survivor instead of victim. But I think you took [00:42:00] it up another notch. We are, victorious in the Lord. Well, my victimhood, you know, as much as I was a victim, but I used it for my own gain. Mm-hmm. Which made me just as not guilty of what happened to me, but made me not a healthy place. It put me in a Right. But it's all I knew, you know, I could manipulate, I could win the argument. Right. I was the guy. Who else here was stabbed and burnt and abused? I could show you my scars where they stabbed me. I could show you the burn marks. I was prostituted for other men to abuse me. Boy, you know, I could really win the, the argument. But that was wrong. Yeah, it was wrong. It was wrong to put that on my mother, it's wrong to put that on my family. It was wrong to put that on others. And the Lord had to rebuke me and, uh, wow. And he did, because he loves, he rebukes the ones he loves, so he rebuked you. I just so appreciate your raw [00:43:00] and honest, telling of your story. Because, you've heard stories where they just put the fluff or they put the stuff that's gonna, bring up the ratings or whatever. But you really, kept it real. And I think you're a great pastor because people see that you're a real person. You're not some fake up there that can't relate to your congregation's problems, do you feel that way? Oh, definitely. You know, my congregation, as you know, like we talked earlier, I wrestle with dyslexia and every once in a while I'll stumble over a word while I'm reading the Bible and in front of my congregation. And, and that really bothered me for a long time. My Lord, I'm a pastor. How can I not read this and now. When I stumble over a word, my congregation yells it up to me. So I'll be on the platform. And you know what? They'll see me stumbling and you know, they'll yell it up to me and it's just a term of endearment. [00:44:00] It's not been one of rejection or shame, and I say, you know what? I'm doing that just to make sure you're in the Bible. That's what I tell 'em. But I'll be reading the scripture and, and my dyslexia kick in, or, or the word will be all scrambled. And, and they're the kind voices. Oh, pastor, that's, that means this. And, and it's kind of a nice direction. I tell people the church I pastor is a real church with real people serving a real God. Wow. So, wow. Fancy fluff. Church don't come to us because, you know, we're real and we cry together, we do life together. We step on each other's toes. We don't always agree, but we always love God. That is so awesome. Pastor of Christian is Alia Scott. That's right. I didn't announce your church name. I wanted to ask you to tell another story about. You said that you met your birth father at one point. What happened during that reunion Union? [00:45:00] Well, I was 45 years old and I wanted to reach, I wanted to know, I tell people my birth father and I met at the right place in life. I think if I would've met him younger, I would've still been angry. Rejected Kyle, but I was 45. I was the father of four. I've made my own mistakes, my own problems. I learned to mature a little bit. To be really frank, my father's wife passed on, so he was more ready to meet me. So his wife that he had the affair on to si me, if you would, she passed. So he was more open to meet me and uh, I just didn't meet him, but the whole family met him together. We met in a restaurant, we met in Cape Cod, Massachusetts, and the family came in and the kids instantly. Started to call him grandpa. I thought, I don't know if I'm okay with that. And he never rejected it. So the last few years of [00:46:00] life, we just lost him. I, I had him for about four years. It wasn't warm and fuzzy, daddy and son, but it was something, we had a relationship. We'd talk about sports, we'd talk about life. He was a snowbird from Massachusetts to Florida and he just kind of let me know. So I'm very thankful for the four years I had. Again, it wasn't, Hey buddy, I'm proud of you kind of moment, but I got to find out a little bit about. Who my dad was and who some of my relatives are on my father's side. I got to learn about some of the health conditions of, of my father. And you know, he said he was pretty, he made it to 84. He liked to drink and he liked ladies, I like Jesus, I like one lady, Wow. That's an incredible story. I tell people it was the right time. Again, if I would've met him at 25, I would've been angry. I would've said, you know, why did you abandon me? 45 was a good time because. You know what, by that [00:47:00] time I, I stepped in enough life of my own to, to not, to be slow to judge, oh, God does have the perfect timing. I haven't spoken much about my story at all on here, but my husband and I talk about, boy, I wish that we had met, long time ago, you know, and skipped all the pain because we were both victims of abuse from our previous spouses. I'm sorry. And, um, but we thought about it and we thought we were different people. If we met at that time, I don't think I would've been interested in you and you wouldn't have been interested in me. And, I think that God brought us together this time of our life. No, we've been married 11 years. Congratulations. Thank you. So, God brought us together at our time of life because that was the perfect time and Sure. We're best friends. We never even have had a real fight. We didn't disagree, of course, but now you should write a book [00:48:00] about that. Okay. I mean, we disagree and, um, get on each other's nerves, but the Lord has just, you're normal. Just blessed us. Yeah, we're definitely normal. Um, especially during pandemic. It's like you learn about your spouse when you're stuck with them 24 7. Right? That's true. That's true. Yeah, we had to make some adjustments. Amen. And, um, we still love each other, and that it's great when you're talking about times of life, you know, for such a time as this, and I think for me, the Lord spoke to me years ago about forgiving the nightmare ministry. He actually spoke to me when I was in college about this. I didn't know it was gonna, uh, blossom or what it was gonna look like, but he spoke to me years ago about writing it down and it was always inside me. And I kept, my wife knew about it. We would always think, how's the, what's the Lord gonna do with this? Is it distant inside me to guide me through life? Is it more for others? Is it, Lord, how's it, how's it [00:49:00] gonna? Blossom if you would manifest. And we lost my mom and I have to tell you that, not immediately, but pretty quick. After losing my mom, I felt like this ministry could just launch. And it has launched. God has brought, brought a web designer into our life. He's brought some, um, producers into our life to help me tell the story. We're talking with a, an editor and a publisher. All this has happened fairly quickly. And I think, Lord, why now? And I think, to be honest with you, and this is just my opinion, I, I don't know if I have chapter and verse to back this up, but my mom was so embarrassed. She was so full of shame because of my upbringing every time for the last 20 years of my life, every time me and my mom were alone together, she would just apologize. And I don't just mean say, sorry. She would grovel and I would say, mom, I forgive you. I forgive you, [00:50:00] Marky. I'm so sorry. I'm so sorry. And if my mom knew that I was speaking to podcasts or writing a book, she would've been so, so embarrassed. So she may, it would've just troubled her so much. So I think outta the grace of God, and again, don't have chapter and verse, but I think upon her passing released me to be able to share this story, to be able to bring others into it, to just think God was being merciful to my mom on her journey. And again, it was almost pretty instant after her, uh, her own passing that I remember being on the treadmill one morning and the Lord just kind of. Just impressing upon me by giving the nightmare. Remember those words? I spoke to you. This is where it's gonna take place. And since then, we've made a couple videos, uh, we've launched a website. I'm talking to wonderful people like yourself and just trying to get the [00:51:00] story out of forgiving the Nightmare and trying to say to people whatever that nightmare was. Was it physical and sexual abuse like mine? Was it a tragedy in your life? Is it regrets? Is it fears? Is it the loss of a child or a loved one? Whatever that pain is that your nightmare. I want you to know that God can help you forgive it and overcome it and break the shackles so we don't have to be the man or the person. The hurt tried to make us. We no longer have to be Jacob. We can become Israel. Your mom would be so proud of you. And I think that, thank you. If, the Lord's probably told her, you know, the good things that have come out of a terrible situation, she said she had, you said she had some shame. Oh. I think if she was looking down at you now that, that shame would be gone. [00:52:00] That shame is no longer there. Look how God's using my son, my, my wonderful son to spread the gospel and to help people. And so Well, thank you. I'm so thankful for you, brother. Thank you for saying those words, sister. It's very kind of you. I used to say to my mom, even up to her last days, I would say, mom, who's your favorite? And she would say, I love you all, all the same. And I'd say, mom, stop lying to my siblings. I'm the youngest of three. My older brother and my older sister never made me feel like a step or a half brother. Uh, we just kind of always lived in the same house. We got real family problems and just life, but they've never left, never met me, felt, never let me feel like I was less than even to today. So I'm very thankful. My oldest sister, who is, a second mom to me, my oldest sister, she is my second mom and I'm thankful for her. So. Wow. Well, we [00:53:00] just had just a great time tonight. When your book comes out, please contact me. I would love to have you on the show again, to promote your book because obviously you, your story is so powerful and we wanna get it out to as many people as we can. So, tell the folks how to connect with you. Well, the best way to connect with me is@forgivingthenightmare.com. Forgiving the nightmare.com. Forgiving the nightmare.com is the best way to connect with me. If you go there, you'll find a email, it's called mark@forgivingthenightmare.com. That comes directly to me, right on my phone. So that's the best way to connect with me. Also you can go to our Facebook page called, forgiving the Nightmare. For giving Nightmare Facebook page. I try to put up pictures and little devotions there and stories there. So that's the two. Best way through Facebook, after Giving the Nightmare, after giving the Nightmare do [00:54:00] com, those are the best ways to connect with me. And I hope to get so Arizona someday. You have an open invitation. Wow. I'll be a tour guide for you. I know that Arizona like the back of my hand. Wow. Wow. Now my children could hear you in the background, so they're gonna be pretty excited about that invitation. There's so much stuff for, for their Edge group as well. So, we will hook you guys up. So thanks for being patient with the tech stuff and I'm glad we pushed through and didn't let the devil get the victory tonight. We found a way to get you on here. That's right. May I pray for you as we close. Oh yes, please. Thank you. Father God, we just come to you tonight and we thank you again for your son, Jesus Christ. Lord, we thank you for the sacrifice that he gave to us upon the cross, Lord. And we pay the price we could not pray, Lord. And we thank you for the gift of life [00:55:00] and life more abundant. Lord, we thank you for the promises. It says in this life there will be many troubles, but fear not because you are with us always. And Lord, tonight I pray for my sister. Father, I thank you that you're using her Lord. To spread the gospel to share, hope to be a light and a dark place. But Father, now, I pray that you come beside her father as she's shared that she's lost her brother this week, Lord. And I pray you comfort her. Lord, you said you had to go so the comforter could come. I pray, the comfort of the Holy Spirit will come beside my sister and be with her and her family as they grieve their loved one, their family member, their friend, Lord. So Lord I pray peace upon my sister. I pray Lord that you use her, continue to bless her. I thank you for the testimony of her and her husband, 11 years that you've brought together for such a time as this. I pray, Lord God, that they grow closer to you so they can grow closer to each other. And Lord, we thank you tonight [00:56:00] that Lord, we're no longer Jacob. You've made us Israel Father, no longer do we have to be shaped by our past, but now we can hold on to the promises. Lord, no longer does, we have to be shackled by somebody else's abuse, and we can be set free by your word. So, Lord, I pray that you fill us. You lead us, and may we be the light and may we be the salt, and may we lift up your name. We pray for a unity across our nation. We pray for a healing across our land, and we pray, Lord, for a revival of your salvation to come to our our country again, in Jesus name, amen. Thank you so much, brother. God bless, sister. Thank you. Take care yourself. Bye now. Bye. Thank you for listening to the Wounds of the Faithful Podcast. If this episode has been helpful to you, please hit the subscribe button and tell a friend. You could connect with us at [00:57:00] DSW Ministries dot org where you'll find our blog, along with our Facebook, Twitter, and our YouTube channel links. Hope to see you next week.
