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Did we blast our brains beyond repair with all of our drinking? What if you drank heavily for decades? Are you doomed? In this episode I'm explaining a ton of different studies on brain recovery in sobriety. You'll learn what to expect as you get more sober time, if our brains make a full recovery, how long it takes to see improvement, how drinking less impacts your brain, and more about how alcohol damages the brain. Work with me: Community & Meetings: Living a Sober Powered Life https://www.soberpowered.com/membership Sober coaching https://www.soberpowered.com/sober-coaching Course Pickled. Why Moderation is Impossible https://www.soberpowered.com/pickled Weekly email: You'll hear from me on Fridays https://www.soberpowered.com/email Support the show: If you enjoyed this episode please consider buying me a coffee to support all the research and effort that goes into this podcast https://www.buymeacoffee.com/soberpowered Thank you for supporting this show by supporting my sponsors https://www.soberpowered.com/sponsors Sources are posted on my website Disclaimer: all of the information described in this podcast is my interpretation of the research combined with my opinion. This is not medical advice. Learn more about your ad choices. Visit megaphone.fm/adchoices
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Janey chats to Kristina Locke from Sugavida, the first HEALTHY sugar alternative withadded vitamins. Use the code JANEYLEE at www.sugavida.comAnd another chance to hear Philly J Lay's story, and do Buy your tickets for The Wellness Way Health Hub in London Sun 1 March at College of Naturopathic Medicine. I will be speaking alongside Philly and Dr Sarah Myhill, it's the perfect place to explore holistic wellbeing Get tickets from https://www.tickettailor.com/events/thewellnessway/1975697Use the code IMPERFECTLYNAT at checkout for a discountLet me know you have a ticket, and you will get an invite to my exclusive reception to celebrate 20 years of ImperfectlyNatural Woman, my first book, which kickstarted it all!Platinum Awards 2026If you have a natural brand, product or service, or you are a wellbeing coach or therapist, or wellbeing author enter the Platinum Awards, its not just Enter and Wait, there is great promo along the way www.platinumawards.co.ukIf you're interested in training join our next Explore a Career as a Sober Coach webinar Thursday 19 Feb 7.30pmRegister HERE https://www.thesoberclub.com/explore/Sober curious, or already quit the booze? Join us in The Sober Club and get a free gift Alcohol Free Cocktail Making workshop series (as well as hypnosis audios withleading hypnotherapists) Get in now at 2025 prices as the monthly fee for new members is rising end Janwww.thesoberclub.comThinking of treating yourself to the Ultimate Selfcare retreat?Join me in Feb at Homefield Grange Spa, it's a game changer!https://www.thesoberclub.com/events/ Keep Dancing!!Please consider making a donation to my justgiving fund https://www.justgiving.com/page/janey-lee-grace-3TheMagnesium Blend I recommend is back in stock, use this link https://clivedecarle.ositracker.com/315625/11489Join us in The Sober Club for inspiration, and connection.New to Sobriety? Sober Curious?Check out The Sober Club, for low cost support, accountability, inspiration, connection and a whole host of content on holistic living. Membership includesand online course Get the Buzz without the Booze, our private non judgemental community online and regular zoom meetings, plus a whole library of exclusive wellbeing contentIf you want to support the work go to www.buymeacoffee.com/janeyleegraceThank you for listening! Please share, rate and reviewIf you're struggling, always reach out, tell someone you're doing this!@janeyleegrace Ditched the Booze and want to inspire others? Janey offers holistic sober coach training, our next course starts 25 April email Janey for a chat to see if its right for you – janeyatjaneyleegrace.com Supplements for recovery Check out my new Substack, you can be a free subscriber or paid for some juicy extrasSobriety Rocks…& The Woo WorksFollow Janey on social media@janeyleegrace
In this week's Legal Speak episode, Texas personal injury attorney Richard 'Dicky' Grigg pulls back the curtain on the prevalence of substance abuse and mental health issues among attorneys Hosts: Cedra Mayfield & Patrick Smith Guest: Dicky Grigg Reporter: Laura Lorek Producer: Charles Garnar
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In this Think Thursday episode, Molly breaks down a powerful concept at the heart of sustainable habit change: micro-yeses. These are the small, often overlooked decisions that align with your long-term goals—even if they feel too minor to matter.Whether you're working on behavior change related to exercise, diet, spending, screen time, or any other habit, micro-yeses are the building blocks of momentum. This episode explores how these tiny choices affect the brain, create identity shifts, and lead to real progress over time.Key Topics CoveredWhat a "micro-yes" is and why it mattersHow small decisions activate the prefrontal cortex and build new neural pathwaysWhy repetition, not perfection, drives real behavior changeThe role of self-recognition in maintaining motivationWhat behavior scientists like BJ Fogg say about starting smallScience and InsightsMicro-yeses interrupt automatic behavior loops by engaging intentional brain regions like the prefrontal cortexThrough consistent action, these moments create synaptic plasticity, helping rewire the brain for new habitsAs Stanford researcher BJ Fogg notes:“Tiny actions, repeated consistently, change identity.”Reflection Prompt:Where have you said yes to yourself this week, even in a small or imperfect way?Recognize it. Count it. It matters.Related Episodes to ExploreThe Fresh Start Effect (January 1)Neuroscience of Follow-Through (January 8)Identity Lag: Why Your Brain Hasn't Caught Up Yet (January 15) ★ Support this podcast ★
New from Sober and Unashamed: “And I Thought Alcohol Addiction Was Dangerous” We have published hundreds of essays on alcoholism, recovery, sex and intimacy, underlying issues, growth and progress. Maybe you love to read, but just don't seem to find the time. We hope you'll listen to this audio version of our latest written offering titled: “And I Thought Alcohol Addiction Was Dangerous” To read this and much more, check out our Sober and Unashamed blog.
