Back-N-The Daze

On this week's episode of Back-N-The Daze I unpack my relationship with the validation that comes from being "chosen" and how my journey with validation from other people has played a role in my self-esteem & the way I perceive self-worth. As always, I appreciate you all taking the ride with me.

On today's episode of Back-N-The Daze, I explore my relationship to materialism and "having expensive taste". What does having nice things actually do for my confidence? Is it a coping mechanism? Or is it rooted in a sense of self-expression and peace of mind? How have my experiences influenced the growth of this? Let's find out. I appreciate yall for rockin with me.

In this week's episode, I unpack my relationship with time management. Why does it seem like, I'm always playing catch up or running behind for something. Is it that I just have a lazy spirit? Or maybe an internal battle with anxiety actually has spiraling effects that make it harder to take on tasks in a timely manner. How long has this affected the way I move? Find out on this episode of Back-N-The Daze.

In this week's episode, I unpack the impact of my relationship to the pride associated with growing up in the DMV as a "Redskins" fan and how it created a split sense of identity and self-esteem being Choctaw & Chickasaw Native American. How does my "switching" fanship play into the way I identify with my city & the way I identify with loyalty?

Welcome back to another season of Back N The Daze! We cant do It all on our own. We owe it to ourselves to take the necessary time to heal, refocus, and adjust our mentalities and lifestyles as we see fit for our day-to-day health. But often what we think may be healthy in truth may be coping mechanisms. In this episode, I explore the positive effects that therapy has had on my life since I've started and unpack some of what I've been learning about myself so far. I strongly encourage therapy to anyone who resonates with this podcast.

In this weeks episode, I unpack the impact of those long late-night car conversations we all know too well. How did just sitting in the car for extended periods of time just talking about anything & everything help to mold my outlook and view of life in adulthood.

This week, I unpack my childhood experiences with perfectionism & explore the process of discovering for the first time what I wanted my career path to be. How do the two coincide with each other & as a filmmaker can that same perfectionism be translated into passion? Lets find out. Ride with me.

This week's episode explores my relationship to black movies & TV. How did the representation i saw on-screen affect my outlook on love family and community? We're these perfect 90s black stories positive or did they set unrealistic standards for my adult life? Lets unpack that. Ride with me.

In this week's episode, I analyze where my roots in blackness come from. How have my experiences growing up molded my view of self-identity and is my overwhelming sense of black pride healthy or potentially a coping mechanism that could be detrimental or limiting? Put your seat belts on, sit back, relax, & just ride w/ me.

On this weeks episode, I unpack my relationship to self in regard to the need to want to save everyone & put their priorities before my own. Where does this stem from and how did my childhood/ family experiences play into my need to want to put on that cape and save the world. How am I now setting boundaries and showing up for myself in new ways? Put on your seat belt, sit back, relax, & ride with me.

We're back again like we never left! It's been a while. I hope everyone's had a great summer. This week on Back-N-The Daze I unpack my relationship to food. Why do I fall into this terrible habit of eating things that are bad for me? What am I coping with? Why am I so insecure about my body and how did I get this way. A lot to unpack this time around but as always I'm about doing the work. Sit back relax, and ride with me.

Peace yall... just stopping in with a quick storytime to hold your interest while I continue to be a filmmaker. Speaking of film... did I ever tell the story of how I almost fought Spike Lee? Sheeesh. Oh well, here we go. Side Note: I am crowdfunding for my newest film "Re-Entry" which will go into production this summer 2021 and I need your help meeting my goal! By all means, if you are in a position to donate it would be greatly appreciated. you can find more information or donate by using the link below. https://igg.me/at/Re-entry I appreciate yall.

