Yogabud

I fall, I fall, I try again / I fall, I fall, to fail's a friend / for failing to fall, is not trying at all

How to write again Is Simple Its done one line at a time Or verse by verse And slowly Like a valentine, divine Though I must scrub clean, the brine For she's been at sea - that muse of mine Traversing the oceans A ghost ship Blown by emotions Wishing to sail smooth Well, that wish is granted when I move

I haven't had patience Which got me discouraged I was drifting and aimless Didn't even pay mortgage I took care of my body Nourished my mind But sadly I left my courage behind To not give a shit Cuz at least I was tryin' I handled it Till lost to a lion A beast in my head Which all started with A procrastination tactic Now look where its led.. Back to square one No; square two For the foundation's been done Back to work, like a tool

My lungs don't want me to smoke So I don't  I vape I inhale the subtle hints of pine and grape The blue dream and varieties of ape And when I vape I feel great But let's step back to when I was young  And dumb When I smoked to avoid feeling numb When Mary was my number one  And Jane, my number two Bong rips after school Grinding bowl after bowl  Getting high  But diggin myself into a hole When I felt it's just a habit But I had to have it every day Whether I work or whether I play Eighteen was a different scene  But I'm a man today No longer a kid  No longer just chillin and listenin to Wiz I use the same green bud That had me choking back then  To supplement my life To be my aromatic friend  The difference now is I'm mature  I no longer want to smoke more and more and more  I just want enough  To spark creativity  To see deeper into me To move and breathe freely  No blocks in my flow  No voice in my head Just me, my body And with heavy indicas My bed  The tid

We know the potential of this plant Spread the word, it's essential But so many feel that they can't Despite the high the bud can grant Though elemental Decades of stigma have made people mental The misinformation's been incremental The scope of the lies has been monumental But it's no surprise Cuz money's the prize And big pharma wants to keep it Truths been in front of our eyes Now we can finally rise And position ourselves to defeat it But we must be wise and let cool heads prevail Just trust and enjoy the highs - cannabis will not fail

The reefer madness still exists In some ways The trusting masses were convinced And outraged But what if she were portrayed Accurately Rather than with misinformation, betrayed Spectacularly How many people in pain could be aided How many artists, inspired Why is this being unduly debated If only justice worked as we desired

102 day streak broken Where New Years Resolution fell flat But the lesson here's to stay floatin' Not sinkin', so run with that The habits been built But I wanted a break No sad bits or guilt I relaxed for growth's sake It's not a mistake But a chance to have a new take For me to see its okay To take a day Away ----- If you truly believe The air over there's better to breathe

If a good lesson is Offered to combat weaknesses From geniuses Through the ages And thousands of years later We call them sages It may be advantageous to put eyes to paper Absorb the wisdom in those pages For if knowledge is power Then wisdom is might Leverage your hours So your mind may burn bright

The number one key is to breathe Brings you back to the present moment Better to be done than believed So for a second or two, just do it Inhale One mindful breath a day Helps keep the dark at bay It's as if time itself has slowed it a bit And gotten sweeter Can't resist this boon to health cuz its lit Between past and future we teeter The results of your decisions Can result in your submission Not knowing your Life's Mission Or getting lost in indecision First hand results are better than belief So simply decide to breathe

This is the foundry From which ideas are made The process did'nt find me But - the plans, they were laid Some might say I'm late Like the voices with their games But the past, to me was fate Same reason my name is James I'm not at this game for fame But instead to clear my head Sometimes sappy, sometimes lame I'd like to be happy before I'm dead Literally As in, I take my last breaths Joyfully And I'm laid to rest Mournfully But ultimately Leaving the world a better place And seeing that happen - what it meant to me Carl Keith Helen Loeffler Rest In Peace

