Emotion referring to the thoughts and feelings of insecurity, fear, and envy over relative lack of possessions, status or something of great personal value
Ignite Your Confidence with Karen Laos
There I was, in a yoga class, working hard to configure myself into the instructed pose. I glanced at the woman beside me in awe: how is she doing that with her body? Wow. At first, I was immediately jealous. Then, I was inspired. I want to be able to do that! Can you relate? Learn how I was able to pivot from jealousy to inspiration and get four practical tips on how you can do the same.Tangible Takeaways:Comparing ourselves to others is normal. Have grace for yourself. Be careful that you don't live in jealousy. Use comparison for inspiration to be a better version of you.Be content and celebrate the things that you already have and enjoy them! If you can't enjoy the things that you have, you're always going to be wanting something better or different.Recognize that underneath envy or jealousy is a longing. Your job is to be more curious about your longing versus having a pity party.Success does not happen overnight, and it is not usually handed to anybody on a platter. It is something that we earn. So when you feel envy for someone else's success, remember: they've probably earned it.Name what you want that they have, follow that up and ask: are you willing to do what it takes to get there too?Claim your dreams as if they're already true! Once you have your goal, create a tangible action plan. Break things down into actionable steps and go for it. Success is built on the back of a million small things!About me:Karen Laos, Communication Expert and Confidence Cultivator, leverages 25 years in the boardroom and speaking on the world's most coveted stages such as Google and NASA to transform missed opportunities into wins. She is fiercely committed to her mission of eradicating self-doubt in 10 million women by giving them practical strategies to ask for what they want in the boardroom and beyond. She guides corporations and individuals with her tested communication model to generate consistent results through her Leadership Presence Keynote: How to Be an Influential Communicator. Connect with me:Website: https://www.karenlaos.com/Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/karenlaosofficial Facebook: Ignite Your Confidence with Karen Laos: https://www.facebook.com/groups/karenlaosconsultingLinkedIn: https://www.linkedin.com/in/karenlaos/Clubhouse: @karenlaosEpisodes also available on YouTube:https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCEwQoTGdJX5eME0ccBKiKng/videosMy book “Trust Your Own Voice”: https://karenlaos.com/book/
Liz and Tom are on holidays (and by holidays, we mean busy making delish new contentfor you all) In the meantime, enjoy an encore release of this fan fave episode!Today's show starts off fairly regularly. A delightful evening with a lovely lady, dinner and then eventually heading to the bedroom... Somehow chaos follows. Including weighing up jumping out of a bedroom window! Have a listen to see if and how our guest survives!Relevant links: Available on iTunes, Spotify, Stitcher, Radio Public and wherever good podcasts are found.Follow Ghosts of Boyfriends Past on Facebook https://www.facebook.com/Boyfriendspastpodcast/, Instagram https://www.instagram.com/ghostsofboyfriendspastand Twitter (twitter.com/boyfriendspast).If you find yourself laughing along at our dumb stories or sympathizing with the pain of heartbreak and love fails, don't forget to rate, review and subscribe!Subscribe to us on ITUNES, STITCHER, SPOTIFY, RADIOPUBLIC or your podcatcher of choice.Find us on FACEBOOK, TWITTER or INSTAGRAM. Hosted on Acast. See acast.com/privacy for more information.
Two Chicks Talkin Flicks Podcast: A Film Review Podcast
Hello everyone, we did record an episode but we are waiting till next week to release it. So here is an OG Give me a Bake episode that I'm sure most of you have not heard. This was episode 3 on our other podcast. We just didn't have the time to do both. If you enjoy the episode let us know and maybe we can add it to our normal schedule. Bon appetite! Support the showWe are trying out a new format so let us know how you like it. Like subscribe and leave us a review. 5 stars makes us feel fabulous! You can find more witty commentary on all our favorite movies at Two Chicks Talkin Flicks Email firstname.lastname@example.org Twitter @2chicksNFlicks Instagram @twochickstalkinflicks https://linktr.ee/Twochickstalkinflicks https://www.buzzsprout.com/1326058
Ordinary People Extraordinary Things
Bridgette is the sister of famous actors Candace Cameron Bure & Kirk Cameron. - We talk about what happens when God makes you wait for your dreams to come true. - How does it feel when someone you love gets the job you want?Bridgette candidly talks about waiting on God's calling & purpose.
