Why Do I Feel This Way?

Why Do I Feel This Way?

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Kate DeAraugo was crowned Australian Idol champion in 2005... but not all fairytales have happy endings and Kate’s life quickly spiralled out of control. In 2017, Kate was convicted of drug possession, drug driving and weapons possession. Six years later, Kate is sober, happily married and with a new baby – so she's decided to turn her difficult experiences into a podcast where she can talk about her life in the hope of giving hope and offering a safe space for other to acknowledge their own hardships.

Kate DeAraugo


    • May 13, 2025 LATEST EPISODE
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    • 45m AVG DURATION
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    Dating after a long-term relationship

    Play Episode Listen Later May 13, 2025 30:25


    Claudia has officially entered the dating jungle... and what a wild place it is out there.In this episode we catch up on the last 4 weeks, including dates, babies and therapy!Trigger Warning: This episode contains themes of addiction and domestic violence. If you, or anyone that you know is stuggling, please call Lifeline now on 13 11 14.

    I quit, but I'm not an addict

    Play Episode Listen Later May 5, 2025 41:36


    In this weeks ep we breakdown the difference between identifying as an addict and acknowledging behaviour that no longer serves you.We're joined by media powerhouse Sangeeta Kocharekar who, after causing a scene at her friends wedding, decided to quit alcohol for good. And while she has no plans to drink anytime soon, Sangeeta doesn't identify as an addict, rather someone who likes herself better when she's sober.Sangeeta - Insta: @sangeetatatiana / TikTok: @sangeetatatiana

    Living With An Invisible Illness

    Play Episode Listen Later Apr 29, 2025 43:41


    This week we're joined by Lili Higgins.On the outside Lil looks like she has everything - successful career, an incredible family, a beautiful smile and a strong social media following... but no one sees Lili's daily struggle. This isn't a story of tragedy, rather a story of maintaining hope and positivity through adversity.In this episode we break down what life looks like for someone struggling with a chronic illness, how to find healing through the pain and how we (as a society) can do better do support those struggling.Lili Higgins: @lilihigginss (insta) and @lilihiggins (TikTok)

    Grief, Let's Talk About It

    Play Episode Listen Later Apr 14, 2025 35:16


    This week we reflect on grief.The grief that comes when you lose a loved one, grief of a life you envisioned for yourself that never came to fruition and grief of a relationship that came to an end.What does grief look like for you? What are some tools that can help? And what does life look like on the other side?Trigger Warning: This episode contains themes of addicition, grief and eating disorders. If you, or anyone that you know is struggling, please call Lifeline now on 13 11 14.

    Intervention Specialist, Belinda Walsh

    Play Episode Listen Later Apr 7, 2025 47:17


    Today we're joined by Intervention Specialist and Founder of Sober Living Rehab, Belinda Walsh.With almost 4o years of experience, Belinda unpacks the power of intervention, including best practices as well as the biggest mistakes people make when planning an intervention.Belinda Walsh: belinda@soberliving.com.auSober Living Website: https://soberlivingrehab.com.au/Trigger Warning: This episode contains themes of suicide and addiction. If you, or anyone that you know is struggling, please call Lifeline now on 13 11 14.

    Late Diagnosis with Keeshia Pettit

    Play Episode Listen Later Mar 31, 2025 59:46


    Keeisha Pettit is the Executive Producer of some of Australia's biggest podcast such as Life Uncut, Two Doting Dads and Not An Overnight Success. She's also recently stepped out and started her own podcast, Cloud, where she unpacks all things ADHD and late age diagnosis.eurodiversity

    "I can do hard things"

    Play Episode Listen Later Mar 17, 2025 35:14


    From livin' la vida loca to facing our fears head on - this month's catch up is a wild one.Also, we want to hear from you! If you've intentionally faced your fears and lived to tell the tale, send us a DM and let us know about it - we promise to keep you anonymous.Trigger Warning: This episode contains themes of addiction and eating disorders. If you, or anyone that you know is struggling, please call Lifeline now on 13 11 14.

    Lockie Welch

    Play Episode Listen Later Mar 10, 2025 38:40


    You'll know him as the positive man who spreads love and joy on Instagram and TikTok, but Lockie Welch is so much more than his beautiful reels.In this episode we shine a light on mens mental health and the ways in which we can address, support and love those struggling.Trigger Warning: This episode contains themes of addicition and suicide. If you, or anyone that you know is struggling, please call Lifeline now on 13 11 14.

    Kate's Big Decision

    Play Episode Listen Later Mar 3, 2025 28:28


    In this episode Kate details a big decision she's made around breastfeeding and what's led her to this outcome.We also unpack the MAFs incident that unfolded last week and the way it was handled within the bounds of reality tv.Trigger Warning: This episode contains themes of eating disorders and domestic violence. If you, or anything that you know is struggling, please call Lifeline now on 13 11 14.

