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The Recovering Evangelical Podcast navigates life and faith after the evangelical church. A safe place for believers, believers no more, and believers holding on by a thread, The Recovering Evangelical gets honest about the American evangelical church.

Rachel Spears


    • Nov 28, 2023 LATEST EPISODE
    • infrequent NEW EPISODES
    • 55m AVG DURATION
    • 68 EPISODES


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    Latest episodes from The Recovering Evangelical Podcast

    The HERetics - October 2023

    Play Episode Listen Later Nov 28, 2023 67:34


    They're baaaack! Mostly. :) 

    The HERetics - Looking Back at Episode One

    Play Episode Listen Later Apr 26, 2023 94:16


    The ladies went back and listened to the first episode of the HERetics. Listen as they talk about how they've changed since then and what they would tell that version of themselves. Also, viewer/listener questions answered on the air! 

    Crossroads and Clarity : Part Three

    Play Episode Listen Later Apr 20, 2023 33:50


    Our story about Crossroads Church in Cincinnati, Ohio comes to an end this episode as we talk about that day last summer when they gave their national microphone to a man named David Mahan and then pretended to not know what he was going to say.  This series isn't because I hate Crossroads. I don't. I made it because I love people. And if Crossroads truly does too, the very least they can offer them is clarity.  Special and eternal thanks to Brian Webb for his vulnerability and help.  Interested in helping The Recovering Evangelical continue? Join our Patreon for $10 a month HERE.

    Crossroads and Clarity : Part Two

    Play Episode Listen Later Apr 13, 2023 31:23


    This isn't a story about gender and sexuality. It's a story about clarity and the lack of it at Crossroads Church in Cincinnati, Ohio on those issues and others.  The story continues on this episode with Crossroads' stance on race relations, their efforts for racial reconciliation and equity while maintaining a mostly white environment, and how all of that seems to relate to their sudden firing of an employee.

    Crossroads and Clarity : Part One

    Play Episode Listen Later Apr 6, 2023 22:51


    Crossroads Church in Cincinnati, Ohio tops the lists of growing churches in America nearly every year. But at what cost? Staying in "the middle" on various issues allows Crossroads to grow without taking a position that might halt that growth. Join me as we dig into Crossroads, and other churches like it, and ask them the questions: What would be the cost of clarity? And for the sake of those left in the wake of your journey for greatness, why aren't you willing to pay it?

    Midseason Update

    Play Episode Listen Later Mar 30, 2023 5:18


    MY VOICE IS BACK!!! Here's a quick update about the rest of the season. See you next week!

    The HERetics - Exvangelical Assholery

    Play Episode Listen Later Mar 29, 2023 82:33


    Leaving evangelicalism isn't the cure. Sometimes, we're quick to leave evangelical theology and pronounce ourselves FREE while still engaging in evangelical ideological frameworks that are harmful. Join the ladies as they discuss their own experiences with exvangelical assholery - when they were the assholes and when they weren't - and how we can unpack ALL of evangelicalism, not just the theology.

    The Asbury Revival

    Play Episode Listen Later Mar 2, 2023 57:11


    This past month, 50,000 people journeyed to Willmore, Kentucky to attend a spontaneous revival at Asbury University that lasted 16 days. The news of this led to criticism from every side and a lot of complicated feelings for those of us sorting through faith. Joining Rachel for the conversation is one of her fellow HERetics, Abbey Smith.  Follow Abbey here: CLICK HERE Watch the HERetics here: CLICK HERE Become a patron of TRE: https://www.patreon.com/Therecoveringevangelical  

    Bekah McNeel

    Play Episode Listen Later Feb 23, 2023 47:31


    For all the things I can speak to on the podcast, being a parent during/after deconstructing isn't one. Sharing some wisdom from her book, Bringing Up Kids When Church Lets You Down, Bekah McNeel sat down with me to talk about navigating parenthood after the evangelical church.  Bekah: www.bekahmcneel.com Bekah's book: https://tinyurl.com/3rcmhfrk Become a Patron of TRE: https://www.patreon.com/Therecoveringevangelical  

