Podcasts about surviving my past

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The official definition of Borderline Personality Disorder, as outlined by the National Institute of Mental Health: Borderline personality disorder is a mental illness marked by an ongoing pattern of varying moods, self-image, and behavior. These symptoms often result in impulsive actions and problems in relationships. People with borderline personality disorder may experience intense episodes of anger, depression, and anxiety that can last from a few hours to days.Jody Betty is a Certified Crisis Responder and a Trauma-Informed Peer Support mentor. She is a survivor of trauma and multiple suicide attempts and lives with BPD. She is also a blogger and podcast host, and her work as a mental health advocate with Sick Not Weak, is well documented through her writing and social media presence.Jody is a returning guest on Beyond Your Past Radio. She joined us back on episode 109, where she talked about some of her survivor story and life as a survivor. You can listen to that episode here or on your favorite podcasting app. She also wrote a blog piece a few years back, on Surviving My Past, where she talks about her safe place as a child.During our chat on the podcast, Jody gives us insight into what life is like living with BPD, and the constant struggle to understand what's happening, where her emotions are taking her, and utilizing the coping skills she's developed throughout her life.What is life like waking up each day and dealing with the daily struggles, of borderline personality disorder?When did she realize there was something wrong and decided to seek out treatment, and ultimately receive a diagnosis of BPD?The emotional roller coaster that happens throughout the day, and how often times it's all she can do to just get through one hour at a time.Coping skills that Jody has found helpful in living with BPD.Learning how healing happens "in the middle"; what that means for survivors living with BPD.Learning to hold two truths in your mind about who you are.Her peer support program where she works with survivors of trauma, struggling with chronic suicidality and living with BPD.You can learn more about Jody's advocacy work, check out her podcast, Mental Health Raw & Open, and read her blog, over at JodyBetty.com.If you enjoy these podcasts would you consider doing 3 easy things for us?Share it with one person who might find it helpful.Leave a review on your favorite podcast app.Follow the podcast on that same app, so you never miss an episode.That’s it…Super Easy and it would mean the world to us.If you want to go a step further, we have a special Thank You just for You!All conversation and information exchanged during participation on the podcast and BeyondYourPastRadio.com are intended for educational and informational purposes only. Nothing on the podcast or posted on the above-mentioned website are supplements for or supersedes the relationship and direction of your medical or mental health providers.Support the show (https://www.buymeacoffee.com/sPH8pMZ)

I cover the topic of DID regularly, both on this podcast and on Surviving My Past, and consider it an honor when a former guest is interested in coming back to continue our discussion. Rob Goldstein joins me regularly to discuss his experiences with DID, the things he's learned about himself, an continues to learn about his alters and the way they all interact with him in daily life.As Rob outlines on his site RobertMGoldstein.com: I’m a Certified Mental Health Rehabilitation Specialist who became symptomatic with a dissociative disorder in 2010. When I started this blog in late 2013, it was to advocate for myself and other people with trauma-related mental health problems.I wrote in my first profile statement that as I evolved the blog would evolve and over time, I learned about photography, digital art and I rediscovered my writing. I call the blog Art by Rob Goldstein but I can just as easily call it life by Rob Goldstein.This is my life as I live it, evolve, process its history, and prepare for an uncertain future. My life is my work and my work is my art.Art by Rob Goldstein is an expression of my emotional and intellectual evolution and an ongoing journal of my psychotherapy. I’m blunt, passionate in my beliefs, and willing to state my mind. If an honest exchange of ideas is what you want you’ve found the right place. During this episode of the podcast, Rob shares his insight on an aspect of DID that we have not previously discussed, "do your alternates agree with your diagnosis"?When he was first diagnosed with DID, and now that he's been living it for many years, how do his alternates react to being diagnosed with dissociative identity disorder?He shares how much he knows about his alters, and if he is aware of all of them.What does it mean when alternates are distressed and how do they let you know they are distressed?How aware is he when his alters switch, and how does that affect his daily life?Setting healthy boundaries in relationships of all types.The struggles of virtual reality and gaming, while living with DID.Be sure and follow Rob's Art and Blog over on https://robertmgoldstein.com and on Twitter at @Robrt_M_GoldsteYou can also check out the Guest Blog posts Rob has written for Surviving My Past and the previous episodes on the podcast.No Longer Sick with DID, I am Well with DIDLife with DID, where everything is a TriggerDissociative Identity Disorder, A Week in the Valley of Shadows-Matthew Pappas, CLC, MPNLPSupport the show (https://www.buymeacoffee.com/sPH8pMZ)

