CUNTFESSIONALS

In this ep I discuss why splitting bills and dates with men is not feminism. I talk about existing gender inequality, my dating life, and how my beliefs on this topic have shifted throughout the years. 

TW (depression, mental illness, suicide) in this EP I talk about my nearly eight-year battle with depression. I discuss my bipolar 2 and ADHD diagnosis and how that helped me be more empathetic towards my younger self. 

In this EP I talk about the Texas Abortion Ban and what that means for women in Texas. These anti-choice and anti-women laws have been placed in Texas for years, now they are the worst they've ever been. Criminalizing providers and women from providing and accessing healthcare is sexist and classist. In this episode, I also share my personal experience with abortion in Texas and how traumatizing it is to have laws placed on your body.   TRIGGER WARNING: Sexual Assault and detailed abortion procedure 

Men hate me?! What?! I didn't know I was a cunt :( .. boohoo. In this EP I talk about cis-het male insecurity and how that can manifest in extremely harmful behavior. Some of this harmful behavior is sexual abuse, verbal/physical violence, and more. I explain how I deal with misogynist verbal attacks, and that not all battles are worth fighting. Enjoy!

Welcome to another episode of heavily oversharing!!! In this EP I dive into the nuances of my sexuality and how identifying as bi or straight doesn't resonate with me. I explain the role my upbringing had, some wild experiences, and the conclusion I came up with when explaining my sexual orientation. If you are or have been in ~confusion~ like me, I hope this helps!

This is part one of a series I'm doing about my journey with mental health illness. I talk about my struggle with depression and dissociation, specifically derealization. TRIGGER WARNING I speak on topics like severe depression, religion, sexual assault, and suicide. I'm doing this series because I had a recent realization that after seven years of struggling with dissociation I am nowhere near complete healing. I am now trying to be more objective with my judgements of my mental health progress; I want to share my experiences because I know I am not the only one struggling. This is part 1 of a multiple part series. I'm mainly explaining the disorder, how it felt, and how it currently feels for me. To anyone struggling with mental health, I hope this helps you and makes you feel more seen.    Suicide Prevention Hotline: 1-800-273-8255   The Trevor Project LGBTQ Suicide Prevention Hotline: 1-866-488-7386    

This is one of the first episodes in which I dive into some of the experiences I've had in the acting world. I knew this was going to be a tough journey, and dealing with racism and stereotypes is one of the reasons why. Seeing that POC are being reduced to their race or some misery story is a topic that has been frustrating and sad to deal with lately... so this EP is more of a venting sesh for me. I talk about the stereotypes I've come across, why white people should not be writing POC stories, and how I want to use these negative experiences as fuel to accomplish my dreams. Not all representation is good representation, so at this point, we are fighting for inclusion and positions of power that way we are eventually represented with RESPECT and DIGNITY. 

Yes, I DID THAT. In this EP I rant and cuss into the void about how much I don't give a single fuck about your opinion. If you're a sex-negative c*nt GTFO! This is not the place for you! In this week's episode, I talk about facing the struggle of being told to fit into a box and how liberating it is to not follow that standard. I share my fears, experiences, and expectation with my OnlyFans. Enjoy!

In this episode, I put myself on BLAST once again.... (sigh). I don't know why I do this to myself, I think it's part of not giving a fuck about anything, LOL. I start this EP by explaining the kind of mindset I'm in and how I am approaching romantic relationships. I talk about the guys I've talked to and what I like in every one of them. I also share some embarrassing stories, it was about time for one of those! I conclude the episode by going on Clubhouse and asking people to share their embarrassing sex stories! 

In this episode, I'll be discussing my own experiences with pretty privilege with all of its pros and cons. I recognize that in my experience there are more advantages than disadvantages. I also talk about desirability politics and how they are constructed upon a foundation of racism and white supremacy. Pretty privilege is more than just getting free drinks at a bar, it the product of a system built to oppress marganilazed communities. I conclude this episode by offering some ways on how to use your privilege to help dismantle the system. 

In this episode, I talk about my own journey with celibacy and committing to No Dickstractions 2021!!! I discuss how practicing abstinence or celibacy in my younger years was really unhealthy because it was rooted in conservative shameful beliefs. Practicing celibacy now is much different! I talk about the lessons celibacy has taught me and how it's helped me love myself more and become more mindful of who I exchange energy with. 

In this EP I talk about my positive progress with my mental health and how I came to the realization that I'm much closer to healing than I thought. I also discuss what this means to me as an artist and how I've developed alternative ways to connect with negative emotions when necessary. At the end of the EP, I talk about how moving to Los Angeles has been a work in progress even before moving and how this has become an extremely beautiful spiritual journey. 

