Mothering Anxiety

The time has finally come for me to say goodbye to Mothering Anxiety. It has been an amazing 3 1/2 years, 167 episodes, thousands and thousands of plays. Take a listen as I share why I have finally decided to say goodbye and what to expect from “Mothering Anxiety” in the near future.

I feel that I've tried it all. Supplements, Exercise, Breathing Techniques, Therapy. And all though all of this has helped, it's only helped temporarily. The truth is, my Anxiety came back because I was repressing instead of feeling. I was putting aside things I thought I was “over.” If you don't fix what's inside of your head, no amount of anything is going to be a permanent solution. This time around, I have been forced to deal with stuff I didn't want to deal with, things I wasn't ready for. But in the end, I am grateful because it has brought me closer to the One who has been with me through it all. Take a listen as I talk about my journey of no longer being able to repress my abandonment issues and finally being in a place where all is forgiven.

I wish there was a nicer way to say this but it is a reality check I have needed for myself. Many times, it has been me & ONLY ME, digging my own grave. Many times, I made myself a victim in Motherhood. Yes, motherhood is hard but thinking negatively, being angry, allowing my own triggers dictate my mom, I was making it harder on myself. Take a listen as I talk about how the victimhood of motherhood can make it harder especially for those of us who deal with Anxiety as we add on to the millions of battles we fight in our head every day.

After not being able to breastfeed my first born for longer than 2 months, I was determined to do it with my second. I thought it would make things easier, save us money, & overall be better for both baby & I. And sure, all those things were true but I never realized what a toll it would take on my Mental Health. Take a listen as I talk about my decision to finally wean after 17 months of exclusively breastfeeding and how I was able to wean.

Now that I am in a better mental space, I can look back at the few months when my Anxiety was at its all time high and realize how I don't remember much of it. There are so many moments that I feel were taken from me, moments that I need to grieve for mentally missing out on. Although, I am learning to give myself grace, I can't help but grieve the moments I lost because I was just trying to survive. Take a listen as I talk about needing to grieve moments with my children because I was battling deep Anxiety in my own head. To learn more about Mothering Anxiety Podcast please visit our website: ⁠https://www.motheringanxietypodcast.com Products Mentioned in Episode: (Affiliate Links) Chamomile Tea: https://amzn.to/3SeBzQJ Hibiscus Tea: https://amzn.to/3Sih1a3 Spearmint Tea: https://amzn.to/48Qnb6K

Postpartum Anxiety. Something I was ashamed to admit for so long that I was dealing with. "What do you mean you can't handle being a mom?" "What do you mean you can't keep up with your kids?," were all judgements my own head was telling me. My mind was telling me that because I couldn't handle the one thing I was called to do, I was failing my children as a Mother. But there was a point when my physical symptoms made it nearly impossible to do anything but survive and wait for the anxiety attack to pass me by. Take a listen as I had to break the stigma in my own head that Postpartum Anxiety is not a dirty word and that asking for help doesn't mean that I have failed. To learn more about Mothering Anxiety Podcast please visit our website: ⁠https://www.motheringanxietypodcast.com Products Mentioned in Episode: (Affiliate Links) Prenatal Vitamin https://amzn.to/3TNH9uw

This season of life has not been a fun one to experience but, it has taught me a lot of new things about myself and about life in general. As I am currently battling Postpartum Anxiety, I have decided to take an entire season to focus on that and how I plan to overcome my Postpartum Anxiety. Take a listen as I talk about what you can expect from me this season and all the tips, triumphs, and failures I will b e sharing. No intrusive thought, no physical symptom, no breakdown in the bathroom will be left unsaid. To learn more about Mothering Anxiety Podcast please visit our website: https://www.motheringanxietypodcast.com Products Mentioned in Episode: (Affiliate Links) Redmond Sea Salt https://amzn.to/3TGiWWW Oragnic Pure Coconut Water https://amzn.to/4aH6KLV

This years Holidays are going to look a little bit different. Not only am I dealing with PPA/PPD but I am trying to set boundaries on what's going to work best for me and my family. We've always done things a certain way and that just isn't working out for us anymore. We are trying to teach our kid's differently about what the Holidays mean and we hope that those around us could respect the traditions we are trying to start. The traditions we had in the past are from people that are no longer with us so we decided it's our turn to do what we know what will be best for our family. Take a listen as I talk about what Holiday Boundaries we have set this year and potentially for the years to come.

