Normalized Podcast

Changes are unavoidable but very often in my life I force the change. Some times that change becomes more than I can handle. In this episode I share the major changes that have occurred in my life over the past few months. Credits:  • Intro: AF The NAYSER, "R-96"  • Song 1: Mac Miller, "Conversation, Pt 1"  • Song 2: Mac Miller, "Wings"  • Song 3: Slim Jamar, "Morning Sun" Contact me: cj@normalizedpodcast.com Website: normalizedpodcast.com normalizedthemovie.com

From Donald Trump to Race Relations to the Pandemic, the past few months have provided an unprecedented strain on my experience as a black male in America. Combine this with day-to-day living and you can get very challenging and rewarding conversations. In this episode I share a few that I have had. Credits:  • Intro: AF The NAYSER, "Sunday"  • Song 1 & 2: Simon and Garfunkel, "Dangling Conversations:  • Song 3: Logic, "Alright"  Contact me: cj@normalizedpodcast.com Website: normalizedpodcast.com

The Normalized Podcast has brought me many great opportunities including the chance to produce my first film.  None of this was expected and at the age of 41 I ask, is it too late to chase dreams?  Credits:  • Intro: AF The NAYSER, "Sunday"  • Song 1: AF The NAYSER, "R-96l"  • Song 2: Bob, "Airplanes"  • Outro: , AF The NAYSAYER, "R-96"  Contact me: cj@normalizedpodcast.com Website: normalizedpodcast.com

In the Season 4 premier I return to basics and refocus on sharing my journey to becoming normal. A lot in my life has changed since my last podcast, most notably I was diagnosed as Bipolar II. In this episode I discuss how this diagnoses has changed my life. Credits: • Intro: Mase, "Welcome Back" • Song 1: Kanye West, "Use this Gospel" • Song 2: J'san, "This Feelings too Good" • Outro: , J Dilla "U Love" Contact me: cj@normalizedpodcast.com Website: normalizedpodcast.com

In his third and final episode in sharing his journey to becoming normal Vic explains how his experiences in the National Guard and growing up in Florida prepared him for where he is today, from being an author to an elected official. Credits: • Intro/Outro: Nick Mulvey; “Fever to the Form” Contact me: cj@normalizedpodcast.com Website: normalizedpodcast.com

In Jakes final episode he shares his experiences raising a daughter with one of the world's rarest and most fatal genetic disorders, Aicardi Syndrome. This story is one of love, bravery and gratitude and is a must listen. Find out more about and help fight Aricardi here: https://aicardisyndromefoundation.org/aicardi-syndrome/ Credits: • Intro/Outro: Nick Mulvey; “Fever to the Form” • Song 1: Michael Kiwanuka “Cold Little Heart ” Contact me: cj@normalizedpodcast.com Website: normalizedpodcast.com

Jay is back for the final episode of his journey to becoming normal. In his last episode, Jay shares how a normal day is anything but normal as he pauses to take in the cruel nature of life recognizing society's role in creating so much pain. • Intro: Nick Mulvey; “Fever to the Form” • Song 1: Good Wether for an Airstrike; “Another Way Out"

Amanda is back for her third and final episode of her journey to becoming normal. In Ep 21 - "The Underdog" Amanda detailed the pain she experienced after being born with a physical deformity. Ep 25 - "Escape" Amanda discussed what extreme actions she took to escape the emotional pain she had experienced because of her deformity. Now in Ep 29, Amanda shares how she has finally become "Free". • Intro/Outro: Nick Mulvey; “Fever to the Form” • Song 1: Penguin Cafe Orchestra; “Perpetumm Mobile"

In this episode Command Sgt. Major, Victory Angry is back to share his journey to becoming normal. This includes the tough decisions he had to make while in the Army National Guard and the consequences of those decisions. Was it worth it? Listen and find out. Credits: • Intro/Outro: Nick Mulvey; “Fever to the Form” • Song 1: Sly & the Family Stone: “Family Affair” • Song 2: Michael Kiwanuka ; “Love and Hate” (Performed by Jonathan Lewis) • Song 3: Michael Kiwanuka; “Love and Hate” Contact me: cj@normalizedpodcast.com Website: normalizedpodcast.com

***Warning - This Episode Contains Conversations About Death*** The one certainty in life is death. And though we know it will always come, we can never get used to the grief it brings. In this episode Jake shares the pain and guilt he carries for not taking advantage of every moment he's had with his closest loved who were taken far too soon. But as Jake shares, ask yourself, should he feel guilty? Or is he simply a human experiencing the joys and pains that come with life - and for this, there is no reason for guilt. Credits: • Intro/Outro: Nick Mulvey; “Fever to the Form” • Song 1: Balmorhea; “Bowsprit ” Contact me: cj@normalizedpodcast.com Website: normalizedpodcast.com

