Master Your Perception with Clyde Young

Listen in as I read part thirteen and fourteen of the Gatekeeper series. Also, I talk about my depression a little more. As well as my addictions. Literally , only shared this stuff with my girlfriend. Please share this podcast with your friends and family, and thank you for listening! Life…. Who said you have to do it alone? 

Listen in as I give a presentation training on the paradox  of Perception vs Reality. This is a little glimpse at a small portion of what my upcoming L.I.F.E. workshop that I'm putting together. I had some key takeaways to mention, but forgot to take notes

Part twelve of my Gatekeeper series “My Hero”. I'm excited to release this episode! I can't wait to work on the next few parts I have in mind and share them with you all. Thanks for listening!Life…. Who said you have to do it alone?

Here is part even of my Gatekeeper series, titled “CIVIL WAR”. This entire series is my story, and in this part I start to begin my journey to become a life coach. Thank you for listening! Don't forget to subscribe!Life…. Who said you have to do it alone?

January 15th, 2011. The day I lost my hero. The day my dad filled himself. The day Depression killed my dad. The day my life took a new path. The day I will never forget. The day that may always bring some pain and sorrow. The day that created the man I am today. The day that I have come to appreciate. The day that taught me something I couldn't have learned any other way. Life…. Who said you have to do it alone?

My biggest limiting belief is that I am not important enough for the people in my life. This came from my childhood and “having” to share my birthday. As the years continued, I found ways to reinforce this belief. Even by possibly creating my own stories that I truly believe to be non fiction. One of my goals is to become a belief breakthrough coach. It is such an amazing feeling to have a new, empowering belief replace a belief that has been holding you back for years. And I want to help others feel that. Life…. Who said you have to do it alone?

JANUARY 13thHe called me today, but he thought it was the day after tomorrow. It's not really surprising though... It never has been a day to remember. Not only that, but I bet he will forget about today by tomorrow. The alcohol tends to trap his brain, and makes it hard to remember. He called me yesterday, but I hoped he'd forget and still call me today. It's not that surprising though... It never really has been a day to remember. Not only that, but I bet he's forgotten about yesterday by today. The alcohol probably trapped his brain,  and made it hard to remember. He called me a day early to wish me a happy belated birthday. It's not really surprising though... It never has been a day to remember. Not only that, but he killed himself the day after my birthday. The alcohol probably tricked his brain, and made it hard to remember. He hasn't called me since that day, and I wish he could call tomorrow...It's still so surprising even though I will always remember...Not only that, but I bet he'd never forget again if he had a second chance tomorrow...The alcohol probably wouldn't trap his brain, and make it hard to remember...Life…. Who said you have to do it alone?

Just some of my thoughts and my  experience with loneliness. Some key takeaways:1) Understand your definition2) Understand your blueprint3) Change your blueprint by taking away others power and control. Then, replace the “ands” with the “ors” and the “it's” with the “ands”. Life…. Who said you have to do it alone?

Here's the latest part of The Gatekeeper series! Let me know what you think! Don't forget to share!! Thanks for all the love and support!Life…. Who said you have to do it alone?

I've recently lost a good friend in a car accident. This guy  was a solid dude who was loved by so many people. Instead of writing about it, I decided just to hit record and see where it went. Thanks for tuning in. Life…. Who said you have to do it alone?

This part is called “SUICIDE LETTER”I write about the time I met the Gatekeeper. And how I completed my journey, but not the way I originally intended. You'll know what I mean when you listen. Thanks for tuning in!Life…. Who said you have to do it alone?

Oooooo!!! Its love! I just wanted to share some experiences I've had with love. The ways I allowed myself to fear it, and the ways I've started working on overcoming that fear. Let me know what you all think!! Thanks for listening. And for sharing. Life…. Who said you have to do it alone?

“The City”Listen in as I talk about my experience in “The City of Loneliness”.I tried keeping this one a little more simple with my explanation of why I wrote what I wrote. Let me know if you liked it more or less than what I've been doing. Thanks!!Life…. Who said you have to do it alone?

