Confessions of a Serial Wife

The abusive, neglectful, lying mother is now elderly and needing assistance. I feel guilty and of course attempt to help at the detriment of my sanity. --- This episode is sponsored by · Anchor: The easiest way to make a podcast. https://anchor.fm/app Support this podcast: https://anchor.fm/csw/support

Recent events from the convict nextdoor. Drug use and impacts. My daughter's experiences and how I think it all fits together. --- This episode is sponsored by · Anchor: The easiest way to make a podcast. https://anchor.fm/app Support this podcast: https://anchor.fm/csw/support

The death of my father, the euthanasia of my animals, paranormal feelings, the heart break, and what it all boils down to. --- This episode is sponsored by · Anchor: The easiest way to make a podcast. https://anchor.fm/app Support this podcast: https://anchor.fm/csw/support

What's been happening lately. The disregard I feel. Reflecting on past relationships and if I'm possibly projecting this onto my spouse. --- This episode is sponsored by · Anchor: The easiest way to make a podcast. https://anchor.fm/app Support this podcast: https://anchor.fm/csw/support

Recent experiences have caused me to analyze how I am and how people interact with me/react to me. --- This episode is sponsored by · Anchor: The easiest way to make a podcast. https://anchor.fm/app Support this podcast: https://anchor.fm/csw/support

Touching on religion vs spirituality, and referencing religion from my childhood. I look at how religion impacted my friends, and how it has morphed into some kind of political edge, more so than actually being about God or goodness. --- This episode is sponsored by · Anchor: The easiest way to make a podcast. https://anchor.fm/app Support this podcast: https://anchor.fm/csw/support

Remembering back to when I should have been care free, instead I was dealing with an abusive mom, a sick dad, fleas, drug experimentation, and trying to grow up through it all. I also recall how I treated Teddy when he didn't deserve that. --- This episode is sponsored by · Anchor: The easiest way to make a podcast. https://anchor.fm/app Support this podcast: https://anchor.fm/csw/support

Coming from the holidays into a fresh new season of hell. Thinking about my nephews and the alienation that has distanced my entire family. And of course, I disclose the wonderful (sarcasm) Christmas phone call we had with my mom. --- This episode is sponsored by · Anchor: The easiest way to make a podcast. https://anchor.fm/app Support this podcast: https://anchor.fm/csw/support

Gotta love the holidays and family gatherings, small as they may be now. Even with the best of intentions, words hurt and comments sting. I love my family, but sometimes some comments hang with me longer than they should. --- Support this podcast: https://anchor.fm/csw/support

The jealousy that comes from abuse and narcissism in childhood impacts how children grow, learn and think of themselves. It feeds who they are and spreads like a virus until it effects every aspect of their adult lives. Jealousy is worse than a little green monster, it consumes your self worth. --- This episode is sponsored by · Anchor: The easiest way to make a podcast. https://anchor.fm/app Support this podcast: https://anchor.fm/csw/support

Random episode about current thoughts and memories surrounding my kids. How every action impacts another, everything is linked. Decisions influence more than your immediate moment in time and are felt by everyone around you, current and future. --- This episode is sponsored by · Anchor: The easiest way to make a podcast. https://anchor.fm/app Support this podcast: https://anchor.fm/csw/support

Detailed description of the physical abuse that has manifested in my life. The patterns that keep bringing it to me. What I recognize as an adult looking back at all of my relationships. --- This episode is sponsored by · Anchor: The easiest way to make a podcast. https://anchor.fm/app Support this podcast: https://anchor.fm/csw/support

Overview of what I've experienced and seen, and the details/thoughts behind each. I don't consider myself religious, more so just spiritual... Mostly due to things discussed in this episode. --- This episode is sponsored by · Anchor: The easiest way to make a podcast. https://anchor.fm/app Support this podcast: https://anchor.fm/csw/support

My thoughts, brief recaps of my experiences, and how early negative experiences change your relations. --- This episode is sponsored by · Anchor: The easiest way to make a podcast. https://anchor.fm/app Support this podcast: https://anchor.fm/csw/support

