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I did it guys. I've finally healed from my last relationship, and it feels amazing. It took a lot of work, tears, and time but I'm finally able to say I don't miss him anymore or that I'm hurt. Now I still have a lot of work to do on myself but why not celebrate even the small things. I've moved past all the trauma he caused me and took that pain and turned into something amazing. I moved at my own pace and had to do it alone but that made the healing even better. If my ex taught me anything, it's that I don't nobody but myself.  IG/Tiktok: @Lexx.commTwitter: @Lexybabe115

This is just a Pt on how misogynistic men ain't shit. Sorry for how pt1 one ended I didn't realize I was running out of time but, remember gents we aren't seeking male validation. Never have been and never will be. Keep your childish comments and opinions to yourself. XOXO -Your worst nightmare. IG/Tiktok: Lexx.commTwitter: Lexybabe115 

Y'all have it all wrong thinking that a solid woman is solely based on if she sticks around after you keep hurting her. These "men" have given us the blueprint on how stupid they really can be. I mean at this point they've proven how they really ain't shit and I find it hilarious how they continue to talk down us when they whole team going out sad. Then don't even get me started on the pinheads with their "podcast" that are solely based on degrading women or giving their "opinions" on what a woman should wear or if she should wear make-up or not. These same men that put down women be the same ones begging for those said women. It's very embarrassing if you ask me. Let them keep embarrassing themselves it's kind of entertaining to see how stupid a "man" really is. IG/ Tiktok: @Lexx.commTwitter: Lexybabe115

enigma [iˈniɡmə] NOUNa person or thing that is mysterious, puzzling, or difficult to understand."Madeleine was still an enigma to him"IG/ Tiktok: @lexx.commTwitter: @Lexybabe115

Hey guys, don't be a misogynistic asshole.... Thanks IG/Tiktok: @Lexx.commTwittter: @Lexybabe115

I really dread doing these but feel so much better afterwards. I highly recommend y'all doing shadow-work. Embrace it no matter how bad it hurts. IG/Tiktok: @Lexx.commTwitter: @Lexybabe115

I was scrolling through my old pictures looking for my fashion projects that I've done so far, and I came across some old pictures of my ex. I had thought that I deleted them all, but I was wrong. Seeing those pictures hurt me more than it should have but I can admit it, it hurt. I realized that I still had work to do because I shouldn't have been so triggered. IG/Tiktok: @Lexx.commTwitter: @Lexybabe115  

I was in a rut a while back as you all may know. I thought that I'd never be able to fall in love again, not realizing that I actually fell in love with myself. It was a rough 2021 but I made it. I know that and figure out that me loving myself will bring in whatever I manifest, it will bring someone amazing into my life. I'm excited to and ready for whatever else the universe brings me or throws my way. IG/TikTok: @Lexx.commTwitter: @Lexybabe115

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Someone needs to bring back this kind of show, especially now a days. There's so much shit on the internet, they've got way more social media sites now, and a lot of predators are getting away with now. Let's save our young ones from creeps on the internet. IG/Tiktok: Lexx.commTwitter: Lexybabe115

This will explain a lot I think. I have been all over the place with this journey and path of mine. I am really enjoying it though the good and bad days. I know for fact that it won't rain forever. I will continue to move with love and good intentions. I'm not an expert in anything and just sharing my experience and my joruney. IG & Tikok: @Lexx.commTwitter: @Lexybabe115 

Going down memory lane lol story times are going to be fun.IG & TikTok: @Lexx.commTwitter: @Lexybabe115

Oh man this one was kind of tough recording. Lately I've been feeling a lot better I've been doing the work and tryingmy best. I'll be honest though there are some nights and days that are harder than others. I'm not looking to be in a relationship at the moment or anyhting of the nature but there are times where I worry if I might get heartbroken again and you know I'm trying my best not to because it's a complete waste of time trying to worry about if everyone you come across, intentions are good or not. I'm learning to be more present and not in my head so much. I know that one day I will get there and be completely worry free. IG & Tiktok: @Lexx.commTwitter: Lexybabe115 

Hope you guys enjoy this little rant session. Another thing is I am grateful for everyone that listens. IG & Tiktok: @Lexx.commTwitter: @Lexybabe115

Showing graditude even for the smaller things can bring in some amazing things in life. I know it may be hard to show it because sometimes you're going things that may distract you from noticing that you have everything you need to create your heaven on earth. Now I'm not saying don't ignore what you're going through but I do believe that showing graditude can help with those very problems. There was a time last year where I was going through a lot and I felt like I couldn't catch a break but, I stopped and realize that I have so much to be grateful for. Another thing to remember that if you always move with love and a good heart you'll always win. IG & Tiktok: @Lexx.commTwitter: Lexybabe115 

