A Woman Called Mother

Tiny Baby No More

Play Episode Listen Later Nov 6, 2022 24:11

When my mother became homeless and moved into my one-bedroom apartment.New Episodes Every Week.If you'd like to read the piece instead, please visit the episode website at www.jessicalaurelkane.com, https://bit.ly/3UvV0miAll pieces written, recorded and produced by Jessica Laurel Kane.If you'd like to hear my other podcast for kids and parents, visit www.onceuponanupset.com.

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Thoughts, a week after my mother passed...

Play Episode Listen Later Oct 28, 2022 4:00

A piece I wrote a week after my mother passed. Also, forgive me for being late the past couple weeks… I've had something weird going on with my throat. New Episodes Every Week.If you'd like to read the piece instead, please visit the episode website at www.jessicalaurelkane.com, https://bit.ly/3seQ0GTAll pieces written, recorded and produced by Jessica Laurel Kane.If you'd like to hear my other podcast for kids and parents, visit www.onceuponanupset.com.

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The Lilting Man - An Old Conversation With My Mother

Play Episode Listen Later Oct 21, 2022 3:27

My mother gives me a pep talk when I felt depressed after taking Sudafed.New Episodes Every Week.If you'd like to read the piece instead, please visit the episode website at www.jessicalaurelkane.com, https://bit.ly/3seQ0GTAll pieces written, recorded and produced by Jessica Laurel Kane.If you'd like to hear my other podcast for kids and parents, visit www.onceuponanupset.com.

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A Conversation With My Mother's Spirit

Play Episode Listen Later Oct 9, 2022 4:03

A conversation about our one unadulterated drop of god.New Episodes Every Monday.If you'd like to read the piece instead, please visit the episode website at www.jessicalaurelkane.com, https://bit.ly/3Ri3cETAll pieces written, recorded and produced by Jessica Laurel Kane.If you'd like to hear my other podcast for kids and parents, visit www.onceuponanupset.com.

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Another Conversation With My Mother, Jar of Puffs

Play Episode Listen Later Sep 27, 2022 1:51

On the phone with my mother when my son was a toddler.New Episodes Every Monday.If you'd like to read the piece instead, please visit the episode website at www.jessicalaurelkane.com, https://bit.ly/3Ri3cETAll pieces written, recorded and produced by Jessica Laurel Kane.If you'd like to hear my other podcast for kids and parents, visit www.onceuponanupset.com.

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Cycles of Healing

Play Episode Listen Later Sep 21, 2022 6:06

A story about breaking cycles of dysfunction.New Episodes Every Monday.If you'd like to read the piece instead, please visit the episode website at www.jessicalaurelkane.com.All pieces written, recorded and produced by Jessica Laurel Kane.If you'd like to hear my other podcast for kids and parents, visit www.onceuponanupset.com.

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Another Pep Talk With My Mother

Play Episode Listen Later Sep 13, 2022 2:12

When my ceiling fan almost catches on fire, I receive guidance from my mother.New Episodes Every Monday.If you'd like to read the piece instead, please visit the episode website at www.jessicalaurelkane.com.All pieces written, recorded and produced by Jessica Laurel Kane.If you'd like to hear my other podcast for kids and parents, visit www.onceuponanupset.com.

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The Mother From Hell

Play Episode Listen Later Sep 6, 2022 33:37

This piece chronicles a difficult event that took place years ago when I was trying to support my mother who had no other means of support for her mental health than to self-medicate. The piece is also about how our mental health system isn't always equipped to be there for people who need more support than to be kept alive and medicated, and how in our society, many times, support for oneself has to come from within.New Episodes Every Monday.If you'd like to read the piece instead, please visit the episode website at www.jessicalaurelkane.com.All pieces written, recorded and produced by Jessica Laurel Kane.If you'd like to hear my other podcast for kids and parents, visit www.onceuponanupset.com.

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What I Did With Guilt

Play Episode Listen Later Aug 30, 2022

What I Did With GuiltNew Episodes Every Monday.If you'd like to read the piece instead, please visit the episode website at www.jessicalaurelkane.com.All pieces written, recorded and produced by Jessica Laurel Kane.If you'd like to hear my other podcast for kids and parents, visit www.onceuponanupset.com.