Where being on Meth just makes sense....? Today we are talking about The Waking Dark by Robin Wasserman. This book somehow proves anti-vaxxers right but not in the way they want. Listen if you like teens using radios, football players in love, and a mayor living out his dream of becoming town dictator. WARNING: Murder, death of children, sexual asualt, substance abuse, religous extremism, homophobiaBecome a supporter of this podcast: https://www.spreaker.com/podcast/book-cult--5718878/support.
Greetings! Today's is another in this series of “lost” Tools Chats recorded with my friend and colleague Andrew Moss . It's about an important tool on my journey that I still find extremely helpful even today, I Am Not My Thoughts. We hope that this will be a super helpful episode for you on your journey.Enjoy!* Would you like to be part of our final Tools Chat coming up in November 2025? Email me here and we'll get you in the room!* Consider subscribing to this newsletter so that it shows up in your inbox, instead of you having to go search for it :)About this Series…It's really a podcast within a podcast!In these “Waking Up: The Tools” conversations Andrew and I discuss the essential tools we developed that helped me grow into the person who hiked all by myself across northern England in 2023… After needing a wheelchair to go more than a few steps in 2011.We've called this series Waking up: The Tools because they're featured in my award-winning memoir, Waking Up. We're featuring these tools here on ACWB in this latter part of 2025, collecting them all together for your listening pleasure.See you soon! Thank you for being along on the journey.With Love,KayKay Lock Kolp M.Ed. - Coaching | Art | Writing | Shows: https://kaylockkolp.comThe quote I live by: “Till this moment I never knew myself.” - Jane AustenArt Creativity & Wellbeing is a reader-supported publication. To receive new posts and support my work, consider becoming a free or paid subscriber. This is a public episode. If you'd like to discuss this with other subscribers or get access to bonus episodes, visit kaylockkolp.substack.com/subscribe
Former Buddhist monk and Mindfulness Exercises founder Sean Fargo lays out a clear, compassionate roadmap for teaching mindfulness and meditation — with confidence, credibility, and heart. Drawing from his journey (from cloistered practice to prisons, clinics, classrooms, and companies), Sean distills what actually works so you can help others be more present, resilient, and self‑compassionate—without overcomplicating the practice. In this episode, you'll learn: Why compassion is the foundation of every effective mindfulness teaching A simple way to meet fear, judgment, and imposter feelings—and keep going How to introduce mindfulness experientially (story → teach → tool) Three techniques to make it practical and relevant: prepare, listen, ask The templates & credentials that open doors (e.g., MBI‑TAC, Search Inside Yourself) How to find your voice for guiding meditations (and a non‑fussy recording setup) Essentials of trauma‑sensitive mindfulness and the window of tolerance The #1 long‑term success factor: community and consistent teaching practice Mentioned resources: A Clinician's Guide to Teaching Mindfulness; Learn to Teach Meditation and Mindfulness; MBI‑TAC; David Treleaven's Trauma‑Sensitive Mindfulness; Peter Levine's Waking the Tiger; Search Inside Yourself; Insight Timer. Learn more about your ad choices. Visit megaphone.fm/adchoices
Waking up at 1AM? 3AM? 4:30AM? Your body is screaming for help—and this episode decodes the message. We break down the real causes behind your restless nights, from histamine spikes and cortisol crashes to liver detox overload and adrenal dysfunction. You'll also learn Chinese Medicine sleep wisdom, and exactly what to do (tonight!) to get deep, restorative sleep again. Listen now and finally understand why sleep isn't working—and how to fix it. https://fitmom.co/apply" rel="nofollow">Work With Us - Revive & Thrive
27th Oct 2025 In this Satsang, Sanjay focused on exploring the nature of consciousness and self-awareness across different states of existence, with emphasis on understanding the unchanging essence that remains constant despite physical and mental changes. Sanjay delved into identity, liberation, and spiritual realization, explaining how self-investigation and inquiry can lead to the recognition of pure awareness that transcends the limitations of physical form. The conversation concluded with insights about the relationship between spiritual growth, personal experience, and the role of teachers in guiding seekers toward enlightenment and self-realization.These are teachings and pointers from ongoing NDA(Non-duality awareness)/Advaitic Satsangs held at Bhagavan Ramana Maharshi Centre in Melbourne, Australia. Om Namo Bhagavate Sri Arunachala Ramanaya !
After forever and half, welcome to Season 8 my lovely ghosts and ghouls! Kicking this season off, we have none other than the Queen of Philippine Horror Stories herself, Yvette Tan. Yvette is one of the Philippines's most celebrated and beloved horror fiction writers, winning numerous awards including the prestigious Don Carlos Palanca and Nick Joaquin Literary Awards. Her books include Waking the Dead, Seek Ye Whore, Kaba: Limampung Maikling Kuwento ng Kababalaghan at Katatakutan!!! You can find her latest book, Insect Hag, at your favorite bookstores around the Metro. Visit this link for more information on where Insect Hag is available in stock or has been restocked.Grimcast Manila is a podcast of creepy stories from around the metro. Hosted by self-confessed scaredy-cat Antonette, the show invites a series of guests to come tell their ghost stories and other creepy tales. From things that go bump in the night to ghosts that seem to want to tag along, Grimcast features tales of real first-hand experiences. Grimcast Manila is produced, recorded, and distributed by Big Baby Studios.
