GOD, GIRL AND A MIC

what do we do when mental health isn't handled correctly in the church? how do we navigate a real diagnosis like generalized anxiety, bipolar disorder, depression? let's chat!

leila opens up about her past desire for a family, and the reality of growing up without her father around. in this episode, leila shares the ways God has shifted her perspective, healed wounds and has brought her deeper into a relationship with Him.

listen in as judah processes through the importance of waiting on God, and recounts memories about the importance of letting God work through his life.

happy new year friends! join my friend sheun as he processes what it looks like to step into his long time desire of being a rapper, and how he has grown through the wrestle of identifying as a rapper.

“don't worry about anything, praying about everything..that's the vibe”. take a journey inside othello's thoughts as he shares past life experiences, talks about his personal desires and career driven desires and what he's learned about God in the process.

mike shares his love for buying properties and making them his own. from allowing the Holy Spirit to guide him to buy one property every two years, to seeing God work through the buying process, mike shares how his desire to continue this process has taught him more about who God is in the midst.

we all have desires: candice recounts moving states, the growing desire for community in Christ during the pandemic, and how she saw Jesus through the midst of it.

we all have desires: listen in as gideon recounts his desire for a career after school, and how the journey challenged him to trust God in the midst.

after my episode with my friend alex, i did some reflecting. here's the part two of an episode that has been a long time coming. in this episode, let's discuss where the lack of respect comes from, how culture shapes our views and why it's important to respect christian men.

sometimes our feelings hit… hard. but does that mean God isn't good?

join my old friend Alex and I in today's episode as he shares his testimony, his insight on putting Christ first in his life, and his thought process on men in the church. you can follow Alex on instagram at @alexandertheblanc. catch his podcast on all streaming platforms "Why Now? with AlexanderTheBlanc".

the desires of our hearts could be to our detriment

let's address the question that really matters… “why should I care”? every growth process starts with a why…

hi friends! there's so much freedom in who Jesus is. He changes every aspect of our being if we allow him. my experience from being freed of 10 years of struggling with sexual sin is definitely a testament to who Jesus is.

my relationship with Christ has been so fulfilling.. me and Him, connecting and spending time together. but what if Jesus is calling me to more than just living in my bubble? what if He is calling me to boldly proclaim His name in a way that only I can?

freedom isn't always all the options…

transition is so weird, and it feels weird. there's soo many reasons I could think to throw transition phases out the window, and sooooo many more reasons I know they need to stay.

because growing actually hurts sometimes

at the end of 2022, I told Jesus he could take my relationships and do whatever he needed to do with them.. here's to processing through growth and challenges that are beyond my control

does physical appearance matter? is it okay to have a physical type when dating? let's talk. 

practicing confrontation is a concept that hasn't really ever occurred to me before I started dating more frequently. within the year I've practice confrontation more and more. it doesn't ever get any easier, but practicing helps me produce an important muscle I need for healthy relationships

hi friends! 2022 has been interesting, and definitely a growing year. here's to some updates on the past few weeks of my life.

an update on my recovery from body image issues and how I'm starting to appreciate the process I'm in of loving my body, losing weight and trusting Jesus in the process.

my ex isn't bad…he's just human. he's not the worst person in the world, he just tried to maneuver our break up in a different way than I did… welcome back into my mind as I reflect on some of the revelations I've had in the past week about a past relationship

some more on the thought process of being more "feminine" and allowing myself to just exist as the creation Jesus made. i feel i can put too much pressure on things at times, and while my feelings matter, the truth matters more- this is really a lesson in trusting Jesus and in trusting that he created me in his image. 

i've just had so many questions about what it means to be a woman recently. do I have to be "soft" at all times? and what is the correct way to be "soft"? I have this longing to be more feminine.. do I need to change who I am to be that way?

shifting our perspective back to Jesus, even when we feel like we have fallen off in our relationships or healing process. Jesus didn't ask for us to be perfect. He is perfect and sanctifies us who are called through relationship.

““The eyes of the Lord are toward the righteous. And His ears are open to their cry.” ‭‭

what are the things keeping you distracted? how can we go deeper with Jesus and turn away from things that keep us occupied?

Jesus is moving my heart to search for him in all I do. John 5 has inspired me to reevaluate my relationship with Jesus. Are we looking for eternal life in scripture or in Jesus?

if you have given your life to Jesus, you have a testimony. not just the moment you met Jesus but how He has transformed your life ever since. sanctification is a continual process, and every season that we go through is an intentional season to point us back to our creator. do you practice your testimony? we should always be reminded that our lives are not our own, but we are meant to represent and to point back to Jesus. without further ado, here's my testimony!

a quick mental process on the idea behind pushing past the walls we create for ourselves and allowing God to show up in spaces we don't trust Him with.

when we read the Bible, are we reading for truth or to feel better? what is our perception of Jesus vs. who Jesus really is? these are some of the thoughts I've had to process and wrestle with in the past few years.

acts was really good, like really really good and it challenged me in ways i didn't expect... let me explain why i've started reaching for my bible more in the past few weeks.

it's awesome to dedicate your life to Jesus…but how do you hear Him when He's speaking?

my expectations for dating have shifted and I really believe there's another way to do this…with Jesus in the middle.

the podcast name has changed! here's to better things in relationship with Jesus, better things in relationships with people and community, and better things in relationship with myself.

Nov 21,2021: I'm sitting here crying as I write this description. there are a lot of things I've been grieving this year and my past recent romantic relationship has been big one. feeling has been one of the hardest things for me in the past couple months. I've been feeling too much, all the time. I'm overstimulated and emotionally burnt out. letting go of things from your past is a healthy practice, and I have decided to do that. wherever I end up next, whoever comes or goes in my life, is not in my control. Here's things I've learned, self reflections, self doubts and some realizations about life and the people in it. 

let's talk about it…

loneliness has been one hot topic of discussion on my podcast in the past. I've tried to understand how to conquer it, and how to feel less lonely. today I think I'm realizing I don't have to fight so much to feel less lonely, rather embrace the process of going through it.

another car talk! “if he wanted to he would…”. trust me when I say I'm talking to myself on this one too.

an impromptu thought process about growth in Jesus and the progress in the process of growing to be more like Christ.

hi! cheers to the first episode of the new year! the last episode of my podcast was so dreary and lacking of life that I knew I needed to bring more light and positivity in this episode. I'm still healing and focusing on Jesus as I navigate life but one thing has stood out to me this year, and I am praying I don't forget that gratitude brings me more joy in my walk with Christ than anything else. I hope you find some joy along your journey in life today and if not, here's to being faithful that you will continue even when it's hard. 

Hi friends. I haven't checked in, in a couple of months. New things have happened over the past four months and I've decided to finally pick up a mic again and connect my emotions and brain the only way I know how. Here are some updates on life in the past couple of months. 

Hi friends! It has been a bit of a minute! Lately, this growth process of letting Jesus guide my relationships with others has taken a new direction. I've been processing where I fit in to other people's lives. This has pushed me to push past internal walls to communicate and advocate for myself in relationships with other people. Here are some of my thoughts on what it's like to find where you fit in, and how to be okay with where you are.

Hi friends! Let's get into the random mix of thought processes in my mind and how they all possibly relate. One thing I have learned is that even underdeveloped thought processes are worth talking through. It's okay to not have everything sorted out. I don't always have pretty words to say, but I do know that processing my emotions out loud sure does help me gain more understanding. Hope y'all enjoy this week!