This week Jamo reviews mouth taping, soccer star turned drug dealer, babies vs adults in a fight for half a million dollars, we answer your questions from Instagram, the Amish of Tasmania, Dylan's work excuses, your juicy breakup stories, a bet wetting boyfriend and a special appearance from the one and only... Josh Rognetta. Enjoy xx Jamo & Dylan AIR FRESHENERS Click to buy ^^ (ON SALE $10 ONLY) BOOK US ON CAMEO https://www.cameo.com/jamoanddylan Subscribe to us for weekly poddies, we speak our minds and are not afraid to confront controversial topics. Rate our Poddy 5* ALSO AVAILABLE on YouTube with video. Follow our SOCIALS: https://www.instagram.com/jamoanddylanhttps://www.instagram.com/jamolennon https://www.instagram.com/dylan.saccomannoSee omnystudio.com/listener for privacy information.
A theme? Jealous men tend to do stupid things... Pam: A South Cali town was shocked when a handless, headless corpse was found in a ravine in 1946. Police suspected an out-of-towner until one of their own started to act really suspicious when his wife "ran away with some truck driver". Sources:MurderpediaGeorgepallas.comPodcast - Morbid - Ep 299 - The Horrific Murder of Dorothy EggersRonda: When the millennial hippie, Haley Anderson, drops off the map her friends use the Find My Friends app to locate her. This set off a chain of events that had the District attorney in the case grinding his teeth every time he heard the phrase “dual citizenship.” Sources: YouTube —> The Murder of Haley Anderson— 48 Hours Wikipedia Press ConnectsDaily MailDaily Mail (2) Music: Big Foot by Gvidon on Pixabay (Go check it out!)
When God Gets Jealous - Zechariah 8 - Pastor Dave McMullin
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Today we visit r/ProRevenge where OP ruins a financial opportunity for his former landlord many years down the road by an opportunity of fate.Check us out on YouTube! https://youtube.com/@kcc
Please be aware that tonight's episode includes a procedure for determining if a wife has been unfaithful. In today's world, it seems inappropriate. I will always put an asterisk* next to titles that may have content concerns.Welcome to Bible Bedtime. Tonight I will read Numbers 5-6. After that, I will read from Proverbs and finish with the Lord's Prayer.Our email is BibleBedtimePodcast@gmail.com, or you can join us on Facebook! Get bonus content on PatreonSupport this show http://supporter.acast.com/biblebedtime. While there is no expectation of your support, if you feel led to bless me with a small contribution in any amount, it would mean the world to me. Your gift will help offset the costs of producing and distributing Bible Bedtime worldwide. You can leave a love offering at https://plus.acast.com/s/biblebedtime. Hosted on Acast. See acast.com/privacy for more information.
Lopez is jealous of the way the Panthers are handling Young vs the way the Texans are using Stroud, agree or disagree?
ITL Hour 2: Lopez is jealous of the way the Panthers are handling Young vs the way the Texans are using Stroud, agree or disagree? Local athletes that went from cooked to cooking, the Hollywood Crib to buy. A funeral, alleged boredom and more.
Naughty But Nice with Rob Shuter
Tina Turner's rep confirmed that she passed away after a long illness in her home near Zurich, Switzerland. A rep for the Duke and Duchess of Sussex addressed claims that the car chase incident was for publicity. Joe Jonas cried when he learned that his brother Nick, 30, had been hired as a coach on The Voice. Rob is joined by the charming Marc Lupo. Don't forget to vote in today's poll on Twitter at @naughtynicerob or in our Facebook group.See omnystudio.com/listener for privacy information.
Manton and Daniel recap Micro Camp 2023 and look forward to WWDC, including events from John Gruber and Try Swift. Then they wrap up with how Daniel's 50%-off sale for MarsEdit went. The post Episode 559: I’m A Little Jealous appeared first on Core Intuition.