Grieving Out Loud: A Mother Coping with Loss in the Opioid Epidemic
A 2012 documentary, The Queen of Versailles, introduced the world to David and Jackie Siegel, the powerhouse couple behind Westgate Resorts. The film showcased their booming business, lavish lifestyle, and bustling household of eight children. But behind the glamour, life took a devastating turn. The Siegels' world came crashing down after the loss of their 18-year-old daughter, Victoria — a tragedy that reshaped not only their family but also their life's work. While they knew about some of Victoria's struggles, her diary revealed painful truths they never fully understood.In this episode of Grieving Out Loud, you'll hear Victoria's story, what her family wishes they had known, and how they're now using their grief to raise awareness and prevent other families from experiencing the same heartbreak.Purchase the diary - Victoria's Voice, Her Words from Beyond the GraveVisit the Victoria's Voice websiteEmily's Hope websiteLearn more about Angel ArmySend us a textBehind every number is a story of a life cut short, a family shattered, and a community devastated.They were...daughterssonsmothersfathersfriendswiveshusbandscousinsboyfriendsgirlfriends.They were More Than Just A Number. Support the showConnect with Angela Follow Grieving Out Loud Follow Emily's Hope Read Angela's Blog Subscribe to Grieving Out Loud/Emily's Hope Updates Suggest a Guest For more episodes and information, just go to our website, emilyshope.charityWishing you faith, hope and courage!Podcast producers:Casey Wonnenberg King & Kayli Fitz
Rescue Dogs Trained To Be PTSD Service Animals For Vets: From Shelter to Service. In a powerful Special Episode Podcast of the Law Enforcement Talk Radio Show, listeners are introduced to an inspiring story of second chances, for both people and dogs. Brett Simon from Big Dog Ranch Rescue in Palm Beach County, Florida, joins host Jay Wiley to share how rescue dogs are being trained to become PTSD service animals for veterans. The Law Enforcement Talk Radio Show and Podcast, is available for free on their website, also on Apple Podcasts, Spotify, Youtube and many other podcast platforms. “Every dog deserves a chance, and every veteran deserves help,” says Simon, a former Police K9 Handler and Military Combat Contractor who spent years working with canines in high-stress combat zones. “When we connect the two, a rescue dog needing purpose and a veteran needing healing, something extraordinary happens.” The Law Enforcement Talk Radio Show and Podcast promoted across their Facebook , Instagram , LinkedIn , Medium and other social media platforms. From the Shelter to Service At Big Dog Ranch Rescue (BDRR), the largest cage-free, no-kill rescue in the United States, dogs once abandoned in shelters are given new lives through their Veteran Service Dog Training Program. The initiative not only transforms the lives of veterans struggling with post-traumatic stress disorder (PTSD) but also saves the lives of the dogs themselves. Look for supporting articles about this and much more from Law Enforcement Talk Radio Show and Podcast in platforms like Medium , Blogspot and Linkedin . The program's mission is simple yet profound: give rescue dogs a second chance by training them to become PTSD service dogs for veterans and active-duty military personnel. “We're giving hope twice,” Simon explains. “To the veteran who's struggling and to the dog who was once unwanted.” Rescue Dogs Trained To Be PTSD Service Animals For Vets: From Shelter to Service. The Healing Power of the Human-Animal Bond PTSD service dogs are specially trained to perform tasks that help alleviate symptoms and improve daily functioning for individuals living with post-traumatic stress. These dogs offer comfort, protection, and companionship, often becoming an essential part of a veteran's healing journey. Available for free on their website and streaming on Apple Podcasts, Spotify, and other podcast platforms. Some of the trained tasks include: Interrupting flashbacks or anxiety attacks: by nudging or placing their head on their handler's lap. Providing comfort: through deep pressure therapy by leaning or lying against the veteran. Blocking and covering: positioning themselves in front or behind the veteran to create a sense of security. Waking from nightmares: recognizing distress and gently waking the veteran. Encouraging social interaction: helping veterans reconnect and feel more at ease in public spaces. “PTSD doesn't go away overnight,” Simon says. “But when you have a loyal companion who senses your anxiety and helps ground you, it changes everything. These dogs are trained not just to obey, they're trained to care.” Rescue Dogs Trained To Be PTSD Service Animals For Vets: From Shelter to Service. The Law Enforcement Talk Radio Show and Podcast episode is available for free on their website , Apple Podcasts , Spotify and most major podcast platforms. Backed by the Veterans Administration The Veterans Administration recognizes Big Dog Ranch Rescue's program as a “Non-Traditional and Innovative” form of therapy. Through this recognition, BDRR works closely with the VA to ensure veterans receive comprehensive support while integrating their new service dogs into their daily lives. Training is provided entirely free of charge for veterans, although those from out of state are required to complete a 21-day on-site training session at the ranch in Florida (which may be spread over several months). Sponsorship opportunities are often available to help offset travel expenses. Each veteran-dog partnership is unique. BDRR's professional trainers use positive reinforcement techniques, tailoring each dog's training to match the veteran's individual needs and lifestyle. The dogs receive full vaccinations, microchipping, and access to reduced-cost veterinary care during their first year through BDRR's veterinary healing center. The full podcast episode is streaming now on Apple Podcasts, Spotify, and across Facebook, Instagram, and LinkedIn. Brett Simon's Personal Journey Brett Simon's credibility in this mission comes not only from his professional background but from his personal experience. As a Police K9 handler, Military K9 contractor, and combat veteran, Simon has lived through the trauma many of these veterans face. Rescue Dogs Trained To Be PTSD Service Animals For Vets: From Shelter to Service. “After my deployments, I struggled,” Simon admits in the podcast. “PTSD isn't something you can see on the outside. But working with dogs again helped me reconnect, with myself, with others, and with purpose.” His story of PTSD recovery resonates with countless veterans who find traditional therapy incomplete or inaccessible. Simon emphasizes that service dogs are a complement to, not a replacement for, existing mental health treatment plans. “A dog isn't the cure,” he says, “but they're part of the healing.” You can find the show on Facebook, Instagram, Pinterest, X (formerly Twitter), and LinkedIn, as well as read companion articles and updates on Medium, Blogspot, YouTube, and even IMDB. Science Supports the Bond Research has shown that PTSD service dogs help reduce anxiety and depression, improve emotional stability, and foster social connection. One study noted that veterans paired with service dogs reported a significant decrease in symptom severity and an improved quality of life. The unique human-animal bond offers veterans structure, companionship, and unconditional support — qualities often difficult to find after leaving the military. “Every partnership is different,” Simon explains. “Just like people, every dog has its own strengths. We simply find the right match.” A Mission of Hope and Second Chances At its core, Big Dog Ranch Rescue's Veteran Service Dog Training Program is about rescuing dogs from shelters and rescuing veterans from isolation. Rescue Dogs Trained To Be PTSD Service Animals For Vets: From Shelter to Service. Don't miss this episode of the Law Enforcement Talk Radio Show and Podcast. “Our mission is to end dog homelessness,” Simon says. “But in doing that, we're also ending hopelessness for so many of our nation's heroes.” Veterans interested in the program can apply through Big Dog Ranch Rescue's website or reach out via their Facebook, Instagram, or LinkedIn pages. Listen to the Full Story To hear Brett Simon's full conversation about transforming Rescue Dogs into PTSD Service Animals for Veterans, tune in to the Special Episode Podcast of the Law Enforcement Talk Radio Show available now on Apple, Spotify, Youtube and most major podcast platforms. Rescue Dogs Trained To Be PTSD Service Animals For Vets: From Shelter to Service. This special episode of the Law Enforcement Today Radio Show and Podcast is available now on Apple Podcasts, Spotify, and LinkedIn Audio, with featured content and discussion clips shared across Facebook, Instagram, and other social platforms. Stay connected with updates and future episodes by following the show on Facebook, Instagram, LinkedIn, their website and other Social Media Platforms. Find a wide variety of great podcasts online at The Podcast Zone Facebook Page , look for the one with the bright green logo. Be sure to check out our website . Be sure to follow us on X , Instagram , Facebook, Pinterest, Linkedin and other social media platforms for the latest episodes and news. You can help contribute money to make the Gunrunner Movie . The film that Hollywood won't touch. It is about a now Retired Police Officer that was shot 6 times while investigating Gunrunning. He died 3 times during Medical treatment and was resuscitated. You can join the fight by giving a monetary “gift” to help ensure the making of his film at agunrunnerfilm.com . Background song Hurricane is used with permission from the band Dark Horse Flyer. You can contact John J. “Jay” Wiley by email at Jay@letradio.com , or learn more about him on their website . Get the latest news articles, without all the bias and spin, from the Law Enforcement Talk Radio Show and Podcast on Medium , which is free. “If you enjoy the show,” John Jay Wiley adds, “please share it with a friend or two, or three. And if you're able to leave an honest rating or review, it would be deeply appreciated.” The Law Enforcement Talk Radio Show and Podcast is available for free on Apple Podcasts, Spotify, YouTube, and LETRadio.com, among many other platforms. Rescue Dogs Trained To Be PTSD Service Animals For Vets: From Shelter to Service. Attributions Big Dog Ranch Rescue Service Dogs of America Psychiatry.org Veterans Administration Hosted by Simplecast, an AdsWizz company. See pcm.adswizz.com for information about our collection and use of personal data for advertising.
Sleep Continuum is a SpiritCode Transmission, an energy-encoded audio experience that merges advanced sound frequencies, delta-wave entrainment, subliminal re-patterning, and energetic healing to restore the body's innate ability to stay asleep and regenerate. Every layer, audible and inaudible, is encoded with tones, binaural precision, and multidimensional energy work that continues long after you drift into sleep. This Transmission reprograms the body, subconscious, and energy field to experience sleep as safety, to fall into a deep and restorative sleep. Each SpiritCode Transmission™ is a living energetic field that interacts directly with your subconscious mind, emotional body, and energy body, performing real-time repair through frequency. Through a precise fusion of delta-wave entrainment, binaural harmonization, subliminal reprogramming, and quantum light coding, this Transmission rewires your entire system to remain in deep, unbroken sleep while your vibration rises.
