Podcasts about Betrayal

Ivana Miličević is a Bosnian-Croatian American actress and former model, born in Sarajevo and raised in Michigan after her family emigrated to the U.S. as a child. Her early career began in modelling, but she soon transitioned into acting, taking on small roles on television and in films. She's appeared in iconic films such as “Vanilla Sky” (2001), “Love Actually” (2003), “Just Like Heaven” (2005), and had a standout role in the James Bond film “Casino Royale” (2006) as the character Valenka. On the TV front, Ivana is perhaps best known for her starring role in the action-drama “Banshee” (2013–2016), where she played Carrie Hopewell, and for her recurring role in the sci-fi series “The 100” (2018–2020).She's also made memorable guest appearances on classic shows like Seinfeld, Felicity, Buffy the Vampire Slayer, Friends, Charmed, and more.Beyond her on-screen work, Ivana is known for her versatility — she's done action, comedy, drama, and even voice acting in video games.In this episode, actress Ivana Milicevic opens up about her deeply personal journey with manifestation. Ivana shares candid stories from her past—cheating partners, the beliefs that held her back, and the teacher, George, that changed her life.You'll hear about Ivana's spiritual and practical tools she uses to welcome abundance, align with her intuition, and stay open to receiving everything she desires.Whether you're navigating relationships, working through limiting beliefs, or wanting to call in more abundance, this conversation is filled with insight, humor, and genuine soul wisdom. Hosted on Acast. See acast.com/privacy for more information.

HELLO MY LOVES!!! This week's episode of Literally Not Okay is UNHINGED in the BEST way. I'm joined by fashion queen, reality TV icon, and influencer OG Courtney Noonan (yes, Kerr, but we're manifesting the name change lol). From Barbie vaginas and clogging toilets to coffee & titties saving marriages – NOTHING is off-limits and honestly, I've never related more.

This transformative and emotionally gripping episode of Life Points with Ronda confronts one of the most painful but necessary turning points in personal growth: recognizing the pattern of choosing people who cannot, will not, or simply do not choose you in return. Many people unknowingly enter relationships that repeat old emotional wounds. This episode explains the deep psychological roots behind that pattern — including childhood emotional templates, attachment wounds, nervous system imprinting, and the survival instinct that makes you love potential instead of reality. We explore the subtle but powerful ways you learn to betray yourself: ignoring your intuition, silencing your needs, overinvesting in people who underinvest in you, and shrinking your worth to maintain the illusion of connection. You will learn how childhood conditioning creates adult attraction patterns that feel familiar but are deeply harmful. This episode takes you through the emotional moment when everything changes — the spiritual awakening where you stop negotiating with your worth and finally choose yourself. We break down why choosing yourself is not ego-driven but soul-driven, and how this shift reprograms your relationships, self-esteem, boundaries, and emotional intelligence. You will also experience a profound teaching on the spiritual contract of self-choosing — the energetic agreement you enter when you decide to stop abandoning yourself and begin honoring your peace, standards, and intuition. This section explores how self-alignment elevates your vibration, reorganizes your connections, and draws in healthier relationships aligned with your healed identity. Packed with emotional clarity, psychological insight, and spiritual empowerment, this episode teaches you how to break cycles, stop settling, reclaim your identity, and step into relationships where your worth is fully recognized. A necessary episode for anyone ready to heal self-betrayal, choose emotional alignment, and upgrade the love they allow into their life.

Michelle MacNeill, devoted mother of eight, wife, and former beauty queen, had a life that seemed enviable. Living in Utah with her husband, Dr. Martin MacNeill, everything looked perfect on the surface, but as we all know, appearances can be deceiving. Just days after undergoing plastic surgery, Michelle was found dead in her bathtub. Her death was ruled an accident caused by prescription pain medication, but her sister and daughters were skeptical. Their suspicions would expose the carefully crafted life her husband presented to the world, showing the real darkness behind Martin MacNeill's perfect image. Learn more about your ad choices. Visit megaphone.fm/adchoices

Time to Get Up an NFL playoff game - the duel in Detroit for Dak and Dallas will put one team out - we'll tell you which has a decided edge entering! (0:00) Meanwhile - it's getting ugly in Pittsburgh - could it be time for Tomlin? You'll hear his biggest former Steeler stars say the end is drawing near! (12:30) And - it's March style Madness in December! As the committee makes bubble decisions that are going to have a major impact on college football's future! (23:00) Learn more about your ad choices. Visit podcastchoices.com/adchoices

Why does betrayal hurt so much more during the holidays? In this deeply validating episode, Lisa Limehouse unpacks why the holiday season intensifies emotional pain, triggers, and grief for women and couples recovering from infidelity. You'll learn the neuroscience behind emotional overload, why nostalgia and memories feel so painful, and how disrupted routines and spiritual expectations can amplify trauma responses. Lisa also shares three essential tools to emotionally protect your heart this season, including how to lower holiday expectations, create a personal safety plan, and build a couples healing plan that keeps you grounded and connected when everything around you feels overwhelming. If you're walking through this holiday season feeling raw, anxious, or alone, this episode gives you the clarity, compassion, and Christ-centered guidance you need to move through these weeks with wisdom and emotional safety. ✨ Want deeper help? Grab Lisa's powerful guide, How to Thrive Through the Holidays After Betrayal, a step-by-step resource to help you manage triggers, set boundaries, stay grounded, and protect your healing during the most emotionally intense time of the year. :: NEXT STEPS: HOW TO THRIVE THROUGH THE HOLIDAYS AFTER BETRAYAL MINI COURSE MARRIAGE REDESIGNED PROGRAM  Schedule your MARRIAGE REDESIGNED FREE CONSULT  Join our Beauty Beyond Betrayal Sisterhood:   Healing from an affair: Heartbreak Recovery for Christian Women Grab your Free Ebook:   Broken Vows: Begin healing from the devastation of betrayal Email:   info@lisalimehouse.com WEBSITE:  www.lisalimehouse.com

The fight for transparency in the Epstein case has reached a breaking point, and it's become impossible to ignore the role Donald Trump is playing in concealing the truth. Despite campaigning on promises to expose Epstein's network and deliver justice, Trump has instead publicly dismissed the entire scandal as a “hoax,” undermining survivors and derailing efforts to uncover the truth. His refusal to release the Epstein files—paired with the delusion of his most devoted supporters, who treat him like a messianic figure—has turned political discourse into religious fanaticism. Families have fractured, friendships have collapsed, and critical thinking has evaporated as millions defend Trump not with facts but with blind faith. The cult-like devotion has transformed disappointment into national dysfunction, replacing accountability with worship and truth with propaganda.For the survivors of Epstein's crimes, Trump's betrayal is devastating. They were told to trust him, to believe that justice was coming, and instead were publicly humiliated and dismissed by the very man they believed was fighting for them.   His administration promised action but delivered nothing except excuses and obstruction. Meanwhile, Trump supporters continue to deny his documented connections to Epstein and Ghislaine Maxwell, acting as though he was some undercover hero rather than a participant in the same elite circles. The result has been enormous damage to the pursuit of accountability: a swamp deeper and more toxic than ever, protected by people more interested in defending their idol than defending the truth.to contact me:bobbycapucci@protonmail.com

Lives and relationships are being destroyed by the effects of compulsive sexual behavior.  If you are struggling with pornography, sexual addiction, or other compulsive sexual behaviors and feel stuck - you're not alone. There is HOPE, Healing and Freedom!   Jenny interviews Ashley Jameson, Director of Programs and Partnerships with Pure Desire Ministries, a faith-based nonprofit that tackles porn and sexual addiction. She has overcome her brokenness & her own sexual addiction and knows first hand the impact of walking with others through recovery to freedom! There's devastating impact of porn & sex addiction-  including men & women in America's churches. Secrets, isolation, and shame keep people trapped - whether you're the addict or the betrayed. Ashley, along with Pure Desire Ministry's Executive Director Nick Stumbo have written the book:  Hope, Healing and Freedom: A Pathway Beyond Pornography, Compulsive Sexual Behavior, and Betrayal. You can find more information and resources on pure desire.org.  Also available is Pure Desire Podcast, Unfiltered Podcast on Sex & Love, youth leader library that's free with videos, parent training course and videos on Youtube, online groups for men and women, and the book at their website.  And you'll be able to see this episode on Youtube!

With your co-hostesses: Lyschel Burket from HopeRedefined.org Bonny Burns from StrongWives.com  Temporary Hostess Amy Matters of Matterswellness.com Support HFW through a donation   Listen now: Welcome to another episode of Hope For Wives, today we are so excited to introduce you to another extended guest host, Amy Matters! This is Amy's first time with us and while some people chase the spotlight, as a functional health practitioner, she is guiding others toward wholeness from the inside out. Thank you for being with us, Amy!  We are diving into Amy's strengths in this episode as we discuss the biology of betrayal trauma. Many think that betrayal trauma is only a mental and emotional experience. It's more than that. Betrayal trauma causes physical changes, as well. We Will be Discussing: What's actually happening inside the body when someone experiences betrayal trauma? Why do symptoms like brain fog, anxiety, and exhaustion show up after betrayal? How does betrayal impact hormones and the stress response system? Resources mentioned in this show: Amy Matters Holistic Functional Health Practitioner Website

In this episode of the MTMJ podcast, the hosts discuss their Thanksgiving cooking experiences, including the challenges of preparing a turkey and the importance of timing for dinner. They also rate various macaroni and cheese recipes, share personal anecdotes about eye irritations, and delve into the political landscape of DC following the mayor's announcement not to seek re-election. The conversation touches on the significance of youth programs, the impact of social media on relationships, and recent public safety concerns, including a tragic incident involving military personnel. The episode concludes with reflections on the music industry and the complexities of loyalty among artists.00:00 Thanksgiving Cooking Adventures03:58 Macaroni and Cheese Ratings05:40 Eye Irritations and Cooking Challenges08:25 Thanksgiving Dinner Timing and Traditions16:47 Thanksgiving Food Preferences18:31 DC Politics and Leadership Changes24:56 Youth and Community Support30:07 Parental Responsibilities and Education32:39 Reflections on Leadership and Future Directions38:38 T-Pain's Revelations on Industry Loyalty41:38 The Emotional Toll of Betrayal in Music47:00 Social Media's Impact on Relationships47:20 Ray J's Public Struggles and Toxic Relationships50:05 The Role of Social Media in Personal Conflicts51:03 Exploring LGBTQ+ Relationships in the Spotlight56:50 Philosophical Questions and Parenting01:04:55 Military Preparedness and Public Safety01:14:23 Personal Growth and Overcoming ChallengesBecome a Patreon of the mtmj poDcast w/the wife for bonus episodes and visual content. Join our Patreon Here: https://patreon.com/MTMJPodcastwiththewife?utm_medium=unknown&utm_source=join_link&utm_campaign=creatorshare_creator&utm_content=copyLink

03:45 Shocking new court filing leads to calls to pardon Derek Chauvin29:04 Clerk at 7-Eleven fired for shooting man who was strangling her33:23 Officer injured in shootout with armed man on videoLEO Round Table (law enforcement talk show)Season 10, Episode 240 (2,573) filmed on 12/01/20251. https://www.lawofficer.com/calls-for-derek-chauvin-pardon-go-viral-after-shocking-court-filing-alleging-prosecutorial-misconduct/2. https://www.tampafp.com/fired-for-surviving-7-eleven-in-oklahoma-fires-overnight-clerk-who-shot-attacker-mid-strangle/3. https://rumble.com/v729yly-suspect-killed-mesa-officer-injured-in-shootout-with-suspect.html?e9s=src_v1_upp_aShow Panelists and Personalities:Chip DeBlock (Host and retired police detective)Chief Joel F. Shults, Ed.D. (retired chief and author)Jeff Wenninger (retired lieutenant and Founder & CEO of Law Enforcement Consultants, LLC)Related Events, Organizations and Books:Retired DEA Agent Robert Mazur's works:Interview of Bryan Cranston about him playing Agent Robert Mazur in THE INFILTRATOR filmhttps://vimeo.com/channels/1021727Trailer for the new book, THE BETRAYALhttps://www.robertmazur.com/wp-content/uploads/2023/05/The-Betrayal-trailer-reMix2.mp4Everything on Robert Mazurhttps://www.robertmazur.com/The Wounded Blue - Lt. Randy Sutton's charityhttps://thewoundedblue.org/Rescuing 911: The Fight For America's Safety - by Lt. Randy Sutton (Pre-Order)https://rescuing911.org/Books by panelist and retired Lt. Randy Sutton:https://www.amazon.com/Randy-Sutton/e/B001IR1MQU%3Fref=dbs_a_mng_rwt_scns_shareThey're Lying: The Media, The Left, and The Death of George Floyd - by Liz Collin (Lt. Bob Kroll's wife)https://thelieexposed.com/Lt. Col. Dave Grossman - Books, Newsletter, Presentations, Shop, Sheepdogshttps://grossmanontruth.com/Sheriff David Clarke - Videos, Commentary, Podcast, Shop, Newsletterhttps://americassheriff.com/Content Partners:Red Voice Media - Real News, Real Reportinghttps://www.redvoicemedia.com/shows/leo/ThisIsButter - One of the BEST law enforcement video channelshttps://rumble.com/user/ThisIsButterThe Free Press - LEO Round Table is in their Cops and Crimes section 5 days a weekhttps://www.tampafp.com/https://www.tampafp.com/category/cops-and-crime/Video Show Schedule On All Outlets:http://leoroundtable.com/home/syndication/Syndicated Radio Schedule:http://leoroundtable.com/radio/syndicated-radio-stations/Sponsors:Galls - Proud to serve America's public safety professionalshttps://www.galls.com/leoCompliant Technologies - Cutting-edge non-lethal tools to empower and protect those who servehttps://www.complianttechnologies.net/The International Firearm Specialist Academy - The New Standard for Firearm Knowledgehttps://www.gunlearn.com/Aero Precision - "When Precision Counts”https://www.aeroprecisionusa.com/MyMedicare.live - save money in Medicare insurance options from the expertshttp://www.mymedicare.live/

