Pay It Forward Radio

My first episode back in a while. I talk about traveling, neurodivergency, relationships, economics, idk it was a lot lol. Hosted on Acast. See acast.com/privacy for more information.

Because confession is one of the most powerful things a person can do.I realized at 2 A.M. that i didn't want to let go of my dad.That i didnt want to let go of my ex(es)That i didn't want to let go of my mentorThat i simply was gonna get my debt paid, one way or another..And just like that, when i said it, something changed for the better. IF hthis is you, I see you. I hear you. And i love you. Hosted on Acast. See acast.com/privacy for more information.

Because debt sucks, and I want out, and sometimes life is better without people owing you.The words i used in the Podcast:"____, you owe me a debt. you did _____ to me, and it made me feel ______. you hurt me, and you owe me, and today i forgive you. I am charging off your account. I will not pursue you or anyone else like you over this debt anymore. I am giving your debt to God now, and the next time i see you, i will speak to you as if you never owed me any debt anymore." Hosted on Acast. See acast.com/privacy for more information.

What's good gang. was up and had some experiences about perfectionism, wanted to share them. Hosted on Acast. See acast.com/privacy for more information.

Thanks for being patient. Hosted on Acast. See acast.com/privacy for more information.

This is someone i've been wanting to talk to for a while. There's a lot i could say about Tiffany Toney: writer, director, actress, singer, former athlete, but those things don't matter nearly as much as her being REAL. I couldn't have asked for a realer time with a realer person. Thanks for holding me accountable and being your truest self.I appreciate you a lot. Go watch BORA the movie (not for the kids) on Tubi, Amazon PrimeFollow Tiffany Toney @Tiffany_Toney Follow BORA the Movie at @Borathemovie Hosted on Acast. See acast.com/privacy for more information.

This was a hot-off-the-press revelation about how my expectations have kept me from being vulnerable, and how they (and the ones of others) stop people from showing up and being who they truly are.This was done on live so i was also responding to comments.Thanks for always listening yall. Hosted on Acast. See acast.com/privacy for more information.

I decided to try something new, and simulcast this on Instagram Live as well as this recording.this was a real fun time. felt really transparent and like my truest self. thank yall for pulling up. Hosted on Acast. See acast.com/privacy for more information.

(There were some issues with the audio on this one, so please forgive the absence of the intro and outro)I've been excited, anxious, and happy to have this interview. I think yall will like this too. He put words to things ive been trying to understand for years, and what it means for another black man to see a black man doing the work himself, it really touched my heart. Thanks for being you David.His Podcast: The Authentic Man PodcastHis instagram: @theauthenticman_ Hosted on Acast. See acast.com/privacy for more information.

Because (we) you are. Hosted on Acast. See acast.com/privacy for more information.

(Not quite a Short, but a shorter episode then I normally do) For anyone who's listening: Just one thing for yourself at a time is enough.I see you. Hosted on Acast. See acast.com/privacy for more information.

Was inspired by Jedi Survivor, really got me thinking about what it means to love myself. Hosted on Acast. See acast.com/privacy for more information.

I can receive someone's love or reject someone's love, either of the two is acceptance. the only way i don't accept is if i do neither. Something that came to mind while i was doing this episode, and what it means to really connect. Hosted on Acast. See acast.com/privacy for more information.

I've been controlling the perceptions of others about me for a long time. And everybody else around me pays the price when i do that.Ive been doing it because i feel scared.This is me showing up.This is me accepting me. Hosted on Acast. See acast.com/privacy for more information.

Some more growing pains and some more showing up for me. Hosted on Acast. See acast.com/privacy for more information.

I've been thinking about driving lately, never got my license. It kind of also showed me how i have places i dont know how to show up for myself in my life. just some life experience and some growth moments for me.If you love it, pay it forward to somebody else Hosted on Acast. See acast.com/privacy for more information.

Because I had a meltdown. Hosted on Acast. See acast.com/privacy for more information.

Me, im the who else. Hosted on Acast. See acast.com/privacy for more information.