The days are shorter and the Holidays are quickly approaching. For many of us, this can be a reminder of family dysfunction and loneliness. Take a listen as I talk about what I plan to do to combat seasonal depression this year including daily sunshine and setting healthy holiday boundaries.

I never thought that I would be back here, dealing with Anxiety after working on healing from GAD for the last 3 years. I thought I was just burnt out, I thought it was just me not being able to handle being a Mom of 2, but something more was happening to my body. Something I couldn't physiologically I couldn't control. Take a listen as I talk about what's truly been going on these last couple of months and where my future is headed.

I've always felt as if I have never fit in anywhere and with anyone. Call it past trauma or my social anxiety but fitting in with others has always been something I have struggled with. Take a listen as I talk about the revelation I had as to why I know I don't feel good enough for anyone's time and what I am doing to work towards accepting myself as I am.

For almost 3 decades of my life I was whoever everyone else wanted me to be. I stayed quiet to keep peace, I hid to not stand out, I molded myself to make sure that I stayed on everyone's good side. I feel that this only added to my Social Anxiety and now on my healing journey, I have no idea who I am. What part of me was part of my trauma, what part of me is part of motherhood, what part of me is actually me and not something I became to please others. Take a listen as I talk about trying to find out who I am and who I want to become.

I feel as if I'm stuck. As if I'm having some sort of existential crisis at the moment. I don't know what I'm doing. I don't know what direction I want to go in. For almost 3 decades my body has been in a fight or flight response and now that it's time to relax and let peace in, I don't know how and it's making me feel stuck, as if what I'm doing isn't good enough. Take a listen as I talk about my fears of not doing enough to glorify God.

I realized spelling it with an “I” is business. Anyways, we are BUSY. And not only busy physically with needing to do so many things, I feel that I'm also busy mentally. Having my daughter in school and having to mentally carry that load of homework, lunches, drop off/pick ups, afterschool activities have just added to my daily mental load. My brain is on overdrive BUT I am finding ways to cope and giving myself rest when my body needs it. Take a listen as I talk about needing to break another generational trauma of relaxing not equally laziness.

Did you know your body traps all of your trauma? I didn't, not until I was recently diagnosed with TMJD and researched where and why this comes from. Sure, the reasons are plain and clear but when you dig a little deeper you start to see how your trauma was what caused these reasons to begin with. Take a listen as I talk about my new journey of having to heal my physical body as I learn more and more about the body keeping score.

We've all heard about “Self Care” but what is “Soul Care?” What feeds your soul? What are things that you do for not just your physical being but your inner being? For me, that's spending time with God. For me, that's laying it all out for him. My worries, my other thinking, my anxieties. It's making myself vulnerable and just letting him take the reigns. Take a listen as I talk about the 3 different ways I take care of my Soul.

Lately, I've been having doubts about my ability to speak up on Mental Illness. I have been hearing in the back of my head “You're Not Good Enough, Who Do You Think You Are?” Take a listen as I try to tackle my thoughts of insecurity and what I plan to do with my Podcast.

My biggest apologies but honestly, after recording an episode titled “I Burned Out” & then going hiatus for 2 weeks. . . not so surprising right? I am in a rough season of life right now. My Anxiety has been at its all time highest, I'm extremely stressed out, and quite frankly, haven't been doing well emotionally, physically, & mentally. It feels that all the things have piled up and I somehow forgot to take care of myself. Take a listen as I talk about what I've been dealing with for the last 6 weeks or so & what I think the lesson to be learned here is

This season of life is where I have been learning to let go of my perfectionism, to let go of my social anxiety. Let me tell you, it's been ROUGH. I think I cry almost every day. Take a listen as I talk about the events of life that lead to my burnout that how now left me on autopilot and what I have learned so far during this time.

I give the new Barbie movie 10/10 but let's talk about some points I got from it. This movie made me laugh and cry and by cry I mean bawl my eyes out uncontrollably which is not like me. This movie tugged on my existential anxiety, mom anxiety, and deeply rooted mommy issues. Take a listen as I talk about how my Anxiety made me interpret the Barbie movie and what I got out of it.

Today marks my 3 year anniversary of Podcasting and honestly what a wild ride it's been. I feel that there are many things I need to apologize for since. There were many things that were said that I honestly wish I could take back. I feel that with my lack of presence, I have also abandoned all of us who embarked on this healing journey together. But mainly, I wanted to apologize for this 3 year journey when the answer to healing was very simple. Take a listen as I look back at my podcasting career for the last 3 years and how it's shaped me into the person I am today.