The Jonas Brothers can get jealous of each other , so Morning Mixers confessed why they're jealous of their siblings. Post Malone says he gets his best ideas while on the toilet, so we heard your best thoughts. We took a poll on whether you carry or wear a bag. Learn more about your ad choices. Visit megaphone.fm/adchoices
Kai got his wife (Nina episode #604) into the swinger/hotwife lifestyle and he called in to talk all about it. When did his wife become a hotwife? How did he get he into it? And, what does he love most about it? Tune in for all the details including how his wife first started talking about other guys and how he was very jealous at first, how his jealousy became a turn on how and why he initially kept it a secret, how he started googling to educate himself on hotwifing, how and why he realized he was stag instead of cuck, how he first told his wife he was turned on by thoughts of her with other guys and how she reacted at first, their first trip to an adult theater and exactly what went down, how they found their first bull, the rules they had set up, how and why she plays with other guys solo, the two guys she hooked up with on tinder and why they weren't that great, the threesome they had with a couple at a swingers club and exactly what went down, how ad why their reclaiming sex is so great, how hotwifing has improved their sex life and all the new things they do now that they opened their relationships, her gangbang fantasy and how he feels about it, why they started an Onlyfans and what she does on there, how he wants her to hook up with one of her Onlyfans and how she feels about it, her first experience with a BBC and how they taped it for her Onlyfans, how he feels about guys who are “bigger” than him and what his wife prefers plus a whole lot more. You can find her on OnlyFans here: https://onlyfans.com/asnvixen **To see anonymous pics of KAI'S WIFE NINA + pic of my other female guests + gain access to my PRIVATE Discord channel where people get super naughty + get early access to all episodes + hear anonymous confessions, + gain access to my Discord channel, join my Patreon. It's only $5 a month and you can cancel at any time. You can sign up here: https://www.patreon.com/StrictlyAnonymousPodcast Want to be on the show? Email me at email@example.com or go to http://www.strictlyanonymouspodcast.com and click on "Be on the Show" Have something quick you want to confesss? Call the hotline at 347-420-3579. Want a private convo with me that won't be aired on the show? All calls are private, confidential and anonymous. Click here: https://calendly.com/strictlyanonymouspodcast/45min Sponsors: Get up to 90% off + A Free Gift RexMD with my exclusive link -> https://rexmd.com/STRICTLY ! Follow me! Instagram https://www.instagram.com/strictanonymous/ Twitter https://twitter.com/strictanonymous?lang=en Youtube https://www.youtube.com/c/StrictlyAnonymouspodcast Website http://www.strictlyanonymouspodcast.com Everything else https://linktr.ee/Strictlyanonymouspodcast Learn more about your ad choices. Visit megaphone.fm/adchoices
Ariana Madix: Tom Sandoval and Raquel Levies ‘Had Sex in My Guest Room While I Was Sleeping' Next Door (People) (16:57) ‘Jealous' Joe Jonas: I “Cried My Eyes Out' When Nick Got Job Instead of Me (Page Six) (23:34) Katy Perry Wants To Quit ‘American Idol' After Being Shown as ‘Nasty Judge': Report (Page Six) (29:58) ‘American Idol' 202 Winner Just Sam Says She's Back To Singing in NYC Subways (People) (39:49) Krispy Kreme Is Giving Away a Dozen Free Donuts to 2023 Graduates This Week (People) (47:22) Dear Toasters (51:57) The Toast with Jackie (@JackieOshry) and Claudia Oshry (@girlwithnojob) Merch The Toast Patreon Girl With No Job by Claudia Oshry
This episodes highlights that if at any point you felt that someone in your circle is jealous of you…..they probably are. Tune in to hear some of my experiences and why you should always listen to your body - it talks. Trust it.
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The Rev. Ryan Kleimola, pastor of Trinity Lutheran Church in Toledo, OH, joins the Rev. Dr. Phil Booe to study 1 Samuel 18. David and King Saul's son Jonathan became close friends. Following David's defeat of Goliath and recognizing his talent, Saul put him in charge of the fighting men. David became renowned for his military exploits, the people loved him, and YHWH was with him. As a result, King Saul became increasingly jealous of and hostile toward David. This chapter ends with David's marriage to Saul's daughter, Michal. The Book of 1 Samuel beings with the unique birth of Samuel, the last judge of Israel. Soon, the people of Israel begin to press upon the aging prophet Samuel to anoint a king over them like the other nations. YHWH assures Samuel that the people are rejecting their God, not Samuel. He advises Samuel to give the people what they want. What follows is the rise and fall of King Saul, the eventual anointing and coronation of David as king, the forerunner of Jesus. It's a true story of political intrigue and warfare, but it's also more than that. 1 Samuel shows us God working to save his people from their enemies and even from themselves.