277. Breaking Through Addiction in Marriage with Matthew and Joanna Raabsmith   *DISCLAIMER* This episode is intended for adults.   1 John 1:9 AMP "If we [freely] admit that we have sinned and confess our sins, He is faithful and just [true to His own nature and promises], and will forgive our sins and cleanse us continually from all unrighteousness [our wrongdoing, everything not in conformity with His will and purpose].”   *Transcription Below*   Thank You to Our Sponsor: Leman Property Management Company   Matthew and Joanna Raabsmith are clinicians, speakers, and authors with over 20 years of combined experience in counseling, coaching, and guiding couples toward healing and transformation. Their mission is to help couples navigate the complexities of relational challenges, particularly in the aftermath of sexual addiction and betrayal trauma, fostering deep restoration and growth.   Matthew is a Professional Certified Coach (ICF) with a background in pastoral leadership, while Joanna is a Licensed Marriage and Family Therapist, EMDR practitioner, and Certified Clinical Partner Specialist through APSATS. Both hold Master of Divinity degrees and have served together on multiple church leadership teams. Currently, they co-lead their private practice, The Raabsmith Team, where they specialize in helping couples rebuild connection, trust, and intimacy.   Their passion for this work stems from their own journey of restoration. After experiencing the devastating effects of sexual addiction and betrayal in their marriage, Matthew and Joanna embarked on a years-long pursuit of reconciliation. This transformative experience led to the creation of tools like The Intimacy Pyramid™, a practical model for relational restoration and growth co-created with colleague Dan Drake.    Their first book, Building True Intimacy (2023), has sold over 1,000 copies and provides practical guidance for couples to use the Intimacy Pyramid to create enduring connections. They also founded Renewing Us Recovery™, a comprehensive program designed to support couples in the later stages of relational restoration. In November 2025, they will host the inaugural Renewing Us Couples Retreat, offering workshops and connection opportunities for couples on similar paths of recovery and growth.   Matthew and Joanna live in Memphis, Tennessee with their three young children. They prioritize self-care through shared adventures, new experiences, and a weekly game of pickleball.   Free Resource Mentioned in Episode   Building True Intimacy book   Questions and Topics Discussed: What were the warning signs that you noticed when you were newlyweds that tipped you off to believing things weren't quite as they seemed? Are there any common life circumstances, whether nature or nurture, that predispose someone to be more likely to struggle with a sexual addiction? As couples seek to thrive in marriage, will you give us an overview of the intimacy pyramid you wrote a book about?   Other Episodes Mentioned During Episode: Pornography: Protecting Children, Personal Healing, Recovery, and Victory in Christ with Sam Black Pornography Addiction and Helpful Recovery with Crystal Renaud Day   Additional Related Episodes on The Savvy Sauce: Anatomy of an Affair with Dave Carder Protecting Your Marriage Against Unfaithfulness with Dave Carder Stories Series: Recovery From Sexual Sin in Marriage with Garrett and Brenna Naufel Supernatural Restoration Story with Bob and Audrey Meisner Special Patreon Re-Release Wholehearted Quiet Time with Naomi Vacaro   Gospel Scripture: (all NIV) Romans 3:23 “for all have sinned and fall short of the glory of God,”   Romans 3:24 “and are justified freely by his grace through the redemption that came by Christ Jesus.”   Romans 3:25 (a) “God presented him as a sacrifice of atonement, through faith in his blood.”   Hebrews 9:22 (b) “without the shedding of blood there is no forgiveness.”    Romans 5:8 “But God demonstrates his own love for us in this: While we were still sinners, Christ died for us.”    Romans 5:11 “Not only is this so, but we also rejoice in God through our Lord Jesus Christ, through whom we have now received reconciliation.”   John 3:16 “For God so loved the world that he gave his one and only Son, that whoever believes in him shall not perish but have eternal life.”   Romans 10:9 “That if you confess with your mouth, “Jesus is Lord,” and believe in your heart that God raised him from the dead, you will be saved.”    Luke 15:10 says “In the same way, I tell you, there is rejoicing in the presence of the angels of God over one sinner who repents.”   Romans 8:1 “Therefore, there is now no condemnation for those who are in Christ Jesus”   Ephesians 1:13–14 “And you also were included in Christ when you heard the word of truth, the gospel of your salvation. Having believed, you were marked in him with a seal, the promised Holy Spirit, who is a deposit guaranteeing our inheritance until the redemption of those who are God's possession- to the praise of his glory.”   Ephesians 1:15–23 “For this reason, ever since I heard about your faith in the Lord Jesus and your love for all the saints, I have not stopped giving thanks for you, remembering you in my prayers. I keep asking that the God of our Lord Jesus Christ, the glorious Father, may give you the spirit of wisdom and revelation, so that you may know him better. I pray also that the eyes of your heart may be enlightened in order that you may know the hope to which he has called you, the riches of his glorious inheritance in the saints, and his incomparably great power for us who believe. That power is like the working of his mighty strength, which he exerted in Christ when he raised him from the dead and seated him at his right hand in the heavenly realms, far above all rule and authority, power and dominion, and every title that can be given, not only in the present age but also in the one to come. And God placed all things under his feet and appointed him to be head over everything for the church, which is his body, the fullness of him who fills everything in every way.”   Ephesians 2:8–10 “For it is by grace you have been saved, through faith – and this not from yourselves, it is the gift of God – not by works, so that no one can boast. For we are God‘s workmanship, created in Christ Jesus to do good works, which God prepared in advance for us to do.“   Ephesians 2:13 “But now in Christ Jesus you who once were far away have been brought near through the blood of Christ.“   Philippians 1:6 “being confident of this, that he who began a good work in you will carry it on to completion until the day of Christ Jesus.”   *Transcription*   Music: (0:00 – 0:12)   Laura Dugger: (0:13 - 1:38) Welcome to The Savvy Sauce, where we have practical chats for intentional living. I'm your host, Laura Dugger, and I'm so glad you're here.   Today's message is not intended for little ears. We'll be discussing some adult themes, and I want you to be aware before you listen to this message.   Leman Property Management Company has the apartment you will be able to call home, with over 1,700 apartment units available in Central Illinois. Visit them today at lemanproperties.com, or connect with them on Facebook.   Matthew and Joanna Raabsmith are my guests today. They are clinicians, speakers, and authors with over 20 years of combined experience in counseling, coaching, and guiding couples toward healing and transformation. Our conversation takes a few turns, from getting to hear their incredible and vulnerable story of healing and then getting tips for talking to our children about topics like sex, and also even receiving some practical wisdom and tips for enhancing our own marital enjoyment.   Here's our chat. Welcome to The Savvy Sauce, Matthew and Joanna.   Matthew Raabsmith: (1:39 - 1:40) So good to be here.   Joanna Raabsmith: (1:40 - 1:42) So glad to be here. Thanks for having us.   Laura Dugger: (1:42 - 1:51) Oh, truly my pleasure. And let's just start here. Can you share your story going back to meeting and falling in love and your first part of marriage?   Matthew Raabsmith: (1:53 - 2:17) Sure, yeah. It was a little bumpy at first, actually. So, I knew Joanna through her brother. Joanna's brother was one of my best friends, and I got to meet her whenever she would come in town and visit, and she would invade guy night. He would usually bring her along to like a Lord of the Rings movie or something, and I would be a little frustrated because I would be like, oh, you brought your sister. Great. That's wonderful.   Joanna Raabsmith: (2:18 - 2:24) A little off-putting, not super friendly. And I was like, your friend's kind of a jerk. We did not like each other at all in the beginning.   Matthew Raabsmith: (2:24 - 2:54) Not big fans. And eventually over some time, we started to realize we had a lot in common. We liked to do a lot of the same things.   And one summer that Joanna was in town, we started hanging out, started doing more and more together, and really just kind of developed a friendship, which was really fun. And at the very end of the summer, realized that there was something between us. And so, we went on one date.   Our first date, we entered a golf tournament. We won it, and that was a good sign.   Joanna Raabsmith: (2:54 - 2:55) That's a pretty good sign.   Matthew Raabsmith: (2:55 - 3:02) And we went on three more dates over the course of two months and got engaged.   Joanna Raabsmith: (3:03 - 3:07) And then two months after that, we got married.   Matthew Raabsmith: (3:07 - 3:16) Yeah. So, her brother went from like, yeah, it's cool you date my sister, to like, you're not ready to get married. But he's come around now.   Joanna Raabsmith: (3:17 - 3:19) 15 years later. Yeah.   Matthew Raabsmith: (3:19 - 3:40) And, you know, a lot of it was, I think we had a definite sense of being kind of called together, being, you know, something special about who we were as a couple. And also, a recognition that we wanted to figure out what a good marriage looked like. We were really excited about marriage, but we didn't really know what we were doing.   Joanna Raabsmith: (3:41 - 4:15) Yeah, I've had a really great model of healthy relationship. My parents have a wonderful marriage. They work really well as a team.   And so, I knew, like, I want something like that. But as soon as we got married, we realized, but how do you actually build that? There's no, like, instruction manual for, okay, here are the things to do to have a great relationship.   And so, we read books. We went to conferences. You know, we did what we could, but we still found ourselves getting stuck, not able to really create, like, that deep sense of, like, connection intimacy that we really wanted.   Matthew Raabsmith: (4:15 - 5:17) And we started kind of hunting more and more for resources. We found some incredible resources that really changed our understanding of the way relationships work, the way people work, and really, for us, shifted our entire focus of kind of what we wanted to do, even with our life. And as we started to do that, though, we still kind of found ourselves at this kind of glass wall.   We felt like no matter what we tried, there was always this kind of distance between us. And that started to grow kind of over the years that we were together. It wasn't getting better.   It was actually kind of getting worse and worse and worse. And so, Joanna had actually decided to, after we finished our first grad degree together, the idea was we were going to go be pastors. And so, we had finished our kind of theological training.   Joanna decided she wanted to get a master's in marriage and family therapy so we could do some work around marriages and ministry in that way. And her very first-class kind of just set our life in a completely different direction.   Joanna Raabsmith: (5:17 - 6:26) Yes. So, my first class in the MFT program was a two-week intensive called Shame and Guilt. So, that's a really fun two-week intensive to be a part of. And as a part of that, though, they had an anonymous pastor come and share his testimony of struggling with sex addiction, becoming sober, getting into good recovery, healing and restoration in his marriage, kind of like that whole journey. And as he was talking, something inside of me started stirring. And I knew, OK, what he's saying is resonating way too much with me right now.   I think this is the thing. This is what is keeping us stuck, not able to really create the relationship we want. And so, that day I went home and first I just kind of started talking about my class, what I learned, what this pastor had shared.   Right. And nothing. Right.   We're just kind of talking generally about it. And so, finally I couldn't do it anymore. And I just stopped and I looked him square in the eyes and I said, “Are you struggling with this in our marriage right now?”   Matthew Raabsmith: (6:26 - 8:03) Yeah. And for the first time in my life, 20 years, I had been struggling with pornography, sexual addiction, and acting out in our marriage. And for the first time in my life, I was honest.   I had lied for years, both with Joanna and everyone else. And the kind of floodgates just kind of opened up. And I finally said yes.   And it was really hearing the story, I think, is what did it for me. I think it was knowing that somebody else had made it, that their life hadn't come crashing down because that was the greatest fear for me. That the moment anyone found this out, everything in my life would be over. Everything that I loved would be gone.   And so, this kind of story of hope gave me a little bit of courage that day, to be honest. But that started a really long journey for us because there was a lot of damage that was done in both of my hiding. And now kind of this revelation, all the pain kind of came crashing down on Joanna and kind of her shoulders.   And so, we started a quite intensive recovery process. We talked about it being kind of a full-time job. I went to recovery for my addiction and for kind of my acting out behaviors. Joanna had to begin a process of healing from the trauma of this discovery. And that process took us a number of years. It really was a long kind of arduous journey, but one that we ultimately survived and now thrive in our marriage and get the incredible luxury and the kind of gift of helping other couples do that.   So, that's kind of where we find ourselves.   Laura Dugger: (8:04 - 8:30) That is incredible. I just really appreciate you sharing your story. Clearly, stories are so powerful and that's what led to some healing for you and hopefully can open the floodgates for somebody else listening.   So, if we go back in your story, then, Joanna, I'd love to start with you. What were some of those red flags in early marriage that things aren't quite as they seem?   Joanna Raabsmith: (8:31 - 10:28) Yeah, there are a few. You know, I think that, you know, one of the pieces we kind of talked about, like, OK, we knew we're still getting stuck because there's 90 percent that felt really good. But then 10 percent that was extremely chaotic, really destructive.   Right. We would get we call the pain cycles when we get emotionally dysregulated. And there would be some things that, right.   Sometimes we would get into pain cycles, get dysregulated. And I kind of understand why. Right.   Like something happened. There was the disagreement. But other times I couldn't put my finger on it.   Right. Matthew would just get really angry and really shut down. And I wouldn't be able to connect it to anything that had happened in our life.   And so, it was very confusing. It was really hard to understand what was going on. And I think kind of in the same way, when I would pull too close into that connection, that intimacy, he would pull back.   Right. And it felt like even though we both named this goal and this desire, he would never actually partner with me in it. And so, again, that was really confusing because the actions were not matching up with reality and what was happening.   And I think the other piece that was kind of true for us and true for a lot of other people is that our own sexual relationship was fraught with pain. And so, there was, again, a lot that was really good, but also a lot that was really painful and confusing. And some of the pieces just didn't connect.   Right. And I would wonder, OK, what's going on? Well, I guess this is just the reality that like this is how much we get to expect in this area of our life, right.   In our relationship. And so, it was when the pastor started describing his life and addiction and what that looked like emotionally, sexually, relationally. I was like, oh, those are all the things that I'm currently experiencing.   Here's one thing that would answer all those questions that I have. And so, I think that was part of it. He kind of told me, like, OK, this is it.   Laura Dugger: (10:28 - 11:00) That would be so eye opening. And my heart's going out to the couple who is maybe starting to identify with this. Was it and share whatever you're comfortable with from your story or the person's story who opened things up to you?   So, sexually, I'm wondering if it was for you, Joanna, if you were hoping to connect sexually and that wasn't happening and that was confusing. You didn't feel pursued. But I don't want to fill in the blanks.   So, could you elaborate?   Joanna Raabsmith: (11:00 - 12:03) Absolutely. Yeah. And we find it a lot of different ways than couples that we work with.   Right. And so, it can be sometimes on either side of the extreme. And so, for us, it was where there would be kind of times when he'd be fully present and interested and engaged. Right. And then all of a sudden, kind of like I described emotionally, he would just withdraw and not be there. And I would reach out to connect.   And that was this like non-response. And which, again, didn't match up with those other times when he was engaged and wanting to connect. And he would give some sort of excuse that didn't totally make sense.   Right. But I was kind of like, what else? What was I left with except that?   So, I would kind of believe that and go with it, even though it didn't sit right. And so, yeah, I think that was part of it. We will see on the other side for some other couples.   It's the opposite. And maybe that spouse is hypersexual in the relationship. Right.   To the point where there might be pressure, even pressure to do things sexually that people aren't comfortable with. And so, yeah, it can look a lot of different ways. But that was kind of what our disconnect looked like.   Laura Dugger: (12:04 - 12:33) That's so helpful. And there's two different directions I want to go, Matthew. So, I'll set it up.   I guess I'm thinking of the guilt and shame and how those are usually so present. So, I have two questions. Were you when Joanna came to you, were you at a point where you recognize something was off and you wanted freedom from this and or had tried freedom before?   Let's start with that and then I'll go into the other one.   Matthew Raabsmith: (12:34 - 14:40) Yeah, it really was holy timing in a lot of ways. I, you know, for a lot of years I had I hated what I did. I didn't feel like I could stop it, but didn't have a lot of interest in kind of doing anything to stop it.   I kind of just like would just say, “OK, this is going to be the last time.” And then, you know, of course it would come back. But I think at this point I had really started to see the damage that was happening to our relationship.   I could feel us growing close, growing further apart. I could see kind of Joanna and the confusion that she was having. And like she couldn't understand things.   She would ask me a lot of questions that I didn't have answers to. And so, I actually a couple of months earlier, we were at a worship service, and they had said like, “hey, if you are ready to give something up, if you feel like there's something holding you back, come forward and confess it.” And Joanna and I were sitting next to each other, and I remember feeling like the Holy Spirit just like pulling me to like get up out of my seat and I wouldn't move.   I was like, no, because she's going to ask me what I went down for. I'm going there's you know, there's a random kind of prayer partner at the front. I'm like, I'm not going and confessing this to some random person.   And so, I was ready. But I think like I said, I think there was no path forward. It was kind of confess this and everything stops and ends.   But everything like marriage ends, life ends. And so, when she when she brought this, it really did feel like God had kind of been answering a prayer that I've been praying of like, if you give me a way out, I'll take it. I'm desperate.   I want it to stop. And it felt like that. I think it was both this kind of terror and this hope that day.   And even when I said, yes, it was a little bit like, what have I done? Like, could this have been different? Should I have just gone and told someone else privately?   Right. But I think ultimately that it was out between the two of us and that we kind of knew it. We knew what we were dealing with made a huge difference.   But I mean, God had been working in my life, offering opportunities for so long. I just been saying no, no, no. And then finally, you know, I think my heart just broke and it was like, yes, OK, I'm ready for this.   Laura Dugger: (14:40 - 15:14) I love how the Holy Spirit equipped you with that humility and courage to be brave in that moment. And it's such a blessing for all of us to get to see the end or I guess not the end of the story, but you at this point in your story where you're thriving. And so, I hope that offers a lot of hope to people listening.   But let's also pause. And so, going back further in time, Matthew, this was the other part of my question. What was life and attachment and your growing up journey like?   Matthew Raabsmith: (15:15 - 18:09) Yeah, I didn't know that at the time. Right. I a lot of this I figured out in the last couple of years of recovery.   You know, if you would have asked me, you know, as I was growing up about my life, I would have told you I had the perfect family. I had the perfect life. I think I did not realize that some of the things that I was going through weren't perfect, were harder.   And part of that was because I think the way my family dynamic worked was we just swept everything under the rug. You know, whatever happened, we just kind of went, OK, and moved on from. And I learned to do that as a kid.   And that meant a lot of emotional chaos. There was a lot of physical chaos and kind of volatility in our house growing up. And even though I had parents who are still married to this day, have stayed together and have tried to create kind of a stable life.   There was a lot of emotional and kind of relational instability. We moved around a lot. And then once we started moving, I found myself more and more kind of isolated at school. I started dealing with bullying and some things that really kind of left me not knowing how to deal with the pain that I was going through. And so, my way of stuffing things under the rug was getting, you know, escaping, you know, kind of escaping into anything that I could. I watched a lot of TV.   I was a latchkey kid, so I would come home. I'd watch TV a lot in the afternoon and then TV kind of just turned to more and more. And I was exposed pretty young to pornography, actually at a church camp.   I was at a summer church camp. Someone brought a Playboy magazine, and I was exposed to pornography. And I kind of felt that high, that rush.   And that just became kind of a mode of my escape. Right. Of whatever I could do to engage sexually, whether with my mind or with others.   That's how I could get out of the pain I was in. That's how I could stop feeling kind of the chaos that I was having and not realizing that it was becoming this kind of adaptive habit, that it would just be this thing I would go back to more and more. And I grew up at a time that technology was still emerging.   So, I can remember when we got our first computer and no one was talking about safeguards or anything. And so, it was just kind of exposure. Here you go.   Here's everything you could ever want and don't need. And that really became my life. And the more and more that I did, the better and better I got at lying and hiding and even being kind of vulnerable in kind of fake ways.   I would mention things like, yeah, we all have this struggle. And even Joanna, I had told like, you know, that was a struggle of mine in the past, but I've moved on from it. Right.   I told myself and other people just kind of lie after lie after lie so that I could have really this double life. I could appear one way and then I could be acting a completely different way, kind of in the dark.   Laura Dugger: (18:10 - 20:41) Yeah. And that makes sense. I'm thinking back to two episodes.   We did one with a male, Sam Black from Covenant Eyes, and he speaks so much of the origins of pornography and that foothold that Satan gets. And so many times it is in childhood, unwittingly you're exposed and then what it can turn into. And then Crystal Renaud Day came on to share a lot of females struggle with this as well.   And so, I'll link to those if those are a help.   And now a brief message from our sponsor. 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For me, I had to figure out what had really gone on in my life and what was really happening.   Because, like I said, I had become such an expert at hiding from myself and others that I didn't really know how to live any other way. And so, I, you know, Joanna kind of handed me a list of everything this pastor had done. She was like, here you go.   Right. She kind of handed me that list and was like, good luck. And so, I dove in.   I went to a men's intensive. And I think that was probably one of the key places for me to tell my story for the first time. I really took a look at my life and had some people help me take a look and recognize the trauma that I had as a kid exposure that I had experienced and what that really meant to me and helped me understand what I was doing.   But also, kind of what I was doing to myself, how I was really kind of killing myself from the inside out and preventing myself from having the kind of relationship I wanted with God and other people. And so, that discovery was in really ways kind of invigorating for me. I felt like I was living for the first time.   I think I had started to kind of get out of this kind of burden, this fear of always being caught. I told Joanna kind of the history of everything that had happened in my life and our relationship. And so, I was feeling this kind of renewed sense of like energy and excitement of like, this is good.   I want this life. I want the life there that I'm not in constant kind of fear and in constant kind of connection to this thing I hate. And so, which is really different than what Joanna was experiencing.   Joanna Raabsmith: (22:30 - 25:07) Yeah. So, for me, it was very jarring in the beginning. Everything I thought was real came crashing down around me.   And that was especially jarring because I had left kind of the direction, the path that I was on. Right. We talked about our story earlier.   It included two months of dating, two months of engagement before we got married. And that also included me dropping out of law school, getting married and moving to California to pursue a ministry degree so we could work as pastors together or do something together. And so, in that moment, all of that came crashing down.   And I kind of was very lost, not just in our relationship, but in kind of what in the world am I even doing here? What am I going to do moving forward if he doesn't choose recovery? Right.   And so, just all of those question marks, all in that one moment of him answering that question affirmative. And so, so there was like that heaviness on one side and then on the other side was this relief of finally everything I've been experiencing makes sense. Right. Finally, I feel like I actually know what's going on. And because of that, there could maybe be a path forward for us as well. So, is this very, very weird dichotomy in that moment? And so, but I think I knew right away, like, I can't be vulnerable. I can't be intimate with him anymore. Right.   I have to step back in our relationship and wait and see what he chooses to do. Is he going to choose to do the work of recovery and get healthy and start to be honest and safe or not? And so, that's so we kind of did kind of there's some space for a very long period of time while we focused on our own individual recoveries.   And that, again, was a little bumpy for me. This is over a decade ago. And so, there is very little information about what partners experience.   We call it betrayal trauma, and that just wasn't a very common word at the time. And so, some of the resources I plugged into came from a more we would call it codependent, co-addict focus, which just really didn't fit. So, I struggled to find resources that felt like they fit for my journey.   But once I did, it all again, my own healing process started to make sense. And it was so like freeing and liberating to understand. Like, oh, OK, this is what I'm going through. This is why I feel this way.   This is what it looks like to heal and move forward. And so, kind of beginning that process was so important because then when Matthew was kind of in a healthy, safe place, I was as well, and we can start to step in towards each other on that kind of more couples' journey at that point.   Laura Dugger: (25:07 - 25:17) I love how you did that wisely, though, separate first, not rushing into couples at that time. Absolutely.   Matthew Raabsmith: (25:18 - 26:33) Appreciate you calling it wise. I think we were terrified. Yeah, we'll take God's help.   I think he was like, you guys just work on your own stuff for a while. And in some ways, like I said, it was we didn't know what we were doing. But I think we knew we wanted there to be a future between the two of us.   But we knew it had to be completely different in some ways than what we had before, which was scary because we liked what we had before. Like we had a really great marriage in many ways. Right.   There was this portion of it, this hidden portion that was really infecting and killing it all. But what we did have together, we didn't want to totally lose. It just was really hard to know, especially early on, what's going to come forward.   