We are Scattered Mind. We are not the normal everyday type of people.
In this episode Neish and I talk about a lot of the negative things we have been through that ultimately led to some of the best things that have happened to us.Follow us on facebook, twitter, youtube, tiktok, threads and Instagram @thatinfernalnpcAny thoughts or feedback on it would be very much appreciated!
In this episode, Neish and I meander all over the place. We talk about taking accountability, accepting we weren't always the best people, setting boundaries and learning how to be there for each other. Follow us on facebook, twitter, youtube, tiktok, threads and Instagram @thatinfernalnpcAny thoughts or feedback on it would be very much appreciated!
In this episode, we don't really have a conversation, I felt completely lost and uncomfortably numb as we were recording it. To me it sounds like a wife that feels completely helpless and just wants her husband to be alright. Truthfully there was something cathartic about hearing her say everything she did and the past few days have felt a little different for me. I am thankful that she is my partner and has allowed me to grow and process things in the right ways. Follow us on facebook, twitter, youtube, tiktok, threads and Instagram @thatinfernalnpcAny thoughts or feedback on it would be very much appreciated!
In this episode, Neish and I discuss my turning 40, spoiler, I am not handling it well. Also we discuss my being selfish about wanting the family that I have lost here with me and had a crazy experience caught on the audio in the process.Follow us on facebook, twitter, youtube, tiktok, threads and Instagram @thatinfernalnpcAny thoughts or feedback on it would be very much appreciated!
In this episode, Neish ended up interviewing me and I didn't realize until we were pretty deep into it. It was her way of getting me to just talk without thinking about it and I just opened up on how I am dealing with everything. I explain the goals I have and what I want all of the grief to lead to and make me a better person and not letting the fear of the inevitable hinder me from living my life and being my most authentic self. Follow us on facebook, twitter, youtube, tiktok and Instagram @thatinfernalnpcAny thoughts or feedback on it would be very much appreciated!
In this episode, Neish and I discuss what we have been dealing with in the past month; the untimely death of my Mom. This one was kind of all over the place, big surprise I know, but it is a real look into how we have been struggling. Please know that there is no right way to grieve, it differs person to person and situation to situation, but it is important to allow yourself to grieve regardless. Be there for your people just like they are for you. Tell those you love how much as often as you can and bury the hatchets that you are able to. Follow us on facebook, twitter, youtube, tiktok and Instagram @thatinfernalnpcAny thoughts or feedback on it would be very much appreciated!
In this episode, Neish and I discuss the holidays and the negative effect it can have on us and people in general. Follow us on facebook, twitter, youtube, tiktok and Instagram @thatinfernalnpcAny thoughts or feedback on it would be very much appreciated!
In this episode, Neish and I discuss the past 12 years of our relationship from the tumultuous start to its current iteration and everything in between. This was a super fun one for us and it was even fun to listen back to for me. Follow us on facebook, twitter, youtube, tiktok and Instagram @thatinfernalnpcAny thoughts or feedback on it would be very much appreciated!
In this episode, Neish and I discuss the way things are changing for us, the new experiences we are having with our kids getting older and trying to make their way in the world, the struggles we have had trying to reconcile our childhoods and traumas while still trying to raise our own kids.Follow us on facebook, twitter, youtube, tiktok and Instagram: @thatinfernalnpcAny thoughts or feedback on it would be very much appreciated!
It has all come to this, the sharing of my story. So many things had to line up in such a way that the only explanation is that it was meant to be shared. If you feel alone and isolated from the spiritual or you have “that piece of you missing,” please know what I have been there and there is a light at the end of the tunnel. Change is right around the corner if you know where to look. In this episode, Neish and I discuss the work of Anthony Peake called “The Daemon: A Guide to Your Extraordinary Secret Self” how it relates to my journey and for the first time in my life feeling sane and like I am not alone in these “crazy” experiences. Follow us on facebook, twitter, youtube, tiktok and Instagram @thatinfernalnpcAny thoughts or feedback on it would be very much appreciated!
In this episode, Neish and I talk about her struggle with accepting the things that she has experienced as well as her place in the world. As per usual we kinda go all over the place and talk about her upbringing and some of the inappropriate things she had to deal with. The reason for calling it the Prelude, is it will serve as an episode 0 for the upcoming saga chronicling her life and we are calling it “Welcome to the Shitshow.” She and I both can't wait to share her story long form with you.Follow us on facebook, twitter, youtube, tiktok and Instagram @thatinfernalnpcAny thoughts or feedback on it would be very much appreciated!