Welcome to the Behind The Scenes podcast! Make sure you subscribe to our channel! This week we just vibed and spoke about the beauty of having a good friend in your life but also the pain of friendship heartbreak. Connect with us: TikTok: https://www.tiktok.com/@btspod_ Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/btspod_/ Twitter: https://mobile.twitter.com/btspod_ To send us a dilemma, please email: BTSPodcast00@gmail.com Different ways to watch/listen: https://linktr.ee/BTSpod_
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Dark Side of Wikipedia | True Crime & Dark History
These are some of the most compelling stories of the last week. New episodes Monday! Want to listen to ALL of our Podcasts Ad-Free? Subscribe through Apple Podcasts, and try it for 3 days free: https://tinyurl.com/ycw626tj Follow Our Other Cases: Hidden Killers With Tony Brueski (All Cases) - https://audioboom.com/channels/5040505-hidden-killers-with-tony-brueski-breaking-news-commentary Chad & Lori Daybell - https://audioboom.com/channels/5098105-demise-of-the-daybells-the-lori-chad-daybell-story The Murder of Ana Walshe - https://audioboom.com/channels/5093967-finding-ana-this-disappearance-of-ana-walshe Alex Murdaugh - https://audioboom.com/channels/5097527-the-trial-of-alex-murdaugh The Idaho Murders, The Case Against Bryan Kohberger - https://audioboom.com/channels/5098223-the-idaho-murders-the-case-against-bryan-kohberger Lucy Letby - https://audioboom.com/channels/5099406-nurse-of-death-the-lucy-letby-story
Jumbo Ep548 - 17.05.23 - Festival Time & Jealous BrettFestival Time, Jealous Brett, Still - Michael J Fox, Jewelry Fraud, Showbiz News, Big Question, PatreonsSupport me at:www.patreon.com/Jumbowww.buymeacoffee.com/jumbowww.jumbopodcast.comYou can listen on Spotify, Stitcher, Apple Podcasts, Spreaker and many others.#PodernFamily #Podcasts #SpotifyPodcasts #Applepodcasts
Dark Side of Wikipedia | True Crime & Dark History
In our latest episode, we delve into the tangled interpersonal dynamics within the Daybell family, focusing on whether Chad Daybell harbored jealousy over Lori Vallow Daybell's roleplaying activities with her brother. We dissect the complex relationships, the disturbing revelations, and the impact they may have had on the dire events that unfolded. The discussion explores the potential psychological implications and the possible influence it might have had on Chad Daybell's behavior. Tune in for a deep dive into this unsettling aspect of the Daybell family saga. Want to listen to ALL of our Podcasts Ad-Free? Subscribe through Apple Podcasts, and try it for 3 days free: https://tinyurl.com/ycw626tj Follow Our Other Cases: Hidden Killers With Tony Brueski (All Cases) - https://audioboom.com/channels/5040505-hidden-killers-with-tony-brueski-breaking-news-commentary Chad & Lori Daybell - https://audioboom.com/channels/5098105-demise-of-the-daybells-the-lori-chad-daybell-story The Murder of Ana Walshe - https://audioboom.com/channels/5093967-finding-ana-this-disappearance-of-ana-walshe Alex Murdaugh - https://audioboom.com/channels/5097527-the-trial-of-alex-murdaugh The Idaho Murders, The Case Against Bryan Kohberger - https://audioboom.com/channels/5098223-the-idaho-murders-the-case-against-bryan-kohberger Lucy Letby - https://audioboom.com/channels/5099406-nurse-of-death-the-lucy-letby-story
In today's video, I'm going to share five reasons why jealous behavior doesn't work. Read or watch below to learn about the top-5 reasons why jealous behavior doesn't work. Zachary Stockill: If you're struggling with any kind of irrational jealousy in your relationship or in your dating life, this can involve things like obsessive jealousy, […] The post Jealous Behavior DOESN'T Work: Here Are The Top-5 Reasons [VIDEO] appeared first on Overcoming Retroactive Jealousy.
