Complicated Noise

I haven't recorded for a while and I thought that I would update people about the things that are happening since October. Health issues, stress, being busy, social irritations… but I am okay. For real. :) I apologise for sounding like I recorded in a barrel. Enjoy?

I have moved back to the coast, started a new job, but it feels like I am unenthusiastic about life and my future plans. I haven't gone out and done much because of the COVID junk, but I should. But will I? Who knows… I'm just bored and tired lately. Photo is by Titus Aparici (@titusaparici) on UnSplash.

I am moving out of super-rural Victoria and back to a city—by myself. How am I going to handle this and what kind of mundane things will I be up to? We'll see, but the good news is that stuff will actually happen now. Cover picture is not mine. It is by Erda Estremera at Unsplash.

I haven't been feeling great which has lead to many delays of this. Social isolation is driving me crazy and I am really tired of living in the middle of the country. I miss socialising. I just want to get out and do things! I also talk about the new car that I got. Also, I talk about music that I am making. Intro track is called "Away Scene" and will be available for purchase and/or download later in the year.

Today I am talking about my thoughts about arguing with my partner (and past partners) and how I've had a few people ask me lately if I am on the autism spectrum. I also talk about the strange thing I do in the mornings. I think I might have talked about that in the past, but want to hear it again? ;) Remember to do nice things for yourself! I hope everyone is doing well!

I talk about the misbalance between my personal and professional life. Basically, I talk about getting a new car and the little things happening to me.

Not even sure whether that title's a real word, but if not, that's okay. I talk about how I have almost gotten myself in trouble with my oversharing, how I never intended to become famous, and how I like my quiet life (for the most part). I talk about why I do this kind of thing too and why I am still chugging along. Complicated Noise is a work in progress as always… more like a never-ending testing ground. Visit it if you want to.

I'm slowing the pace of posting new episodes, officially this time. I'm too busy and work is consuming my life lately. I am stepping back from podcasting plans and simply planning for new episodes in the distant future. I also explain why it's not a 'good' or 'fun' thing to do anymore. I'm still hanging on though and still going to produce podcast episodes this year. See you all sooner or later.

What are my plans for 2021 and what have I accomplished in 2020 despite all the craziness? I hope you have a really great year ahead!

Happy holidays everyone, though I'm having a huge problem accepting that it's Christmas. It won't feel like Christmas unless it's cold and with family. Maybe I can go back to the USA next year? I talk about changes at work and what my plans are. Intro music: "Midwinter" by Dee Yan-Key

I'm still struggling with allergies and I'm on meds that make me tired. In this one, I talk about family surprises, in-family bickering, and the importance of treating everybody with kindness.

This episode contains complaints about allergy season, US politics (no firm result yet, but it's close), and I discuss my upcoming birthday plans a little. I hope all of you are safe from the COVID mess which is still a problem. Don't let down your guard!!!

I talk about my musical projects that are coming soon and how I struggle to share my creations with anybody because I feel like nothing's ever 'good enough'. I also talk about things that are happening with me lately.

I've been away for a month, but I'm back and talking about what I've been up to over the past few weeks. I also chat about my website, privacy, and a few other things. Also, Cnoi.se is up. I'm using it mostly for a redirection service.

Warning! This is rambling at its not-so-finest. I talk about my plans for the next few weeks, how COVID is affecting my plans, and a bit more thrown in. (Sorry, I can't remember!)

I go back in time to talk about my lonesome childhood and how I am feeling in my adult life now. Many apologies for the sound quality. After 3 previous recordings, I decided to stop using my microphone and just to use the internal microphone of my Mac. I'm not sure if I will fix this or not.

In this one, I discuss what's been keeping me busy, buying a house and moving away, liking yourself, adoption, how hard it is to break the 'manly' stereotype and how happy I am to seek help when needed. No longer posting on the blog on Idiologic.com. Look at Complicated Noise instead.

I talk about what's been happening (or really, what hasn't been happening). I complain about shipping woes and buying stuff I don't really need. I'm also feeling a bit burnt out with podcasting, but I've still got a posting schedule until the beginning of next year. I'm going to keep posting new stuff until I've really had enough of this. Background music is from Portal 2. I'm also in the process of moving my weblog to Complicated Noise.

