Everything Changes

(video exclusively on youtube) so…i turned 19. which is very exciting and even marvelously fun but also..very scary? the thought of getting older truly does frighten me but also proves to me and everyone in my life that, i made it through anyway. i've made it through the toughest days and the hardest times of my life. i think aging is beautiful and it's apart of the human condition, but, to think that you are eventually going to get older and not any younger, makes you think that you have to experience life now more than ever. time is very delicate and short, and it's best to make the most of it. i hope you guys enjoys todays video episode!;)

have you ever thought about not being able to love or to be loved? maybe? maybe not? well…i have and it's not fun. it's truly scary having these negative thoughts and emotions about love and the perspective on not feeling seen or heard when in a relationship with someone. taking on the risk of being vulnerable and sharing that vulnerability with someone sometimes isn't ideal in most cases. for todays episode, we're diving into the conversation on losing hope on finding that perfect someone!

this is a true story that happened. very traumatic and very scary but kinda funny?. it honestly wasn't ideal in the slightest, because why on earth would you call the cops on a 10 year old kid?! it's truly unbelievable and terrifying in every way possible. anyway, i'm excited to be back this week!! i'm working on two new video podcasts as of right now, one with a guest and a solo episode! i haven't made a video podcast in so long..it kinda feels new to me for some odd reason..i have no idea why. i hope you guys enjoy todays episode! see ya next wednesday! ttyl:)

HEY GUYS!! today, we're going to be talking about past friendship breakups, my embarrassing situationship (trust me, it really was but for me) and smoking for the very first time. i was a little nervous and scared to talk about the smoking part because, some of my family do listen to the podcast but…it is what it is. the experience wasn't bad, it was actually pretty fun. i wouldn't recommend smoking though or push people to endure in smoking. it's a personal choice to smoke or to not smoke. do you boo. anyways, i hope you guys enjoy todays episode because truly, it's an adventure.

holy shit guys…it's been a HOT minute since i last did a podcast episode. sorry for the delay but i was just taking some much needed time off lol. for todays episode, i'm going to be talking about my prom night, my graduation ceremony experience, going on a plane for the first time and FLORIDA!!! june was such a busy month for me but also a very exciting month as well. a lot of shit happened. anyways, i hope you guys enjoy todays episode. a lil announcement! spotify seems to be changing a lot of their tools and resources + new software updates that effected the ability for me to upload video podcasts directly on spotify. i will continue to do video podcasts, but they will be available only on youtube..permanently

i love ranting..like..a lot. it's honestly a real issue when i annoy people around me with my problems. anyways, since i haven't posted in a while, i thought it would be a good idea to just sit down and record my rant about my mental health, and, a few other (exciting) things that are happening in the next couple weeks like prom, graduation, and a party?!? sounds weirddddd.

trying to start a business, especially at a young age, is extremely challenging to navigate through, even when your doing it ALL by yourself. the ongoing motivation and dedication sort of runs its course when you are filled with such joy and excitement about starting a brand that you poured your heart and soul into, but then leads to frustration and stress when it doesn't go as planned. for todays episode, i'm going to be talking about how my coffee company failed before it even launched. there is SO much to unpack so...get prepared and bring a damn snack.

I am officially back hoes!!! I am so beyond excited to be back and ready to sit and record for 15 hours straight. anyways, today we are celebrating the 3 year anniversary of everything changes, which is so exciting and even crazy to say out loud. I am beyond grateful for the growth that this podcast has achieved, and I can't wait to embark on more crazy ass journeys. today we will dive into why i started podcasting, the ups and downs of podcasting, my cover art HORROR show and what i look forward to for the future of the podcast. so that's...pretty much it. now, just sit back and relax, and enjoy this episode! XOXO, JOHN ♡

this episode is really…chaotic. but, today we will be talking about owning your independence. hopefully john explains it well (he probably won't).

anxiety is something that is incredibly common and difficult to manage through on a daily basis, especially when it troubles your every day life. today, we will be discussing the importance and challenges of anxiety.

it's 3 in the morning, and im losing my mind. i don't know what's going on in this episode or what i was even talking about. but that's the point anyway. so, please enjoy the next 45 minutes of rambling about every little thing in my life. i explain things in a very short and confusing manner. i hope you enjoy this episode and if you didn't…don't tell me because i am a sensitive libra.

family is forever. it feels good knowing that you have family in the world who will perhaps be there for you. but, family drama can sort of cause a bit of conflict between family dynamics. from experience, i have seen and witnessed a lot of negative dramatic moments within my family, and it was always difficult to stem away from that environmental aspect and in hopes it didn't affect my relations with any of my family members.