Like, who are we still going to be as we go forward? Are we still going to be a couple who does things together? Right. Who works together? Or is that all kind of going to have to be different? Is that the only way that we have kind of moving forward?   And so, that was that was probably the hardest part was having like this sense of like not wanting to lose us. We were like, if we lost that, that was going to be miserable. And I think a lot of our work was about how do we eventually reclaim this marriage that we want, that we love?   Laura Dugger: (26:34 - 27:04) Yes, because from what I'm sensing, you're friends with each other, you're on purpose or on mission with God. He did a course correction change, putting you on this path to help couples. But your desire to work together, it's like He still honored that in the ministry of reconciliation.   And I'm assuming abundantly blessed it beyond what you could ever dreamed up what we're doing now.   Joanna Raabsmith: (27:04 - 27:42) Right. It's been amazing to see what God has done, how he's used our story, which is so fitting because it was someone sharing their story that brought our healing. And I think because of that and it wasn't right away; it took some time to get to the place where we felt open to God using our story to bring healing to others. But we found as we stepped into that, that we have received such a blessing.   Right. And just being able to sit with other couples in that journey and see them go from that place of pain and confusion to this place of restoration and thriving. Like there is no better work that we could have imagined for ourselves.   Laura Dugger: (27:42 - 28:09) Love that. And really, you did have to pioneer a path. There weren't many resources at that time.   So, that's another reason I'm grateful you can share your story, because I hope it unlocks freedom for others. So, if we're turning more outward now and you're helping as you work with couples, how do you help them identify the difference between sexual struggles and sexual addiction?   Matthew Raabsmith: (28:10 - 30:15) Yeah, that's a great question. And I think that it really kind of exists on a spectrum. And so, everything kind of exists under what we call problematic sexual behavior or unwanted sexual behavior.   Whenever someone is acting in a way sexually that doesn't align with their values. And then the question is, is how often, how compulsive, right? How habituated, right?   How really embedded is that practice? Because the more and more embedded it is and the more and more that I continue to act on that, seeing the damage that it's doing, that's really what qualifies as the addiction. The addiction is when I know that this is causing harm and I and I feel that even though I want to stop it and I've tried to stop.   Right. I can't stop the 12 steps has a great line. They say addicts, you know, addicts have no problem stopping.   It's staying stopped. That's hard for an addict. Right.   And so, that's usually a sign that there's an addiction. And really what that means is that just means that I'm going to have to be even more kind of thorough and scrupulous in my willingness to change a lot. Because if I have built an addictive lifestyle, that means everything I do kind of functions to support that lifestyle.   Right. And so, my part of that was this hiding. I lied about everything.   I would lie about anything just to make sure that I was in control of the narrative. And so, for me, it was recognizing that if I was going to move forward free of my addiction, then it had to begin with honesty, with this kind of radical honesty and transparency and growing in that consistently, because that was the way that I manifested this addiction and kind of kept it going. And so, that's really what the addiction is about, is recognizing what are the kind of pieces in my life that are supporting this addiction to continue to exist?   And how is God going to dismantle those things? Right. And how am I going to be a part of that dismantling?   Laura Dugger: (30:16 - 30:33) That's well said. And also, I'm curious, are there any common life circumstances, whether that's nature or nurture, that are more likely to predispose someone to more likely have this struggle with sexual addiction?   Matthew Raabsmith: (30:34 - 32:30) I mean, there are, I think, you know, the things that we tend to look for are trauma and trauma comes in so many different forms. So, trauma is more it's rare that it's a single event. It's often more a kind of consistent occurrences.   As I mentioned, you know, I can't speak to kind of one event in my life that I say this was the traumatic moment in which everything changed. But it was more of the chaos. And so, I grew up in a family that could be really, really, really loving and incredibly encouraging and fun and silly and in a heartbeat switch into one that was verbally and physically just chaotic and terrifying.   And it was that chaos that kept me on edge. What it did was it created in me kind of a system of always wanting to be on high alert. And that would exhaust me.   That would kind of wear me out. And I would want to kind of numb that kind of feeling away. And so, I think those traumas, I do think early exposure.   Right. I mean, I was exposed early before my brain was ready to really understand what it was dealing with. And I think the third component that we often see is a low level or a kind of really a void of sexual education.   There was I'm sure I had a small talk with my dad at some point, but we were not talking about pornography. We weren't talking about bodies. We weren't talking about sex from a kind of healthy, good way.   I grew up in the church, and it was kind of don't do this until you're married and then you'll be fine. Right. That was the sexual education message.   And so, those things, right, trauma, exposure and lack of kind of education usually forms in someone a difficulty of knowing what they're doing, knowing that it's destroying them before it's really kind of gotten a deep hole.   Joanna Raabsmith: (32:30 - 33:20) I think like the brain. The brain aspect to when we talk about addiction, there are usually chemicals involved in addiction being formed, being created. And so, I think also co-occurring disorders, right, that emotional pain, also things like anxiety, depression, ADHD, where my brain really likes the dopamine it gets from sexual acting out. Right.   And you can actually need it to feel OK. That can also be a factor in kind of especially that addictive side of these behaviors. When my brain gets really attached to that dopamine release that it's getting because maybe I have some other things going on or I just have emotional pain.   I don't know what to deal with, how to handle it, how to regulate that in a healthy way.   Laura Dugger: (33:20 - 34:30) There's so many good points there. I'll just highlight one because there's a profound piece that you were talking about with early exposure to evil and the corruption of it is extremely harmful. And yet not being exposed to God's good design for sex and hopefully being coached by our parents, that is both of those play a part in the addiction. And so, I'm thinking even as we shift to think about parents, I know I've had parents come to me and just say, I don't want to talk about this with my kids.   I don't want to rob their innocence. And my approach is if God made it, this is good. We can talk to them.   You're not robbing their innocence when you're sharing the good age-appropriate parts of sex. And it's so great to be that first one to share with them. And I think it does the opposite of what we would expect.   We're afraid that that might make them hyper sexualized. But would you speak to that? Any encouragement for parents?   Matthew Raabsmith: (34:30 - 36:37) Yeah, it's tricky. I mean, even as parents, we've got kids and its still kind of navigating it. But I do think what it does is it lets someone learn the things they need to in the timeline they need to.   I think part of one of the things is that, you know, really good sexual education starts young. I mean, they start six and seven years old or even younger, just talking about our bodies. Right.   Because I think that's part of it. Really, this is about understanding the goodness of our bodies. This body was created by God, the maker of heaven and earth, and he called it good.   And so, I think part of a good sexual education begins with that. And then, what's really nice is once you've started the conversation, that means if your children are exposed or if they're presented with things that don't line up with what they've been hearing, they now feel safe to come and talk about that. Because that's really what this was about.   I didn't feel safe to talk about what I was exposed to, what people were doing. Right. And what people were encouraging me to engage in.   And so, you know, my parents would ask me how it's going. I would not tell them anything because it wasn't a conversation that they were having with me. And so, I didn't think it was a conversation I was going to have with them.   And so, that meant that as I found myself further and further away from my values, I felt like, who am I going to share this with? And so, part of having the conversation is it normalizes with our kids that this is OK to talk about, which is actually what adults need. I mean, part of our work with couples as adults, we have to get them talking about sex and body parts.   I mean, it's amazing to have 30, 40, and 50-year-olds in our offices and in our sessions. And they're so uncomfortable. Right.   They don't want to talk about sex. They don't want to talk about their bodies. They don't want to talk about what their bodies do.   Right. And we keep being like, this is God's good stuff. Right.   There is goodness here. But you have to begin by talking about it. Right.   Having these conversations.   Joanna Raabsmith: (36:38 - 37:54) I tell all the parents I work with, your kids are going to pick up a narrative about what sex is and what sexuality is, whether you want them to or not. And so, would you rather be the first person to step in and give them a healthy view, a healthy narrative to understand? Right.   And this is beyond kind of the nuts and bolts that everything our kids are learning. They're trying to find a deeper meaning. They don't think it's unconscious when they're young. Right. But they're taking it and they're going, what meaning does this have for me? How does this inform my self-worth, my view of my own value as a human in my body?   And how does it inform my experience of the world and my safety in the world? And am I empowered to make decisions? Am I connected?   Do I belong? Right. All of those questions are asking.   And so, as they're confronted with issues of sexuality, it's going to inform those things. And the world will not give them a healthy narrative about it. Right.   And so, being able as a parent to step in and give them that healthy meaning, that narrative, that understanding of their worth and their safety as they're piecing together kind of sexuality, again, at that age-appropriate level is so important.   Laura Dugger: (37:54 - 38:30) Guess what? We are no longer an audio only podcast. We now have video included as well.   If you want to view the conversation each week, make sure you watch our videos. We're on YouTube and you can access videos or find answers to any of your other questions about the podcast when you visit thesavvysauce.com. And I love that you're talking about this with couples you work with.   So, will you give us an overview of the intimacy pyramid that you actually wrote a book about and you teach to couples?   Joanna Raabsmith: (38:30 - 38:31) Absolutely.   Matthew Raabsmith: (38:31 - 39:15) Yeah. I mean, it was born out of our journey because, as you said, we wandered for a while and we felt a little bit like Israel, just kind of, you know, knowing that the Promised Land was out there, but never really feeling like we could find it. And when we started to piece together, I think the kind of relationship that we had dreamed of reclaiming, we really ask ourselves, how can we make this a more direct, a simpler process, not just for couples who went through what we went through, but really for any couple who's hungry for this, for the couple like us when we were first starting.   It really wants an amazing marriage. And so, we really focused on a kind of simplistic idea of what are the core kind of foundational levels of building really healthy intimacy.   Joanna Raabsmith: (39:16 - 40:10) Yeah. So, the intimacy pyramid, it's actually a triangle. There's a visual that goes along with it.   So, if you imagine the different levels of the triangle, very similar to Maslow's hierarchy of needs, starting at the bottom, you have to start with honesty. And so, we definitely experienced that reality in our own relationship. Right.   This is something we learned from Couples in Betrayal, but like Matthew said, we realized this is where every couple starts. Am I willing to be fully open, fully honest and transparent in this relationship? Am I being my authentic self?   Right. And after that level of honesty, that's when we start to build safety. And that has to do with our ability to communicate in really healthy, constructive ways.   Even when it's hard, even when we're disagreeing, even when we feel like yelling at each other. Are we able to show up with that belief that we both have the same goal? We're trying to build something together.   Matthew Raabsmith: (40:10 - 41:57) And with honesty and safety, that's where we get to work on trust as a couple. That's that next level. And trust is where we start to be more partners, where we're really starting to kind of lean in, work together, kind of be courageous and saying, “Hey, this isn't just my life anymore, right?”   This is our life together. And as that trust is established, this is what allows for the incredible work of vulnerability. And there's been all these studies about vulnerability over the last few years and how important it is.   What we recognize, though, is vulnerability on top of nothing is actually really risky and kind of even dangerous. It's vulnerability that's built on healthy trust where we step in and we do share some of those deeper pains in those wounds, those fears. We start to really heal some of those kind of early traumas that we experience.   It's in that vulnerability. That's what allows a couple to be truly intimate. And it's when they've worked through each of these levels, what we find is these couples, when they reach this kind of this intimacy level, they're passionate about who they are as a couple. They love kind of their relationship itself. They have a purpose to it. They have a sense that like our marriage, our relationship exists for a reason, but they're also really playful.   They're silly. They're really kind of comfortable in their own skin. And it's those five levels really working together that allows them to experience a relationship that gives life. I think one of the things we know is that when God creates, it gives life. And so, God created marriage not to burden us, right? Not to kind of, you know, not even just to get us through, you know, kind of surviving life, but actually to bring more life.   Right. And not just life within the relationship itself, but life outside of it.   Laura Dugger: (41:58 - 42:22) Oh, I love it. And you're also working with couples. I've heard you speak before about the working on offering your spouse the gift of self-awareness. And so, what could couples expect? How do you actually work with them to grow in self-awareness and recognize things like the emotional process they go through in marriage?   Joanna Raabsmith: (42:22 - 43:48) Absolutely. So, awareness. So, in our book, we obviously detail the intimacy period much more.   And that's Building True Intimacy is the name of the book. But each of those levels we just walked through have different components that go into that. And awareness is kind of like one of the most important components of that honesty foundation.   So, we have to start with awareness and we can't really build anything if there's a lack of self-awareness. And so, when we work with couples, one of the first places we start is we kind of look at the past. Are they aware of what they've been through, what those experiences are, and how those experiences have shaped them into the person that is now in the present, showing up with their spouse.   Right. And so, once I start to have that insight from my past, from those experiences, how they shape me, I can better understand my present. What are the things that I feel and why do I feel those things in particular?   Right. And then when I feel those things in a relationship, and these are typically those kind of heavier, more challenging, more painful emotions. How do I respond?   How am I showing up? Because the reality is that all of us cope with emotional pain the same way we cope with physical pain. We go into fight or flight.   That part of our brain gets triggered and we respond with these kind of destructive relational coping behaviors that then hurt my partner.   Matthew Raabsmith: (43:48 - 46:22) Yeah. Like, for example, I told you about that chaos I experienced as a kid. And so, those would always happen around conflicts.   My parents would disagree about something. There would be some type of argument about, you know, and it could be anything where we were going for dinner or what color the curtains were. Right.   But it would create this chaotic environment. So, as I got married, the thing that I didn't like the least was any type of conflict. Joanna and I would get in when I could sense us disagreeing and we are both passionate.   We have opinions and we believe things and we get into this kind of disagreement and argument. It would freak my system out. And I didn't realize that because I didn't really know my past.   I didn't know what was going on. I would just really do anything to shut it down. I get angry and I try to get loud, or I just walk away in the middle of a conversation.   As Joanna was talking, I would just leave the room and my acting out was just a further manifestation of that kind of leaving the relationship. And so, part of my healing journey was to learn about my story and recognize, oh, OK, I can see what's happening. And what's really interesting is it still happens in our life today.   I've been in recovery for 12 years. I still feel the same things. Now it's more like when my kids are getting involved.   Right. And there's energy in the room and people are online. And then I go, oh, yeah, there it is.   There's my system again. It's starting to feel unsafe. It's starting to feel alone. And I know what it wants to do. It wants to get angry, or it wants to just shut down and walk away. And what's incredible is that we've learned the ability to see where we're at but also speak directly to that.   And so, what I get to do for myself now is I get to go, “OK, I know I'm feeling unsafe and I know I'm feeling alone. And I know I want to get angry to solve it, but it won't do it. But here's the truth. The truth is that I'm safe in God's economy. I'm empowered. I have an incredible partner in my life. I've never been alone. I've always had someone there for me. And Joanna is the perfect example of that.”   And that totally changes my sense of really kind of where I am. And it changes how I show up. I tend to be much more calm.   I ask questions rather than make demands. And it's that ability to kind of see where we're at and shift. That's just been such a game changer for our family and just for our own relationship.   We still have to work on it. You know, it doesn't always look that pretty. Right.   But when we do, it's amazing how different it goes.   Laura Dugger: (46:24 - 46:44) And then I just think of the generational impacts that has when people are willing to do the work. And so, if there's a brave couple out there who wants to seek their own help and healing, can you share where they can go for help, including the Raabsmith team and all that you have to offer?   Matthew Raabsmith: (46:46 - 47:30) Yeah, you know, we would love them to connect with us because I think one of the things we recognize was having guides along the way. I mean, we had to figure a lot out ourselves, but we also had some really incredible guides, some mentors, some coaches, some therapists. And so, we always just say, hey, connect with us.   You can find us at raabsmithteam.com. We have a heart for couples who want restoration and reconciliation because that's what we're getting to live and experience. And what's cool is our whole team, they're couples who've been through this work, but who also have been professionally trained to help other couples to just continue to guide and to grow relationships so that they're thriving and they're kind of giving that life.   Joanna Raabsmith: (47:30 - 48:10) Absolutely. We also love to give out resources. And so, we have the kind of we call it the honest connection.   And so, again, if you're starting this journey or even this is for any couple who wants deeper connection, deeper intimacy, learning how to do that on a daily basis in small ways is so important. And so, we have a worksheet that couples can take and use. We're happy to provide that for them for free and kind of try this for 30 days and notice the changes that you experience in your relationship.   And so, that's a great starting point wherever you are in relationship to begin that journey of connection.   Matthew Raabsmith: (48:10 - 48:14) And you just go to raabsmithteam.com/free and that resource is all yours.   Laura Dugger: (48:15 - 48:26) Wonderful. Add links for that in the show notes for today's episode. And is this then for any couple worldwide, nationwide?   Can you work with people?   Matthew Raabsmith: (48:27 - 48:55) We have we've got couples across the world, which is really fun. It's been really neat just to see the way that God has used our work. One of the things when we first started this journey, we started getting couples calling us saying, “Hey, I don't have anybody in my area that specializes in this, that understands this journey. Can I work with you?” And so, we kind of felt a calling to say we want to make sure that we connect with people wherever they are. And so, absolutely.   If you can hear our voice, you can work with us.   Laura Dugger: (48:55 - 49:14) I love that. And just as a little bonus practical tip, you kind of mentioned being proactive to thriving in marriage. Is there any encouragement that you could share or a specific practical tip that anybody could start to incorporate if they want to take their marriage to that thriving level?   Matthew Raabsmith: (49:15 - 50:12) Yeah, I think just the ability to slow down. We have a  nine, seven and six-year-old. We own our own business, and we like life and life can get incredibly fast.   And I think what we have found is when, as I was mentioning, when I learned the ability just to slow down, even if I don't fully just know myself slowing down and checking in, just where am I at right now? Where's my heart? Right. Where do I want to be?   I think I realize that so often my values and my actions aren't aligned when I'm moving too quickly. I'm not being the person that I want to be. And we see that in so many couples. We meet so many couples and there are two really great people who have a hard time working together. They have a hard time kind of being a team.   And it's usually because they're working so fast. They don't realize they're kind of working against each other. So, slowing down, I think, is such a big thing.   Joanna Raabsmith: (50:12 - 51:18) Another piece that's, again, really easy to start right away. A lot of couples we work with, and I think probably even us when we start a relationship, was there were two individuals in a relationship, and it was kind of either me or you. And starting to understand there's this third thing between you, the relationship. There's a third almost entity that really needs care. It needs nurture. It needs you to focus on its needs from time to time.   And so, beginning to approach the day, even approach conversations with this question of like, what does our relationship need right now? And even as you're trying to make decisions, what is the way we can decide this in a way that's good for our relationship or what decision benefits our relationship rather than does it benefit you or me? Because when you get into that struggle, it can become a competition.   It can become transactional really quickly. So, starting to ask that question, starting to talk about the needs and caring for the relationship very intentionally can be a way to shift that.   Laura Dugger: (51:20 - 51:38) Thank you for sharing that. I think that leads into my last question, because you already know we're called The Savvy Sauce because savvy is synonymous with practical knowledge. And so, as my final question for both of you, Matthew and Joanna, what is your savvy sauce?   Matthew Raabsmith: (51:39 - 52:22) I kind of mentioned this, but I think it's the willingness to be honest. I was so willing to lie to myself and kind of really hide from other people. And I didn't even know that I was doing it.   But as I have learned to be more honest in really kind of healthy ways, right. You can dump, you can whine, you can complain, you can get angry. But truly being honest meant just looking at what I was feeling and trying to kind of figure that out and name that.   As I have learned that ability to be honest with myself and with others, it has just opened up a new world of possibilities. And it has shown me how many people care for me; how much God cares for me. So, I think that honesty is something I just want to practice more and more every day.   Joanna Raabsmith: (52:22 - 53:30) I think for me, just in my own journey and working with so many partners, that importance of being able to make empowered decisions in my life. Right. That I am really intentionally choosing the direction I'm going in life.   Realizing that instead of going into this more helpless, powerless victim stance is such a difference. And really the only thing that changes a lot of times is mindset. You don't have to overhaul your entire life.   Right. You have to add in like four hours of self-care and all of these things. But starting to shift that mindset into, wait, I have power in the decisions I make.   And one of the ways that's really important to do that is growing that self-awareness. I cannot make empowered decisions if I'm not aware of where I'm at emotionally, physically, spiritually. Right.   If I'm not aware of my needs on a regular basis. And so, slowing down to check those things in, sometimes even multiple times in the day if you're not used to that. So, you're more connected to yourself, to what you need, what you want.   So, you can start making those empowered decisions.   Laura Dugger: (53:32 - 54:00) I love that. It's just so enjoyable to host a very lively couple who's humble and you've done your work. And then you're willing to share all this overflow of goodness with all of us.   So, I think my prayer is that the Lord would richly bless you for this open-handed generosity of wisdom and your story and experience that you've shared with us and modeled for us today. So, thank you to both of you for being my guest.   Joanna Raabsmith: (54:00 - 54:03) Thank you so much. It's a joy being here.   Laura Dugger: (54:05 - 57:47) One more thing before you go, have you heard the term gospel before? It simply means good news. And I want to share the best news with you, but it starts with the bad news.   Every single one of us were born sinners, but Christ desires to rescue us from our sin, which is something we cannot do for ourselves. This means there's absolutely no chance we can make it to heaven on our own. So, for you and for me, it means we deserve death, and we can never pay back the sacrifice we owe to be saved.   We need a savior, but God loved us so much. He made a way for his only son to willingly die in our place as the perfect substitute. This gives us hope of life forever in right relationship with him.   That is good news. Jesus lived the perfect life. We could never live and died in our place for our sin.   This was God's plan to make a way to reconcile with us so that God can look at us and see Jesus. We can be covered and justified through the work Jesus finished. If we choose to receive what he has done for us, Romans 10:9 says, “that if you confess with your mouth, Jesus is Lord and believe in your heart that God raised him from the dead, you will be saved.”   So, you pray with me now. Heavenly father, thank you for sending Jesus to take our place. I pray someone today right now is touched and chooses to turn their life over to you.   Will you clearly guide them and help them take their next step in faith to declare you as Lord of their life? We trust you to work and change lives now for eternity. In Jesus name we pray.   Amen. If you prayed that prayer, you are declaring him for me. So, me for him, you get the opportunity to live your life for him.   And at this podcast, we're called The Savvy Sauce for a reason. We want to give you practical tools to implement the knowledge you have learned. So, you're ready to get started.   First, tell someone, say it out loud, get a Bible. The first day I made this decision, my parents took me to Barnes and Noble and let me choose my own Bible. I selected the Quest NIV Bible and I love it.   You can start by reading the book of John. Also get connected locally, which just means tell someone who's a part of a church in your community that you made a decision to follow Christ. I'm assuming they will be thrilled to talk with you about further steps such as going to church and getting connected to other believers to encourage you.   We want to celebrate with you too. So, feel free to leave a comment for us here. If you did make a decision to follow Christ, we also have show notes included where you can read scripture that describes this process.   And finally, be encouraged. Luke 15:10 says, “in the same way, I tell you, there is rejoicing in the presence of the angels of God over one sinner who repents.” The heavens are praising with you for your decision today.   And if you've already received this good news, I pray you have someone to share it with. You are loved and I look forward to meeting you here next time.