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Conversation with my mother at 3 a.m. on her birthday, after I was crying and asking for a sign that she was here with me (Encore)

Play Episode Listen Later Aug 22, 2022 4:48

Conversation with My Mother at 3 A.M. on Her Birthday, After I Was Crying and Asking for a Sign that She was Here with MeNew Episodes Every Monday.If you'd like to read the piece instead, please visit the episode website at www.jessicakane.com.All pieces written, recorded and produced by Jessica Laurel Kane.If you'd like to hear my other podcast for kids and parents, visit www.onceuponanupset.com.

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The First Time I Used My Voice For Myself (or, how I dealt with the pain of giving birth) (Encore)

Play Episode Listen Later Aug 15, 2022 5:58

The First Time I Used My Voice For Myself (or, how I dealt with the pain of giving birth)New Episodes Every Monday.If you'd like to read the piece instead, please visit the episode website at www.jessicakane.com.All pieces written, recorded and produced by Jessica Laurel Kane.If you'd like to hear my other podcast for kids and parents, visit www.onceuponanupset.com.

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Passing Through (Encore)

Play Episode Listen Later Aug 8, 2022 27:10

Passing through is a piece I wrote about my grandmother's husband dying. In this piece I was thinking about generations. About my own family. About what our parents and grandparents leave us in our emotional inheritance. I was thinking how when my grandmother died, she had not spoken with my mother in 20 years. How my grandmother hardly spoke to her own mother. So much pain and so much dysfunction. So much unfinished business.New Episodes Every Monday.If you'd like to read the piece instead, please visit the episode website at www.jessicakane.com.All pieces written, recorded and produced by Jessica Laurel Kane.If you'd like to hear my other podcast for kids and parents, visit www.onceuponanupset.com.

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Filling the Urn Necklace (Encore)

Play Episode Listen Later Aug 1, 2022

Some insights I had while trying to do something meaningful with my mother's ashes.New Episodes Every Monday.If you'd like to read the piece instead, please visit the episode website at www.jessicakane.com.All pieces written, recorded and produced by Jessica Laurel Kane.If you'd like to hear my other podcast for kids and parents, visit www.onceuponanupset.com.

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An Old Conversation With My Mother When I Was Pregnant

Play Episode Listen Later Jul 27, 2022 5:40

An Old Conversation with my mother when I was pregnant and she didn't know how to retrieve a text message.New Episodes Every Monday.If you'd like to read the transcript, please visit the episode website at https://bit.ly/3vhR9PRAll pieces written, recorded and produced by Jessica Laurel KaneIf you'd like to hear my other podcast for kids and parents, visit www.onceuponanupset.com.

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Libraries of Trauma (Encore)

Play Episode Listen Later Jul 18, 2022 9:04

“The thing about trauma is that if you don't get it out and identify it as trauma, you risk continuing to cope with trauma simply because you might not have the sense to recognize that's what it is.”— from 'Libraries of trauma'New Episodes Every Monday.If you'd like to read the transcript, please visit the episode website at https://bit.ly/36iYjd7.All pieces written, recorded and produced by Jessica Laurel KaneIf you'd like to hear my other podcast for kids and parents, visit www.onceuponanupset.com.

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An Old Pep Talk With My Mother

Play Episode Listen Later Jul 11, 2022

A pep talk with my mother when I was feeling hurt from not getting approval from someone.If you'd like to read the transcript, please visit the episode website at https://bit.ly/3QjNN7LAll pieces written, recorded and produced by Jessica Laurel KaneIf you'd like to hear my other podcast for kids and parents, visit www.onceuponanupset.com.

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The Messiness of Judging (Encore)

Play Episode Listen Later Jul 4, 2022 6:31

The Messiness Of JudgingA piece about how it's really impossible to judge anyone because it's impossible to understand the whole story of what's going on.

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My Mother in the Big City of Paranoids (Encore)

Play Episode Listen Later Jun 27, 2022 43:31

This story is about the time my paranoid mother became homeless and took a bus to NYC to be with me. It was published by So to Speak Journal: language + feminism + art where it was nominated for the Pushcart Prize. It can be read there at https://bit.ly/32qttgv.New Episodes Every Monday.All pieces written, recorded and produced by Jessica Laurel Kane.If you'd like to hear my other podcast for kids and parents, visit www.onceuponanupset.com.

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The Heart of Cruella de Vil (Encore)

Play Episode Listen Later Jun 20, 2022 7:41

The Heart of Cruella de VilNew Episodes Every Monday.If you'd like to read the piece instead, please visit the episode website at www.jessicakane.com.All pieces written, recorded and produced by Jessica Laurel Kane.If you'd like to hear my other podcast for kids and parents, visit www.onceuponanupset.com.