    Cynthia Vacca Davis

    Play Episode Listen Later Feb 16, 2023 47:56


    Professor and author Cynthia Vacca Davis shares about her journey from convenient allyship to active advocacy.  Cynthia's website: https://cynthiavaccadavis.com/  Buy Intersexion: https://tinyurl.com/yth4ph8v  TRE Patreon: https://www.patreon.com/Therecoveringevangelical 

    Shannon Kearns / Queer Theology

    Play Episode Listen Later Feb 9, 2023 48:20


    Father Shannon TL Kearns is a transgender priest who believes in the power of storytelling. Listen in to hear him detail the story of finding his true self and how beautiful his faith became after doing so.  Links: Shannon's website: https://www.shannontlkearns.com/ Shannon's book: https://tinyurl.com/yc5uhzea  Become a TRE Patron: https://www.patreon.com/Therecoveringevangelical  

    Molly LaCroix

    Play Episode Listen Later Feb 2, 2023 54:53


    Welcome back for Season 5! Join Rachel as she chats with Licensed Therapist, Molly LaCroix. Molly's clinical speciality is treating the impact of trauma & adversity. Listen along as she and Rachel discuss overcoming the overwhelm that come with deconstructing your faith.  Link to Rachels' Patreon: https://www.patreon.com/Therecoveringevangelical?fan_landing=true Link to Molly's Website: www.mollylacroix.com Link to Molly's Book: https://tinyurl.com/yh7mrjf8

    The HERetics - January 2023

    Play Episode Listen Later Jan 31, 2023 85:52


    Tradwives, biblical womanhood, submission - oh my! The ladies are talking about what we learned about biblical womanhood when in evangelicalism and what they think about the current surge in tradwife social media. 

    Season Five Coming Soon...

    Play Episode Listen Later Dec 14, 2022 8:16


    I know you've been waiting a long time. The wait is (almost) over. 

    A HERetics Holiday!

    Play Episode Listen Later Dec 13, 2022 73:43


    Join the ladies for a holiday episode as we talk about expensive Christmas productions in churches and how the church treats money and staff around Christmas. Of course a holiday episode also featured a lot of talk about innapropriate things and a drinking game - this IS the HERetics after all! Merry Christmas! See you in January! 

    The HERetics - Halloween 2022

    Play Episode Listen Later Oct 31, 2022 94:29


    This year for Halloween, the ladies talk horror stories in the Bible, Halloween candy conspiracy theories, and which HERetic had to be escorted out of a haunted house halfway through. Take a guess who? :) 

    The HERetics - September 2022

    Play Episode Listen Later Oct 31, 2022 81:19


    Oh hey! We forgot to upload this! So you're getting September and October on the same day. YOU'RE WELCOME! :) 

    The HERetics 1 Year Anniversary

    Play Episode Listen Later Aug 29, 2022 76:21


    Join the ladies as they celebrate a year of this hot mess express. Reliving some of their favorite segments & memories - including a drinking game. Duh! Come celebrate!

    The HERetics - July 2022

    Play Episode Listen Later Jul 26, 2022 71:15


    The ladies are back this month to talk about youth group. The cringe, the shame, the skits... See you next month for our 1 year anniversary episode! 

    The HERetics - Pride 2022

    Play Episode Listen Later Jun 28, 2022 82:46


    Join the ladies as they talk about their experiences at pride, what the evangelical versions of themselves would think, and some of their favorite LGBTQ+ artists, authors, creators, and more. 

    Let it Rain

    Play Episode Listen Later Jun 2, 2022 12:14


    Season 4 is a wrap. Let's reflect on what it spurs us to. And Season 5? We've never seen anything quite like Season 5. Let justice flow like water. Let it rain. 

    The HERetics - May 2022

    Play Episode Listen Later Jun 1, 2022 88:18


    The ladies are back to talk about summers growing up as an evangelical kid. VBS, church camp, getting saved 8 times - oh my!  

    Jesus, Guns, Babies

    Play Episode Listen Later May 26, 2022 13:21


    It's time to rise up. You in?

    Matthew Paul Turner

    Play Episode Listen Later May 19, 2022 59:52


    I had the absolute honor to chat with New York Times best selling author, Matthew Paul Turner about faith, sexuality, love, and God.  I've been following Matthew's writing for years and am indebted to him and those like him who paved the way for so many of us. Take an moment or two to listen into this conversation and if you're anything like me, grab a tissue.