In this episode, Neish and I talk about my panic attack/life changing spiritual awakening. It was an unbelievably intense and overwhelming experience that terrified me to my core, not since I was a child have I been scared to that extent. It was so impactful, I still feel changed even over a week later. I am thankful for my wife being able to be there for me and keeping me as grounded as possible and for keeping me safe.Follow us on facebook, twitter, youtube, tiktok and Instagram @thatinfernalnpcIntro - STFU (Anime Kid) by BreedAny thoughts or feedback on it would be very much appreciated!#thatinfernalnpc #mentalhealth #mentalhealthawareness #mentalhealthmatters #mentalhealthrecovery #mondaymentalhealth #mhnrnetwork
In this episode, my lovely wife Neish and I share with you the most honest and real look into how we communicate. We start with Neish finding the resolve to leave her dead end job and kind of go all over the place from there. She talks about her convictions and finding the strength to stand up for herself over the years we have been together. She finds her pride through the course of the episode.*If you are dealing with suicidal thoughts and need help 988 has been designated as the new three-digit dialing code that will route callers to the National Suicide Prevention Lifeline. *Follow us on facebook, twitter, youtube, tiktok and Instagram @thatinfernalnpcIntro - STMFU by BreedAny thoughts or feedback on it would be very much appreciated!#thatinfernalnpc #mentalhealth #mentalhealthawareness #mentalhealthmatters #mentalhealthrecovery #mondaymentalhealth #mhnrnetwork
In this episode, my lovely wife Neish and I discuss where we are currently in our journey, collectively and individually. How we want to be past the point of growth and how we want to be at the finish line. Finding balance with work & family life while still trying to prioritize our mental and physical health. All while figuring out how to be grateful for the progress we have made.Follow us on facebook, twitter, youtube, tiktok and Instagram @thatinfernalnpcIntro - STMFU by BreedAny thoughts or feedback on it would be very much appreciated!#thatinfernalnpc #mentalhealth #mentalhealthawareness #mentalhealthmatters #mentalhealthrecovery #mondaymentalhealth #mhnrnetwork
In this episode, my lovely wife Neish and I discuss the evolution of our communication, from the early days of just being friends to having a family together like we do now as well as how we almost lost our relationship in the process. Follow us on facebook, twitter, youtube, tiktok and Instagram @thatinfernalnpcIntro - STMFU by BreedAny thoughts or feedback on it would be very much appreciated!#thatinfernalnpc #mentalhealth #mentalhealthawareness #mentalhealthmatters #mentalhealthrecovery #mondaymentalhealth #mhnrnetwork
In this episode, what I wanted to be the actual format of the show is finally brought to fruition, my lovely wife Neish and I discuss why we are rebooting and get into a dope conversation that kind of goes all over the place. Join us on the newest chapter in our journey!Follow us on facebook, twitter, youtube, tiktok and Instagram @thatinfernalnpcIntro - STMFU by BreedAny thoughts or feedback on it would be very much appreciated!#thatinfernalnpc #mentalhealth #mentalhealthawareness #mentalhealthmatters #mentalhealthrecovery #mondaymentalhealth #mhnrnetwork
In this episode I discuss my obsession with Star Wars and how it relates to my psyche and my mental health. It has become one of my biggest sources of strength and has helped me be more present in my normal life. May the force be with you all!Follow me on facebook, twitter, youtube, tiktok and Instagram@thatinfernalnpcIntro - STMFU by BreedAny thoughts or feedback on it would be very much appreciated!#thatinfernalnpc #mentalhealth #mentalhealthawareness #mentalhealthmatters #mentalhealthrecovery #thursdaytherapy #mhnrnetwork
In this episode I discuss the most prevalent thought in my mind for a while now, who deserves a seat at my table. Coming to realization and appreciation for what I have and the quality of people that I have around me instead of constantly wanting more or wanting to be liked etc.*If you are dealing with suicidal thoughts and need help 988 has been designated as the new three-digit dialing code that will route callers to the National Suicide Prevention Lifeline. * Follow me on facebook, twitter, youtube, tiktok and Instagram@thatinfernalnpcIntro - STMFU by BreedAny thoughts or feedback on it would be very much appreciated!#thatinfernalnpc #mentalhealth #mentalhealthawareness #mentalhealthmatters #mentalhealthrecovery #thursdaytherapy #mhnrnetwork