On this guest segment, I interview Daniel Kelly, the Founder of the Real Prayer Movement and Your Daily Podcast. i've never talked to him about what his personal struggles and experiences have been like. so today we are gonna dive deep and be real about it.Thanks for giving yourself to the world bro.Instagram/Social Media: @therealprayermovement Hosted on Acast. See acast.com/privacy for more information.

Had some experiences that helped me realize i need help letting go of my idea of control. Hosted on Acast. See acast.com/privacy for more information.

One of my uncles died, and i got to doom scrolling on instagram. This is my way of embracing where i am, who i am, and who i am becoming, and leading from the front.Bible Story that i mentioned: Joshua 1 Hosted on Acast. See acast.com/privacy for more information.

Was inspired by a quote about parenting, and it caused me to think about my journey through life to this point and what it means for my future children.Here it is. Hosted on Acast. See acast.com/privacy for more information.

First episode back on the new season of Pay It Forward, honoring my word that i gave a long time ago.I promised guest segments, and now is the time for them.Had an awesome conversation/interview with Dennis Morolda of Building Men Podcast. He does the work with teens. he's the type of mentor i wish i had as a teenager.To check out his work, look up Building Men Podcast on all podcasting sites, or @building.men on instagram.Poems Mentioned in the Interview:If, by Rudyard KiplingThe Bridge Builder, by Will Allen Dromgoolethe Man in the Glass, unknown authorThank you for all that you do Dennis. Hosted on Acast. See acast.com/privacy for more information.

My Journey on being deliberate, grieving, True Masculinity, and my first upcoming Guest segment in 2 weeks.Qigong beginner Exercises - https://youtu.be/-5KhQ4znaWI Hosted on Acast. See acast.com/privacy for more information.

Was really moved by a sudden death by suicide i heard of a brother who worked on the Ellen show, and it just struck me again how much men need healthy community. how much I need it. Hosted on Acast. See acast.com/privacy for more information.

Was thinking about thanksgiving dinner, and how i feel about it, and it kind of occured to me that a lot of friendships and relationships are like that too. Hosted on Acast. See acast.com/privacy for more information.

Had an experience at a friendsgiving, learned some cool new stuff. paying it forward as usual. love yall Hosted on Acast. See acast.com/privacy for more information.

Because i still feel like im not enough and it makes sense to talk about it. R.I.P Takeoff of the Migos. Hosted on Acast. See acast.com/privacy for more information.

My Thoughts on Love is Blind, Season 3, and what the word Love actually means. Hosted on Acast. See acast.com/privacy for more information.

Because today, im making my talents my friend. Hosted on Acast. See acast.com/privacy for more information.

Just my thoughts about Loyalty and Faithfulness as a early 30 year old, vs how i felt when i was younger. Hosted on Acast. See acast.com/privacy for more information.

Inspired by a podcast one of my sisters and friends sent me. step by step making my feelings my friends, so my body doesnt have to keep the score. Hosted on Acast. See acast.com/privacy for more information.

Trigger Warning: A few curse words.There is a difference between what you have to do, and what you do because you want to and because you can.This is what im learning right now . Hosted on Acast. See acast.com/privacy for more information.

I had a conversation with a mentor, and it taught me that i need not fear my talents but take responsibility.So this is me taking responsiblity. Hosted on Acast. See acast.com/privacy for more information.

The Ray Charles movie inspired me to talk about my own experiences and growth with vices, and the inspiration came from the quote from "Ray Charles's mother" , and the issues that go beyond the vices themselves. Disclaimer: this quote is not designed to attack, offend, or harm any that are in the disabled community. Our GDPR privacy policy was updated on August 8, 2022. Visit acast.com/privacy for more information.

New Intro, New Healing, New Short.Thank you guys for always showing up with me. Mentions of Abuse, Slavery etc (trigger warnings) Our GDPR privacy policy was updated on August 8, 2022. Visit acast.com/privacy for more information.

I let go some today. See acast.com/privacy for privacy and opt-out information.

On this one, I grieve.(Mentions of Addiction, Porn, Warning) See acast.com/privacy for privacy and opt-out information.

Been learning about Cognitive Dissonance and this is what ive learned so far.Love you guys. See acast.com/privacy for privacy and opt-out information.