This week, my baby boy turns 1 & boy oh boy, what a difference he has been from my daughter. I don't know if it's a boy thing or a second child thing but things are wild to say the least. Take a listen as I talk about my first year as a boy mom and all the things that give me Anxiety because there are a few.

I apologize in advance for what I'm about to say in this episode. If this is your first time tuning in, I suggest listening to the first 142 episodes so you can see how I got to this point. (No, but really.) There was a point when I was going to therapy where I was simply repeating myself over & over again until my therapist said, “Okay, but you're an adult now, what are you going to do about it?” And well. . . here's me telling all of you. . . It's time to grow up.

It's now been one full week since my Kitchen has been remodeled and BOY, did I think I wouldn't survive the remodel. That was BRUTAL and honestly felt like I couldn't see the light at the end of the tunnel. But that's life right? When we're in the middle of a difficult time, it feels like it's never ending but once it's done it's like “okay, I'm glad that's over, never want to do that again.” Take a listen as I talk about my anxious thoughts during the remodel process and for the long awaited new kitchen reveal on Instagram now!

Honestly, vacations have never been relaxing for me. It's always the Anxiety of packing, figuring out what you're going to do, traveling anxiety, then add kids to the mix and it's just a no fun zone. But I've come to a place where Ive learned to manage my Anxiety and honestly, how to just not let it bother me anymore. My Husband had a few days off and we decided to take advantage and head out of town. Take a listen as I talk about my very first Anxiety free vacation and how now I'm excited to leave town again!

This is my first summer with 2 kids and boy is my brain going crazy with the overthinking and Anxiety. I have all the feelings over what am I going to do to entertain a very energetic 5 year old and very mobile 10 month old. I want to plan all the activities but at the same time want to give myself grace over not needing to do everything as well as taking slow days as needed without feeling guilty over not having "the best summer vacation ever." Take a listen as I talk about all my thoughts and feelings over my first summer alone with both if my kiddos.

As of today (when this Episode airs), my kitchen remodel begins. This has been a long time coming, something that I have been wanting to do since we first bought this house almost 8 years ago. As exciting as this time is, it's also very Anxiety inducing for me. I'm scared I won't like it, I'm scared of how long it'll take, what are we going to eat while we don't have a kitchen, how am I suppose to entertain my children in the bedrooms. I also feel that I have extremely high hopes, hoping that this will help me deal a bit better with my Social Anxiety, having a place that I feel comfortable entertaining guests (something that I have been praying about.) Take a listen as I process through my head that this day has finally come and what is running through my mind before the kitchen renovation.

After 10 months of Therapy, I am officially discharged. I will forever be grateful for the opportunity to have been able to go to therapy and everything I learned along the way. In July 2021, I was crying on my restroom floor looking trying to figure out the answers to things I just couldn't quite get over or wrap my head around. I prayed for answers, prayed for anything that could take away the pain I was feeling in that moment and all I remember was hearing, "Go to therapy." The next day I made a phone call and within 2 weeks, I had my first appointment and what a true blessing it was. Take a listen as I talk about my biggest takeaways from Therapy this time around after trying it again after attempting therapy almost 10 years prior and completely failing because I wasn't emotionally mature enough to handle it.

There's been a lot of videos I keep watching all over my Instagram algorithm that just got me thinking. I'm not sure if this is just a “me” triggering thing since I was always meant to feel like a burden, but if you're anything like me, maybe this triggers you too. Take a listen as I give my insight on videos I see all over my Instagram that just make me wonder, “What happens when or if your children see them?”

I have finally decided to put my challenge number 2 into action, well actually it's been in action for almost 2 months now. Take a listen as I talk about what I am doing to step out of my comfort zone that will also potentially help me get one step closer into overcoming my Social Anxiety

17 years after accepting Jesus Christ as my Saviour, I finally decided to get baptized.

After 2 year of going no contact with my family, I decided to reach out to my Mother. In honor of Mother's Day, I decided to finally talk about it but also because it took me a few months to truly figure out what was going through my head. It wasn't what I expected but I truly believe that it was the reality that I needed. Also a time for me to realize how much more healing I needed to do. Take a listen as I talk about my experience of finally talking to my Mother after doing some healing work and what I came to realize in between these last few months.

So why a blog now? Because Anxiety isn't limited to only 30 minutes a week, once a week. Because Anxiety isn't just on topic at a time & only being Anxious over one thing. Listen as I go deep into why I decided to start a blog and the hopes to expanding further. & don't forget to check out www.motheringanxietypodcast.com !!!

