Magic And Mistakes

There is only so much you can run away from Escape. I wish I could resist. But just when you think you can move on, the memories of the ghosts of the past show their ugly face. To You. To Who I used to be. To that myth that existed. Once upon a time. .The story: http://disgruntledmob.blogspot.com/2013/10/to-silhouettes.html?m=1 #ConfrontingGhosts #NostalgicNarrative #ExplorerOfHumanCondition #BittersweetLifeJourney #TheStoriesWeBecome --- Send in a voice message: https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/magicandmistakes/message

Book: BEARTOWN Chapters: 28-30 Truths and Consequences. Why do we do it? To say our truth Or Hold our peace? And who pays the price? Insta: @whatsavesmefromdrowning --- Send in a voice message: https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/magicandmistakes/message

Book: Fredrick Backman Chapter: 26-27 The Aftermaths. The decisions. The gut feelings. And everything in between. --- Send in a voice message: https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/magicandmistakes/message

Book: BEARTOWN Author: Fredrick Backman Chapter: 22-25 First betrayals. Best Friends. Violence. Emotions that are petty and seem so unimportant yet things that make sure your life will never ever again be the same. And the fear. And the abandonment. And the last happy memory that you keep hating yourself for before everything goes to hell. Spotify Playlist: https://open.spotify.com/playlist/0T2o6K9zX78F9mJ5JRTesd?si=_7cEgznwTeixwA7TRsOnKA Insta: https://instagram.com/whatsavesmefromdrowning?igshid=YmMyMTA2M2Y= --- Send in a voice message: https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/magicandmistakes/message

Book: BEARTOWN Author: Frederick Backman. Chapter: 19-21 A celebration. Young Love. Social Pecking Order. The innocence of childhood. And the night it all ends. Insta: @whatsavesmefromdrowning --- Send in a voice message: https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/magicandmistakes/message

I AM SORRY! I know it's been long due. I am not abandoning this story, I swear! Book: BEARTOWN Author: Frederick Backman. Chapter: 16-18 Incomprehensible Luck. Or?! A once in a million chance? Does a game change or the people playing it do? Can you be a part of the team without being the part of a game? What does SACRIFICE really look like? What does LONELINESS? Or ABANDONMENT? What does stealth of one's life do? And what does any of this have to do with the story? #tellmewhatyouthink Spotify Playlist for ALL EPISODES: https://open.spotify.com/playlist/0T2o6K9zX78F9mJ5JRTesd?si=uu5W6c_kSru5skCmUjpoqg --- Send in a voice message: https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/magicandmistakes/message

Book: Beartown Author: Frederick Backman Chapter: 14-15 Only moments, ha? But what is life anyway? Apart from moments?

Of how much worth are tiny dreams? What does it take for something to become your primal fear? What does it mean to be a lion amongst bears? What does it mean when they talk about sacrifice? --- Send in a voice message: https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/magicandmistakes/message

Book: BEARTOWN Author: Frederick Backman. Chapters 9-10 What does it mean to have to have the BEAR inside you? What are those stories... the ones that are often told but mostly the ones that you always keep inside you that made you who you are? Your deepest darkest fall and what made it possible for you to crawl out to the surface? Instagram: @whatsavesmefromdrowning --- Send in a voice message: https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/magicandmistakes/message

Book: BEARTOWN Author: Frederick Backman. Chapters 6-8. Things big and small can make you love being the part of a team. Why? because it's not just a game. IT'S LIFE There are people involved. And a game that either makes or breaks them. Almosts. The reasons. The principles. And why one stays or leaves. Instagram: @whatsavesmefromdrowning --- Send in a voice message: https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/magicandmistakes/message

Book: BEARTOWN Author: Frederick Backman. Chapters 4-5 We met the town last time. Let's meet the people now. Atleast the few that are the most important players in this story. Not all of them. But most. It's a little long but what the hell, get on board already. Insta: @whatsavesmefromdrowning --- Send in a voice message: https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/magicandmistakes/message

