Sacred Halt

Today, I offer you peace. Today, I offer you silence. Today, I offer you a quiet place. Today, I offer you a disconnection from the chaotic energies hijacking our attention and tromping our emotions underfoot. Today... we collectively breathe. Today... we collectively pause. Today... we collectively halt. Now... we are here. Now ... we have one another. Now... our heart's join. Tomorrow comes soon enough. Today... I offer us...peace. Sacred Halt

Sacred Halt's usher us into a landscape of change! Sacred Halt's usher us into a demand to create a 'new' change within ourselves. The act of having been 'betrayed' is a very real, researched reality of our life within a "life crisis." I found this work by a Dr. Debi Sibler, PBTInsitiute.com, around 8 month's ago and it has shone a bright light onto my future path of change and try, try, try again. I want to share this gold-nugget with all of the listeners. Betrayal knows no bounds. Please check out Dr. Debi Silber's Ted Talk found on YouTube: https://youtu.be/iyqOR69dHiU, and her research/program/ self-test on her website: https://thepbtinstitute.com. Her book's can be found on Amazon: https://www.amazon.com/Unshakable-Woman-Steps-Rebuilding-Crisis. Whether your own story has delivered loss, grief, and betrayal within any category of WTF, this information will help you as it has helped me, to begin to re-establish your own unique identity within and after a T-in-the-road, a Sacred Halt... a 'Life Crisis'. We live in a betrayal of our collective support system on a national and world order. We are in the midst of radical and ongoing changes to no choice of our own. A Sacred Halt allow's us to settle into our moment of WTF, and begin to re-establish within the new identity which has begun. Thank you for finding your way to me. You are my tribe, and I need you during this walk of changing, yet, again! Sacred Halt.

I do not have many words for you today. I find myself silenced. I find myself discombobulated. I find myself angry; disregarded; dismissed; and... ghosted. I find myself tired, exhausted, extinguished, and evaporating into some kind of mystical ether. I... give you little today because I too have been bankrupted of my internal higher functioning abilities. I am here. You are there. And, we are connected. Sacred Halt. Damnit. Fuck it. Shit. ... enough... enough... enough... We. Move. Forward.

Today, as change crawl's upon your lap, settle's into comfort and tells you the story of how you found yourself ‘here' and how you must allow and consider this moment in time, I want you to know: vulnerability will wage a war between you and YOU. A war which must be endured. Vulnerability will chisel your inner person as Michelangelo was commissioned to sculpt the Pieta; “the heart's image.” Vulnerability will chisel, sweep off the dust of the unneeded, and polish your life into something beautiful. Sacred Halt come's to change us. Sacred Halt is not “sacred” upon arrival. It can become sacred within its capability and demand to refine, redraft and create within our life story something worthy of reflection and foundation to build upon as life continues to move forward. The moment of halt becomes sacred… in time. Today… as you ponder your own halt at the T-in-the-road of your life event, I warn you: vulnerability will bring you to your knees. Today… as you consider the rebuilding within the aftermath of a sacred halt, vulnerability has come to reclaim your new identity. She has come to escort you into the new chapter of your life. Today… continue to provide a place for vulnerability to reside. A place for her to pull up a chair, and sit at her feet as she tells you how in the world you got to where you may find yourself, and tell you how in the world to navigate life from this point forward. She will! She does!! I walk beside you in this effort. To you. To me. To us. All things pass away; All things do become new. We travel together through this life of vulnerability, fears and unknowns. We NEVER, EVER walk alone. Sacred Halt

To you, Mother's everywhere, the journey we have embarked will absolutely change who we once were into who we will become. And, this journey will ALWAYS demand of us another effort to reincarnate from the type of mother we have been into the type of mother will need to become. From birth to toddler-hood; from toddler hood to per-school; from pre-school to elementary school; from elementary school to middle school; from middle school to high school; from high school to young adult; from young adult to their adulthood; from their dependence to their independence. From their security, stability and fortitude into a separateness from ourselves into their self identities of who they are apart from us. Then, as life rolls on down the slow-moving-river of our life, we will find ourselves more of a spectator than a participant. Yet, even in these life changes of their own, we will see ourselves having morphed and reincarnated into yet another version of who we have become. Sacred Halt. To the Mother's out there. What a wild, wild ride this world has to offer us. Deep Breath… the ride is never over.

