Roots of Awakening

This episode features an inside look at 11 different ways I manage my anxiety. If you have ever had anxiousness or know someone who does, then you don’t want to miss this episode. I talked about A LOT in this episode,make sure to check out the show notes at https://rootsofawakening.com/episode29 for all of the links! 

Join me as I chat with LaRae about the journey to knowing your true self and how self love affects ALL relationships.   In this episode you will hear: Why women are ready to awaken now more than ever LaRae’s story of awakening All about caretaker burnout- and what to do about it The root of resentment How love looks different for each person in the relationship Why expressing even the truest love doesn’t always feel natural (and what to do about it) Aligning cycles with your partners needs What made me exponentially sexier to my husband How your partner can support you on your path to wholeness Inner Goddess framework Why there is a need/want for sisterhood right now How to identify (and name) your inner Goddesses  

Crystals are more than pretty rocks, they can influence us physically, emotionally and mentally. Join me as I discuss 8 crystals that I think everyone needs in their life now. In this episode you will hear: How crystals can influence how we feel How to pick the perfect crystal for you My top 8 favorite crystals right now and how to use them What to do instead of cleansing your crystals My favorite reference book for crystal information

Are you ready to release the pain that has been keeping you from living your best life? Who isn’t?! This week I talk with Rachael Claire who will talk to us about how she has facilitated this healing for so many women, including herself.   In this episode you will hear: Rachael’s personal journey to becoming a Shaman (spoiler alert: she wasn’t looking for it!) The connection between emotional and physical pain The flip side to the adage “hurt people hurt people” One simple thing you can do right now to clear trapped emotion and pain   This episode pairs well with episode #24: The benefit of a breakdown, which we reference a couple times. Here is the link if you want to give it a listen. http://rootsofawakening.com/episode24   Rachael also has a beautiful guided meditation on her site that you can listen to anytime. You can find it here: https://divinewarriors.co/heal-depression-now-2019/   Like I mentioned in the episode, Rachael is offering 30% off any of the products and services on her site by using coupon code: shamanicroots on her site: https://divinewarriors.co/

While watching my Father deteriorate in front of my eyes, my brother in-law Rob was like my guide, my translator in the language of alcoholism. With 24 years of sobriety under his belt Rob is the most knowledgeable man I knew about what it’s like to be an alcoholic and what its like to love one.   It’s my total honor to be able to interview him so we could all benefit from his experiences. In this episode we will discuss:- the mindset of an alcoholic- why your love or their love for you isn’t enough to get them to quit- why willpower has nothing to do with getting sober- what you can do if you love an alcoholic- what you can do if you are an alcoholic   *None of the information provided in this episode is intended to be medical advice. Please seek the advice of a professional if you or someone you love is in danger.

Have you ever stopped yourself in the middle of a really good time and ask why you are happy? Where did this happiness come from? Probably not… so why do we do this with anger and other “negative” emotions? In this episode we will look at:- The difference between anger and aggression- What to do with that anger/or any emotion that is coming up - My experiences with working with unwanted emotions- Healthy ways of releasing emotion

Here's a look at what is in store for the Roots of Awakening podcast in 2019

This episode is one that not only I needed but I know so many of you were asking for as well. I brought in Jenn Hepton who is a grief expert to talk about how to best get through the holiday season after losing someone you love- whether it just happened or it happened years ago.  Jenn’s Bio:  Jenn Hepton is a Certified Grief Support Coach, Life + Wellness Coach, Speaker, Author, and Educator. She coaches womxn who want to make sense of their lives after loss and who are tired of hiding their voices and feeling powerless in their grief. She works with them to navigate through the darkness, find a place of expansion, and purpose. After any type of loss, a purposeful and mindful life seems unreachable - but it’s not.  After experiencing her own life-changing losses after years of infertility, miscarriage, and losing her daughter in stillbirth, Jenn now helps others move through their own grieving process. She has an innate understanding of the ups and downs that come along with loss; from the depths of sorrow to the feeling of finding joy again. She has the ability to help you understand your grief, guide you to more clarity, and normalizing the grief process. Jenn gives you tools and the hope you need to move forward in your life after loss.  Jenn’s story:  We lost our daughter, Loey, at 39 weeks in 2018. We lost our twins at 22 weeks in 2013. I lost myself in years of infertility and miscarriages, ovulation sticks,  fertility diets, supplements, acupuncture, IVF and Chinese herbs. We struggled with so many losses over these years and all we wanted was to have a baby.   We finally were pregnant again with Loey and I thought my wishes were answered. Sadly that wasn’t the case. I will never forget the room, the smell, the voices, and the nurse saying - “I’m so sorry, she doesn’t have a heartbeat”. After losing Loey, I had to stop and take inventory. My soul was ripped into a million pieces, and it was in the middle of a breakdown that I asked myself, what do I do now?! I was in the depths of PTSD, stuck in my limiting beliefs and experiencing a lot of trauma. I CHOOSE to RE-DEFINE MY LIFE and created a life I wanted and a life I want my daughter to be proud of.

