Painfully Honest

Here we go again

Attempting to talk film and end up talking anime and music.

New year, same podcast. My outline for today was: Addiction, Recovery, Learning, Loving, Reacting, Yoga, Meditation, Contentment, Gratitude, Patience.

Why do we love and live with expectations when all it can cause is frustration.

Listen to 'Make Good Art' a speech by Neil Gaiman.

Back from my little Hiatus Coyote and still making sense of everything. ~the universe works in mysterious ways~

Everyone has different forms of closure and unique timelines for healing.

Televisión

Do yourself a favor (&me) and don't listen to this episode because it's bad.

Figuring out my part in things and dissecting the why.

Little mic check in the beginning, Green Book was great, revisiting places to learn from my experiences, long rant, and finally a call to action!

Dang I had a really good and well thought out episode and I accidentally turned my data off with my face and it didn't save. Oh well, that's life.

A quickie

Jane the Virgin is a good show. My life feels like a telenovela. I am dealing with things one day at a time. Small victories.

I really should write down the episode number I'm on in a note. I barely got this one in on time. I allowed myself to be very caught up in my emotions today but that's okay sometimes.

Movement and concentration really help. I feel sad but also hopeful and happy. My biggest goal is to be aware in the moment and not live in the future or the past which is my normal go-to.

I'm sad and confused but going to be grateful for what we had and persevere.

Ok time to actually take this seriously because it's really the only option I have left available that's sustainable.

I forgot what number I'm on. I talk about becoming stagnant in my routine, trust issues, rambling, and other fun stuff!

It's ok to feel things, it's not ok to dwell.

Get it together! I'm allowing my emotions to rule over me and I'm being impulsive, again. When someone tells you something you've got to listen.

Patience, old friends, learning about yourself, forgiveness, and Phillip goes on a rant.

Heard that

Still have dang expectations, new job went well, I am the love of my life.

Whoohoo! 41 glorious episodes. I'm so proud of myself. Thank you!

I spent the day almost entirely alone and it felt alright.

Short segment, self-awareness, cheddar cheese bugles.

Whoa man, take it slow man, life's good. Enjoy the minutia!

Quick episode before work. Hectic day and night. Self inflicted. Gotta stop pressuring people.

Social media, habits, positivity.

In this episode, I identify another positive trait, talk about my feelings of nostalgia (a bit), and set the intention for the podcast.

Trying something new. In this episode, I counteract yesterday by focusing on a trait I like about myself, look at ways that I could improve upon said trait, and as always go off on a tangent.

Side of the road selfishness special

Being proud of myself for the little things and how I'm acting vs how I've acted in every other previous situation.

Gratitude journal and therapy is like antibiotics.

I read some love letters, reflect on my shortcomings, talk about the break in our relationship, and feel better in doing so.

Part two of intention. I ask J.R. questions about his intention.

J.R.'s debut in the podcasting world. We look at intention: what it is, why it's important, how can we be more intentional.

I meant to add this to episode one. Long and lots of rants.

Moving stuff and talking stuff

Still reflecting on last night's talk with my friend. More on that after work.

Where do you draw the line? Is it better to do the right thing, or what you know is right, or to be honest to yourself?

Why am I so judgemental? Is it because I judge myself so harshly? David Fincher marathon, show @ henao , and more points of self actualization. ❤

Today is going to be slow at work. I'm just grateful to have a job. My focus today is keeping to myself and only speaking when spoken to.

Today is a good day. I talk about keeping expectations in line, not assuming things, and asking for clarity.

TW: mental health, confronting your accuser. Quick segment while I get ready for work. Had a chance to confront an accuser and did not. Baby steps :)

Wowee, two episodes in one day, I'm on a roll. I signed up for therapy and cry in the episode so there's some stuff that might not be suitable for everyone. I will start putting trigger warnings in these descriptions.

I know I already have an episode 1 but I want to start over fresh and do at least an episode a day if not more.

Yay for forgotten content.