How ARE you doing, out there.... seriously... I'd like to know! It has been TWO consistent weeks of my posting to this Podcast, and I have to tell you: I am proud! Consistency... within and following Sacred Halt moment's and T-in-the-road-life-event's which change us, flies away. Consistency... is difficult when we are embodied within a response mode of fight, flight and freeze. Consistency seems to evade our very capabilities. We cannot be consistent when life is changing. Yet, consistency is a quality one needs more than other's when life has become an evaporated floor beneath our feet. When our life is demanding of us, we no longer have a well tread path to meander down... we are now lurking into an overgrown, mud-filled path of our life. We struggle. We are on foreign ground... suddenly... and consistency is not a tool in our life toolbox of usable qualities. Consistency.... it will return to you. Consistency ... it will show up. Until it return's, I want you to know: it is normal! What you are living through is felt within every soul going through a Sacred Halt. What you are feeling will not kill you, though you may feel this may be better than the endurance and struggle to regain a safe place. What you are sensing within yourself is a sacredness establishing itself within the very body, mind and soul of who you were, are and will become. It IS a process. It is a journey. You are safe here. You are loved, wanted and needed... so, please, hang on! I'm so glad we found one another! I'll talk at you tomorrow!

Today… I offer you our collective sacred halt. Our collective change in our world as it once had been. Our collective time to breathe, readjust; to adapt and welcome what is to be. Deep breath. Focus on the new identification of who we will become. For change is a promise. Change is what this life consistently offers. Change is where we each find ourselves on most given day's. And, there is where our Sacred Halt's remind us to halt, and allow the moment to become a sacred moment. I know these word's fill our mind with something which does not make rational sense. Let me tell you something: When a Sacred Halt moment in time comes, it is anything but rational. It is esoteric in nature. It is bewildering, foreign and unsettling to the way we once knew. It is a demand to readjust; to realign; to reincarnate into the net version of our life. Stay in this moment. Stay in this energy. Stay in this mindset. Sacred Halt's has an important message to downloaded into our body, mind and spirit. We are changing. And, we either do, or we don't. Sacred Halt.

To my dad. Thank you for all you lived through, gave, went without and the struggles within yourself you tackled. I know your life wasn't easy. I know your life was a challenge. I will forever be grateful for all the work you did to help me see the man you wanted to be. I love you, miss you and rock in your rocking chair most every day. To dad. Much love.

~We've come to understand a Sacred Halt to be that specific moment when a suddenness, an abruptness of change and surprise enters our life. You are enough. You are safe. You are exactly where life has brought you to be. You are not alone. You are on a journey of probability. You are an energetic being. You have and will encounter numerous Sacred Halt's within your lifetime. Your Sacred Halt's will demand all things to pass away as they once had been, and all things will become new. You have permission to halt. You have permission to find the sacredness in this point of time. You have permission to remain within your Sacred Halt as long as you need to re-balance, recognize yourself again and regain a vision for living the newness again. Your Sacred Halt's will never end; they will always be yet, another new beginning of a new identity of who you are and will be. Your Sacred Halt will change the inner-you as dramatically as you may physically watch the outer-you change as time marches onward. Your neurobiology has changed. The very 'you' you once knew has changed on a cellular level of biology. Your reluctance to keep trying will be tangible. You will be asked of your Sacred Halt, "what holds me to my Sacred Halt?" Your focus and identification of the new-you will be difficult to accept and recognize; who am I, now? You see within yourself what no one else will ever see: and, a Sacred Halt will demand this change and re-identification. Take your time. You are safe. You are not alone. The world IS here with you. ~Sacred Halt

Focus: identifying a predictable step to take in order to achieve a desirable outcome of our choosing. Sacred Halt's come and change our identities. Period. We could stop this right here: We Change! What once was; is no more... as it had always been, before our Sacred Halt's. We have an subconscious incapability to identify this new identity within ourselves upon a Sacred Halt. This process takes time. And, by 'takes time' I mean: there AIN'T no predicted process to our individual journey's. "All things have passed away, and all things have become new." As I attempt to focus and identify my premises of this writing and creative process, and learn the use of multi-media platforms, I must be forgiving of this part inside of myself of which no one may know... except me. And, I must be kind to myself. I have changed multiple times within my lifetime now; I have changed multiple times within every Sacred Halt I've been mandated to endure. I KNOW my physical person is aging. I see her getting old, grey and wrinkles forming. I know my physical endurance has changed. I know my priority of what my physical appearance must be has changed. AND... ...now... I must know my 'insides'; my emotional; my spiritual and my mental person's, have changed as well. Now... I must understand THIS person of which no one may see other than myself; I must allow her the time and support of herself to herself to... succeed at her own pace; to succeed at her own rhythm to her life. Today, for you, I give you time. Time to form understanding; time to form your new recognition of your new identity upon, during and after the Sacred Halt's this life has given. I know you know. I know, you know, I know that we know: We. Got. This. We got this... in our own individual time frames. Welcome to Sacred Halt. Allow. Encourage. Embrace. Learn to accept. Take your fuck*n time as long as you need! I'll see you tomorrow!