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Conversation With My Mother From When My Son Was An Infant

Play Episode Listen Later Jun 13, 2022 2:30

If you'd like to read the transcript, please visit the episode website at https://bit.ly/3QjNN7LAll pieces written, recorded and produced by Jessica Laurel KaneIf you'd like to hear my other podcast for kids and parents, visit www.onceuponanupset.com.

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The First Great Start-Over

Play Episode Listen Later Jun 6, 2022 11:10

Part One of a piece that tells the story of growing up with my mother during my formative years, and the circumstances, both internal and societal, that led to her falling through the cracks and becoming dysfunctional.If you'd like to read the transcript, please visit the episode website at https://bit.ly/3aKtXlNAll pieces written, recorded and produced by Jessica Laurel KaneIf you'd like to hear my other podcast for kids and parents, visit www.onceuponanupset.com.

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Finding My Mother A Job On Craig's List

Play Episode Listen Later May 31, 2022 6:28

If you'd like to read the transcript, please visit the episode website at https://bit.ly/3wZ6x4I All pieces written, recorded and produced by Jessica Laurel KaneIf you'd like to hear my other podcast for kids and parents, visit www.onceuponanupset.com.

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Conversation With My Mother After The Opening Night of my Play, Two Sizes Too Small

Play Episode Listen Later May 23, 2022 2:21

If you'd like to read the transcript, please visit the episode website at https://bit.ly/3PHx51Y.And if you'd like to listen to Two Sizes Too Small visit: https://www.jessicakane.com/tourAll pieces written, recorded and produced by Jessica Laurel KaneIf you'd like to hear my other podcast for kids and parents, visit www.onceuponanupset.com.

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Skipping Over Life

Play Episode Listen Later May 16, 2022 16:52

A piece that documents one of my mother's stays in a behavioral health center.If you'd like to read the transcript, please visit the episode website at https://bit.ly/3MlJiXZAll pieces written, recorded and produced by Jessica Laurel KaneIf you'd like to hear my other podcast for kids and parents, visit www.onceuponanupset.com.

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Prayer Swap

Play Episode Listen Later May 10, 2022 5:17

A poem of sorts about being in such pain, and praying, and then listening so hard for an answer, that I hear someone else praying, and we share our prayers with each other.New Episodes Every Monday.If you'd like to read the transcript, please visit the episode website at https://bit.ly/37Acv2gAll pieces written, recorded and produced by Jessica Laurel KaneIf you'd like to hear my other podcast for kids and parents, visit www.onceuponanupset.com.

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The Motherless Fuck

Play Episode Listen Later May 9, 2022 2:23

The time a man got upset with my mother and spat on her car window.New Episodes Every Monday.If you'd like to read the transcript, please visit the episode website at https://bit.ly/37Acv2gAll pieces written, recorded and produced by Jessica Laurel KaneIf you'd like to hear my other podcast for kids and parents, visit www.onceuponanupset.com.

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Grief

Play Episode Listen Later May 2, 2022 3:32

A piece about the starkness of grief.A piece about sneaking some of my mother's ashes next to her grandmother's grave.New Episodes Every Monday.If you'd like to read the transcript, please visit the episode website at https://apple.co/39qyqcxAll pieces written, recorded and produced by Jessica Laurel KaneIf you'd like to hear my other podcast for kids and parents, visit www.onceuponanupset.com.

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Conversation With My Mother's Spirit Before I Buried Some Of Her Ashes

Play Episode Listen Later Apr 25, 2022 4:52

A piece about sneaking some of my mother's ashes next to her grandmother's grave.New Episodes Every Monday.If you'd like to read the transcript, please visit the episode website at https://bit.ly/3vJNppGAll pieces written, recorded and produced by Jessica Laurel KaneIf you'd like to hear my other podcast for kids and parents, visit www.onceuponanupset.com.

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Conversation With My Mother About My Issues

Play Episode Listen Later Apr 18, 2022 2:16

New Episodes Every Monday.If you'd like to read the transcript, please visit the episode website at https://bit.ly/3DEvDYfAll pieces written, recorded and produced by Jessica Laurel KaneIf you'd like to hear my other podcast for kids and parents, visit www.onceuponanupset.com.