Greetings! Today's is another in this series of “lost” Tools Chats recorded with my friend and colleague Andrew Moss . It's about an important tool on my journey that I still find extremely helpful even today, The Law of the Universe. A note for paid supporters: with my travel this past month I have drafted, but not yet finished, the chapter of my forthcoming book that should have been yours in October. I am excited to share it with you in early November.. Thank you for your patience ❤️ I appreciate you and your support.This was done as a LinkedIn live back in Spring 2025, so the production and sound quality is a little different than what you're used to… But we hope that this will be a super helpful episode regardless.Enjoy!* Would you like to be part of our final Tools Chat coming up in November 2025? Email me here and we'll get you in the room!* Consider subscribing to this newsletter so that it shows up in your inbox, instead of you having to go search for it :)About this Series…It's really a podcast within a podcast!In these “Waking Up: The Tools” conversations Andrew and I discuss the essential tools we developed that helped me grow into the person who hiked all by myself across northern England in 2023… After needing a wheelchair to go more than a few steps in 2011.We've called this series Waking up: The Tools because they're featured in my award-winning memoir, Waking Up. We're featuring these tools here on ACWB in this latter part of 2025, collecting them all together for your listening pleasure.See you soon! Thank you for being along on the journey.With Love,KayKay Lock Kolp M.Ed. - Coaching | Art | Writing | Shows: https://kaylockkolp.comThe quote I live by: “Till this moment I never knew myself.” - Jane AustenArt Creativity & Wellbeing is a reader-supported publication. To receive new posts and support my work, consider becoming a free or paid subscriber. This is a public episode. If you'd like to discuss this with other subscribers or get access to bonus episodes, visit kaylockkolp.substack.com/subscribe
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Can't sleep through the night anymore? Waking up sweaty, restless, or wide awake at 3 AM? You're not crazy - your hormones are shifting. In this episode of Boss Bitch Radio, we're taking you inside a real coaching call from the Healthy and Hot Method membership, where we dive deep into why midlife women struggle with sleep and how to fix it without adding more overwhelm. You'll learn what happens to your hormones like progesterone and estrogen as you hit midlife, how poor sleep affects your recovery, muscle tone, and belly fat, and what you can do to finally get deep, restorative sleep. We also cover how to set yourself up for better recovery, more energy, and fewer night sweats. Grab your journal, take some notes, and start sleeping like the confident, energetic woman you want to be! Join the newsletter for more behind-the-scenes tips, cheat sheets, and practical tools → https://www.bossbitchradio.com/newsletter #MidlifeSleep #SleepForWomen #HormoneHealth Key takeaways: 00:26 A little sneak peek inside the Healthy and Hot Method membership 00:55 Why sleep matters so much in midlife 01:24 How your hormones mess with your sleep 01:57 Real-life tips to start sleeping better 06:20 How to track your sleep and what it tells you 07:00 Healthy sleep habits that actually work 08:05 What alcohol does to your sleep 09:40 How your dinner timing affects your rest 10:34 The truth about screens before bed 11:24 Simple ways to make your bedroom more sleep-friendly 14:42 How your workouts impact your sleep 16:10 The caffeine cut-off you should actually follow 17:31 Using breath work and meditation to calm your mind 19:23 Supplements that might help you sleep deeper 20:38 Wrapping it up - how to start improving your sleep tonight Links Mentioned: Join us in the Healthy and Hot Method! Get $25 off your first month with code PODHOT - https://www.bossbitchradio.com/healthy-and-hot-method Join the Iconic Coaching Academy! Limited 1:1 spots available - https://www.bossbitchradio.com/iconic-coaching I'm loving this Cathy Heller's program is packed with gems. Check it out here! https://cathyheller.samcart.com/referral/thisabundantlifebycathyheller/kLZu9Gj7RIEtBF2Q Hey! Have you heard of ClassPass? They're giving an exclusive free trial (with 20 bonus credits!) only available to friends of mine. https://classpass.com/refer/U37R31GQ30 Connect with Diane: Website: https://www.bossbitchradio.com/ Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/dianeflores_ifbb_pro YouTube: https://www.youtube.com/@dianeflores_ifbb_pro Join the Boss Bitch Besties Fitness Community: https://www.facebook.com/groups/dianefloresifbbpro Freebies: Lower Body Blueprint: https://www.bossbitchradio.com/lower-body-blueprint Protein Snack List: https://www.bossbitchradio.com/protein-snack-guide Full Body Training Program: https://www.bossbitchradio.com/full-body-gym-program Fit Girl Gift Guide: https://www.bossbitchradio.com/fit-girl-gift-guide My Favorite Supplements: https://www.bossbitchradio.com/myfavoritesupplements
An eternal perspective is critical for spiritual growth. As we conclude this series, we will see how Peter uses this letter to challenge the churches. Seeing into eternity is vital for following Jesus every waking moment.
Sharing an episode featuring Dan from a podcast we love, Think Fast, Talk Smart. Whether presenting to millions on live television or talking to just one person, Dan Harris knows that the quality of every interaction depends on the presence you bring to it. Harris is a former national news anchor for ABC News and is now the host of the 10% Happier podcast and author of 10% Happier and Meditation for Fidgety Skeptics. As he knows from experience, there's power in “Waking up to something fundamental, that the mind is out of control, and you don't want to be owned by it.” How do we break the pattern of being controlled by our thoughts? Mindfulness and self-awareness, he says, put “distance” between us and our “thoughts and urges and emotions,” enabling us to connect with ourselves and others with greater consciousness and clarity. In this episode of Think Fast, Talk Smart, Harris and host Matt Abrahams discuss how mindfulness can transform our communication, sharing strategies for deeper listening, responding versus reacting, and reflecting what others say back to them. “Relationships are the most important aspect of your happiness,” Harris says. “The quality of those connections goes up when you're less stuck in your own head.” Episode References: Dan Harris: https://www.fastersmarter.io/guests/dan-harris/ Dan's Books: http://fastersmarter.io/10-percent-happier https://fastersmarter.io/meditation-for-fidgety-skeptics https://www.fastersmarter.io/179-communication-happiness-wellbeing-finding-positive-in-negative-emotions/ https://www.fastersmarter.io/180-unlocking-your-future-self-communication-happiness-wellbeing/ https://www.fastersmarter.io/181-why-happiness-is-a-direction-not-a-destination-communication-happiness-wellbeing/ https://www.fastersmarter.io/182-stop-chasing-time-and-start-owning-it-communication-happiness-wellbeing/ Tickets are now on sale for a special live taping of the 10% Happier Podcast with guest Pete Holmes! Join us on November 18th in NYC for this benefit show, with all proceeds supporting the New York Insight Meditation Center. Grab your tickets here! Tickets are now available for an intimate live event with Dan on November 23rd as part of the Troutbeck Luminary Series. Join the conversation, participate in a guided meditation, and ask your questions during the Q&A. Click here to buy your ticket! Join Dan's online community here Follow Dan on social: Instagram, TikTok Subscribe to our YouTube Channel To advertise on the show, contact sales@advertisecast.com or visit https://advertising.libsyn.com/10HappierwithDanHarris
In this bonus episode CrabbyTerror8 and Kevling play Waking NightmareAny comments? Email us at ftextpodcast@gmail.comFlavour Text is available on all the major podcast platforms, Spotify, Apple, Google, and moreSee: https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/flavourtextFor more content from CrabbyTerror8 and Kevling check out:https://www.youtube.com/outofammooutoftimehttps://www.YouTube.com/@KevlingPlays
In this episode CrabbyTerror8 and Kevling discuss the lore, gameplay and story behind scenario 1-B to The Dream Eaters: Waking NightmareAny comments? Email us at ftextpodcast@gmail.comFlavour Text is available on all the major podcast platforms, Spotify, Apple, Google, and moreSee: https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/flavourtextFor more content from CrabbyTerror8 and Kevling check out:https://www.youtube.com/outofammooutoftimehttps://www.YouTube.com/@KevlingPlays
This week, Joe talks to the ethereal indie rock band Waking Hours, who released the EP blank stare in February of 2025. Ear Coffee is Aly and Joe:https://www.instagram.com/earcoffee/https://twitter.com/earcoffeeehttps://earcoffee.bandcamp.com/https://www.patreon.com/earcoffee
Episode 161: Saahil Mehta & his book, Break Free: A Guide To Decluttering Your LifeABOUT SAAHILSaahil Mehta is a global entrepreneur, author, and transformation coach who helps leaders declutter their lives to unlock clarity, focus, and fulfillment. With over 20 years of experience building businesses across three continents, Saahil brings a rich perspective to conversations about leadership and personal evolution. His book Break Free explores how letting go of physical, emotional, and digital clutter can lead to profound breakthroughs in both life and work. As a speaker and coach, he blends ancient wisdom with modern strategy to guide high-achievers toward sustainable success. Saahil's journey—from scaling companies to summiting mountains—offers powerful lessons on resilience, intentional living, and redefining what it means to lead. He's passionate about helping others align ambition with well-being and believes that true transformation begins with subtraction, not addition. His insights resonate deeply with those seeking purpose-driven leadership and personal reinvention.CONVERSATION HIGHLIGHTS• The power of delegating.• Sustainability.• Discovering your internal seven summits.• What is your own definition of success?• The importance of picking a niche.• The entrepreneurial bug.• Communication and difference of expectations between partners.• Two words: "No Judgment."• People-pleasing.• Mother Earth.• Waking up the inner child (and not letting them go back to sleep).• Ahimsa.• Operating from fear or regret vs. operating from love.• Ancient wisdom.The MAIN QUESTION underlying my conversation with Saahil is, How are you proactively and intentionally decluttering the excess baggage -- no matter what form it may take -- from your life?FIND SAAHIL· Website: https://www.saahilmehta.com/· Book: Break Free· LinkedIn: https://www.linkedin.com/in/saahilmehta/ · IG: https://www.instagram.com/saahilmehtaofficial/· Facebook: https://www.facebook.com/saahilmehtaofficial/LinkedIn – Full Podcast Article HERECHAPTERS00:00 - The Book Leads Podcast – Saahil Mehta00:35 - Introduction & Bio02:18 - Who are you today? Can you provide more information about your work?12:09 - Saahil breaks down his businesses14:12 - How did your path into your career look like, and what did it look like up until now?33:05 - Saahil's path into mountaineering.43:47 - How Saahil came to the idea of decluttering.48:54 - How does the work you're doing today reconcile to who you were as a child?56:09 - What do you consider your super power?01:01:15 - What does leadership mean to you?01:06:47 - Can you introduce us to the book we're discussing?01:10:21 - Can you provide a overview of the path you lay out for the reader?01:28:55 - What's changed in you in the process of writing this book?01:30:18 - What's next for your writing?01:31:45 - What book has inspired you?01:33:40 - What are you up to these days? (A way for guests to share and market their projects and work.)This series has become my Masterclass In Humanity. I'd love for you to join me and see what you take away from these conversations.Learn more about The Book Leads and listen to past episodes:· Watch on YouTube· Listen on Spotify· Listen on Apple Podcasts· Read About The Book Leads – Blog PostFor more great content, subscribe to my newsletter Last Week's Leadership Lessons, if you haven't already!