WHAT does today's economic instability have to do with my Sacred Halt's? WHY begin again? WHY invest time and energy into a dream? WHY invest time and energy into a new beginning? Maybe THAT is the 50-million dollar question within each and every Sacred Halt. Once I begin to go out again after a Sacred Halt, there is a reluctance; a reluctance to step forward. There is a fear I encounter which disables my capability to try... Should I try? Should I tray again? Why? Why? Our brains give us memory. Our brains use the moments of trauma; of sudden change; of once-was and is no more to provide us information of what may occur... again... IF we try... again. I do not want what has happened at the T in my life path to occur... again. I feel as IF I would never live through certain Sacred Halt's again... I ask you, as I simultaneously ask myself: WHAT holds me... WHAT holds you to my; to your; Sacred Halt? We. Are. Here. I will talk at you tomorrow. Much appreciation to you... and to myself, for continuing onward. We can do this. Sacred Halt.

What do you identify as? What do you identify with? Who are you? WOW... those are loaded questions, no?! From our youngest years, throughout our lifetimes of generations, we morph and change, we know this clearly as years accumulate. Our bodies grow older. Our minds grow fuller. Our spirituality grounds and deepens. Our emotional life connects us to our deepest self. Yet, we continue to glean cues of 'who am I ' and 'what am I' ... we seek validation of 'who and what' we are in the formation of how we answer these questions to ourselves of ourselves. We glean validation from the responses of other's. Sacred Halt's change us. Sacred Halt's morph us into a new identity we often cannot recognize during the first hand experience's of our own Sacred Halt's. We begin to absorb the responses of those we have called 'mine' during the metamorphosis of this period of time; the time in which we 'halt' and 'morph'. During a Sacred Halt we need time to adjust. We need time to shed the 'old' and accept and acknowledge the 'new'. Yet, life doesn't work this way: Life, here, just a keeps on rollin'. You are changing. You are becoming someone you will not recognize. You are never going back to who you once were. You have evolved; good or bad, positive or negative; Sacred Halt's birth us into a new being of sort. For today, recognize your Sacred Halt's may have been designed to take you into the new without having being asked IF you were prepared. From my experience, you were not prepared; and, this can piss a person off... for years! That's okay, I simply ask you to breathe and... halt... and, begin to recognize the Sacred Halt of that moment in your life. Enough for today! So glad we found one another! Sacred Halt. See you tomorrow.

Sacred Halt's never end. They change our identities. We enter into a newness of which often we were not in search of. Regardless, there it is. The familiar, the used-to-be has vanished and all things have become new. Tomorrow promises another chance to acclimate. A new day to begin again! Sacred Halt

I give you permission today to remain within your Sacred Halt. You have found yourself where time, this infinite element of life, has halted. Our brain has been slowed to a slugs pace; our reactions to life have become muffled and mute; Our speech has become littered with anger, sadness, upset, memories and love seems to seep between two intergalactic realms. WE suddenly see with our soul. We suddenly see with our spirits. We suddenly see with hyper-acuity the details of our surroundings. The world seems to have become a pseudo LSD trip. For now, you may accept where you find yourself within the evolution of you. Here, within a Sacred Halt. Quiet down cobwebs, dust go to sleep. For I'm resting in my changes. And, changes never keep. Sacred Halt.

Sacred Halt is a T in the road of life. We each come to a T in our personal road in our life. We stop. We are given a choice to make a right-hand turn or a left-hand turn. We are not given an option of slowing our gait, to creep through the T at a crawl and to proceed moving straight to continue as we had before ... the T in the road of our life. Before the T in the road of our life jumped out, demanded we stomp the brakes demanding the trajectory cease; locked the seat-belt holding us into our life as we had known it, and launched our mind, heart and soul into an alternative reality of shock, numb and disbelief. Suddenly, the life path we had once came to rely upon to show up, was recognized as familiar and expected, could be depended upon to offer depression, fulfillment or simply another dog-eat-dog mentality of living was obsolete. The life path we had once known was gone. Gone like a morning fog over a country side farm land on an early morning sunrise. Just gone. Gone. Gone. Gone. At a Sacred Halt, a T in the road of life, all things pass away. And, all things become new. It is just this simple. A Sacred Halt. Today, you have permission to recognize the halting at your T in your life path. I give you permission to recognize, consider and act upon the directive to halt. You can just stop. You can just not move forward for today. You can begin to take care of nothing. You can begin to be responsible for no one. You can simply stop, drop and roll onto your back and look high into the blue, day sky, the cloudy, midday sky or the start-littered night sky. You can lay down, connect to our Earth and simply, for today, let go. I give you permission, so, now, you may give yourself permission. Some of us will never recover from our Sacred Halt's. Some of us will never find the new version of our self. Some will live the remainder of a lifetime at this Halt. Does this make it less Sacred? No. It doesn't. Nothing can make our halt's less Sacred. Your life, my life, has one goal: to be lived. They don't have to be productive. They don't have to be successful. They don't have to resonate accomplishment. They don't need to have won any badge, honor or medal. They don't have to have a Podcast, a blog, a Tik-Tok following of a million viewers. They don't have to impress, convince, manipulate nor manage anyone, anything or any project of sort. Nope. Sacred Halt's WILL find their way into your life. Sacred Halt's WILL be known. ~Sacred Halt. Welcome.

