Child Of: Surviving a Narcissistic Cult

In this episode Joanna begins to explore the sinister messages that the co-dependent parent imparts on their child.

In this episode Joanna does a deep dive on the necessity and the value of anger and how it can revolutionize your healing process.

In this episode Joanna shares about her recently published book, Heavy Water, and the emotional journey that has taken her on. She also shares a bit about a new episode mini-series she is planning to release this summer.

In this episode Joanna shares about her upcoming book publication and encourages listeners to understand their own tenacity and strength.

In this episode Joanna shares some things she has implemented into her life to help heal her body after the stress of growing up being emotionally traumatized by her narcissistic father.

In this episode Joanna shares in detail all the health issues she dealt with growing up that stemmed from the stress of her home environment. She chats about how our health is vitally impacted by our sense of physical and emotional safety.

In this episode Joanna discusses the fundamentals of telling the truth and why it matters how you go about it.

In this episode Joanna chats about how, in healing, you need to call yourself out on your own bad/toxic behaviors or thought processes.

In this episode Joanna discusses how to protect your peace when you are dealing with your narcissistic parent. She also talks about what peace is and what it isn't and how to incorporate the pursuit of it into your practical every day life.

In this episode Joanna delves into the struggle that children of narcissistic parents have with self hate and how the root of that can often be shame.

In this episode Joanna discusses 9 common signs that you are suffering deeply from narcissistic abuse and need to cut ties in order to heal.

In this episode Joanna chats about the upcoming holiday season and the struggles that come with it for adult children of narcissistic parents. She gives several tips for how to navigate saying no to family gatherings and how to deal with the guilt and sadness that inevitably comes with that. --- This episode is sponsored by · Anchor: The easiest way to make a podcast. https://anchor.fm/app

In this episode Joanna chats about how love is defined in our early years by our parents and how when things are defined incorrectly we begin to associate the wrong things with them. Love is not pain, it is not abuse, suffering or trauma. On the contrary, love builds up, it is kind, compassionate and encouraging. She urges her listeners to have a firm definition of love so that they can easily spot and weed out relationships that may be reflecting their childhood trauma and not the healthy relationship that they are striving for. --- This episode is sponsored by · Anchor: The easiest way to make a podcast. https://anchor.fm/app

In this episode Joanna navigates what it is to be the scapegoat of a family and what can happen when you are targeted by your narcissistic parent. --- This episode is sponsored by · Anchor: The easiest way to make a podcast. https://anchor.fm/app

In this episode Joanna goes over the more classic signs of narcissistic abuse. --- This episode is sponsored by · Anchor: The easiest way to make a podcast. https://anchor.fm/app

In this episode Joanna shares some memories of a situation that haunted her for over 4 years & how changing her thought process and asking the right questions gave her the ability to move forward and stop ruminating over old hurts. --- This episode is sponsored by · Anchor: The easiest way to make a podcast. https://anchor.fm/app

In this episode Joanna dives into the details of a recent conversation with her mom that brought up issues of previous and ongoing spiritual abuse. --- This episode is sponsored by · Anchor: The easiest way to make a podcast. https://anchor.fm/app

In this episode Joanna shares the contents of a letter she received from her narcissistic father after several years of no communication. --- This episode is sponsored by · Anchor: The easiest way to make a podcast. https://anchor.fm/app

In this episode Joanna talks about how creating an identity around being a victim can destroy your chances of personal growth and send you into a spiral of bitterness and resentment. --- This episode is sponsored by · Anchor: The easiest way to make a podcast. https://anchor.fm/app

In this episode Joanna speaks on the issue of continued self-abuse after having left an abusive home life and how, after long exposure, you are likely to continue to perpetuate abuse toward yourself. Listen to learn more. --- This episode is sponsored by · Anchor: The easiest way to make a podcast. https://anchor.fm/app

