Not So Anonymous

The guys make an attempt to cut pornography and masturbation out of their lives as they talk about the constant need for stimulation, how they were introduced to sex and any sexual traumas or insecurities they may face in this at times raunchy but healing conversation.

Triggers. What are they and when do they come? The guys discuss moments of triggers and how they dealt with them. Donny relapses, Jordan hides from his parents, Dylan lies to a sponsee and Gumer just needs a week off the drugs in this mindset matters episode of not so anonymous.

How many of us have used drugs against our will? The guys talk about the moments of active addiction and a life lived with out choices. Donny puts 2 dollars in the gas tank, Gumer has a weird collection, Jordan makes the walk of shame and Dylan writes himself a letter in this “I can't stop” episode of not so anonymous.

It was an amazing July for the guys. Jordan got 18 months, Dylan got 2 years and Donny celebrates his 30th birthday with a rock, the crack and a flop. Tune in to this survivors guilt feeling, gratitude packed, fellowshipping, complexed emotional episode of not so anonymous.

What are our attitudes like after some time in recovery? Are we practicing acceptance and willing to change our behavior or are we sitting in self pity? Dylan calls AM radio stations while getting high, Gumer can't get out of his will, Jordan doesn't want to be sad anymore and Donny hits his friends in this attitude of gratitude episode of not so anonymous.

The guys take their first dive into the traumatic experiences that shaped their lives and addictions. They touch on their active drug addiction, watching family in addiction, along with the emotional and sexual abuse that took place in this vulnerable conversation.

The boys are all over the map and all over in general in this war story packed, spiritual experience filled, finally becoming teachable episode. Donny finds love in a bar, Dylan becomes a local in Hawaii and Jordan outlasts all the guys in a competitive game of who makes it back to the rooms first. #wheresgumer

Not So Anonymous is back with a behind-the-scenes look at what led to our break. The boys hash out feelings and get back on the same page the best way we know how, by getting on the mic and hitting record. Take a live  look into our recovery on the Season 2 premier of Not So Anonymous

Jordan takes a trip to Hawaii and speaks on his needed break from the everyday life of recovery and why he was able to do that after establishing his program as his foundation. Donny and Gumer blow things up in their head and Dylan struggles to stay awake in this I get to do this episode of not so anonymous.

After relapses and failed attempts to get clean we were always welcomed back to the rooms. Donny breaks his foot in Mexico, Dylan tries to dodge a process server, Jordan plays the tape through and Gumer tries not to burn it to the ground in this keep coming back episode of Not So Anonymous.

We take a trip down memory lane as Jordan shares his goodbye letter to his ex lover... alcohol. The letter brings us to a discussion on our current state of recovery and the ups and downs we face as new challenges arise and new goals are set in this delayed gratification episode of not so anonymous.

The guys speak about times of trying to moderate their drinking or just stay away from their drug of choice while holding on to the idea that they can still get high. We touch on California sober, suboxone and distant crutches used in this highly opinionated episode of not so anonymous.

It’s been an incredible week for the guys. Full of ups and downs, triumphs and trials. Hear what happens when we take another step in recovery, achieve long term goals and form new habits while breaking tough old ones in this boot glueing episode of not so anonymous.

This week Gumer opens up about a vital assignment during his stay in a Tijuana rehab that changed his life. He touches on sexual abuse, emotional confusion and what happened when he got absolutely honest in this pen to paper episode of Not so Anonymous.

Relationships in sobriety can be tricky. This week the guys discuss getting clean while married, dating inside of the rooms and the fear often attached to trying to date for the first time in sobriety.

What happens when we humble ourselves and work our programs? Jordan and Gumer talk about the process of getting new sponsors and re working the steps, Dylan burns his eye ball and Donny is up past his bed time in this self inventory taking episode of not so anonymous

The boys have an important conversation on their different relationships, perspectives and struggles with God and share their different outlooks their journey has provided so far. We touch on sobriety, the church and life with and without God.

The boys talk about the importance of sponsorship and their experience with it. The guys fire Dylan as their sponsor as Donny offers up their sponsorship to the newcomers in this 12th stepping episode of not so anonymous.

What are our priorities after some time in recovery? Are we still willing to go to any lengths to stay sober? The boys reflect on the journey and take a look at what’s important in our lives in this death row, “don’t take the first drink” episode of not so anonymous.

Years of hard work comes together as the boys share a trip for the record books. Full of fellowship, moments of serenity, bad friends to snowboard with and a return to passion on this Gods timing episode of not so anonymous.

I can’t, but we can. This week we discuss the power of recovering together and struggles of when we try and do it alone. Donny chops up a semi truck, Gumer goes full fight club and loses track of reality, and Dylan and Jordan simply want to watch the movie about the two in this unity packed episode of not so anonymous.

Thank God for narcan as the boys talk about the insanity of addiction and the places it brings us. Find out why Donny ruined an ambulance, Dylan was offered milk, Jordan never made to the big game and Gumer stayed on the streets in this episode of not so anonymous.

