Girl Found

The Bay, Walt Whitman, and the impossible. This week I look back on the city that met me first, and the things that happen when you stop saying “I can't.” I interview Tyler Prescott, executive director of the Upstate LGBTQ+ Chamber of Commerce located in Greenville, SC, and improv comic. We talk about the funny, the sad, and the wistful of growing up queer in the religious south.

Letters, drama, and saved face. This week on Girl Found, my siblings and I hold the leaders of the Adventist church accountable for Eric and Ann Marie's abuse, and the conference replies. I interview Elaina Matthews on her experience in and out of the church, and how the systems of leadership and power protect abusers. || This episode of the podcast is brought to you by Unclockable. Unclockable exists to make life easier for all those who tuck. Their Tuck Kit is the best way to get a euphorically flat, swim-proof tuck that stays in place. 5-star rated, and available now at the link their bio: @unclockableyou || Get access to exclusive content, early episode reads, unique patron only merch, and more by visiting Patreon.com/girlfound!

Chastisement, self reflection, resting the jury. This week on Girl Found, I rest my story in your hands. I can't convince you, I can't irrefutably prove my story is valid, it's ultimately a decision you have to make. This week and the coming weeks leave my story as an appeal to you. What you do next is up to you. This week I interview Lauren DeLeary, radio host, podcast host, creative, and former recording artist. We talk about public ministry and how it challenges our deconstruction. || This episode of the podcast is brought to you by Unclockable. Unclockable exists to make life easier for all those who tuck. Their Tuck Kit is the best way to get a euphorically flat, swim-proof tuck that stays in place. 5-star rated, and available now at the link their bio: @unclockableyou || Get early access to episodes, exclusive content, and more! Visit Patreon.com/girlfound for more.

Relationships grown, relationships changed, relationships ended. This week we talk about leaving my job, calling the police on Eric and Ann Marie, and coming out. Again. || This episode of the podcast is brought to you by Unclockable. Unclockable exists to make life easier for all those who tuck. Their Tuck Kit is the best way to get a euphorically flat, swim-proof tuck that stays in place. 5-star rated, and available now at the link their bio: @unclockableyou || Visit Patreon.com/girlfound for exclusive access to content, early releases, and sick merch…

Threats, growth, and romance. This week on Girl Found, I save my youngest sibling on their 18th birthday, I run from the police, and I tell Ann Marie to shut the fuck up. I also talk to Haley about her grade school experience in the Catholic faith, and why she left. || This episode of the podcast is brought to you by Unclockable. Unclockable exists to make life easier for all those who tuck. Their Tuck Kit is the best way to get a euphorically flat, swim-proof tuck that stays in place. 5-star rated, and available now at the link their bio: @unclockableyou || Get access to early content, exclusive episodes, merch, and more at Patreon.com/girlfound!

Young love, censorship, and purity culture. This week I review the expectations of relationships. I interview Sierra, who shares her story of unrealistic expectations and guilt. Caroline gives this week's rec! || This episode of the podcast is brought to you by Unclockable. Unclockable exists to make life easier for all those who tuck. Their Tuck Kit is the best way to get a euphorically flat, swim-proof tuck that stays in place. 5-star rated, and available now at the link their bio: @unclockableyou || To get access to exclusive content, merch, and early access to episodes, visit patreon.com/girlfound.

Moves, life goals, and best case scenarios. This week on Girl Found I move to a new city, make new friends, and do my best to pretend that I'm okay. I also interview Emily Fincher and talk about parental support and what it means to her. || This episode of the podcast is brought to you by Unclockable. Unclockable exists to make life easier for all those who tuck. Their Tuck Kit is the best way to get a euphorically flat, swim-proof tuck that stays in place. 5-star rated, and available now at the link their bio: @unclockableyou || This week's rec is Deconstruct Podcast with Lauren DeLeary and Adam Frost. Apple podcasts link: https://podcasts.apple.com/us/podcast/deconstruct/id1472051573 Spotify link: https://open.spotify.com/show/34g7KMkO3iEASBlQ2kCLBA?si=2kzpWSljS_GFhJnnykJNEA || To support this podcast visit Patreon.com/girlfound and find early access, exclusive content, and merch!