In this episode I discuss my struggle with the darkness and trying to get into the light and at times surviving on smoke and hate. I was addicted to my noise and in a lot of situations used it as my security blanket.*If you are dealing with suicidal thoughts and need help 988 has been designated as the new three-digit dialing code that will route callers to the National Suicide Prevention Lifeline. * Follow me on facebook, twitter, youtube, tiktok and Instagram@thatinfernalnpcIntro - STMFU by BreedAny thoughts or feedback on it would be very much appreciated!#thatinfernalnpc #mentalhealth #mentalhealthawareness #mentalhealthmatters #mentalhealthrecovery #thursdaytherapy #mhnrnetwork
In my return episode I discuss the passing of the woman that raised me, my grandmother Maria Pina. I talk about the struggles I have had since then and falling into a depression and lacking motivation to do basically anything.Don't let the noise make you, YOU make the noise.Follow me on facebook, twitter, youtube, tiktok and Instagram @thatinfernalnpcIntro - STMFU by BreedAny thoughts or feedback on it would be very much appreciated!#thatinfernalnpc #mentalhealth #mentalhealthawareness #mentalhealthmatters #mentalhealthrecovery #thursdaytherapy #mhnrnetwork
In this episode I discuss my personal mental health journey, where I am now and what I consider my rock bottom including my suicidal ideations and overcoming them. *If you are dealing with suicidal thoughts and need help 988 has been designated as the new three-digit dialing code that will route callers to the National Suicide Prevention Lifeline. * Follow me on facebook, twitter, youtube, tiktok and Instagram @thatinfernalnpc Intro - STMFU by Breed Any thoughts or feedback on it would be very much appreciated! #thatinfernalnpc #mentalhealth #mentalhealthawareness #mentalhealthmatters #mentalhealthrecovery #thursdaytherapy #mhnrnetwork
In this episode I discuss my generation and how we were raised and what I have learned from my kids as well. Follow me on facebook, twitter, tiktok and instagram @thatinfernalnpc Intro - STMFU by Breed Any thoughts or feedback on it would be very much appreciated! -Robert #thatinfernalnpc #mentalhealth #mentalhealthawareness #mentalhealthmatters #mentalhealthrecovery #thursdaytherapy #mhnrnetwork
In this episode I discuss my taking responsibility for my actions and holding myself accountable in all situations and how I deal with the struggle to do so. Follow me on facebook, twitter, tiktok and instagram @thatinfernalnpc Intro - STMFU by Breed Any thoughts or feedback on it would be very much appreciated! -Robert #thatinfernalnpc #mentalhealth #mentalhealthawareness #mentalhealthmatters #mentalhealthrecovery #thursdaytherapy
In this episode I discuss my constant need to be accepted and never really feeling like I ever fit in anywhere until very recently. I also talk about my short comings as a father and a partner and how I always strive to learn from my previous mistakes and try to be a better person. Follow me on facebook, twitter, tiktok and instagram @thatinfernalnpc Intro - STMFU by Breed Any thoughts or feedback on it would be very much appreciated! -Robert #thatinfernalnpc #mentalhealth #mentalhealthawareness #mentalhealthmatters #mentalhealthrecovery #thursdaytherapy
In this episode I discuss the adversity no longer hindering my motivation, I have gotten to a place of clarity and understanding of my work life balance and found the things that re-energize me and give me strength to make it through the tough times. Follow me on facebook, twitter, tiktok and instagram @thatinfernalnpc Intro - STMFU by Breed Any thoughts or feedback on it would be very much appreciated! -Robert
In this episode I discuss making excuses to be unmotivated and my fears of not being accepted along with a couple of stories of why I don't think like that anymore. Follow me on facebook, twitter, tiktok and instagram @thatinfernalnpc Intro - STMFU by Breed Any thoughts or feedback on it would be very much appreciated! -Robert
In this episode I discuss where I am currently and all the changes that I have made in my life in order to get to the point that I am at. Kids getting older, my mindset changing, sacrificing, goals, and my trying to be a better person in general. Follow me on facebook, twitter, tiktok and instagram @thatinfernalnpc Intro - STMFU by Breed Any thoughts or feedback on it would be very much appreciated! -Robert
In this episode I discuss where I currently reside in my life and growth in making amends for my past behaviors and/or neglect with loved ones. It has been a long process trying to make right the wrongs I have done in my life but ultimately it has greatly benefited my mental well being. Big thanks for Claas for giving me permission to use his track, check out his info below and leave some love! Follow me on facebook, twitter and instagram @thatinfernalnpc Intro - Feeling Myself by Claas Follow him on Instagram/Twitter/Facebook/Youtube at IAMCLAAS Buy his merch at www.gorehop.com Any thoughts or feedback on it would be very much appreciated! -Robert