Lets normalize setting boundaries and not feeling bad about it. It's okay to set boundaries. Don't feel bad for putting yourself first and wanting respect. If there was one thing I wish I had done it's setting boundaries and not breaking them for anyone because think about it most people are going to think that you don't respect yourself so why should they. It breaks my heart just remembering the lack of respect I had for myself. The way I cared about others feelings more then mine. I can say now that I'm learning to love myself and putting myself first. It feels amazing and I'm glad that I got through my thick skull that I come first. Don't ever dim your light just to be someones person or to fit into someones life. IG & Tiktok: @Lexx.commTwitter: Lexybabe115

My family just went through something very tragic and it sucks that we don't think about this kind of stuff until it's to late and I hate that. You could make someones day just by sending a little text, having a little short phone call, and or leaving a voicemail. It's very hard for me because I am a distant person but I know I feel good when people check up on me. IG and Tiktok:@ Lexx.comm Twitter: @Lexybabe115

I don't really know why people let celebrity relationships, social media, and society contorl what they think a relationship should be like. Instead of having your own thoughts on what a relationship is supposed to be like. Hell don't even listen to me, have your own experience and manifest what you want in a relationship and don't say a relationship like Durk and India or Jay and Bey. Another thing don't try to compare your relationship to anyone else's. I understand that is hard find a descent human being to date in this generation. Also another thing is I get it if you don't have anyone to talk to and get advice from but make sure the information you're getting is valuable and real. 

DON'T DO IT I REPEAT DO NOT HAVE UNPROTECTED SEX!!! If there is anything I regret most in the world it's having unprotected sex. Just becuase they tell you, you can trust them don't strap up anyway and protect you and your health. Trust me having a STD scare is not fun. It also funny enough made my trust inssue a whole lot worse then what it was before.

I can not stress enough how hard this healing shit is. There are times where I get really frustrated, like sometimes I can't even understand whats happening and why its happening. I tyr hard not to feel like I'm being punished you know becuase I know that in the end I am going to be successful, happy, and content. There are times though where I don't know if I'm going the right way about things. I have faith in myself I do but, it can get really hard. Then there are guys that claim their intrested in me and of course I'm not looking for any kind of relationship but I don't trust a damn soul. So, like why are youu even intrested even after I told you that I'm still healing and only wanting to focus on myself. I just want to go to the highest mountain and scream until I can't scream no more. IG/TikTok: @Lexx.commTwitter: @Lexybabe115

This is just an update on my healing journey. I've come a long way but I am feeling amazing at this point. It's been a very tough ride and a fucking roller coaster. This whole experience has been hectic but I know it's all going to be worth. I am so proud of myself because I did not give up no matter how hard, dark, and depressing it was. I made is out even though I had to do it alone. I'm strong as hell and I'm grateful I made it. Ig/Tiktok: @Lexx.commTwitter: @Lexybabe115

The fact that there was even a debate about if little boys can play with a kitchen set or not really didn't sit right with me, like I can't believe that people are really out here bothered by the fact that parents are buying thier kids these kitchen sets and posting about it. Kids should just be able to be kids and play with any toy they want. Instead of thinking of ways to raise your child and love them y'all are trying to keep kitchens sets away from them so they won't "turn out gay", that shit does;t even make sense. A toy, clothes, or being around someone of the LGBTQ community isn't going to turn your child gay. Ig/Tiktok:@Lexx.commTwitter:@Lexybabe115b

I'm not taking anyone else's shit, not dealing with any family drama, fake "friends" etc. I have so much to look foward and I'm doing and feeling amazing. It's all good over here. I've done the work on myself and goals and its finally paying off. I've heal from the trauma and the pain that those have caused me and I did it all on my own. Ig/Tiktok: @Lexx.commTwitter: @LexyBabe115 

Why can't people just live their lives and be them? People go above and beyond to not mind thier own business, it's wierd. A person should be able to love who they want, wear what they want and it really shouldn't be a problem. Ig/Tiktok: @Lexx.commTwitter: @Lexybabe115

I don't care what anyone says paparazzi is one of the most annoying thing ever. They respect people boundaries, they're rude, and pushy. They forget that celebrity are people too and that they have feelings. This is why many celebrities suffer from anxiety and depression, because they're feelings go unnoticed. Ig/Tiktok: Lexx.commTwitter: Lexybabe115 

I just want everyone to know that I am not blaming anyone for my pain. If I'm going to put the blame on anyone it's myself. I beat myself up for the longest time about how I fell for people's bullshit. The mindset I have now is that it is what it is. People come and go and the ones that stay are the ones that matter. I am no longer going to take everything seriously. I know better now and I'm still healing but, I'm not in a dark place anymore. I am grateful for those who left, betrayed me, used me etc. because it showed me how strong I am and what I can handle. Ig/Tiktok: Lexx.commTwitter: Lexybabe115 

We have to learn that are our are dangerous and that they can really destory someone. Change the way you talk your kids, parents, partners, and friends. Apologize for the things you've said may have hurt someone. It may not bother some people but for people like me it sticks and it can really change the way someone may see themselves. It's oaky to admit when you're wrong and taking accountability for the damage you may have caused, but do not beat yourself up about it. Self refelcting is an amazing thing and can really help you grow. Ig and Tiktok: Lexx.commTwitter: Lexybabe115 

Women are not seeking male validation. Our body our choice.  We wear what want when we want and it's only for ourselves and because we can. Sorry to break it to you but your opinion does not matter and no one is looking for it. Don't tell a woman what to wear and that them wearing something makes them look like a "hoe" or "easy" etc. If you can't handle a woman that loves her body and has no problem showing it then just say that. Clothing items does make someone a "hoe" or "easy". IG and Tiktok: @Lexx.commTwitter: @Lexybabe115

I wrote a poem, hope you guys enjoy it. Please feel free to tell me what you think. I'm all ears. 