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    Portia Burch

    Play Episode Listen Later Apr 21, 2022 51:08


    I had the absolute honor of sitting down with anti-racism educator, Portia Burch, to talk about the work of anti-racism and the invitation to be okay with being uncomfortable as you learn.  Find Portia and her links on Tiktok at @Portia.Noir. 

    REPOST: Easter

    Play Episode Listen Later Apr 14, 2022 22:05


    Taking a 1 week break from season 4 interviews to reshare our Easter After the Evangelical Church episode from season 1. Things like Easter can be hard after leaving the church or even still in the church but struggling with what that looks like for you.  I hope that this episode brings you peace as you navigate this holiday weekend. 

    Ravel

    Play Episode Listen Later Apr 7, 2022 75:40


    2 of the 3 hosts from Ravel Podcast join me to talk about faith, our opinions on the word deconstruction, how we're each recovering from the church, and of course - how dropping f bombs helps that process. 

    J. Crum

    Play Episode Listen Later Mar 31, 2022 27:21


    Award-winning rapper, producer, and graphic artist J. Crum sits down with me to talk about growing up in the church, whitewashed Jesus, his road to agnosticism, and how *all* of that inspires his music.

    The HERetics - March 2022

    Play Episode Listen Later Mar 28, 2022 81:58


    Join April, Rachel, and a very special guest as they talk about all things Cringy Christianity- even reading some of their OWN old tweets. #woof

    Young, Restless, Reformed...and Problematic

    Play Episode Listen Later Mar 24, 2022 62:15


    In the early 2000s, men like John Piper and Mark Driscoll brought reformed theology to the center stage and American Christianity has been hurting under the weight of it ever since.  While I personally reject the theology, I think the impact of that movement, no matter what you believe, hurts us all. Tickling the ears of men desperate for power, the young, restless, and reformed movement grew up and has left us with christian leaders who look nothing like Christ. 

    Derek Terry

    Play Episode Listen Later Mar 17, 2022 53:01


    I'd driven past the church in Cincinnati with the Trans Day of Remembrance signs in the yard hundreds of times. I always wondered who led a church like that.  This past December, I sat in a pew and found out. Listen and meet Rev. Derek Terry - an educator, a creator, a pastor, and an incredible man - hellbent on creating a safe space for all. 

    Jennifer Knapp

    Play Episode Listen Later Mar 10, 2022 65:19


    16 year old me was obsessed with Jennifer Knapp. Turns out, 36 year old me is as well.  Jennifer was at the top of her CCM career in 2002 when she walked away. Come listen to her talk about that experience, and about her life and faith journey since. 

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    Season 4 Trailer

    Play Episode Listen Later Mar 3, 2022 3:08


    Season 4 coming March 10th! It's gonna be a good one, friends. 

    The HERetics - February 2022

    Play Episode Listen Later Feb 28, 2022 90:38


    Let's talk about sex, baby. The ladies talk about sex, sexuality, gender identity, virginity, and wrap up with a wonderful game of Never Have I Ever. It's serious, it's light-hearted, it's slightly irreverent - it's the HERetics. 

    The HERetics - Back for the New Year!

    Play Episode Listen Later Feb 3, 2022 76:39


    The ladies are back in 2022 and ready to talk all the things. First things first - cringy Christian dating, our new Bachelorette series, and who delivers the best (worst?) Christian pickup line. 

    Church Camp

    Play Episode Listen Later Jan 20, 2022 55:59


    Growing up, going to church camp was the highlight of my summers. Away from Mom and Dad and with all my friends, what could go wrong? Welp. A lot. 

    Behind The Curtain of Worship Culture

    Play Episode Listen Later Jan 13, 2022 48:24


    On the heels of Passion 2022, my friend Eve and I discuss the moneymaker that is worship culture in America and how it permeates down from big names like Passion, Bethel, and Hillsong to create manufactured moments and manipulated emotional response in churches everywhere. 

    The Happiness of the Holidays

    Play Episode Listen Later Dec 16, 2021 14:22


    Last week, we tackled the heaviness of the holidays. On today's episode, we look at allowing ourselves to enjoy the happiness of the holidays in any way that we can, even if that includes elements of the very church that hurt us. Episodes will resume in the New Year! 