In the second part of his journey to becoming normal, Jay shares how things don't always go as planned. However when you admit your powerless and can live on life terms, as uncomfortable as it may be, you will get to where you need to go. Credits: • Intro/Outro: Nick Mulvey; “Fever to the Form” • Song 1: The Roots; "You got me" / Erykah Badu; "Love of my life" • Song 2: Kaan; “Seasons” Contact me: cj@normalizedpodcast.com Website: normalizedpodcast.com

In the second part of her journey to becoming normal, Amanda shares the different ways she tried to escape her reality of being physically deformed. Credits: • Intro/Outro: Nick Mulvey; “Fever to the Form” • Song 1: Lindsey Stirling; “Gavi's Song” • Song 2: This Will Destroy You; “They Move on Tracks of Never-Ending Light” Contact me: cj@normalizedpodcast.com Website: normalizedpodcast.com

He went from the Super Team to becoming the first African American Command Sargent Major in the Army National Guard. In part one of his journey to becoming normal - Vic shares how that being Angry is only part of his story. Credits: • Intro/Outro: Nick Mulvey; “Fever to the Form” • Song 1: Newcleus; “Jam on it ” / Tears for Fears; "Head Over Heels" Contact me: cj@normalizedpodcast.com Website: normalizedpodcast.com

Can the trauma and pain of a fractured relationship cause a person to create multiple personalities that they aren't even aware of? In Part 1 of Jakes journey to becoming normal, he explores the origins of his personality disorder and whether it played a role in some of his biggest mistakes. Credits: • Intro/Outro: Nick Mulvey; “Fever to the Form” • Song 1: Clint Mansill; “Lux Aeterna ” • Song 2: Moby; “Pale Horse" Contact me: cj@normalizedpodcast.com Website: normalizedpodcast.com

In this episode Jay shares his journey to becoming normal, which some may say started off on the wrong side of the tracks. But to Jay, the wrong side was the normal side and normal...well it can be complicated. Credits: • Intro/Outro: Nick Mulvey; “Fever to the Form” • Song 1: Ahmad Lewis; “Back in the Day” • Song 2: Jay Z; “Girls, Girls, Girls” Contact me: cj@normalizedpodcast.com Website: normalizedpodcast.com

What if the one thing that people always saw in you was the one thing you couldn't change? For every underdog story there are thousands of painful stories never told. This is Amanda's. Credits: • Intro/Outro: Nick Mulvey; “Fever to the Form” • Song 2: Lindsey Stirling; “Gavi's Song” Contact me: cj@normalizedpodcast.com Website: normalizedpodcast.com

In my Season 2 finale I explain how sharing my journey to becoming normal is not enough to realize the hopes of the Normalized Podcast. So I found four diverse, brave souls willing to share their journeys too. Introducing Vic, Amanda, Jay and Jake. Their stories are a preview for Season 3, coming in winter of 2018.

Who we are today did not occur in a vacuum. There is context to our lives that began long before we were born. The stories that make us are not always easy to share but it's imperative that we do. In this episode I share how the stories of others are pieces of not just me, but perhaps you as well. Special thanks to all those who helped me put this together, including Amanda, Irene, Cory, Jay, john, Casey and Reggie. Go to my FB page to find out more on the readers. Credits: • Intro: Scarface; "Smartz” • Song 1: Rocye da 5'9"; "Power" FB: https://www.facebook.com/CjNormalized/ Contact me: cj@normalizedpodcast.com Website: normalizedpodcast.com

At nighttime when my one-year-old wakes up , I have to put her back down. Its during these moments that I plant the seeds that I hope will help her in life. In this episode I share my conversation with her. Credits: • Song 1: Outkast; "Liberation” • Song 2: The Pharcyde; "Runnin" • Song 3: John McClung; ”Hush Little Baby" • Song 4: J Cole (D-Ace); “Window Pain” • Song 5: Welshly Arms ; “Legendary” Contact me: cj@normalizedpodcast.com Website: normalizedpodcast.com

In this episode I was given the opportunity to be interviewed by best selling author Dave Anderson of the Business Bully Podcast. Dave has been a guest on The Breakfast Club and the Gary Vaynerchuk Podcast. This was a hard hitting interview and well worth the listen. You can get at Dave here: http://businessbullyshow.com You can reach me at www.normalizedpodcast.com

