Unpretty

In this episode, Abeni walks the audience through how taking up space often involves following through with intuition, even if it doesn't make sense. Our bodies are always in constant communication. The body knows things the mind doesn't. Taking up space can sometimes mean being sure and strong amongst your own boundaries. The outcome is often breakable if we let our boundaries become flimsy and fragile. Abeni realizes that she has made transgressions against her boundaries by not trusting herself, not speaking up, and not standing firm in relationships. As a result, she has made a promise to herself to trust her intuition, and her body - even if it doesn't make sense to others.

Poet, author and mental health advocate Eduardo Reyes joins Unpretty to discuss love and forgiveness. Eduardo engages in a candid conversation with host, Abeni, about his childhood and personal experiences about relationships, family and grief. Forgiveness isn't always easy and love comes in all forms but Eduardo expresses his views on what it's like to be faced with tragedy all the while trying to navigate relationships. Tune in to hear his beautiful poetry and his story. His books Journey Through The Void Vol 1 and Vol 2 AND Love, Sex, Intimacy and Understanding are available to purchase on Amazon. Go get your copy today! Follow him on instagram @reyes562 https://www.amazon.com/Love-Intimacy-Understanding-Eduardo-Reyes/dp/B09RG47SSQ https://www.amazon.com/Journey-Through-Void-Eduardo-Reyes/dp/1073572625

In this episode of Unpretty, the podcast, Ábeni goes down memory lane as she refers back to one of the only times she truly felt loved by a partner. As she reads old letters from a young first love, the blast from the past reminds her what it felt like to be loved by someone unconditionally. This is her only reference of what love is or could be. She had forgotten what it felt like to be in a reciprocal love and a healthy balanced connection. Ábeni realizes that she loves deeply. Especially in small intimate moments AND through letters. This reminder is sweet and hopeful, bringing in a new light and perspective. Don't forget to tune in! Pre-warning, the Abeni lagrimas do come out in this episode.

In this episode, Ábeni shares her difficulty with recurring negative thoughts that often won't go away. She goes into some background of betrayal trauma and its affects on the brain. Studies from Stan Tatkin show that the brain can suffer from PTSD symptoms from a relationship betrayal. A full interview featuring Stan Tatkin can be found on the Helping Couples Heal Podcast. Enjoy the episode and don't forget to leave feedback! Thank you!

On this episode of Unpretty: Abeni explains her spiritual and emotional relationship with the land around her. She realizes that not only has she had important life experiences in nature/ land but that it's always been there to take care of her even at her lowest/darkest point of pain. The beautiful California land has never wavered or left her hanging. If fact, it's carried her when she could no longer walk. Tune in to hear more! Remember to rate and review the pod if you like what you hear!! --- This episode is sponsored by · Anchor: The easiest way to make a podcast. https://anchor.fm/app

Abeni goes into her relationship with beauty. She reflects on her need for validation from other and the judgment she has felt from experiences that have made her feel unworthy. There has been a great journey she has made from a time of great insecurity and darkness. Now she is rediscovering her beauty her own way — whether that be physically or emotionally. Abeni wants to wear her beauty as her strength and armor. Enjoy this episode and don't for forget to rate, review and suscribe. --- This episode is sponsored by · Anchor: The easiest way to make a podcast. https://anchor.fm/app

In the next chapter of Unpretty, Abeni explores what it means (to her) to feel and look beautiful. Her healing has brought upon changes and a new perspective of beauty. As she reconnects with her physical and inner beauty, she sees just how far she has come. As she changes on the outside, she changes on the inside as well. With a new appearance, she witnesses the person she is becoming and loving every moment of it. There is still a long road ahead, but the journey is becoming fun and bright. --- This episode is sponsored by · Anchor: The easiest way to make a podcast. https://anchor.fm/app

Unpretty welcomes another amazing guest Natalie Garcia! Natalie is the author of the book CÓSMICA — A POETRY AND MAGICAL RITUALS BOOK. She is also a beauty & fashion publicist, a spoken word performer and a single mami. Natalie joins Abeni to discuss online dating, magic and cultural expectations. Natalie and Abeni realized they may be breaking generational curses by examining their pain through a creative outlet as artists & writers. Press that the play button and tune in!! Welcome to Unpretty, the podcast! --- This episode is sponsored by · Anchor: The easiest way to make a podcast. https://anchor.fm/app

Unpretty The Podcast welcomes ZZAY to show! The rising Hip Hop artist, writer and singer hashes out unpretty moments with host Abeni. Whether it has to do with creativity, love or the pandemic, ZZAY gets personal about her relationships and much more. Tune in to hear about overcoming trauma, pain or even personal pressures/expectations. Abeni & ZZAY realize they are not that different when comes to love, turmoil and learning to  get back up when knocked down. Don't miss this episode! ❤ Check out Zzay's music on all streaming platforms. https://open.spotify.com/artist/4OmQBmzk5dKNjkC5MaBA --- This episode is sponsored by · Anchor: The easiest way to make a podcast. https://anchor.fm/app

Abeni reads a short story she had written when she was just 15 years old. The story embodies the entanglement of relationships, the facade it can turn into and the toxicity it can bring up. The narration is eerie and strange but it contains important symbolism and nuances on how relationships can form out of good intentions and spiral into confusion and emotional paralyzation. The teenage Abeni was able to see and pin point these nuances and creatively put them on paper. Cool Sheets is a story and an explanation of how humans have a tendency to connect to one another when they are individually living in darkness. This is Cool Sheets. Hope you all enjoy the story!