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List Of Thoughts I Wrote Down While Going Nuts In Quarantine

Play Episode Listen Later Apr 11, 2022 4:28

"I remember reading about these two guys who escaped prison in Upstate New York a handful of years back, how one of them had a dad who was a total fucking no show. How he finally bought his son a bike for his birthday but it wound up being used and broken, and the son was so disappointed he threw it out the window, and then the police were called and the son was the one who got in trouble."— from 'List Of Thoughts I Write Down While Going Nuts In Quarantine'New Episodes Every Monday.If you'd like to read the transcript, please visit the episode website at https://bit.ly/3DEvDYfAll pieces written, recorded and produced by Jessica Laurel KaneIf you'd like to hear my other podcast for kids and parents, visit www.onceuponanupset.com.

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A Scene From When My Mother Moved Out Of My One-Bedroom Apartment After Living With Me For Six Months

Play Episode Listen Later Apr 4, 2022 8:32

A Scene From When My Mother Moved Out Of My One-Bedroom Apartment After Living With Me For Six Months“The alarms went off at 4am. My mother insisted I set every one we own. There was no way I was getting up at that ungodly hour so I stayed in bed listening to her rustling⁠—her hairdryer, her zippering⁠—all the things that've been annoying me for months, and yet I found myself soaking them all in, knowing I won't be hearing them again anytime soon.”— from 'A Scene From When My Mother Moved Out Of My One-Bedroom Apartment After Six Months'New Episodes Every Monday.If you'd like to read the transcript, please visit the episode website at https://bit.ly/3DEvDYfAll pieces written, recorded and produced by Jessica Laurel KaneIf you'd like to hear my other podcast for kids and parents, visit www.onceuponanupset.com.

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Libraries of Trauma

Play Episode Listen Later Mar 28, 2022 9:04

Six years ago today, 3/28/16, my mother passed. I miss her so very much. This week's piece is about trauma.“The thing about trauma is that if you don't get it out and identify it as trauma, you risk continuing to cope with trauma simply because you might not have the sense to recognize that's what it is.”— from 'Libraries of trauma'New Episodes Every Monday.If you'd like to read the transcript, please visit the episode website at https://bit.ly/36iYjd7.All pieces written, recorded and produced by Jessica Laurel KaneIf you'd like to hear my other podcast for kids and parents, visit www.onceuponanupset.com.

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An Old Conversation With My Mother About War

Play Episode Listen Later Mar 21, 2022 4:36

An Old Conversation With My Mother About WarI decided to post another conversation with my mother because I've been missing her so, and it almost feels like I'm actually talking to her when I record these. And I picked this conversation about war, because I've been so upset about the situation in Ukraine.New Episodes Every Monday.If you'd like to read the transcript, please visit the episode website at https://bit.ly/36iYjd7.All pieces written, recorded and produced by Jessica Laurel KaneIf you'd like to hear my other podcast for kids and parents, visit www.onceuponanupset.com.

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An Old Conversation With My Mother When I Was Falling Apart

Play Episode Listen Later Mar 14, 2022 6:01

An Old Conversation With My Mother When I Was Falling ApartNew Episodes Every Monday.If you'd like to read the transcript, please visit the episode website at www.jessicakane.com.All pieces written, recorded and produced by Jessica Laurel KaneIf you'd like to hear my other podcast for kids and parents, visit www.onceuponanupset.com.

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The Wounded Mother

Play Episode Listen Later Mar 7, 2022 4:10

A piece about the unresolved issues that the mothers and daughters in my family uploaded to each other over generations.New Episodes Every Monday.If you'd like to read the transcript, please visit the episode website at www.jessicakane.com.All pieces written, recorded and produced by Jessica Laurel KaneIf you'd like to hear my other podcast for kids and parents, visit www.onceuponanupset.com.

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The Experiment With Positive Thinking in the Car with My Mother

Play Episode Listen Later Feb 28, 2022 3:17

The time my mother was about to launch into one of her episodes, and I noticed that what I think actually changes the world around me.New Episodes Every Monday.If you'd like to read the transcript, please visit the episode website at www.jessicakane.com.All pieces written, recorded and produced by Jessica Laurel KaneIf you'd like to hear my other podcast for kids and parents, visit www.onceuponanupset.com.