In this follow-up conversation, Rusty and Heather continue their discussion with certified sex therapist Debby Wade as they discuss the real questions couples face when rebuilding intimacy after betrayal. Debby offers clear, compassionate guidance on navigating triggers, creating emotional safety, supporting one another in the healing process, and learning to reconnect without pressure or fear. Her insight helps couples understand what healthy intimacy looks like as trust is restored and hope begins to rise again. Visit The Redeemed Marriage Website Watch on YouTube Visit Debby Wade's Website

In this transformative episode, I sit down with my own teacher and mentor, Dr. Karen Parker, to explore the fascinating world of Quantum Human Design and how our stories literally shape our biology. Dr. Parker is a pioneer who studied with the founder of traditional Human Design and has taken the system to its next evolution—helping people not just understand who they're not, but consciously create who they want to become.  What You'll Discover  Understanding Quantum Human Design  The difference between traditional Human Design and Quantum Human Design  How Human Design synthesizes Eastern and Western astrology, the Chinese I Ching, Hindu chakra system, and Judaic Kabbalah  Why getting back into your body is essential for authentic decision-making  The evolution from learning "who you're not" to consciously creating "who you choose to become"  The Biology of Our Stories  How victim-based narratives actually lower immune response (IgA levels)  The physiological changes that occur when you reframe your story  Why optimists live longer and have longer telomeres  The connection between storytelling and post-traumatic growth  Moving Beyond Survival  Why defining ourselves as "survivors" keeps us stuck at a minimal baseline  The danger of stopping your story at the cliffhanger  How to move from surviving to thriving through the redemption arc  The Stage 3 trap: how repeating our betrayal story keeps us stuck  The Story Lab Process  A creative, fun approach to rewriting your narrative (yes, it can be enjoyable!)  Using creative writing to bypass logic and reasoning patterns  Why taking your story "out of time" creates powerful shifts  Real-life example: How one woman transformed from victim to empowered protector  Key Takeaways  Your story creates your identity, and your identity calls in experiences that validate it. Breaking this cycle requires conscious narrative reframing.  Healing doesn't have to be a crisis. The Story Lab process proves that transformation can actually be creative, playful, and fun.  Check in with your body. After sharing your betrayal story, does your body feel light, open, and expansive? Or heavy and contracted? Your body knows the truth.  The power of the redemption arc. Your story doesn't end at the betrayal—that's just the catalyst. The real story is what happens next and who you become.  Powerful Exercise to Try  Draw a horizontal line across a piece of paper. The left represents your birth, the right represents where you are now. Mark all the significant experiences in your life along this timeline. Then ask yourself: "Did I stop my story at the cliffhanger, or have I defined myself by what happened next?"  If you're still hanging at the cliffhanger, you deserve better than that.  About Dr. Karen Parker  Dr. Karen Parker holds a PhD in transpersonal psychology and is the creator of Quantum Human Design. She studied directly with the founder of traditional Human Design and spent three years in a Sound Lab testing the frequency of vocabulary to create an entirely new system that helps people consciously write their sovereign story. She's also the author of multiple books, including Quantum Wellness, which walks readers through the Story Lab process.  Connect with Dr. Karen Parker  Website: QuantumHumanDesign.com  Instagram & Facebook: @DrKarenParker22  Book: Quantum Wellness (available at major online retailers)  Stay in Touch  The PBT Institute: https://thepbtinstitute.com   My Personal Connection  As a 4/6 Manifesting Generator (Time Bender) myself, studying with Dr. Karen was life-changing. Learning about the triphasic life cycle of the 4/6 profile helped me understand why my life crashed and burned at exactly age 50—and why that was actually the beginning of my true purpose work. The concept of "finding shortcuts" as a Manifesting Generator perfectly explains why the five stages of Post Betrayal Transformation showed up in my research—it was THE shortcut to healing! 