Throughout this survivor of journey which has been such a huge part of my life in recent years especially, I have come across countless incredible people from all walks of life, from all around the world. I can still remember the first time I hopped online and searched for "survivor chats" on Google. That was a moment that forever changed my view of what being a survivor was, and it gave me a sense of the support available from people just like me who were struggling to work through a past filled with invalidation, abuse, and constant struggle.One of the people that I connected with early on in my journey, was an incredible woman named Jody Betty. We met on Twitter and over the years have continued to follow each other, support our respective blogs, and collaborate. Jody wrote a post on Surviving My Past, entitled "The Safe Place that Saved My Life". Where she talks about how her mind takes her to a safe place, a safe memory, to escape the pain of an abusive past.Jody is an active writer for her own blog, JodyB2016.wordpress.com, as well as being a regular contributor on Sick Not Weak, with her column, Raw and Open, and on The Mighty .Her stories center around Mental Health Advocacy and writing about her own struggles as a 3 time suicide attempt survivor, and being diagnosed with Borderline Personality Disorder, Major Depression, and ongoing struggles with passive suicidal ideations. Her traumatic past includes being sexually abuse as a child, sexually assaulted as a teenager, as well as experiencing domestic violence at home.Jody bravely shares her journey to help others realize they are not alone, and that here is hope even when that means you somehow just survive the day, hour by hour. Throughout the years of her writing, and in the time that I've known her, countless people across the globe are encouraged and validated by the vulnerable way that Jody writes. She is as authentic as she is raw and open about her life; and through that vulnerability she is able to continue her own healing and help others along the way.A few months ago, Jody reached out to me about coming on the podcast to share some of her story in a new way, by using her voice, literally. Of course, I welcomed the opportunity to chat with my friend and amazing survivor, because her story is one that cannot be told enough. Like all survivors who choose too, and are able to, "get this stuff out of our heads", there is comfort and healing by opening up and telling others about our struggles and triumphs.During my chat with Jody on this episode of the podcast, she opens up about the abuse she suffered starting at birth and continuing into adulthood, and some of her ongoing story:Being born to a mother who was addicted to drugs and alcohol, and how her struggles in life began so very young.In and out of foster homes, each time being pulled out and relocated because of abuse happening in the home.An experience of nearly drowning which caused a fear of getting a bath or being around waterBeing sexually assaulted by a group of people at a party, when she was 16.That experience lead her to her completely closing out the world and shutting down inside.The trauma of seeing her adopted mother pass away after battling cancer, when Jody was 19.Her attempts at taking her own life, and the ongoing passive suicidal ideations that she lives with still today.Coping strategies she uses to fight back Support the show (https://www.buymeacoffee.com/sPH8pMZ)

Something I learned a long time ago, from both a therapist, and later from a coach, and to be honest more than a few others, is to celebrate the wins, no matter how small they may seem. It's something I encourage clients to do, talk about on the podcast often, and reference in blog posts. It's a regular reminder on the daily recovery support calls, it's something that I have written down right on a post it note on the wall, right behind this monitor.So when I talked to a friend about a week ago, and was sharing just in passing that I was coming up on episode 100 of the Beyond Your Past Podcast, she said to me, so how are you going to celebrate that?Uummmm, what? I replied?"How are you going to celebrate this win, acknowledge this milestone...it's a big deal", she said.I thought about it for a minute and said, well it's funny but this episode kind of snuck up on me, landing at 100; and so I hadn't really thought of doing something special initially. Of course it was then that I got a taste of my own medicine; a reminder that if I'm going to encourage someone to do something good for their journey, I should remember to do it more often too.So...here we are at episode 100 of the podcast and I figured it might be a good idea to take a brief break from the normal routine and just talk with you for a while about what's been happening over the last year including some events over the last 12 months that have changed my life in ways I would have never even thought could happen.As I tossed around some ideas on what to do, I had a brainstorm of making a compilation of highlights from a select number of episodes over the last year. However the more I thought about it, trying to decide which episodes to choose and which sections to use, it became a daunting task that I would never have been able to finish in time for my regular schedule. Plus, each and every guest, and their episodes are equally important and have their own special message, so trying to decide who would make the cut just didn't seem like something I would be ok with doing. So I figured, hey, I haven't done one of those, "talk to you guys" episodes in quite a while, and now just might be a good time to do one again. I'm happy to do just that on this milestone show, number 100...and I'm thankful that you've decided (or at least are considering) giving it a listen. And heck, maybe even share it with someone who might find it interesting as well. *I know, living on the wild side, right!*During this episode, we'll chat about:What is Surviving My Past, how and why did I create it and how does the podcast fit into the blog. For that matter, how did Beyond Your Past form anyway. A look back at earlier episode topics and how the podcast has evolved from earlier show design and topics, to current episodes. The last 12 months of events, both positive and challenging that found me facing:Death of my dadThe marriage of my daughterBirthdays and HolidaysA rare illness that sent me to the hospital and a subsequent ongoing recovery. Continued education and finishing several new certification programsLeaving corporate America after 17 years and striking out on my own, full-time. New opportunities that have developed and a partnership with a friend and mentor, and now colleague.and more. Thank you again to each and every one of you who listens each week and shares the podcast episodes; together we are reaching survivors, practitioners, and advocates all over the world with the message of hope, validation, and inspiration. Remember...celebrate those wins, every single one of them and don't minimize the progress you've made soSupport the show (https://www.buymeacoffee.com/sPH8pMZ)