Wisdom Unlocked: The Ways of God
Jealousy is bad, right? We are jealous when something we have is threatened by someone else. We envy when we wish we had something someone else has. So why is God jealous?. God doesn't need anything from us. The key comes from understanding that God isn't jealous of us, he's jealous for us. Episode notes available at Lionshare.org/podcast. Learn more about Lionshare's ministry at Lionshare.org Purchase books on discipleship and subscribe to teaching videos at Lionshare.org/store Download the Lionshare Leadership Group app for free video devotionals
Find out why Eddie is jealous of Bobby after he met someone at the ACM Awards! Plus, hear the strange text message Amy received from a worker going to her house and why it made her change her garage code! Then, after sharing a story about a girl who cut part of her knee to eat it, the show discusses if they would ever eat themselves if needed. Hear their answers!See omnystudio.com/listener for privacy information.
The Soulfull® Community is a space to embrace living well your way, no trends, diets, or one size fits all advice here. You're unique, so why would your wellness journey be any different? For those of you who are new, welcome! We're Kit & Kaelynn, certified health and wellness coaches and bffs who met at Georgetown University. We've seen some things: a painful gut health transformation, leaving toxic relationships, healing career burnout, to name a few. Through discovering & reconnecting with our authentic selves we're finally living WELL. Now we're here to support your personal transformation. Join us every Thursday, for a real, relatable, and multi-generational wellness conversation! We're in awe of the personal transformations we've witnessed in the soulfull® society and can't wait to see where this takes us all next. Welcome! In Today's episode: Kit & Kae get vulnerable & share what/who they're jealous of (True stories!) Kae talks about how to identify your sneaky inner critic (Yes, your gremlin strikes again!) Kit shares how to identify lack mindset vs. living in abundance Today we're getting REAAL and talking about one rather unconventional but sure-fire way to know if something is for you or not. This might sound a little crazy at first, but stick with us. We promise it'll make perfect sense. What makes you feel jealous?
SideTalks - The Official Sidewalk Podcast
You know that I could use somebody. Featuring... What's This Shit?!?! - On a plane. Woman reading a book. Please report to the cockpit. It's not complicated. Sidewalk Home Video: Punch (2002) Hosted by your own personal cinematic Pastalaya (spicy) & Anaconda Pasta! Music by Splash '96 Recorded & Edited by Boutwell Studios
Dark Side of Wikipedia | True Crime & Dark History
Discover the chilling details of a love triangle gone wrong, as Eric Robinson is found guilty of second-degree murder for brutally beating Nicholis Wilcox to death in 2017. Learn how a mix of jealousy and rage led to a gruesome crime scene, with Wilcox's body eventually discovered in a dumpster behind a shopping center. Uncover the twisted web of lies and betrayals that unfolded in court, as Robinson's defense and the testimony of his former girlfriend, Isabella Tagliarini, brought shocking revelations to light. Want to listen to ALL of our Podcasts Ad-Free? Subscribe through Apple Podcasts, and try it for 3 days free: https://tinyurl.com/ycw626tj Follow Our Other Cases: Hidden Killers With Tony Brueski (All Cases) - https://audioboom.com/channels/5040505-hidden-killers-with-tony-brueski-breaking-news-commentary Chad & Lori Daybell - https://audioboom.com/channels/5098105-demise-of-the-daybells-the-lori-chad-daybell-story The Murder of Ana Walshe - https://audioboom.com/channels/5093967-finding-ana-this-disappearance-of-ana-walshe Alex Murdaugh - https://audioboom.com/channels/5097527-the-trial-of-alex-murdaugh The Idaho Murders, The Case Against Bryan Kohberger - https://audioboom.com/channels/5098223-the-idaho-murders-the-case-against-bryan-kohberger Lucy Letby - https://audioboom.com/channels/5099406-nurse-of-death-the-lucy-letby-story Follow Tony Brueski On Twitter https://twitter.com/tonybpod
Painted Bride Quarterly’s Slush Pile