Before you think this is an episode where I say "Breast is Best," it is not. This is an episode about "Mama's Mental Health is best." I've done both. My daughter was formula fed and I am currently almost at 9 months breastfeeding my son. It has been one heck of a journey I can tell you that and there are many thoughts that need to be said as a Mom who deals with Anxiety. Take a listen as I talk about what breastfeeding as an Anxious Mom has done to my healing journey.

My 9 year wedding anniversary has come and passed and it took a very "real" and "eye opening" therapy session for me to realize that I've been holding on to the wrong things. My therapist is great at giving me reality checks and it truly shows my progress during my healing journey beause I can listen and know that she's right without taking offense. Take a listen as I talk about the harsh reality I came to find even 9 years later.

Guys, it has been a WEEK. Actually, it's been more like 3 weeks & the Anxiety is out of control. I feel as if life lately has been one thing after another and I can't seem to catch a break. So what better time than now then to record an episode when my mind is in that Anxious state. Take a listen as I talk about where my mind is and what I'm doing to get out of it.

This weeks episode is short but not very sweet. We had a pretty traumatic event happen to us which even towards the end of the week when I thought I was "okay" to record an episode, I still was not. All I have to say is that Motherhood is not for the Anxious. And truly it was just my Anxiety that made everything a million times worse when everything turned out okay in the end. Take a listen as I talk about an injury that happened to my daughter where I truly did not know how I was going to survive in the Emergency Room.

I apologize before you tune into this episode, my voice is still a little iffy. If you tuned into last weeks episode you heard me going from my normal self to about halfway through sounding like a sick dog. I was dealing with sick kids in the middle of the week, then I got sick, and well, that's just how life goes. I thought my voice would be better this week but here we are on Friday before this airs on Monday and it is still gone. So why not use it to my advantage and record an episode about the Anxiety I feel while being sick. Take a listen as I go through all my emotions and overthinking every time I get sick. From thinking I am going to be okay to thinking I'm going to die in 3.5 seconds.

How many times have you had to tell your Anxiety to "shut up?" How many times have you noticed that your Anxiety really just loves to appear at the worst possible time? As I am continuing on this healing journey, I have learned many ways that my Anxiety lies to me. Telling me that I'm dumb, telling me that I don't deserve to be here, telling me that I am a waste of space. YOUR ANXIETY IS LYING TO YOU. Take a listen as I talk about the most recent revelation I have had when it comes to unpacking more trauma and realizing where my Social Anxiety stems from.

I'm 7 months into having 2 kids so CLEARLY, I'm an expert on how to handle 2 right? LOL. NOT. I was always a little anxious about how I would manage my time between two kids, how I would be able to work around both of their schedules, how I was suppose to find time for "me," and how was I suppose to find time for my Husband. All valid anxieties I feel like and all valid concerns any mom about to have a second baby would have. Take  a listen as I talk about my Anxiety while pregnant of going from 1 kid to 2 kids and how that  Anxiety changed once the baby actually arrived.

The moment of truth. I have been contemplating this "big announcement" for a few weeks now. I have been scared to make the jump because I was afraid of what that would mean for my Podcast and its success thus far. But, I've come to realize, in order for me to continue this healing journey, this is a necessary step to take. No more distractions, time to focus on only me. Take a listen as I finally announce what my "big announcement" is and how I came to terms with my decision. --- This episode is sponsored by · Anchor: The easiest way to make a podcast. https://anchor.fm/app

I am turning 32. I feel that every birthday you celebrate when you're in a good place mentally should be a big milestone. I never really saw myself getting to live this far because of how bad my depression had been from time to time. I decided to make an episode on 32 life lessons I have realistically learned in the last 2 years while healing. Take a listen as I talk about what I've learned as I am days away from turning 32. --- This episode is sponsored by · Anchor: The easiest way to make a podcast. https://anchor.fm/app

Why do we have so much junk? No but like seriously? Why do we buy so much stuff, so much repetitive stuff, so much unnecessary stuff? I have decided to get rid of all of our stuff. Like seriously. I have been decluttering every corner because seeing so much stuff gives me Anxiety & I am over it. Take a listen as I talk about my decluttering my house adventure, what I'm decluttering, and what it's doing for my Anxiety so far. --- This episode is sponsored by · Anchor: The easiest way to make a podcast. https://anchor.fm/app