Guest: Christy OsborneRole: Senior Sobriety CoachBook: Love Life Sober: A 40-Day Alcohol Fast to Rediscover Your Joy, Improve Your Health, and Renew Your MindWebsite: lovelifesober.co.uk
Corey Feldman Vs The World Deleted Scenes: The documentary is the gift that keeps on giving. We go through some recently released deleted scenes.Corey's Angels: This brings us back to the early days of Corey's Angels. How did it all begin and did it show much more promise at the beginning?Corey's Twitter: Corey's Twitter is never not unhinged. The conspiracies continue!COREY FELDMAN!, SHOW STOPPER!, LET'S JUST TALK!, DON CHEADLE!, BOOGIE NIGHTS!, JIM AND THEM IS POP CULTURE!, ANTI-COREY POD!, REAL ONES!, FILTH PIGS!, GIFT MEMBERSHIP!, SUPERCHATS!, PO BOX!, MERCH!, GIFTS!, SELF ADDRESSED STAMPED ENVELOPE!, DIMEBAG DARRELL!, SEX PEST!, ZOUP!, LEGO MOUTH!, GOONIES!, MINIFIGS!, BUBBLES!, SERIAL KILLER CUT OUTS!, COOKIES!, 22 NECKLACE!, THE MONKEY!, IG SHIMMY!, LVL UP EXPO!, CONTEST!, FREE BADGE!, MARGOT LANE!, WRESTLING!, MARCIE HUME!, COREY FELDMAN VS THE WORLD!, DOCUMENTARY!, DELETED SCENES!, WHISKEY!, SOBER!, STRESSED!, TRUTH!, GRAPE!, TEXAS SWITCH!, COREY'S ANGELS!, COURTNEY FELDMAN!, COURTNEY ANN!, DUH!, PERFORMANCE!, LESLIE JONES!, LADY GHOSTBUSTERS!, KYLE GASS!, JACK BLACK!, ELLE FANNING!, DAKOTA FANNING!, JENNIFER LAWRENCE!, MYSTIQUE!, KIEFER SUTHERLAND!, DRESS!, COREY'S TWITTER!, LIKES!, HDM!, STYLE!, CAPITALS!, NAMING NAMES!, SUCK IT STUPID! You can find the videos from this episode at our Discord RIGHT HERE!
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Everything you need to know about why sobriety alone isn’t enough – and what real recovery actually looks like. Listen, I see this pattern ALL the time with the people I work with. They quit drinking, they think they’ve done the hard part, and then a few weeks or months in… they’re confused. They’re disappointed. They’re thinking, “Is THIS what the rest of my life is going to be like?” And the answer is: only if you stop here. Sobriety is quitting. Recovery is healing. And the only way to stay sober – the only way to actually build a life you love – is to do the healing work Most people quit drinking hoping sobriety won't be too inconvenient. They want the same life.The same relationships.The same routines.Just… without alcohol. And at first, it works. You feel better. Clearer. Less foggy. But then — weeks or months in — the feelings come back. Anxiety.Overwhelm.Anger.Fear. All the things alcohol was quietly managing for you? They're still there. And now they're loud because you aren’t numbing them anymore. That doesn't mean sobriety is failing.It means your nervous system is healing. Today, I’m sitting down with Michael Z, who has 30 years of sobriety. And let me tell you, this conversation is GOLD. Michael is old-school AA, incredibly honest, and he shares exactly what it was really like in early sobriety and what it takes to build a life you actually want to live long-term. Because recovery isn't a destination — it's a practice. If you’re newly sober and struggling – if you’re thinking “why is this so hard?” or “I thought things would be better by now” – you’re not doing it wrong. You’re just in the gap. The gap between sobriety and recovery. Grab your headphones, get comfortable, and let’s talk about what it really takes to stay sober. Trust me, this conversation is going to give you the clarity and the roadmap you need to move forward. If you're done white-knuckling, overthinking, or feeling stuck in that miserable middle — and you want real support to build a solid recovery foundation — I can help.
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In this reflective episode, Molly explores the concept of emotional freedom—what it is, what it isn't, and how it's connected to both her personal story and the Alcohol Minimalist approach.Recorded on Martin Luther King Jr. Day and the day after what would have been her father's 98th birthday, Molly connects the legacies of two powerful men who shaped her understanding of what true strength looks like: calm, steady, and intentional.You'll learn how emotional regulation plays a critical role in creating lasting change with alcohol habits, and why your ability to pause between feeling and acting is key to sustainable freedom. Drawing from neuroscience, psychology, and her own lived experience, Molly unpacks the subtle but powerful shift from automatic drinking to intentional living.Topics DiscussedWhy emotional freedom isn't about never feeling uncomfortableThe Viktor Frankl quote that changed Molly's approach to habit changeHow emotional avoidance and low distress tolerance fuel drinking patternsThe role of the basal ganglia in automatic habits and how to rewire itHer father's example of strength without reactivityHow to use the PB&J tool (Pause, Breathe, Just Ten Minutes) to interrupt urgesA deeper look into the “Figuring Out Your Feelings” chapter from Breaking the Bottle LegacyKey Quotes“Between stimulus and response, there is a space. In that space is our power to choose our response. In our response lies our growth and our freedom.” — Viktor Frankl “You can tell the size of a man by the size of the thing that makes him mad.” — Adlai Stevenson, as taught to Molly by her fatherResources MentionedBreaking the Bottle Legacy by Molly Watts – especially the chapter “Figuring Out Your Feelings”Drink-Less Success: A 30-day self-paced program based in neuroscience and habit psychology Includes the audiobook version of Breaking the Bottle Legacy Learn more at: mollywatts.com/drink-less-successWeekly Reflection PromptWhat does emotional freedom mean to me right now? Not in theory. Not for the future. But right now.Ask yourself:Where am I reactive?Where could I create more space?What would it look like to respond instead of escape?Low risk drinking guidelines from the NIAAA:Healthy men under 65:No more than 4 drinks in one day and no more than 14 drinks per week.Healthy women (all ages) and healthy men 65 and older:No more than 3 drinks in one day and no more than 7 drinks per week.One drink is defined as 12 ounces of beer, 5 ounces of wine, or 1.5 ounces of 80-proof liquor. So remember that a mixed drink or full glass of wine are probably more than one drink.Abstinence from alcoholAbstinence from alcohol is the best choice for people who take medication(s) that interact with alcohol, have health conditions that could be exacerbated by alcohol (e.g. liver disease), are pregnant or may become pregnant or have had a problem with alcohol or another substance in the past.Benefits of “low-risk” drinkingFollowing these guidelines reduces the risk of health problems such as cancer, liver disease, reduced immunity, ulcers, sleep problems, complications of existing conditions, and more. It also reduces the risk of depression, social problems, and difficulties at school or work. ★ Support this podcast ★
Gary and Shannon open #SwampWatch with the day’s political headlines, including President Trump and Governor Newsom appearing in Davos, Newsom’s continued moderation as he moves closer to a presidential run, and Trump’s comments involving Greenland and the Nobel Peace Prize.The hour then shifts to culture, as they break down how Gen Z is reshaping drinking habits, from fewer keg parties to the rise of GLP-1 drugs reducing interest in alcohol. The conversation widens to Matt Damon’s take on how streaming has changed movies and audience attention before wrapping with listener talk backs and a discussion on whether higher education and MBAs still deliver the return they once promised.See omnystudio.com/listener for privacy information.