In this Episode, I read part seven of my Gatekeeper series. In this one, Depression is responding to my letter to him. After this, there is one more part to the series. However! I'm working on part nine, and have an idea for part ten! I'm excited to be working on new content! Thank you for listening. Please, download and share!! PART SEVENA LETTER FROM MY ENEMY Dear Clyde,    I must say, I was surprised to see that you wrote me. From my experience, people like you tend to be difficult to connect with. Whether it be because of their optimistic perception (so fucking annoying by the way)... Or because of their total ignorance towards my existence. Either way, people like you are the most elusive for me and my crew.   The pesky optimists pose challenges because they always seem to find light in the darkest of places. Sometimes I think they're just too fucking stupid to be in touch with reality. Like, I swear I could paint over the faces of half their family picture, and those little bastards will just reprint the damn thing and hang it back up!   Then there are the ignorant little bitches. They're either too caught up in their own existence, or so terrified of my crew and I, that they completely block us out of their entity. They're even more aggravating than the optimistic fuck heads because, unlike the optimists, it seems like there really isn't a single second of vulnerability for us to sneak our way in.   As for you... You've always been "the one that got away" so to say. I think it's because of your optimistic mind. However, your particular optimism is kind of one of a kind... It's like, you always seem to find that peaceful piece of mind, but that vulnerable piece of time has always been easier (than most) for us to find. And lately it has been a longer duration of time... Which we felt was a good sign. We thought your optimistic tank was finally running dry. That is, until I read your letter...   Now I see you were just allowing yourself to live in that vulnerable state of mind so that you could gather Intel on this organization of mine. I must say, that was rather brave... Essentially you were living behind enemy lines. I should have known, but your uncanny ability to portray a broken but courageous man, while in the presence of your friends and fam... And then to see that persona shed like snake skin when no one was looking... We truly thought we had infiltrated your heart while it was broken. Shit! I'm just now realizing why we haven't been able to find your mind...   See, usually once we've gained access to the heart we can follow the tracks of feelings to the mind. You humans are so foolish to think your feelings originate within your heart. I guess I shouldn't be so rash because we are grateful for this misconception (which we didn't create by the way, that misconception was developed by your people). As you said, we use your most delicate insecurities by following their tracks back to where they came from... Your mind.   Anyways, you may have won this battle, but I assure you this is just the beginning of the war between you, me, and my crew.            -With respect,                     Depression-                                    Commander and Chief of Dismay  Oh, and P.S. you can hate me all you fucking want, but your ambition is a pile of shit without my existence.Life…. Who said you have to do it alone?

Listen in as I explore the ways our physical scars differ from our emotional scars. A topic that I'm excited to put out there and hopefully influence others to explore. A topic that has the potential to change the way we view Significance. If you are struggling with depression, please reach out. There is plenty of help out there. And if you want to reach out to me directly, you can find me on Facebook or Instagram as well as email me @ perceptioncoach.1@gmail.com. Please don't let the insignificance feelings take over. You are loved and you will be heard!Life…. Who said you have to do it alone?

The text for my poem is too long. Sorry! I'll just include a few of my favorite parts.   “I can't decide if I'm obsessed or if I'm just terrified of you. I think it's an obsession and that terrifies me... Or is it an immense fear that makes me so obsessive? God dammit! See what I mean... You've got my thoughts so fucking twisted that I question every little thing!”   “Are you really even real? Maybe you're just my long lost imaginary friend... Maybe you haven't been lost at all and I've just completely blocked you out of my subconscious mind. I guess that could explain why you've been in every piece of my life.”   “Can I ever see the day where you're not by my side? Damn... I can't even begin to imagine what that'd feel like... I like to believe it would feel free, but maybe that lifted weight would leave me with an empty feeling... Either way, both of those fill me with anxiety.”   “Will you be here, or... I guess there, when I die? I kind of hope so, because that would mean you wouldn't be in someone else's life. Is that selfish of me?”   “You persuade us to believe in make belief, but the crazy thing is that we are the creators of the fantasy that we've made to believe.”  “P.S. I think I forgot to tell you that I fucking hate you...”Thanks for listening! Don't forget to download and share!! Life…. Who said you have to do it alone?