What in the social dilemma is this?! In this EP I explain how I struggle with being addicted to my phone. I do not use the word addiction lightly, and I fully intend on using it in this context because this has become a very serious problem for me. I talk about how my addiction started (way back in the myspace days) and how it's evolved. I also elaborate on how the addiction looks on me (it looks different on everyone) and how it has negatively impacted my mental health. At the end of the episode, I share some tips on breaking the addiction, and how those things have worked for me. I know there's a lot of people struggling with this, so I hope this resonates and helps!

In this episode I'm ngl I'm kind of lit (not that you can ever tell), but I talk about how female sexuality has been demonized since the beginning of time and my personal experiences with this kind of discrimination. I address questions like "is it okay to have sex on the first date?" and I talk about the concept of the "male gaze". In the latter half of the EP I go into detail about how I destroyed my insecurities and became my most authentic and confident self. I'm at a point in my life where I am so happy with who I am, but it's taken A LOT of work... so I'm really happy to share my process. Enjoy!

In this episode, I talk about my (limited) experiences with colorism as a tan complexion LATINX person. I will be speaking in US and Mexico contexts only because those are my two nationalities. The colorism conversation is one that should NOT be confined to academic settings solely for the realson that the very reality of it isn't.  I speak on my story and how difficult it was for me to come to terms with the nuance/specificity of my racial identity and how that fit in society. I can only speak for myself, my experiences, and the knowledge I've gained. I hope this helps someone struggling with identity and that it inspires you to speak on the issue !

In this EP I talk about how I transition from my conservative upbringing to atheism and finally, to my current form of spirituality. I discuss weird things I experienced as a child that played a significant role in my belief system, and how my beliefs are based more on a "feel good" feeling than actual tangible information. I elaborate as to why I believe these things and how I am happy to finally have a healthy relationship with spirituality.

In this EP I discuss the value of friendships and how it's important to invest wisely in people. It's often said that people should have high standards when selecting a romantic partner, but I believe that also holds true when choosing friends. I've had my fair share of "bad friends" but I will be specifically discussing friendships that I made in 2019 and had to cut off in 2020. I compare those experiences with the life long friends I currently have, and I conclude by talking about how exactly someone can be a good friend. Enjoy!

This is my last episode of 2020 and it's definitely something I'm leaving in the past. In this EP I tell the story of how I became heavily religiously involved for 2-3 years of my life and the harm I caused while I was a devout fundamentalist christian. I also tell stories about the church and give explicit detail about the Religious Trauma Syndrome (RTS) and PTSD I dealt with after the fact. **Trigger Warning** I discuss PTSD, depression, suicide, etc. I end it by emphasizing the lessons I learned from this part of my life and how I regained the ability to forgive and trust myself again. This was the hardest thing I've ever had to talk about and hard is an understatement. RTS is a real medical condition and if you've experienced this, I want you to know that you are loved and seen. There is a way out. 

In this episode I talk about a topic that is a NEED for so many people! I share my personal experiences and how I've gotten over past boyfriends. I also share how getting over my recent ex boyfriend has been a much more difficult challenge. I give the tips I learned throughout my healing process and also valuable insights from my therapist. It's valuable information and I hope it helps someone! Enjoy!

I throw an unacceptable amount of shade in this EP, so if you're a man and you're fragile maybe it's best you don't listen! I talk about the things men do that make their sex game weak and how improving their skills will only benefit them in the long run. I tell my own personal stories... bad AND great. I also get specific about my first time at a strip club and how that paved the way for me to have a short-lived sugar daddy experience. Tune in if you want to laugh and hear the shade! 

In this episode, I basically put myself on blast but I do it in the name of a good cause! I talk about how during a very dark period in my life I used sex as an unhealthy coping mechanism. **Trigger Warning** I also talk about s*xual assault and depression. I get personal in hopes that my story will help someone feel better about theirs and also help remove stigmas around sex and being sexually active. I later move on and use the last part of this episode to talk about my predictions for HBO's Euphoria season 2! If you haven't watched the show skip this part because there are spoilers!

Welcome to my first episode c*nts!!! Thank you so much for tuning in and listening. In this episode, I talk about my OF experience and some crazy stories! I also dive deep into lessons I learned while being on the platform. I share a few tips that will be helpful to anyone that is contemplating creating an OF account. I also talk about cutting off toxic dick and unfortunately some friendships as well. I go into my reasoning and how I'm prioritizing my mental health and growing in my self-love journey.