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The witching hour, or usually hours for most of us, are the time of day where you typically drink and want to drink the most when you're sober. This could be morning for some people, it could be 4-7pm, 6-8pm, it varies. This time block is when your biology, habits, and old reward wiring collide: cortisol is dropping, your prefrontal cortex has less decision bandwidth, and your brain is scanning for the routine that used to deliver relief. The evening cue your brain fires isn't proof you need alcohol, it's proof you drank often enough and long enough that your brain automated it. Today, we're digging into why 5–9 PM feels like the danger zone, what's happening under the surface in the brain and nervous system, and how understanding those mechanisms helps you respond differently this time. What to listen to next: E249: Stress & Cravings E265: Rewiring the reward system Work with me: Community & Meetings: Living a Sober Powered Life https://www.soberpowered.com/membership Sober coaching https://www.soberpowered.com/sober-coaching Course Pickled. Why Moderation is Impossible https://www.soberpowered.com/pickled Weekly email: You'll hear from me on Fridays https://www.soberpowered.com/email Support the show: If you enjoyed this episode please consider buying me a coffee to support all the research and effort that goes into this podcast https://www.buymeacoffee.com/soberpowered Thank you for supporting this show by supporting my sponsors https://www.soberpowered.com/sponsors Sources are posted on my website Disclaimer: all of the information described in this podcast is my interpretation of the research combined with my opinion. This is not medical advice. Learn more about your ad choices. Visit megaphone.fm/adchoices
In this episode of Private Parts, Liv is joined by Harrison Hide, a former Wall Street broker turned sober influencer and wellness entrepreneur. Harrison opens up about life inside high-pressure finance, addiction, excess, and what really happens when the party never seems to end.He shares his journey to sobriety, the identity crisis that followed, and how stepping away from alcohol forced him to rebuild his life from the ground up. From burnout and addiction to purpose, wellness, and opening a sober members' retreat outside London, this is an honest conversation about ambition, control, and redefining success.Raw, reflective, and deeply personal; this episode is for anyone questioning their relationship with alcohol or chasing more balance in a chaotic world.Make sure you subscribe and follow for more!
Welcome back to part 2: In this episode of Private Parts, Liv is joined by Harrison Hide, a former Wall Street broker turned sober influencer and wellness entrepreneur. Harrison opens up about life inside high-pressure finance, addiction, excess, and what really happens when the party never seems to end.He shares his journey to sobriety, the identity crisis that followed, and how stepping away from alcohol forced him to rebuild his life from the ground up. From burnout and addiction to purpose, wellness, and opening a sober members' retreat outside London, this is an honest conversation about ambition, control, and redefining success.Raw, reflective, and deeply personal; this episode is for anyone questioning their relationship with alcohol or chasing more balance in a chaotic world.Make sure you subscribe and follow for more!
I recently sat down with my dear friend and author, John Loxley to discuss the fundamentals of sobriety. John is 15 years sober and works in mental health services in the UK. We weren't talking about shiny breakthroughs or dramatic transformations. We were talking about the basics — the things that quietly keep sobriety intact, year after year. Because here's the truth: most people don't relapse because they don't know enough. They relapse because they slowly stop doing the things that keep them emotionally regulated, supported, and self-aware. This episode was a reminder of what really matters. Lesson #1: Early Sobriety Is a Learning Phase — Listening Matters One of the first things we talked about was listening. When people are new to sobriety, there's often a strong urge to explain themselves, justify their story, or be understood. I remember feeling that way myself — desperate to make sure someone got me. But recovery starts to shift when listening becomes the priority. Listening to people who've been there. Listening to patterns. Listening instead of reacting. There's a time to talk — especially with sponsors, therapists, or trusted friends — but meetings and early recovery spaces are often best used as classrooms, not stages. Takeaway: You don't need to have the answers. You just need to be willing to learn. Lesson #2: You Can't Do Sobriety Alone (No Matter How Independent You Are) A lot of people want to get sober "on their own." Not because they're lazy — but because they're private, capable, or burned by past systems. But isolation is where addiction thrives. Whether it's 12-step programs, SMART Recovery, therapy, coaching, or peer support — connection isn't optional. You don't need everyone. You need someone. And just as important: those people aren't there to fix you. They're there to walk with you. Lesson #3: Sobriety Has to Stay the Top Priority This might be the most important lesson from the episode. Anytime sobriety stops being the priority — even years in — things start to unravel. Not always dramatically. Often quietly. You stop meditating. You stop checking in. You stop telling the truth. You stop doing the practices. And slowly… your nervous system takes over. John shared a powerful story about going on vacation, feeling great, and unintentionally leaving his recovery behind — only to realize how quickly emotional chaos can return when the practices stop. Sobriety isn't something you "graduate" from. It's something you maintain. Lesson #4: Identity Drives Behavior One thing I'm passionate about is identity. You're not trying to get sober. If you didn't drink today, you are sober. Every sober action is a vote for the kind of person you're becoming. Instead of obsessing over what's wrong with you, it can be incredibly powerful to ask: Who do I admire? What traits do they embody? What small actions would reinforce those traits? Sobriety is the foundation — not the finish line. Lesson #5: Triggers Are Teachers (Even Though We Hate That) We talked a lot about triggers — emotional reactions that feel bigger than the situation in front of us. If a response feels disproportionate, it's almost always about the past. Triggers aren't signs that you're failing. They're invitations to heal. When something activates fear, shame, or rage, there's usually something unresolved underneath. And once you work through it — whether through therapy, journaling, EMDR, or self-inquiry — that trigger loses its grip. There's often real growth hiding underneath discomfort. Lesson #6: You Don't Need to Win — You Need to Understand One of the most relatable moments in the conversation was about conflict. Many of us learned early on that arguments are about winning. But there are no winners in emotional battles — only distance. A simple shift like: "Help me understand how you feel" "This is what I'm hearing — is that right?" can completely change the outcome of a conversation. Feeling understood often dissolves the fight entirely. Action Steps You Can Take This Week If you want to apply what we talked about, start here: Choose one daily recovery practice Meditation, journaling, meetings, movement — consistency matters more than intensity. Check your priority list Ask honestly: Is sobriety still at the top — or has it slipped? Identify one trigger When you feel emotionally hijacked, ask: What does this remind me of? Clarify your identity Write down 5 character traits you want to embody — then choose one small daily action that supports them. Strengthen accountability Make sure there's at least one person you can be fully honest with — without editing yourself. Resources Mentioned in This Episode 12-Step Recovery Programs – For connection, structure, and accountability SMART Recovery – A non-12-step alternative focused on tools and self-management Atomic Habits by James Clear – Identity-based behavior change Unwinding Anxiety by Dr. Judson Brewer – Understanding habit loops and emotional patterns Meditation & Journaling – Daily practices for emotional regulation EMDR Therapy – Trauma-focused healing for emotional triggers Guest Contact Info:
San Francisco is actually arresting drug addicts? What timeline are we living in? The city that became the poster child for enabling addiction just opened a "reset center" with a simple message: get sober, get arrested, or get out. This is the same city where a 400% increase in human excrement in mall elevators became normal. Now they're trying involuntary custodial intervention—words that would have triggered absolute meltdowns just five years ago.Meanwhile, Seattle is sprinting in the opposite direction, refusing to arrest anyone for public drug use while taxpayers fund addicts' apartments AND their tents. San Francisco hit rock bottom and said enough. They're drawing a line in the sand, even if it just means pushing the problem to Portland or Seattle. Will it work? Maybe, maybe not. But at least they're signaling they won't tolerate the chaos anymore.Is tough love the only thing that works with addiction? Why did it take San Francisco becoming a national embarrassment to try common-sense enforcement? Drop your thoughts below, and if you're tired of watching cities enable destruction, hit subscribe and that notification bell. We're tracking which cities learn the lesson and which ones double down on failure.