My guest on this episode of the Beyond Your Past Podcast is Photographer, Digital Artist, Blogger, and Mental Health Rehabilitation Specialist, Rob Goldstein. He is also a former guest blogger on Surviving My Past, where he shared some of his story in a post titled, "Life with DID where everything is a trigger". That post has been incredibly helpful and validating for so many who live with dissociative identity disorder, or those who have a loved one who lives with DID. As outlined on his blog, Rob writes: I’m a Certified Mental Health Rehabilitation Specialist who became symptomatic with a dissociative disorder in 2010. When I started this blog in late 2013, it was to advocate for myself and other people with trauma related mental health problems. I wrote in my first profile statement that as I evolved the blog would evolve and over time, I learned about photography, digital art and I rediscovered my writing. I call the blog Art by Rob Goldstein but I can just as easily call it life by Rob Goldstein. This is my life as I live it, evolve, process its history, and prepare for an uncertain future. My life is my work and my work is my art. Art by Rob Goldstein is an expression of my emotional and intellectual evolution and an ongoing journal of my psychotherapy. I’m blunt, passionate in my beliefs, and willing to state my mind. If an honest exchange of ideas is what you want you’ve found the right place.  During my recent chat with Rob, we dive into more of his life leading up to getting the true diagnosis of having DID. As you'll hear him describe so eloquently and in detail, there were so many things going on in his life that just didn't add up; people were saying things like, "you aren't the Rob that I knew before". He knew that things going on in his mind and in life were fragmented, but hearing things like that was devastating to him. After all, he'd been living his life for decades knowing that something was going on, but wasn't able to put it all together with a true diagnosis from a professional who understood dissociative identity disorder and was able to get him a proper diagnosis much later on in life. As Rob points out, what drove him to seek the help of a psychiatrist was the realization that his alters had a constant desire to log into virtual reality to have their own lives. This became such a pathological routine that it was consuming all of his time and finally something had to give. Our conversation continues with his experiences in life, 6 months after his psychiatrist referred him to a therapist that specialized in DID. However, it wasn't until about a year and half later, that he finally called and made and appointment with that therapist, because he didn't want to accept that he could have something like dissociative identity disorder, and due to his research, finding out that DID is often caused by sexual trauma. Quite simply, the thought of it all was overwhelming and something he just didn't want to deal with. Rob continues to share more of his story: How things finally started to make sense since he began receiving the help he so desperately needed. He also discusses the challenges of his relationships, and how the evolution of healthy boundaries in all aspects of his relationships was life changing for him and his recovery. You'll learn how something like VR, that was completely taking over his life and becoming nearly toxic to his well being, is now something he is using to help others and himself along his journey. We discuss his view on how DID has truly been a gift for him, as he's lived through all of the challenges in his life to date. There is so much more I could tell you, but I don't want to miss out on this amazing conversation, so I definitely encourage you to check out my podcast witSupport the show (https://www.buymeacoffee.com/sPH8pMZ)

