Muselings

In the 34th Museling, Charles Adrian talks about wants and needs. You can find an excellent account of Tom Stoppard’s Arcadia by a since-disgraced writer here: https://www.independent.co.uk/arts-entertainment/theatre-dance/features/is-tom-stoppards-arcadia-the-greatest-play-of-our-age-1688852.html Podcast homepage, where you can also find links to episode transcripts: http://muselings.uk/

In the 33rd Museling, Charles Adrian remembers that he has long wanted a love to leave him alone. More information, including episode transcripts, at http://muselings.uk/. You can hear Will Young singing Eg White’s song Leave Right Now on YouTube here: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=WbrSLLv0AlA The opening quotation is a reading of 8: postscript from why you should not like me (https://charldrian.wordpress.com/why-you-should-not-like-me/8-postscript-2/). See also: Museling 17 - Dream Date #5 (https://charldrian.wordpress.com/muselings/series-3/museling-17-dream-date-5/) and I Do Not Deserve You from Elements of Co-Dependency (https://charldrian.wordpress.com/elements-of-co-dependency/11-2/)

In the 32nd Museling, Charles Adrian explains that he wants to speak out of silence. More information about the podcast, including links to transcripts of all episodes, is at muselings.uk.

Another three Muselings are on their way to your feed, going out over the next three Tuesdays. Today, it is Friday the 6th of December, 2019, here in London, UK, so the episodes will appear on the 10th, 17th and 24th of December respectively. None of them is Christmas-themed. More information about the podcast, including transcripts to all episodes, is at muselings.uk.

This is the fifth episode of the fourth series of Muselings. Charles Adrian talks about profit and product and reads the Dream Dates, which made up the third season of the podcast.   (Incidentally, Charles Adrian doesn’t say so here but there are 14 Dream Dates.)   You can find all the other episodes from this series right now wherever you found this one, which might include at muselings.uk, where you can also find links to episode transcripts.   Marked as explicit on iTunes because of swearing.     Links:   The Dream Dates on Charles Adrian’s Wordpress site: https://charldrian.wordpress.com/muselings/series-3/   Podcast homepage: http://muselings.uk

This is the fourth episode of the fourth series of Muselings. Charles Adrian talks about confession and reads a collection of writing put together towards the end of his thirties.   You can find all the other episodes from this series right now wherever you found this one, which might include at muselings.uk, where you can also find links to episode transcripts.   Marked as explicit on iTunes because of swearing.     Links:   Elements of Co-Dependency on Charles Adrian’s Wordpress site: https://charldrian.wordpress.com/elements-of-co-dependency/   Podcast homepage: http://muselings.uk    

This is the third episode of the fourth series of Muselings. Charles Adrian talks about romantic expectations and reads a collection of writing put together in the first third of his thirties.   You can find all the other episodes from this series right now wherever you found this one, which might include at muselings.uk, where you can also find links to episode transcripts.   Marked as explicit on iTunes because of swearing.     Links:   why you should not like me on Charles Adrian’s Wordpress site: https://charldrian.wordpress.com/why-you-should-not-like-me/   Podcast homepage: http://muselings.uk  

This is the second episode of the fourth series of Muselings. Charles Adrian talks about turning 30 and reads something that he wrote around that time.   You can find all the other episodes from this series right now wherever you found this one, which might include at muselings.uk, where you can also find links to episode transcripts.   Marked as explicit on iTunes because of swearing.     Links:   You have gone on Charles Adrian’s Wordpress site: https://charldrian.wordpress.com/you-have-gone/   Podcast homepage: http://muselings.uk

The fourth series of Muselings is now out in the world! In this, the first episode, Charles Adrian talks a little bit about writing.   You can find all the other episodes from this series right now wherever you found this one, which might include at muselings.uk, where you can also find links to episode transcripts.   This episode is marked as explicit on iTunes not so much because of bad language as because of straightforward, honest-to-goodness vulgarity.     Links:   The Forest And The Field by Chris Goode is published by Oberon Books. You can get hold of a copy through their website: https://www.oberonbooks.com/forest-and-the-field.html   Charles Adrian’s Wordpress site (where you can find all of the short writing included in the next four episodes of the podcast, as well as transcripts of all of the Muselings): https://charldrian.wordpress.com/   Podcast homepage: http://muselings.uk

The 14th Dream Date is drying off after dancing.   The Dream Dates are short, solipsistic, not-necessarily-autobiographical pieces of audio that listeners are welcome to download and mess with themselves.   More information about the podcast is at http://muselings.uk/