With alcohol-free months such as 'Dry January' or 'Sober October' gaining popularity in recent years, many people are exploring semi-sobriety by having a break from alcohol, or drinking less. We talk about the benefits of participating in a dry month, and helpful hints to help you get through it: https://bit.ly/4sLrk6DIn this Episode:04:40 – Tips for Longevity and Living Well from People in their 90's: Staying Connected09:10 – What is Dry January? The Emerging Sober Curious Trend and Benefits13:05 – Helpful Hints for Taking a Break from Alcohol15:43 – Discussion with Charlie: It's all About Moderation26:13 – “Grief is Like a Really Ugly Couch”, from Leaving Time by Jody Picoult27:05 – OutroWhat happens when alcohol isn't part of the picture, even for a short time? In this episode, we explore the origins of Dry January and what research shows about taking a break from alcohol. From improved sleep and mood to better energy, focus, and long-term changes in drinking habits, the benefits often go beyond what people expect. Learn practical, supportive strategies that help make a pause easier - whether you're sober-curious, cutting back, or simply interested in what you might notice when alcohol takes a back seat.Support the showGet show notes and resources at our website: every1dies.org. Facebook | Instagram | YouTube | mail@every1dies.org
I recently sat down with my dear friend and author, John Loxley to discuss the fundamentals of sobriety. John is 15 years sober and works in mental health services in the UK. We weren't talking about shiny breakthroughs or dramatic transformations. We were talking about the basics — the things that quietly keep sobriety intact, year after year. Because here's the truth: most people don't relapse because they don't know enough. They relapse because they slowly stop doing the things that keep them emotionally regulated, supported, and self-aware. This episode was a reminder of what really matters. Lesson #1: Early Sobriety Is a Learning Phase — Listening Matters One of the first things we talked about was listening. When people are new to sobriety, there's often a strong urge to explain themselves, justify their story, or be understood. I remember feeling that way myself — desperate to make sure someone got me. But recovery starts to shift when listening becomes the priority. Listening to people who've been there. Listening to patterns. Listening instead of reacting. There's a time to talk — especially with sponsors, therapists, or trusted friends — but meetings and early recovery spaces are often best used as classrooms, not stages. Takeaway: You don't need to have the answers. You just need to be willing to learn. Lesson #2: You Can't Do Sobriety Alone (No Matter How Independent You Are) A lot of people want to get sober "on their own." Not because they're lazy — but because they're private, capable, or burned by past systems. But isolation is where addiction thrives. Whether it's 12-step programs, SMART Recovery, therapy, coaching, or peer support — connection isn't optional. You don't need everyone. You need someone. And just as important: those people aren't there to fix you. They're there to walk with you. Lesson #3: Sobriety Has to Stay the Top Priority This might be the most important lesson from the episode. Anytime sobriety stops being the priority — even years in — things start to unravel. Not always dramatically. Often quietly. You stop meditating. You stop checking in. You stop telling the truth. You stop doing the practices. And slowly… your nervous system takes over. John shared a powerful story about going on vacation, feeling great, and unintentionally leaving his recovery behind — only to realize how quickly emotional chaos can return when the practices stop. Sobriety isn't something you "graduate" from. It's something you maintain. Lesson #4: Identity Drives Behavior One thing I'm passionate about is identity. You're not trying to get sober. If you didn't drink today, you are sober. Every sober action is a vote for the kind of person you're becoming. Instead of obsessing over what's wrong with you, it can be incredibly powerful to ask: Who do I admire? What traits do they embody? What small actions would reinforce those traits? Sobriety is the foundation — not the finish line. Lesson #5: Triggers Are Teachers (Even Though We Hate That) We talked a lot about triggers — emotional reactions that feel bigger than the situation in front of us. If a response feels disproportionate, it's almost always about the past. Triggers aren't signs that you're failing. They're invitations to heal. When something activates fear, shame, or rage, there's usually something unresolved underneath. And once you work through it — whether through therapy, journaling, EMDR, or self-inquiry — that trigger loses its grip. There's often real growth hiding underneath discomfort. Lesson #6: You Don't Need to Win — You Need to Understand One of the most relatable moments in the conversation was about conflict. Many of us learned early on that arguments are about winning. But there are no winners in emotional battles — only distance. A simple shift like: "Help me understand how you feel" "This is what I'm hearing — is that right?" can completely change the outcome of a conversation. Feeling understood often dissolves the fight entirely. Action Steps You Can Take This Week If you want to apply what we talked about, start here: Choose one daily recovery practice Meditation, journaling, meetings, movement — consistency matters more than intensity. Check your priority list Ask honestly: Is sobriety still at the top — or has it slipped? Identify one trigger When you feel emotionally hijacked, ask: What does this remind me of? Clarify your identity Write down 5 character traits you want to embody — then choose one small daily action that supports them. Strengthen accountability Make sure there's at least one person you can be fully honest with — without editing yourself. Resources Mentioned in This Episode 12-Step Recovery Programs – For connection, structure, and accountability SMART Recovery – A non-12-step alternative focused on tools and self-management Atomic Habits by James Clear – Identity-based behavior change Unwinding Anxiety by Dr. Judson Brewer – Understanding habit loops and emotional patterns Meditation & Journaling – Daily practices for emotional regulation EMDR Therapy – Trauma-focused healing for emotional triggers Guest Contact Info:
By mid-January, many people are still taking action toward change but feel increasingly unsure of themselves. In this Think Thursday episode, Molly introduces the concept of identity lag to explain why behavior often changes before belief does and why that gap can feel uncomfortable.Building on recent conversations about the Fresh Start Effect and the neuroscience of follow-through, this episode explores what happens in the brain when new behaviors challenge long-held self-stories. Molly explains how identity is shaped through evidence over time, why self-doubt often peaks after consistency begins, and how cognitive dissonance plays a central role in this phase of change.Rather than seeing discomfort as a sign that something is wrong, listeners are invited to understand identity lag as a normal and necessary transition in sustainable behavior change.What You'll LearnWhy behavior change often feels awkward before it feels alignedWhat identity lag is and why it shows up in mid-JanuaryHow the brain prioritizes stability and safetyWhy confidence does not come first in lasting changeHow cognitive dissonance creates tension during growthWhy self-doubt often increases after consistency beginsHow identity actually updates through repetition and evidenceKey Concepts ExplainedIdentity lag as the gap between behavior and beliefDefault mode network and self-referential processingCognitive dissonance and the brain's drive for consistencyEvidence accumulation in identity-based behavior changeNeuroplasticity and learning across time and contextImpostor syndrome as a byproduct of uncertainty during growthCore Takeaways from the EpisodeBehavior leads and identity followsFeeling unfamiliar does not mean being misalignedSelf-doubt is information, not instructionConfidence grows from repetition, not declarationsConsistent behavior resolves cognitive dissonance over timeOver time, research shows that behavior is often what resolves cognitive dissonance, not beliefs.When behavior stays consistent, identity eventually follows.That's why you don't have to convince yourself. You just have to keep showing up.Practical Anchors SharedSeparate behavior from beliefLook for evidence rather than feelingsAvoid premature identity labelsNormalize discomfort during transitionUse language like “I am learning to become someone who…”Related Think Thursday EpisodesThe Myth of the Fresh Start BrainThe Neuroscience of Follow-ThroughBelief Echoes and Why Change Feels HardUnbreakable Habits and the Voice That Keeps Them AliveWhat's Coming NextNext week's Think Thursday explores what happens when progress starts to feel quieter, calmer, and even boring, and why that phase is actually a sign that change is taking hold. ★ Support this podcast ★
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Tommy from the OC shares his journey through anxiety, OCD, alcoholism, and addiction, leading to his current years of sobriety. With a steady, calm delivery, Tommy reflects on how the rooms of AA—along with his willingness and effort—brought him the gift of recovery and peace.Sobriety Date: 2/20/2022Referred by: Caleb (Episode #269)InstagramFacebook
In this episode i sit down with Didi from Sober Chapters to talk about love, dating, and relationships after sobriety.We explore how removing alcohol helped Didi break old dating patterns, gain clarity on her non-negotiables, and learn how to show up authentically in relationships. Didi shares how sobriety, self-trust, and manifestation played a powerful role in attracting a healthy, aligned partnership one that began with friendship and unfolded in divine timing.If you're navigating dating sober or wondering what's possible on the other side of alcohol, this conversation offers hope and perspective.* Connect with Didi Instagram* Free Resource from Soulful & Sober: 3 steps to make alcohol insignificant, feel good in your body, and be in control of your full potential* Buy My Book: Soul-Led Sobriety.
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Episode 200 is a celebration — and a reflection. In this milestone solo episode, Teri shares the distinction that has shaped her alcohol-free journey and her work with clients: the difference between becoming alcohol-free and living alcohol-free. Drawing on her own 10-year journey, coaching experience, and hundreds of podcast conversations, Teri explores how the early stages of stopping drinking focus on tools and support — while the later stages invite us into deeper self-trust, emotional regulation, values-based living, and purpose. This episode is for anyone who has ever wondered: "Is this it?" "Why does this still feel uncomfortable?" "What comes next?" The answer: life — fully lived. SHOW NOTES HERE
It's Novice Hurdlers Week on The Final Furlong Podcast as Emmet Kennedy, Adam Mills, and Jamie Wrenn take a forensic look at the horses lining up for the three other major Cheltenham Festival novice hurdles: • Turners Novices' Hurdle• Albert Bartlett Novices' Hurdle• Mares' Novices' Hurdle And we start with the big question… is No Drama This End the right favourite at 7/2, or is the Paul Nicholls buzz horse there to be taken on? The boys debate whether the market has this one right - or whether one of the improvers can mow him down come March.
SummaryThis conversation delves into the personal recovery journeys of the speakers, highlighting the challenges and triumphs faced along the way. From childhood experiences that shaped their relationship with alcohol to the complexities of family dynamics, the discussion emphasizes the importance of community, support, and the ongoing journey of sobriety. The speakers share their stories of resilience, the impact of addiction on their lives, and the hope found in recovery and connection with others. This conversation delves into the personal journeys of recovery from alcoholism, exploring the complexities of relationships, the importance of support systems, and the transformative power of community. The speakers share their experiences with sobriety, the challenges of mental health, and the significance of finding the right sponsors in their recovery journey. They emphasize the importance of transparency, trust, and personal growth, highlighting how their relationships have evolved through their experiences in recovery.