Greetings! Today's is another in this series of "lost" Tools Chats recorded with my friend and colleague Andrew Moss . It's about an important tool on my journey that I still find extremely helpful even today.This was done as a LinkedIn live back in Spring 2025, so the production and sound quality is a little different than what you're used to… But we hope that this will be a super helpful episode regardless.Enjoy!* Would you like to be part of our final Tools Chat coming up in November 2025? Email me here and we'll get you in the room!* Consider subscribing to this newsletter so that it shows up in your inbox, instead of you having to go search for it :)About this Series…It's really a podcast within a podcast!In these “Waking Up: The Tools” conversations Andrew and I discuss the essential tools we developed that helped me grow into the person who hiked all by myself across northern England in 2023… After needing a wheelchair to go more than a few steps in 2011.We've called this series Waking up: The Tools because they're featured in my award-winning memoir, Waking Up. We're featuring these tools here on ACWB in this latter part of 2025, collecting them all together for your listening pleasure.See you soon! Thank you for being along on the journey.With Love,KayKay Lock Kolp M.Ed. - Coaching | Art | Writing | Shows: https://kaylockkolp.comThe quote I live by: “Till this moment I never knew myself.” - Jane AustenArt Creativity & Wellbeing is a reader-supported publication. To receive new posts and support my work, consider becoming a free or paid subscriber. This is a public episode. If you'd like to discuss this with other subscribers or get access to bonus episodes, visit kaylockkolp.substack.com/subscribe
When life brought him to the edge of death, Anthony Abbagnano discovered something extraordinary — the hidden power of breath.From total physical collapse to becoming a global transformation leader, Anthony's story reveals how conscious breathing can unlock healing, restore balance, and help us reconnect to who we truly are. As the founder of Alchemy of Breath and author of Outer Chaos, Inner Calm, he has inspired thousands around the world to overcome trauma, anxiety, and emotional pain through the simple act of mindful breathing.In this powerful episode, Anthony shares how one breath can shift your entire reality. Learn how breathwork rewires the nervous system, releases buried emotion, and creates calm within the chaos of modern life.ℹ️ About the GuestAnthony Abbagnano is a pioneering breathwork expert and founder of Alchemy of Breath, the world's top-rated breathwork institute. He has helped thousands transform their lives through free weekly Breathe The World sessions, Facilitator Training, and BreathCamp retreats at ASHA in Tuscany, Italy. Learn more at www.alchemyofbreath.com and buy Anthony's book at https://iam.alchemyofbreath.com/book-podcast.
The Christian Faith has always been practiced in the context of community. Peter will emphasize the need for brotherly love as we continue to learn how to live for Jesus every waking moment.
During the fierce persecution of Christians by the Persian King Shapur II, Saint Sadoth succeeded the Martyr Symeon (April 17) as Bishop of Seleucia. His name in Persian, Shah-dost, means 'Friend of the King'; but the earthly Shah saw him as no friend, and the holy bishop knew that his days on earth were numbered. One night in a dream, Sadoth saw a ladder reaching from earth to heaven. At the top stood Bishop Symeon, who called joyfully to him: 'Climb up, Sadoth, and do not be afraid! I climbed up yesterday; you will climb up today.' Waking, Sadoth knew that he would soon be called to martyrdom. He immediately set out to encourage his flock and to exhort them to stand firm for Christ in the coming day of persecution. A few days later the persecutors came in the King's name to arrest the holy Bishop; with him they seized 128 priests, deacons, monks and simple believers. All were held in prison for five months, being brought forth repeatedly and tortured in ways too cruel to describe; but not a single one could be brought to worship the sun. Finally, all were condemned to die by the sword. The 128 martyrs, chained together, sang joyous hymns as they went to the place of execution. They did not cease to sing until the death of the last Martyr. Sadoth himself, however, was taken in chains to the city of Beit Lapat, where he was beheaded a few days later.
If you're in the thick of eating disorder recovery right now and wondering if it's ever going to get easier, this episode is for you. Maybe you had a rough week with food. Maybe you're exhausted from fighting the same battles in your head every single day. Maybe you're wondering if recovery is even worth it because right now it just feels so incredibly hard. In this episode, Lindsey gets real about hard times in recovery and shares a truth that will change how you see your struggle: there are only three possible outcomes when you're going through something hard, and what you choose determines everything about your recovery and your future. This isn't a "just think positive" pep talk. This is truth-telling, no-nonsense guidance about why hard times don't last forever—but only if you refuse to stay stuck in them. If you're ready to stop waiting for recovery to magically get easier and start building the resilience you need to actually get better, this episode will show you how. What You'll Learn: The only 3 possible outcomes when you're in a hard season of recovery (and why understanding this changes everything) Why quitting doesn't actually end the hard time—it just makes it last longer The difference between "it getting better" and "you getting better" (and why only one leads to lasting freedom) How to stop waiting for circumstances to change and start actively participating in your own healing Why hard times only end when you decide they end—not when you feel ready How to make decisions from your healed self instead of your wounded self What it really means to move through hard times instead of staying stuck in them The 3 Outcomes of Hard Times: Outcome #1: You Quit Quitting looks like going back to restriction because it feels safer. It's skipping meals after a bad body image day. It's choosing what's familiar over what will set you free. When you quit moving forward, the hard time doesn't end—it just becomes your new normal. Outcome #2: It Gets Better Sometimes circumstances change and the external situation improves. But if YOU don't change? You're just waiting for the next hard time to come along. You'll always be one comment away from spiraling, one trigger away from old patterns. Outcome #3: You Get Better This is where your power lives. This is where transformation happens. When YOU get better, you learn to nourish your body even when you don't feel deserving. You challenge food rules. You sit with emotions instead of controlling them through food or exercise. You make decisions from your healed self. Key Takeaways: ✨ Hard times don't last forever—but they also don't end just because you want them to. They end when you choose to move through them. ✨ There are only 3 outcomes: you quit, it gets better, or you get better. Only one leads to lasting freedom. ✨ When you quit, the hard time doesn't disappear—it just continues and becomes your normal. ✨ Relying on circumstances to improve keeps you at the mercy of triggers and external situations. ✨ You getting better means actively participating in your own healing, not just hoping things change. ✨ The hard time becomes your identity when you refuse to move forward—it becomes who you are instead of something you're moving through. ✨ Choosing to get better is hard, but staying stuck is harder. Wake up a year from now in the same place or choose to do the work now. Powerful Quotes from This Episode: "Hard times don't last forever. They don't. But only if you refuse to stay stuck in them." "Hard times end when you decide they end. Not when circumstances are perfect. Not when you feel ready. Not when it's easy. They end when you decide to keep moving forward even when it's hard." "When you quit, the hard time doesn't actually end. It just continues. It stretches out. It becomes your new normal." "When YOU get better, it doesn't matter as much what the circumstances are. When YOU get better, you have tools to work through triggers." "You don't have to stay here. You don't have to live in this hard time forever. But you do have to choose to move through it." "The hard time you're in right now? It's not forever. It's not your ending. It's not your identity. It's just a chapter. And you get to write what comes next." Real Talk: This episode delivers no-nonsense truth: the eating disorder wants you to believe you'll always feel this way, but that's a lie. You don't have to stay stuck. But you do have to choose outcome #3—to get better. That means showing up when you don't feel like it, doing the opposite of what the disorder tells you, and trusting the process even when you can't see results yet. What's harder than doing the work? Waking up years from now still fighting the same battles because you never chose to get better. Questions to Ask Yourself: Am I quitting on myself in this moment? Am I waiting for circumstances to change, or am I choosing to change? Am I making decisions from my healed self or my wounded self? What would it look like for ME to get better, not just for IT to get better? Am I refusing to move forward and making this hard time my identity? Ready to Choose Outcome #3? If you're ready to stop staying stuck and start getting better, you don't have to do it alone. Inside The Recovery Collective, Lindsey's support group program, you get: Live 2x coaching calls with Lindsey per month A community of women also choosing to get better Tools and frameworks to move through hard times instead of staying stuck Support to actively participate in your healing journey Learn more and join at: www.herbestself.co/recoverycollective Connect with Lindsey Website: www.herbestself.co Private Facebook Community: Her Best Self Society www.herbestselfsociety.com 1:1 Client Applications: HBS Co. Recovery Coaching - Client Application - Google Forms About the Host Lindsey Nichol is a former competitive figure skater turned God-led entrepreneur, boy mom, and digital CEO. She understands how core beliefs formed in childhood can create and maintain eating disorder patterns, and she's passionate about helping women identify and transform these beliefs to find lasting freedom. If this episode helped you feel hopeful again and remember your worth isn't found in your body or on your plate, please share it with someone who needs to hear this message. Your support helps more women break the chains of limiting beliefs. *While I am a certified health coach, anorexia survivor & eating disorder recovery coach, I do not intend the use of this message to serve as medical advice. Please refer to the disclaimer here in the show & be sure to contact a licensed clinical provider if you are struggling with an eating disorder.