    Havening with Elle McBride

    Play Episode Listen Later Feb 24, 2025 44:41


    Four years ago Justin Bieber made headlines when he was filmed 'havening' himself on the set of his music video for Yummy. It got the world talking - what is havening? does it actually work? and how do you know you're doing it right?Today on the pod we're joined by Psychosensory Therapist Elle McBride who breaks it all down for us. Not only that, Elle provides a step-by-step guide on how to practice havening on yourself.

    The Nude Nutritionist

    Play Episode Listen Later Feb 17, 2025 61:37


    Today we're joined by the one and only Nude Nutritionist, Lyndi Cohen.Lyndi is an Aussie dietitian, author and podcaster who specialises in helping people stop emotional and binge eating. In this chat we unpack what it means to practice 'intuitive eating', how to identify when you're using food to self soothe and the ways in which Lyndi was able to overcome her own disordered eating.Trigger Warning: This episode contains themes of addiction and eating disorders. If you, or anyone that you know is struggling, please call Lifeline now on 13 11 14.

    "My therapist is proud of me"

    Play Episode Listen Later Feb 10, 2025 34:06


    Kate's had a baby and Claudia's therapist is proud of her - there's a lot to unpack here.Strap in as we give you an update on the last 4 weeks and the massive life changes that have happened in a very small amount of time.Tigger Warning: This episode contains themes of addiction and eating disorders. If you, or anyone that you know is struggling, please call Lifeline now on 13 11 14.

    Healing From Toxic Relationships

    Play Episode Listen Later Feb 4, 2025 42:42


    Today we're joined by Life Coach and host of the Unfiltered Experience podcast , Louisa Josem. Having survived toxic relationships in the past, Louisa has made it her life goal to educate herself and others on the warning signs, the dangers and the ways out of an abusive environment. Trigger warning: This episode contains themes of domestic violence. If you, or anyone that you know is struggling, please call Lifeline now on 13 11 14.

    How Danni Carr Quit Alcohol

    Play Episode Listen Later Jan 27, 2025 53:54


    Danni Carr is a podcaster, sober coach, meditation breath work teacher and author (amongst other things). In this episode we discuss Danni's journey to quitting alcohol, how her relationship with the rock'n'roll muso scene changed and how to know if it's the right path for you. Trigger warning: This episode contains themes of addiction and eating disorders. If you, or anyone that you know is struggling, please call Lifeline now on 13 11 14.

    We Have A Lot To Catch Up On

    Play Episode Listen Later Jan 20, 2025 34:25


    We both had very eventful (and VERY different) Chrissie / NYE breaks. In this ep we unpack navigating family dynamics during the busy period, being an extroverted introvert and where we're both at in therapy. We also chat about the future of the pod and some exciting guests we have lined up! Trigger Warning: This episode contains themes of addiction and eating disorders. If you, or anyone that you know is struggling, please call Lifeline now on 13 11 14.

    The year that was

    Play Episode Listen Later Dec 23, 2024 23:23


    In this episode we take a look back at the year that was.  Both finishing 2024 very differently to how we started it, we reflect on the trials, tribulations and joys of the last 12 months.  And the exciting things to come…

    Diane Young (Psychotherapist)

    Play Episode Listen Later Dec 16, 2024 60:48


    Today we're joined by psychotherapist Diane Young. Specialising in trauma and addiction, Diane has seen and worked through it all. In this episode we chat about the many roads to recovery, how to find the right therapy for you and when you know its time to ask for help. Trigger warning: This episode contains themes of addiction and sexual abuse. If you, or anyone you know is struggling, please call Lifeline now on 13 11 14.

    Heartled Warriors with Dane Muller

    Play Episode Listen Later Dec 9, 2024 52:41


    Today we're joined by the Founder & Director of Heartled Warriors - Dane Muller. Having battled his own fight with mental health, Dane now leads men, women, couples and youths through retreats with the focus on 'returning home to yourself'. Dane's story is powerful and one that we couldn't wait to share with you. Instagram: @heartled_warriors Website: https://www.heartledwarriors.com.au/ Trigger Warning: This episode contains themes of suicide and self-harm. If you, or anyone that you know is struggling, please call Lifeline now on 13 11 14

    Spiritual Warfare with Nikki Dellar

    Play Episode Listen Later Dec 2, 2024 66:51


    From New Age rituals to psych wards to 'demonic attacks' to church on Sundays... fair to say Nikki has lived 1,000 lives in her short 33 years on Earth. In today's chat Nikki unpacks the path that led to her hospitalisation and how she radically turned her life around at the age of 30. Trigger warning: This episode contains themes of suicide and self-harm. If you, or anyone that you know is struggling, please call Lifeline now on 13 11 14.