When you've been married for 17 years, you can certainly say that you've seen your share of struggles and triumphs, ups and downs, good times and rough times. Even more, through all of those experiences you can most definitely say that you are dedicated to each other and your relationship. It's that kind of dedication that can help carry you through the challenges that come with mental illness, and also help you celebrate each and ever win in your relationship and advocacy work. That's especially true with my guests on this episode of the Beyond Your Past Podcast, Beka and Joe Lombardo. I first came to know Beka a few years back when I started Surviving My Past, and she offered to be a guest blogger, and share some insight in the area of body image and bullying. Since then we've kept in touch and supported each other's work while building a friendship and mutual respect for the struggles of living with mental health challenges. Beka is a blogger for The Mighty, and an author of her own book, It's Not Your Journey, the true story of one woman that fights a battle inside her mind every single day and attempts to document what she is feeling to help others while she helps herself.  Her ongoing battle is not fought alone, her incredible husband Joe is there with her every step of the way as they navigate daily life in the wake of a troubled past. Their never ending desire to help others is forged not only in blogging and her book, but also with their podcast, Voices for Change 2.0, which I had the pleasure of being a guest on previously. During my recent chat with Beka and Joe, we talk primarily about their relationship and the unique challenges that come with being a suicide attempt survivor and having a mental illness: Did Rebecca explain her mental health struggles before you started a relationship? You’ve been married for nearly 17 years despite the difficulties mental illness brings. What advice do you have for someone entering a relationship with someone with mental illness? The effect that Beka's suicide attempt had on Joe and how he's been able to support her as well as making sure to take care of himself. How and why they started the #KeepTalkingMH hashtag and what it's meant for them and so many who use it on social media. Thanks so much to both Beka and Joe for joining me on the show, and being so open about their struggles so that others can benefit and realize that no matter what they endure, there is hope and that they are surely not alone.  Be sure and check out RebeccaLombardo.com for information about their advocacy work, her book, and the podcast.  Oh, and if you are looking for a guitar teacher, Joe teaches on the weekends and just might be looking for some new students! Please consider subscribing and leaving a review on your favorite podcasting app, I would definitely appreciate it,  and thank you to my incredible sponsors, iNLPCenter.org and Daily Recovery Support. -Matthew Pappas, CLC, CPNLP All conversation and information exchanged during participation on the Beyond Your Past Podcast, on BeyondYourPast.com, and BeyondYourPastRadio.com is intended for educational and informational purposes only. Nothing on these podcasts or posted on the above mentioned websites are supplements for or supersedes the relationship and direction of your medical or mental health providers.Support the show (https://www.buymeacoffee.com/sPH8pMZ)

Every now and then I have the opportunity to chat with a former guest blogger on Surviving My Past, and when I get that opportunity it's always an incredible experience. Not everyone is ready to, or enjoys sharing their story on a podcast, and that's okay. The main thing is that when you are at a point of being able to use your experiences to help others, while continuing to aid your own recovery journey, you do so in a way that feels congruent with you and in line with your values. This episode of the podcast is just such one of those opportunities to chat with a former guest blogger and share more about his story, hearing it in his own voice. Jason Miller, of BipolarisBeautiful.com and @CostlyLoveWins on Twitter joins me for an incredibly moving chat about his life. His submission on the blog, "A Bipolar Life: He spent years making mud pies in a slum, but no more!" was vulnerable and honest as he shares many of the struggles he's endured, in a way that makes you want to keep reading to find out how it all turns out and how he made it through such trauma.  As with so many survivors, you may find yourself not only saddened by their experiences, but cheering them on as they begin to pull themselves out of the depths and into a new world of healing and awareness. On his blog, Jason describes himself as: a grizzled veteran of the roller coaster of this deadly illness, I (barely) survived it for 43 years. But today, I live with it (bipolar disorder). Perpetually on the edge of that cliff of mania or depression, but with the joy and peace of that boy feeding the gentle giraffe. I hope to help you learn how to do the same. It may take years of diligent effort, but if you want a life instead of a miserable existence, the support networks, tools, medications, recovery angels in skin, and spiritual miracles are all there. Throughout our conversation, Jason shares more indepth about some of the struggles in his life in the areas of Living with Bipolar Disorder, Mania, Addiction to Pornography and Alcohol, a traumatic accident at work which left him with severe burns,  as well as these following topics: To what do you attribute your getting into recovery and what tools do you use to stay there? What has been most beneficial to your recovery? Besides working on your own recovery, what do you do within the mental health and addiction community? What are your thoughts on the stigma surrounding mental illness and addiction? What are your thoughts on our broken mental health care system? As you listen to Jason talk, don't be surprised if you find yourself hanging on each word as you hear him recount struggle after struggle, starting over again and again, until finally coming to a place where he could seek out help, surround himself with safe people, and embrace acceptance along his life long journey of healing. Thank you again Jason for coming on the podcast, your story is undoubtedly helping so many and I'm honored to help share your story. Don't forget to check out Jason's post on Surviving My Past, and we hope you'll consider sharing his podcast with those who you feel might benefit from his story. Oh, and don't forget to subscribe and leave a review on your favorite podcasting app, I'd surely appreciate it! Special thanks to my sponsors, iNLPCenter.org and Daily Recovery Support.  If you'd like to be a guest on an upcoming episode of the podcast, just contact me anytime! Matthew Pappas, CLC, CPNLP All conversation and information exchanged during participation on the Beyond Your Past Podcast, on BeyondYourPast.com, and BeyondYourPastRadio.com is intended for educational and informational purposes only. Nothing on these podcasts or posted on the above mentioned websites are supplements for or supersedes the relatioSupport the show (https://www.buymeacoffee.com/sPH8pMZ)