Book: BEARTOWN    Author: Frederick Backman. Chapter 1-3. I am obsessed with this story. With this Town. With the people. They feel like my people. I almost live there. Atleast in my head. Even though I HATE the cold and Beartown is a town in the middle of the forest where it's a surprise if the sun shines and it's temperature is usually  30 degrees below 0.  And Hockey? What the hell do I know about Hockey? Welcome to Beartown          Instagram: @whatsavesmefromdrowning --- Send in a voice message: https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/magicandmistakes/message

Book: The Parisian ~Isabella Hammad I don't know what love is supposed to sound like. But I do know what longing sounds like. Come back. Hold me. Let's try and undo everything that went wrong. I miss you. The silence will be the end of me. Say something, anything. Please don't keep me hanging. If it is goodbye let's have a proper farewell. Longing spills out in words and somehow being present in letters makes it more heart piercing. Can you see? I love you. Will you come back? Instagram: https://instagram.com/whatsavesmefromdrowning?igshid=YmMyMTA2M2Y=. Facebook:https://www.facebook.com/What-Saves-Me-From-Drowning-108168628251022/ YouTube: https://youtube.com/c/AadyaDube Background music via https://www.FesliyanStudios.com --- Send in a voice message: https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/magicandmistakes/message

Words become irrelevant. Feelings can be made redundant. Silence Scares. Silence Suffocates. Silence is your only companion. Silence is where you hide when all the words fail. I'm tired of explaining. I surender. --- Send in a voice message: https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/magicandmistakes/message

I had a lot of ideas. For the episodes. And then life happened. Yet again. More intensely than the last time. Words and Sentiments and I are presently on a break. I also had a blog. Since 2008. Which I deleted last year. I know, I'm an idiot. Am trying to recover all of that and thus found a lot of things I had written wayy back when! That's what is in these episodes.I am technically challenged and wordpress is too damb complicated for me, but these are the links to the two in this episode.  Yours Truly: https://esotericmystica.wordpress.com/2015/10/03/yours-truly/  The Missing Piece : https://esotericmystica.wordpress.com/2013/07/07/the-missing-peace/  Thank you for listening, share, follow, rate and review (Come On. It's not that big of a task, okay?) And let me know if you have anything to say, good, bad, crazy, everything goes!  Insta: @whatsavesmefromdrowning --- Send in a voice message: https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/magicandmistakes/message

Lana Del Rey,. Music Lyrics. Words. Obsessed. Check Out The Book : Violet Bent Backwards Over the Grass https://www.amazon.in/dp/1982167289/ref=cm_sw_r_apan_glt_fabc_WV3ZSJF5V7YBX6523YX4. Okay. Bye. Thanks. --- Send in a voice message: https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/magicandmistakes/message

Open the clasps of your slight fingers and open your fists, My Love.  For within that palm of your sweet white hand, lies all the passion and desire and the intensity - Want, Hunger, Devotion, Surrender.  My parched lips are trembling with the anticipation of your taste.  Kill Me Now.  And Again and Again, Again,  I pray to all and any God that may hear,  To be born your slave again.  Artist - Muse , Muse - Artist Even though you can neither remember or believe, It doesn't mean it wasn't You. I Walk With Me? https://creativecommons.org/licenses/by/4.0/ Memories by MaxKoMusic | https://maxkomusic.com/ Music promoted by https://www.chosic.com/free-music/all/ Creative Commons Attribution-ShareAlike 3.0 Unported (CC BY-SA 3.0) https://creativecommons.org/licenses/by-sa/3.0/ --- Send in a voice message: https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/magicandmistakes/message