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Thinking About The Masks We Wear

Play Episode Listen Later Feb 21, 2022 4:17

How my mother inadvertently taught me that the way to protect yourself in the world, is to pretend to be someone else, and how I learned from my son that this isn't a good idea.New Episodes Every Monday.If you'd like to read the transcript, please visit the episode website at www.jessicakane.com.All pieces written, recorded and produced by Jessica Laurel Kane.If you'd like to hear my other podcast for kids and parents, visit www.onceuponanupset.com.

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The Most Powerful Weapon Is Love

Play Episode Listen Later Feb 14, 2022 2:54

A powerful experience I had one night when my mother was in the hospital and I was staying in her apartment.New Episodes Every Monday.If you'd like to read the transcript, please visit the episode website at www.jessicakane.com.All pieces written, recorded and produced by Jessica Laurel Kane.If you'd like to hear my other podcast for kids and parents, visit www.onceuponanupset.com.

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Section 8

Play Episode Listen Later Feb 7, 2022 5:24

The time I tried to help my mother, but discovered she didn't want my kind of help, and there was nothing I could do about it. A piece about how I learned to honor everyone's journey, even if it looks problematic to me.New Episodes Every Monday.If you'd like to read the transcript, please visit the episode website at www.jessicakane.com.All pieces written, recorded and produced by Jessica Laurel Kane.If you'd like to hear my other podcast for kids and parents, visit www.onceuponanupset.com.

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Thinking of My Mother's Wardrobe Over The Years

Play Episode Listen Later Jan 31, 2022 2:53

A piece about how my mother's style changed with her circumstances over the years.New Episodes Every Monday.If you'd like to read the transcript, please visit the episode website at www.jessicakane.com.All pieces written, recorded and produced by Jessica Laurel Kane.If you'd like to hear my other podcast for kids and parents, visit www.onceuponanupset.com.

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My Grandmother

Play Episode Listen Later Jan 31, 2022 3:10

This piece is about a powerful experience I had cleaning up blood from a fall my grandmother had, that resulted in her death. Sorry in advance for the heavy duty piece!New Episodes Every Monday.If you'd like to read the transcript, please visit the episode website at www.jessicakane.com.All pieces written, recorded and produced by Jessica Laurel Kane.If you'd like to hear my other podcast for kids and parents, visit www.onceuponanupset.com.

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Visiting My Mother at the Sunrise Inn

Play Episode Listen Later Jan 24, 2022 22:19

I wrote this piece years ago, when my mother was still alive, and when I used to document our time together, to try and make sense of things.New Episodes Every Monday.If you'd like to read the transcript, please visit the episode website at www.jessicakane.com.All pieces written, recorded and produced by Jessica Laurel Kane.If you'd like to hear my other podcast for kids and parents, visit www.onceuponanupset.com.

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On The Side of The Survivors

Play Episode Listen Later Jan 17, 2022 5:32

A piece about my mother, about dignity in the face of someone else's privilege.New Episodes Every Monday.If you'd like to read the piece instead, please visit the episode website at www.jessicakane.com.All pieces written, recorded and produced by Jessica Laurel Kane.If you'd like to hear my other podcast for kids and parents, visit www.onceuponanupset.com.

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You Can't Get Mad at the Dead or How Loss Gave Me A New Perspective

Play Episode Listen Later Jan 10, 2022 5:39

You Can't Be Mad At The Dead, or How Loss Gave Me A New PerspectiveNew Episodes Every Monday.If you'd like to read the piece instead, please visit the episode website at www.jessicakane.com.All pieces written, recorded and produced by Jessica Laurel Kane.If you'd like to hear my other podcast for kids and parents, visit www.onceuponanupset.com.

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A List of Things that Kept Me Up Last Night

Play Episode Listen Later Jan 3, 2022 3:38

A List of Things That Kept Me Up Last NightNew Episodes Every Monday.If you'd like to read the piece instead, please visit the episode website at www.jessicakane.com.All pieces written, recorded and produced by Jessica Laurel Kane.If you'd like to hear my other podcast for kids and parents, visit www.onceuponanupset.com.

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An Old Conversation with My Mother

Play Episode Listen Later Dec 27, 2021 3:11

A old conversation with my mother, who remembered the time she accidentally destroyed my favorite doll.New Episodes Every Monday.If you'd like to read the piece instead, please visit the episode website at www.jessicakane.com.All pieces written, recorded and produced by Jessica Laurel Kane.If you'd like to hear my other podcast for kids and parents, visit www.onceuponanupset.com.