Two former UK Chancellors, Jeremy Hunt and Kwasi Kwarteng, deliver a brutal, unfiltered emergency analysis on Labour's first two budgets.  They expose the truth behind the £70 billion tax hike, the controversial welfare policies, and why freezing housing taxes will "gum up" the top end of the market. Discover the shocking reasons this financial chaos is happening now and why the UK's global reputation is taking a hit! BEST MOMENTS "I was really giving Rachel Reeves and Keir Starmer the benefit of the doubt... I thought the basic philosophy was going to be pro-business. And I think yesterday, very sadly, growth was completely sacrificed." "The one thing that most worried me... was the extra bands of council tax on more expensive homes... it is going to gum up the top end of the property market." "They've got another three years of budgets. And do I think they're suddenly going to balance the books and not raise taxes? No, I don't" Exclusive community & resources:   For more EXCLUSIVE & unfiltered content to make, manage & multiply more money, join our private online education platform: Money.School →⁠ ⁠⁠https://money.school⁠   And if you'd like to meet 7 & 8 figure entrepreneurs, & scale to 6, 7 or 8 figures in your business or personal income, join us at our in-person Money Maker Summit Event (including EXCLUSIVE millionaire guests/masterminds sessions)  →⁠ ⁠⁠https://robmoore.live/mms⁠ 

The fight for transparency in the Epstein case has reached a breaking point, and it's become impossible to ignore the role Donald Trump is playing in concealing the truth. Despite campaigning on promises to expose Epstein's network and deliver justice, Trump has instead publicly dismissed the entire scandal as a “hoax,” undermining survivors and derailing efforts to uncover the truth. His refusal to release the Epstein files—paired with the delusion of his most devoted supporters, who treat him like a messianic figure—has turned political discourse into religious fanaticism. Families have fractured, friendships have collapsed, and critical thinking has evaporated as millions defend Trump not with facts but with blind faith. The cult-like devotion has transformed disappointment into national dysfunction, replacing accountability with worship and truth with propaganda.For the survivors of Epstein's crimes, Trump's betrayal is devastating. They were told to trust him, to believe that justice was coming, and instead were publicly humiliated and dismissed by the very man they believed was fighting for them.   His administration promised action but delivered nothing except excuses and obstruction. Meanwhile, Trump supporters continue to deny his documented connections to Epstein and Ghislaine Maxwell, acting as though he was some undercover hero rather than a participant in the same elite circles. The result has been enormous damage to the pursuit of accountability: a swamp deeper and more toxic than ever, protected by people more interested in defending their idol than defending the truth.to contact me:bobbycapucci@protonmail.comBecome a supporter of this podcast: https://www.spreaker.com/podcast/the-epstein-chronicles--5003294/support.

From Shattered to Shining (Holiday Edition) How to Rebuild Hope, Identity & Sparkle After Betrayal There's a moment after betrayal when you look in the mirror and don't recognize yourself anymore. Not because you're weak — but because you've been trying so hard to survive, hold everything together, and make sense of a world that suddenly stopped making sense. If your sparkle feels dulled… If you feel like the woman you once were is gone… This episode will remind you: She's still in there. And hope is still in there too. ---In this powerful episode, Lora takes you deep into what really breaks during betrayal — hope, identity, safety, and the sense of who you are. Last week's show revealed that hope doesn't die; hope hides. This week, you'll learn how to begin revealing yourself again — layer by layer — so your hope can return and your sparkle can rise. Lora shares how the FLAUNT!® framework was “downloaded” years before her own betrayal, how it became the blueprint that saved her life, and how you can use these same steps to move from shattered to shining this holiday season. You'll also hear the full story behind the free December 1st From Shattered to Shining Book Club & Workshop — a guided, experiential celebration of healing, revealing, and reclaiming your joy. This is the episode to listen to if you feel lost, dulled, destabilized, or disconnected — especially heading into the holidays. TOP 3 TAKEAWAYS Your sparkle isn't gone — it's covered. Betrayal doesn't “break” you. It buries you under grief, shock, and roles you never meant to carry. Healing is not fixing — it's revealing. Hope hides beneath layers — but it's never lost. Hope disappears under masks, roles, labels, and survival patterns. When you begin to unmask yourself, hope becomes possible again. FLAUNT!® is a clinically-backed framework for betrayal recovery. Originally built for empowerment, it became the missing map for navigating infidelity: F – Find Your Fetish (joy) L – Laugh Out Loud (regulate your nervous system) A – Accept Unconditionally (what is true) N – Navigate the Negative (integrate, don't avoid) T – Trust in Your Truth (stand in who you are becoming) Rebuild your identity, your hope, and your sparkle with Lora's free two-hour virtual workshop: From Shattered to Shining: A Book Club Experience for Women Who Are Ready to Feel Like Themselves Again December 1, 11 am – 1 pm PST, 12 pm – 2 pm MST, 1 pm – 3 pm CST, 2 pm – 4 pm EST, 7 pm – 9 pm GMT, 8 pm – 10 pm CET, 6 am – 8 am AEDT (next day) Free on Zoom (+ replay) Bring your copy of FLAUNT! Drop Your Cover and Reveal Your Smart, Sexy & Spiritual Self Register at www.TheFlauntBook.com If you want clarity, grounding, and joy this holiday season — this workshop is your next step. --- FAVORITE QUOTE “You are not broken. Your sparkle has just been dulled — and together, we're going to bring it back to life.” — Lora Cheadle Free FLAUNT! Holiday Reset & Book Club If this episode hit home, your next step is simple: Join Lora on December 1st for a free live FLAUNT! Book Club & Workshop — a Holiday Reset designed to move you from performance to presence in real time. You'll: Work with practices from FLAUNT! Drop Your Cover and Reveal Your Smart, Sexy & Spiritual Self Get tools to break your performance scripts and over-functioning habits Have space to decompress after Thanksgiving and prepare for the rest of the season in a different way Practice embodying presence so you can actually feel the joy you're creating Sign up free: TheFlauntBook.com You don't need to be “caught up” or have read the whole book. Just bring yourself, your copy, and a willingness to show up as you are. LOVE THE SHOW? TAKE THE NEXT STEP Don't just listen—start healing. Get your free downloadable guide on the “The Top Three Ways You Betray Yourself Every Day, and How to Stop” at www.burnoutorbetrayal.com. https://workplace-burnout.com/the-top-3-ways-you-betray-yourself-every-day-and-how-to-stop/ If you're ready to Rise Up & Reign as the creator and queen of your life, let's talk. I will walk by your side and give you the perspective, permission, and wisdom needed to turn your betrayal experience into something constructive, empowering, and transformative in all the right ways.  Learn more at www.loracheadle.com and follow me across all social! Download your Sparkle After Betrayal Recovery Guide at www.BetrayalRecoveryGuide.com, a guide designed to help you take the first steps in feeling better, so you can reclaim your power, own your worth, and start putting yourself, and your life, back together again. About Lora: Lora Cheadle, JD, CHt is a betrayal recovery coach, attorney, TEDx speaker, and author of FLAUNT! and It's Not Burnout, It's Betrayal. After uncovering her husband's 15-year affair, she turned her own pain into purpose—helping high-achieving women reclaim their identity, power, and joy. A trauma-aware coach, somatic therapist, and former attorney, Lora blends legal insight with emotional and spiritual healing for full-spectrum recovery. She is the author of FLAUNT! Drop Your Cover and Reveal Your Smart, Sexy, & Spiritual Self (an International Book Awards Finalist and Tattered Cover Bestseller) and It's Not Burnout, It's Betrayal: 5 Tools to FUEL UP & Thrive. She also hosts the podcast FLAUNT! Create a Life You Love After Infidelity and Betrayal. Learn more at www.loracheadle.com and follow me across all social! Get the support you need to find your footing, begin making sense of it all, and feel better fast. As an attorney, betrayal recovery expert, and survivor of infidelity I can help you find the clarity and confidence to create a life that you love on the other side of betrayal. Book Your Session Here: https://calendly.com/loras-schedule/coaching-session Thank you to BetterHelp for sponsoring this podcast! Take charge of your mental health and get 10% off your first month of therapy at https://BetterHelp.com/FLAUNT  READY TO START A BETTER CHAPTER? Step into the future you've always dreamed of with the power of transformative rituals with the Mindful Subscription Box. Get a monthly box full of crystals, aromatherapy, and other spiritual tools worth $120. You deserve high-quality gems, crystals, oils, and mindfulness tools for self-care that truly work. It's a monthly dose of self-love delivered right to your door! Go to www.Mindfulsouls.com  and use Discount Code LORA25 for 25% off your order!

