OUT~LAW...There is Life After Litigation

With everything that has happened it is like a death to me. There are so many things that have changed.  I could feel the anxiety rising and the panic setting in. The TP  was a hot topic and  then it was sanitizer and hand wipes. Then it was no more than crowds of 250, 50 and 10. Then it was churches, restaurant and liquor stores. This like a death of a loved one feels to me like I need to mourn and with death comes all sorts of emotions like shock, anger, blame, sadness, frustration, questions like why me. What tools or knowledge do you currently possess that can help you in the current situation. The same thought process that created the situation is not the same thinking that can create the solution. It is time to be still and quiet the brain that is running rampant with stories that I presume are not making the current situation better.

Have you noticed the people in your profession are struggling now? Not that they weren’t struggling before it is just more apparent now because all the excuses have gone away. The things in the past that kept you and me from focusing directly on the problem at hand. I remember the days of being busy and not being able to find time for myself. To be honest it wasn’t all that long ago. Yes, I would do it for a while and then I would get sidetracked and then I would say ok ok let’s do it again. Kind of like the diet I will start it on Monday. I would forget about me and continue to worry about others. Going to work early and not taking time for lunch, working late and going home at the end of the day being spent. Does any of this sound familiar? Can you relate to any of this?

I know it may feel like you are alone with all the “social distancing”, feeling of isolation, being kept home from work, not eating at restaurants however most people in the world are feeling the exact same way. I have been sick for the past week and we have had some snow and a bit of yucky weather. So for me, it hasn’t really bothered me to stay at home and be inside. I know, however, there are others who don’t live where I do and being inside and away from others had really bothered them. Especially us extroverts who get reenergized by being with other people. I am also learning lessons about what it really means to be a global family. How people can still support one another even if they are not right next door. Think about what it would have been like 20 years ago had something like this happened. You can now choose empathy over separation, heart-centered action over greediness, and trust over fear. Be inspired instead of pessimistic. Focus on the positive and don’t get sucked into the negative. You have a choice so choose wisely.

I can equate this to life right now. I have been holding steady yet I am getting tired of the things I see happening.  I would love for this to be over and for things to go back to normal. I have been using the eraser way too much these days. I am noticing people struggling with • Difficulty concentrating or remembering important information • Feeling overwhelmed with the normal, everyday tasks • Stories • Being irritable, moody, or short-tempered

MY FEMININE IS ON THE RISE! Women are strong and we have the ability to make a difference. You have all the tools you need it is time to get creative! I have so many ideas flooding my brain! #OUT~LAW #witherswhisper #mentalandemotionalhealth #equinegestaltcoaching

LIFE IS LIKE GOING TO THE GYM! I’M NOT NECESSARILY INTERESTED IN GOING YET I LIKE THE RESULTS!!! When I make that statement what do you think? Who loves going to the gym? Wait I know a few people my brother in law who is a body builder and a personal trainer! I think he truly loves going to the gym. Yet the results are what is the deciding factor I think. For me some days can be a royal pain in the ass! And I do mean a pain in the ass! It doesn’t have to be the gym it can be anything right? ~Eating healthy ~Staying on track with goals and hopes and dreams What examples in your life can you think of? Life get’s in the way. What keeps me going when all the bullshit gets in the way! #OUT~LAW #witherswhisper #equinegestaltcoaching

It seems that our profession has a very high rate of depression, drug/alcohol abuse and depression. Lawyers are 3.6 times more likely to suffer from depression than nonlawyers, according to the American Psychological Association. Substance abuse rates within the legal profession are also much higher than for the general population. I know that my horses and I can help because it helped me deal with so many of the factors I mentioned above. This profession is so hard on us mentally, emotionally, & physically. I can provide a solution that is both instantaneous & lasting. I offer free MOMENT OF TRUTH SESSION! The whisper of the horse echoes the spirit of the soul. Don’t be afraid to choose you! There is no time like the present to work on you! For the full article that I referenced in the video. http://www.abajournal.com/magazine/article/attorney_suicide_what_every_lawyer_needs_to_know?fbclid=IwAR3K_TcVoVzmr4ZVm-6t74GdOBzb6tNJctfcJtpyrtKRVwDvXvRMPbTTDkw #OUT~LAW #witherswhisper