A Short on grieving the end of a friendship in life because of a difference in personal values.A short on forgiveness and what that means now to me. See acast.com/privacy for privacy and opt-out information.

A New Series of Short Content. When someone says something that inspires me, im gonna share about it on here.Brene Brown Inspired Me to be Vulnerable See acast.com/privacy for privacy and opt-out information.

I Talk about failing successfully.I talk about my experiences with porn.I talk about parents being kids.I talk about being one too.I talk about my struggles with my own identity.I talk about not knowing how to fail successfully.I talk about learning how. See acast.com/privacy for privacy and opt-out information.

Entering into 2022 with a lot of musings about transparency, shame, being real, God, and what that all means to me. Title Quote inspired by Bryan Reeves' Book (Choose Her Everyday or Leave Her)Love yall, glad to be back.My Spiritual Community: realprayermovement.orgSupport the show (http://cashapp.com/bwade061490) See acast.com/privacy for privacy and opt-out information.

This was inspired by a conversation I had with a brother, and taking a look at the new success in my life, and how deeply unprepared I feel for it, and by a mentor and friend's passage out of his book, Choose Her Everyday (Or Leave Her).Men need consistent, trustworthy praise from other, wiser men. this is a void that can't be filled by anything, and when it isn't filled, we get what we have currently going on in the world; pain and loss.This is my contribution to getting community back.Follow Bryan @bryanreevesinsightLook up Elevate 2022 also @BryanreevesinsightSupport the show (http://cashapp.com/bwade061490)

Warning: a few swears. Recorded this live to an audience on a Discord community I participate in, was inspired by @hotdamnirock and his journey of authenticity. I talk about the deep pain of being let down by older mentors, work and healing from newer people I have met, and the need for integrity and being real.Im back yall.  Link to Zu's Tribe Discord: https://discord.gg/JKr3DRGFMy Prayer Community: realprayermovement.orgSupport the show (http://cashapp.com/bwade061490)

My Experience with Bryan Reeves of Bryan Reeves Insight at Elevate 2021. it was a whole week of firsts. There will be a part 2 of this where i interview him on his experience with this.Look forward to the Video Podcast soon to come.Follow Bryan @bryanreevesinsightSupport the show (http://cashapp.com/bwade061490)

SO this one went in a direction that i didn't quite plan. midway through i pivoted, and started talking about what was really on my heart - the value of keeping promises to me and what that means.There are a lot of christian allusions so for anyone that this may not be your cup of tea i feel you. Thanks for walking with me on my journey yall. Support the show (http://cashapp.com/bwade061490)

Normally i just share experiences that others may relate to. I want connection and the only way i can truly get it is to be honest with myself. this was a really uncomfortable story to tell, but it's mine. Support the show (http://cashapp.com/bwade061490)

had a convo with a friend that sparked this conversation. really just exploring what it means for me to be a man and what masculinity actually means in this world. People that i look to that have mentored me directly or indirectly, emotionally or spiritually, thank you guys so much.Bryan Reeves @BryanreevesinsightSteve Wood @itsstevewoodSilvy Khoucasian @silvykhoucasianNzinga Moore @iamnzingamooreMunday Smith @smithmundayMy Spiritual Community: @therealprayermovementSupport the show (http://cashapp.com/bwade061490)

Reconnecting with myself has been a struggle, especially as i've had some new experiences that have been cool. One thing that's been healing to me is to keep small promises to myself,. this is one of them.My Spiritual Community: http://realprayermovement.orgSupport the show (http://cashapp.com/bwade061490)

To kick off Season 4: A Recap of my journey so far with Pay It Forward - where it is now, and where it's going next, and the latest thing ive been working on: silencing the external voices and listening to the still, small voice. Shoutouts to:Steve Wood @itsstevewoodNzinga Moore @iamnzingamooreChristina Barsi @thebarsiSonn Eidem @twostepsaheadpodcastBryan Reeves @bryanreevesinsightOur friends help us find the way home.My Spiritual Community: realprayermovement.orgSupport the show (http://cashapp.com/bwade061490)