Thoughts from the Tractor - Brenda PM

Russ & I talk about aging and the numbers changing. The expectations of ourselves & others. Embracing our age means just that! We can't change the number but, we can change how we react & take care of ourselves. Thoughts from the Tractor

We all want the same thing I believe when it comes to politics …..mostly! Work, health, affordable life, helping those who are struggling, & peace! Russ & I share are thoughts…. There is nothing wrong with having rose coloured glasses. Thoughts from the Tractor.

I haven't drank in almost 20 years….crazy how old thinking can set me back. So grateful to have Russ to talk about it with & friends that I get to be perfectly honest with. Getting some support when I need it is strength not weakness. Thoughts from the Tractor!

People ask us frequently do we have any grandkids? We start the answer with …. Wellllll……We are very lucky to have been invited into so many others lives that their kids have become our grandkids without hesitation!! Family comes to us in all different ways! Thoughts from the Tractor.

How often do we say, “we should get together?” Only to meet up at a funeral & say it again !!! We have been going to many funerals lately & many people we know have had to endure multiple tragedies. We decided to have a bonfire at our farm instead of going to one more funeral. The laughter was amazing, the renewal of friendships, the knowing that these people around the fire are “our” people. There weee others that couldn't make it & that's ok, because they were engaged in their life! Be engaged in life! Be Connected! Thoughts from the Tractor.

The last month we scared ourselves with my health. Difficulty breathing & calling 911 was a real eye opener for both Russ & Me. As prepared I feel I am for my eventual death I am not. What are my living wishes? What do I want to do more of in life? What life changes do we need to make? Make sure we are living our life wishes! Thoughts from the Tractor.

S2.Ep20 Hola, let your guard down!A little insight from our trip to Mexico.

S2. Ep.19 Don't be afraid to help yourself! Working on our marriage means working on ourselves. We want to more than exist in our marriage, we want to flourish.

S.2 Ep18.We are going through another challenge in our relationship. At what point do we stop blaming how we were raised? Russ weighs in on this with his thoughts & we talk about how we cope with these challenges. He likes head down & plow through. I like to run away. Neither works if we want to stay together. So….. Head up, don't run & let us communicate. Thoughts from the Tractor.

After a trip away from home & then coming back to realize so much about my community, it is good to feel a sense of belonging. It is easy for some to criticize who we are or what we do…..realizing for ourself our value & not needing the approval of anyone but ourself is the greatest gift we can give our soul. I also realized that as some want to quiet my purpose….. I would not be me without it.Thoughts from the Tractor.

Russ & I talk about what little things we can do & don't do in our relationship that make a difference. It was a hard one to talk about. Some things seem so silly to be cranky about, but it's about listening to what the other really wants. Simple things can turn into great things or can slowly erode the relationship. It can take only 4minutes to make a difference….. Thoughts from the Tractor.

It is interesting to watch people who are having fun & drinking. Watching relationships, fun & the disintegration of an evening when people over indulge. Once again, I get the opportunity to self reflect. Once again, I have Russ's support. Make good decision's & live a great life! Thoughts from the Tractor.

It gets confusing to me how I should be living in the moment, but still need to plan for the future. Russ & I discuss our perspectives on this. Good thing we are a balance. Can you guess who lives for today & who lol and for tomorrow??? Thoughts from the Tractor.

S2. Ep.13 Learning from each other.We have so much to learn from our partner & friends, from mind stuff to tasks like changing the tire. What would you wish to learn about from someone you love before it's too late? Thoughts from the Tractor.

Where did the fun go??? Russ & I are struggling to put the fun back in our life & not just be making lists & doing tasks. When did the fun leave? Where did it go? How do we get it back? We can make all the excuses but that is just what they are, excuses! Together we are going to figure this out. Keep having fun or start having fun… Thoughts from the Tractor.