MAYBE RIGHT NOW MY JOURNEY IS NOT ABOUT WORK! It actually feels yummy to not think about work or push myself to work. Things like am I posting to Facebook, who am I connecting with, did I get a blog post in, did I get a newsletter out. Oh, and the big one did you work on your taxes! That is still on my desk calling my name every day. To tell the truth I have been a little better at quieting the peanut gallery when they start chirping. My whole life has been about work and “grinding it out”. That line was pointed out to me by a dear friend. This is something I say often. Words are very powerful think about it “grinding it out. That is not something that comes easily or naturally. In fact, those words sound harsh, painful and not enjoyable. Frankly, that is where I was at nothing was enjoyable. LIFE felt hard and painful. I was DONE! I learned that at a young age from my parents. To be busy and work hard. If you didn’t you were LAZY! I deemed being LAZY a bad thing. I never wanted to be known for that and most importantly I didn’t want to label myself as that word. I know that work will always be there that is not the question. However right now the journey is not about work. What is your journey and what is calling you right now?  #OUT~LAW #witherswhisper #mentalandemotionalwellbeing #equinecoaching

I’M A LAWYER NOT A MAGICIAN... I CAN ONLY PULL SO MANY RABBITS OUT OF MY ASS! Good lord clients think I am a miracle worker! Now don’t get me wrong there are times when I can walk on water and other times you can forget it. It also doesn’t help when you have clients that don’t help themselves. I see it happen all to often you work out a sweet deal and before you can get it signed a client some how screws it up by getting new charges, dropping a hot UA, blowing off an appointment and then it is all over! I’m like really WTF! Does this sound familiar? Guess what my horses don’t cause me that type of heart burn! When I go out to work them they don’t screw up and if something happens more than likely it was my fault NOT theirs. The joy and peace I have with them is amazing! The clients that work with them are grateful and appreciative and honored to be in their presence. #OUT~LAW #witherswhisper #mentalandemotionalwellbeing #personalgrowth #equinegestaltcoaching

I WAS OBSESSED WITH BEING PRODUCTIVE! This was the story of my life for years I would even go out on limb and say most of my life. I always had to be doing something. There was no down time. That saying no rest for the wicked I think was my theme! Productivity is measured most simply by the government as output per hour. This was a definition that came out of the great recession and yet we have normalized it or at least I had. Maybe I am crazy and this isn’t the norm. Yet when I look around at the legal profession and other professional organizations that seems to be what we are using as a definition what is the output. What does your productivity look like and what could it look like if you changed something? Even just one thing. https://www.washingtonpost.com/lifestyle/wellness/being-obsessed-with-being-productive-is-unproductive/2020/02/11/82358570-437d-11ea-b5fc-eefa848cde99_story.html?fbclid=IwAR3TEXz5WeoUWcgRP4Gh9BfduvoTk0ZV5t-OU42Yz5_patR975fjnpGOLIo  #OUT~LAW #witherswhisper #mentalandemotionalwellbeing #personalgrowth

I AM PROUD! What have you done to make you feel proud? Do you know the song by Heather Small? I can feel my soul ascending, I’m on my way, Can’t stop me now, and you can do the same! What have you done today to make you feel proud. In the past I was on the go and didn’t take the time to just BE. I was a HUMAN DOING AND NOT A HUMAN BEING! I finally feel like I have come to a place where I have found some passion and inspiration again. So many answers I don’t know Realize that to question is how I grow So I step out of the ordinary! My question to you is you could be so many people if you make that break for freedom! What have you done today or yesterday to make yourself feel proud? STOP PUT THE HAMMER DOWN! It doesn’t have to be HUGE it could be.... That you left work when you said you were! You ate healthy instead of grabbing fast food! You paid attention to your children and didn’t take a call from a client! You didn’t react to opposing counsel!!! Double HELL YA! You actually stopped and smelled the roses!  #OUT~LAW #witherswhisper #mentalandemotionalwellness 

