Not So Anonymous

On Dylans final episode of Not So Anonymous the guys reminisce on everything this podcast has done for them and all the memories they have made along the way, Donny has a date, Jordan makes a public apology, Gumer romances the drink, and Dylan signs up to be the first guest on this "End of an Era" episode of Not So Anonymous 

Today we wrap our conversation on 12 steps by discussing the different ways we have experienced a spiritual awakening, and how we give back what was so freely given to us. Dylan, Gumer, and Jordan are mind blown as Donny recaps his God shot life saving trip to Ohio on this weeks episode of Not So Anonymous. 

The guys continue their conversation on the steps as we dive into some benefits and skepticism on prayer and meditation. Donny takes a trip to outer space, Dylan knows more about God than anyone, Jordan believes masturbation is meditation and manifestation all in one and Gumer eats mushrooms and dies in this “conscious contact” episode of not so anonymous.

We continued to take personal inventory. It's important that once we get to the tenth step we maintain the willingness we showed in steps 4-9 and identify our character assets and liabilities. Jordan quits the podcast, Donny flexes his social skills on Dylan while Dylan deals with social anxiety and Gumer has a resentment toward an old lady in this “promptly admitted” episode of not so anonymous.

Have you ever had to make a difficult apology to someone? This week the guys discuss the difficulty and freedom when we make an honest amends for our actions and arrive at the place of forgiveness. Dylan isn't working his steps, Gumer makes an amends at a drunken party, Donny swings a hammer on acid and Jordan thinks his ex might take him back in this “my side of the street” episode of not so anonymous.

Have you ever genuinely wanted to have your character defects removed? Tune in and hear the process the guys took and the changing defects of character they deal with. Dylan hustles a kid for his shoes, Jordan decided he has no defects of character, Gumer steals money and gets a free lunch from QT and Donny stores his character defects in his cargo short pockets in this “humbly asked him to remove” episode of not so anonymous.

The guys finish up their talk on the 4th and 5th step. Gumer runs the show, Jordan finds out he is not perfect, Dylan stops talking shit, and Donny goes through puberty in recovery, in this slightly awkward sex and secrets filled episode of Not So Anonymous. 

the guys continue their work on step four and cleaning out the wreckage of their past. Dylan got an empty storage unit, Gumer didn't like Dylan, Donny is a hugger, Jordan digs deep on this fear heavy episode of Not So Anonymous

We took a searching and fearless moral inventory of ourselves. How difficult can it be to dig deep into our own inventory and discover our true character? Dylan forgot to put a seat belt on his fourth step note book, Jordan tries not to black out, Donny is getting sick because of Gumers secrets and Gumer has an incredible breakthrough as the guys ask and answer some difficult questions in this moral inventory episode of Not So Anonymous.

What is step 3 and why can it be so difficult to turn our lives over to God? The guys discuss a tough time in their recoveries and the result of living in self will. Dylan isn't allowed to go to Mexico, Jordan sponsors Donny and Gumer's days are numbered in this God's will (sometimes) episode of Not So Anonymous.

We came to believe. The guys dive into step 2 and the experience in coming to believe. Can Donny take on Mother Nature? Is Jordan drinking fireball? Is Gumer awake? Who gets the job at Costco? Tune in to this higher power episode of Not So Anonymous to find out.

What does unmanageable mean to us? The guys reflect back at the denial of their addictions, the bottoms it took them to and the surrender that eventually took place. Donny used a steak knife on his legs, Dylan pees in his closet, Jordan leaves the bar unattended and Gumer goes to jail every other weekend in this “powerless” episode of Not So Anonymous

Is it still good enough to just stay clean today in our recoveries? Jordan has 2 weeks of no character defects, Donny has great ideas in his active addiction, Dylan runs for Mayor of his city and a Gumer discusses the difficulty of losing his mother is this “go to any lengths” season finale of Not So Anonymous.

What does it mean to be present and what are the benefits and hardships that come with it? Donny tries to use a sperm bank to buy crypto, Jordan is allowed at his sisters wedding, Dylan gets high on pre work out and Gumer becomes an emotional pillar during the toughest time of his families life in this God did for me what I couldn't episode of Not So Anonymous.