BONUS!! Since part four was so short, I figured I'd release this one today!!! Thanks for listening!!In this episode, I read part five of my Gatekeeper series. This was probably the piece that I realized that i had a tenement talent  fora different kind of writing. One where I can create a visual through my writing. Thanks for tuning in! Don't forget to download!!Life…. Who said you have to do it alone?PART FIVE"THE TOWN" Dear friends and family,My journey has been quite difficult so far. I'm not entirely sure where I have just passed through. There were some things that looked and felt familiar, but there were also things I did not recognize. At times it felt like a place I'd been before, but then I'd pass something that made me feel uncertain and out of place.One thing I know for sure is that I did not like anything about it. It was so dark and gloomy that I thought about trying to find a way around it, but I didn't want to get lost, so I knew I had pass through. There wasn't a single light to be found anywhere, and it was as if a rainstorm was permanently positioned above the entire town.When I first entered the "city limits", it felt as if I had just been teleported to the edge of the universe, and everything I had ever learned was completely irrelevant. It felt like I forgot how to walk... I didn't know how to talk... I even struggled to breath. It felt like the earth stopped spinning, but at the same time, it was as if it began spinning faster, and gravity became too unbearable to stand on my feet.It was like being trapped in an elevator, and that elevator was going up, but it was rapidly gaining speed. Claustrophobia was suffocating me, yet I was in a vastly open space with fresh air. It was the most intense pain I'd ever felt, but that pain had a familiar sting...After some time, reality slowly started shifting back into place. It was like watching every single pixel, one by one, as they create an image on the computer. I caught my breath, I rose from my knees to my shaky legs. Afraid of turning back, and experiencing it all over again, but afraid of what else that desolate place might have in store for me. I gained my composure, and tried to navigate my way through.As I moved on, there seemed to be separate areas that briefly gave me different feelings, but the scene remained dark and gloomy. It all seemed to be new, but there was a strange familiarity throughout.At one point, I tried to make a desperate run, and escape the terror as fast as I could. Before I got very far outside of town, I found myself right back at the beginning... At the edge of the universe, helpless and full of anxiety. I tried making a run for it several times, and every time I ended up right back at the beginning. It was like the town was just one big loop. I'd run up one side, and down the other, right back where I started.If there is a Hell, I'm certain I just went through it. It was a nightmare that was stuck on repeat. The same scene, the same emotions, the same feelings. Every time it started over, I knew exactly what to expect, but I couldn't change anything about it... No matter how hard I tried. It continued like this until I decided to embrace it all. Instead of running straight through, I explored. I walked down every street, every alley, and eventually things started to change... Or at least they appeared to. I discovered more parts of the town that felt familiar, and I felt a bit of comfort.Before I knew it, the town was behind me. I was worried that I would still end up back at the beginning, but as I got further and further I realized I was no longer stuck in the loop. I was no longer trapped in the town of Heartbreak. Hopefully I can continue this journey without having to ever go through it again.Anyways, I must carry on. I'll write again soon.Love, Clyde

In this Episode I read part 4 of my gatekeeper series. Tune in and let me know what you think!Life…. Who said you have to do it alone?PART FOURMY JOURNEY BEGINSDear family and friends,After the last letter I received from "The Gatekeeper", I was confused, and uncertain of the truth. It's not that I believed he was the only one to blame, but I definitely never thought of him as good. So, in my constant contemplation on this complex matter, I made a decision... I've decided to go see "The Gatekeeper", face to face.As you can imagine, this decision was not an easy one to make. I'd be lying if I said I wasn't scared, or that I know I'll be okay. All I do know is that my gut is telling me this is the right decision, and my dad taught me to always listen to my gut.For those of you who know, and can understand what is at stake, and where I may have to go... If you don't hear from me within the next few weeks, please come find me. Just don't come alone, as the road will be difficult, and dangerous. Anyways, I best be on my way.Love, Clyde

In this episode I get more in depth on how to actually spot when you're in an infinite cycle. It's one thing to know what it is, it's another to be able to spit when you're in it. Some takeaways….It's going to be easier to notice when you've been in an infinite cycle than to notice when you're currently in one at first. This is okay! That's how we learn what we do. Watch for times when you think to yourself “I'm just crazy” or something along those lines. If you find yourself getting defensive, or justifying yourself…. This might be a good clue that you're in an infinite cycle. We tend to inflate our perception and try and prove why reality is wrong. Anytime we're in the infinite cycle, the needs that helped create our perception are not being met, so in the infinite cycle and with our distractions, we will meet those needs at a high level. Somethings I've been noticing in myself mostly, but also with others, is that our perceptions are built with some form of Significance. This is why we justify and defend when our perception doesn't align with reality. We will try and prove our perception right, and reality wrong. Thanks so much for tuning in! Give me some feedback, and let's start these interview episodes!!! Who's ready!? I know I am! Life…. Who said you have to do it alone?