MY PAST SELVES NO LONGER SERVE THE NEW ME! When I look back over my 47 years of life I think of who I once was! I remember who I was before my dad died. ~I remember who I was after I graduated from college. ~I remember who I was after law school. ~I remember who I was before I started my personal growth journey. ~I remember who I was before my brain tumor! Who were you before? Check out the latest episode of OUT~LAW!  #OUT~LAW #Witherswhisper #mentalandemotionalhealth #women #equinegestaltcoaching

ASHES TO ASHES! Did that make you think of the nursery rhyme? Or if you are catholic like me you probably are reminded of ash Wednesday. In my world that is the start of Lent and the Easter season. As a kid, it is about the Easter bunny, candy & finding eggs! As an adult, I used to say I am giving up giving up. However, this year was different for me maybe it is because I am in a different headspace. In a world of such hatred to oneself and others, bullying, lying, cheating, criminal acts, debates, and politics. What could I do that could bring a smile to someone’s face who really needs it. #OUT~LAW #witherswhisper #equinegestaltcoaching #mentalandemotionalwellbeing #women 

MY MESS IS MY MESSAGE! We all have a mess! Mine just looks different than yours or maybe NOT. I find that it is easy to compare my backstage to other people’s front stage. Not one of us really knows what is going on in someone else’s life yet I find myself wanting to compare. It is not always easy for me to be in the mess of things yet I know this is my message. I know that because for a long time I struggled with my message and what do I say. Why isn’t it landing! I struggle with patience in this mess because I want to be in a different place than I am right now. Oh, good lord, this is not easy for sure yet I am holding the faith that in the end, it will all be worth the MESS! What mess do you have going on in your life right now? What is the message that can support you and others? #OUT~LAW #witherswhisper #equinegestaltcoaching #mentalandemotionalwellbeng #coaching #women

IN CONNECTING I CREATE BALANCE! Over the weekend I had the opportunity to participate in mock judging for potential and future contestants for Miss Rodeo Colorado. Wow, did I learn so much! That ability to just be in the present moment and listen without having to respond with an answer or the desire to be right. One of the questions I asked was what is the number one problem that your generation is facing Find out their response and how connection creates balance. #OUT~LAW #witherswhisper #connection #MissRodeoColorado #balance

This has been a conversation I have had with myself for years and a more recent conversation with my husband. How can I be so good at something and yet not want to do it? Well, it started several years ago this question... How many can relate to that feeling or nagging question you might be good at something yet it doesn’t turn your crank. Or vice versa you are good at something and want to do it all the time and yet you don’t know how to make it work. Just because I am good at something doesn’t mean I want to do it forever or that it brings me joy currently! If I died tomorrow would it matter…maybe to that one it does yet to me it doesn’t in the big picture? #OUT~LAW #witherswhisper #mentalandemotionalwellbeing #personalgrowth #equinegestaltcoaching

AND SO IT IS! So this week I had my monthly call with my coach. I really love having a coach. For me it is supportive, it helps me see things that I wouldn’t otherwise see, and most importantly I have aw ha’s like I did on this call. I have been in deep self-reflection for the past 30 plus days and will continue that for the next 70 or more days. I talked about this on one of my first podcasts this year how I was committed to the first 100 days. WOW has it been moving so much has come up for me during this time! #OUT~LAW #witherswhisper #equinegestaltcoaching #personalgrowth #mentalandemotionalwellbeing

EVERYBODY NEEDS SELF CARE EVEN... The horses need self-care! #witherswhisper #OUT~LAW #self-care #horses #equinegestaltcoaching

I’M DRINKING FROM A FIRE HOSE! Even though it has been only minutes or hours it feels like days and weeks have gone by. Right now things are changing so rapidly that it is hard to get a grasp on things. Change is never easy nor is it convenient. Yet here we are. I have noticed so many things in the legal profession and how we were so ill-prepared for this type of situation. I am discovering new things about myself and have a huge opportunity to learn new things.  #OUT~LAW #witherswhisper #women #coaching #mentalandemotionalwellbeing #equinegestaltcoaching