In honor of breast cancer awareness month: My mom had breast cancer so I go into detail about what that looked like. What it meant for our family, the physical/medical details, and what it meant for me. This is a lifelong diagnosis for everyone involved. --- This episode is sponsored by · Anchor: The easiest way to make a podcast. https://anchor.fm/app Support this podcast: https://anchor.fm/csw/support

A recent phone call from mommy dearest sparked this episode. So I covered that call, and my life of surviving her gaslighting narcissistic mentality. --- This episode is sponsored by · Anchor: The easiest way to make a podcast. https://anchor.fm/app Support this podcast: https://anchor.fm/csw/support

Dedicated to all the sexually abused people that have been told they'll pass the abuse on. --- This episode is sponsored by · Anchor: The easiest way to make a podcast. https://anchor.fm/app Support this podcast: https://anchor.fm/csw/support

Is there a trick to this?? Current marriage details; how I got here, why I stay here, how my past has impacted the thought of leaving. Narcissism has been a big role throughout my life, maybe that has trained me to tolerate what I get and how I'm treated. Maybe my opinion is so skewed from my past that I just don't evaluate events clearly. Whatever the case, this is life as I know it. --- This episode is sponsored by · Anchor: The easiest way to make a podcast. https://anchor.fm/app Support this podcast: https://anchor.fm/csw/support

Details of my relationship with my son's biological thing. The verbal and mental abuse, how did I stay for so long? I escaped for awhile and then went back. How did that happen? The drug-use that was involved may have had something to do with it. --- This episode is sponsored by · Anchor: The easiest way to make a podcast. https://anchor.fm/app Support this podcast: https://anchor.fm/csw/support

Background on my mother's sue happy lifestyle. Some not so happy memories from an earlier time. My thoughts on regret, including the things that I probably regret most in life, and how I think it all ties together. --- This episode is sponsored by · Anchor: The easiest way to make a podcast. https://anchor.fm/app Support this podcast: https://anchor.fm/csw/support

The dirty details of an escapade I'm not proud of, which lead to thinking of my newly worsened menstrual cycle as punishment. How my life was negatively impacted by this. And how my hysterectomy saved my life. *Graphic in nature. Not for the weak of heart.* --- This episode is sponsored by · Anchor: The easiest way to make a podcast. https://anchor.fm/app Support this podcast: https://anchor.fm/csw/support

Discussing in detail the depths of depression, causes, suicidal thoughts/attempts. How my home life and neglected health played a factor. Menstrual and constipation issues that stemmed from neglected health as a child, and how that impacted everything I was already dealing with. --- This episode is sponsored by · Anchor: The easiest way to make a podcast. https://anchor.fm/app Support this podcast: https://anchor.fm/csw/support

Beginning with a tangent on my stealing after escaping my previous abuser, I talk about my current marriage and how that looks. His borderline narcissistic personality and me being alienated from friends. Our strong marriage but weak friendship. --- This episode is sponsored by · Anchor: The easiest way to make a podcast. https://anchor.fm/app Support this podcast: https://anchor.fm/csw/support

Filling in the gaps on abuse and how it effects the victim, how it impacted my life over the years and what that looked like. --- This episode is sponsored by · Anchor: The easiest way to make a podcast. https://anchor.fm/app Support this podcast: https://anchor.fm/csw/support

Further details on my job after college and the abuse endured by my boss and "friend". My transgender friend and how close we were. School memories, fitting in, past friends and jobs that were probably a direct result of my abuse. --- This episode is sponsored by · Anchor: The easiest way to make a podcast. https://anchor.fm/app Support this podcast: https://anchor.fm/csw/support

Details about the stress of ongoing trauma and abuse and how that effected me long term. Details about my kids as young adults and the stress and experiences they endured, possibly because of how I was. Current marriage details and how it all ties together. --- This episode is sponsored by · Anchor: The easiest way to make a podcast. https://anchor.fm/app Support this podcast: https://anchor.fm/csw/support

