Stay in school kids. My journey has been anything but typical, but its mine. We'll talk about unconventional paths to success, belief systems, productivity, spirituality and everything I've learned as a human, woman of color, dropout, artist and freelancer.
sheesh, that talking robot is not your friend. opt out once in a while.
i had my shoes off, back on the middle console, toes up to the sunroof yawns a plenty, forgot the topic. just me @ my finest
i curse a lot, so you have been warned but DAWG I AM MAD OK. that is ENOUGH input and suggestions from the robots & apps
sweeping the studio, healing, revolution… theyre a forever thing, a till death do us part thing. a worthwhile form of silent love. plus some nonsense rambles
a two part chaotic ramble with 3/10 audio quality and 9/10 anarchy score but 10/10 still highly recommend these revelations from the mountain
i can't bring myself to cut out the part i did specifically for the video… like the real podcast doesn't start till like 7? minutes in or something? i can't be bothered unfortunately to fix it, hope somethint worked in there. i won't use that mic set up again lmao don't worry
enter if you dare. i also didn't realize that little reverse sound effect would be so loud so sorry in advance for the production/listening experience but anywho. lately i've been re-listening to Atomic Habits by James Clear and been thinking about how often i neglect my own systems and focus on critiquing the systems of others (yeah, i know. i'm working on it) + a bonus part 2 after i chicken out of going full sherlock holmes on the mysterious noise in another room. yeah girl idk. love you byeeee
i was chaotically drawing on IG live today (check it out and follow @officialshmay on the gram ma'am) and talked about what im noticing is necessary for my progress, prioritizing space and time for step 1 (and sometimes step zeroooo)
a chaos filled car ride to a semi clear destination
youre not “wrong” about your experience but you're not as good at predicting the future as you may think you are (note to self)
my misconception and cowardice exposed and plus also i have a yucky outtake that i share with you. enjoy. be good. bye bye.
there are surface filters (instagram filters, LUTs and presets), experiential filters (substances, ego, content, proximity, environment), and underneath everything there are core filters (the code and operating systems installed and hacked into over time, the machine behind everything, the beliefs that hold your reality in place).
from this side of the coin, i present: a true shmay babble, mania flavored trip down dropout philosophy lane. dumpster fires, unreasonable metaphors, snacks and curse words brought to you by me and generous viewers like u. thank u
a sleepy girl ramble/suggestion about refreshing your conscientious list of “what matters to me?”
i can't remember what this one is about but its a draft so here u are
a conceptual word dump on two forms of “being ready for something new” in my opinion. sorry to alex honnold, for forgetting your name, keep up the great work darling. it's chaotic, but it's not wrong!
fixing stuff for grams and thinking about thinking. took me a few tries.
i swear i love my grams, i'm not complaining go subscribe to her youtube channel
is that your thought or feeling? do you want to feel that way? do you know which part of you is in the drivers seat. very very rambly and such. expand your vocabulary, awareness and power
joining in any trend (no matter how long standing and innocent it seems) in this era is a risk. i don't trust gen pop, so i'm not about to join the holly jolly charade and force these weird capitalism lies on a kid in their formative years
ur gunna have to do it anyways, move a muscle change a thought and other gems. what's my fave quote from this episode you ask? “capitalism is in that ass”
i honestly just forgot to post this so i can't remember what its about fr just listen and enjoyyyyy
like you have access to a lot of thoughts and performance art but 1 on 1 time? nah, it's not that easy. stay in GA if you want OR should i start a patreon acct?
shmay in bed talkin science and yawning, don't worry.. tomorrow will be juicy
pleasant surprises and other yummy things. enjoy your time, use your rituals. i love you!
the mind is sneaky, life is less frustrating when you work from awareness and truth and your own power
i made fancy grilled cheese and explain why it makes PERFECT sense for me to make a fort on a friday night. don't be discouraged by my initial thought about states and cheese, i get on track (kinda) eventuallyyyyy
multitasking and bad audio and rambles!
and negatively why r u being mad so passionately when u havent an ounce of passion in your own life and if beibg big mad worked baby why hasn't it
this is so wild… the feeling of familiarity is so wild
don't beat yourself up bro that makes no sense. don't sabotage. feeling good and connected to God/good is important. little chaotic but… oh well
let's not reduce every culture to a negative thing. (or gentrified aav “slang”, corporate social media account lingo, girlboss email list template, buzzfeed quiz). this might sound chaotic but i think i said some good things.
i like how life works when i genuinely want to feel good. God is good.
a very cap venus sleepyhead ramble about what i think desire/want is or at least how it's showing up in my immediate experience
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