What we believe & what is real sometimes needs to be challenged. With the internet we can't always believe what we read or even see anymore. AI is becoming more integrated in our life so much that we can't tell what is real & what is not. If we take the time to be face to face, do our own research & be real in our own lives, maybe that will be what gets us through this AI stage in life. Be real, make real relationships, connect! Thoughts from the Tractor

We have been off doing life & we are back!!! It has been a crazy couple of months. We have moved parents, clients & working to figure out our life & what is next. Life is getting shorter & more complicated, how do we live it well & simplify the way we live without other people telling us how to do it. Thoughts from the Tractor.

Today I am 58!!! I can hardly believe it! I am so grateful for all the life I have lived, the love I have & the people I have learned from. Life flies by….jump on & go! Thoughts from the Tractor.

I was gone for 10days, I learned so many things about myself & how I don't want to be. Learning to listen vs interrupting & telling my story was a big one without being asked. Russ & I are going to work on this so we start listening & stop “spewing” just to talk! Thoughts from the Tractor.

Russ & I are continuing to learn from Leslie at Inner Sage. What in our life is medicine to help & heal & what is poison that hurts & makes us sick? We are having so much awareness with this. From eating, relationships & our self. So, we will choose wisely what we let in our life & give to each other. Thoughts from the Tractor.

Russ had a dream & I think it was a premonition of what is to come! I know his intentions are always good for me, sometimes I need clarification! Thoughts from the Tractor

Wow!!!! I learned so much about Russ in this podcast! He has helped me grow & I didn't even realize it. Our relationship has gone through so many twists. I realize I was doing the twists, while Russ was calmly undoing the knots I created. Say what you mean, don't be mean. Thoughts from the Tractor.

Have you ever been told you can't or shouldn't? When we do that to ourselves or others we take away the reasons to live. Our quality of life depends on what are purpose & passion is. What is yours? Find the reasons to put passion & purpose in your life. Thoughts from the Tractor.

Russ & I are in a workshop with Leslie from Inner Sage. We both will be learning about ourselves & each other. Individual growth is good but not at the expense of losing each other & losing our relationship. Together we grow, together we love, together we play….. Thoughts from the Tractor.

Going through my papers & journals I have realized that I am saying & wanting the same things I wanted 16years ago. From my battle with sugar & weight to my buisness ideas & plan. When will the madness stop! Russ gives me his perspective & I am listening. Follow through one task at a time. Thoughts from the Tractor.

Happy 2024! A new year & a new season. We don't have to wait for either to reevaluate what we want to change or the direction we want to go. We are not putting that pressure on ourselves. Rest & Reevaluate anytime…. Thoughts from the Tractor.

Today is Christmas Eve & I was journaling about my health. I quit drinking over 18years ago & replaced it with sugar, without realizing it. I push treats like I pushed fun drinks. Today Russ & I talk about how I am going to change this & not wait for the “perfect” time. Today is the “perfect” time. If you would like to follow me on this journey, go to facebook & follow “thoughts from the tractor”. The right time is NOW, Thoughts from the Tractor.

After talking with a young couple that are friends of ours, I realized even more how much Russ has been patient with the way I WANT to communicate. I have learned so much from him. Men & Women do communicate differently, one isn't bad or good, just different. Be nice, be respectful & grow together. Thoughts from the Tractor.

Spent a couple weeks in Mexico, met some great interesting people & connected with some amazing friends. I learned a valuable lesson about giving away my time & connections for free, when it is part of my work & I am on vacation. I left out Russ to help others, instead of resting my brain & giving skills. Learning my boundaries is as important as helping people. Thoughts from the Tractor

How often do we go away & our to do lists comes with us? Mine do all the time. Russ is able to stay in his nothing box in his head, meanwhile my wires are still firing & cross circuiting! So leave your lists at the airport! Thoughts from the Tractor.

2years ago today Russ finished his last Radiation treatment. We look back at the fog we went through and coming out the other side. Thoughts from the Tractor

We wanted to take a moment to acknowledge all those who fought for our freedom & right to live the live we choose. Russ talks a bit about his grandpa & uncles. Thoughts from the Tractor.