What's there to say? If this was the last thing I said, Would You Hear Then? Letters to Death if you will. Who knows what's there tomorrow. If there is one. Listen, Don't Listen, Peace Out. Music: https://www.chosic.com A Time Forgotten by Darren Curtis | https://www.darrencurtismusic.com/ Music promoted on https://www.chosic.com/ Creative Commons Attribution 3.0 Unported (CC BY 3.0) https://creativecommons.org/licenses/by/3.0/ --- Send in a voice message: https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/magicandmistakes/message

You see faces. Around and About. All the time. People? Or Shadows? Did you hear the screams calling out your name? Are the voices real? Are you real? Or are you Dead? Is this Hell? With the help of a master in horror story telling, let's ease into the world where hallucinations are more real than actual people. Welcome, to my nightmares! I wish I could ask you to stay, But my ghosts don't like your fucking face. Let's drink to the Dead. The Lucky Bastards Who Managed to E S C A P E Music: They Come At Night by Shane Ivers - https://www.silvermansound.com Music: Dark Side Of Mars by Shane Ivers - https://www.silvermansound.com Music: Skeleton Carnival by Shane Ivers - https://www.silvermansound.com --- Send in a voice message: https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/magicandmistakes/message

Change is constant. It is The only thing you can count on. Everyone and everything changes. But what brings out all the shades of You in a quick succession? Let's get back to the Victorian World of The Picture of Dorian Gray and find out. The decadent and vain world, curing the soul by the senses, and wandering into the dark side. When you reach the ending, --- Send in a voice message: https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/magicandmistakes/message

Written in 1890, Oscar Wilde's A Picture of Dorian Gray, is surprisingly hitting the nerve for whatever shitstorm the world is right now. Navigate the rollercoaster of emotions with simple life lessons that make things simple and acceptable? Music Courtesy: Art of silence by uniq https://soundcloud.com/uniqofficial Attribution 4.0 International (CC BY 4.0) https://creativecommons.org/licenses/by/4.0 Music promoted by https://www.chosic.com Eternal Sleep by Darren Curtis | https://www.darrencurtismusic.com/ Music promoted by https://www.chosic.com/ Creative Commons Attribution 3.0 Unported License https://creativecommons.org/licenses/by/3.0/ Music: https://www.chosic.com Music: https://www.chosic.com --- Send in a voice message: https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/magicandmistakes/message

Today, I make this podcast finally more mine. I write. When the thoughts in my head, can't be contained, I spill them out on paper. There is no how or why. It just is. I feel too much and maybe that sucks but I hope maybe my words, mean something to you too :) Links to the stories 1) Wonderland, Please Wait, Don't Go! https://esotericmystica.blogspot.com/2021/06/wonderland-please-wait-dont-go.html 2) Meow - https://www.instagram.com/p/CIHVgUOJWAB/?utm_medium=copy_link 3) Serendipity - https://esotericmystica.blogspot.com/2021/03/serendity.html Background Music Credits! Music from Uppbeat (free for Creators!): https://uppbeat.io/t/northwestern/hometown License code: MBI8HZT8DB2P028X Music from Uppbeat (free for Creators!): https://uppbeat.io/t/ilya-kuznetsov/serenity License code: KYRY2FHSJHMFOYHJ Music from Uppbeat (free for Creators!): https://uppbeat.io/t/danijel-zambo/silhouette License code: FQBIYJ4UWWJBKR8P Music from Uppbeat (free for Creators!): https://uppbeat.io/t/brock-hewitt-stories-in-sound/through-darkness License code: 3EKY2HHEIGPKW425 --- Send in a voice message: https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/magicandmistakes/message

I sincerely wish. I do. To flip the switch. To not feel. The seriously messed up times we are living in, I think most of us want to do the same. Would it not be so convenient? So I tried to find my chaotic feelings in the words of others. That is what this episode is. Poetry, that you may connect to if you think you cannot put them on words your self. The poems that appear in order of appearance is :- 1) If You Forget Me - Pablo Neruda 2) War - James Peterson 3) Memorial - Norman Mccaig 4) I Feel a Funeral in My Head - Emily Dickinson 5) What Abandonment Looks Like- Aadya 6) Things - Fleur Adcock 7) Trouble is Not My Middle Name - Liz Locchead I hope, after this, you too believe that you are not alone. Music from Uppbeat (free for Creators!): https://uppbeat.io/t/ilya-kuznetsov/collision License code: BAVH3ZMWJ0MUPFC5 --- Send in a voice message: https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/magicandmistakes/message