Let's talk about sex! If you're reading this you made it to the Mid-Season Finale. We'll be back in Late July/ Early August. Thanks for riding with me! In this episode, I explore my introductions to sex and sexually related things. I unpack how my introduction may be associated with the ways that I view my self-esteem & how it may have caused a love-hate relationship with my Ego. This episode is a little longer than the average considering that I will be taking a break for some weeks. Enjoy the ride & I'll see you on the other side. Note: Following this episode, I encourage all to check out my 1st ever feature documentary "Mommy Never Told Me". This is a documentary about the way that black women and girls are introduced to love & sex, and how that introduction indirectly informs their social expectations and experiences going forward. Directed by Myself (Dante Bailey) & Tasneem Nathari. View via The link below: https://vimeo.com/540908090

I've been living in LA for almost 2 years now. Back when I lived in New York & New Jersey it was easier to ride the bolt bus or greyhound a few hours to visit every few weeks but nowadays it's not often that I get to go back and visit. I was back home this weekend and I instantly felt a wave of nostalgia as well as a sense of pride. In this episode I explore how being from the DMV has played a role on my social outlook and internal sense of self-identity, now as an adult living in other states.

Cash Rules Everything around me C-R-E-A-M Get the money! Dolla Dolla Bill yall! This week, I decided to unpack my relationship around money. Why do I have such a love-hate relationship with it? Why do I feel empty without it &cwhy do I hate what it does to people. Families split over it, people kill over it, but most of us never had any to begin with. How did growing up without money impact or shape my outlook on money and stability now as an adult? How did it impact my confidence? Let's break it down. Ride with me.

Anyone who knows me knows that if I weren't a filmmaker, I would likely be somewhere in the music industry. This week I chose to unpack my memories surrounding my love for music & the ways I was introduced to music from my family in my earliest years until now. I discovered through this process, how music served as a healthy form of escapism from other traumatic moments that had been occurring during my life simultaneously.

As the old adage goes, "He who knows something, knows he knows nothing." I believe in a higher source & I am confident in saying that I am probably the most spiritual person I know. In this episode, I explore my relationship with religion & spirituality, unpacking how my relationships to different church experiences as a child may have indirectly led me to an "alternative" spiritual outlook.

Growing up I found myself hanging out with women much more than men. I never felt like I had as much in common with guys. This caused me to grow a deep appreciation and empathy for many of the experiences of my homegirls. Contrary, however, this caused some of my more hyper-masculine peers to call my sexuality into question, or seeing me as a "simp" and created very irregular friendship dynamics with my homegirls in different moments. In this episode, I unpack how my consistent platonic relationships with women directly & indirectly affected my sense of self in relationship to how I view my own masculinity. 

I played football my entire life from like age 6 until my Junior year of high school. I was never the best, but I was never the worst by far either.  During that time, a lot my experiences with football directly & indirectly influenced my self-esteem growing up. I remember having nightmares of not being able to remember the playbook that felt like being caught on stage in your underwear for most people. Ride with me in this episode as I reminisce on how these experiences changed me and how I'm taking that space back. 

Well... Here we are. The big one. When I started this project I mentioned it was sparked in partial response to a breakup from a relationship of 6+ years. Well, in this episode I decided to unpack my trauma & reminisce about love, from the first time a girl ever told me she liked me all the way until now at 30 years old. I have been blessed to have had extremely positive experiences despite the outcomes, however, I can't help but wonder sometimes why things never work out. Is it me? Or am I indirectly projecting my insecurities into my relationship spaces? Ride with me as I explore.

In this episode, I explore how active my imagination used to be, things that prompted me to explore my imagination more, and unpack details of how & when that could have been taken away from me like most adults who are forced to grow up at some point or another.

In Episode 2 I unpack the effects that my family relationship dynamics had on my life. Unfortunately, many of us are taught that family business is private and we shouldn't share or bring it up even in safe spaces. This tends to leave us holding on to traumas oftentimes for years that could have been resolved through therapy if all parties were willing. This episode was recorded in November of 2020 just before Thanksgiving & it was extremely hard for me to be so vulnerable. For anyone wondering, I did send the episode to my family members first to allow them the opportunity to preview it and they gave me their blessing to share these stories despite the very personal nature. I hope this episode resonates with some and helps them along their own personal journey towards healing.

Welcome. Put on your seat belt, sit back, and enjoy the ride. This is episode 1 of Back-N-The Daze. I explore my relationship to hair & identity and unpack how that has played a role in my confidence going into adulthood as well as ways that I can continue to embrace self-love in the way that I choose to express my self-identity.