In this one I read part three, “The Gatekeeper”. This is definitely one of my personal favorites. This is one the first times that I get pretty raw with my writing. Also, I for sure swear in this so don't listen if swearing offends you!Life…. Who said you have to do it alone?PART THREE"THE GATEKEEPER"Dear Clyde,I'm sorry that I've drove you to hate me. I never wanted it to be like this. It's just that I'm not very good at communicating, but I hope what I have to say will help you understand me a little better.First of all, your mom wasn't supposed to be a distraction, she was supposed to be a sign. See, her, and everyone else that is running from depression, end up finding me. I've never persuaded anyone to kill themselves, including your mom... Her and I began talking around the same time I met your father. It didn't take long for me to see the torment that depression was causing both of them. I realized that it all started shortly after their divorce. I tried reaching out to you so that I could warn you about the condition of your parents, but you were so hard to reach. Anytime I thought I had an opportunity, you would slip away. Then, one day your mom came to me, begging me to save her from depression, and to take her away. I tried so hard to convince her to try another route, and luckily she listened. I hoped that this would open your eye's to the depressing cancer that was rapidly spreading throughout both of your parents. Which it almost did, but naturally your attention was focused on your mom. At least at that point I was able to concentrate more on your father...I tried like hell to get your dad to quit drinking. Unfortunately alcohol was like a portal that allowed him and I to communicate. Kind of like pen and paper for you and I... Your dad thought my voice created a comfort and shelter from the depression. I tried to tell him that it was the whiskey warming his body, and numbing his nerves... He never did believe me. Oh, that reminds me, I've been meaning to ask what your attempt was in trying to help him with his drinking problem.Anyways, his visits started to be more and more frequent, so I feared it wouldn't be long until he didn't want to run and hide anymore. I felt like I tried all I could. So I suggested that he try finding comfort and shelter from a doctor, but he thought I was trying to get rid of him. He got so angry, so fast... I think it was the alcohol making him act that way. I tried to reason with him, but there was no getting through to him. Then, all of the sudden, he just stopped. Everything went silent, and the chaos seemed to disappear into thin air. He closed his eyes, and began whispering... Almost like he was praying. Next thing I knew he had the barrel beneath his chin, cocked the hammer, and pulled the trigger.Clyde, I hope you can see now that I'm not the one to blame. I've always been the one people turn to if they can't escape depressions relentless pursuit. Not once have I persuaded someone to kill themselves. In fact, I'm always the last one trying to help. I'm the one who tries to convince people to find another path.Although I'm known as suicide, I'm actually just the gatekeeper of suicides gate, and it's my unfortunate duty to open that gate. I'm able to speak to them before they choose to go through the gate, and sometimes I'm able to convince them to find a different path... More times than not, I'm unable to save them.I understand the way you, and basically the entire population of your world, feel about me. I just hope that you will give me another chance to show you who, and what I'm really capable of... I think that you and I would make a great team in efforts to combat the real enemy... Depression. I hope to hear back from you soon.Sincerely, The Gatekeeper

In this one, I read part two of my gatekeeper series. This is my letter back to suicide. As I read this one, I tried to put more emotion into it. Let me know how I did! I will include the text for below. Thanks for listening! Download and share! If you are experiencing suicidal thoughts, please call the SUICIDE PREVENTION HOTLINE 800-273-8255Also, not entirely sure when, but there will be a three digit number, just like 911, that you can use to reach the SUICIDE PREVENTION HOTLINE. It will be 988. I love this and think it is incredible. Just like an emergency, reaching the suicide hotline should not take googling it to find it. It should be something simple. And I'm very excited for this to happen!Life…. Who said you have to do it alone?PART TWODear suicide,I'm not going to tell you about my friends, my love, my job, or my mom. I know better than that now. The only thing I will tell you is, I'm doing great.I want you to know that I've hated you since the day you took my friend. He was only in the fifth grade, and you took him away without even blinking an eye. I was so afraid of you because I thought, "only the devil himself could be so evil". Then you took my uncle. I'll admit, that was a clever plan. At the time, I didn't understand, but I realize now that it was the only way for you to get inside of my fathers heart and soul. You waited until the perfect time. Then you used my mom as a distraction while you took him from me. A surprise attack, as if you hoped it would force me to take my guard down. Instead, it made me want to fight.I came up with a battle plan, and my cousin was my right hand man. Together, He and I were going to defeat your army of addiction, depression, abuse, and all the other evil pawns you have... Until you took him down. Without him, I've had to battle a new fear, illuminated by your light. A fear of bringing those who I care about into the front lines of this war that I wage upon you and your evil reign. A fear of encouraging people to believe, only to watch them fall to your feet. After all of this, how could you think I would consider you as my friend? Is it because of the poems I write about you? I write about you in effort to expose you. I hope that the more I shed light on you, the less fear people have for you. I want them to realize, there is a little bit of you, hiding inside of us all... Maybe then they can see how weak you really are. Maybe then, they can stop hiding from you, and you won't be able to overpower anyone anymore.My happiness will never lead me to you. In fact, my happiness is, in some ways, inspired by you. You think that by taking my family, and friends will bring me closer to you? All it has done, is made me more aware of you, which has inspired me to be nothing like you. It has inspired me to fight against you.So, until next time, I will always be thinking of you. I will continue to exploit you, and raise awareness of how to defeat you.Sincerely, Clyde