Postpartum, what a tricky time & I time where so many changes happen. For me, it was recovering from a major surgery, taking care of a newborn, & a preschooler too. It was trying to navigate giving myself enough recovery time, while managing two kids, & not letting my Anxiety get the best of me. Take a listen as I talk about my feelings and emotions during my 4th trimester. I recorded all these episodes in time to have the raw and vulnerable emotions that come with Pregnancy & Postpartum. --- This episode is sponsored by · Anchor: The easiest way to make a podcast. https://anchor.fm/app

I have decided that it's time to finally tackle my Social Anxiety. There are 4 goals I have set out for myself that I feel would be the ultimate proof that I am learning the self confidence I lack. It's scary, but I also know that if I don't expose myself, it won't ever get better. So here it is, my first Social Anxiety Challenge. Take a listen as I talk about my first challenge I am giving myself and what I plan to do to help me overcome one of the biggest things that gives me Anxiety. --- This episode is sponsored by · Anchor: The easiest way to make a podcast. https://anchor.fm/app

It's crazy to think where I was at the beginning of this journey to where I am now. Looking back, I honestly can't remember ever feeling the way that I used to because I am truly in a place of pure bliss right now.  There were moments in my Healing Journey that I thought, "Is this even worth it?," "Why am I doing this to myself?," "What's going to come out of this?" And let me tell you, it has 100% all been worth it now that I am closer to the finish line. Take a listen as I talk about a huge realization I had on my healing journey that has finally brought me to a place of Peace.  --- This episode is sponsored by · Anchor: The easiest way to make a podcast. https://anchor.fm/app Support this podcast: https://anchor.fm/motheringanxietypodcast/support

Do you ever do things subconsciously and have only just figured out that you do things due to you having Anxiety? Because same. I never realized that whenever I am starting to feel "pre-anxious" I tend to do certain things to start to regulate my Anxiety. Crazy right? Take a listen as I talk about Things I Do That Are Anxiety that I never even realized I did until my husband and some friends started to point out the noticed me doing whenever they could tell I would be put in an anxious situation. --- This episode is sponsored by · Anchor: The easiest way to make a podcast. https://anchor.fm/app Support this podcast: https://anchor.fm/motheringanxietypodcast/support

Dealing with Anxiety, being pregnant with your second child, the thought of delivery can be very Anxiety inducing. I was scared that I would go into labor early, I was scared that I would have a panic attack while waiting for my second C section date to arrive, I had every thought you could possibly imagine leading into my delivery date. Fast forward and life had its own plans and at that point, I had no choice but to go with the flow. Take a listen as I talk about my birth story with my second child and how I managed to deal with my Anxiety during this very Anxiety inducing time. --- This episode is sponsored by · Anchor: The easiest way to make a podcast. https://anchor.fm/app Support this podcast: https://anchor.fm/motheringanxietypodcast/support

Empathy is a GREAT thing. Being able to feel other people's feeling, being able to relate to people, and being able to listen to people is a great thing. But, as I have learned, it can also be very exhausting. It has been me learning how to balance other people and my own feelings in order to be able to give those who seek my empathy but also not allow it to drain myself. Take a listen as I talk about the hardships but also the rewards that come with being an Empath. --- This episode is sponsored by · Anchor: The easiest way to make a podcast. https://anchor.fm/app Support this podcast: https://anchor.fm/motheringanxietypodcast/support

We are officially on that final home stretch before baby arrives. I recorded this episode during the time of my pregnancy and it will be airing months after it actually happens. I wanted to document my pregnancy in time while thoughts and feelings were fresh and I didn't have to go back and recollect. This entire pregnancy has been so different than my first and I truly believe it is because of the work I have put in and this incredible healing journey I have embarked on. Take a listen as I talk about how I was feeling in my third trimester with my daughter and now during my second pregnancy after doing some work on myself. --- This episode is sponsored by · Anchor: The easiest way to make a podcast. https://anchor.fm/app Support this podcast: https://anchor.fm/motheringanxietypodcast/support

It's that time of the year again. Where we set goals for ourselves and we try to hold ourselves accountable to complete them by the end of the year. And you might be thinking, "Mireya, didn't you end your Podcast last year saying you didn't accomplish any of your resolutions yet here you are making more?" Why, yes, yes I am. Thanks for noticing. Take a listen as I talk about the 4 goals I have set out for myself to accomplish this year. Goals that I truly believe are 100% attainable but also 100% something that will benefit ME and only ME in the end. --- This episode is sponsored by · Anchor: The easiest way to make a podcast. https://anchor.fm/app Support this podcast: https://anchor.fm/motheringanxietypodcast/support