The 13th Dream Date is about getting up and having a shower.   The Dream Dates are short, solipsistic, not-necessarily-autobiographical pieces of audio that listeners are welcome to download and mess with themselves.   More information about the podcast is at http://muselings.uk/

The 12th Dream Date might be a hook-up.   The Dream Dates are short, solipsistic, not-necessarily-autobiographical pieces of audio that listeners are welcome to download and mess with themselves.   More information about the podcast is at http://muselings.uk/

The 11th Dream Date takes us onto the apps.   The Dream Dates are short, solipsistic, not-necessarily-autobiographical pieces of audio that listeners are welcome to download and mess with themselves.   More information about the podcast is at http://muselings.uk/

The 10th Dream Date starts with a film about the financial crisis.   The Dream Dates are short, solipsistic, not-necessarily-autobiographical pieces of audio that listeners are welcome to download and mess with themselves.   More information about the podcast is at http://muselings.uk/

The 9th Dream Date takes us to a quiet place.   The Dream Dates are short, solipsistic, not-necessarily-autobiographical pieces of audio that listeners are welcome to download and mess with themselves.   More information about the podcast is at http://muselings.uk/

The 8th Dream Date is a bad date, for some reason.   The Dream Dates are short, solipsistic, not-necessarily-autobiographical pieces of audio that listeners are welcome to download and mess with themselves.   More information about the podcast is at http://muselings.uk/

The seventh Dream Date is about a drink.   The Dream Dates are short, solipsistic, not-necessarily-autobiographical pieces of audio that listeners are welcome to download and mess with themselves.   More information about the podcast is at http://muselings.uk/

The sixth Dream Date is set in a café.   The Dream Dates are short, solipsistic, not-necessarily-autobiographical pieces of audio that listeners are welcome to download and mess with themselves.   More information about the podcast is at http://muselings.uk/

The fifth Dream Date dwells on beauty.   The Dream Dates are short, solipsistic, not-necessarily-autobiographical pieces of audio that listeners are welcome to download and mess with themselves.   More information about the podcast is at http://muselings.uk/

The fourth Dream Date is about relationships.   The Dream Dates are short, solipsistic, not-necessarily-autobiographical pieces of audio that listeners are welcome to download and mess with themselves.   More information about the podcast is at http://muselings.uk/

The third Dream Date is mostly on ice.   The Dream Dates are short, solipsistic, not-necessarily-autobiographical pieces of audio that listeners are welcome to download and mess with themselves.   More information about the podcast is at http://muselings.uk/

The second Dream Date is an exchange of text messages.   The Dream Dates are short, solipsistic, not-necessarily-autobiographical pieces of audio that listeners are welcome to download and mess with themselves.   More information about the podcast is at http://muselings.uk/

The first of 14 Dream Dates, this one takes place on a train. The Dream Dates are short, solipsistic, not-necessarily-autobiographical pieces of audio that listeners are welcome to download and mess with themselves. More information about the podcast is at http://muselings.uk/

This is not a Museling but an introduction to the next 14 Muselings, which will make up the third series of the podcast. These are the Dream Dates.   The Dream Dates are short pieces of audio about encounters or non-encounters that, while still solipsistic, are less rigorously autobiographical than previous Muselings.   Please feel free to mess with these episodes – remix them, rerecord them, provide background music or a soundscape, etc – and repost them with a link to the website http://muselings.uk/ and maybe a tweet to Charles Adrian (@charldrian) to let him know.   Fan art would also be most gratefully received.

A year to the day after it should have gone out, here is the last episode of this second series of Muselings. It features the sound of footsteps in the snow, distant traffic, aeroplanes, trains, birds and a dog.   CN: There is some discussion of poor mental health in this episode. Marked as explicit on iTunes because of swearing.   The Gunnersbury Triangle: http://www.wildlondon.org.uk/reserves/gunnersbury-triangle   Muselings website: http://muselings.uk/

In part two of this short series of Muselings, Charles Adrian brings you sound from the small island of Hydra and talks about the kind of nakedness he experiences in a relationship. Muselings website: http://muselings.uk/

Charles Adrian's journey towards nakedness begins on Lesvos, in Greece. Hear the sound of the wind in the olive trees, the cicadas, the goat bells, the sea. And hear Charles Adrian talk about what it means to him to be naked in front of an audience. Ensemble Duende: http://duende-ensemble.com/ Muselings website: http://muselings.uk/