In this episode I will discuss the clever ways we can be tricked by our needs. As well as the importance of seeing this and learning from it. I will also introduce what's called the infinite cycle. And how our needs create this, as well as how to get out of it. I'm very excited to share this with you all. I have had many experiences with both my needs tricking me, as well as getting stuck in the infinite cycle. And I can't wait for you to see how it might apply to you. There are a few takeaways I'd like to share:1) Be aware of what is REALLY driving you. This will help you become more self aware. It will also help keep you from feeling lost because you will be able to see how your actions and behaviors are not aligning with who you want to be.2) The infinite cycle happens when our perception does not align with reality.3) In the infinite cycle we go back and forth between different emotions. And in doing so, we are meeting our needs.4) There are two ways out of the infinite cycle. We can either go up, or we can go down.5) Most of the time we go down. And when we go down, we do so with distractions. And in doing so, we are also meeting our needs.6) The way to free ourselves of the infinite cycle is by going up. We do this when we change our perception to align with reality.7) There are three elements that make up our perception. They are: Focus; Language; Physiology. 8) In order to change our perception and align it with reality we must change or adjust our needs in a way that better matches the truth of reality.Thank you so much for listening. Please, download and share!Life... Who said you have to do it alone?

In this episode I read a poem that I wrote a few years ago. It's the first part of an 8 part series that I call THE GATEKEEPER. This is some of my favorite writing that I've ever done, and I've always said that the whole world needs to read it. So instead, I'll read it and you can listen! I will also give some more details and some hidden things that I don't really get to share with those who've read it. I'm excited to add this to my podcast, and I hope you enjoy it!! (I've added the text form below) Remember to download and share! Thank you!Life…. Who said you have to do it alone?PART ONEHello old friend. It's been a few years since we last talked. I want to hear about everything you've been up to since then. Tell me, how are you? Have you made any new friends? Who do you love? Do you enjoy your job? How is your mom?Look, I've been meaning to apologize for almost taking her away from you. I know you can't live without her, I was being selfish. Friends shouldn't do that to friends. We are friends, right? Even tho we don't talk like we used to, and you don't write me letters anymore, I still consider you my friend. I hope the same goes for you.I hope you know that I only use your family and friends in order to get closer to you. I wanted you to get to know me, and I couldn't make that happen without them. Is that why you don't write anymore, because you understand who I am? I hope it's that, and not because you're mad. It's your happiness that I seek. Hopefully one day that happiness will lead you to me. Until next time my love, may you always think of me.Love, Suicide

In this episode I talk about my experience with the six human needs and why I've become obsessed with them. About 3-3.5 years ago I came face to face with the one thing I thought I'd never do. Which is suicide. Anyone who has been there, and knows what it's like to be in that state of mind knows how scary it can be. Luckily I had a moment where I was able to recall a Tony Robbins video that I found on YouTube. Even more, luckily I was able to stop myself and the state of mind long enough to go watch that video again. Had it not been for that moment, I'm confident I wouldn't be here today. Listen in as I take you through that moment and how I was able to pull myself out of the darkness. Subscribe, download and share! Thanks for tuning in!Life... Who said you have to do it alone?

I wanted to officially kick off my channel with this because it is going to be in A LOT of what I talk about throughout my channel. I learned about these years ago while going down a rabbit hole on YouTube, and then I re-learned about them a few years ago. They have helped me in my self awareness journey. Also, I am taking a life coaching course. It was co-created by Tony Robbins, and in that I have learned so much more about the six human needs. Thanks for tuning in! Please follow and give me some feedback!Life... Who said you have to do it alone?

In this episode I give a little backstory for why I want to start this podcast. Instead of procrastinating like I usually do and then eventually talking myself out of doing this, I decided to just go for it! I was on the road, just dropped my mom off at the airport, and had the urge to record myself. Which is not a normal thing for me. Instead of coming up with all the reasons not to, I decided just go for it. And then, instead of doing all the editing and revising, which would eventually lead to me not ever finishing it, I am just uploading that recording as is! So bare with me as it was unscripted and in the car! The audio isn't the best, but that's just the way it's going to be until I invest in some better recording equipment! Thanks for tuning in, and I look forward to the feedback! Life... Who said you have to do it alone?