The meeting after the meeting is in full effect as Dylan opens up about going through a difficult time in recovery. The guys chime in and discuss the roller coaster of recovery and the tools we use to get through the tough days.

The boys reflect on the hard times that led them to recovery and the beauty that came of it. Gumer floods a warehouse, Dylan drinks the wrong bottle, Jordan’s heart was broken and Donny is....Donny, in this defects turned to assets episode of Not So Anonymous.

Our boy Jordan celebrates 1 year of sobriety and reflects on how he got there. Dylan gets fired from the podcast, Donny tries to show emotion and Gumer fights an imaginary person in the shower in this delirious episode of not so anonymous.

The guys reminisce on what it used to be like, Donny smoked cigarettes on airplanes, Gumer drove 24 hours to pick up, Jordan has a phobia of bugs, and Dylan hates the pink cloud. As we strive for progress not perfection, we are blown away at the difference recovery has made in our lives.

Dylan quits his job and doesn’t get invited to the strip club as the boys have an in depth conversation on fear and moments of overcoming that fear. Get ready for the great debate on the acronym for fear between Donny and Jordan, the spiritual experience of a cold shower by Gumer, and the challenges of changing a culture of a family.

The boys take a “trip” down memory lane and discuss early signs and times of life getting unmanageable. Hear how Jordan became the color red, why Dylan hates Vegas, why Gumer gives away hotel rooms to homeless people and how Donny got more than he bargained for before a long day at work.

Happy new year! Join us as the boys reflect a little on 2020, talk about some goals for 2021 and even get a group therapy session in for our boy Gumer.

What happens when four alcoholics stop working their programs? They get messed up in the head pretty quickly. The boys cheer up though once they start talking recovery and about some crazy moments in their active addiction. Tune in for a recovery packed, hotel firing, "I don't know what happened last night" episode of Not so Anonymous.

The vibes are good as the boys discuss the power and freedom of recovering out loud and the stigma of being an addict. Tune in for some great laughs and honest talk about different ways to use microwaves, heart shaped jacuzzis, a heart attack (maybe) and the blessings of sobriety.

Tune in to hear an emotional recap of Donnys recent past as he discusses some hard family losses and how God stepped in to do for him what he could not do for himself. Just as one life was taken a chance to save another comes along in this hilarious but intimate episode.

We know why we got sober. Why do we stay sober? This week we'll get into some stories and experiences that keep us hooked on the journey of recovery and show us that our hard work is paying off.

This week the boys discuss their experience of being around others who still party while in recovery. What's it like? When do we set the boundary and when do we just bounce? Listen in on some good conversations and good laughs

How do we have fun once the drugs and drinking is not an option? The boys discuss the amazing and fun times in our journey of recovery.

Our conversation this week turns to the more incredible and undeniable experiences of God working in our lives. If Donny's cars don't prove it, we don't know what will.

Get ready for a gas station fighting, red tutu high heel wearing, carrot in the ass wood chopping episode of Not so Anonymous. Join us for a discussion on our experience of making the most difficult but best decision of our lives, going to rehab.

Get ready to hear from one angry barista as we discuss the lies we tell ourselves of feeling like a failure early in recovery. From moving back home to getting fired by our own sibling, we laugh and discuss what really matters...we're clean today.

This week the tables are turned as we get into a bit of Dylan's story. From the highs of the warped tour to the lows of a McDonald's bathroom we take a ride down memory lane as we learn more about his drug addiction.

Packed with rolled cars, a visit to top golf and an odd sense of fashion we get into a tough but important conversation on the effects we had on our families and the difficulty of loving an addict.

From Ohio to Seattle, right back to Phoenix. It doesn't matter where we go, there we are. Join us for a funny and important conversation about the importance of changing people, places and things in recovery.

Need a lawyer? Don't call Dylan. Join us for some H&I, homeless nudity and court hearings as we discuss the importance and healing of asking for help and the consequences of when we don't.

Join us this week for a conversation about sex in recovery. Filled with trips to the adult store, performance enhancers, energy drinks and of course...the program. Tune in to hear the funny and the serious sides of different ways our addictions can manifest.

This weeks episode is dedicated to those still struggling in active addiction, to those who have lost their lives to this battle and to their friends and family who have felt the pain of their loss and struggles as we discuss some harsh realities of drug addiction.

Get ready for this drug induced, action packed road trip with Donny. Filled with bad luck, angry bosses, shady dealerships and one great friend as Donny shares a bit about his "road" to recovery.

Take a ride with Jordan to the dispensary, the hospital and to get some "pho" (noodle soup to the culturally inexperienced) in this hilarious and intimate episode of Jordan's struggle with alcoholism

"Do You Boys Like Mexico" In this episode Gumer shares with us his wild off the wall experience going through rehab in Tiajuana Mexico!!!

In this episode we will get into early recovery, pivotal moments of surrender and hilarious moments in our addictions!