Running Rebel & Mad Dog

Isobella shares a story about faith and her father after his death, and how transitions in life can inspire unexpected healing, as she welcomes a new state and the south into her life. She asks herself, "What do these heirlooms mean, why did I take them, why are they special."

Isobella reflects on her father's sports jacket that she found in his car after he died in a propane explosion and fire at his home, "smelling the jacket the reality of what happened sliced the core of me, he could never wear this sports jacket again. If there hadn't been a fire....and there wasn't a process to legally identify him..and there had been a funeral, I might have ask the funeral director for him to wear this jacket."

Isobella shares how finding a pocketknife in her father's car after he died reminded her of being 12 years old when her father gave her his old pocketknife back then, and the meaning of the memory it holds.

Isobella shares how sentimental handwriting can be of someone who has passed. She examines her father's clipboard and other artifacts with his handwriting.

Isobella shares a story about her father's rings, A story about grief, hope and belief, coupling the items she found at her father's car after he died, the rings narrative shares a connection she felt with her father during a troubling time.

Isobella shares a few memories that spring up from looking at her father's Giants hat that she found in his car after he died in a fire and propane explosion. The hat reminds her of running in high school and the time her father saw her run and the times he hadn't in an emotional narrative of grief, loss, and wanting to strive.

Isobella shares the memories of running, inspired by the leather wallet she surprisingly found inside her father's car after he died in a fire. "Looking at this old wallet, the plastic lanyard boondoggle string coming undone, I remember making it, in the summer before my parents separated, and being not quite old enough to understand the complexities of my father but I knew then he believed I was fast runner."

Isobella Jade shares nineteen preserved voicemails from her father who died in a fire at his home, compiling three months of voicemails from December –February.

Isobella takes a train ride to a modeling job from Manhattan to New Jersey one month after her dad’s death, while using his thermos, which she found in his car after he passed away in the fire.

"I didn’t have to go to his car or the sight at all. I had seen news articles and images of the remains of his home already, and I knew how terrible it was. I didn’t have to go to see it. During my visit to Syracuse, I could have just went to the funeral home to pick his remains in an urn. I wanted to see in person the wreckage. I wanted to inhale the air where he died. And I wondered if anything at all, some sort of a keepsake, a token of his life, would be there at his car." -Isobella Jade