EXERCISE BRINGS BALANCE, IDEAS, AND A HA MOMENTS! When I move my body it helps me feel peaceful and connected. When I am riding with the horses or running on the treadmill it shifts my awareness. I can really tell especially when I get out of the habit of exercising how both my body and my mind are no longer in balance. It is so easy to get out of the habit of working out and much harder to stay in that place of commitment. Can any of you relate? #OUT~LAW #witherswhisper #women #coaching #equinegestaltcoaching #mentalandemotionalhealing

I’M NO LONGER AVAILABLE FOR THINGS THAT CAUSE ME TO FEEL LIKE SHIT! I can remember the days of being in the grind of the criminal justice system. The days of hearing DA’s talk about my clients, clients that did stupid shit, or clients who just happened to be in the wrong place at the wrong time. Cops who couldn’t see past the end of their nose and put a square peg in a round hole because the ends justified the means. My calendar is so full that I didn’t have time to eat lunch or allow me to get to the gym to work out. Friends that take because I was willing to give and yet the friendship wasn’t reciprocated. Does this sound family? That feeling of giving and giving and in the end who is the one that feels like shit! Not the people you are around. Not the legal system, not opposing counsel, surely not my client. No, they would go home and probably never think about our interaction, and yet I would find myself sometimes stewing for days or weeks.  #OUT~LAW #witherswhisper #coaching #women #mentalandemotionalwellbeing 

I AM IN DOWNLOAD AND RE-BOOT MODE! Maybe it’s that time of year or just maybe my software needs an update. I am at that place where I come to the computer and it says you must shut your computer off and update the software. I was getting that message for the last couple months and I kept pushing snooze until I couldn’t My mental software needs to be updated. I am working on version 7 and I need to be on at least version10. Hell, my cell phone gets updated and rebooted more than me. Where are you? Do you feel like you need to update your mental hardware and have a reboot? What software version are you operating on?  #witherswhisper #OUT~LAW #women #coaching #mentalandemotionalwellbeing #equinegestaltcoaching

THE LESSON THAT HAS TAKEN ME THE LONGEST TO LEARN! From as far back as I can remember patience was not something I had. I have patience as long as I don’t have to wait. ~What if I could have patience? ~What if I could stay in the present moment? ~What if I could be ok with what is? These are questions I have asked myself throughout the years. Some things and situations have been easier than others. What I can tell you is that I am NOT a master at this by any stretch of the imagination. The journey with the horses has helped me with patience, staying in the present moment, and ultimately be ok with what is.  #OUT~LAW #witherswhisper #women #patience #mentalandemotionalwellbeing #equinegestaltcoaching

I AM TAKING CARE OF MY SANITY!! I AM BEING SELFISH AND I LOVE IT! I think this is the first time in a long time that I can remember truly putting me first. Ever since I can remember I have been taking care of people. You know those people who appear very strong and that they have it all together yet inside they are dying that is how I started to feel. NO SHIT NO KIDDING I SAID NO MORE! This is all new and somewhat strange. Yet I know there is something deep inside that is wanting to come through me and for me. How many of you can relate to being busy and feeling like you don’t have time to be selfish or get off the merry go round? ~I have bills to pay ~kids to send to school ~a mortgage payment ~ car payment ~ maybe even child support or alimony I too have some of those as well. Yet I know if this vessel my body is not on a solid foundation everything else around me will crumble. #OUT~LAW #witherswhisper #women #coaching #equinegestaltcoaching #mentalandemotionalwellbeing

I’M A MASTERPIECE ATTEMPTING TO MASTER PEACE! Wow, this process has been way more difficult than I would have ever thought. For the first time in probably 47 years that I have STOPPED DOING and focused on JUST BEING Success has always come fairly easy. Not that I mean it was handed to me or that there weren’t struggles yet not struggles like this..what I mean is that when I set my mind to something I was able to show progress and steps forward. To get and have results. I am results-oriented. Not this year! How many of you can relate to this? That feeling of feeling like you are not making progress?  #OUT~LAW #witherswhisper #women #coaching #equinegestaltcoaching #mentalandemotionalwellbeing

