Speak To It With Krystal Cook

2018 after breaking into my home justifying it months in this letter. Wait for the part where it says it was my fault because I went no contact..

This one is a little different; as it's a thread written by me- to give context to #4

Journey back to an email conversation had between my narcissist and me in 2008

Starting in the present moment strap in as we read the most recent letter and commence our journey into Letters of a narcissist

Intention for this series and how we got here

As survivors we all have a box of letters, cards, emails, text messages that have never seen the light of day. Come on the journey as I read mine and release the letters of a narcissist

Reading and writing by the Heart and Voice of Krystal Cook

my sweet angel (sweet red wine) Written By: Darren Gallagher

Poem reading written by the Heart and Voice of Krystal Cook

Reading of sunlight poem written by the Heart and Voice of Krystal Cook

In this episode I unfold my thoughts around ANGER and forgiveness- are we encouraging spiritual bypassing in the concept of forgiving before owning our anger? Sharing my own experiances of healing and Speak to IT in my unique unfiltered way.

Listen to me unpack and dive into my own thought process as I speak to it

Fast forward to 6min mark to hear chapters 8 and 9 of Chasing Rainbows by Lucinda reading

I have no idea where this book came from, but I remember reading it as an early teen. I still remember the profound impact it had on me. I was maybe 13 when I read it. Transitioning from being a child into that sticky and confusing part of life we call adolescence. Not a child anymore and not yet an adult, but the challenge of being somewhere in between. Yet even at this tender age I felt the world of responsibility on my shoulders. I felt lifetimes older than my peers and was awakening to see that my experiances where not the same as theirs. That what happened in my home Was different to what happened in theirs. The concept of what was normal shifting to shame that my normal was not the same and I didn't fit into either worlds. I read this book not long after witnessing my mother attempt suicide. A traumatic transition of becoming aware that life could be taken away. Angry, hurt, resentful and so confused at the complexity of it all, my young mind blamed my self. I wasn't enough for my mother. She didn't love me enough and if that was case that meant there was something wrong with me. I wasn't lovable. There was something defective at my core that meant my own mother couldn't love me enough to want to live. Caught In a nightmare of silence, shame and complexity that was beyond my capacity to ever understand at this tender innocent age, I remember reading this book. I remember somewhere within my depths a feeling of being seen. I can't remember in its entirety what this book was about, but I remember it's impact on the way I saw the world. As I walked past it this morning, sitting on the bench within the box of books I'm decluttering. I felt inspired to pick it up. I felt called to share it here and to bring it to you. And that I must read it to you. There's no mistake that this has come through as my birthday approaches. It is not coincidence that this is what I'm being asked by my heart to do. There is healing here that neither of us will understand until we experiance the possibility of stepping into it. So as the first celebration of my Birthday Month over the next week I'll be recording the audio of me reading this book. My voice in the transmissions of my heart reading a book that deeply impacted the eyes I saw the world through. Together Chasing Rainbows. Will YOU journey with me?

Fast forward to the 5 min mark to hear the next chapters of Chasing Rainbows

I have no idea where this book came from, but I remember reading it as an early teen. I still remember the profound impact it had on me. I was maybe 13 when I read it. Transitioning from being a child into that sticky and confusing part of life we call adolescence. Not a child anymore and not yet an adult, but the challenge of being somewhere in between. Yet even at this tender age I felt the world of responsibility on my shoulders. I felt lifetimes older than my peers and was awakening to see that my experiances where not the same as theirs. That what happened in my home Was different to what happened in theirs. The concept of what was normal shifting to shame that my normal was not the same and I didn't fit into either worlds. I read this book not long after witnessing my mother attempt suicide. A traumatic transition of becoming aware that life could be taken away. Angry, hurt, resentful and so confused at the complexity of it all, my young mind blamed my self. I wasn't enough for my mother. She didn't love me enough and if that was case that meant there was something wrong with me. I wasn't lovable. There was something defective at my core that meant my own mother couldn't love me enough to want to live. Caught In a nightmare of silence, shame and complexity that was beyond my capacity to ever understand at this tender innocent age, I remember reading this book. I remember somewhere within my depths a feeling of being seen. I can't remember in its entirety what this book was about, but I remember it's impact on the way I saw the world. As I walked past it this morning, sitting on the bench within the box of books I'm decluttering. I felt inspired to pick it up. I felt called to share it here and to bring it to you. And that I must read it to you. There's no mistake that this has come through as my birthday approaches. It is not coincidence that this is what I'm being asked by my heart to do. There is healing here that neither of us will understand until we experiance the possibility of stepping into it. So as the first celebration of my Birthday Month over the next week I'll be recording the audio of me reading this book. My voice in the transmissions of my heart reading a book that deeply impacted the eyes I saw the world through. Together Chasing Rainbows. Will YOU journey with me?

You don't need to know the answers, or where your going, because your not alone. Your future self is guiding you, holding you and loving you. Surrender to her. Surrender to Yourself

To create change in our media, we much first become the change. How intentional are you being with the language you use?

Sharing a reading of a written piece I wrote, while exploring the mess within my physical environment. Enjoy

This is a exploration of the responsibility of love. How often do we feel we need to prove our love to another? Prove to another we are worthy of their love? Prove to the world and ourselves we are loveable...???? But what if we were to accept that WE ARE LOVE.

Achieving the flow state has become one of those buzz words we hear all the time. But what does it actually mean? And what does it take to achieve it?

In this house we do Disney. An exploration of letting go of the ways things should have been and creating things that are in service to your being.

Giving permission to SPEAK TO IT, the inner dialogue that consumes our human existance. Navigating the languages of the mind and the soul within our selves, giving permission to show up in our scared vunerablity to share our experiance. Come on the dive as I untangle from my logic mind and give permission to myself to create a podcast and SPEAK to it. Introducing you to my heart and voice.