I thought if I wrote you a poem You'd feel better Cuz you're lookin sadder than Autumn Or a crumpled love letter And you tell me I caused it And I say my flaws did But because of it Your trust - I lost it At least for the moment But I'm confident We can make this right We both hate to fight Prefer to keep things light Refer to mems? Alright The time's we've laughed All night And our romance You perpetual polite...ness Smiles and hydrangeas Hugs and mochi You're miffed, I don't blame ya I know how selfish I can be You know well my crazy Just like I know yours And ours But the love is there, you see Your soul was made for me And mine for you Simply put, I love you

You grow into the skin You put the work in To get Wisdom's earned, don't forget But thats not always motivational Though it can be inspirational Be wary, the sensational The mind is a creation pool Or one of cess Like when your mind's possessed A cesspool Go confess To your god Or to your muse Ice, be thawed It's the thoughts you choose And emotions Used As the tools they are My belief is it'll take me far Cuz I wanna impart The lessons written on my scars

What do I say? The blocks are in the way.. Hurting to the core And I yet I ask for more Cuz knowledge is power Communication is key Though the thoughts, they devour Unceremoniously Pitilessly As if that's what the brain does Surreptitiously Until it becomes Too loud to ignore Bombastic Voices, tragic I knew what was in store Dramatic emotion fanatic I still ask for more

Flowing is about going with the flow – go figure Deal with the past but don't be rash Disfigured Is the way you see it thought distorted Falsely reported by the organ That does thought Figuring out itself Battle's not yet fought Anti-– instinctual This is why we created ritual And archetypical stories Our attempts to combat worries Though, the lessons are somewhat blurry These musings cannot be hurried But dissected Then put into action That's how they become perfected Maybe If you're lucky And you thrust that luck toward something Life's there to fuck And make love Make her scream And moan As if Y'all were left alone You, and life Left to your own Devices Enjoying like fine vices Each other

I love to study The human body Which is why I majored in kinesiology But those five years are behind me As are five in my twenties And though I know that I'm young I must learn to fight like Ares Cuz time is more deadly than any gun The facade of youth Can lull you into complacency A paradigm defined and used As "wait and see" As if life brings Anything but suffering It doesn't Cuz that's what life is So we strive - not in spite of But because of it THAT is life, well lived

Water and sunlight Soil and earth From seed to delight The story of bud's birth You start in your shell A pinpoint of potential And if all goes well You grow up presidential Your scent gets loud As you mature And then we're endowed With gifts for the green epicure Cannabis connoisseur Or perhaps Cannisseur Some like the dabs But call me a dinosaur I'm old school Volcano's my favorite tool To savor the sweetness of vapor Straight from the bud That grows in nature

Leaves of green With edges serrated Lessons to glean From your bud - not faded Cuz "faded" implies A degree of stupidity So I prefer "high" When Mary Jane visits me Important are the words we use So as a community, let's wisely choose We can say stoned and we can say blazed We can say high, even turned up for days But here's the thing we must understand That stigma exists for our favorite plant Though fair, it is not It's the hand we've been dealt If the ball's in our court, it wont be dropped Cuz the goodness of bud can be heard, seen and felt

Do I have a gift? Perhaps But a gift with no grind is shit Through the a lens, time-lapsed What am I to do Just write? Or be a media company too Alright.. But who am I? Just some guy Working on his craft Sharing my life, Both present and past Not in stone But in code It is cast These things I've learned And continue learning What I've earned - The fuel that I'm burning Brightly Working nightly Writing, rhyming Teaching, flying highly Not trying to cry me A river, creek, stream Just build a permanent dam For emotion to speak - The Power of Man

Writing is easy Sharing's the hard part Cuz sometimes it makes me queasy To share the words from my heart When the poetry Is sparked With a blow to me And I impart The emotions as they come When it's time to record The raging waves are done Which is why I have all these poems stored Despite posting daily I've at least a hundred waiting And I'm left contemplating If and when and why They should ever see the light of day

Patience can be hard to have In a world with such convenience Discipline you wish you had But your whims demand obedience When seen from afar It's almost a tragedy The way your fingers magically Make their way to your favorite escape. Haters be mad at me But.. Wasting time is a big mistake At least Making a habit of it But please Indulge only when you have to have it Earn your reward For a day of hustle Learn something new when you're bored And go build some muscle