This is the last episode in the Forever Loved Series. This month you will hear from my husband and myself as we both talk about our Dads.  

We are going to be doing things a little bit differently for the month of October. I had an idea to use this month for myself and others to honor the lives of loved ones we have lost.   I am a big believer in talking about dying, death, and those who have passed. Because acting like it never happened  or that it won’t happen to you doesn’t do anyone any good. And not hearing the name of the person you’ve lost is almost crippling. So since I have this space- I wanted to use it to speak the names of the ones we love. To tell the world about them and why they are so special and so damn missed.   It's my hope that you will find peace in honoring the people we talk about here and  that this will inspire you to talk about those you have lost.   In this episode we will hear from Amy and Jennifer.

We are going to be doing things a little bit differently for the month of October. I had an idea to use this month for myself and others to honor the lives of loved ones we have lost.   I am a big believer in talking about dying, death, and those who have passed. Because acting like it never happened  or that it won’t happen to you doesn’t do anyone any good. And not hearing the name of the person you’ve lost is almost crippling. So since I have this space- I wanted to use it to speak the names of the ones we love. To tell the world about them and why they are so special and so damn missed.   It's my hope that you will find peace in honoring the people we talk about here and  that this will inspire you to talk about those you have lost.   In this episode we will hear from Casandra, Amanda & Ella

We are going to be doing things a little bit differently for the month of October. I had an idea to use this month for myself and others to honor the lives of loved ones we have lost. I am a big believer in talking about dying, death, and those who have passed. Because acting like it never happened  or that it won’t happen to you doesn’t do anyone any good. And not hearing the name of the person you’ve lost is almost crippling. So since I have this space- I wanted to use it to speak the names of the ones we love. To tell the world about them and why they are so special and so damn missed. It’s my hope that you will find peace in honoring the people we talk about here and  that this will inspire you to talk about those you have lost. In this episode we will hear from Ella and Kate.

We are going to be doing things a little bit differently for the month of October. I had an idea to use this month for myself and others to honor the lives of loved ones we have lost. I am a big believer in talking about dying, death, and those who have passed. Because acting like it never happened  or that it won’t happen to you doesn’t do anyone any good. And not hearing the name of the person you’ve lost is almost crippling. So since I have this space- I wanted to use it to speak the names of the ones we love. To tell the world about them and why they are so special and so damn missed. It's my hope that you will find peace in honoring the people we talk about here and  that this will inspire you to talk about those you have lost. In this episode we will hear from Maya and Kim.

As a child did people often tell you that you were a scaredy-cat or did you notice that you didn’t enjoy loud, busy places? Or maybe you weren’t one of those kids, but you have one. In this episode Ilia and I discuss why you weren’t a scaredy-cat, what you can do if you know a child like this, and why awareness about this issue is essential for all of us. We will also cover the fact that we have all experienced an energy reading, whether you realized it or not, why we all need a raincoat and the link between past lives and anxiety. Yeah, this episode is jam-packed and you don’t want to miss a thing. Get listening!

Have you ever heard about tea meditation? I hadn’t either until I met Lynayn Mielke.   You will learn why tea is such a powerful tool in meditation, how to do it, and even a little bit of history about it (spoiler alert: this is not a new practice!).   I know, I know… you love your coffee. But after this episode I have a feeling that you might fall in love with tea or at the very least be curious about it.     Check it out and let us know what you think!   Join Lynayn on Facebook Email Lynayn

Have you ever felt that you were blindly seeking for something, but you just really couldn’t figure out what that something was? Perhaps you’ve tried meditation to find it, but it's just too hard to be alone with yourself and all of the thoughts in your mind. Saskia Fokkink will tell us about her journey and how she was able to work through these obstacles and in turn help others that are battling with those same feelings. Saskia will also share with us what she believes is the biggest contributor to depression and anxiety and what to do about it. Yeah, it’s pretty huge. This episode is jam packed with wisdom that you just can’t afford to miss.