In this episode Joanna explores how our parents relationship with each other creates a template that we find ourselves referring to as adults. --- This episode is sponsored by · Anchor: The easiest way to make a podcast. https://anchor.fm/app

In this episode Joanna discusses why it has become so popular in our society to hate kids and how this can lead to child abuse. She demands that we begin to look at this mentality as the red-flag that it is. Hating anything, especially children who are weak and often times at our mercy, is not cool and should never be a main-stream emotion in any society. --- This episode is sponsored by · Anchor: The easiest way to make a podcast. https://anchor.fm/app

In this episode Joanna shares in detail how her holiday season went, all the challenges she faced and how she navigated them. Tune in to hear the good the bad and the ugly and how to face all these things with grace and self compassion. --- This episode is sponsored by · Anchor: The easiest way to make a podcast. https://anchor.fm/app

In this episodes Joanna shares how she is struggling with the grief that the holidays bring up.  --- This episode is sponsored by · Anchor: The easiest way to make a podcast. https://anchor.fm/app

As the second part of this mini series, Joanna shares the top 5 (its really 6 though) ways she has healed her relationship with God and her spirituality after being spiritually abused by a narcissistic parent. 24 --- This episode is sponsored by · Anchor: The easiest way to make a podcast. https://anchor.fm/app

In this first part of a 2 part series Joanna shares her experience growing up with a religious narcissist for a father and how this combination resulted in on-going spiritual abuse.  --- This episode is sponsored by · Anchor: The easiest way to make a podcast. https://anchor.fm/app

In this episode Joanna shares 5 tips she has picked up over the years to help navigate conversations with a toxic/narcissistic parent. It is no mistake that this episode arrives pre-holiday-season. If you are heading into an especially uncomfortable family dinner/event, this episode is for you. --- This episode is sponsored by · Anchor: The easiest way to make a podcast. https://anchor.fm/app

In this, more intimate episode, Joanna shares in detail about reconnecting with her estranged brother over coffee.  --- This episode is sponsored by · Anchor: The easiest way to make a podcast. https://anchor.fm/app

When the existence of a problem becomes a part of your identity, what happens when healing is offered? In this episode Joanna shares her own experience with this issue of identity and how to move forward and find who you are beyond your suffering.  --- This episode is sponsored by · Anchor: The easiest way to make a podcast. https://anchor.fm/app

In this episode Joanna asks this question: Are you an empath or are you dealing with a symptom of PTSD?  She shares what she's learned this year about this very thing. After years of thinking she was an empath she began to understand her perceptiveness as a trauma response rather than a natural gifting.

In this episode Joanna talks about the realities of domestic violence, warning signs of abusers, as well as current statistics in the USA. She also shares her own experience with DV and how a simple coffee shop flyer woke her up to the reality of her own situation years ago.  --- This episode is sponsored by · Anchor: The easiest way to make a podcast. https://anchor.fm/app

In this episode Joanna shares a very intimate and vulnerable story of how she became addicted to self harm to cope with abuse and neglect as a teenager. Please listen with care and caution if you have struggled with addiction to self harm. This episode may be triggering. --- This episode is sponsored by · Anchor: The easiest way to make a podcast. https://anchor.fm/app

In this episode Joanna taps into the power of affirmation & truth to bring you a humble 6 minutes of pure encouragement. These  words are for those of you who are feeling like you're at the end of your rope. She understand that sometimes, amidst all the self-help, you just need a reminder that you are worthy, loved, seen & able to do hard things.

In this episode Joanna discusses the key factor that she has discovered that not only breaks you out of cult like, fear driven thought process, but also has the power reveal the character of those around you. Hit play to discover this simple but effective tool. --- This episode is sponsored by · Anchor: The easiest way to make a podcast. https://anchor.fm/app

The poem, I Need You To Hold Me, both written & read by Joanna describes the pain that neglect caused in her own life as she grew up. It is vivid & could potentially be a trigger for those who have struggled with self harm addiction.