On this episode of the podcast, I'm talking with returning guest Erika Reva, of The We in Me. I first met Erika through Twitter, and I reached out to see if she might be interested in writing a guest blog post for Surviving My Past. To this day, that post is still one of the highest viewed pieces of content on the blog, which speaks not only to her ability as a blogger, but her genuine desire to share her story, continue her healing journey, and also help others who live with DID. Since then she has joined me on the podcast, and we've remained in contact through social media and periodic emails following each other's journey. After one such recent email exchange, I learned of a new program she had created, called Living DID. After hearing more about it, I knew I wanted to see if she'd be interested in coming back on Beyond Your Past, to share with us how this program came to be, what it's about, and the feedback she's received from participants who've taken it. As Erika outlines: The feedback has been wonderful and many others with DID & trauma disorders have contributed their stories and journey’s for us to share as various examples throughout the discussion based course. Each week we delve into detailed discussion based lectures that pertain to various topics on DID.  Week 1- intro to us (The We in Me) and the course. Week 2-  Protectors, these parts that are often demonized and feared will be discussed Week 3- Triggers Week 4- Littles, the young traumatized parts that are protected and hidden Week 5- The problems with Docs. Week 6- Therapy, an in depth look on what therapy can/does look like for someone with DID and as the psychologists ways to best help them. Week 7- Relationships & Closing Focus this final week will be on relationships within the system, people such as romantic or friend type relationships as well as the correlation of BDSM & the trauma community that is vastly overlooked. As you'll hear, Erika has fostered collaborative relationships with her local NAMI chapter, and the Chicago Police Department to help educate first responders on how they can prepare for and have a better understanding of, the challenges of walking into a situation involving victims of trauma and those living with DID.  She's also been invited to speak at an event sponsored by #SickNotWeak, not-for-profit corporation started by Michael Landsberg. It's always such a pleasure to talk with Erika, and to discuss Dissociative Identity Disorder with her and others who live with it and have decided to take their story and use it to try to help others. The more light we can share on this topic, the more we continue to educate ourselves and those who are affected with DID. Be sure and follow Erika and her work with Living DID on , TheWeInMe.com - and follow her on Twitter and Instagram @TheWeInMe. Oh, and don't forget to subscribe to Beyond Your Past on iTunes, Stitcher, Google Play, iHeartRADIO, Spotify, or your favorite podcasting app! :)  Matthew Pappas All conversation and information exchanged on the Beyond Your Past Podcast, on BeyondYourPast.com, and BeyondYourPastRadio.com is intended for educational and informational purposes only. Nothing on these podcasts or posted on the above mentioned websites are supplements for or supersedes the relationship and direction of your medical or mental health providers. Support the show (https://www.buymeacoffee.com/sPH8pMZ)

This week, I interviewed Matt Pappas, Certified Life Coach, author, blogger, and podcaster. He specializes in coaching for survivors of trauma, and those dealing with anxiety. Matt’s journey began from a very personal place. A survivor himself, he started Surviving My Past as a way to navigate his own recovery. Since then, the blog has evolved into a full-blown advocacy website featuring many different voices. During our time together, we discussed how anxiety manifests itself in trauma recovery, as well as tips and strategies for overcoming anxiety. For more, visit: bethrogerson.com

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  Our past can be like a ghost. We all have one. The past is an indication of events that have occurred before a given point in time. Many individuals spend a lot of time reminiscing about the past while others would like to forget what happen. The role they may have played in it. The individuals that played a part in their history or existence may still have our power. Good or bad we must learn how to process those events so that such will not play a negative role in our present and follow one into their future. With that being said our past can have a strong hold on our life. We can view it as a problem or a chance of a lifetime. This episode is designed to discuss the cycles of abuse, break generational curses and help others find hope, healing and peace as they learn that they are not alone. We can't change the past. However we can break the Cycle Of Abuse, Dysfunction, and Strenthen Families.  Join me and Special Guest Sharon Cook as she share her personal story The Life I Once Lived. A true story of an aspiring young lady that grew up on the South Side of Phoenix Arizona. While growing up was beat, molested, and brutalized underneath the watchful eyes of her alcoholic mother.  This is going to be a show worth listening to as you hear how this guest share her hurt, pain, fear, tears, death of family members as she share her journey about finding the strength to survive dispite her past. Join, share or listen on Monday January 2, 2017 12pm Pacific 516 386-1914. There is strength in numbers.