It's been a tough couple of months for Gumer. After experiencing a shoulder injury, his kids and family getting sick, and ultimately losing his brother while his mother is still in the hospital find out how he turns to his program, accepts help, finds connection and re-establishes a relationship with God in this “he ain't lying” episode of not so anonymous.

Service work is one of the best ways to stay clean and get out of selfish, self centered behavior. Even when we really don't want to, the guys make themselves available to go on 12th step calls, mission trips, H&I meetings and messed up trips with other people's luggage in this selfless (kind of) episode of not so anonymous. 

The guys make an attempt to cut pornography and masturbation out of their lives as they talk about the constant need for stimulation, how they were introduced to sex and any sexual traumas or insecurities they may face in this at times raunchy but healing conversation.

Triggers. What are they and when do they come? The guys discuss moments of triggers and how they dealt with them. Donny relapses, Jordan hides from his parents, Dylan lies to a sponsee and Gumer just needs a week off the drugs in this mindset matters episode of not so anonymous.

How many of us have used drugs against our will? The guys talk about the moments of active addiction and a life lived with out choices. Donny puts 2 dollars in the gas tank, Gumer has a weird collection, Jordan makes the walk of shame and Dylan writes himself a letter in this “I can't stop” episode of not so anonymous.

It was an amazing July for the guys. Jordan got 18 months, Dylan got 2 years and Donny celebrates his 30th birthday with a rock, the crack and a flop. Tune in to this survivors guilt feeling, gratitude packed, fellowshipping, complexed emotional episode of not so anonymous.

What are our attitudes like after some time in recovery? Are we practicing acceptance and willing to change our behavior or are we sitting in self pity? Dylan calls AM radio stations while getting high, Gumer can't get out of his will, Jordan doesn't want to be sad anymore and Donny hits his friends in this attitude of gratitude episode of not so anonymous.

The guys take their first dive into the traumatic experiences that shaped their lives and addictions. They touch on their active drug addiction, watching family in addiction, along with the emotional and sexual abuse that took place in this vulnerable conversation.

The boys are all over the map and all over in general in this war story packed, spiritual experience filled, finally becoming teachable episode. Donny finds love in a bar, Dylan becomes a local in Hawaii and Jordan outlasts all the guys in a competitive game of who makes it back to the rooms first. #wheresgumer

Not So Anonymous is back with a behind-the-scenes look at what led to our break. The boys hash out feelings and get back on the same page the best way we know how, by getting on the mic and hitting record. Take a live  look into our recovery on the Season 2 premier of Not So Anonymous

Jordan takes a trip to Hawaii and speaks on his needed break from the everyday life of recovery and why he was able to do that after establishing his program as his foundation. Donny and Gumer blow things up in their head and Dylan struggles to stay awake in this I get to do this episode of not so anonymous.

After relapses and failed attempts to get clean we were always welcomed back to the rooms. Donny breaks his foot in Mexico, Dylan tries to dodge a process server, Jordan plays the tape through and Gumer tries not to burn it to the ground in this keep coming back episode of Not So Anonymous.

We take a trip down memory lane as Jordan shares his goodbye letter to his ex lover... alcohol. The letter brings us to a discussion on our current state of recovery and the ups and downs we face as new challenges arise and new goals are set in this delayed gratification episode of not so anonymous.

The guys speak about times of trying to moderate their drinking or just stay away from their drug of choice while holding on to the idea that they can still get high. We touch on California sober, suboxone and distant crutches used in this highly opinionated episode of not so anonymous.

It’s been an incredible week for the guys. Full of ups and downs, triumphs and trials. Hear what happens when we take another step in recovery, achieve long term goals and form new habits while breaking tough old ones in this boot glueing episode of not so anonymous.

This week Gumer opens up about a vital assignment during his stay in a Tijuana rehab that changed his life. He touches on sexual abuse, emotional confusion and what happened when he got absolutely honest in this pen to paper episode of Not so Anonymous.

Relationships in sobriety can be tricky. This week the guys discuss getting clean while married, dating inside of the rooms and the fear often attached to trying to date for the first time in sobriety.