Sacred Halt was birthed years ago now. It came to me as I had encountered traumatic events. I've learned many new things having lived through the events. They each made me STOP in my living tracks and told me, "YOU, girl, ain't goin' nowhere!" Was this uncomfortable? That ain't even the word for it! These events in each of their own unique way taught me life wasn't always up to me. Often, life was about what happened to me. These are two different perspective's of living a life. Here, at Sacred Halt we will walk through Grief, Loss and Betrayal together. Though none of these would be a purposed invite to crawl into my life path, and let me learn from their pain. No. These three come uninvited. These three come with an active purpose to change identity. "And, all things will pass away; all things become new." ~Bible somewhere in there. Grief, Loss and Betrayal each CHANGE our own identity. We become... something new. The idea and word 'new' seems to hold a connotation which refers to 'good', 'shiny', and 'unscathed' YET, 'new' can completely indicate simply a 'different from the old'. And, I consider, this may be what life brings for each of us to consider, accept, embrace and... learn. Or, not. Thing is: none have to do any or all. No one HAS to change. And, this is sometimes a 'thing' to accept as well. And, here within lies the portion of a 'Sacred Halt'. The moments in time within our own life when... one refuse's. We STOP. We... just wait it all out; to settle; to catch our breath or maybe, even, to find our breath again! Sacred Halt~ Welcome. I am delighted I found you and you found me!

Welcome back!! A Sacred Halt has been a concept within me for years now. It is a term I've coined to those point's in my life of which a 'T' in my path-of-life seemed to just pop out of thin air. JUST when life seemed to settle; become familiar, and I was simply at a beginning of getting used to it; a choice would be made which included MY LIFE and BAM... SLAM... sobbing on a kitchen floor with a half-eaten gallon of butter pecan ice cream nearby; my doggies enjoying my sorrow-filled emotional melt-downs as they lapped up more of my ice cream than I; I began to see: Life was offering me a Sacred Halt of sorts. Did I like these 'Sacred Halt's'... hell to the 'no'... I'm not sure I even recognized anything as 'sacred' or gave one rat's ass about a 'halting'.... hell, I was plowing my way through ice cream and quite honestly, I was dazed and confused. Yet, I did write. And, I wrote a lot. And, now... years later, I can see: the Sacred Halt's I've come to... minimally accept and consider. Welcome! Day 3. These are intended to be short and sweet! Because, Life is short and sweet! I ain't no grammar Queen, and I do cuss... so, IF you can dealio with these faults of mine, well... I can already tell: we will be friends! Come and join me!

Sacred Halt, Season 1, Ep. 2 and... here I... we... go!! Every, and I do mean EVERY, new day brings a NEW way. And, sometimes the 24 hours day can become more than a simple 24-hours of time. Sometimes life brings us... stuff. Mostly, life brings us a lot of 'stuff'... and, today, here... for just a second, or two... let's.... give this relationship a go! I'm open if you are? Welcome! Settle in! Grab something to drink or, not! And, let's just chat for a few! Let's together take a 'Sacred Halt' and .... yeah! you're gettin' the idea!

The beginning of this project started YEARS ago now. I've captured my life between the inklings and paper-pages of many a journal; stuffed inside a decorated hat-box of sorts... The ONE thing I've understood leafing through the years of my living's is: we are all so different; and, we are so much the same. So, I need ear's to hear my stuff. I need to hear my own voice. I need you to come along with me. I CAN promise, the content will be all about me. I can also guarantee, you will find YOU inside my life journey as well. Sacred Halt was a concept birthed 10 years ago now. I needed to HALT. I needed to stop ALL the noise, busy-busy, input/output. I needed... I knew not what. I simply knew I was in NEED. So, it seemed appropriate for me to gather myself, and find a place & space to settle into what I refer to as a 'Sacred Halt' of sort's. Welcome! IF you find yourself in need as well, welp, you found a friend in me. Let's do this!!