This week on History Rage, host Paul Bavill is joined by historian and author Mark Ellis, known for his gripping Frank Merlin detective novels and his latest work, Boom Time: True Crime in World War II London. Together, they traverse the shadowy underbelly of wartime Britain, revealing the grim realities that lay beneath the celebrated Blitz spirit.The Dark Side of the Blitz: Mark passionately confronts the myth that the British public maintained a dignified composure during the war. He unveils the shocking truth: crime surged by 60% from 1939 to 1945, with ordinary citizens engaging in looting, black market dealings, and even violent crime amidst the chaos.Notorious Criminals: Delve into the lives of infamous figures like Gordon Cummins, the 'Blackout Ripper', and John Haig, the 'Acid Bath Killer', whose heinous acts thrived in the cover of darkness. Mark shares harrowing accounts of wartime crimes that challenge the narrative of British resilience.The Black Market Boom: Explore the expansive black market that flourished during the war, as spivs and organised gangs capitalised on rationing and scarcity. Mark explains how these operations were not merely opportunistic but well-planned criminal enterprises that included everything from armed robberies to the theft of military supplies.Police Struggles: With police numbers dwindling as many officers enlisted, Mark discusses the challenges faced by law enforcement in combating this surge in crime. The episode highlights the corruption and complicity within the ranks, as some officers became entangled in the very criminal activities they were meant to suppress.American Influence: The arrival of American troops brought both camaraderie and chaos, introducing their own brand of crime and racial tensions to the streets of London. Mark reveals how the differing legal systems between the UK and the US created unique challenges for law enforcement and military justice.Join us for this eye-opening exploration of crime in wartime Britain, where the reality of human behaviour starkly contrasts with the glorified myths of the Blitz. Stay tuned for more episodes of History Rage, where we continue to uncover the hidden truths of our past.Support History Rage on Patreon for exclusive content and early episode access and the coveted History Rage Mug at www.patreon.com/historyrage.For more historical insights, visit our website www.historyrage.com.If you want to get in touch with History Rage, email us at historyragepod@gmail.com.Follow History Rage on Social Media:Facebook: https://www.facebook.com/HistoryRageTwitter: https://twitter.com/HistoryRageInstagram: https://www.instagram.com/historyrageStay Angry, Stay Informed - History Rage Hosted on Acast. See acast.com/privacy for more information.

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4/8 Persecution and Survival: The Composer Wang Xilin's Memory — Tanya Branigan — The biography of composer Wang Xilin, a zealous Communist Party member and peasant-background intellectual, illustrates the regime's betrayal of its devoted followers. Wang endured systematic persecution including multiple struggle sessions, during which he anticipated execution. Branigan documents that remembering this trauma remains acutely painful; Wangcompared his suffering to Holocaust experiences at Auschwitz. Wang demonstrates extreme anger when questioned about controversial gaps in his compositional legacy, reflecting the profound depth of his unresolved psychological trauma. 1967

As part of our Hidden Killers 2025 Year in Review series, we turn the lens away from the accused and toward the people who've been living in the shadow of one of the nation's most haunting murder cases — the family of Bryan Kohberger. In this gripping three-part deep dive, Tony Brueski uncovers the emotional and legal crossroads facing Kohberger's parents and sisters as the Idaho murder trial looms. What happens when the system turns its gaze toward the family of the accused? What did they know, and when? We begin with the latest bombshell: both Bryan Kohberger's father and sister may be called as witnesses by the prosecution. Why would the state take the extraordinary step of subpoenaing family members? Could they have seen something—heard something—that adds weight to the timeline? Using verified court filings and public statements, Tony breaks down what this means for a case already teetering between the personal and the procedural. Then we go inside the Kohberger home in the tense weeks before Bryan's arrest. One sister reportedly noticed unsettling behavior—something that made her question the brother she thought she knew. What did she see? What did she say? And how did those private moments of suspicion and fear evolve into public testimony? This episode also examines the psychology of proximity — how families of alleged killers experience guilt by association, media intrusion, and unbearable moral conflict. Are they victims of circumstance, silent witnesses to horror, or both? Along the way, former prosecutor Eric Faddis joins Tony to dissect the unnerving behavior captured on surveillance footage after the murders — Kohberger shopping at Albertson's and Costco, the infamous mirror selfie, and possible online activity as “Papa Rodger.” Could these details show a man spiraling, or someone savoring the aftermath? From the quiet dread inside the Kohberger home to the bizarre post-crime trail that keeps resurfacing, this is the story of a family entangled in the making of a modern American tragedy.

As part of our Hidden Killers 2025 Year in Review series, we turn the lens away from the accused and toward the people who've been living in the shadow of one of the nation's most haunting murder cases — the family of Bryan Kohberger. In this gripping three-part deep dive, Tony Brueski uncovers the emotional and legal crossroads facing Kohberger's parents and sisters as the Idaho murder trial looms. What happens when the system turns its gaze toward the family of the accused? What did they know, and when? We begin with the latest bombshell: both Bryan Kohberger's father and sister may be called as witnesses by the prosecution. Why would the state take the extraordinary step of subpoenaing family members? Could they have seen something—heard something—that adds weight to the timeline? Using verified court filings and public statements, Tony breaks down what this means for a case already teetering between the personal and the procedural. Then we go inside the Kohberger home in the tense weeks before Bryan's arrest. One sister reportedly noticed unsettling behavior—something that made her question the brother she thought she knew. What did she see? What did she say? And how did those private moments of suspicion and fear evolve into public testimony? This episode also examines the psychology of proximity — how families of alleged killers experience guilt by association, media intrusion, and unbearable moral conflict. Are they victims of circumstance, silent witnesses to horror, or both? Along the way, former prosecutor Eric Faddis joins Tony to dissect the unnerving behavior captured on surveillance footage after the murders — Kohberger shopping at Albertson's and Costco, the infamous mirror selfie, and possible online activity as “Papa Rodger.” Could these details show a man spiraling, or someone savoring the aftermath? From the quiet dread inside the Kohberger home to the bizarre post-crime trail that keeps resurfacing, this is the story of a family entangled in the making of a modern American tragedy.

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You're not a monster because you cheated— you are a hurting human who never learned how to feel, name, and heal what's going on inside. And understanding that and forgiving yourself is the key to rebuilding trust, whether you stay together or not. This episode is a love letter—and a challenge—to the betrayer. Whether you're the one who cheated or you're the partner trying to understand how the person you love could hurt you so deeply, this conversation pulls back the curtain on what's really going on inside the betraying partner. Lora shares honest, vulnerable insights from walking beside her husband through his infidelity, exploring why most men genuinely don't know why they cheated, how shame and unresolved boyhood wounds fuel destructive coping, and what it actually takes to become trustworthy again. You'll learn how to move from “I'm a monster” to “I made a devastating mistake—and I'm willing to change,” so both of you can stop walking on eggshells and start moving toward clarity, accountability, and healing.   Top 3 Takeaways Why “I don't know why I did it” is often true—just not the whole truth. Most betrayers genuinely don't know the root cause of their cheating because they were never taught to identify or communicate their emotions. Until they can name what they're feeling—rejection, shame, emasculation, grief—cheating will continue to be a maladaptive coping mechanism, not a “character flaw problem” to shame away. Your actions don't define your core—but your accountability does. There's a profound difference between being a cheater and having cheated. Lora breaks down how to step out of the “cheater” identity and back into integrity through nervous system regulation, consistent follow-through (“do what you say you'll do”), and small, repeated acts of honor that show you're becoming truly trustworthy again. Healing requires feeling it all—without fleeing, fixing, or deflecting. From the sticky note that said “Feel it all” to simple somatic practices like standing in your integrity, brushing off old attachments, and speaking from your gut instead of your head, you'll learn concrete ways to sit with your own shame, regret, and pain and hold space for your partner's rage and grief—without collapsing, defending, or running away.  

Tonight, my dear, the dial drifts into places where time kinks, debts come due, and footsteps follow just out of sight. Settle in with Unknown Broadcast—your portal to classic OTR chills, old-time radio horror stories, and radio suspense that still breathe in the dark. Listen close… the night is speaking.

Welcome to The Daily, where we study the Bible verse by verse, chapter by chapter, every day. Today's shout-out goes to Charles Olaughlin from Shelbina, MO. Your commitment through Project23 helps deliver God's Word daily with clarity and conviction. This one's for you. Our text today is Judges 15:1-2 "After some days, at the time of wheat harvest, Samson went to visit his wife with a young goat. And he said, 'I will go in to my wife in the chamber.' But her father would not allow him to go in. And her father said, 'I really thought that you utterly hated her, so I gave her to your companion. Is not her younger sister more beautiful than she? Please take her instead.'" — Judges 15:1-2 Picture Samson walking up to his wife's home. He's holding a goat—his version of flowers and chocolates—ready to make things right. Maybe he's nervous. Maybe he's hopeful. But when he arrives, the door slams shut. Her father blocks the way: "She's gone. I gave her to another man. But hey—her younger sister's prettier. Take her instead." That's not just rejection—that's betrayal. That's humiliation. Samson was replaced. You've probably felt it too. Maybe not from a father-in-law who rejected you, but from someone who once promised loyalty, love, or friendship. A spouse who walked away. A friend who ghosted. A parent who didn't show up. A boss who passed you over. Betrayal makes you feel small, discarded, unwanted. Know this: people's betrayal doesn't define your worth, because God's faithfulness never wavers. When rejection strikes, our first instinct is to spiral into anger, bitterness, or even revenge. Samson will go there in the verses ahead. But God offers another way: let betrayal drive you into His arms. He is the Friend who never leaves. The Father who never abandons. The Bridegroom who never breaks covenant. That wound of betrayal may always leave a scar, but it does not decide your story. God's promise does: "I will never leave you nor forsake you" — Hebrews 13:5. So don't let rejection name you. Let God's faithfulness claim you. ASK THIS: Who has betrayed you in a way that still stings today? How has rejection shaped the way you see yourself? Do you believe God's faithfulness is stronger than people's failures? What step can you take today to release bitterness and rest in His promises? DO THIS: Write down the name of someone who betrayed or rejected you. Pray: "Lord, heal what they broke, and help me trust You more than I trust people." Read or say Hebrews 13:5 three times today as a reminder that God never abandons you. Share this truth with someone else who's wrestling with rejection. PRAY THIS: Father, You know the sting of betrayal better than anyone. When others fail me, remind me that You never will. Heal my wounds and anchor my worth in Your faithfulness. Amen. PLAY THIS: "Faithful Now."

As part of our Hidden Killers 2025 Year in Review series, we turn the lens away from the accused and toward the people who've been living in the shadow of one of the nation's most haunting murder cases — the family of Bryan Kohberger. In this gripping three-part deep dive, Tony Brueski uncovers the emotional and legal crossroads facing Kohberger's parents and sisters as the Idaho murder trial looms. What happens when the system turns its gaze toward the family of the accused? What did they know, and when? We begin with the latest bombshell: both Bryan Kohberger's father and sister may be called as witnesses by the prosecution. Why would the state take the extraordinary step of subpoenaing family members? Could they have seen something—heard something—that adds weight to the timeline? Using verified court filings and public statements, Tony breaks down what this means for a case already teetering between the personal and the procedural. Then we go inside the Kohberger home in the tense weeks before Bryan's arrest. One sister reportedly noticed unsettling behavior—something that made her question the brother she thought she knew. What did she see? What did she say? And how did those private moments of suspicion and fear evolve into public testimony? This episode also examines the psychology of proximity — how families of alleged killers experience guilt by association, media intrusion, and unbearable moral conflict. Are they victims of circumstance, silent witnesses to horror, or both? Along the way, former prosecutor Eric Faddis joins Tony to dissect the unnerving behavior captured on surveillance footage after the murders — Kohberger shopping at Albertson's and Costco, the infamous mirror selfie, and possible online activity as “Papa Rodger.” Could these details show a man spiraling, or someone savoring the aftermath? From the quiet dread inside the Kohberger home to the bizarre post-crime trail that keeps resurfacing, this is the story of a family entangled in the making of a modern American tragedy.