What happens when we humble ourselves and work our programs? Jordan and Gumer talk about the process of getting new sponsors and re working the steps, Dylan burns his eye ball and Donny is up past his bed time in this self inventory taking episode of not so anonymous

The boys have an important conversation on their different relationships, perspectives and struggles with God and share their different outlooks their journey has provided so far. We touch on sobriety, the church and life with and without God.

The boys talk about the importance of sponsorship and their experience with it. The guys fire Dylan as their sponsor as Donny offers up their sponsorship to the newcomers in this 12th stepping episode of not so anonymous.

What are our priorities after some time in recovery? Are we still willing to go to any lengths to stay sober? The boys reflect on the journey and take a look at what’s important in our lives in this death row, “don’t take the first drink” episode of not so anonymous.

Years of hard work comes together as the boys share a trip for the record books. Full of fellowship, moments of serenity, bad friends to snowboard with and a return to passion on this Gods timing episode of not so anonymous.

I can’t, but we can. This week we discuss the power of recovering together and struggles of when we try and do it alone. Donny chops up a semi truck, Gumer goes full fight club and loses track of reality, and Dylan and Jordan simply want to watch the movie about the two in this unity packed episode of not so anonymous.

Thank God for narcan as the boys talk about the insanity of addiction and the places it brings us. Find out why Donny ruined an ambulance, Dylan was offered milk, Jordan never made to the big game and Gumer stayed on the streets in this episode of not so anonymous.

The meeting after the meeting is in full effect as Dylan opens up about going through a difficult time in recovery. The guys chime in and discuss the roller coaster of recovery and the tools we use to get through the tough days.

The boys reflect on the hard times that led them to recovery and the beauty that came of it. Gumer floods a warehouse, Dylan drinks the wrong bottle, Jordan’s heart was broken and Donny is....Donny, in this defects turned to assets episode of Not So Anonymous.

Our boy Jordan celebrates 1 year of sobriety and reflects on how he got there. Dylan gets fired from the podcast, Donny tries to show emotion and Gumer fights an imaginary person in the shower in this delirious episode of not so anonymous.

The guys reminisce on what it used to be like, Donny smoked cigarettes on airplanes, Gumer drove 24 hours to pick up, Jordan has a phobia of bugs, and Dylan hates the pink cloud. As we strive for progress not perfection, we are blown away at the difference recovery has made in our lives.

Dylan quits his job and doesn’t get invited to the strip club as the boys have an in depth conversation on fear and moments of overcoming that fear. Get ready for the great debate on the acronym for fear between Donny and Jordan, the spiritual experience of a cold shower by Gumer, and the challenges of changing a culture of a family.

The boys take a “trip” down memory lane and discuss early signs and times of life getting unmanageable. Hear how Jordan became the color red, why Dylan hates Vegas, why Gumer gives away hotel rooms to homeless people and how Donny got more than he bargained for before a long day at work.

Happy new year! Join us as the boys reflect a little on 2020, talk about some goals for 2021 and even get a group therapy session in for our boy Gumer.

What happens when four alcoholics stop working their programs? They get messed up in the head pretty quickly. The boys cheer up though once they start talking recovery and about some crazy moments in their active addiction. Tune in for a recovery packed, hotel firing, "I don't know what happened last night" episode of Not so Anonymous.

The vibes are good as the boys discuss the power and freedom of recovering out loud and the stigma of being an addict. Tune in for some great laughs and honest talk about different ways to use microwaves, heart shaped jacuzzis, a heart attack (maybe) and the blessings of sobriety.

Tune in to hear an emotional recap of Donnys recent past as he discusses some hard family losses and how God stepped in to do for him what he could not do for himself. Just as one life was taken a chance to save another comes along in this hilarious but intimate episode.

We know why we got sober. Why do we stay sober? This week we'll get into some stories and experiences that keep us hooked on the journey of recovery and show us that our hard work is paying off.

This week the boys discuss their experience of being around others who still party while in recovery. What's it like? When do we set the boundary and when do we just bounce? Listen in on some good conversations and good laughs

How do we have fun once the drugs and drinking is not an option? The boys discuss the amazing and fun times in our journey of recovery.