See More Here: https://karenswain.com/elevate/ How does the Elemental Kingdom coexist with the Physical 3D world. How are the beings who exist there interacting with humanity, and how can we perceive them more fully. KAren and Kristin will dive into this today onELEVATE, with the help of Blissful Beings - the guides. Please send us YOUR questions and what you would like us to discuss: https://karenswain.com/connect/ Date & Times: Wednesday - 15 Oct @ 6 - 7 pm ET - - 3 - 4 pm PT USA/CA Thursday - 16 Oct @ 9 - 10 am AEST Australia 2025 Appreciate KAren's work Awakening Consciousness? THANK YOU for your Support for the content. Share your appreciation on this link https://www.paypal.me/KArenASwain Join our Private Facebook Groups / awakeningempowermentnetwork / theinnersanctumsessions ELEVATE is a NEW SHOW on UPRN. Live conversations and Q & A with KAren Swain and friends around the awareness shift that is waking our quantum realities. Also conversations on HOT topics in the Spiritual and Consciousness genre. Audience participation - Please send us your questions. LINKS; KAren Swain Website: https://karenswain.com/ Kristin Mismash Website: https://www.kristinmismash.com/ ATP- Media: https://karenswain.com/listen/ #spiritguides #ascension #consciousness #5dconnection #elevate #bigfoot
What happens when you realize the life you worked so hard to build doesn't actually feel like your own? In this week's episode of Wild & Waking, I sit down with Kathleen Pitt—The Quantum Psychic—to explore her radical journey from nurse practitioner and mom in Detroit to soul-led mentor, channel, and guide helping women step into their highest alignment.We dive deep into the quantum field—what it is, how it works, and how it allows us to access intuition, future timelines, and miracles beyond our logical mind. Kathleen breaks down how subconscious blocks, old programming, and external validation often hold women back from their true mission, and why listening to your soul's whispers is the most powerful strategy you'll ever need.Together, we explore the intersection of manifestation, time, money, and worth, reframing how we think about abundance and how to expand into overflow without the hustle. Kathleen's perspective is both mystical and practical—rooted in her own lived experience of facing fear, choosing alignment, and witnessing firsthand how the universe rearranges itself in our favor when we honor our soul's knowing.Whether you're curious about energy work, craving a deeper connection to your intuition, or simply wondering if you were made for more, this conversation will expand your perspective and ignite what's possible for you. Tune in for a soul-stirring reminder that your vision already exists, your contracts are already signed, and infinite possibility is available when you're willing to choose alignment over safety.In this episode, we explore:What the quantum field really is, how it works, and why it holds infinite timelines, possibilities, and intuitive guidanceHow to recognize and dissolve subconscious blocks, limiting beliefs, and inherited conditioning that keep us from alignmentThe relationship between intuition, soul alignment, and manifestation—and how to build trust with your future selfWhy time, money, and abundance are energetic resources that expand when you live in alignment with your soul missionPractical tools and perspectives to tap into your intuition, shift your frequency, and call in miracles without hustle or burnoutHow saying yes to the unknown can activate quantum leaps, expanded purpose, and infinite possibility in every area of lifeBe sure to hit subscribe so you never miss the latest episode!Connect with Kathleen:Website: www.thequantumpsychic.comFree Quantum Leap Training + Light Language Activation: thequantumpsychic.com/quantum-leapInstagram: @thequantumpsychicThreads: @thequantumpsychicConnect with Emily:Website: www.EmilyReuschel.comInstagram: @emilyreuschelFacebook: Emily ReuschelLinkedIn: Emily ReuschelJoin my Book Insiders List: Sign up here!Resources and Links:
See More Here: https://karenswain.com/elevate/ How does the Elemental Kingdom coexist with the Physical 3D world. How are the beings who exist there interacting with humanity, and how can we perceive them more fully. KAren and Kristin will dive into this today onELEVATE, with the help of Blissful Beings - the guides. Please send us YOUR questions and what you would like us to discuss: https://karenswain.com/connect/ Date & Times: Wednesday - 15 Oct @ 6 - 7 pm ET - - 3 - 4 pm PT USA/CA Thursday - 16 Oct @ 9 - 10 am AEST Australia 2025 Appreciate KAren's work Awakening Consciousness? THANK YOU for your Support for the content. Share your appreciation on this link https://www.paypal.me/KArenASwain Join our Private Facebook Groups / awakeningempowermentnetwork / theinnersanctumsessions ELEVATE is a NEW SHOW on UPRN. Live conversations and Q & A with KAren Swain and friends around the awareness shift that is waking our quantum realities. Also conversations on HOT topics in the Spiritual and Consciousness genre. Audience participation - Please send us your questions. LINKS; KAren Swain Website: https://karenswain.com/ Kristin Mismash Website: https://www.kristinmismash.com/ ATP- Media: https://karenswain.com/listen/ #spiritguides #ascension #consciousness #5dconnection #elevate #depression
Cambridge residents being woken by things that go bang in the night. Libby Kirkby-McLeod reports.
What if awakening isn't about rising higher but softening into the body and allowing life to hold you? In this solo episode, I open up about what it really means to wake down into myself, to build capacity, stay present with what is, and lead from embodied truth in a season of deep change, endings, and new beginnings.Over the past year, I've been walking through profound initiation in my somatic and attachment training, in my relationship with God, in my business, and in my own body through the threshold of menopause. This journey has stripped away illusion and invited me into something far more real: presence over proving, discernment over doing, embodiment over striving.In this episode, I share how God became my business partner, how I'm learning to listen to the living language of my body, and why I've chosen to honor my nervous system's truth even when it means being less visible. I also reflect on the shift from Embody Your Higher Purpose to From Insight to Embodiment and how this new foundation is shaping everything I create and share.Inside this episode, I explore:• Waking down to the body as the true path of ascension• Building capacity instead of chasing courage• How somatics reveals old imprints and restores self-trust• The sacred initiation of menopause and the healing power of homeopathy• Living in a personal Year One within a collective Year Nine• The discernment to share less publicly while expanding inwardly• Why connection with self, Source, Earth, and one another is what truly mattersIf you feel called to join me in this season of embodiment, I'd love to welcome you inside Soul Work Synergy, our living community of Gene Keys and somatic practice. And if you're craving a deeper immersion, we have two final spaces open for Soul Essence, our upcoming retreat in Ojai, California, November 13 to 17.Come home to your body. Let presence be enough. Everything else unfolds from there. Hosted on Acast. See acast.com/privacy for more information.