IM BACK! and i decided to share this beauty of an episode titled "to your inner child'' to showcase and even embrace that we all have a inner child within ourselves who maybe sometimes we keep hidden from the real world. i want this episode to spread light and spread love to anyone who misses their childhood. as we enter adulthood, we wish we could go back and be a kid, to be young and free, because it felt right. nowadays, we cant't just run free anymore. this world is too unkind. i want this video to represent compassion, love, gratitude, and enjoyment of our childhood years. thank you to everyone who has been patient with me. i really hope you like this video:)

so...is it just me or is summer not really summering right now? maybe because summer doesn't really start until the 21st but, I haven't really been feeling the summer vibes lately. my mind and body are still stuck in the winter stage which is odd and confusing. i am missing summer heavily so i am excited for whats to come in the summertime. i have more FREEDOM because school is offically over...FINALLY!

welp, im putting in my 2 weeks notice. as some of you guys may or may not know, i will be getting my wisdom teeth taken out, which is scaring me to death. but, i should hopefully feel better in the next 2 weeks, hoping to recover and heal shortly so i can get back to publishing and dropping episodes. for now, ill talk to you guys later, BYE

today, we will be talking about the challenges and aspects of being a child and being an adult. obviously, we are taught to grow to quickly, or feeling like we have to in order to escape the traumatic experiences that we face during our teenage years, in hopes of becoming an adult to not face those obstacles ever again. but, that's is completely false. as both a child and an adult, we face numerous problems and issues in our life.

just a fair warning to share with you all just in case. today, we will be covering a topic that is a little bit sensitive for most people who deal with depressive episodes or just any other mental health issues in general. but, if you find this episode to be very personal or very sensitive to you, please feel free to not watch this episode. so today, i wanted to talk about managing a depressive episode. two months ago, i had a VERY intense mental breakdown that i couldn't really describe in words. its like i was grasping for air, and i couldn't really understand why i was having this breakdown. but, more or less, i got through it with the best support from my mom who was there for me and i couldn't thank her enough. but, i know for some its difficult to recieve support when you are going through something so cryptic and so emotionally depressing, so i wanted to share some things on how to manage a depressive episode. these are some of the things that worked for me, hopefully they can work for you.

we all know nepotism has been the latest conversation in the public eye, and how nepotism affects the workplace environment & the coworkers from providing their incredible work ethic and creativity. nepotism is even spreaded around in celebrity culture, where TONS of unknown actors appear in movies out of no where, only to find out their father has been in the industry for 20+ years and has had a massive successful career in the acting profession train, and they had it easy auditioning for that specific role for a film because well…of their father. so today, we will be getting into on how nepotism can affect the workplace and how to resolve the problem with nepotism.

for the past two months, i have been dealing with a very scary situation with my gums. at first, it started out to be something that i wouldn't need to stress over, only because it didn't seem that serious or concerning at the time. but, when i had an upcoming dentist appointment, i found out that my wisdom teeth were growing. since than, i have been feeling overwhelmed with the constent stress of getting surgery, and on top of hearing about this information, i have to take exams AGAIN this spring. its stress on top of stress on top of stress at this point. but, everyone has at least gotten their wisdom teeth pulled out, its a very common surgery so really...i have nothing to worry about.

RESOURCE: university of the people the cost of college is rising even faster than inflation in the U.S. many students around the world face extreme financial constraints when it comes to attending college. because education is such a vital part of life, there are many reasons why college should be FREE. in my personal opinion, i think college should be free for everyone. doesn't matter the race, gender, age etc. if there was an ongoing process to where education was leaning towards a more beneficial stand point of providing free education around the world, than maybe people will be more invested into getting into college.

today, i wanted to dive into the troubles and difficulties of raising your first pet. yes, its exciting and so beyond enjoyable of raising and training a dog, because who wouldn't want to do that? but at the same time, in the middle of your training with your pet, it does get very frustrating and exhausting when there isn't any progress or change. we as pet owners (myself included) have to understand our pets are wonderful and ordinary creatures that are so precious and one of a kind, we shouldn't expect them to be ''perfect''. 

we've been conditioned by our society & culture to believe that it is far more important to be liked and to fit in, than it is to be who we truly are. there is no such thing as ''perfection'' when it comes to being ourselves. we have to strive to make the dumbest choices and to make mistakes in order for us to lead to our authentic self. til this day, i am still growing and learning to be at a place where i can actually be myself, and where i couldn't give less of a f*ck of what others perspectives are of me. life is too precoius and to fragile to begin that stressing journey to please others and to later be disrespected.

i don't have a specific topic for today, so i thought it would be the perfect idea to just catch up on life and talk about my new favorite tv show right now that i am currently getting depressed over, we're also going to talk about me finally taking a break from coffee and moving over to my matcha era. it's sort of like we're on a facetime call. 