Over the past year I've met and been inspired by many brave people; from a high school student interested in a career in STEM to a prison inmate pursing his college degree. I try to be brave in my podcast, but to be brave I must be honest. Unfortunately there have been some who believe my honesty creates an unsafe "space," and therefore they try to silence me. To those people, I will not be silenced. I will continue to be brave and honest because in my heart I know that is whats needed. Credits: • Intro: Beanie Sigel; "The Truth” • Song 1: Christina Aguilera; "Beautiful" • Song 2: Pharrell Williams; ”Freedom" • Song 3: Imagine Dragons; “Thunder” Contact me: cj@normalizedpodcast.com Website: normalizedpodcast.com

WARNING WARNING - This episode contains graphic content depicting sexual violence - viewer discretion is STRONGLY advised. Inspired by the, "Me Too," movement I take a personal examination of my actions and consider how they may have contributed to our society's rape culture. This is a very personal episode and may not be easy for people (especially victims of sexual assault) to listen through its entirety. With that said, I believe its important to listen to the entire episode before forming an opinion. Thank you. Credits: • Reading: Nathan McCall; "Makes me Want to Holler; Chapter 6 - Trains” • Song 1: Notorious Big; "I got a Story to Tell" • Song 2: Tracy Chapman; ” The Rape of the World" • Song 3 (intro): Scarface; "Smartz" • Song 4: Akon; ” Sorry Blame it on me" • Song 5: The Avett Brothers; “Nor Hard Feelings ” Contact me: cj@normalizedpodcast.com Website: www.normalizedpodcast.com

In this special year end episode, I team up with Jay of the By Chance Podcast to share our very unique takes on 2017. This isn’t a rundown of the trivial top 10 pop-culture stories. These are true stories as experienced by real people. Enjoy and happy 2018. Jay’s podcast can be found here: https://soundcloud.com/bychancepodcast Credits: Song 1: Matisyhu, "I Will Be Light" song 2: Balmorhea, "The Winter"

Is it a contradiction to be hugely supportive of "your people," but not be married to "your people?" Some people believe so; I'm not one of those people. In this episode I discuss my interracial marriage. Credits: • Intro: Balmorhea; "Remembrance” • Song 1: Scarface; "Smartz" • Song 2: Corinne Bailey Rae; ” Like a Star" • Song 3: Klara Louise; “Woman Woman (piano cover)” Contact me: cj@normalizedpodcast.com Website: normalizedpodcast.com

Being the host of the Normalized Podcast has been an unbelievable experience, but in order to maintain the trust I've gained from my audiance, I must come clean about my struggles with sobriety. Credits: • Intro: Scareface; “Smartzl” • Song 1: Hopsin; " Fly" • Song 2: Frances; ” Grow" Contact me: cj@normalizedpodcast.com Website: normalizedpodcast.com

In the Season 2 premier I express the anger that has been plaguing me since the election of 45. Credits: • Intro: Scareface; “Smartzl” • Song 1: Fat Joe; " The Shit is Real" • Song 2: DMX; ” Who We Be" • Song 3: Dionne Warwick; “What the World Needs Now is Love” Contact me: cj@normalizedpodcast.com Website: normalizedpodcast.com

In this episode I discuss even after being stereotyped myself, I still stereotype others, but is is always wrong? Credits: • Song 1: Your Favorite Martian; " The Stereotype Song" • Intro Masta Ace; “Beautiful” • Song 2: Macklemore and Ryan Lewis " A Wake" • Song 3: John the Rajin Cajun Jones; ” I'm Only Human After All" • Outro: Gang Starr; “Moment of Truth” Contact me: cj@normalizedpodcast.com Website: normalizedpodcast.com

I'm no longer a church going person, but now having two daughters I wonder if I should be getting my family more engaged in church. In this episode I discuss religion and my spirituality. • Intro Masta Ace; “Beautiful” • Song 1: Kendrick Lamar; "Pride" • Book Reading: Lalla Ward; ”The Magic of Reality," Chapter 7 • Song 2: Citizen Cope; “Let the Drummer Kick” • Song 3: Matisyahu “I will be Light” • Song 4: B.O.B “Stanley Kurbrick” Contact me: cj@normalizedpodcast.com Website: normalizedpodcast.com