You’ve gotta listen to this episode just so you can meet Emma and find out why I think she’s a total warrior goddess! We discuss creating healthy boundaries (even ones that seem impossible), oracle cards, journaling the power of the sea, and oh so much more. Emma gets super vulnerable with us as she shares what steps she took when she found herself in an unexpected low point recently. Which got us thinking about the idea that you’re never going to be “fixed” or “cured” from depression/anxiety. But don’t lose hope- because that doesn’t mean that you’re powerless. There’s so much that you can do for yourself- and we’ve laid it all out for you! So, push play and enjoy Emma Love, Warrior Goddess!

Let’s face it, as a woman there is a pretty good chance we have had some issues with our body image at one point in our life. During this episode I talk with transformational lifestyle coach Christina Ennabe about body dysmorphia and mental illness.   Christina and I discuss how our story has the power to help others- and as Christina so brilliantly puts it- why you don’t need to be a black belt to help a white belt. We will also find out why her coaching is totally different than most coaches that deal with body image (hint: one of her motto’s is “Health looks different on everybody”. This is truly a beautiful talk about something that really has the power to affect all women.   Here’s a little more about Christina: Christina is a transformational lifestyle and health coach who's passionate about helping men and women find fulfillment and purpose. Christina uses her educational background in mental health counseling, as well as her own personal journey with disordered eating, depression, and body dysmorphia to support her clients in creating positive shifts around nutrition, fitness, mindset, and self image. Christina's mission is to change the worlds idea of what healthy looks like.​   Links: Christina’s website (and free guide for mindful eating) Christina on Facebook Christina on Instagram   Please feel free to reach out: Roots of Awakening Collective Facebook Page Instagram Keep in the loop

I’m back from my trip and I just have to tell you how the tips and tricks from episode 10 worked out, as well as some very surprising things that came up along the way!

What do you do when what’s best for you is also what triggers your anxiety? Getting out and living life is what we are all striving to do. But for some of us its not as easy as booking a ticket and going somewhere. Sometimes doing that will trigger our deepest fears and force us into even more seclusion. I get it. I have canceled and rearranged trips all because I let anxiety control my actions. In this episode I talk about my latest vacation obstacle, what I did about it, and I share quite a few invaluable tips to help you get out there and enjoying life.   Links: Breathing focal point can be found here in my guide Lavender Pills Book- Dare: The New Way to End Anxiety and Stop Panic Attacks   Please feel free to reach out: Roots of Awakening Collective Facebook Page Instagram Keep in the loop  

I pushed my dad’s body into the fire.This is something I never imagined I would do.When I was faced with the opportunity to make this transition for my father I knew I had to do it.I knew I could walk away and have someone else do it but I knew I didn’t want to live my life that way.I knew the person I wanted to be and that person is the one who doesn’t shy away from the hard things. I know what it’s like to feel completely overwhelmed and afraid. I’ve been the person that never had a tolerance for hard things.I mean, who looks forward to dealing with negative things, right?! When it was clear my father was passing away I vowed to stay with him through it all. I didn’t leave his side. For both he and I, it's what I had to do. I held him while he took his last breath, I laid with him for one last snuggle after he was gone, and as a final act of love I pushed his body into the crematory. I took care of him until there was no more body to take care of. While it was the hardest time in my entire life, I’m so thankful that I allowed myself the opportunity to do everything I could for him. Listen to my newest podcast episode to hear the entire story of how I loved my father through his transition from this life.

Is anxiety robbing you of the ability to enjoy life? Like really enjoy it? It did for me. Every time I felt a slight pang of happiness- I would reprimand myself and think of how its too scary to be happy. Happiness left me vulnerable. And I was ready to anything to not feel vulnerable.  I longed for happiness- but when I found it- I was left wanting for something a little different. I wanted JOY.  Join me as I recount my path to finding joy- and how I feel joy differs from happiness. Article I spoke about in episode: Maya Henry article: How To Overcome Your Fear of Happiness Please feel free to reach out:Roots of Awakening Collective Facebook Page Instagram Keep in the loop

Did you read the title of this episode in the tune of Salt-N-Pepa’s “Let’s Talk About Sex”? If not, go back and sing it that way- it’s so much better that way. Okay, on to the real talk...I get it, talking about death makes you uncomfortable. I used to worry that talking about death was going to make it come and get me, kind of like the boogie man. But, it’s the one thing that is guaranteed to touch all of us- so shouldn’t we be having conversations about this? I think so. I’m going to start with the basics in this episode, like what books helped me, why you should talk about your own death, and why you need to talk about your loved ones deaths too! That's the basics right? This is the first of many conversations I want to have on this topic, because its vital we start talking about this now! It will actually help reduce anxiety and even keep families together (I explain in the episode what I mean by that). So, take 20 minutes today to just start your journey into the death positive field- its SO worth it!