    Sex Talk with AJ Paps

    Play Episode Listen Later Nov 25, 2024 48:49


    Today we're joined by sex shop owner, entrepreneur and TikTok sensation AJ Papas. AJ is known for his non-nonsense, tough-love relationship and sex advice and he treats this episode no different. From re-creating old school romance to spicing things up in the bedroom, this conversation has it all. TikTok: @ajpapadatos

    Jonathon 'JMo' Moran

    Play Episode Listen Later Nov 18, 2024 51:07


    Jonathon Moran has been synonymous with Aussie media for over 25 years. If you've ever read the paper, listened to radio or been to really any event in Sydney - you would have heard about JMo. In this episode, JMo gives us a peak behind the glitz and glamour of being an entertainment reporter, and just how deceiving 'keeping up appearances' can be. WIRES: 1300 094 737 or www.wires.org.au Trigger Warning: This episode contains themes of addiction and suicide. If you, or anyone that you know is struggling, please call Lifeline now on 13 11 14.

    The Governor

    Play Episode Listen Later Nov 11, 2024 79:46


    Today we're joined by former Operations Manager of Corrections Victoria, Roz aka The Governor. Having worked with both men's and women's prisons for 27 years, Roz has seen and heard it all. In this episode we talk about justice verse rehabilitation, the human side of being part of 'the force' and what it meant to be the first female Governor.

    Nick Bowditch

    Play Episode Listen Later Nov 4, 2024 69:39


    Today we're joined by Nick Bowditch - author, psychotherapist, motivational speaker, TedX presenter, entrepreneur, podcast host and PhD student (clinical psychology). .... he also happens to be in recovery. Nick unpacks his journey through meeting Kate in rehab back in 2016 to speaking to crowds of thousands while experiencing intense social anxiety and now to running his own clinic. Instagram: @nickbowditch Trigger warning: This episode contains themes of addiction, suicide and eating disorders. If you, or anyone that you know is struggling, please call Lifeline now on 13 11 14.

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    Sex Addiction

    Play Episode Listen Later Oct 21, 2024 54:19


    Today we're joined by Kate's friend Travis. From a wealthy family, raised in an affluent area, Travis seemingly 'had it all' growing up. For 28 years, Travis lived a heteronormative life and found himself unable to remain monogamous for any long period of time. Cut to a rehab in Thailand - Travis realised what he'd been running from and was diagnosed with 'sex addiction'. In this episode, Travis unpacks what it means to be a sex addict, including the societal stigma and what it looks like to enter recovery. Trigger warning: This episode contains themes of addiction, eating disorders and abuse. If you, or anyone that you know is struggling, please call Lifeline now on 13 11 14. Please note: This episode also contains the mention of 'plant medicine' - please consult a professional to establish if this is the right therapy for you.

    October Catch Up

    Play Episode Listen Later Oct 14, 2024 31:41


    We have some updates. One of us is heading into her third trimester, the other finally got her mental health plan. Join us as we unpack what's been going on in our worlds this month. Trigger Warning: This episode contains themes of addiction and eating disorders. If you or anyone that you know is struggling, call Lifeline now on 13 11 14.

    Steph Easton

    Play Episode Listen Later Oct 7, 2024 48:23


    Today we're joined by founder of Your Recovery House, Steph Easton. Having her own experience with disordered eating and addiction, Steph created the holistic rehab to treat the 'root cause of behavioural issues' and help people who have walked a similar path. In this episode, Steph gives a very raw and honest insight into how addiction ruled her life for many years and most importantly - how she found a way out. You Recovery House: https://www.addictionrehab.com.au Instagram: @yourrecoveryhouse Trigger Warning: This episode contains themes of addiction, eating disorders, sexual assault and domestic violence. If you or anyone that you know is struggling, please call Lifeline now on 13 11 14.

    Paul Field

    Play Episode Listen Later Sep 30, 2024 68:09


    Paul Field is Australian music royalty - known as one of the founding members of the Cockroaches and The Field Brothers, not to mention the Managing Director of the Wiggles for over 20 years. Over 35 years ago, when Paul was making it big in the Aussie music scene, he was faced with the unimaginable pain of losing his baby girl, Bernadette. In this episode Paul talks through navigating grief, finding strength in his marriage and keeping Bernadette's memory alive. Red Nose Day: Find out more about the cause and how you can get involved here - https://www.rednoseday.org.au Trigger Warning: In this episode we discuss Sudden Infant Death Syndrome. If you, or anyone that you know is struggling with grief please call Lifeline now on 13 11 14.