Russ & I talk about what helps to see the light of the next day. How expressing our self & having support from friends & each other makes such a difference. Thoughts from the Tractor

***** Warning, this episode talks about Mental Health & feelings of Hopelessness.********. Russ & I discuss some triggers that happened to me & my feelings of being in a black hole & climbing out of it. The whole is getting smaller & I don't go there very often, but when I do, it is painful, frustrating & scary. I find a safe spot to wait for the next sunrise & someone to breathe 1 breath at a time with. I don't have to fix anything or be fixed….. just breathe. Thoughts from the tractor. *talk suicide Canada 1-833-456-4566

I have come to realize from Russ that work can be fun! We have done so much work around the farm lately, but I have actually enjoyed it! Life is too short not to have fun with what you are doing & being with who you want to be with! We are turning our work into pleasure & being happy with what we do! Thoughts from the Tractor.

How often do we say “to be honest”? Why would we say something to openly lie to each other. I think it is a funny saying. Russ & I talk about this and being open to “listen” to each other's ideas. Thoughts from the Tractor.

Trevor & I get to have another conversation about us both growing up and some questions he has for me. We never leave anything unsaid to each other!

I was able to go to Vancouver Island to spend 4 days with 8 Women from “Pick my Brain.” I have learned so much from these amazing women & even after all this I still want to stay married to Russ!!! No words can describe the impact this weekend has had on us all, but this episode will hopefully provide you with a blips into connection and conversation we experienced. If you want to learn more you can connect with me on https://www.pickmybrain.world/profiles/brenda-pelland-mcintosh/

I got to spend 24hours with Trevor! We decided to do a podcast about the way he was raised & his perception of life!

We just had my 40th High school Grad reunion. It was amazing!!!!!! We also are learning not to assume someone is too busy to get together, or they don't need a call! Pick up the phone, have that visit, send a letter, make time to make the memories! Thoughts from the Tractor

Lots is changing in our life. As I struggle with it, Russ sees it in a positive light & that we have control. He is my biggest supporter & helps me to see the good & take back control over who I am. Thoughts from the Tractor.

To use a generator or not! Learning to let things go & not consume myself! Russ is really good at letting go….me not so much!

We discuss how we are coming to a place in our life that makes us happy. Everything we have done has led to this. Thoughts from the Tractor

I just realized Russ's ploy to MAKE me like winter!!! Have a listen to find out how he did it!!!!

We have been MIA, doing life & travelling. We have been happy doing our life, it has been amazing. Live in the moment right now….no more waiting for the Big Bang of Happiness. It's is right here. Thoughts from the Tractor.

We realize how much time we spend on our phones & not with each other. We are challenging & setting up our phones to let us know when we have reached our 30 mins on social media & other distractions. Time to Fondle each other NOT our phones! Thoughts from the Tractor.

After Episode 108, Russ let me know that I was not being supportive & we decided to talk about it. It may not be my dreams but I still can be supportive. Thoughts from the Tractor!

We discuss what holds us back from executing our dreams & ideas. What & who influences carrying them out or not. Treat people the way you want to be treated & don't let anyone hold you back from your dreams. Thoughts from the Tractor.

I love Russ but sometimes, ok lots of times, I would prefer for him to just listens to my opinion. Some things for sure in our relationship are reciprocated, not always wanting an option isn't!!! LOL! If you want to send us topics or your own thoughts or want to be our guest on “Thoughts from the Tractor”, email us at brendapm66@gmail.com

Funny how it's easier to blame others for the way life is going and not look at myself! Thankfully, Russ is patient with me to let me figure out myself. Life is getting better & better & so are WE! Thoughts from the Tractor.

As we get thrown curve balls in our health, we realize our attitude & how we view these, is how we will more than survive them but, thrive from them. Russ & I talk about how we are facing the challenges of Health concerns. Thoughts from the Tractor.