    The Heaviness of the Holidays

    Play Episode Listen Later Dec 9, 2021 15:14


    This week's mini episode tackles the heaviness of the holiday season and next week's is the happiness of the holiday season (so don't let this week get you too down).  This time of year is joyous. And damn hard. Let's talk about it.

    A Chat with Paul Swearengin

    Play Episode Listen Later Dec 2, 2021 47:38


    Sitting down to chat with my friend, Paul, who felt like a safe space when I first started talking publicly about deconstruction. We talk about moving from the church into this phase of life, owning our own mistakes, and finding a God of love, rather than one of wrath. 

    A HERetics Holiday

    Play Episode Listen Later Dec 1, 2021 85:22


    Our sweet southern belle is back! Talking all things holidays - the good and bad, and of course, a reference or two to unicorns. 

    A Chat With Joseph Yoo

    Play Episode Listen Later Nov 11, 2021 65:10


    So many of my listeners still long for a church community after/during deconstruction. Join me as I chat with my new friend Joseph, who pastors an inclusive, affirming church in Texas. There may just be some good churches left out there after all.  Find Joseph online at @joseph.yoo on Tiktok, IG, and Twitter and on his blog at www.josephyoo.com

    Repost: Revoking Access

    Play Episode Listen Later Nov 4, 2021 31:04


    Due to some technical difficulties this week, we're resharing Rachel's favorite episode from Season 1. Revoking access is a term we use frequently around here and a practice that is healthy & holy. We'll be back next week with a new episode with an INCREDIBLE guest. Enjoy this throwback and we'll see you next week!

    The HERetics Halloween

    Play Episode Listen Later Nov 1, 2021 87:53


    When your October episode falls on Halloween, you dress up & talk about all the weird ways the evangelical church approached the spookiest night of the year. Listen here for the ease but you'll want to go check this episode out on Youtube if you can! So many visuals! 

    My Story

    Play Episode Listen Later Oct 28, 2021 84:03


    Content warning: suicidal ideation right at the hour mark. I share a little bit more about my life and how different experiences throughout have shaped who I am today. My hope is that understanding me a little better will give clarity to some of my positions and approaches to different topics. It's a cliff's notes version but here is my story.

    Therapy and The Church: Do They Mix?

    Play Episode Listen Later Oct 21, 2021 65:27


    Welcome back for season 3! Join me and a friend as we discuss how therapy saved us and why the church might discourage you from seeking care for your mental health.

    the HERetics - September 2021

    Play Episode Listen Later Sep 30, 2021 77:21


    September's episode is full of unicorns, April's Wheel of Impressions, and more! Don't understand? Us either but it was fun! 

    Purity Culture Finale

    Play Episode Listen Later Sep 16, 2021 10:17


    Just a quick wrap up of the purity culture series, a thank you for the hard work you did this season, and a little info on the future of The Recovering Evangelical. 

    Purity Culture Part 9

    Play Episode Listen Later Sep 9, 2021 71:58


    Note: Some sound issues - echoes, etc. Sorry in advance!  The church creates a vicious cycle of victim turned victimizer. We've unpacked a lot of our trauma at the hands of purity culture. But how do we unpack the hurt we inflicted on others because of purity culture?  My guest, Abbey Smith, talks about going from abstinence educator to sex positive pastor. It's a journey of undoing we're all on, but isn't it worth it? 

    Purity Culture Part 8

    Play Episode Listen Later Sep 2, 2021 59:57


    @Puritytopolyamory joins me on today's episode to discuss ethical non-monogamy and how she went from purity culture and getting married at 19 to finding her peace in polyamory. Unpacking and healing from purity culture is hard for all of us. No matter where we fall, there's an unlearning of shame for wanting what we were told was wrong. Listen along with an open mind as she shares her story. 

    The HERetics Episode 1

    Play Episode Listen Later Aug 30, 2021 98:09


    It's our very first episode of The HERetics! Come find out who we are, what we're all about, and why we're doing this. Content warning: we will potentially be discussing Pray Away - the Netflix documentary. We understand that conversion therapy may be a difficult topic for some to hear. We will do our best to give a heads up on this episode before we discuss it.

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