    Jaz Flowers

    Play Episode Listen Later Sep 23, 2024 51:27


    In today's episode we're joined by TikTok sensation Jaz Flowers (364k+ followers & over 12.6 million likes).  From the outside it looks like Jaz has everything - the media career, the supportive husband and thousands of online fans who were glued to her every move. But when Jaz went through childbirth, everything changed. Jaz speaks candidly about her experience being pregnant, her traumatic child birth and how she's managed to navigate adversity in front of millions of people. Trigger Warning: In this episode we discuss mental health challenges. If you or anyone you know is struggling please call Lifeline now on 13 11 14. Your Recovery House: www.addictionrehab.com.au or call 0461 277 785 Jaz Flowers TikTok: @JazFlowers13

    Osher Gunsberg

    Play Episode Listen Later Sep 16, 2024 77:41


    Known for hosting Australian Idol, The Bachelor, The Bachelorette, Bachelor In Paradise and The Masked Singer, Osher has well and truly established himself as Aussie TV royalty. Originally known as 'Andrew G', he changed his name to Osher - Hebrew for 'happiness' - at the age of 38. Today, we find out the 'why' and how this change has affected his life, relationships and career ever since. Trigger Warning: This episode contains themes of addiction. If you or anyone that you know, needs help, please call Lifeline now on 13 11 14.

    Dr Cara Crossan

    Play Episode Listen Later Sep 9, 2024 39:05


    Today we're joined by Dr Cara Crossan - Clinical Psychotherapist and Specialist in Addiction. With over 13 years experience working with individuals and families affected by addictions, Cara will unpack what it means to be an addict and how to make sure you get the right help. She also happens to be one of the therapist that helped Kate during her recovery. Trigger Warning: This episode contains themes of addiction and eating disorders. If you, or anyone you know needs help, please call Lifeline now on 13 11 14.

    Let's Catch Up

    Play Episode Listen Later Sep 2, 2024 10:39


    It's been almost a year since Season 1 and a lot has changed in both our worlds. So we're kicking Season 2 off with a bit of a catch up! Thanks for joining us, we're really glad you're here. Trigger Warning: This podcast contains themes of addiction and eating disorders. If you or anyone you know needs help, call Lifeline now on 13 11 14.

    The Loved Ones

    Play Episode Listen Later Dec 4, 2023 53:36


    We've heard Kate's story from Kate herself, but addiction often effects more than just the addict. In this episode, we talk to Alex & Eliza - Kate's younger siblings. We unpack everything from the moment they knew Kate was in trouble, to witnessing their parents heartbreak & how they all began to rebuild once she was sober.

    The Rebuild

    Play Episode Listen Later Nov 27, 2023 36:38


    From the depths of addiction to a happy home with a beautiful baby boy, Kate details the steps she took in order to create a life that she loves.

    Rehab

    Play Episode Listen Later Nov 20, 2023 44:46


    Kate steps into rehab (again) but this time it sticks. In this episode, Kate describes the moment she knew this rehab experience would be different & how she began to rebuild her life. ALCOHOL & DRUG INFORMATION SERVICE: 1800 250 015 THE NATIONAL SEXUAL ASSAULT, FAMILY & DOMESTIC VIOLENCE COUNSELLING LINE: 1800 737 732  LIFELINE: 13 11 14 

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    After The Show

    Play Episode Listen Later Nov 13, 2023 39:04


    In this episode Kate reveals the depths of her addiction... and nothing is off limits. We learn what her ‘rock bottom' was, the effects of being in a toxic relationship & the lengths her family went to try and save her. Mentions: Family Drug Support Australia - 1300 368 186

    Australian Idol

    Play Episode Listen Later Nov 6, 2023 44:47


    In this episode we talk about Kate's experience with Australian Idol, THAT comment made by Kyle Sandilands & what happened once the cameras stopped rolling.

    The Very Beginning

    Play Episode Listen Later Oct 27, 2023 42:13


    In order to understand Kate's full story, we need to take it back to the very beginning. In this episode we talk about Kate's upbringing, her school life & the start of her journey with Australian Idol. 

    The Trailer

    Play Episode Listen Later Oct 25, 2023 0:22


    TW: Themes of addiction and domestic violence. 6 years ago, I'd been charged with possession of ice & weapons, I had a busted face from an abusive relationship, I'd lost absolutely everything & destroyed the hearts of everyone I loved. Let me tell you how I got there, but more importantly let me tell you how I got out. This is a story of addiction, recovery & so much more. I'm Kate DeAraugo and this is Why Do I Feel This Way. Thanks for joining me.

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