For a really fresh take on obsession, take a look here Slushies! Lisa Gordon's short story is a masterclass in taking a popular form and quietly exploding it (pun intended). By turns deeply human, comical, sad, and just a little bit “out there”, Gordon's story sweeps alongside a protagonist whose undying love for civilian astronaut Christa McAuliffe drives a story with the hallmarks of space exploration. NASA's obsessive attention to detail, understanding of real world factors, and commitment to thinking outside the box are shared by Gordon, who tells a surprising and rewarding story. You might want to jump down the page and read or listen to it in full first, as there are spoilers in our discussion! Listen to the story Paul on Earth in its entirety (separate from podcast reading) And in the spirit of confession that permeates this story, our team is confessing their obsessions: Kathleen Volk Miller – podcasts and keeping her wine racks full (purely for aesthetic reasons!) Jason Schneiderman – the original Doctor Who series (1963-1989), keeping it old school! Marion Wrenn – onion dip (very hard to find in Abu Dhabi, so it's her go-to when she's Stateside!) Samantha Neugebauer – old tin boxes Dagne Forrest – space exploration and marzipan You might want to read these related links: All Addicts Anonymous Christa McAuliffe and the 1986 Challenger explosion Parasocial relationships The Week in Longing, Dagne Forrest on Rust+ Moth (a recent poem by one of our editors that references the Challenger explosion and the late 2022 recovery of a piece of the shuttle off the Florida coast) This episode is brought to you by our sponsor Wilbur Records, who kindly introduced us to the artist is A.M.Mills whose song “Spaghetti with Loretta” now opens our show. At the table: Kathleen Volk Miller, Jason Schneiderman, Marion Wrenn, Dagne Forrest, and Samantha Neugebauer, as well as technical team Ta'Liyah Thomas, Anthony Luong, and Sebastian Remetta Lisa Gordon's short fiction has been published in Paper Darts, ANMLY, Hypertext, Storychord and elsewhere. She lives in the Boston area and is working on two novels. Paul on Earth Paul had a hard time concentrating on the wedding. Maybeth had tears in her eyes, but then again, she cried at everything. The rabbi was saying words about how important trust is when it comes to love. Maybeth took his hands. She had nice, soft, small hands—Paul always liked that about her. She could do a lot with those hands: not least of which, much earlier in the morning, even though they weren't supposed to see each other until the wedding (Maybeth had wanted it that way) he knocked on the door of her hotel room. Tap tap, tap tap, tap tap, so she would know it was him. He needed her, he said. He needed her to touch him. And she did. And he'd felt better, but only for a moment. He still couldn't get Christa out of his mind. He still looked her up. Often. All the time, you might say. It had been years since 1986, but still—she was a household name. Christa McAuliffe. The whole thing had affected everyone, especially school children. It was one of Ronald Reagan's most celebrated speeches, and he'd been a former movie star! Not that most people remember that. Now, there's a show about it on Netflix. He still hadn't watched it. He couldn't bring himself to do it. She was still alive inside him like a constellation, burning layers through his skin. And now he was getting married, again, to another very, very nice lady. She knew everything, and she forgave him. He was getting a chance to start over. “Paul, Maybeth, do you take one another?” the rabbi said. “I do,” Maybeth said, squeezing his hands. “Yes,” Paul said. “I mean, I do. Yes.” Little lines crinkled adoringly around Maybeth's eyes. Her eyes were the color of limestone. “Then it is my honor. To announce. You as husband and wife, to one another.” The guests roared as ceremoniously as a small crowd can, gathering to their feet, a wave of low thundering applause ebbed and flowed as they kissed. Paul knew next to none of them, but luckily, Maybeth had many friends. She was liked by many people, unlike Paul. It was one of the things Paul told her when they first met: I won't bring much to your life. I've tried to change but— She had interrupted him. “That's for me to decide.” Maybeth's lips were slick with lipstick and he worried, for a moment, he'd look like a clown. But he could feel her smiling through her mouth, through her kissing, and she kissed him with abandon, and he let her. He loved her. He really wanted to love her. * * * Paul was 15 when Christa McAuliffe was his teacher, and he fell for her like a rocket burning through the universe. (It was a cheap analogy, he knew that. It was cliché, obvious. But it was how he felt.) She was so pretty—! Just so, so pretty. All the school boys seemed to like the girls with big hips and big hair and pink mouths, always open. It was the early 80s, after all. But not Paul. It was Mrs. McAuliffe, with her brown eyes wide as planets, her tall teeth, her