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Today, Pastor Mollenkopf begins a sermon series through First Peter. To fully grasp the apostle's encouragements to us to persevere in the midst of suffering and to understand God having purpose and plan, it's important that we understand how Peter was uniquely situated to pen such a letter. As a disciple 0f Jesus and leader in the early church, and because of the great successes and failures he knew in both seasons of his life, he's well situated to help us in the sufferings and persecutions we are likely to see in our walk with Christ.

The presidential election of 1876 stands as one of the most contested and consequential turning points in American history. In this episode, I explore the dramatic showdown between Republican Rutherford B. Hayes and Democrat Samuel Tilden, unfolding at a moment when the country was still grappling with the legacy of Reconstruction.Join me as I highlight how a political crisis emerged when disputed returns from the South threw the nation into chaos without a constitutional remedy. What followed was an unprecedented political standoff: the creation of a federal election commission, intense negotiations between Hayes supporters and southern Democrats, and the controversial deal that ended Reconstruction in exchange for securing the presidency.This episode unpacks the maneuvering, the stakes, and the lasting consequences of the 1876 election—all while setting the stage for the next era in the podcast timeline: the rise of the Gilded Age.Support the show

Tragedies happen.  They are painful.  They are unfair.  They are often unavoidable.  And that would be WHY they are tragedy.  In the aftermath of tragedy, we find the character of leaders.  This is to say, Mad King Donnie responds poorly to tragedy.  He responds poorly to adversity, to criticism, to essentially everything to which a leader must respond.  Now watch the over-reaction, it's the clue to what is truly happening.The protestation, the tantrums, the accusations are all projection.  Watch closely and be ready.-T*CORRECTION...the Hegseth "Kill Em All" story was in the Washington Post, so I was wrong on both guesses!  

This binge compilation contains 5 episodes.Episodes included:1. The Board and the Blade (November 24, 2025)2. An Obstacle Removed (November 25, 2025)3. Alard's Homecoming (November 26, 2025)4. The Rock and the Wind (November 27, 2025)5. The Road West (November 28, 2025)---Episode 1: The Board and the Blade

02:23 Sheriff Grady Judd talks working with the media24:34 Reality-based training takes center stage for recruits30:45 Man fatally shot by police after death threats37:00 Suspect flees while cops shoot at traffic stop41:31 High-crime Seattle cannot keep officersLEO Round Table (law enforcement talk show) Season 8, Episode 92rr / S10E239 (2,004) filmed on 06/01/2023 1. https://www.police1.com/police-training/videos/this-facility-will-have-an-impact-across-the-country-las-vegas-metro-pd-sets-the-standard-in-reality-based-training-DGhxSyI7XHou7jRV/ 2. https://rumble.com/v2r7kyc-st.-pete-man-who-threatened-to-kill-everyone-is-fatally-shot-by-pinellas-pa.html 3. https://rumble.com/v2r4i3k-santa-ana-releases-body-cam-of-a-shooting-that-occurred-from-a-traffic-stop.html 4. https://www.lawofficer.com/seattle-police-response-time/ Show Panelists and Personalities: Chip DeBlock (Host and retired police detective)Special Guest: Sheriff Grady Judd (Polk County Sheriff)Randy Sutton (retired police Lieutenant)Related Events, Organizations and Books:Retired DEA Agent Robert Mazur's works:Interview of Bryan Cranston about him playing Agent Robert Mazur in THE INFILTRATOR filmhttps://vimeo.com/channels/1021727Trailer for the new book, THE BETRAYALhttps://www.robertmazur.com/wp-content/uploads/2023/05/The-Betrayal-trailer-reMix2.mp4Everything on Robert Mazurhttps://www.robertmazur.com/The Wounded Blue - Lt. Randy Sutton's charityhttps://thewoundedblue.org/Rescuing 911: The Fight For America's Safety - by Lt. Randy Sutton (Pre-Order)https://rescuing911.org/Books by panelist and retired Lt. Randy Sutton:https://www.amazon.com/Randy-Sutton/e/B001IR1MQU%3Fref=dbs_a_mng_rwt_scns_shareThey're Lying: The Media, The Left, and The Death of George Floyd - by Liz Collin (Lt. Bob Kroll's wife)https://thelieexposed.com/Lt. Col. Dave Grossman - Books, Newsletter, Presentations, Shop, Sheepdogshttps://grossmanontruth.com/Sheriff David Clarke - Videos, Commentary, Podcast, Shop, Newsletterhttps://americassheriff.com/Content Partners:Red Voice Media - Real News, Real Reportinghttps://www.redvoicemedia.com/shows/leo/ThisIsButter - One of the BEST law enforcement video channelshttps://rumble.com/user/ThisIsButterThe Free Press - LEO Round Table is in their Cops and Crimes section 5 days a weekhttps://www.tampafp.com/https://www.tampafp.com/category/cops-and-crime/Video Show Schedule On All Outlets:http://leoroundtable.com/home/syndication/Syndicated Radio Schedule:http://leoroundtable.com/radio/syndicated-radio-stations/Sponsors:Galls - Proud to serve America's public safety professionalshttps://www.galls.com/leoCompliant Technologies - Cutting-edge non-lethal tools to empower and protect those who servehttps://www.complianttechnologies.net/The International Firearm Specialist Academy - The New Standard for Firearm Knowledgehttps://www.gunlearn.com/Aero Precision - "When Precision Counts”https://www.aeroprecisionusa.com/MyMedicare.live - save money in Medicare insurance options from the expertshttp://www.mymedicare.live/

In this conversation, Chase Brown discusses his experiences with gambling, particularly focusing on betting on table tennis. He humorously reflects on his strategies, wins, and losses, while also touching on the addictive nature of gambling. The conversation then transitions into a recap of the anime 'Chainsaw Man', specifically episodes 3 and 4, where themes of friendship, loyalty, and the struggles of the characters are explored. The discussion highlights the absurdity and excitement of both gambling and the anime's plot. In this segment of the conversation, the discussion revolves around the dynamics between characters in 'Chainsaw Man', particularly focusing on the breach of contract, daily life interactions, emotional depth, and the political implications of devils. The characters' motivations, betrayals, and the introduction of the Bat Devil are explored, highlighting the complexity of their relationships and the overarching themes of manipulation and control. In this conversation, Chase Brown delves into the intricate dynamics of characters in 'Chainsaw Man,' particularly focusing on the epic battles, moral dilemmas, and the evolving relationships between Denji, Power, and Aki. The discussion highlights the transformation of Power, the contrasting personalities of Denji and Power, and the deeper themes of dreams and sacrifices within the devil hunter world. The conversation culminates in a humorous yet profound ending that reflects on the nature of power dynamics and control. takeaways Gambling can create a false sense of increased chances of winning. Betting on obscure sports like table tennis can be entertaining. The thrill of gambling often overshadows the risks involved. Character names can influence betting decisions in a humorous way. The conversation shifts from gambling to anime seamlessly. Chainsaw Man explores deep themes of friendship and loyalty. The absurdity of betting on table tennis reflects a larger commentary on gambling culture. The stakes in both gambling and anime can lead to unexpected outcomes. Humor plays a significant role in discussing serious topics like addiction. The recap of Chainsaw Man highlights character development and plot progression. They abandoned their approved area, a big breach of contract. Aki's daily routine reveals character dynamics. Power's emotional attachment to her cat shows depth. Denji's motivations are often juvenile and self-serving. Makima's control over characters is chilling and powerful. The devils' power is based on the fear they instill. Power's betrayal highlights her self-serving nature. Denji's instincts are strong despite his lack of intellect. The political implications of devils are significant. The introduction of the Bat Devil adds complexity to the narrative. The action scenes in 'Chainsaw Man' are both creative and meaningful. Power's character development shows her moral dilemmas and growth. Denji and Power share a complex dynamic that reveals their similarities. The fight scenes highlight Denji's motivations beyond just physical desires. Aki's disciplined nature contrasts sharply with Denji's chaotic personality. The concept of dreams and sacrifices is central to the characters' motivations. Power's cat-like traits are cleverly woven into her character design. The relationship between devils and humans raises questions about morality. Machima's control over characters reflects broader themes of power dynamics. The humor in the series often masks deeper emotional truths. timestamp00:40:22 titles Betting on Table Tennis: A Gambler's Tale From Gambling to Chainsaw Man: A Wild Ride The Addictive Nature of Betting and Anime Exploring the Absurdity of Gambling Chainsaw Man: A Deep Dive into Episodes 3 and 4 The Thrill of the Bet: Table Tennis Edition Gambling Strategies and Anime Recaps A Journey Through Betting and Chainsaw Man The Intersection of Gambling and Anime Culture Understanding Addiction Through Humor and Storytelling Breach of Contract and Unlikely Alliances Character Dynamics and Daily Life Sound Bites "I feel like the more I play, the more my chances increase." "I am Brad Pitt in this situation." "I won $216 just because I kept playing." "It's really not as great as they would seem." "You have a problem." "I don't watch these people." "Profit is profit." "Why did you save me after I attempted to kill you?" "A big breach of contract." "What a dismal abode you have here!" "I'm the type who seldom chooses to bathe." "Fondle away!" "This episode was pretty sick, man." "Power is just a bloodthirsty fiend." "Power's emotional side is starting to show." "Denji is the least intelligent of the group." "The devils' power is based on fear." "The Bat Devil is a cool ass villain." "It was badass, too, man." "Denji realizes, sympathizes with her." "Think about how powerful Machima must be." "Every life is equally trivial." "Power is literally a cat." "This is like something out of 50 fucking shades of gray." Chapters 00:00 The Thrill of Gambling 10:03 The World of Table Tennis Betting 14:09 Chainsaw Man Recap: Episodes 3 and 4 31:17 The Aftermath of the Bat Devil Encounter 40:22 Breach of Contract and Unlikely Alliances 44:11 Character Dynamics and Daily Life 51:29 Power's Betrayal and Emotional Depth 01:00:51 Intellectual Dynamics and Manipulation 01:06:59 The Political Landscape and Devil Control 01:13:09 The Bat Devil and Thematic Connections 01:21:13 Epic Battles and Character Dynamics 01:24:06 Power's Transformation and Moral Dilemmas 01:26:59 Contrasting Personalities: Denji and Power 01:30:21 The Nature of Devils and Human Qualities 01:35:30 Dreams and Sacrifices in the Devil Hunter World 01:41:09 Aki's Discipline and the Cost of Power 01:44:02 Team Dynamics and Loyalty 01:48:44 Power's Cat-Like Nature and Aki's Routine 01:51:57 Power Dynamics and Control 01:53:48 The Climax: A Humorous Yet Profound Ending  

Stacy and Daynah dive deep into Lily Allen's surprise divorce album, the internet-meltdown question of “Do I Have to Hate David Harbour Now?” and why pop culture feels so personal when the celebrity in question is someone we've all invited into our living rooms via Stranger Things. They discuss the album's storytelling, the public fascination with Harbour's alleged behavior, and the broader cultural work of women telling the truth about betrayal. And because they contain multitudes, you'll also find Beyoncé references, dental anxiety, and all the good-bad TV they're watching. 0:00 | Popcorn upgrades, dental chaos & anxiety 5:00 | Buccaneers, anachronisms & period-piece comfort 10:00 | Lily Allen's album, David Harbour & the pop-culture spiral 15:00 | Betrayal, storytelling & why this record hits differently 20:00 | Music style, comparisons & where it lands culturally 25:00 | Red flags, negging & the Harbour discourse 30:00 | Gaslighting, boundaries & self-centering 35:00 | Open marriage rules, cheating & accountability 38:00 | Healing arcs, final track reflections 41:00 | What we're watching next Find Stacy: ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠realeverything.com⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠ ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠instagram.com/realstacytoth⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠ ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠missionmakersart.com⁠⁠⁠ ⁠⁠⁠missionalchemists.com⁠⁠ Thanks to our sponsor: ⁠CozyEarth.com⁠ | Use code WHOLELIFE to get up to 40% off Learn more about your ad choices. Visit megaphone.fm/adchoices

This week, Missy and Kaitlyn are diving into their betrayal lists, all the things (big, small, and absolutely ridiculous) that have wronged them lately. From everyday annoyances to unexpected plot twists, nothing is safe from making the list! They also answer the ultimate question: If their life had a theme song that played every time they walked into a room, what would it be? Expect bold choices, unconventional reasoning, and plenty of laughter. And of course, they wrap it all up with their favorite segment: Things to Influence, the current obsessions, recs, and must-shares you're definitely going to want to try. It's chaotic, relatable, and a whole lot of fun. Hit play and get betrayed with us!

This week, our team is taking a holiday break, and we’re re-releasing a listener favorite, Bernie Pt 1 & Pt 2. Bernie Brown met a charming man from a powerful UK family. Their romance had to stay secret. But Bernie would soon learn the real secret was far more dangerous. If you would like to reach out to the Betrayal Team, email us at betrayalpod@gmail.com and follow us on Instagram at @betrayalpod To access our newsletter and additional content and to connect with the Betrayal community, join our Substack at betrayal.substack.com. See omnystudio.com/listener for privacy information.