YOU HAVE THE RIGHT TO REMAIN SILENT! YET I DIDN’T HAVE THE ABILITY! Time and time again over the years I have seen this with clients. Why? Because we are taught to be polite and nice to police officers or because they were just too drunk to shut their damn mouth! The other day I saw a post on one of my FB groups about this. This has happened to me as well as client calls… I explain the constitution and how the cops have been trained and it doesn’t matter what you say they either have the evidence or they don’t. I often think before I open my mouth ~Is it true? ~Is it helpful? ~Is it necessary? As a coach, I believe that I don’t hold the answers. I only hold a mirror up so that the client can see the reflection within and find their answers. When my clients work with the horses they discover the answers within if not the horses will show you how to get to the truth. If you are interested in figuring out how to speak your truth or finding your truth the horses and I can help. #OUT~LAW #witherswhisper #coaching #equinegestaltcoach #women #mentalandemotionalhealing

THANK YOU I KNOW THERE IS SOMETHING BETTER! Sometimes the hard knocks can get you down! Way down… Maya Angelou shared so much wisdom over the years. I have so many one-liners I have used that she has shared like: ~When you know better you do better! ~When people show you who they are believe them the first time! And now this..thank you I know there is something better. #OUT~LAW #witherswhisper #coaching #women #mentalandemotionalwellbeing #thankyouiknowthereissomethingbetter

HEALTHY SELF......HEAL THYSELF! Wow, this caught my attention the other day while scrolling through Facebook. Breaking the word HEALTHY apart! It is the end of January and people are starting to forget about the New Year's commitment to going to the gym or eating healthy or whatever they thought they were going to commit to. Right…. Why because life and they are not important! Find out how the desire to cheat on my cleanse relates to my business and life goals. #OUT~LAW #witherswhisper #coaching #healthyself #women #mentalandemotionalwellbeing

I’M THIRSTY FOR MORE! The more I have the more I am wanting. Today I even thought about taking a nap in the middle of the day! I decided to meditate instead! I remember the days when I was so busy that I didn’t even have time to think straight I went from one task to the next. There was no emotion behind anything I just kept going and did it. No matter how big or small the win was it was a task and I moved right on to the next thing. This is a deep ceded thought/pattern. Do you want more support in finding both inner and outer peace in your life? I and the horses can support you with that. If you think this is something that sounds right for you follow your heart and schedule a FREE moment of truth session today! #OUT~LAW #witherswhisper #coaching #women #mentalandemotionalwellbing #wantingmore

THE WHEEL FELL OFF THE BUS THIS PAST WEEK! I was on a good roll with my intention for the year and then I started having back issues. My inner critique, my expectations of myself, and the disappointment I had all showed up! Does this sound familiar when life gets in the way? #witherswhisper #OUT~LAW #coaching #women #mentalandemotionalwellbeing

THE CAN NOT’S I OVERCAME! #OUT~LAW #witherswhisper #coaching #women #mentalandemotinalwellbeing

ANYTHING IS POSSIBLE IF IT IS IMPORTANT TO YOU AND YOU WILL FIND A WAY OTHERWISE YOU WILL FIND A JUSTIFICATION! Do you remember a time when you were hungry for something, your first job, home your law degree, becoming the CEO of a company, owning your own business? WHAT IS YOUR WHY? WHAT HOLDS VALUE FOR YOU? Opportunities are never missed they are passed onto someone else. #OUT~LAW #witherswhisper #coaching #women #mentalandemotionalwellbeing #excuses

WE ARE NEVER PROMISED TOMORROW! Death already in the new year! You only have 8760 this year to be used so choose wisely. SOMEDAY is not on the calendar! Rest In Peace Rick Howard!  #OUT~LAW #witherswhiper #coaching #death #someday #mentalandemotionalwellness