being alone has its pros and cons. sometimes, being alone is the greatest superpower to have, from being on your own and not listening to anyone else's rule book, it truly becomes empowering. but, what if that superpower starts to die down? what happens if the loneliness consumes you and drags you down in a pit of depression or anxiety? what can you do to not allow yourself to experience that pit and not to see a solution to get out?.

we've all been at a place where we had to socialize and engage in conversations, and normally it doesn't go to plan. being anti-soical is totally normal, and it's ok to not be at a place where you are ready to experience social settings and engage in social conversations. today, we are talking about getting out of your comfort zone, and how to be motivated to push through social elements and stick through engaging conversations.

everything changes is officially coming back for a season 2. since we are taking “everything changes” seriously, season 2 will bring a few new surprises along the way by introducing more chaotic story's, guests, and some at home video podcasts (exclusively on spotify). the new season will arrive on march 15th.

listen, we've all been to a place where we were all dealing with acne, and struggling to find the best solutions and treatments to get rid of it, and sometimes we also tried out many different products like cleansers, serums, etc. but, it never worked out. today we are diving into on how acne is totally a normal occurrence that happens in our teen or adult lives.

well, i have discussed this specific topic in the past before, and i really didn't like how i explained it. now, i have all my thoughts collected from past toxic interactions i've had with people, and to finally put it all into great perspective and create a better understandable sense.

today's episode is going to be sensitive in regards to body image issues. John is admitting and addressing his own issues he has had with body image, and talks in depth on how it has had a negative impact on his health and overall lifestyle. body image is a serious well known problem that has been discussed for a long time, especially in regards to social media playing a part in it. overall, body image can be drastically damaging. just a fair warning, please be advised that if you feel uncomfortable while listening to this episode, please feel free to not listen.

seasonal depression hits very hard for some people, and it sometimes can be very difficult to go through all the time during the seasonal changes. --- This episode is sponsored by · Anchor: The easiest way to make a podcast. https://anchor.fm/app

recently…life has been the same ongoing roller coaster for the past 2 years. i feel like everyday for me has been the exact same, i feel no motivation to do absolutely anything. sometimes, when i wake up i definitely know what i am going to do in my day, which is honestly sad. it's like i know i can't have the ability to change my life cycle from being less boring to more motivational. --- This episode is sponsored by · Anchor: The easiest way to make a podcast. https://anchor.fm/app

sharing a little update on how life currently is at the moment, and how it was a few months back and what I've learned. quite frankly, i just turned 17 so a lot of accomplishments are underway.

listen, trying new activities for yourself is sometimes a little hard, especially since these activities are brand new to you, but in the end they do bring you joy and make you feel good inside.

well, life can be very complicated, confusing, scary, stressing, and even undoubtedly hard to manage through. John has some thoughts on how that is, and why his can be too.

Today's episode is going to be very short but it will uncover why beds are just so…comfy and make us happy inside.

It's going to be a very deep conversation about mental health. About the struggles of anxiety and other struggles that are hard to deal with on the daily basis. Stick around and hear about the struggles that John goes through, and maybe you might find some relatability about those specific mental health struggles.

John goes in depth on why toxic friendships aren't suitable and necessary for you're mental health and your livelihood.

Everything changes is FINALLY BACK! and it's even better than before. We have a three episode special event which includes episode 1: I miss my cats episode 2: I was left at alone at a park and episode 3: Im scared to fail my drivers permit.

In today's episode, John does some therapy about life, friends, money etc. therapy can be a great way to express your feelings out, even if it means expressing your feelings on a piece of paper.

Life can be full of the most wonderful opportunities, amazing people, and just a good time…but it isn't always the case. Life can be good and bad all the time. Today John gets a little deep into why life can be crazy for him and maybe even for other's.

John is back! todays episode is going back to the long period of time break that John took for a while and just revisiting the moments of what made him do that break. --- This episode is sponsored by · Anchor: The easiest way to make a podcast. https://anchor.fm/app

Today, John will be having a little therapy session with you guys..it might not help but it could maybe help some people out there on what's going on in our lives today.

Sleeping is something that doesn't even happen anymore. Homeschool is tiring, Tiktok is more of a learning app. The world is crazy

Stress is something that bites us in the butt all the time. School, work, keeping friendships, to not lose your job, to make sure your taxes/ bills are paid. There's so much things in the world that blocks us from being happy.

John shares is experience of starting is own business at such a young age. He talks about behind the scenes of running a business himself with out people breathing down his neck on what should stay or go. It should be interesting. --- This episode is sponsored by · Anchor: The easiest way to make a podcast. https://anchor.fm/app