False euphoria. Girlfriends. Allies. This week I celebrate my conversion, and I take out the trash from my life I was convinced I wouldn't need anymore. Welcome to Season 3! || This weeks rec is The Wayward Children series by Seanan McGuire: https://www.goodreads.com/series/165484-wayward-children || This episode of the podcast is brought to you by Unclockable. Unclockable exists to make life easier for all those who tuck. Their Tuck Kit is the best way to get a euphorically flat, swim-proof tuck that stays in place. 5-star rated, and available now at the link in their bio: @unclockableyou || Support the podcast, get cool merch, and get exclusive access to bonus content, early releases, and more: Patreon.com/girlfound ||

Merry Christmas. Happy second season of holidays with us. Our wishes for ourselves are our wishes for you. Please consider giving to this project this holiday, as we prepare the best season yet. Patreon.com/girlfound

Darkness, abandonment, loss. In the Season 2 finale of Girl Found I learn that rejection doesn't just come from the ones you expect it from, and I hit rock bottom. I also talk to Eli and Shaylin about all things queer coding, outward identity, and the changes we're trying to make in our community. Thank you for your continued support of this podcast. For early access, bonuses, and cool merch visit patreon.com/girlfound. Stay tuned for Season 3 announcements soon!

New chapters, new apartments, new freedom. This week I find myself on my own for the first time, and find that freedom means freedom to make mistakes. I also talk with Katie Reckart on her journey of theological mercy. Support Girl Found by visiting patreon.com/girlfound and get access to exclusive content, early episodes, and cool merch. This week's recs from Katie include: Jesus Feminist by Sarah Bessey, Searching for Sunday by Rachel Held Evans, and Inspired by Rachel Held Evans.

New job, forced hands, and open closet doors. In this week's episode, I talk about coming clean. I also talk with Emily Cate about her experience questioning queerness, outward identity, and ethics. As season two nears its end, I'd like to encourage you to support the podcast by becoming a Patron. Patrons receive access to unique content, early access, merch, and more. We have exciting stories, interviews, and sponsors for season three, and don't want you to miss a thing. Learn more at patreon.com/girlfound. || Emily's recs: The Ethical Slut, by Dossie Easton and Janet Hardy. Opening Up, by Tristan Taormino. Polysecure, by Jessica Fern.

Wake up calls, escapes, and frying pans to fires. This week I talk about my prodigal moment, my escape from Weimar, and my return to Eric and Ann Marie's influence. I also speak with Kaleb, a key part in the telling of my story, and ask him about his continued involvement in the Adventist Church. Visit Patreon.com/girlfound to gain early access to episodes, merch, transition journals, and more.

Opening packages, San Francisco as myself, and punitive action. This week on Girl Found I look in the mirror for the first time. I also speak with my sibling Austin on the gap years while I was away, and what family looks like for them today. Visit Patreon.com/girlfound for early access to scripts, transition journals, and merch. Every subscription supports the continuation of the podcast.

Campus jail time, isolation, and Amazon boxes. This week on Girl Found I talk about the turning point at Weimar, public humiliation, and deciding to go home. I also talk to Cecilia about their queer experience how that relates to their clothing choices. Support Girl Found on Patreon.com/girlfound and get access to exclusive content, early releases of episodes, and super cool merch.

Moves. Stolen kisses. Death threats. In this episode I move again, I learn about myself and the world, and the plot thickens. I also talk to Hodges Gravely about his experience with health care and society as a trans man in South Carolina. This weeks episode uses music from Adobe Stock. Become a patron at Patreon.com/girlfound and get early access to episodes, cool merch, exclusive content, and more.

Cherries, self discovery, and a light bulb moment. This week on Girl Found I experience several firsts and start to grow up a little. I talk to Charlie again, and we work through what gender identity means to them. CONTENT WARNING: this episode contains references to sexual assault, emotional manipulation and abuse, gender dysmorphia, and other content which may be difficult to listen to and is unsuitable for children. Please listen with care. Music for this episode provided by Adobe Stock. Sign up for Patreon and get access to early episodes, exclusive content, and cool merch! patreon.com/girlfound

Depression, double lives, and being God's right hand. This week on Girl Found we talk about my own experience with mental illness, what I was taught about fixing people with depression, and introducing you to my deconstruction. I also interview Charlie, a long time friend, about their experience in the church. Listen to the end to hear us talk about our friend breakup. This podcast was recorded and produced by Evan Bates, with music from Adobe Stock. Visit our Patreon (patreon.com/girlfound) to support the podcast, get early access to content, and cool merch too!

Pushy evangelism. California. Growing up. This week on Girl Found I move across the country to become an evangelist. I talk about the HEALTH program at Weimar Institute, and I talk with Lakshmi, one of my classmates during that time about the isolation all of us felt. Visit patreon.com/girlfound for cool merch and unlimited access to extra content and early episodes.