curly hair, she was—well, she was a lot of things, but mostly, she was the mother figure he'd needed at the same time his sexuality was burgeoning, so she represented the classic oedipal complex, except a little inverted, for Paul. At least, that's what he was told in therapy, later in life. It seemed true enough. He accepted it. But he couldn't change his behavior. His behavior didn't take hold until after the explosion. She wasn't even his teacher then—she'd moved on to another school, and Paul was floundering without her presence to steady him. To give him something to look forward to. But it was after that when his obsession really bloomed. He was devastated for her two children. Of her husband, he was fiercely jealous—jealous that he got to be the husband, even after she'd died. Jealous that he could mourn, really mourn. He called their house often, back then. He's not proud of it, but he did it. He got to know the sounds of all of their voices: the little girl's, the young boy's, the husband's. Lots of people were calling then, obviously. It wasn't too invasive. But they did change their phone number, later. Unlisted, of course. Paul was saddened. Deeply. Back then—then being, before the internet—there was only so much he could do. Newspapers stopped reporting. He kept copies of some of the ones he could find, the issue of People Magazine with her face on it, and the like. He kept them in a notebook. He went to college. He went to class. He tried to connect his obsession with the idea that maybe he was obsessed with space—! Yes, that had to be it! He majored in astronomy, but he just couldn't take to it. It was too mathematical. Too science-oriented. Christa had been his English teacher. It was escapism, he preferred. He graduated with a degree in Literature and asked Sandy to marry him. It was what you were supposed to do. She expected it, but she was happy, very happy. They lived in a little apartment in Boston for a few years, while she finished her Masters' degree at BU. He took a teaching job in a small town called Concord, west of Boston, in—what else? English. It was not lost on him that Concord—albeit, New Hampshire—was where Christa was from. And he'd learned that she'd lived for some time in Framingham, Massachusetts. It was not far from Concord, not far at all. He spent his days driving around strange neighborhoods, aimlessly, wandering, or in the parking lot of the high school she'd attended, which was still there. He told Sandy he'd started a chess club for his students. He'd never played chess in his life, but she believed him. That was all for a long, long time. He was happy enough. He enjoyed teaching, though he feared he wasn't very good at it. When he closed his eyes, he could still see Christa's back, the way her arm would raise to the chalkboard, how her writing made a pleasant sound. Tap tap, tap tap. He'd developed some decent cooking skills, and Sandy baked, and they ate well. They made love occasionally, and then frequently, because Sandy wanted badly to have children. Paul was thankful that they were inexperienced lovers—they'd only really had each other—and didn't know that he didn't touch her the way a man does when he loves a woman. When he's in love with her. But after a year or so, the test results came back with bad news: she wouldn't be able to bear children. And she stopped turning to him in bed. And Paul found that he was pleased. It allowed space in his mind for the obsession to grow. And grow, grow it did. It was like a whole other place in his mind he could turn to, retreat into: he could go into different parts of Christa's body and inhabit them, and they were in love in a way that didn't exist on Earth—it was unique to them, and them only, and it was everything; it was his world. Years passed. Years upon years. Until finally, one day, he was arrested. A little girl in the town of Framingham, Mass. had been abducted. She'd been missing for three days and discovered later, in the conservation land lining the towns' perimeter, murdered, sexually abused. Such an awful, tragic thing. Paul had been seen too often in her neighborhood, and others nearby, idling around in his brown Pontiac, a stranger. His likeness matched the description of the abductor: tall, glasses, a non-descript male. He was taken to the station and questioned for hours. He was bewildered. Truly and simply bewildered. He wouldn't have known where to begin, is what he said. “Where to begin with what?” the detective had said. “With stealing a child,” Paul had whispered. “With touching a child.” He clasped and unclasped his hands. Yes, he'd been around