The Real Reason Alcohol Will Never Be Banned (It's Not What You Think)Meet The Stop Drinking Expert: Craig BeckCraig Beck, ABNLP, ABHYP, DhP, is a leading alcohol-addiction therapist, coach, and bestselling author whose work has helped more than 250,000 people create lives they no longer need to escape.Why Craig's Method WorksCraig spent twenty years caught in the same drinking loop you may know all too well, rationalising “just one,” waking up regretful, repeating the cycle. Traditional routes felt wrong: twelve-step meetings didn't resonate, rehab was impractical, and quick-fix gimmicks failed.Eventually, he had a 'penny drop' moment where he realized that alcohol isn't a reward at all but just attractively packaged poison. First, he fixed his own problem and has spent the last fifteen years helping others with a clear, science-backed framework that anyone can follow.No labels, no judgment, no willpower battles.www.CraigBeck.comwww.StopDrinkingExpert.com#soberlife #sobrietycoach #quitdrinking #stopdrinkingSupport the show
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What if alcohol isn't the problem… but the placeholder?In this episode of Sober & Lit, Ruby and Susan are joined by Anna Donaghey—certified alcohol mindset and life coach, award-winning podcast host, and author of What Are You Thirsty For?—for a conversation that goes way deeper than drinking less. Anna shares her journey from teenage drinking and a booze-soaked career in advertising to a life of clarity, purpose, and alcohol-free freedom—and the moment she realized alcohol was doing jobs it was never meant to do.Together, they explore powerful questions like: ✔️ What are you actually thirsting for? ✔️ Is your life good enough—or are you using alcohol to tolerate it? ✔️ What might be possible if you stopped numbing and started listening? This episode unpacks the hidden roles alcohol plays, why rock bottom is not required, and how reclaiming your desires can radically change your life.Whether you're sober curious, newly alcohol-free, or reimagining midlife on your own terms, this conversation will challenge you, inspire you, and invite you to want more—from yourself and your life. Less numbing. More truth. More lit—without the booze. ________Guest Resources for Anna Donaghey: Website: https://www.thebigdrinkrethink.comInstagram: https://www.instagram.com/bigdrinkrethinkFacebook: https://www.facebook.com/thebigdrinkrethink/Order the book on Amazon What Are You Thirsty For?We Love Hearing From YouDon't forget to follow and subscribe and leave a review! It helps to get the word out that living sober is lit! Listeners have said that our podcast has helped them get alcohol free! Get started by taking a break that feels lit with a Feel Lit 21 Day Break. Click here to find out more: https://www.freedomrenegadecoaching.com/buy-feel-lit-21-sg Join our private community! Connect with the Podcast Hosts:Susan Larkin Coaching https://www.susanlarkincoaching.com/ Ruby Williams at Freedom Renegade Coaching https://www.freedomrenegadecoaching.com/Follow Susan: @drinklesswithsusanFollow Ruby: @rubywilliamscoachingIt is strongly recommended that you seek professional advice regarding your health before attempting to take a break from alcohol. The creators, hosts, and producers of the The Feel Lit Alcohol Free podcast are not healthcare practitioners and therefore do not give medical, or psychological advice nor do they intend for the podcast, any resource or communication on behalf of the podcast or otherwise to be a substitute for such.
Dr. Cali Estes was an aspiring FBI agent until a meltdown involving cake on the floor led her down a path of addiction to diet pills, speed, and chaos. Today, she is known as "The Female Dr. Drew," helping celebrities, executives, and high-performers break free from addiction without hitting rock bottom.In this episode of Escaping the Drift, John Gafford sits down with Dr. Cali to discuss the hidden addictions of the wealthy, why traditional rehab fails high achievers, and the shocking reality of high-functioning addicts in the boardroom. She reveals her controversial "harm reduction" approach, why she believes ADHD can be a superpower, and the exact "brain dump" technique she uses to help clients sleep.If you think addiction only looks like a person under a bridge, or if you're using "stress" as an excuse for your habits, this episode will change your perspective forever.In this episode, we cover:How a diet pill addiction almost killed her at 23.The "Sober on Demand" method for high-functioning executives.Why "hitting rock bottom" is a myth that kills people.The truth about sugar, phones, and dopamine addiction.How to use ADHD as a competitive advantage in business.Chapter Titles & Timestamps00:00 – Intro: The Cake Meltdown & The "Fat Doctor"03:45 – The 3 Markers of Addiction You Can't Ignore08:15 – Why Sugar is the Gateway Drug14:30 – The "Functional Addict" Myth: CEOs & Celebrities21:00 – Why Traditional Rehab Fails High Performers29:15 – The "Brain Dump" Technique for Better Sleep36:40 – Is ADHD a Disorder or a Superpower?42:00 – How to Reset Your Dopamine Baseline
Hangovers, fuzzy nights, shame spirals. Have you ever wondered if the life you're craving is waiting on the other side of your wine glass? Alcohol doesn't require a rock bottom to deserve a breakup, says Suzanne Warye, host of The Sober Mom Life podcast and author of “The Sober Shift.” Suzanne quit at 39 after years of drinking. Now, she shares why sobriety isn't about deprivation—it's about reconnecting with who you were before alcohol took center stage. We explore "mommy wine culture," the myth of moderation, why AA isn't the only path, and what happens after you say, "enough is enough." Whether sober-curious or already on your journey, this conversation offers a clear-eyed look at outgrowing alcohol. Cheers to that, beauties! FOLLOW A CERTAIN AGE Instagram Facebook LinkedIn GET INBOX INSPO: Sign up for our newsletter AGE BOLDLY We share new episodes, giveaways, links we love, and midlife resources Learn more about your ad choices. Visit megaphone.fm/adchoices
If you've ever said, “I deserve a drink,” that thought may feel small, but it reflects something deeper — a powerful belief that alcohol is your reward.In this episode, Molly explores Alcohol Core Belief #4: Alcohol is my reward, and how this unconscious narrative can quietly fuel your desire to drink. The episode offers a new way forward — not through willpower or restriction, but by intentionally creating new, satisfying reward rituals.You'll learn:Why the brain links alcohol with reward — and what to do about itHow removing alcohol without adding new sources of pleasure leads to resistanceThe importance of building emotional reward systems that reinforce the habit of drinking lessWhy this work isn't about deprivation, but about creating lasting satisfaction and peaceTopics and TakeawaysHow “reward thinking” fuels the desire to drinkThe role of dopamine and learned associationsHow to create alcohol-free rewards that actually feel goodWhat to do instead of white-knuckling your way through dry daysThe mindset shift from “restriction” to “reinforcement”Resources MentionedAlcohol Core Beliefs Episodes: Episode 158: https://pdst.fm/e/dts.podtrac.com/redirect.mp3/media.transistor.fm/12f5397f/5d182193.mp3 Episode 159:https://pdst.fm/e/dts.podtrac.com/redirect.mp3/media.transistor.fm/eda56e8a/ac4e075a.mp3Episode 160: https://pdst.fm/e/dts.podtrac.com/redirect.mp3/media.transistor.fm/0bc07446/a0266a75.mp3Episode 161: https://pdst.fm/e/dts.podtrac.com/redirect.mp3/media.transistor.fm/e62c3a01/cdd8df70.mp3Episode 163: https://pdst.fm/e/dts.podtrac.com/redirect.mp3/media.transistor.fm/bb7c0709/5c68cc4e.mp3 Rewards Rewired WorksheetLow risk drinking guidelines from the NIAAA:Healthy men under 65:No more than 4 drinks in one day and no more than 14 drinks per week.Healthy women (all ages) and healthy men 65 and older:No more than 3 drinks in one day and no more than 7 drinks per week.One drink is defined as 12 ounces of beer, 5 ounces of wine, or 1.5 ounces of 80-proof liquor. So remember that a mixed drink or full glass of wine are probably more than one drink.Abstinence from alcoholAbstinence from alcohol is the best choice for people who take medication(s) that interact with alcohol, have health conditions that could be exacerbated by alcohol (e.g. liver disease), are pregnant or may become pregnant or have had a problem with alcohol or another substance in the past.Benefits of “low-risk” drinkingFollowing these guidelines reduces the risk of health problems such as cancer, liver disease, reduced immunity, ulcers, sleep problems, complications of existing conditions, and more. It also reduces the risk of depression, social problems, and difficulties at school or work. ★ Support this podcast ★
In this powerful episode, host Dustin Defenderfer sits down with Keith Seiver, CEO of Mountain Ops and 20-year sober recovering alcoholic, who opens up about his journey from childhood immersed in alcohol culture to rock-bottom isolation, shame, and addiction. Keith shares how AA's community, accountability, and spiritual surrender saved his life, replaced numbness with discipline, and fueled his transformation through fitness—ultimately leading to purpose, leadership, and helping men escape apathy, loneliness, and substance abuse for a life of grit and meaning.Join Dustin Diefenderfer, Founder of MTNTOUGH Fitness Lab and creator of the MTNTOUGH+ Fitness App in the top podcast for Mental Toughness and Mindset. (P.S.