Tampons. Hygiene at the border. Internet fights. This week I talk about statistics and issues today with healthcare access and mental health for trans people. I talk with Frankie, lecturer and researcher for University of Wisconsin Madison who specializes in queer menstruation research. Welcome back to Season 2 of Girl Found! It's so exciting to continue this journey with you and I hope you're excited to jump back in. It's going to be an exciting ride. || Support this project on Patreon: patreon.com/girlfound. Follow us on Instagram: Instagram.com/girlfoundpod.

Life updates, a look at our one year anniversary of deconstruction, what faith means now, and exciting updates about season two. We have incredible interviews and stories for season two and we can't wait to share it with you. Stay tuned for release date! || Link to Ear Biscuits episode: https://podcasts.apple.com/us/podcast/our-lost-years-ear-biscuits-ep-224/id717407884?i=1000463137660 || Patreon.com/girlfound

Valentines, putt putt, and STDs. This week on Girl Found we talk about big changes in Evan's life, like leaving high school and entering college. Staying devout, but seeing reality. I interview Autumn, someone who knew me personally during this chrysalis stage of life. Visit Patreon.com/girlfound to find cool merch and support this pod cast and its creation. This week's episode was written and produced by Evan Bates. Music was licensed from Adobe Stock. Visit Instagram.com/girlfoundpod for shareable quotes and more.

Hallucinations, alternative astronomy, and twenty-eight rules. This week on Girl Found we discuss visions and the beginnings of the Adventist Church. And we talk with Vanessa, a public affairs and middle eastern studies major at UCLA, and a friend with parallel experiences. For more content, merch, and more visit Patreon.com/girlfound. This episode written, produced and edited by Evan Bates. Music for this episode from Adobe Stock.

A review of Christmas from 2015-2020. Merry Christmas and Happy Holidays from Caroline, and everyone else who makes Girl Found a success. This week I asked you to share what the holidays mean to you. Thanks for responding. May this holiday season be warm and bright.

Salt shakers, baby daddies, and disestablishmentarianism. This week is a hard one, and with it comes a CW: this episode contains descriptions of physical, verbal, and emotional abuse. Listener discretion advised. This week the roles are reversed, and Caroline interviews me, and turns it into a game. // We have a Patreon! Visit patreon.com/girlfound to connect and support this project! Also connect through Instagram: instagram.com/girlfoundpod Thanks for listening.

Rocks. Traumatic brain injuries. Visions. This week we explore who Ellen White is, her childhood, and why she started seeing things. We also speak to two individuals with first hand experience. We play “Who said it?” A game where we guess if it was said by Watchtower or Ellen White. Hint: it's harder than it sounds. This episode was written, produced, and created by Evan Bates. Patreon is now live!! Go to patreon.com/girlfound for exclusive content and pretty merch!

Penance, miseducation, and another thing to go to hell for. This week on Girl Found, I talk about a pivotal conversation with Eric, and what was the start of an identity crisis. I also talk to Ora about her experience with identity within the Seventh-Day Adventist Church. This episode contains subject matter which may be difficult for some. Extreme homophobia, conversion abuse, and emotional trauma are described. Listener discretion advised. Link to article discussed in interview: https://theconversation.com/to-christians-arguing-no-on-marriage-equality-the-bible-is-not-decisive-82498 This episode written, produced and created by Evan Bates.

William Miller, white robes, and bold announcements. This weeks episode creates the foundation from which we will explore the cult I grew up in. And I come out to my parents the first of many times. *Views expressed in the interview format of this episode are those of the speaker, and are not endorsed or approved by the creators of this podcast* Patreon coming soon! Keep listening for some ~cool merch~

Cat and mouse. Awakenings. Baptism. This week on Girl Found I begin to realize I'm different, we talk about baptism, and the game of cat and mouse begins. I also interview Zoe Parsons on her balance of religion, awareness of social issues, and identity.

Coming out. Childhood. Religion. I tell the in medias res beginning of my story, and interview my wife Caroline on what life looks like right now, her religious experience, and her favorite read at the moment. I'm so excited to share this new podcast with you on my exploration of queerness, cults, and growth.

Girl Found, a new podcast documenting and exploring my journey of transition as a transgender woman, and the dynamics of growing up in a religious cult. Join me weekly for an exploration of queerness, cults, and growth. This is Girl Found.