How Should I Know

Every night is the same, I clean up and then I put my show on. It's in the name of "relaxation" but I feel like I'm just mindlessly walking through life watching....scrolling....buying.... This is my episode sharing my struggle of distracting and numbing myself and what I am working through so I can truly experience the life I'm living.

I am struggling with the idea of.... why vulnerability? What are my motives? My reasons? We all know I love to wear my heart on my sleeve but do we (or even I) know why?!!? Well here is my episode exploring my motives and also my reasoning for vulnerability. I come to the conclusion that it's pretty important & helpful for our world. This episode is short & sweet - I hope you enjoy!

This is a good one! In this episode I talk to my brother and sister in law about their journeys - from being single to marriage. We talk about their experience in the church and how dating apps, sex, and porn have impacted them. This is a very vulnerable episode, if you crave real and raw conversations about these things this is for you! Sit back, relax, and enjoy the chaos.

Bah! I've been insecure for most of my life and this episode is my tell all. I share my experience, why I've been so insecure, and how I'm trying to work through it. Listen as I grapple with where my value comes from and how I'm trying to detach my worth from other people's opinions of me. :) If you've dealt with insecurity this episode will hopefully encourage you and remind you of your deep worth!

If you struggle in your relationship with food you are truly not alone! Tash is back and shares all about her eating journey in this episode. We talk about societal messages, experiencing food as we should, and how to view ourselves (as grown a** women!). Hopefully this episode is encouraging, because while the struggle is still *very* real, exposing the lies we hear about food and our bodies is the first step to healing and growth.

Imagine you're sitting in my living room just chatting away, there's good vibes and good conversation. Well, you don't have to imagine because that's what this episode is! Listen in as my siblings and I talk through deep topics like rest and productivity, but also silly ones, like cheese bags! There's no way of knowing where the conversation will go and that's the thrill of it! So, sit back (hopefully in your living room) and enjoy.

Who are we and how the heck do we figure it out? I'm discussing the ins and outs of identity - from what helps us understand who we are to the harmful ways we label ourselves. I share my own experience trying to figure out who I am in an effort to encourage those struggling with this themselves. Take a listen!

How do we approach suffering? Listen as I share what I've been learning about how we understand pain while following Jesus. The answer is less cookie cutter than you may think and has to do with a lot of grace, honesty, and real talk with our God!

If you've ever wondered about what postpartum anxiety and postpartum depression are, this episode is your tell all! I talk with my cousin Renata about her experience with it and she gets vulnerable. Renata also shares about getting help, from therapy and medication to friendships. We talk about misconceptions and how Jesus cares for us, including our mental health. This episode sheds some serious light on a very real struggle. Even if you haven't experienced this, you probably know someone who has, so hopefully this episode can inform and encourage! 

Oh oh! I'm talking girlbossing and not how you might think! Girlbossing is more than "hot girl walks" and it creates a lotttt of shame. It's also in the christian world! Listen as I share how this movement has seeped in to the pews. I do have a vulnerable moment though where I work through the nuance of pursuing personal growth while still depending on Christ. Take a listen if you've felt the pressure to girl boss your way through life!

Talking with my good (long distance) pal Chantal on the pod about long distance friendships! Makes sense, right? This episode covers the pitfalls these friendships usually run into, like the all or nothing mindset or the potential obstacle social media creates. It's not all bad news bears though, Chantal and I talk about how we've been able to remain dear friends for so long while living in different countries (9 years people!) If you have friendos living somewhere else, this one is for you!

This is a *slightly* embarrassing episode but v important. Listen as I talk about the struggle I've had with contentment my whole life. I liken discontentment to poison and share how I deal with this sneaky little attitude so that it doesn't ruin my life, relationships, and basically everything around me. :)  

I'm talking to my girl Tash! And we're talking alllll about modesty culture - from infinity scarves to sexy ankles. We focus on the harmful messaging modesty culture has had on young christian women, how respecting one another has to come from the heart, and what scripture says about it all. Tash gets real about the impact modesty culture has had on her life, even to this day. This episode is juicy in the best ways and you're not going to want to miss it!  Link to Relevant Article: https://relevantmagazine.com/life5/dont-blame-your-lack-of-self-control-on-what-shes-wearing-2/

I'm getting spicy about everything that bothers me about New Years - from harmful diets to comparison and discontentment. I do consider the helpful parts of the holiday though, and conclude that instagram reels aren't the worst ever.

Body Image is hard! For all of us!! Listen as I talk with my gal pals Aurora and Sarah about this hot topic. We get vulnerable about our own body images and the impact childhood has had on us. We also try to encourage each other on how to deal with the hard days and share about learning to love ourselves. This episode is raw and real, with the hopes of normalizing struggle but encouraging all you cuties!

Finally an episode for us people pleasers!!! This is one of my top struggles so I thought I'd get real about it. I share my people pleasing origin story (which involves a McDonald's playplace) and what it has taken for me to change my ways. This is NOT a how to episode, more of a how to not episode. :)

I have another guest, Jess Wang! Jess and I talk all things communication in marriage - about how saying you never fight isn't as great as some people think, how scheduling intimacy can be beneficial, and how to get ahead of conflict by asking some v simple questions. If you're married, or even just curious about marriage struggles, this is the episode for you :) Resources: How Not to Hate Your Husband After Kids by Jancee Dunn To Have and To Hold: Motherhood, Marriage, and the Modern Dilemma by Molly Millwood Small Things Often Podcast  Jess Wang's Instagram @_jesswang

I'm getting vulnerable about faith ya'll. In this episode I talk performative religion, current struggles, and how I'm dealing with doubt. While this episode is definitely intense, you will hear struggles talked about in a raw and real way. You don't have to have faith to listen to this episode, just spotify ;)

This week I have my first guest - Sarah Poole! In this episode, Sarah shares vulnerably about her experience with singleness. She talks about her past relationships (including the ideal breakup, which involves ice cream), how Christmas movies lie to us, and how she wishes we wouldn't treat the word marriage as a swear word. This is a valuable conversation for all to listen to, single and married, cuz' this girl lays down some real wisdom.

GUYSSSS IM BACK. Listen to me explain why I am once again attempting to start a podcast (third times the charm people), what you can expect from this pod, and how I want YOU to be involved. I also share some very cringey fun facts about myself, even though nobody (NOBODY) asked.