Ever noticed how the moment you put down the wine glass, you suddenly find yourself at the bottom of a family-sized bag of Haribo? You aren't alone. In fact, for many of us, the "sugar monster" was waiting in the wings long before we poured our last drink.In this episode, we sit down with Vanessa Kredler, a Sydney-based psychotherapist and specialist in ultra-processed food addiction. Vanessa brings a lived experience in recovering from both food and alcohol addiction.We dive deep into why these two habits are so often "best friends" and how to navigate the "naughty food" phase of early sobriety without losing your mind.We explore:The Binge Trigger: Why Vanessa had to give up alcohol to finally heal her relationship with food.The AA Sugar Phenomenon: Why are there always so many sweets at recovery meetings? We look at the biological link between the bottle and the biscuit tin.The Great Food Addiction Challenge: You can choose to never touch alcohol again, but you have to eat. How do you manage an addiction to something you need for survival?How Worried Should You Be?: Should you be concerned about your skyrocketing sugar intake in early sobriety, or is it okay to "treat yourself" while you find your feet?Whether you're "sober curious" or a few years in and wondering why you're suddenly obsessed with ice cream, Vanessa offers incredible insight into how to find balance and understand the "why" behind your cravings.
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She never thought of herself as sensitive—just practical, cautious, and aware of her surroundings. But growing up as the daughter of a pastor who quietly performed exorcisms left marks she didn't recognize at the time. Certain rooms felt heavy. Certain places demanded escape. And sadness followed her long before she understood why.Years later, after getting sober, she realized something unsettling: the despair, the crushing cold, and the urge to drink all returned in one specific place—her home. On deployment, surrounded by routine and people, she felt clear and stable. At home, the cold waited. It moved with her. Watched her. Fed on isolation and weakness.When objects began moving—lifted, not tipped—she understood it wasn't a haunted house or cursed antiques. Those items had only given something permission to lean closer.The truth was harder to face: whatever lingered wasn't interested in walls. It was interested in her boundaries. And once she stopped feeding it fear, exhaustion, and escape—the cold began to lose its grip.#TrueParanormal #SpiritualAttachment #SobrietyAndTheSupernatural #UnexplainedExperiences #ParanormalAwareness #HauntedObjects #RealGhostStories #EntityAttachment #TrueGhostStory #Boundaries Love real ghost stories? Don't just listen—join us on YouTube and be part of the largest community of real paranormal encounters anywhere. Subscribe now and never miss a chilling new story:
She never thought of herself as sensitive—just practical, cautious, and aware of her surroundings. But growing up as the daughter of a pastor who quietly performed exorcisms left marks she didn't recognize at the time. Certain rooms felt heavy. Certain places demanded escape. And sadness followed her long before she understood why.Years later, after getting sober, she realized something unsettling: the despair, the crushing cold, and the urge to drink all returned in one specific place—her home. On deployment, surrounded by routine and people, she felt clear and stable. At home, the cold waited. It moved with her. Watched her. Fed on isolation and weakness.When objects began moving—lifted, not tipped—she understood it wasn't a haunted house or cursed antiques. Those items had only given something permission to lean closer.The truth was harder to face: whatever lingered wasn't interested in walls. It was interested in her boundaries. And once she stopped feeding it fear, exhaustion, and escape—the cold began to lose its grip.#TrueParanormal #SpiritualAttachment #SobrietyAndTheSupernatural #UnexplainedExperiences #ParanormalAwareness #HauntedObjects #RealGhostStories #EntityAttachment #TrueGhostStory #Boundaries Love real ghost stories? Don't just listen—join us on YouTube and be part of the largest community of real paranormal encounters anywhere. Subscribe now and never miss a chilling new story:
A 30-day break from alcohol changes multiple systems at once: metabolic, cardiovascular, neurological, and behavioral. In this episode, I'm summarizing what the research says about the benefits people commonly experience, including sleep, energy, liver fat, and drink-refusal self-efficacy. I'll explain what improves early, what takes longer, and what predicts real behavior change beyond the month. What to listen to next: E231: everything you need to know about withdrawal E205: kindling in alcohol withdrawal E240: post acute withdrawal syndrome (PAWS) E247: Sober Sleep is the Best Sleep, But Not Right Away E265: Rewiring the reward system after getting sober Work with me: Community & Meetings: Living a Sober Powered Life https://www.soberpowered.com/membership Sober coaching https://www.soberpowered.com/sober-coaching Weekly email: You'll hear from me on Fridays https://www.soberpowered.com/email Support the show: If you enjoyed this episode please consider buying me a coffee to support all the research and effort that goes into this podcast https://www.buymeacoffee.com/soberpowered Thank you for supporting this show by supporting my sponsors https://www.soberpowered.com/sponsors Sources are posted on my website Disclaimer: all of the information described in this podcast is my interpretation of the research combined with my opinion. This is not medical advice. Learn more about your ad choices. Visit megaphone.fm/adchoices
Open Instagram, Ruin Your Night?We love to hate social media. But it's also a singular tool for staying in touch, getting the word out on things we care about, and even learning a thing or two. We talk about our early days on the socials and how we use it now. Sober tools can help – just like with a drink, before opening that app, maybe ask yourself why you want to log on and play the tape through on where it might lead. Check out all things Lisa and all things Anna.