It's been a while and after a few attempts, I'm back and talking about the effects of COVID19 on my personal life. I talk about the upcoming holidays, how I will be spending them, and my personal views about religion. I'm in the process of fixing the website up and I'll start streaming retro games at the end of the month. The links to my Twitch can be found at Complicated Noise.

I talk about how stressful everything is right now and how I'm feeling since I've been back. The audio quality is not that great. I probably should check these things before I record. ;)

I've been having some issues with my voice since I came back, so things are a little delayed. I briefly talk about the holidays back home in Texas, and getting back to Australia and what's going to happen this year. Oh, and I don't like summer. Did you know that ComplicatedNoise.com is almost kinda sorta working? You should visit. People with an account can access a few unpublished podcasts.

Happy holidays to the lot of you! In this one, I talk about what I've been doing and what I will be doing. Husband is visiting for a few weeks so I'm not posting another episode until next year. Thanks for listening to me babble over the year! Link to Post | Coffee

I talk about my recent birthday and about my podcast being a mess while I'm here. There are other things that I talk about, but can't remember right now. I'm going to only post short episodes while I'm here. My next podcast episode will be short and will be the last one for the year. Link to Post | Coffee

I talk about getting to the USA and how I did not think I'd make it. I talk about my Thanksgiving plans, and a few other random things. Link to Post | Coffee

Before I fly back to the USA, I talk about my website development on complicatednoise.com, getting packed (and lack thereof), family issues back home, flying anxiety, what Australians think Texas is like (and what Texans think about Australia) and more. Recorded over 2 days. 18:15 starts the new day. Link to Post | Coffee

The pollen in the air is making my life miserable and keeping me inside way too much. In this episode, I was originally going to talk about Australian things that I don't like (but it didn't happen). I feel safer in Australia than I do in the USA. Bringing things back to the USA. My first sleep monitor results and how I was surprised by the results. I love statistics - that's why I'm happy to use it. My continuing work on the website and a few problems I may encounter while overseas. Need to chat with me, confidentially? Go for it! (Contains a few words that you might (or might not) want to repeat in front of your granny.) Link to Post | Coffee

What, in my opinion, is one of the best ways to connect with your partner? More photo shoots! I talk about what's been happening to my partner and me over the last few weeks. Link to Post | Coffee

I talk about my lack of sleep, getting a new mattress without making sure that it will fit in the bed frame, and the unimpressive statistics of my podcast and what effects it has on the future of my recording and website development. (Not quitting yet. I'm chugging along for the foreseeable future.) Link to Post | Coffee

I talk about the dream I had last night and how sleepy I am and also talk about my thoughts about religion in general, including my own beliefs and experiences. If you want to hear more, just let me know. Link to Post | Coffee

I've always thought that by having preferences of who I am attracted to was considered shallow, so I struggled talking about what I found attractive in other people, physically and mentally. I talk a little about my past relationships as well and why I dated them and what I love about my current partner. My throat is a little sore in this one and it's really noticeable at the end. Link to Post | Coffee

Super busy lately and kind of mentally disheveled. I talk about moving and being called a 'housewife' by the moving guys. (Wanted this to be short, since I'm depending on my mobile data now.) I'm also a little sad that my listener numbers are very small. Ideas anybody, before I stop caring? Link to Post | Coffee

I talk about my ongoing adventure with the doctor and my gastrointestinal system. Am I going to ignore the referral because my tests came back fine, or go anyway? I gently touch upon my one-year anniversary, having my husband come back, and what's been keeping me busy. Link to Post | Coffee

I talk about what's been stressing me lately such as work, my health, moving, traveling, and a lack of sleep. I also talk about my newest toys/gadgets, gaming online subscriptions, DLC, Nintendo Switch stuff, and virtual currency. Yeah, quite a grab bag here. Link to Post | Coffee

A lot of things are happening at once. Someone bought the house we've been living in and we have to move soon. We're also getting a new car and my partner's leaving for India for a month. My stress levels are through the roof! I spend most of this episode thinking about things and how my time here might be extended. I also talk about my new toys and new recording equipment. After the break, I talk about the car and that I'm also having some slight health issues as well which makes me a little sad. (Possible hospital stay coming up…) Link to Post | Coffee