Does workplace discrimination/racism still happen? Of course, but not always how you may imagine it. In this episode I discuss the questionable experiences I've had in the workplace. • Intro Masta Ace; “Beautiful” • Song 1: Big Bill Broonzy; " Black, Brown and White" • Song 2: Lupe Fiasco; ” Till I Get There" • Outro: Gang Starr; “Moment of Truth” Contact me: cj@normalizedpodcast.com Website: normalizedpodcast.com

Many times in life my inability to cope with my emotions led to a vicious cycle of self doubt. In this episode I discuss my struggles with mental illness and alcoholism. Credits: • Song 1: The Weekend; “Dark Times” • Song 2: Balmorhea; “Theme 1” • Outro: Gang Starr; “Moment of Truth” Contact me: cj@normalizedpodcast.com Website: normalizedpodcast.com

In this episode I discuss my run-ins with the police in Germantown and Baltimore Maryland. Was it my race or actions that led to these encounters. Or was it both? Whatever the cause, I still feel the consequences today. Credits: • Intro Masta Ace; “Beautiful” • Song 1: Young Jeezy; " Talk to Em" • Song 2: Buffalo Springfield; ” For What its Worth" • Outro: Gang Starr; “Moment of Truth”

In the episode I discus how my daughter’s birth reminded me of a life altering event which occurred 16 years ago. As with many things in life, this event was caused by a string of unfortunate decisions. Credits: • Intro Masta Ace; “Beautiful” • Song 1: Live; “Lighting Crashes” • Song 2: Lauryn Hill; “To Zion” • Outro: Gang Starr; “Moment of Truth”

Credits: Song 1: Ben Harper; "I'll rise"

Doing things just to be accepted by others had begun to take its toll on me both physically and emotionally. My actions always had consequences, but sometimes it took years for them to be realized. I had done many things to be accepted by others, now I had to accept the truth about myself. Credits: Intro: Dilated Peoples; “Worst comes to worst” (Instrumental) Song 1: Eric Bibb; "Every Wind in the River" Song 2: Makaveli; "Krazy" (Instrumental) Song 3: Miguel; "Whats normal anyway" Contact me: cj@normalizedpodcast.com Website: normalizedpodcast.com

As I hit my teenage years, the effects of my mom losing her job and struggling to make ends meet were starting to take hold. I was extremely insecure and with no father figure to guide me, I began to seek approval and acceptance from others. Credits: Intro: Dilated Peoples; “Worst comes to worst” (Instrumental) Song 1: Smif-N-wessun; "Sound Bwoy Bureill" Song 2: R. Kelly; "I'm a flirt" (Instrumental) Outro: Beatnuts; “Do you Believe” (Instrumental) Contact me: cj@normalizedpodcast.com Website: normalizedpodcast.com

After cheering on my four year old daughter in her soccer game, I realized the most valuable lesson I learned from growing up without a father, was how to be one. Intro: Dilated Peoples; “Worst comes to worst” (Instrumental) Song 1: Lupe Fiasco; “He said she said” Song 2: Jay Z; "Where have you been." (Instrumental) Song 3: Isreal Kamakawiwo’ole; “Somewhere over the rainbow” Outro: Beatnuts; “Do you Believe” (Instrumental) Contact me: cj@normalizedpodcast.com Website: normalizedpodcast.com

After exploring the nuances of racial identity in episode 1, I decide to dig deep into my lockbox of emotions to reveal how life changing events as an adolecent stimulated a rash of insecurities. Credits: Intro: Dilated Peoples; “Worst comes to worst” (Instrumental) Song 1: Kanye West Feat DJ Premier (I_Am_Elijah); “Everything I am” (Instrumental - Remake) Song 2: Radiohead (BlasGarciaGuitarist); “Creep” (Cover Guitar Instrumental) Outro: Beatnuts; “Do you Believe” (Instrumental) Contact me: cj@normalizedpodcast.com Website: normalizedpodcast.com

During my first semester at Towson University, I experienced two drastically different situations, each one the result of disparate understandings of who I was, and each one related to my race. The first, involves someone mistaking me for being white based solely on the cadence and pitch of my voice. The other, involves something profoundly different. Credits: Intro: Dilated Peoples; “Worst comes to worst” (Instrumental) Song 1: Big Pun; “It’s so hard” Song 2: Sly and the Family Stone; “Don’t call me N* whitey” Outro: Beatnuts; “Do you Believe” (Instrumental) Contact me: cj@normalizedpodcast.com Website: normalizedpodcast.com

A brief introduction to the Normalized Podcast. Credits: Intro: Dilated Peoples; “Worst comes to worst” Song 1: Simply Three; “Somewhere only we know” Contact me: cj@normalizedpodcast.com Website: normalizedpodcast.com