This episode is my call to arms for making my life my own, there is no more time for excuses. I discuss not being happy because I often self sabotage and wanting to break that cycle in order to accomplish my goals. Big thanks for Claas for giving me permission to use his track, check out his info below and leave some love! Follow me on facebook, twitter and instagram @thatinfernalnpc Intro - Feeling Myself by Claas Follow him on Instagram/Twitter/Facebook/Youtube at IAMCLAAS Buy his merch at www.gorehop.com Any thoughts or feedback on it would be very much appreciated! -Robert
In this episode Neish, Mandy, Gabriel and I sit down and talk with Chris right after his 18th birthday. We discuss his upbring, what it is like dealing with parents like us and crack a few jokes along the way because we can't be serious for too long. Big thanks for Claas for giving me permission to use his track, check out his info below and leave some love! Follow me on facebook, twitter and instagram @thatinfernalnpc Intro - Feeling Myself by Claas Follow him on Instagram/Twitter/Facebook/Youtube at IAMCLAAS Buy his merch at www.gorehop.com Any thoughts or feedback on it would be very much appreciated! -Robert
As the title implies, I am Feeling Myself now. In the episode I discuss plans for the future, my sense of general optimism toward life, finding my purpose and looking forward to the future. Big thanks for Claas for giving me permission to use his track, check out his info below and leave some love! Follow me on facebook, twitter and instagram @thatinfernalnpc Intro - Feeling Myself by Claas Follow him on Instagram/Twitter/Facebook/Youtube at IAMCLAAS Buy his merch at www.gorehop.com Any thoughts or feedback on it would be very much appreciated! -Robert
In this episode as the title implies, I am more honest than I have ever been. You get an unfiltered look into my mind and my thoughts of men's mental health and the perception of being weak in discussing emotions. I also discuss the suicidal thoughts I have, some of the motivations for them and my reasons for still being here. I apologize to anyone that may find this a sensitive subject but I feel that all too often these thoughts are downplayed, if not just outright ignored and that inevitably leads to a increase in suicide rates. My goal is to create a dialogue and let everyone know you are not alone, you can talk about it and you are not weak if you seek help. National Suicide Prevention Lifeline: 800-723-8255 (available 24 hours a day) Follow me on facebook, twitter and instagram @thatinfernalnpc Any thoughts or feedback on it would be very much appreciated! -Robert
In this episode I discuss struggles I have had in my ongoing quest to be a better person and give my thoughts on the loss experienced in the process of changing the person I want to be. Follow me on facebook, twitter and instagram @thatinfernalnpc Any thoughts or feedback on it would be very much appreciated! -Robert
In this episode I discuss struggles I had leading up to Father's day as well as removing things that no longer serve a purpose in my life. Follow me on facebook, twitter and instagram @thatinfernalnpc Any thoughts or feedback on it would be very much appreciated! -Robert
Join me on my journey through my psyche and listen to me try and navigate it. In this episode I talk about my most recent freak out and discussing it with my therapist and coming to the realization that my brain has become incredibly efficient as jumping to anger. Follow me on facebook, twitter and instagram @thatinfernalnpc Any thoughts or feedback on it would be very much appreciated! -Robert
Join me on my journey through my psyche and listen to me try and navigate it. Follow me on facebook, twitter and instagram @thatinfernalnpc Any thoughts or feedback on it would be very much appreciated! -Robert
It has been a while but I am back discussing my own short comings as a husband and more importantly as a human. I decided that today is first day of the rest of my life and I am going to take charge starting now. Join me on my journey through my psyche and listen to me try and navigate it. Follow me on facebook, twitter and instagram @thatinfernalnpc Any thoughts or feedback on it would be very much appreciated! -Robert
Starting out the new year fresh with a new episode, in it I discuss things that have happened, realizations and awakenings I have had in this time of isolation and the positive effects it has had on myself as well as my family. Follow me on facebook, twitter and instagram @thatinfernalnpc Any thoughts or feedback on it would be very much appreciated! -Robert
My fourth solo podcast, in it I discuss the truths I have discovered in my time of isolation since the pandemic began and how it has affected me mentally as well as other issues and situations I have encountered in that time. Follow me on facebook, twitter and instagram @thatinfernalnpc Any thoughts or feedback on it would be very much appreciated! -Robert