If YOU'RE ready to make real, sustainable change in your life, jump on a free call with us - https://physiquedevelopment.typeform.com/to/ToP9TYLEIf you're listening to this one, it's probably because your digestion is... Well, not great.In this Fit Bit, Coach Mia walks you through her "Digestion Betrayal List"—the simple, often-overlooked habits that could be working against your gut. From fiber and water intake to protein, stress, and sleep, she breaks down how small foundational shifts can dramatically improve digestion—without fancy supplements or extra spending. Because better digestion isn't about doing more, it's about doing the right things consistently.As always, it is our goal not only to supply you, the listener, with valuable insights on the topics or questions but also to plant some seeds for further research and thought. Be sure to like and subscribe and leave us a review if you loved this episode!Connect with Coach Mia & Team PD:Coach Mia: https://www.instagram.com/mia.fergusonPhysique Development: https://www.instagram.com/physiquedevelopment_Physique Development Podcast: https://www.instagram.com/physiquedevelopmentpodcastInquire to work with Team PD: https://physiquedevelopment.typeform.com/to/ToP9TYLEHave questions or comments for us? Submit them here - https://forms.gle/AEu5vMKNLDfmc24M7Check out our FREE 4-Week Glute Program - https://bit.ly/podcastglutesAnd keep the gains rolling with 12 MORE weeks of glute growth (use code POD at checkout for $25 off!) - https://train.physiquedevelopment.com/workout-plans/963551Looking to hire the last coach you'll ever need? Apply here - https://physiquedevelopment.typeform.com/to/ToP9TYLEInterested in competition prep? Apply here - https://physiquedevelopment.typeform.com/to/Ii2UNAFor more videos, articles, and information, head to - https://physiquedevelopment.comIf you would like to support Physique Development and this podcast, please head over to your favorite podcast app and leave us a rating and review! This goes a long way in supporting this podcast and helps us continue to bring high-quality, honest content to you in the form of a podcast. Thank you for listening and we will see you all next time!----Produced by: David Margittai | In Post MediaWebsite: https://www.inpostmedia.comEmail: david@inpostmedia.com© 2025, Physique Development LLC. All rights reserved.

Holiday triggers after infidelity are real—and they can feel overwhelming. In this episode, Lisa Limehouse breaks down why the holiday season intensifies betrayal trauma and exactly how to navigate emotional landmines like gatherings, memories, music, traditions, and unexpected sensory triggers. You'll learn the three types of holiday triggers, what's happening in your nervous system when they hit, and a step-by-step plan to stay grounded, connected, and safe—no matter what the holiday environment brings. Lisa also walks couples through real-time regulation tools, communication scripts, and a simple “Holiday Trigger Prevention Plan” to help you move through the season with clarity and compassion. Whether you're the betrayed spouse struggling to hold it together or the unfaithful spouse trying to support well, this episode gives you the practical, Christ-centered guidance you need to reclaim emotional stability and protect your healing journey during one of the most triggering times of the year. :: NEXT STEPS: HOW TO THRIVE THROUGH THE HOLIDAYS AFTER BETRAYAL MINI COURSE MARRIAGE REDESIGNED PROGRAM  Schedule your MARRIAGE REDESIGNED FREE CONSULT  Join our Beauty Beyond Betrayal Sisterhood:   Healing from an affair: Heartbreak Recovery for Christian Women Grab your Free Ebook:   Broken Vows: Begin healing from the devastation of betrayal Email:   info@lisalimehouse.com WEBSITE:  www.lisalimehouse.com Got a question you want answered?  ASK HERE  

Are you afraid of failing—or of living small? In this micro-dose we name the fear beneath fear: the unlived life. Learn why comfort competes with calling, how self-betrayal shows up as anxiety and numbness, and the simple end-of-life exercise that cuts through excuses.You'll learnWhy “failure” isn't the real fear (irreversibility is)How self-sabotage masks as safety3 moves to shift: Grieve • Forgive • ActChapters 0:00 The fear beneath fear 2:00 Gift/Calling/Purpose 5:30 Self-betrayal signals 8:00 The reckoning 12:00 The 80-year-old questionFollow: IG: @HigherDensityLiving | Web: https://www.higherdensityliving.com/If this helped, rate + review to support the show.

Investigative journalist Jeff Wicks joins John Maytham to chat about VusiMusi “Cat” Matlala’s testimony at the Police Adhoc Committee. Presenter John Maytham is an actor and author-turned-talk radio veteran and seasoned journalist. His show serves a round-up of local and international news coupled with the latest in business, sport, traffic and weather. The host’s eclectic interests mean the program often surprises the audience with intriguing book reviews and inspiring interviews profiling artists. A daily highlight is Rapid Fire, just after 5:30pm. CapeTalk fans call in, to stump the presenter with their general knowledge questions. Another firm favourite is the humorous Thursday crossing with award-winning journalist Rebecca Davis, called “Plan B”. Thank you for listening to a podcast from Afternoon Drive with John Maytham Listen live on Primedia+ weekdays from 15:00 and 18:00 (SA Time) to Afternoon Drive with John Maytham broadcast on CapeTalk https://buff.ly/NnFM3Nk For more from the show go to https://buff.ly/BSFy4Cn or find all the catch-up podcasts here https://buff.ly/n8nWt4x Subscribe to the CapeTalk Daily and Weekly Newsletters https://buff.ly/sbvVZD5 Follow us on social media: CapeTalk on Facebook: https://www.facebook.com/CapeTalk CapeTalk on TikTok: https://www.tiktok.com/@capetalk CapeTalk on Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/ CapeTalk on X: https://x.com/CapeTalk CapeTalk on YouTube: https://www.youtube.com/@CapeTalk567 See omnystudio.com/listener for privacy information.

In this episode of the Let's Go Win Podcast, JM sits down with Jeanne Omlor, a solo parent who went from deep debt and total exhaustion to building a multi million dollar business without ads. Jeanne is a business strategist known for helping entrepreneurs grow through organic conversations, high clarity messaging, and disciplined action. She has supported nearly six hundred businesses in scaling online while keeping margins high and overhead low. This conversation digs into how Jeanne rebuilt her life through calculated risks, messy action, and total authenticity. She shares how a simple focus on organic outreach helped her generate a million dollars at a ninety two percent profit margin, why clarity beats tactics, and how to avoid the Point of Betrayal that erodes trust in online relationships. You will also hear her mindset principles for betting on yourself, choosing imperfect action, and building a lean team that moves fast. Key Takeaways: How Jeanne built a million dollar business without paid ads Why organic conversations can outperform funnels when done consistently The Point of Betrayal and why honesty will always be your strongest strategy How to drop perfectionism and embrace massive messy action What to look for when choosing a coach or program The structure of a lean, aligned team and where to leverage AI Practical steps to test your offer, improve your messaging, and grow today This episode is for entrepreneurs, coaches, creators, and anyone tired of overthinking their next move. If you want a low overhead, high margin path forward, or if you keep waiting to feel perfectly ready before taking action, Jeanne's story is the reset button you need. Her journey proves that clarity and bold execution can outperform resources, certifications, or fancy tactics. Listen in if you want to build something real, move faster, and stop rewriting your old chapters. Contact Jeanne: https://jeanneomlor.com Follow me on YouTube: https://www.youtube.com/@letsgowin   Hosted by Simplecast, an AdsWizz company. See pcm.adswizz.com for information about our collection and use of personal data for advertising.

The Superhero Show #608Cadillacs and Dinosaurs: Wild ChildThe Superhero Show: Wild Child — A Dangerous DiscoveryThis week on The Superhero Show, the hosts unpack Cadillacs and Dinosaurs episode 1.05, “Wild Child.” The adventure begins when Jack Tenrec and Hannah Dundee receive word of trouble at a nearby mine. Curious and cautious, they set out — and end up uncovering something extraordinary: a mysterious boy traveling with a pack of dinosaurs. The episode drags them into a conflict that tests their compassion, courage, and loyalty to both humanity and the Earth's ancient inhabitants.Into the Mines — A Strange New DiscoveryJack and Hannah arrive at the mining settlement after being summoned due to reports of disturbances. While investigating, they witness a bizarre and dangerous natural phenomenon: a herd of huge, prehistoric creatures stampeding toward them. When their Cadillac stalls at the edge of a cliff, things get tense fast — but then they spot it: a lone child among the beasts. This child emits a strange, high-pitched screech that causes the herd to veer away just in time. The moment sends a clear message: this is no ordinary human. The hosts note how chilling and mysterious that first reveal of the “wild child” feels, instantly shifting the tone from danger to wonder. randomhoohaas.flyingomelette.com+1The child passes as more than just a feral kid. Jack and Hannah — especially Hannah — are shaken by the boy's bond with the beasts and the suggestion that he may belong to the land more than to civilization. It raises ethical questions about trust, adaptation, and who really “owns” the Earth's wild creatures. randomhoohaas.flyingomelette.com+1Rescue Mission, Betrayal — and the Poachers' InterestAs Jack continues investigating the mine's problems (a wounded creature stealing food supplies), Hannah sneaks off to try to rescue the boy. She finds him injured, perched on a cliff, under threat from a predatory “zeke.” With resourcefulness, she uses a vine to descend, confronts the danger, and rescues the child — proving that compassion and courage matter in this harsh world. randomhoohaas.flyingomelette.comMeanwhile, Jack sets a trap: luring the wounded creature with crates of fruit, hoping to heal it rather than kill it. His plan works — until members of a poacher gang, led by the ruthless Hammer Terhune, notice the wild child's unique gift: he can communicate with dinosaurs (“slithers”). Hammer realizes how dangerous — and profitable — that gift could be. randomhoohaas.flyingomelette.com+1Hannah insists on bringing the child back to civilization for care, but Jack argues that the boy belongs to the wild. Their clash underscores the show's recurring theme of humanity vs. nature. The tension escalates when poachers burst into the city to hunt the child — and they're more determined than ever to catch him. randomhoohaas.flyingomelette.com+1A Daring Escape and the True Home of the Wild ChildAs danger closes in, the wild child's bond with the dinosaurs comes...

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If you've been asking yourself, “Why am I still suffering after betrayal?”, this episode is for you. Most people think they're drowning because the pain is too big. But the real reason you're stuck isn't the pain itself… It's the suffering your mind is unintentionally creating on top of it. In today's episode, Luke breaks down the crucial difference between discomfort (the natural emotional pain of betrayal) and suffering (the mental loops, fear-based stories, and catastrophic thoughts that keep you stuck). You'll learn exactly why betrayal creates so much mental noise, why you can't “think your way out” of it, and how to finally stop adding suffering to pain you're already strong enough to survive. If you're tired of feeling overwhelmed, anxious, and trapped in your thoughts, this episode will show you why you're suffering and how to stop. Key Takeaways Discomfort = the honest, human pain of betrayal. Suffering = the mental stories you add on top of the pain. Discomfort moves. Suffering loops. Betrayal triggers the nervous system — making suffering feel inevitable. Your mind fills uncertainty with worst-case scenarios to feel “safe.” You can't avoid discomfort, but you can avoid suffering. Learning the difference changes everything. If you're stuck in suffering, not because you're weak, but because nobody taught you how to separate pain from interpretation, coaching can help. Inside The After the Affair Collective and through one-to-one coaching, Luke teaches you how to stop the mental loops that keep you stuck and build a calmer, clearer, more grounded recovery. Start your next chapter at lifecoachluke.com Or reach out directly, you don't have to do this alone. Connect with Luke: Website: www.lifecoachluke.com Instagram: @mylifecoachluke Email: luke@lifecoachluke.com

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Jonathan Alvarez grew up in Yonkers, New York, where his life was shaped by loss and survival from an early age. At just 10 years old, his father was sent to federal prison and deported for drug trafficking — leaving Jonathan to fend for himself. By 12, he was selling drugs on the streets, and by 17, he was indicted on a gang-related murder charge that led to nearly 13 years behind bars. But prison didn't break him — it transformed him. #LockedInWithIanBick #PrisonStories #TrueCrime #GangLife #NewYorkPrisons #SurvivingPrison #RedemptionStory #realstories Thank you to RULA, CASH APP & PELIPOST for sponsoring this episode: Rula: Rula patients typically pay $15 per session when using insurance. Connect with quality therapists and mental health experts who specialize in you at https://www.rula.com/LOCKEDIN  #rulapod Cash App: Download Cash App Today: https://click.cash.app/ui6m/6pao71et #CashAppPod Cash App is a financial services platform, not a bank. Banking services provided by Cash App's bank partner(s). Prepaid debit cards issued by Sutton Bank, Member FDIC. See terms and conditions at cash.app/legal/us/en-us/card-agreement. Promotions provided by Cash App, a Block, Inc. brand. Visit cash.app/legal/podcast for full disclosures. Pelipost: Go to pelipost.com and use code LOCKEDIN at checkout. Connect with Jonathan Alvarez: https://linktr.ee/JO_Envisioned Hosted, Executive Produced & Edited By Ian Bick: https://www.instagram.com/ian_bick/?hl=en https://ianbick.com/ Shop Locked In Merch: http://www.ianbick.com/shop Timestamps: 00:00 – A Violent Night That Changed Everything 00:55 – Introducing Jonathan Alvarez & His Redemption Story 01:16 – Jonathan's Mission Today & the Creation of 914 United 01:54 – Growing Up: Neighborhood, Family Struggles & Early Loss 03:50 – Living Without a Father & the Impact on Identity 05:57 – Early Exposure to Street Life & Negative Influences 07:35 – School Troubles, Suspensions & Getting Expelled 09:00 – Teen Hustling, Survival & Early Criminal Behavior 10:35 – Getting Kicked Out & Slipping Deeper Into the Streets 12:01 – Friendships, Brotherhood & Gang Affiliation 13:32 – First Crimes, Police Encounters & Warning Signs 15:40 – Street Violence, Chaos & Police Brutality Experiences 17:47 – The Life-Changing Incident That Set Everything in Motion 20:35 – The Night of the Homicide: What Really Happened 25:03 – The Aftermath: Panic, Fear & the Arrest 28:25 – Facing the Evidence, Court Reality & Hard Truths 31:20 – Understanding the Consequences & Legal Pressure 33:49 – Jail at 17: Violence, Fear & Jailhouse Justice 37:14 – Taking a Plea Deal & Sentencing as a Teen 40:47 – Looking Back: Lost Relationships & Lost Time 42:16 – Regret, Reflection & Navigating Prison Culture 44:28 – Betrayal, Fights & Surviving Jail Conflicts 48:23 – Entering State Prison: Shock, Violence & Adaptation 52:33 – Comstock Prison: Extreme Violence, Reality & Survival 57:01 – Trust, Loyalty & Prison Camaraderie 01:01:10 – Family Connections + Unexpected Prison Encounters 01:05:09 – Marriage, Divorce & Maintaining Relationships in Prison 01:10:52 – College in Prison: Growth, Focus & New Purpose 01:14:21 – Coming Home: Reentry Challenges & Rebuilding Life 01:18:46 – Making Peace with the Past & Finding Purpose 01:19:51 – From Prison to Community Leader: Youth Impact Work 01:23:41 – Uniting Different Backgrounds to Create Change 01:25:03 – Final Reflections & Advice for the Next Generation Learn more about your ad choices. Visit megaphone.fm/adchoices