Muselings returns this February with four episodes on the subject of nakedness, in art and life. As ever, we are listening to the inside of Charles Adrian's head but, with any luck, some of this will find some resonance inside other people's heads too. Marked as explicit on iTunes because of swearing The first voice you hear in this episode belongs to Anna Beecher. You can read about how the interview with Anna came about here: http://showmethemon3y.tumblr.com/post/151681003638/artist-window-studio-day-2-charles-adrian (and listen to how it came about here: https://soundcloud.com/charldrian/artist-window-studio-day-2). Some notes on one iteration of Ponyboy Curtis: http://statesofdeliquescence.blogspot.co.uk/2015/05/the-first-coming-of-ponyboy-curtis.html Duende's website: http://duende-ensemble.com/ Anna Beecher: http://www.annabeecher.com/ Paula Varjack: http://paulavarjack.com/ Camden People's Theatre: https://www.cptheatre.co.uk/ Muselings website: http://muselings.uk/

This is the last episode of this series of episodes and, in it, I offer some philosophy. In that sense, it is the most didactic episode so far. Oh, and after doing a recount in my head, I am pretty sure there are 18 or 19 traffic lights between the top of Holland Park Avenue and my house. You might say "Why don't you go out and check?", in which case I would reply that Holland Park Avenue is a nasty hill to cycle just for the sake of counting traffic lights and that every time I've been out that way for some better reason in the last few weeks I've got distracted by other things on my way home and forgotten to do it. Listen: I'm as frustrated as you are about this. As mentioned, some of my short writing is online here.

The penultimate episode of this series of Muselings is an essay on privilege given from a position of privilege. I make much mention of a show by Jamal Harewood that I have mistakenly called Privilege throughout; it is actually called The Privileged. [Edit: Having re-listened to this episode, I notice that I have misgendered Hari Ziyad, whose pronouns are they/them.] Some links: Jamal Harewood website: http://harewooo.com/ Information about The Privileged (which I have misnamed throughout this episode): http://harewooo.com/the-privileged/ A critical view of the impact of Live Aid, from 2005: http://www.theguardian.com/world/2005/jun/24/g8.debtrelief Why Empathy Won't Save Us In The Fight Against Oppression by Hari Ziyad: http://www.blackgirldangerous.org/2015/08/empathy-wont-save-us-in-the-fight-against-oppression-heres-why/  

CONTENT NOTE: I talk about suicide and depression in this episode. Please don’t listen to this if you think it might be at all triggering. Also, I should stress that this is a very personal account. You may find my ambivalence troubling and unhelpful. Links: The Samaritans online Émile Durkheim's Suicide on Wikipedia (last accessed on 18th October, 2015) A Ted Talk on Depression by Andrew Solomon (October 2013) Another excellent resource for anybody trying to understand or articulate the experience of depression is one of the posts Hyperbole And A Half creator Ali Brosh wrote and drew about it: Hyperbole And A Half, depression Part 2 Excellent article on the experience of black women accessing mental health services in the UK: The Language Of Distress

This episode is about sex, sex work, intimacy and honesty and is the most confessional Museling so far. Some of you might want to skip this one. Some links: Open letter to Amnesty in support of their policy change Effect of Whorephobia (Guardian article) Difference between decriminalisation and legalisation explained (New Statesman) Spark London: Sex Worker Stories Part I Spark London: Sex Worker Stories Part II Criminalising clients does not help sex workers stay safe

The fourth episode of Charles Adrian's solipsistic new podcast series is about control and self-control and responsibility. It is a little more confessional than previous episodes. Here is a video about the Good Chance Theatre, which is a beautiful project happening in The Jungle. You can find them on Twitter as @GoodChanceCal. Here are some ways you can help refugees from your front room (article from September 2015 – some of it is now out of date).

The third of Charles Adrian's solipsistic new podcast series, this episode is about wasps and (obliquely) heartbreak. It might be the silliest episode.

The second of Charles Adrian's solipsistic new podcast series Muselings, this is story of a first crush.

This is the first episode of a solipsistic new podcast series centering on podcaster Charles Adrian. This week, he talks about shyness and knocking on people's doors. You can find out more about the podcast at muselings.uk.

This is the very tip of the first, green shoot to grow out of the freshly turned soil that is Muselings. It's just a test. You can find out more about the podcast at muselings.uk.