the neighborhood. Often, on and off, for years. No, he had no business there, knew no one, not a soul who lived there. No, he had no alibi—he had, indeed, been driving around that very night. He'd been lying to his wife for so long he'd begun to believe there was a chess club. The only way out was the truth. “McAuliffe,” they'd said. “The teacher astronaut lady? The one who got blown up?” The detective. A lawyer. Repeated it, as if they hadn't heard him right. Couldn't have possibly heard him right. “Yes,” Paul said. “That's the one.” He told them about the file he kept in the magazine in the downstairs bathroom. They sent a squad to get it, and his wife followed behind, hysterical. The questioning was relentless. He was shoved in a cell for 14 hours. Eventually, they found the right man. He'd committed a similar crime in Western Mass., in the Berkshires. They opened the door to his cell and he was free to go. But they recommended he get therapy. “We think you're a little nutso,” one of the policeman said, on his way out. Behind him, echos of laughter. He started his car—it sputtered and died. It was a freezing, gray day in November. Sandy wouldn't pick him up. He tried to hitch, but no one would stop for a man who looked like the man who abducted children. Eventually, he called a cab. It cost him $143 to get home, and, not having that kind of money on him, the cabbie had to drive him to a bank. He watched the cabbie eying him in the rearview mirror as he peeled away. Sandy left, which didn't surprise Paul in the slightest. What did surprise Paul was how little he cared. Somehow, they didn't fire him. He'd thought they would have, but they didn't. (“You didn't commit the crime, Paul,” the principal said, disapprovingly. As if he'd wanted him to have been the criminal.) His time was his own, finally. He couldn't drive around the way he used to, which left a void in his life he wasn't sure how he'd fill. But it turned out, it wasn't as hard as he thought. He grocery shopped and cooked elaborate meals, gaining weight, filling out in places he didn't think could grow. He masturbated on the couch as he pleased. He read different books and grew excited by new lesson plans. He even became energized by teaching in new ways. His life, it seemed, was changing. Christa was there—she would always be there—but he needed her less and less. But then, as if out of nowhere, the internet became faster and stronger and more ubiquitous, and suddenly, the world was at his fingertips—anything he wanted could be his, information of any kind—and, well. Life took on new meaning. He bought a printer. He printed everything. He posted the photos, the articles, up around his house, a shrine. He was scared of himself. His teaching suffered. He stopped eating. He was fired. He'd hit rock bottom. And then, one day—it really was like that, just one day—he saw an advertisement for Addicts Anonymous. Whatever you're addicted to, we can help, is what it said. Paul went. He didn't know what his life had become and he didn't want to give up, not yet. He was 40 years old. His father had died long ago. Sandy had moved to Virginia, adopted a daughter, gotten a dog. He drove to the meeting, concentrating on the way the cold winter air felt in his lungs. And at the meeting, he met Maybeth. She was addicted to painkillers. She was a tiny, cute thing. Sprightly. Energetic. “But I have a dark side,” she said, when she spoke to the room. She'd been watching Paul carefully. He could feel it, even when he turned away. After the session, she approached him. “I'm looking for a new boyfriend,” she said. “Addictions don't bother me.” “Even mine?” Paul had said. “Even yours,” she had said. He'd addressed the room—all 27 of them (he'd counted) and he'd said, “Hi, I'm Paul. And I don't know why. Or maybe I do. But—and sorry if this freaks anyone out—I'm addicted to Christa McAuliffe.” There'd been chatter, a couple of laughs. Some of them looked at him quizzically. He heard someone whisper to someone else “Challenger”. And he'd felt very much like crying. It was the first time he'd felt like crying in—well, maybe ever. Since he could remember. And it felt like being opened, like a present. When he told that to Maybeth, she cried. “I'm your present,” she'd said. “And you're mine.” She smiled into his neck and curled up in his lap like a little dog. Paul held her. Never had his arms been so full. He closed his eyes and tunneled through space, slowly at first, just exploring, until he was rocketing through her again, ready to find what he was looking for.
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