You asked to hear more specifically about panic and anxiety- so I am delivering! In this episode I will take you through moment by moment of my very first panic attack as well as what the few months following it looked like. Hear about what was going through my head during the attack, why the word “unreality” gave me a moment of validation, and what I spent tens of thousands of dollars on to get better after my attack. Please feel free to reach out:Roots of Awakening Collective Facebook Page Instagram Keep in the loop

How in tune are you with the moon? Whether you are conscious of it or not, you consistently act a certain way during each phase of the moon. Maybe you’re more introverted with the new moon or more maybe you’re a little more  anxious with the full moon. In this episode we will discuss the most common behaviors during the new and full moons and how you can empower yourself by finding out exactly how you react to the moon’s phases. Links to some of the things I mentioned in this podcast: Book: Aunt Flo: Who she is, why she visits, and what others have to say about her We’moon calendar iPeriod app   Please feel free to reach out: Facebook Instagram Keep in the loop

Chakras! This is one of my favorite subjects in the world. In this episode I’ve set it up more like a class, in order to teach you about the incredible impacts that your chakras have on your entire mind, body, and soul. There is so much information in this little episode, so I made sure to make my notes available to you. That way you don’t have to worry about taking notes yourself, you can feel free to sit back and just absorb it all.   To get the notes just go to: https://RootsofAwakening.com/chakras   Please feel free to reach out: Facebook Instagram Keep in the loop

We hear a lot about what depression and anxiety are like for those that are suffering from it, but we often don’t think about those who are closest to them. Many don’t realize that they are struggling too.   “Coming home, I wouldn’t know what mom I would get.”   I am honored to have my oldest daughter on the show to talk about what life was like growing up with a mom who was mentally ill much of the time. She tells it like it was- and doesn’t sugarcoat it either, instead she shared what was going on in her mind, how our household differed from those of her friends, and her advice to those that are in similar situations.We also touched on the fact that she has a similar “make-up” as mine: shes an empath and people pleaser. So how did that change things for her?   “When you’re down, I’m down.”   This is a talk that has been so revealing and healing for me, I hope that you find a connection with it as well. Please feel free to reach out: Facebook Instagram Keep in the loop

Have you ever asked the Universe for something that you are totally embarrassed to admit out loud to anyone? Yeah, me too. Yet, here I am telling you a secret that has filled me with so much guilt over the years.   Asking for what you need and want for in life is really hard for some of us- to the point that we would rather suffer in silence than say, ‘Hey, I really could use a nap right now.’   But, why? Why do we pick burnout over communication? Why do we pick being totally resentful of our partner rather than communication? Why does rest equal not-enoughness or weakness?   Sorry, I don’t have the answers for you, but I do know what you’re going through, because I am one of those people who would beg for sickness instead of asking for rest. Until I wore myself down so low that I had to ask for what I needed, because if I didn’t, I’m pretty sure I wouldn’t be here anymore.   Join me while I reveal what I used to ask the Universe for and how I got myself out of that thought pattern once and for all. Please feel free to reach out: Facebook Instagram Keep in the loop

From a very early age I knew that I interacted with the world differently than those around me. I seemed to feel what people were feeling and I didn't know how to handle it. It then became my mission to make everyone I met happy, because I didn’t like it when I felt negative energy around me. When I reached puberty, I learned that drugs could help numb some of the heightened sensations I felt. By the time I was 14 I was weaning myself off speed, which only made my need to people please become amplified. Often the only way I knew how to do this was with my body. I gave away the only thing I had to offer.   By 18 I was pregnant- and my world changed forever. The next 15 years were plagued with deep pockets of depression sprinkled with soaring highs. Then in 2015 I reached the bottom of my mental illness journey- I suffered my first panic attack. It's taken me 3 years to find the surface and come up for air.   This is my story. My hope in sharing it is you will understand why I need to do this podcast now, why I need to share my stories, talk about healing, and connect with those of you who get it. Please feel free to reach out:Facebook Instagram Keep in the loop