IT’S NOT THAT I HAVE TOO LITTLE TIME TO DO ALL THE THINGS I NEED TO DO…IT’S THAT I FEEL THE NEED TO DO TOO MANY THINGS IN THE TIME I HAVE! Have you ever noticed that the to-do list is long and just keeps getting longer? 8760 hours per year what will you choose to do with that time. #OUT~LAW #witherswhisper #coaching #mentalandemotionalwellbeing #women

I HAVE JUST DISCOVERED I HAVE IMPOSTOR SYNDROME! WHAT? Check out my latest episode to find out if you suffer too! #OUT~LAW #witherswhisper

IF OVERTHINKING A SITUATION BURNED CALORIES, I WOULD BE ANOREXIC! Does this sound familiar? What is your question that you are overthinking? Close your eyes, listen and feel, what is your first answer!  #OUT~LAW #witherswhisper #women #overthinking #mentalandemotionalhealth #coaching

Marriage is not always easy and sometimes my poor husband gets the brunt! Share with me some of your knowledge/funny stories that you share with your spouse. #OUT~LAW #witherswhisper #marraige #couples #women #coaching #menatalandemotionalhealth

If I slowed down I would be forced to acknowledge and feel what is wanting to come through! See what I have learned. #OUT~LAW #witherswhisper #coaching #women #fear #mentalandemotionalhealth

I share the solution to the dreaded job. #OUT~LAW #witherswhisper#coaching #women #mentalandemotionalhealth #job

IS MARRIAGE ABOUT BEING HAPPY? Sometimes even their breathing makes you crazy!!! #OUTLAW #witherswhisper #marriage #couples #happymarriage

I AM A MASTER OF WHAT I KNOW AND AN APPRENTICE OF WHAT I DON’T! I will forever be a student. Continuing to learn no matter my status Being a student isn’t so bad. The hardest part of being a student is going back to eating ramen noodles and mac and cheese. I am on the path of rediscovering the confidence and status I once had. What are you a master in and wanting to be a student again? Share with me in the comments below. If you are ready to take the student challenge I and the horses are ready to help you. #OUT~LAW #witherswhisper #coaching #women #mentalandemotionalhealth

MY FIRST 100 DAYS AS PRESIDENT! This is the beginning of my successful term in my life this year! Remember history class being taught that a new President shares what they what to change and create in their first 100 days of office. Who was I? What did I create? What did I change? Who did I become? What did I discover? and most importantly... Where am I going? What do your first 100 days look like of your Presidency? #OUT~LAW #witherswhisper #first100days

YOU CAN’T HANDLE THE TRUTH! I lied to myself for many years. For at least 3 years I continued to put a square peg in a round hole. You know what the definition of insanity is right? It is doing the same thing over and over again expecting a different result! Are you too lying to yourself? Check out the latest episode of OUT~LAW! #OUT~LAW #witherswhisper

IT’S ALL ABOUT THE CLIMB! This morning, while spending time with myself and doing my morning work out this song, came on by Miley Cyrus. "I can almost see it That dream I’m dreaming but There’s a voice inside my head saying You’ll never reach it, Every step I’m taking, Every move I make feels Lost with no direction My faith is shaking but I Gotta keep trying Gotta keep my head held high" This is what I feel like I have been doing for months and getting nowhere. #OUT~LAW #witherswhisper #Coaching #mentalandemotionalhealth

I LOVE MONDAYS!!! NOT!!! Today like every other Monday I started scrolling through Facebook and to what do I see another dreaded post... See how I deal with Mondays! #OUT~LAW #witherswhisper

PUT THE HAMMER

EVIL DOES NOT OBEY LAWS! EVIL IS NOT STOPPED BY A LAW! I am sure who ever is involved didn’t grow up thinking one day hey I am going to walk into a location and shoot it up! Our world is hurting deeply and the madness has to STOP. Check out another episode of OUT~LAW #OUT~LAW #WITHERSWHISPER

5, 4, 3, 2, 1.... Are you locked in a mental prison and the key is in your pocket? I love to read and anyone who knows me knows I have 2 or 3 books going on at any given time. Wow, I just stared BINGE reading The 5 Second Rule by Mel Robbins. She is a lawyer and when I started reading her story I could so relate. As a lawyer, I knew I was in pain and still yet it wasn’t enough to find the AUDACITY TO BE BOLD!