It's been one year since I posted my first episode of this podcast! A huge thank you for those of you who have been listening for this long! I talk about the future of this podcast, new equipment, and the redevelopment into Complicated Noise. I'm also developing a system to reward those of you who link to me. I also chat about what's happening lately and finally getting a new car. Link to Post | Coffee

So, I've booked my trip back to the USA for about 10 weeks starting in November. I talk about my upcoming trip and my anxiety/stress levels with work. (This might seem like one of my 'forced' episodes because, well, it was. If I put it off, it was likely that I would get lazier and lazier.) I'm here though and that's something, right? Link to Post | Coffee

It's been about 5 days since I last recorded, so I stumble around a bit. I talk about my uneventful holidays and the next holiday on Thursday, ANZAC Day. Link to Post | Coffee

Happy Easter to you! In this episode, I talk about my past Easters, what I'm planning to do this year, going back to the USA and my draft plans of what I'm going to do. Link to post | Buy me a coffee

I talk about my inferiority complex and how it's both hindered me and what I've been doing to overcome some of my problems related to it. Link to post | Buy me a coffee

I talk about my partner and me arguing over who is having the busiest days (with work and his visa application) and the distribution of housework, growing tired of the small town stuff, work junk, and work email stops me recording. I might sound a bit drunk in this episode, but I'm not. It's Benadryl/antihistamine hangover. ;) Link to post | Buy me a coffee

I talk about what's been going on lately. I've acquired new technology, talk about work (and drop hints about what I do professionally), start to rant about anti-vaxxers (this little juicy episode is coming soon), and I give some pretty solid (or liquid…) advice at the end. (The music at the beginning is from Animal Crossing. It's my favourite: KK Faire.) Link to post | Buy me a coffee

I talk about why I am missing podcast episode deadlines and some incredible news I received from my family. I have a brother who I've never met! Link to post | Buy me a coffee

I talk about what's been keeping me busy lately (writing code and programming), my weight loss that my doctor is concerned with, and then I talk about food (scrambled eggs and breakfast burritos?!), physical weakness, and processing the death(s) in my family since the last podcast episode. Link to post | Buy me a coffee

In this one, I talk about the major loss(es) in my family and how powerless I feel being so far away when I feel like my family needs me. I also talk about how much I miss them and wish I could go back for a while. Link to post | Buy me a coffee

A talk about the hot sun turns into me complaining about things that irritate me and then it turns into a confessional about what I am scared of for really dumb reasons. Link to post | Buy me a coffee

I talk about what's happened in 2018 and how I hope to improve in 2019. I also talk about what I hope is going to happen this year and how I'm already proud of myself about what I've accomplished on a personal level. I have high hopes for self-improvement and I won't let myself down! Link to post | Buy me a coffee

If you haven't listened for a while or if you're new, this is an introduction with the latest information that explains a little bit about what my podcast is, what it's about, who's involved, and who I am. Every so often I do these (if a lot has changed, and they have). Link to post | Buy me a coffee

Happy holidays! Merry Christmas and Happy New Year! I give you updates about my mental health and getting back into the swing of things out of necessity. My partner isn't around and I miss him—and I get a little jealous sometimes of his family. I also talk a little bit about getting him to stay here with me. I talk about why my holiday spirit is in the toilet and some lady picked me up at the grocery store… and I went home with her. Link to post | Buy me a coffee

This episode is a bit interesting because one part was recorded before I went to the doctor and the other was recorded after I took medication for my issues. I talk about my last year of my 30s, my doctor visits after recording my last podcast episode, my mental health, and how important it is to get mental issues checked on before things get much worse (though it is quite hard to make the first step). Link to post | Buy me a coffee

I've been having a rough time lately so, thinking that talking it out will make me feel better, I record this. I talk about the problems I'm having, my struggles dealing with those problems mentally, how I plan to deal with those problems, and what I'm thankful for. I get a little bit emotional in this one (because I've been an emotional mess lately). Link to post | Buy me a coffee

It took me a few tries to record this… sorry if it's disjointed and random. In this episode, I talk about: - I've started a new job - Campin' in the Grampians, a mountain range in Victoria, Australia. - My hatred towards the 'bad' air and my need for some more immunotherapy (or I'll have to move back to the city as soon as I can). - The guilt of calling in sick in the USA. (I've already taken a sick day because I can't breathe.) - I'll be cutting down the number of episodes I do until I get some indication of who's listening. Link to post | Buy me a coffee