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Stop doing the hardest part over and over again. In this episode, Casey, Suzanne and I discuss our advice for making sobriety stick and the mistakes we've observed people making over the years. Connect with Casey: https://hellosomedaycoaching.com/ Connect with Suzanne: https://thesobermomlife.com/ Work with me: Community & Meetings: Living a Sober Powered Life https://www.soberpowered.com/membership Sober coaching https://www.soberpowered.com/sober-coaching Weekly email: You'll hear from me on Fridays https://www.soberpowered.com/email Support the show: If you enjoyed this episode please consider buying me a coffee to support all the research and effort that goes into this podcast https://www.buymeacoffee.com/soberpowered Thank you for supporting this show by supporting my sponsors https://www.soberpowered.com/sponsors Sources are posted on my website Disclaimer: all of the information described in this podcast is my interpretation of the research combined with my opinion. This is not medical advice. Learn more about your ad choices. Visit megaphone.fm/adchoices
No inserted ads: www.patreon.com/dopeypodcast The episode opens with your intro, then the bulk of the show is Hairy Tongue Will's massive, chaotic, detailed telling of his addiction, near-death runs, arrests, relapse cycles, dead friends, and eventual recovery.Will describes the early Long Island chaos with Richie, Mike, and Lenny—everyone strung out on heroin, crack, coke, and whatever they could get. He recalls the first serious turn: showing up to a house where Lenny was passed out after a three-day crack run, realizing “the demons are taking over.” Mike and Richie spiral deeper, and Will keeps managing to “hold it together” thanks to jobs, work ethic, and a strange electrical-job stabilizer that kept him semi-functional.He details years of DUIs, probation, manipulating drug tests, smoking crack constantly while still working 16-hour electrician shifts, and thriving socially because coworkers lived vicariously through him. He normalized chaos, missing only “one no-call/no-show every two weeks,” which he considered acceptable.Will then dives into his first short attempt at stability, living in a basement apartment. His probation officer surprises him the day after a holiday: the apartment is filled with beer cans, bongs, baggies. He fails the test, is sent back to rehab/jail cycles, and explains why Long Island addicts often choose jail over treatment. He describes his surreal time in jail—being sent to the Montauk Lighthouse on work crews, eating egg sandwiches and black-and-milds with the guards, becoming “the useful guy,” actually feeling respected and purposeful.Back outside, he tries again, fails again, collects DUIs, cycles through companies, loses jobs, hustles side work, and repeatedly relapses. A wedding night leads to another DUI. COVID hits while he's in jail. He gets out, starts working nonstop, earns money, piles cash in a closet, stacks crypto, reads self-help books, sleeps on a mattress on the floor, becomes obsessed with success and control.Then he meets a girl in Tennessee. He drinks again “successfully” only when he flies there. He builds a double life—working himself numb, drinking out of state, convincing himself he's different.Eventually, on a work trip, he gambles, wins big, drinks an old fashioned, and secretly cooks his boss's cocaine into crack. This reignites the obsession. Will starts traveling the Northeast and Midwest, repeatedly pulling crack-seeking missions: gas stations, high-crime neighborhoods, asking strangers, “I'm looking for some hard.” He builds drug contacts in Bridgeport, Dayton, Maine, Virginia, wherever the job sends him. He smokes in hotels, hallucinates blood on floors, changes rooms repeatedly.He recounts the deaths of friends:Mike, whose father turned their home into a sheet-walled trap house with dealers and bikers living inside.How Mike died with his father selling sneakers off his dead son's body.Richie, who got sober then died of fentanyl after nearly two years clean.Will's life collapses further—obsession, resentment toward God, jealousy, terminal uniqueness. He becomes a “demon,” wanting to die like his friends. He terrifies his girlfriend with delusional FaceTimes, nine-day runs, psychosis. She moves in without knowing the truth and becomes trapped in codependency.He stays high for 26 straight days, manipulates her with antihistamine allergy episodes to cover his psychosis, hides crack pipes around the house with ring cameras everywhere. He finally admits some truth, gives her $5,000 to escape, but she stays another nine months.He tells insane stories:Pretending he's a trust-fund baby to get free crackGetting shot at by a dealer after a misunderstanding over “two grams” vs “two ounces”Driving through wooded roads barefoot at gas stationsDealers trying to jump himBecoming a mule for a recently-released dealer (Ace)Near misses, violence, and pure street insanityEventually, during a pickup, he gets chased, prays for police lights, and his car breaks down. Cops descend. He gets a mountain of charges (“five decades worth”). He thinks he'll die in prison. Bail reform gets him released. He immediately uses again for 17 more days.A sober lawyer tries pushing him toward St. Christopher's. Will resists, manipulates LICR, relapses again, cancels his own insurance, tries to die, and after weeks of chaos his mother gets him re-approved. He enters St. Chris, still delusional, still dangerous.There he breaks. He admits suicidal thoughts, gets a guard stationed outside his door, hears the blunt truth—you're the worst-off guy here and you did this to yourself. It lands. Will begins working the program: spiritual direction, grief groups, codependency, meetings, kitchen duty, everything. He reconnects with his mother in sobriety. He attends court in suits provided by the facility and ultimately receives an unexpectedly generous plea deal.He comes home early, tries to run his own program, stays sober for months, but on Mother's Day runs into an old acquaintance who shows him a Newport box with a pipe inside. He relapses immediately for three days, misses Mother's Day entirely.That night, suicidal again, he receives a series of calls: first from Jordan, then from his tough sponsor, who gives him clear direction—go to a sober house, go to daily groups, go to nightly meetings, call people, build structure. Will frauds his urine to get in, but once inside, follows every instruction. He stabilizes.He recounts being 18 months sober now, having been at meetings nearly every night, with a recent slip in commitment due to chasing an “intimate partner godshot” that didn't work out. You reassure him that it's fine and that balance is part of recovery.More or less thats the whole thing! On a brand new fucko, crackead episode of that good old dopey show! Hosted by Simplecast, an AdsWizz company. See pcm.adswizz.com for information about our collection and use of personal data for advertising.
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