This New Years resolution To post a poem a day Has one easy solution With dues to pay I use the hay To flow and play And move in a way That's good, I'd say Great for the body And grounding the soul Shapin' your body Is only one role The infinite more Remain to be seen So get on the floor And move and breathe

I find myself again In a perilous position One in which I say I'm sorry For the thousandth time Multiplied By more digits than pi But who am I To ask for forgiveness A selfish guy With you as my witness You try and try Butt heads with hard-headedness You don't know why I seem to take Us and threaten this This beautiful thing that we've built The way that I tarnish it I'm racked with guilt While you try to varnish it Why do I harm this shit And make simple things hard When we could just harness it And make the world ours

Sometimes I need to squeeze me Like give myself a hug For the thoughts, they only please me When I feel as though I'm risin' above Not chasin' the horizon Futilely But recognizin' the flies in The ointment - so to speak I see where I'm weak And struggle to improve Focusing on strength Like the way that I move But how do I use My talent and fruits Of my labor To give something greater And how do I build Something sustainable? With questions, I'm filled.. To find answers Thrilled

Mind is full of images But mindful livin is In the present But my, how easy we forget it A small thing, how we sweat it A big mistake How we we regret it But the lessons we take.. That's where the bread is The ambrosia to feed your hungry soul It's up to you to take a bite - don't forget it Cuz lessons alone don't make you whole

You are amazing. The way you awake Before birds start to sing Despite being tired - open eyes sort of sting You still GSD So to pursue Your masters degree These lessons accrue Learning daily The ins and outs of your field Anything but lazy You are your own shield And sword Going out into the world With all this info you have stored Your drive just leaves me floored You inspire me Greatly More than you can currently see To have you, I am blessed Someday, you'll be impressed Where that inspiration leads

Sounds nice to put your heart on the line Until its ripped out and taken By a plan of your own design Left thyself forsaken Embarking on a path not taken Not fully fleshed out Though my heart will be breakin I'll map that shit out And learn from And grow From the fuel of emotion I'll let this flow go On this planet of ocean Choosin' wisely devotion Toward the aim of greater good I dont seek to be boastin' Just not to feel frozen I wanna be understood

Flow smooth Like butter melted, not frozen Just move Let the flow be felt and not chosen Move in a way That enhances your day You listened And heard what your body had to say Submission To intuition

To make your suffering known That is freedom of speech To share how you have grown Is the essence of sharing to teach To lift us up Not drag us down Life does that enough With or without you around But for each other We can be here Or there Not overly smothered But a gesture to show that we care That's better than speaking to scare Negativity leaking through your heart's tear Suddenly peaking when you most feel bare So you lash out Scream and shout Blame those around With that echoing sound Playing the victim As if it's trendy Till you truly become Cold and empty ✌️ Subscribe if you wanna see this podcast thrive

Embodiment of emotion Makes for good rhyme Quieting all commotion Just being here, in time Feeling near To where Heart Meets mind But when I Start To fall I must remind That to have it all Requires time Patience and truth To self, no lyin Cuz self delusion Is no illusion Consequences - real With truth Form a fusion An unbreakable deal

Dark crystal A universe within Gravity irresistible Storm is brewin Things are boomin And bangin big New universe is bloomin But I'm hangin in Though I'm scared of it Of getting bit By the monstrous Unknown I can handle it I can eat the shit Let emotions not get Overblown

She laughs with wild abandon More than any person I've known The snow white Jasmine to my Aladdin A life lived with levity, I've been shown To describe her with brevity Cannot be done easily As words themselves fall flat But oh, what she means to me Raising my frequency Like an energy thermostat And that's what laughter does Don't think of the why, like "because" Laugh like it mattered Like a manic Mad Hatter Laugh to combat the strife Laugh like the Joker Or man bad at poker Laugh like it saved your life