This was a very touchy subject for me. Another shadow work prompt that made me cry and realize I am in fact a people pleaser. It's been very eye opening, I started to set boundaries and also started to lose "Freinds" "Partners" and I took it pretty hard. I was afraid of setting boundaries because I was scared of finding if those who people that claimed they loved me were just using me. I had the gut feeling but I just didn't trust it. This is just some things I went through and had to figure out the hard way. 

I don't trust this whole vaccine thing but I'm not here to convince you not to get and to side with me, I'm simply just telling you guys what I think and why I'm not getting it. Also I'm not judging anyone who has it. Tell me what you guys think and if you got it tell me how you feel and if it's had any side effects. IG: Lexx.comm Twitter: LexyBabe115 

I highly recommend seeing a therapist. I never thought I would be able to be so open with my emotions and my thoughts and not get judge by it. I've experienced a lot of emotional abuse and it has caused me to be a very private person also me being a Aquarius I'm not one who likes to share said emotions with anyone. It causes me physical pain to even form a sentence just to tell somehow how I feel. I geuniely hate it lol. 

This has been one hell of a roller coaster ride and I'm ready for the ride to be over. I'm learning patience with myself. It's hard because I've never actually had to heal before, I usually just hold it in and try my best to ignore it. One thing I can say is that I actually feel a lot better when I let out my feelings and emotions even though it is the hardest thing I've ever had to do.  

This is was a funny little trend I wanted to do. Some of these are jokes. Others I stand by. I enjoyed doing this I suggest you guys try it and send me your list, I'd love to hear it.

I don't if I've drilled in the simple fact that I not working for anyone ever again but just incase the last two weren't convincing enough this one should do it. Its jsut not working for me. 

Pt 2 of why this is the last time I work for anyone! Tell me some of you horror stories of the workplace that you've experienced. IG: lexx.comm Twitter: Lexybabe115

This is going to be my last time working for someone ever again. I am fed up, tired and all in all just over it. This is where I explain. This is a sign for you to quit working at that horrible job that you hate and can't stand. Find something that you love and enjoy. I am currently working towards starting my business. I just have to keep pushing and working hard. 

There has been a big problem lately with the simple fact that when a woman tells a man she isn't intrested, that she doesn't wan to give him her number, and or politely rejects him, they get upset. Women get there the things damaged, followed, questioned, called out of their names etc. just because she rejected a man. What has the world come to??? 

Up late again overthinking at its finest. If I struggle from anyhitng it's overthinking and the late nights make it worst. I'm use to being alone, having people betray, and having to put myself back together again, but for some reason its harder this time. This time I feel like I've really let myself down. I really put my heart out there and put my all into and it was just another lesson another perosn added to my list of reason why I never trust anyone, why I never open up, and why I stay to myself.  

Antoher day of me letting out all my emotions. These feelings that I've had pent up in me for so long as I can remember has been one of my struggles. I'll be the first to say that it has helped me out a lot. As and Auqarius I don't like to feel, I don't like to be emotional, and I don't like expessing said emotions.  I'm slowly starting to learn how to express myself and control these emotions. It's been quite the struggle as I'm sure you can tell. 

So, I wanted to try soething new when it came to shadow work. I have a very hard doing as is, why not try soemthing different that might actually help. Instead of me writing it out I thought I'd try starting a series of me doing prompts aloud. I've started to learn so much with being alone and on this healing/spiritul journey of mine. As usual I'm here to open up more, be more in touch with my feelings, and step out of my comfort zone. 

Once I started to take accountability for the things I went through with my ex's, friends, and even family it all made so much sense. I wouldn't have went through half of the things I went through if I didn't allow it but because I chose to stick around and continue to try and see the good in people I got hurt. I don't blame those who've hurt me. Instead of wanting them to apologize to me I apologize to myself. (Also I'm sorry I didn't get to really close out, my family was coming in and I wanted to finish before they came through the door.)

This is one of the hardest things I've ever had to go through. After all the years I thought that I was healed. I'm now learning that there is so much more to it. This is something can't be rushed or just pushed to the back of my mind. It'll take time but once it's all said and done I know I will feel amazing. I know that I will glow again. 

Ladies today I have for you another red flag. If your man says any of the lines that I've talked about to today he doesn't respect you. You can either leave him or educate him but don't let that shit make you feel bad. 

A man will have the audacity to sit there and say they want peace and want you to be there peace, but put you through hell. Today's episode is a bit of a story time and me sharing my experience.