In this episode Joanna explains why emotional neglect isn't as widely understood as physical neglect and yet how debilitating it can be. She shares some of her own story as it pertains to being neglected as a child and speaks on 3 things that help to heal that wound.

In this episode Joanna shares why she titled this podcast Child Of: Surviving a Narcissistic Cult. She shares pieces of her personal story as she grew up being pushed to conform and assimilate into exactly what her father thought she should be instead of being allowed to grow and learn naturally. She shares how her family put undo stock into a man who, at the end of the day, is just a man, not a god and how she has begun to heal the deep wounds of spiritual abuse. --- This episode is sponsored by · Anchor: The easiest way to make a podcast. https://anchor.fm/app

In this episode Joanna gets very honest about her own journey with codependency. She explains how to tell if you are struggling with this specific expression of trauma and shares 5 simple ways to begin the healing process.

In this Episode Joanna gets intimate about the fears she faced when deciding to start sharing her story more publicly. She also shares what she has learned so far from being authentic about her experiences and her upbringing.

In this episode Joanna discusses 18 things that are on the narcissistic parents unspoken relational contract. It may come across as satire, but that is only because the narcissists relational demands are high, extreme and often ridiculous. Each of these points show just how unhealthy, demanding and one-sided relationships are with a narcissistic parent.

In this episode Joanna discusses how crucial it is to learn who it is that you are. Narcissistic abuse pulls you away from natural self-knowledge and forces you to focus on other peoples needs instead of your own. In order to heal, you must come back to the self and discover who you are, what you want, what you need, and most importantly, who you want to become. Its time to be self(ish).

In this episode Joanna talks about how telling the truth can be a scary thing for the child of a narcissist. She discusses how narcissists punish people for speaking truths that don't align with how the narcissist sees the world and how to pursue honesty as you begin to heal from your abuse.

In this episode Joanna shares when she first realized that she was out of touch with her own basic physical needs. She talks about how growing up with abusive/narcissistic parents can cause you to ignore your own needs in order to stay safe.

In this episode Joanna takes a deep dive into what forgiveness is, and even more importantly, what it is not. She shares stories from her past and explains the role that forgiveness has played in her own healing and transformation.

In this episode Joanna explores the journey of healing your psyche after escaping a narcissistically abusive parent(s). She shares her own personal journey through this and gives insight into what is necessary to truly break your psyche free.

In this final episode of season 1, Joanna speaks about what she sees as the top 3 benefits of going no-contact with a narcissistic parent/family cult. These range from physical wellbeing to breaking toxic behavioral patterns within relationships.

Boundaries are meant to keep us safe and teach people how to love us well. Creating healthy boundaries with family members when there is a narcissist involved is tricky and requires a lot of patience, learning, and hard choices. In the episode Joanna explores the how her own boundaries have fluctuated regarding her biological family and narcissistic father. She gives personal advice on how to honor your own needs while braving the waters of these tough relationships.

In this episode Joanna discusses the intricacies of grief when it comes to going no-contact with narcissistic family members. She offers personal insight into her personal journey with grieving and shares creative ideas as to how to process tough emotions and heal. --- This episode is sponsored by · Anchor: The easiest way to make a podcast. https://anchor.fm/app

In this episode Joanna shares more of her story as it specifically pertains to going no-contact. She talks about what she has learned through the sacrifices that she's had to make and how grief, when it comes to choosing to break contact with an abusive family, brings a very complicated kind of grief. This is just the first of several episodes on this topic of going no-contact. --- This episode is sponsored by · Anchor: The easiest way to make a podcast. https://anchor.fm/app

Growing up with a narcissist is hard. Going out into the world after being raised by one is harder. In this episode I scratch the surface of my personal experience growing up with a narcissistic parent and my desire to give hope to those who, like me, struggle in everyday life situations due to their upbringing. You are not alone. --- This episode is sponsored by · Anchor: The easiest way to make a podcast. https://anchor.fm/app