Thoughts racing Contemplating Decision debating Future creating Speck of stardust Roaming Earth's crust Trying it's best To work it's hardest Achieving it's dreams By any means Or not

It seems to be our last spring break At least together while college aged A golden opportunity to take To write out this chapter page by page Day one was to drive From Texas to Colorado Springs So grateful to be alive With you, to see what this week brings For after this week We've a great change ahead For now, I just seek To leave nothing unsaid To ensure that you know How much you mean to me That I love your soul's glow With it's sweet and kind vibrancy And our radical honesty What a gift that has been I can say honestly My time with you's been my biggest win

New forms of writing Experimentation Striving and fighting To build a great nation Things are wrong with society But so much more's right Free speech, like don't quite me Have humble insight You know what's right And if you don't, you can learn It takes a mind, bright To learn to discern And a soul on fire To go out and earn Like get on your feet While the wind's at your back Have humility in defeat For the next great attack So you're stronger then Life is long, my friend But my, how time flies Wisdom to hold - that I recommend You're gonna grow old Even the greatest man dies

If your life were a painting What colors would you choose? Emotions are the same thing They're the fuel that you use I prefer shades of blue And greens Blacks and purples For me it means Diving deep With snorkels Or a submarine Looking for things That at first may seem Less than serene But dark hues are interesting Like the way Amy Lee sings Where would My Immortal be Without a bit of heartbreak Bright days are great But don't underestimate The beauty darkness brings ✌️ Subscribe if you wanna see this podcast thrive

Jealousy is resentment's little brother Heresy to a life well lived To wish you were another You compare unfavorably To someone else's highlight reel Leaving your thoughts unsavory As if you've got a raw deal But the truth here is You must heal If you were fearless Youd see jealousy's the wrong feel Where inspiration is right You'd see they have what they have Cuz they chose to fight Not sit around being sad Or wishin destruction for Abel Like Cain Resentment brings nothing but trouble And pain And when you're in your own hell You've only yourself to blame You'll know exactly how you fell As indignation turns to shame Choose instead to not remain the same Be better than you were yesterday You're given one life, one body, one brain Have fun with the journey and learn to play ✌️ Subscribe if you wanna see this podcast thrive

Alright I've gotta write I have so many Poems saved In this phone For a rainy day It's outrageously Underrated to write Every day In my own way I'll always have something new to say If I keep my mind nude, like buddhists say What'd Buddha say? Life is suffering Not to bring clouds to your day But understanding That's life's demanding And requires thinking Don't be a sheep, bleating Or attention seeking For reasons reeking Of weakness You can beat this ✌️ Subscribe if you wanna see this podcast thrive

From darkness, emerged No longer discouraged Endured the black scourge My mind, left nourished For after the long night Teeming with unseen Predators and prey Came the light of day With it's vibrant sheen It's important to recognize The lessons you glean Now that your mind is serene Cuz it's easy to patronize Your weakness when demoralized But there's something significant For you to realize Change is the only thing consistent Your world can flip in an instant And suffering is inevitable So learn from the lows - be insistent And build a life, incredible ✌️ Subscribe if you wanna see this podcast thrive

The ups and downs of emotion Are the ebbs and flows of an ocean Unseen but felt Pristine when problems are dealt With But when issues go unresolved Like plastic, they just dissolve Fantastic procrastination tactics Never choosing to evolve Till the problem particles are so integrated So diffuse That to call your life devastated Is a mere approximation - and loose You either decide to change At any given moment Or continue thinking it's strange That years have passed with nothing to show for it Except for age And maybe some rage For the fact you never stepped out of your cage Didn't act, and at the end of the day it's yourself who you've played If life's a game For all of us It ends the same So have some trust In yourself Before it's too late ✌️ Subscribe if you wanna see this podcast thrive

A hike in the park Was what my heart needed To see the green of the trees And the brown of the bark Dirt under my feet Hurt inside defeated Or at least, cleared away From enjoying outdoors on a beautiful day ✌️ Subscribe if you wanna see this podcast thrive