Abeni Moreno visits New York and is presented with two stories of New York women –Rita Hayworth and Rita Moreno.  Abeni dives into their history with love and romance. Unpretty, the podcast highlights that even the most talented, beautiful and larger than life women can struggle in love. But why? It shouldn't be that way! This episode honors the pain of these women and how their greatness crumbled in the presence of men or lovers. These are women Abeni has heard of before but didn't know the pain of their personal stories. Rita Hayworth and Rita Moreno's experience with love might not be too far off from our foremothers and grandmothers. Tune in to find out the lessons to be learned from their stories. 

Abeni pays homage to the passing of her 103 year old Grandmother. She tells the story of her recent passing and the possibility of Abuelita Remy healing the emotional pain inside her from beyond the grave. Is it possible for love ones to give us one last gift before they pass on? Tune in to hear the blessing Abeni received from her grandmother and the stories she held close. This episode Pays respects to her life and journey. This is Unpretty, The Podcast. --- This episode is sponsored by · Anchor: The easiest way to make a podcast. https://anchor.fm/app

In this episode Abeni explains the lessons she has learned from feeling ALL her feelings in her time in isolation and the epiphanies that have risen to surface. Abeni reads small excerpts from her diary in regards to her most recent relationship. Within those entries, they show a small meek woman who was confused and fearful. Now that the door has shut on this relationship, Abeni dedicates herself to becoming a new woman. She finally can say outloud, “I'm ready to be the woman I'm meant to be!” Tune in to hear what change will come. --- This episode is sponsored by · Anchor: The easiest way to make a podcast. https://anchor.fm/app

Abeni describes a self-inflicted hiatus from the world. Being out and about, trying to distract her thoughts hasn't been working. So she decided to get back to herself in isolation. Before, being alone was painful. Now, it's comforting and seems to be the only thing that will allow her break through the difficult barriers. Tune in to see how she is returning back to herself and the type of negative thoughts she is dodging left and right. Dealing with unpretty thoughts and memories might be the only way to shed the old. Do you have difficulty being alone? Let the pod know what unpretty moments you have had! --- This episode is sponsored by · Anchor: The easiest way to make a podcast. https://anchor.fm/app

“Unpretty” The Podcast is featuring its first guest!!! Abeni welcomes her longtime friend, Alan, to speak about his unpretty moments. Together they take you through Alan's journey through memories of growing up and how he became the man he is today! Make sure to tune in on Spotify !! --- This episode is sponsored by · Anchor: The easiest way to make a podcast. https://anchor.fm/app

“Unpretty” The Podcast goes into why it's important to be bold and utilize your voice, especially in relationships. Abeni speaks about how she felt silenced in previous relationships– leading to the demise of her personal power. And perhaps this helped to manifest her biggest fears Into reality. After some self-reflection, she is making up for lost time by using a podcast platform to be loud and tell her story to anyone willing to listen. “Unpretty” The Podcast is how she is gaining her power and self-worth back! --- This episode is sponsored by · Anchor: The easiest way to make a podcast. https://anchor.fm/app

In this episode, Abeni explains how she lost herself a bit in her most previous relationship. She goes into details about her anxiety and how that has manifested in physical pain. There is contemplation about accountability and the moral issue of looking through someone's phone. And how that relates to dishonesty and trust. She is vulnerable about being replaced by another person and the type of wound it creates. Overall, this episode is about what it's like to sit with unpretty moments. --- This episode is sponsored by · Anchor: The easiest way to make a podcast. https://anchor.fm/app

On This Episode of “Unpretty” The Podcast, Abeni tells a story of her most recent break up. She dives deep into the detail of feelings, self-esteem and the small nuances of the relationship. In this episode, pain and confusion is recognized when it's so often pushed aside or experienced in silence. Abeni makes clear that this narrative is difficult to tell but still worth telling. There are many unpretty moments in life, maybe it's time to really take a look at them. --- This episode is sponsored by · Anchor: The easiest way to make a podcast. https://anchor.fm/app

This is Unpretty, The Podcast. This is just a short intro to let the listeners know what kind of the “Unpretty” moments lie ahead. “Unpretty,” The Podcast is a real-time documentation of the host's personal journey with finding her true self. Abeni dedicates herself to understanding all the “unpretty” moments of life whether it has to do with relationships, body image, beauty standards, childhood, career or more. Episodes cover real life scenarios, hoping to recognize the “unpretty” moments, learn from them and move on. This podcast is about Abeni finding out for herself what it means to get back to her “pretty” self. And all the lessons she has to face to finally arrive on solid ground. Welcome to Unpretty, The Podcast. --- This episode is sponsored by · Anchor: The easiest way to make a podcast. https://anchor.fm/app