During the end of my college career as a thirty something adult I was not only dealing with my life, but the fact that my sister and nephew both had cancer. Still dealing with the fallout from the funeral and the dysfunctional family issues I started my post college job and my first boss was a narcissistic bully that thrived on tormenting us. The stress from everything was enough to drown in. --- This episode is sponsored by · Anchor: The easiest way to make a podcast. https://anchor.fm/app Support this podcast: https://anchor.fm/csw/support

Details about my sister's cancer. What life looked like during that time. The trips her and my mother took. How that felt on my end and how that looked from the outside. And finally, her son's brain cancer. --- This episode is sponsored by · Anchor: The easiest way to make a podcast. https://anchor.fm/app Support this podcast: https://anchor.fm/csw/support

The fallout from the funeral encounter, how normal everything became. College life, day to day life, it all continued. Then I got the text message that changed it all. My sister had cancer and it was terminal. --- This episode is sponsored by · Anchor: The easiest way to make a podcast. https://anchor.fm/app Support this podcast: https://anchor.fm/csw/support

Details about the funeral, the dysfunctional relationship between my sister, my mom and myself. How that felt and what that looked like. --- This episode is sponsored by · Anchor: The easiest way to make a podcast. https://anchor.fm/app Support this podcast: https://anchor.fm/csw/support

The whole obituary story, how that impacted us. The times still spent at dad's. When he actually passed and how that was, what I experienced, what I saw and thought. And then he was gone. --- This episode is sponsored by · Anchor: The easiest way to make a podcast. https://anchor.fm/app Support this podcast: https://anchor.fm/csw/support

Recap of how it was with the new marriage and dads health deteriorating. The issues we dealt with as a new family and the added stress. Dad going into hospice care and what that looked like. How that impacted my immediate family, and what that meant to my sister and how she chose to avoid the whole thing. --- This episode is sponsored by · Anchor: The easiest way to make a podcast. https://anchor.fm/app Support this podcast: https://anchor.fm/csw/support

The fallout from all the stress, the impacts on my, then, teenagers. My suspicions with the kids' dad and his relationship with them. The turmoil that had become the normal. --- This episode is sponsored by · Anchor: The easiest way to make a podcast. https://anchor.fm/app Support this podcast: https://anchor.fm/csw/support

New husband's relationship with my kids, my broken nature and how that looked through the years and what that meant for the new spouse. --- This episode is sponsored by · Anchor: The easiest way to make a podcast. https://anchor.fm/app Support this podcast: https://anchor.fm/csw/support

My sister's life was changing, my parents were okay, my kids were super busy growing up, and then I meet someone new online. Detailing how that went, and what the next steps were for him and I. --- This episode is sponsored by · Anchor: The easiest way to make a podcast. https://anchor.fm/app Support this podcast: https://anchor.fm/csw/support

Detailing how it was to have the kids' dad living with us again after the divorce. How he and his family were with my kids and with me. To say things were rough, was an understatement. Wondering if I was wrong, if I had made a mistake. My sister trying to help but her marriage ending in divorce and the fallout from that. --- This episode is sponsored by · Anchor: The easiest way to make a podcast. https://anchor.fm/app Support this podcast: https://anchor.fm/csw/support

The terrible idea of getting back together with the kids' dad after my ex moved out. The humiliating fact of realizing everything that I still hated was still there. Not being over my ex. Trying to deal with the kids' dad's new relationships and the turmoil that ensued. --- This episode is sponsored by · Anchor: The easiest way to make a podcast. https://anchor.fm/app Support this podcast: https://anchor.fm/csw/support

There's nothing quite like feeling that the love of your life has actually poisoned you. That's what happened. My money ran out, he was planning to leave (secretively), and maybe this was his last stitch effort to keep my house. His behavior had been strange and then he left- like nothing had happened. --- This episode is sponsored by · Anchor: The easiest way to make a podcast. https://anchor.fm/app Support this podcast: https://anchor.fm/csw/support