Waking up to hear your voice If the heavens themselves offered me a choice Between their song and yours - But no, that choice would be false You and the heavens are one and the same You're living stardust Who whispers my name Assuming in science, we trust In it's method at least, we must Just as a bohemian believes In freedom, beauty, truth and love I believe we are the stars above And you, my shining star Have stolen my heart Like a den of thieves Don't leave it destroyed Like Alexander did Thebes ✌️ Subscribe if you wanna see this podcast thrive

Sinking Thinking Wish I could just be deleting The sadness inside that's leaking Out of the walls that I built To defend against guilt And the lethargy sadness gives But the darkness lives It's heart is beating And behind the walls There's the awful calls Interspersed by sound of it breathing In Out In Out ✌️ Subscribe if you wanna see this podcast thrive

I love to share my poetry And fill my rhymes with honesty But to do so, I know that must mean I must share you, the dark in me I have so many sad poems Sittin in my notes Colored by my lonesome Written not to boast Like "here's to me!" With that toast Instead: vulnerability In these posts And that's what makes it hard But also, real and powerful To drop that filtered guard And give you something valuable Cuz you are not alone Despite what your feed shows To sadness, we're all prone You can hear mine in these flows ✌️ Subscribe if you wanna see this podcast thrive

Silence This is my affinity Reliance Upon the quiet for creativity Let the outside voices hush Let them be drowned out Let my muse crush Every ounce of their doubt For how few understand Creativity isn't purely Under our command ✌️ Subscribe if you wanna see this podcast thrive

Is there ever a good time For a good thing to end? I say I'll be fine, but Into Hell, I descend At least, that's my destination I'm walking down the obsidian path Knowing well it's of my own creation Unsure of the aftermath.. Of when I walk through Those burning gates That's when I lose you.. But it's already too late We're both compelled forward By the standards of our culture A fulfilling career, we each move toward.. But what circles above is vulture It smells our connection Though we thought it unbreakable Our gleaming affection Seems to be salable Able to be sold For career and achievement The tax of growing old Fear and bereavement ✌️ Subscribe if you wanna see this podcast thrive

Procrastination is The hydra that dances behind Burning all of your time Relishing in its blazes A wicked grin on all of its faces A beast with hidden details With skin as hard as seashells Great nostrils, From which, it expels Smoke that clouds your sight So you mistake left for right And you go down the path With far fewer treasures If we are to endure life's wrath Choose wisely, your burdens and pleasures ✌️ Subscribe if you wanna see this podcast thrive

I love you Why do you think I hug you As if time, with all its might Paused in those moments of ecstatic delight Where it's irrelevant If it's day or night Filled with warmth and benevolence As if your soul fits just right Just like Your body on mine I just might Think you're a gift divine And the fact that you're mine Makes me feel like a lion The king of his pride Thanks for making my life One hell of a ride

Emotion does matter But more than that is how you use it That mental chatter Don't be trapped by that shit Use it for art Or to further your goals Use it to kickstart Your coup d'état for control Cuz either you're in charge Or your feelings are Till they get so large They're the system and the star Until that star collapses And forms a black hole For what used to be your soul Like a drug addict relapses But you can choose to form the planets That revolve around your burning passion The future is comin' - take time to plan it ✌️ Subscribe if you wanna see this podcast thrive

Hello sadness Long time, no see It's easy to forget I have this Melancholic capacity I try to talk you out With these words I hold so dear But I'm just left with drought Hoping that water is near Wishing to quench this thirst That feeling that I'm the worst .. Believing I could be something greater But I'm stuck in the now, longing for later Wishing tomorrow would come Where is your light, golden Sun? And what am I to become When two, becomes one.. ✌️ Subscribe if you wanna see this podcast thrive

How would I describe it.. When I am graced by quiet Followed by the feeling Of my muse herself singing Not in song But in rhyme Music is a different design I don't produce it inside my mind So instead I decide When a wave does come To enjoy the ride Until I'm done ✌️ Subscribe if you wanna see this podcast thrive