Our triumphant return to the podcasting world, the name may be different but the spirit remains the same. In this episode we re-introduce ourselves, as well as catch the world up on what has been going on with us as well as a little discussion of some current events with our usual irreverent spin to it. Follow us on, Facebook, Twitter & Instagram @thatinfernalnpc As always any thoughts or feedback on it would be very much appreciated! -Robert
In this episode Neish talks about coming to grips with getting older in this day age and the disparity between the generations. She also discusses why our generation shouldn't look at it as a bad thing. Follow Neish on Twitter @ohheyitsneisha As always any thoughts or feedback on it would be very much appreciated. Stay Peculiar! -Robert
This is the third episode of my solo podcasting adventure, in it I explain what "That Infernal Noise," means to me, my depression, mental inadequacies and I close out with finding my light in the darkness. Follow me on facebook, twitter and instagram @thatinfernalnpc Any thoughts or feedback on it would be very much appreciated! -Robert
This is our special episode recorded on New Year's Eve, in it we discuss our resolutions/goals for 2020 and of course there are a few laughs sprinkled through out. Follow us on Twitter @icbwf As always any thoughts or feedback on it would be very much appreciated! Intro instrumental composed by xSHY361x on youtube -Robert
This is the debut episode of a podcast we will be adding to the line up in 2020 and it just so happens to be my fun and smart wife's. In this episode she discusses mental health, self care and what they mean to her. She gives her unabashedly honest opinions on the subject and even gives examples of her worst days. Please bear with us when it comes to the variance in audio quality periodically through the episode, we were trying a new configuration for solo recording and it wasn't as successful as we would have liked, it won't happen again :) Follow Neish on Twitter @ohheyitsneisha As always any thoughts or feedback on it would be very much appreciated. -Robert
In this episode our usual suspects discuss all manner of idiocy ranging from people asking Neish if she was our niece's Grandma, to Jimmy's shit stories, why is he always the one with the most fucked up stories? So many laughs so little time. Follow us on Twitter @icbwf As always any thoughts or feedback on it would be very much appreciated! Intro instrumental composed by xSHY361x on youtube -Robert
In this episode our usual suspects discuss all manner of idiocy ranging from porn to drugs to even Jimmy being a cam girl at one point. So many laughs so little time. Follow us on Twitter @icbwf As always any thoughts or feedback on it would be very much appreciated! Intro instrumental composed by xSHY361x on youtube -Robert
For this episode in the spirit (see what I did there) of Halloween our usual suspects discuss our supernatural/paranormal experiences some of which that involved each other. Some of these stories still make me uneasy just to think of/talk about almost 20 years later. I hope all have a Happy Halloween and Blessed Samhain, so mote it be! Follow us on Twitter @icbwf As always any thoughts or feedback on it would be very much appreciated! Intro instrumental composed by xSHY361x on youtube -Robert
In this episode our usual suspects discuss folklore from around the world and theories on how they may have come about. Of course we deviate from our topics and end up doing what we do best... Stupidity. Luckily, Ariel, Mandy and Neish do their best to keep Jimmy, Gabriel and myself on track. Follow us on Twitter @icbwf As always any thoughts or feedback on it would be very much appreciated! Intro instrumental composed by xSHY361x on youtube -Robert
In this episode our fearsome foursome discuss a great many conspiracy theories of course we deviate from the topic several times but the the girls do a pretty good job of keeping Gabriel and I on track... For the most part... Follow us on Twitter @icbwf As always any thoughts or feedback on it would be very much appreciated! Intro instrumental composed by xSHY361x on youtube -Robert
In this episode our usual suspects with the addition of Mrs. Money discuss aliens, *cue X-files theme* personal experiences with the Mothman, as well as some of my random postulations and we still manage to get a few laughs in. Follow us on Twitter @icbwf As always any thoughts or feedback on it would be very much appreciated! Intro instrumental composed by xSHY361x on youtube -Robert
In this episode our usual suspects (minus Mr. Money,) discuss beer, sex and drugs as usual. My irrational fears of being eaten by bears, sharks and alligators, oh my. We close out the show with a spirited game of "Would You Rather." So many laughs, so little time... Follow us on Twitter @icbwf As always any thoughts or feedback on it would be very much appreciated! Intro instrumental composed by xSHY361x on youtube -Robert