https://vimeo.com/1122063536?share=copy In times of great calamity, destruction and fear she comes to us to hold our hand, to let us know that all is well, to answer our prayers, and to guide us through synchronistic messages and signs towards our heart's desires. Today, we're gonna hear about The Way of the Rose, the radical path of The Divine Feminine hidden in the rosary by the co-authors Clark Strand and Perdita Finn. Join us to hear this beautiful transmission of love! After receiving messages from The Divine Feminine, Clark Strand and Perdita Finn collaborated to co-author their first book, The Way of the Rose, The Radical Path of the Divine Feminine hidden in the Rosary. They co-facilitate an open-hearted community dedicated to the forgotten earth wisdom of the Rosary. The shrine, Our Lady of Woodstock was installed in Woodstock, NY. To be seen from the road, always accessible. The Novena, is celebrated on June 16th, consisting of prayer, songs, art, plantings, sculptures, performances, food, and of course roses of all kinds. The Way of the Rose Circles can be attended in person or via zoom and free of charge. The Facebook group offers daily fellowship and support. Watch or listen to the show to learn more about connecting with a community devoted to honoring the prayers of The Divine Feminine. You're Invited! PERDITA FINN BIO Perdita Finn is the co-founder of the non-denominational international fellowship The Way of the Rose, which inspired their book The Way of the Rose: The Radical Path of the Divine Feminine Hidden in the Rosary. In addition to studying with Zen masters, priests, and healers, she apprenticed with psychic Susan Saxman, with whom she wrote The Reluctant Psychic. She wrote middle grades novels. She has been a ghostwriter, a book doctor, a copy editor and a writing teacher. She has a lively substack, Take Back the Magic where readers can get sneak peeks into what she's working on now. She teaches workshops (takebackthemagic.com), to empower participants to their own magic. She is the author of Take Back the Magic: Conversations with the Unseen World. LINKS Web: takebackthemagic.com Facebook: https://www.facebook.com/perdita.finn Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/perditafinn/ Substack: https://substack.com/@perditafinn Amazon: https://www.amazon.com/stores/author/B00MQG0I3U/ CLARK STRAND BIO Clark Strand, a former senior editor at Tricycle: The Buddhist Review, has been studying the world's spiritual traditions for more than forty years. The author of Waking Up to the Dark , Waking the Buddha, Meditation Without Gurus, How to Believe in God, and Seeds from a Birch Tree, Strand has written for The Wall Street Journal, The New York Times, and the Washington Post/Newsweek "On Faith" blog. He is the co-founder of Way of the Rose, a nonsectarian rosary fellowship open to people of any spiritual background, and the co-author, of Way of the Rose: The Earth Wisdom of the Goddess Hidden in the Rosary. LINKS Facebook: https://www.facebook.com/clarkstrand Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/clarkstrand/ Substack: https://substack.com/@clarkstrand COLORABORATIVE LINKS Web: wayoftherose.org Facebook: https://www.facebook.com/groups/398032263660376/ Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/way_of_the_rose/ YOUR GUIDE TO SOUL NECTAR: KERRI HUMMINGBIRD Kerri Hummingbird, Medicine Woman, Mother and Mentor, is the Founder of Inner Medicine Training, a Mystery School that shares potent ancient traditions from the Andes and Himalayas for owning your wisdom and living your purpose. She is the #1 international best-selling author of “Inner Medicine: Becoming One with Mother Earth for the Survival of Humanity”, “Love Is Fierce: Healing the Mother Wound”, “The Second Wave: Transcending the Human Drama” (on the int'l bestseller charts for over 6 years) and the award-winning best-selling book “Awakening To Me: One Woman's Journey To Self Love” which descr...
Greetings! Today's episode is the first-ever chat with my friend and colleague Andrew Moss regarding the tools that we developed together as I was training to solo-hike across northern England in 2023.This was done as a LinkedIn live back in Winter 2025, and I hear a little bit of nervous energy in my voice as we get rolling in the conversation. I wonder if you'll hear that as well?Today we chat about a tool we call Minding My Own Business. This was, and continues to be even today, something I bring patience for myself with. When I am going through something, part of my brain is really challenged to mind its own business. Hope this is helpful if you're familiar with those moments too.You can look forward to a whole month worth of Tools Chats – “lost episodes”! We recorded them out over winter and spring 2025, and I've been really looking forward to the opportunity to get them to you.Hope you enjoy!* Would you like to be part of our final Tools Chat coming up in November 2025? Email me here and we'll get you in the room!* Consider subscribing to this newsletter so that it shows up in your inbox, instead of you having to go search for it :)About this Series…It's really a podcast within a podcast!In these “Waking Up: The Tools” conversations Andrew and I discuss the essential tools we developed that helped me grow into the person who hiked all by myself across northern England in 2023… After needing a wheelchair to go more than a few steps in 2011.We've called this series Waking up: The Tools because they're featured in my award-winning memoir, Waking Up.See you soon! Thank you for being along on the journey.With Love,KayKay Lock Kolp M.Ed. - Coaching | Art | Writing | Shows: https://kaylockkolp.comThe quote I live by: “Till this moment I never knew myself.” - Jane AustenArt Creativity & Wellbeing is a reader-supported publication. To receive new posts and support my work, consider becoming a free or paid subscriber. This is a public episode. If you'd like to discuss this with other subscribers or get access to bonus episodes, visit kaylockkolp.substack.com/subscribe
Waking up several times a night to use the bathroom? Struggling with a weak urine stream or constant urgency? These common and frustrating issues might be signs of an enlarged prostate. But what if there was a non-surgical, drug-free solution that could help you reclaim your nights and improve your daily comfort?In this episode, you'll get a first look at an innovative treatment that's changing the game for men's health. It's not what you think, and it just might be the breakthrough your prostate has been waiting for.Curious? Hit play now. Your sleep, your comfort, and your confidence could depend on it.--------------Curious about how you can boost your bedroom game and build lasting confidence? Check out the course at getwoodnow.com and start your journey to feeling like yourself again!--------------If you enjoyed this episode and want to learn more and get more tips, subscribe to The Modern Man newsletter for exclusive content delivered straight to your inbox! https://dranne.co/themodernman--------------Follow Me On:InstagramTwitterFacebookTikTokYouTube--------------For all links and resources mentioned on the show and where to subscribe to the podcast, please visit https://info.truongrehab.com/post/enlarged-prostate-pulse-electromagnetic-field-therapy--------------Want to regain control of your sex life? It's time to reverse the effects of ED on your life. Join the Modern Man Club and embark on your journey to complete recovery and community.--------------Reveal the FREE treatment most men ignore that solves thousands of erectile dysfunction cases every year, plus the 5 biggest mistakes you must avoid if you want to say goodbye to your ED. Uncover it all in my free eBook, available to download now.https://dranne.co/ebook
Daf Yomi Zevachim 31Episode 2111Babble on Talmud with Sruli RappsDonations for Liraz: https://www.charidy.com/l.zSlides: https://docs.google.com/presentation/d/1ro4W-qEcmfehEEy0dUZ-6JPEVyNBEyutXP14QI7XT4A/edit?usp=sharingJoin the chat: https://chat.whatsapp.com/LMbsU3a5f4Y3b61DxFRsqfSefaria: https://www.sefaria.org.il/Zevachim.31a?lang=heEmail: sruli@babbleontalmud.comInstagram: https://www.instagram.com/babble_on_talmudFacebook: https://www.facebook.com/p/Babble-on-Talmud-100080258961218/#dafyomi #talmud00:00 Intro02:36 Waking up pigul37:07 Pigul technicalities45:57 Pigul with foods not normally eaten56:06 Conclusion
“I had a whole list of people that I thought were going to win,” says Joel Mokyr, “And I wasn't on it.” Waking early, he opened up his computer to find out who had been awarded the 2025 prize in economic sciences, and found emails saying 'Congratulations.' Then, as Mokyr tells the Nobel Prize's Adam Smith in this brief call, he saw missed calls from Sweden on his phone and, “The suspicion started to ripen!” © Nobel Prize Outreach. First reactions terms of use: https://www.nobelprize.org/ceremonies/streams-terms-of-use Hosted on Acast. See acast.com/privacy for more information.