Play it as it lays by Joan Didion - What the hell is wrong with you? You know what? You actually love being this way. Why can't you just be, normal? I want to understand but don't repeat the same shit again. Please. You, god damn, you are the fucking problem!! Nothing else. Not the world, not other people, you and the mess you create in your head. Does it sound familiar? There are times when you feel guilty. For feeling what you are feeling. Wondering what is wrong with you! Till it doesn't. Till Numbness takes over. And you aren't even sure if you are alive. --- Send in a voice message: https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/magicandmistakes/message

Love is an infinite loop. Isn't it? This tiny fist size organ in our chests beating drumming humming creates so much chaos in our heads. We all have been there. Rising in love, falling in love, swearing to never do it, not being able to help it either. 9 Chambered Hearts by Janice Pariat is a book that turns love inside out, like shards of glass that could glitter in a kaleidoscope or stab you to the heart. --- Send in a voice message: https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/magicandmistakes/message

Eleven Minutes. The only book of of Paulo Coelho that I love. You only find yourself when you push past your own limits. Life has always had a very despicable sense of humour. Hasn't it? Ride Along, and lets find out! Shall We? --- Send in a voice message: https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/magicandmistakes/message

This comes with a lot of nostalgia. The Highs And Lows, Anger and Despair, Anxiety and Abandonment, Depression and Desire and Hope and Panic and Getting Lost In A Haze and Mixing the Reality With Imagination, Addictions and Wants and Needs, of You. For You. Of Me and Just Me. This is a messed up book with an equally messed up movie and a soundtrack that would hypnotize you and keep you entrapped. Be Careful. --- Send in a voice message: https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/magicandmistakes/message

More often than I would want, too many emotions creeps into my heart and head and make me anxious and I can't breath. When this happen, I find solace in words, words that I know. And I fall back into the lap of Sylvia Plath, the mirror to my chaos. I hope she pacifies a little bit of your fears too :) After all we have to find whatever keeps her afloat from somewhere. --- Send in a voice message: https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/magicandmistakes/message

When lovers have to sound elite, they are often found quoting Rumi. But do we actually understand what his idea of love is~ With this episode, let me burst a little bubble of misconception about Rumi. To understand the madness of love of Rumi and Shams refer to these books: a) Elif Shafak - The Forty Rules of Love b) A Mirrored Life - Rabishankar Bal and for the selected Rumi Poetry you should definitely read c) The Essential Rumi - Translation by Coleman Barks --- Send in a voice message: https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/magicandmistakes/message

Stephen Chbosky's The Perks of Being a Wallflower is a book that comes out once out of the blue, and change the entire landscape of whatever is going on in the literary world. There are also very very limited movies, that can re-create the essence of a book; from page to page, to frame to frame. The 20th addition of the book came out. And it comes with an astonishingly wonderful surprise. If you are in need of giving or receiving a little bit of hope, and courage and strength and just have or be a good friend, do not miss this. It is amazing what random honest letters can do :) --- Send in a voice message: https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/magicandmistakes/message

Some days just make you feel like crap. It can be any random ridiculous reason that you can think of. Today's one of those days and for some reason I couldn't get this poem or song on whatever you want to call it out of my head so if you are having a crappy day as well, I hope this one makes you feel little bit better

Words strike harsher than a sword. Shouldn't then we be more responsible about them? I am Aadya and this is my little world of words that made me feel. Intensely. --- Send in a voice message: https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/magicandmistakes/message