How my fourth marriage ended, the stress and headache around that. Becoming friends with the kids' dad. Trying to survive the fallout. My mom's abuser and chasing him away. --- This episode is sponsored by · Anchor: The easiest way to make a podcast. https://anchor.fm/app Support this podcast: https://anchor.fm/csw/support

Details about what a divorce looks like with kids. The hell I was beginning to recognize with the man I was seeing. The kids' turmoil. Mental anguish and stress that was the fallout from the split and trying to preserve what sanity we had left. --- This episode is sponsored by · Anchor: The easiest way to make a podcast. https://anchor.fm/app Support this podcast: https://anchor.fm/csw/support

Detailing more of what my marriage was like to the kids' dad. How he had such a lack of reaction/emotion, to me and to the kids. How I was almost beat up by a big man in front of my kids' dad with him doing nothing. And how that all felt to me. --- This episode is sponsored by · Anchor: The easiest way to make a podcast. https://anchor.fm/app Support this podcast: https://anchor.fm/csw/support

The financial job I took with the "professional" men, the affair, my dad's hospital stay, the beginnings of my third divorce and how that felt. --- This episode is sponsored by · Anchor: The easiest way to make a podcast. https://anchor.fm/app Support this podcast: https://anchor.fm/csw/support

Was he cheating? Was he gay? I honestly wasn't sure at this point. When my sister came to visit, that was just too much. We bought a bigger house hoping to start a new, but it didn't help. --- This episode is sponsored by · Anchor: The easiest way to make a podcast. https://anchor.fm/app Support this podcast: https://anchor.fm/csw/support

Details about my kids' dad lying and believed cheating. My retaliation cheat. My flirting tendencies, the nighttime molestation and how all of that effected our lives. --- This episode is sponsored by · Anchor: The easiest way to make a podcast. https://anchor.fm/app Support this podcast: https://anchor.fm/csw/support

What it was like in the valley in the new house with kids. Being betrayed by their dad and family turmoil. --- This episode is sponsored by · Anchor: The easiest way to make a podcast. https://anchor.fm/app Support this podcast: https://anchor.fm/csw/support

Details about my third marriage, being pregnant with my daughter. What life was like trying to progress with someone that was happy being stagnant. And buying our first house. --- This episode is sponsored by · Anchor: The easiest way to make a podcast. https://anchor.fm/app Support this podcast: https://anchor.fm/csw/support

Coming to terms with being a single mom. Trying to plan for the future. Getting married a third time, and trying to come to terms with what that meant as a mom and a new wife. Worrying about where my son fit into all of it. --- This episode is sponsored by · Anchor: The easiest way to make a podcast. https://anchor.fm/app Support this podcast: https://anchor.fm/csw/support

Detailing what it was like being home with a new baby and trying to be normal again. Grandpa stepping up, being so healthy and present. My son's relationship with grandpa. The phone calls and pleads to go back to Sam from back east. --- This episode is sponsored by · Anchor: The easiest way to make a podcast. https://anchor.fm/app Support this podcast: https://anchor.fm/csw/support

Detailing how severely abused (mentally, physically) I was. Describing the first part of my son's life with a dad that was a horrible alcoholic, drug addict, and finally escaping. --- This episode is sponsored by · Anchor: The easiest way to make a podcast. https://anchor.fm/app Support this podcast: https://anchor.fm/csw/support

Details about Sam, and his perverse nature, his alcoholism and us moving back east to be with his family. This is when I had my son. --- This episode is sponsored by · Anchor: The easiest way to make a podcast. https://anchor.fm/app Support this podcast: https://anchor.fm/csw/support

Detailing my second marriage and everything that led up to it. How it abruptly ended, the second abortion, and all the chaos that ensued. --- This episode is sponsored by · Anchor: The easiest way to make a podcast. https://anchor.fm/app Support this podcast: https://anchor.fm/csw/support