Welcome to Part 2 of our special sleep series, Habit Thrivers!Last week, we explored why sleep matters so deeply — especially during our Me Now years — and how stress, hormones, and even our habits can get in the way.Today, on Episode #173 of the Habit Thrive Podcast, we shift into exploring how we can support it — practically, mindfully, and consistently.Before diving into practical tools, we bust three common sleep myths:Myth #1: We need less sleep as we age — not true! Your body still craves deep rest; it just gets harder to reach.Myth #2: You can "catch up" on sleep over the weekend — tempting, but false. Sleep debt isn't like a bank account.Myth #3: Waking up at night means you've failed — in reality, it's part of your natural sleep cycle.Then, I share 3 powerful ways to support better sleep, starting right now!Begin Your Day with Gratitude: Good sleep starts in the morning.Honor Consistent Sleep & Wake Times: This strengthens your circadian rhythm, supports hormone balance, and helps everything from digestion to mood.Release the Day Before Bed: Whether it's a thought, worry, or event, give it permission to rest so you can, too.As we move through Thanksgiving week here in Canada, let's carry forward the energy of gratitude — not just for better sleep, but for the people, places, and moments that hold us.Sweet dreams, and see you next week.Lorrie xoxoxOn this episode:FREE Sleep Checklist (Use code SleepBliss): Find it hereLoving the show? Let's connect! Find me:Facebook: Women's Wellness Community: For women wanting to rock their “Me Now” YearsInstagram: @Habitguru365Website: lorriemickelson.comMemberVault: lorriemickelson.vipmembervault.comHabits, Mindfulness Routines & Self Care For Women 50 & BeyondLoving the show? Let's connect! Find me:Facebook: Women's Wellness Community: For women wanting to rock their “Me Now” YearsInstagram: @Habitguru365Website: lorriemickelson.comMemberVault: lorriemickelson.vipmembervault.comHabits, Mindfulness Routines & Self Care For Women 50 & Beyond
St. Isaac's words reveal that communion with God requires remoteness from distraction and a renunciation of whatever disquiets the heart. This is not something reserved for monks alone, though they live it most radically, but it is a law of the Christian life as a whole. For Isaac, the fruits of renunciation are not abstract but very real: tears, compunction, a fountain of sweetness welling up from the heart, light dawning within. These are given not to the distracted soul but to the one who bows like a convict before the Cross, empty-handed and intent upon nothing else. Renunciation is not simply turning away from sin but from every movement that agitates the mind. He calls it a kind of death, both of the outer man in worldly deeds and occupations, and of the inner man in thoughts, passions, and self-will. It is this dying that makes room for the Spirit to raise one into true life. For the monk, this call is lived in visible and total form: silence, enclosure, vigils, fasting, the cutting away of unnecessary speech and activity. Leaving behind the noise of the world, the monk learns to dwell continually before God. For them Isaac's words are direct and literal, for one cannot hold onto worldly cares and at the same time enter into the madness of divine love. Stillness is the path by which grace rushes into the heart. For those living in the world, this teaching does not mean the rejection of responsibilities, but rather the careful discernment of what is indispensable and what is merely disquieting. Isaac himself acknowledges that not all can practice stillness in its fullness, but warns that one should not abandon the path altogether. Instead, there are ways of living the same spirit in daily life: simplicity, which renounces excess possessions, amusements, and chatter that scatter the heart; sobriety of senses, which guards against overindulgence and constant stimulation; interior watchfulness, which makes room for compunction and prayer in the ordinary rhythms of the day; trust in God's providence, which loosens the grip of anxiety over outcomes. For the layperson, renunciation looks like choosing silence over noise, prayer over distraction, mercy over greed, humility over self-exaltation. In these small dyings the heart is opened to the same fountain of sweetness, even if not in the same intensity as in the solitary monk. Isaac reminds us that whoever does not voluntarily withdraw from the causes of the passions will be carried away by them in the end. Whether monk or layperson, if the heart is constantly fed on the world's noise, possessions, and anxieties, it will inevitably be drawn off course. But if one begins to renounce even in small ways, the Spirit quickly comes to give aid, comforting the soul and granting grace. The lesson is clear: every Christian is called to some measure of renunciation, not as loss, but as the doorway to joy and divine consolation. The monk may live it to the depths, but each person in Christ is summoned to taste it in their own measure. --- Text of chat during the group: 00:14:30 jonathan: started trying practising paustinia every Wednesday and Friday. Its been far harder trying to abstain from all forms of entertainment than it is from food. Like fr said, the noon day demon feels heavy. 00:16:55 Catherine Opie: Ave Maria> What page are we on? 00:17:10 Myles Davidson: Replying to "Ave Maria> What page..." P. 152, last full paragraph on page 00:18:27 Catherine Opie: Reacted to "P. 152, last full pa..." with
What if your worth wasn't tied to how much you produce, how many tasks you complete, or how many boxes you check off the list? In this episode of Wild & Waking, I'm diving into a conversation so many women wrestle with: untangling our value from output and reclaiming the power of presence.For centuries, women's gifts—our wisdom, intuition, creativity, and nurturing—were considered sacred. Over time, productivity culture and transactional economics taught us that our worth was only as good as what we could measure, produce, or perform. This conditioning still echoes today, especially for entrepreneurs, leaders, and mothers who feel the pressure to constantly prove themselves in order to be “enough.”I'll share personal stories and coaching insights about what it looks like to be compensated for the intangible: your voice, your energy, your ideas, your leadership. We'll explore the fears that come with putting your gifts out into the world, the stories we tell ourselves about rejection, and how to shift from “selling yourself” to offering transformation.Most importantly, this episode is about remembering the truth: you are inherently worthy. Your magic doesn't come from output—it comes from your presence, your wisdom, and your unique way of being in the world. Whether you're navigating entrepreneurship, career, motherhood, or relationships, this conversation will remind you that the world needs you, not just your productivity.In this episode, I explore:The historical shift that devalued women's gifts during the agricultural and industrial revolutions—and how that conditioning still affects us today.The fears women face when putting intangible gifts—wisdom, presence, intuition, leadership—into the world.How to reframe selling and compensation as an exchange of energy and transformation, not “selling yourself.”Tangible practices for embodying worth without output, including rest, play, and naming old stories out loud.Why presence, voice, and lived experience often create more transformation than checklists, deliverables, or productivity hacks.How to align pricing, offers, and compensation with your truth—so your business or career feels abundant, soul-led, and sustainable.Be sure to hit subscribe so you never miss the latest episode!Connect with Emily:Website: www.EmilyReuschel.comInstagram: @emilyreuschelFacebook: Emily ReuschelLinkedIn: Emily ReuschelJoin my Book Insiders List: Sign up here!Resources and Links:Episode 156 | Fun Because: How to Recalibrate the Realm of Possibility + Collapse Timelines by Dismantling Hustle and Reclaiming Joy with Kari the Fun CoachThe Coven is a six-month circle for women unraveling old stories, remembering their truth, reclaiming their voice, and rising together. ✨ Exclusive for Wild & Waking listeners: use code WILD for $111 off enrollment
In this special solo episode, Melissa shares a deeply personal reflection about connecting with the Creator in a new and powerful way, and how her journey with spirituality has continued to evolve, from her Catholic upbringing to the profound experience of going to Jewish temple for the first time with Noah and his family. Melissa explores what it means to be a true beam of light in the world, and how guilt, shame, judgment, and gossip can weigh us down and dim that light. Through honest self-reflection, she encourages us to release what no longer serves us and give ourselves permission to step into our greatness. You'll hear Melissa speak candidly about her own “soul's correction” and the importance of waking up to the signs around us, reminders from the universe that call us to live more consciously, more lovingly, and more fully aligned with who we're meant to be. This episode is an invitation to get real with ourselves and let go of what holds us back.Visit gaiaherbs.com and use promo code MELISSA for 20% off your order.Follow us on Instagram at @melissawoodtepperberg and @melissawoodhealthLimited Time Offer: Use code movewithheart when you sign up for a monthly membership to get your first month FREE on melissawoodhealth.com. Hosted on Acast. See acast.com/privacy for more information.
This is a great time to build the cake, or maybe even just put your shopping list together. Today, we look at the unlimited potential of aerobic capacity and why it's at the core of making you a better long course athlete. We talk about Mark Allen's quest to beat Dave Scott and how patience allowed him to set the IM run course record. We get into using this time to reduce your stress and level your cortisol to be a healthier person. We look at how your body adapts to training and how we actually get faster and stronger. Get faster in a more meaningful (and functional) way. The goal right now is to train in a way so that you feel good tomorrow . . . and the next day. Be patient and the speed will come. Topics: We all have options Sitting in no man's land FOMO on both sides of the aisle Build the aerobic reservoir High intensity can wait Is periodization dead? Roller coaster highs and lows are bad for the body Using TIME to reduce stress Aerobic work is maximum quality Keep showing up but “don't try” The poison is in the dose DNF rate going up? Stress Flexibility Fatigue resistance Don't eat into your ability to push threshold Running and swimming as intuitive strengths Your training plan as a menu Mark Allen - 7 months of no intensity for the win How your body adapts and gets stronger Consistency going out of your watt range Waking up the next day able to do it again Peaks and valleys are stressful Get faster in a meaningful way The goal is to feel good tomorrow Don't feel good just to dig another hole Mike Tarrolly - mike@c26triathlon.com Robbie Bruce - robbie@c26triathlon.com
In this world nothing can be said to be certain, except death and taxes". Said Benjamin Franklin. What are death and taxes? Arguably, losses. What is trauma and tragedy? I submit they are losses. And I feel we generally go about our lives, day in and day out, trying to avoid losses. Hoping "that doesn't happen to me." And yet, it's going to happen. We will have a financial fall. We will have a once beloved relationship end. We will have a car wreck or house fire or disease. Almost 100% of people will agree it's wise to have money in savings, just in case. Why don't we have emotional understanding and strength in savings, for the loss that will come? My guest is Colin Campbell. On March 14, 2023 Colin and his wife were driving their car, both in the front seats. In the back were their two teenagers, Ruby & Hart. A woman who was driving drunk went through an intersection doing 90 miles per hour and never saw them or braked. She hit the car right at the passenger doors. And Ruby and Hart died that day, while Colin and his wife were able to walk away from the crash. What followed is the dramatic amount of grief you'd likely expect. Colin says, “I always believed, deep in my heart, that my life would just keep getting better and better.” Isn't that all of us? Waking each day hoping and really expecting things to be ok, and we won't get the dreaded call or have the accident ourselves. Now I sure don't want to go about expecting tragedy. But, I have recently gone through the loss of my marriage and family home, two things I literally thought were impossible. I also have nine kids and multiple grandkids. I've lost my arrogance to think “that won't happen to me” and my odds are plenty high that I'll experience more significant loss. What can I be doing now, to be prepared? This is what Colin and I discuss in depth. Colin Campbell is a writer and director for theater and film. He teaches screenwriting at Chapman University and theater at California State Polytechnic University. Campbell's highly anticipated solo performance piece titled Grief, will be performed in Los Angeles and New York City this year. His book that I got ahold of is called Finding the Words: Working Through Profound Loss with Hope and Purpose. Before we get started, let me give you this quote from Colin, “A profound loss is when you lose someone, and I'd add, “or something,” that you feel is entwined intrinsically with your identity. In other words you define yourself partly in terms of this other person or thing.” Sign up for your $1/month trial period at shopify.com/kevin Go to shipstation.com and use code KEVIN to start your free trial. Learn more about your ad choices. Visit megaphone.fm/adchoices
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