YOU’RE NOT STARTING FROM SCRATCH YOU’RE STARTING FROM EXPERIENCE! I had DREAMED of nothing other than being a LAWYER! I remember graduating from law school and ready to take the legal profession by storm! I remember the days of waking up and putting my feet on the ground and the DEVIL saying she is awake! After practicing for about 8 years I was in the middle of a 5 days jury trial when my 18-month-old puppy died. I remember thinking WHAT AM I KILLING MYSELF FOR? For me the struggle was real. I wanted to be a lawyer yet my GIVE A DAMN WAS BUSTED! I see other women lawyers struggling with these same issues daily. Asking what is the latest app to help reduce stress. How do I balance my work and personal life? I am working 80-90 hour work weeks and just pulled another all weekend marathon. I too can say yes to all those comments above. Until one day I realized my passion was much bigger than the criminal justice system. There is something better for YOU out there. Your passion and PURPOSE are much bigger than being a lawyer! We, women, get scared, people tell us NO and the voices in our head are saying STOP!AND KEEPING US STUCK! Ask yourself what record is playing your head and keeping you stuck? It is time to take your knowledge, training, and expertise and start FRESH, not FROM SCRATCH! #OUT~LAW #witherswhisper

I CAN BE PATIENT AS LONG AS I DON’T HAVE TO WAIT! Patience is not my strong suit! I am an overachiever with a Type A personality. I think this is most lawyers or for sure 100% trial lawyers. We live for that courtroom high! I set goals and am constantly learning and wanting to improve my life. YET...when I want something I want it YESTERDAY! Does that sound familiar? Whatever I do I go all out. If I say I am going to do something you don’t have to worry it will more than likely be done before the deadline. Things like ~ training for a 5K ~ Releasing weight and getting healthy ~ making a certain income. So I would plant the seed and I am constantly looking in the ground to see if it has started to grow yet. Is the crop ready, why not, do I need more fertilizer, do we need more sunshine? Why isn’t it growing? Is it growing YET??? UGH!!!! Maybe this is my training that causes me to look and seek out answers yet none the less I have learned that this is not working. There have been 2 big things in LIFE THAT I HAVE WANTED MORE THAN I WANTED TO BREATHE. One was to be married and the second was to be a mother. Neither of those has happened in my time frame. It seemed like no matter what I did my wishes, hopes and dreams just weren’t coming true! Everyone around me was getting married and having a baby and all I could think about was I JUST WANT TO PUNCH YOU IN THE FACE! I wanted to be happy for my friends yet deep down inside I was jealous and thinking... * Why not me? * What did I do wrong? * What lesson do I still need to learn? I just wanted the cliff notes in order to know whether it would be worth it in the end. I had to be open to what might be and to what might never be and could I be ok with it no matter the result. I remember being asked that question what happens if it doesn’t EVER HAPPEN! I remember not even being able to say those words...in fact, I almost threw up at the thought let alone saying them out loud. After a HUGE piece of work, with a horse called Jack, I was able to finally SURRENDER to the DREAM! AWW surrender something that wasn’t in my vocabulary as a type A personality and high overachiever. That meant that I was giving up...RIGHT! WRONG it just meant that I had to come to peace and allow the process to unfold and to let go of CONTROL. Control let go what do you mean I had been white-knuckling it my whole life. Can you relate to that feeling thinking your in control? Well, I was quickly shown that control is just an illusion. I have heard that when you tell God your plans he just laughs and clearly, he was laughing once again at me and my thoughts. As a result of this piece of work with Jack, I was able to get real, heal and SURENDER TO THE DREAM! What are you white-knuckling thinking you are in control? Share what seeds you have planted yet are not patient enough to let grow? #OUT~LAW #witherswhisper

OPPORTUNITIES ARE NEVER MISSED THEY ARE JUST PASSED ONTO SOMEONE ELSE! Find out what I think about this! Share with me opportunities you may have missed! #OUT~LAW #witherswhisper